today i am very tired...lost my sleeping...
i slept at 2, wake at 6.
=.+
however, when i back to school, that was 8:45... i was the first student attend to class.
but alex take sick leave, we didnt take the morning class today!
that alex always take leaves...
then lunch with joey, and rachel ... well wel...
at the ethics lesson, i felt a sleep for an hour.
but today i got a nice presentation from class, thx.
anyway, i've post darling for 4 letters today.
perhaps he'll be fine sooooooooo soon... as soon as possible.
then joey and me go back tai po,
we go to body shop, i buy a stick protecteur, for lip care.
that contains vitamine e and spf 15...
joey-mom said she'd give me a honey one^^ also from body shop.
actually i love both, i love the smell of honey, and love the touch from the vitamine e one.
hee.
so sweet.
i wanna give him, benny, my darling a sweet kiss. haha...
coz i know him, he wont protect his lips... haha... except in need.
i miss him.... soooooooooo much.
last night i've e-mialed ince, apologized to him for my bad attittude last time.
no respnd yet.
and just now, got the e-mail from edwin, he asked me again...
i think that'd be the last time for him to ensure about me...
coz he'd sense about something, or someone did block him from me already.
hum... he kept trying for more than a whole year...
i dont want to waste his time anymore, anymore anymore...
plz.... perhaps....
he'd not spend the time on me anymore.
he does worth someone better than me for him.
if we have that fate, we'd been together already.
last time i tried, but it didnt work actually.
i was fail to try with my faith for him.
and i know who i concern most now is only him, benny.
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i wanna share something here...
November 5 Friday,
Marching Off The Map.
Life is what happens to us while we are making other plans.
Our lives are subject to detours and
corrections that we never expected or imagined.
That happened to Sarah and Abraham. God gave them marching orders without a map.
Thay need ONLY ENOUGH FAITH to begin the journey, and they headed out to unknown
territories and unimagined adventures.
God never told them He would turn them "every which way but loose" before fulfilling His
promise of a son who would become a great nation.
Make your plans. But write them on paper, not in concrete.
God and life have a way of intruding and leading you on a joruney that you might not have
anticipated in wildest dreams.-- Haddon Robinson.
A man's heart plans his way,
But the Lord directs His steps. -- Proverbs 16: 9
when i was reading it today morning,
i felt so touch... i dont know how the way it'll be..... but i trust in god.
thx, really thx.
"xiang ni" the song keep praying and playing.
>>November 5, 2004 at 12:46:54 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 3 日 星期三 【晴】
我真係好掛住佢我真係好掛住佢...我講真ga...
我唔喊,我唔要喊, 因為我知道佢會無事既.
知道嗎...
今天我睡得很遲...之後吃了 toast with straberry jam.
之後就陪 mama 看 dvd, 是 stairway to heaven, mama哭得厲害呢...
大概是太慘了. 我問她如果現實中有這麼慘的事情發生會怎樣...
我好想告訴她我不怎麼的哭是因為...我經歷著差不多的事情, 是我自己用心去量度出來的.
我自己也好難過, 為著發生在自己身上的總總事件, 我的心也好難過... 有時候都剩機會哭出來.
today waked at 12:30,
last night slept at around 11:45...
heehee... 12 hrs for sleeping.
i miss him much...
today after waked, i've done twice facial heehee.
of course have to shape up hair, do a bit base make up...
then i go out for lunch with shan in sha tin.
i went to MuJi to buy something for benny, but i got nothing.
hum... we walk around.
we have the KFC for lunch today, we chat a lot.... haha... nice nice...
there's like a cafe now. there're some soft sofas, hum... short ,small, round tables.
anyway, thx for shan,
we have a nice day today.
and we start planing for the christmas party.
i think benny's company being rushed now...
Nov starts....
dont know how's his company running now.
perhaps all going fine.
perhaps he'll get off from the hospital as soon as possible.
他是全中.
我的 吉祥 是全中 !
我現在才知道原來他是真的愛我的....
oh my.... i really really really miss him alot.
i want to be there right now, imediately plx........
