2005 年 6 月 13 日 星期一 【晴】

heehee...

i didnt go to school today.
i feel so tired le... and (coz of the stormache)
ok

today i stay at home, vent left home la...
goodgood.

chat with my darling lor =P
hum...
do my review, and eating haha.

terrance ate my donut!!!
the maple donut! it got the toffe topping...
i just want to eat again, but he ate it ...
eeeeee.........
aunts bring me the big celebration day,
mom ask me to buy the cake for them and terrance and uncle.
but i rather choose the donuts, coz i had cake with my friends already.
and aunt likes donuts too.

i buy 8 honey dip, and 4 other favours for my bithday,
coz dozen is cheaper than one by one.
but... i want to try the diff. favours. he help me to finish those 3.
at least he left me some, can?
hummmm =(
i dont like ppl being like that.
last time, i made orange in fridge, and ham.
then he ate them.
if i didnt make any, then he 'd never make for himself.
he didnt wash dishes for himself, just left them for the me or others.
why i ve to help him wash them first before i use... ='
i wanna share with him lor, and i like share.
i dont mind wash up, i dont mind to cook...
but... i dont ve the resopnsiblity to take care of him...
except i want to stay good with him.
as a older sister?
i'd never had any brothers or male except my dad living with me in my life.
i dont know how to deal with the male teens.
i stay well with my male friends in college in hk,
yea, we go camping, and i do my part to take care of their food
or cleaning the place. sometimes i cook or clean...
but... i just dont like this kind of... attitude or behaviors of him.
i'm not his gf or wife or mid or mom. i dont need to take care of him.

eeee...
tomorrow i will take out my 5 pics cookies.
i will keep them with me in stead of home.

thx for daddy's call !!!
=D!!!
haha daddy! i love you!

goodnight.

jesus, i'm so bad.
today i lied, i said i was so sick... actually i didnt want to come to school...
just coz i cannot concentrate or pay attention.
and i'm so selfish. i should take test with other students at the same time.
and i should share my cookies and donuts with terrance,
coz... i feel so happy for sharing actually, but i mind of it...
but i mind sharing with him...
=(
hum,.... i'll leave him one cookie...
and ... donuts.
i do want my aunt shares my donuts =)
and i hope my friends, my family, especially my darling could share my donuts.
i do hope to ve donuts and dark chocolate with my darling... heehee

thx for everyone concenring on me.
thx for darling ~
goodnight.

>>June 14, 2005 at 6:52:59 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 12 日 星期日 【晴】

hahahahaha!!!

THANKS FOR ALL OF MY FRIENDS!!!

haha, you know...
last night i hang out with my friends,
staphine, kiana, mishiko, dong eon, taku, john ho, se young, wu shi.
haha!!!
we went to red bobbin again!
and...
taku and dong eon went out to buy me a big chocolate cake!
then kiana, staphine and mishiko all bring me birthday present! hahaha!!
so surprise and touch!!!
UN FORGETTABLE!
and then in red robbin,
all of the waitress and waitors come to sing a song for me!
and i stand on the chair! haha crazy~~!
anyway, i had lotsss of fun lastnight.
before i left, i hug everyone, and i kiss mishiko haha!
really really give thanks to jesus =)

then ...
today we went to ve japanese food,
then we went to richmond center,
and back home, i study, then we go to tim hortons to buy lots of donuts, and cookies,
and went to then... bread garden to ve lemonade.
then aunt dabbie comes also!
and then we three i mean aunt prisclla, and dabbie with me go to richmond night martket!
hahaha! i ater alot of food there!
and the most surprise one is the ROTI PRATA!
Oh!!!
SO NICE!!!
and that's exactly the same from the singapore one!!!
i buy two !
wow!!! so impressive!
you know, i've tried the singaporane lasa in richmond.
but it's ...... worse...
coz last time i ate lasa in sg with chris and his gf, that was so great!
and today the curry sorse is really really nice as that one!
oh dear!!!
i miss singapore sooooooooo much!!!
next time i must go to eat that again, of course with my darling!

just now, got darling's mesg in msn...
hummmm finally vent chances to hear darling say happy birthday to me.
but i know what's wrong there, so...
actually i was a bit disappointed,
but not angry.
anyway...
i know why, and i understand.
then that's it.

i love him so much.

>>June 13, 2005 at 5:33:07 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 11 日 星期六 【晴】

Happy Birthday to myself.

today i wake up so early...
then start planing for today.
i go dress up, go make up...

go ve lunch, ready to go out,
of course ve chated with darling on line for a while.. he was on.

then i cannot find ppl... hum...
then.... lui yan told me she wouldnt come.
then actually kiana might not be free...
i forgot today is one of the... chinese festival.

hummmm
cannot contact other ppl
i feel so... disappointed.

canot find alisja, cannot find staphine,
canot find dong eon, han and chung gum,....taku also.
then mishico might not come.
i feel.... so... bad...

>>June 11, 2005 at 10:00:26 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 10 日 星期五 【晴】

here's friday night 11:29 pm,

i've already upload the pictures to internet! haha
Thankx for Staphine and DongEon!
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/lau_mei_kwan/my_photos

and,
hummmm tomorrow i will go out with them =)
then sunnday my aunt'll celebrate with me hee.

in these days, i'm quite ok.
darling has to find a new job, hummmm
i dont know, just wish him well...
today i've watched the movie, i dont know it's name in eng,
but is Jim Carry? maybe i spell wrong?
anyway...
that makes me think about my christian life.
i know i'm a bad christian...
and... i know... god is god lor haha
sometimes ppl dont know what they need but keep praying,
then jesus would help us to choose the best one...
and... yup, i argee with that!
coz... my life is in His hand , i know, and i 'm quite sure about that.
everytime , He makes the right decesions for me.
that's totally what i need.

anyway,... jesus is true.
and... last time darling and me 've talk about christian... good start?
i dont know. i wont force him.... although i really want him understand that...
anyway,
i go to postal counter today.
it takes 10 days to deliver to sg, but still costs me $ cad 1.55 ? around.
that's really really expensive!
much expensive than hk!
but... i ve to post =) and i love to do so!

i've sent e-mail to my family!!! >.< !!!
to tell them what's around me..
and my family here, my school, my accident...

hummmm just now, i heard the news about angeline, my bestfriend in sg...
i'm so sorry to hear about that.
hope they'll be getting well.

and...
i pray from my bottom of my heart that...
i wish everything would be fine.
all of my love would get the blessing.
coz....
i just want to give love and bless,
i dont ask for more.
and i would walk along, be brave, work hard for my dreams,
and keep praying.

>>June 11, 2005 at 6:48:24 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 7 日 星期二 【晴】

shi bu shi xiang yi ge ren de shi hou jiou hui bu kai xin de le?

i miss my darling so much.
i guess in these days, he must be so busy...
coz this week is the due week for the assignment.
and he will ve the mid-term so soon.
hummmmm i always wait for him to come on line la...
but...... last night i was waiting for him,
then finally he comes, and told me he's so hungry, then going to wash up
and go out for lunch.
then he left...
and i couldnt wait for him coz i was sick and too tired.
however, today i recieved his messages on msn, when he back home.
but he's off line.

silly darling...
i think... i wont get his birthday present actually.
my birthday is comiong so soon... so soon..
i..... i wish i will get his present on time... coz this birthday is so important.
my first time staying in other country for birthday.
cannot celebrate with my old friends.
last year, i even talk with him on my birthday.
so...
actually this birthday is quit important for me.
i really really do wish i would get his present on time.
like i ve already lost my christmas and valentine's gifts, how could i dont care of it?

i love him, i do love him.
but so what.
i think i should remind myself,....
i cannot be that selfish.
and...
i dont know.

i'm so... tired... now is 9:11 pm.
i think i would sleep le.

keep giving thanks, and praying.