>>November 2, 2004 at 12:33:58 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 1 日 星期一 【晴】
Last night, or yesterday, i was with joey and her sweden host family.
we were in mong kok.
then joey and me went to starbucks have some fun, soda and songs.
then we move back to sha tin to have dinner together, of course with joey's parents.
nice, very nice memorries for all of us.
then we went to joey's home....
then we sent them back to tsim sha tsui, the hotel...
i was home when 1:30 am.
today,
i went to school as normal.
then before lunch, we went to tsim sha tsui to meet them, coz today is their last day.
we went to hung hom together, have lunch there, hum... maxim, the fast food.
but i just buy the coffe at the starbucks and get some sweet for them.
joey always kidding with me.
there're 3 guys( teens) with a girl(teens).
Simon, Amaul(perhaps i didnt spell wrong),Petter and Lizza.
then... Amlau is 18, same as me.
joey says he's quite good looking and must be better than benny....so....
you know what happened..haha..
well, it's really really really nice to meet them, see them, talk with them, hug them......
haha..
i felt...i dont want to say goodbye to them.
her host mom and dad are very very nice to me also... well...
all is the christains.... we 'd see at somewhere place..haha..
we kept the e-mail@ for each others. let 's see when we'd see on line. hee..
hum... i brought the earings for myself, but Lizza like them... i just gave them to her.
and then that's why... today i went back mong kok afterschool today.
but me and joey are very very tired.
of course... she's much tired than me.
i tried so hard to get back that shop... i 've found , walked so long road, visited so many stores...
coz i was lost, i couldnt recognize where the shop lociated.... but finally i found that store.
but i couldnt get the same pair,...
i just could picked up one of them and mactch up with another one.
pity, but it's still very nice for me.
at least i could share my treasure with others.
well...
tomorrow i dont want to go anywhere except mcdonald's...
coz i want to start preparing for the coming exam( stat ).
i'm gonna miss them... i mean all of them from sweden.
i had really nice experience.
and on the way to home, i've called chris, coz i've listened to his voice message again...
haha... i didnt, never crossed out his messages. coz that 're all my special memorries,
which i treasured, and couldnt losse.
i wanna call him, he has his o'level right now i think...
so wanna give him some support. wanna see anything i could do for him.
he's always on my mind actually, as a really nice friend.. haha...
but maybe i've put the wrong number. well... let's try later.
i've wrote the letter to benny today at class.
i didnt write for few days already...
not coz i didnt miss him, i miss him quite much...
and.....nope... i was not that tired or busy for letter.
but just coz of.... dont wanna let the tears or sadness expanding on paper.
i would like to be.... hum,....just try to take it easy.
i miss him much.
when joey told me to try to go deeper with others, i rejected imediately , i said NO ;
i recognized that...
who 's inside my mind although he's not around.
she 's always kidding with me... then i say it seriously " why?"
haha... there's happened too much funny things.
they're all very lovely.
alright... i'm really realy tired now...
miss them,
and miss him, my darling.
>>November 2, 2004 at 12:18:17 PM GMT+8
2004 年 10 月 29 日 星期五 【晴】
Last night was the halloween.
i was outside to work.
i dont want to stay at home all the time... i dont want to have so long lisure time.
i've seen alot of funny faces.
haha...
when i back home, i take the coffe(my favourite, iced mocha) in starbucks with my ownself.
then... take bus to home.
hum.... tears down.
suddenly i've seen a sence, all the buildings fade out, in the dark night,
i just could see the ground in dark with lots of stars....
i'm alone sitting at the ground.
but the stars bring me to fly away, passing through the sea, very fast...
i've flight over the sea, moutins, but i cant see anyone.
the sea is so dark, but i could hear some sound...
i felt the wind, the light from stars...
and finnaly i've arrived a city.
but i become something that very light, like the cloud, the wind... it's invisible.
i was flowing....to somewhere.
flying towards a building.
to the... light..... from one of the window.
then i know that's the hospital which benny staying in.
my heart is so pain.
suddenly... i felt..... it's so fortunate for you if you can stay with someone who love you, or you love.
i d never thought that it's the greatest thing, gift if you can stay with your family, lovers....
i'd never felt like... there could be no chances for you to take care someone you love.
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
Hihi,
我真係好掛住佢我真係好掛住佢...我講真ga...
我的愛 孫燕姿
Last night, or yesterday, i was with joey and her sweden host family.
Someone who know