>>June 8, 2005 at 4:11:39 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 6 日 星期一 【晴】

now,
it's during my lunch time, a long srtupid lunch time.

actually i dont desire to eat anyting.
coz i ve a great morning today and... i dont feel well of my body today.

this morning, i waked late, then... i missed the bus of course.
then... i get off, and go get a dark chocolate mocha,
but the coffe is not nice taste.
then i go get a cookie more.
i was sitting at the table, ving a short period to letting myself stay calm and peace
to start the nice new day, ok?
coz iwas ..... not well. and i dont want to attend to class actually i'm not in attention.
then... i was sitting down, giving myself some peaceful time.
then i went out, coz just 9:57 am i ve class at 9.
then i walk to school...
ok.
i didnt sense anything.
i just walking.
then the electronic cable, which is for buses and hanging in sky suddenly droped,
and thowing down toward me. it finally hited me.
i was.... shocked.
and my coffe splited off my arm... and my shoses.
it got hit and broken, i mean the coffe cup.
coffe is sparked on ground.
and... i was just shocked... and standing there, dont know what to do.
the funnky man was yelling out,
asking for help, yelling at another bus driver,
who's bus just got passed by and stopped arround the cross conner.
i dont know what to do.
no one help me?
and... all is just messy in my mind. nasty.
then... i waited for around few mins...
they started arguing... and the driver said i 've called for help already....blah...
whatever, no one could hep me.
then i went back to the coffe shop, the Blenz Coffe to buy another coffe,
then leave.

but in class, i just couldnt concentrate...
and the acciden just goes through again and again in my mind.
oh my god...
i dont really feel well already, so... today is really bad for me.
then now is lunch time already,
but i dont desire to eat. what'a stupid day today?
i forgot to bring my assignment which is done at home already.
it takes 5%off the marks. shit.
and i also forgot the other assignment for the afternoon class.

period, that's the..... bad thing or not?
last night, aunt's back,
we went to aunt dabbie's home for dinner.
her two lovely little sons re in their dad's side( they're divorced)
we had lot of yummy dumplings at her home,
she made dumplings by herself.
then we three ve the woman talk of course.
but i'm younggest of course.
they're married, ve kids... 30+++ and 40+++ year-old,
but i'm just going to be 19 in the coming sunday.
anyway, it was so cool.
then i called my darling, and got the call from my parents too.
haha.

then.... i was so full, and went back home.
actually aunt's back that's lucky for me,
coz i no longer need to do some house work, like washing lots of dishes which re not used by me.
and helping tiding up stuffs for her son. i dont need to hide up myself in home.
and one important thing is i can eat properly meals.
they're just .... making me oily food, always make me feel sick but i cannot complain to them right?
then, i think it's good for me.
and last night talking with darling...
he 's kidding with me about my birthday.
hum,... darling....
actually i 'd be sooooo happy and surprised to get his present, if he's willing to send me.
coz last few times, i couldnt get anything from him, coz of the wrong post, or bad postmen.
so... this time i really reminded him directly or indirectly many times to...
make sure he'll know, will remember and do something for my birthday.
i really do wish something will be happened on my birthday here.
not he's coming what coz i know it's quite impossible,
but i do wsh at least i would ve a card... which i'd never got any from him.
last night he was kidding with me, so i felt so bad when i got into bed.
i wanted to vry...
coz he sent me the message that makes me feel like ...
this time, he knows my birthday, he knows it takes more than 7 days to deliever post from sg to ca.
he'd never wanted to send me anything or just .... ignore my birthday.
that make me wanna cry... and actually my tears 're almost drop.
my heart's sour...
anyway, i got the message that he siad nope, he's planned what to send me already,
andi will get it.
but not in time right? i dont know.....
i couldnt expect anything, and i dont want to expect.

anyway...
i'm going to take the class in 15 mins, shit.
i still suck... in the morning accident.

darling was shock when just now during break i talk with him in msn about my accident.
and...
actually i really suck in it.
i tried to..... calm myself. i just want to go home imediately...
i was lucky, otherwise it hit other part of my body, maybe head or stormach,...
it just hited my coffe and arm.
or it could hit others, like old woman passed by,kids or the window, the glass of the Blenz Coffe.
then it'll be broken.. then... becoming big events...
but i was suck on street and like the... silly lady... i felt so lost and shocked...

anyway, going off now.
wish to speak to darling soon.
i miss him reallly really much and i love him so much...

hum.... bad..
i wanna go home, dont want any classes today.

>>June 6, 2005 at 7:50:38 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 4 日 星期六 【晴】

hello guys.

castor's here ding pretty well =)
congraudation to me please, hahaha
kidding...

anyway,
my busy sain week was past far away already.
lucky that i'm still sitting here doing some silly blogging haha
my results from 3 tests are all excellent...
i'm not proud of myself, but the truth is the tests 're not my level.
but i did put lots of effors on them, each or them.
the most difficult class for me is about the writting class.
that's acadamic writting.
i ve taken it in utah writting class... i ve 6 credits on that, and i got a b grade.
but actually that course is totally different from this class i'm taking.
that one is about the kinds of writting and the.... process.
this class is very very focussing on everything; process.
from the sentences structure, it takes a month.
so... we would see how's it going...
and the funniest thing is that... darling goes share with me about his blog!
and simon, my schoolmate shares with me too...
then you know what happened? haha i'm not gonna tell you guys here.

this is sat midnight now, going to be sunday. 2:35 am
aunt'll be back tomorrow morning.
hum,....
today

we went to the vancouver community center, we planed to go ice skating,
but! that stupid told us there's no ice on the ground...
he's so mean...
but yesterday, sahra, or teacher called them for information,
that's the voice message. shit.... it says.... we could ve it during 2:30 - 4:30 pm.
anyway, finally take walking...
to stanly park, really far man...
then alasja, willson, and lean drive to buy the volleyball,
me, taku, hitoshi, kiana went to stanly park...
then meshiko come joing us haha lovely japanese girl...
shit we still wait for 2 hrs at there. but they ve a car!
finally we got lost in the park, we couldnt meet them.
then we left...
we walked back to down town.
we went to ve the huge but cheap sushi~! haha...
so full... i just need to pay... $9 cad. it's cheaper than korean food.
then we went to dong eon's home to meet seyoung and johnho, and him.
then i wanted go home but couldnt lor, someone catch me up.
then...
i go there with them for 30 mins then i left
coz i missed my darling so much... and i dont want ti drink, i'm during period again.
so...
but i m still late to home.

anway...
next week is my birthday^^

and just now see miki's diary,
hummm she's ... so hard working =) good good.
i miss the hk food and my home...
here's food is nice, but sometimes it's expensive.
you know, egg tart... $hkd 4-5 @
hummm.
but i eat donut everyday here.
tim houston's donuts!!! so nice!!!
but i guess i'm addicted... so i better dont eat... try not to eat..

heehee

i love my darling so much...
during this period, i mean aunt's not home.
i go on line everyday and can talk with him anytime we want.
just so free ...
but tomorrow aunt's back, cannot.
and we share room, so... no more freedom ?
haha...

i think i love my darling so much.
last time a guy said wanna send me ticket to let me fly over sg to meet him.
then i rejected him.

>>June 5, 2005 at 10:18:07 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 1 日 星期三 【晴】

hey...

this week is pretty busy.
today, the test is so nice =)
i dont think i can get a full mark,
but i'm waiting for it =P
maybe in the coming tests, i will ve a full mark!

tomorrow ve a big test. hum,..... hard maybe.
and i ve the paragraph to write... but just a draft, so dont worry lor...

darling's fine too.
he just went to seek doctor yesterday, doctor said... he need more rest and
ballnce nutruition.
dear's been under stressed for so long already... and cannot ve good food to eat.
i mean healthy food, not what expensive food.
anyway,...
he should take care of himself =)
yesterday i asked him, why i've asked him to quit smoking for that long he'd never
really stop, but so suddenly quited! but i didnt know ! haha
he told me coz of me.
oh....... heehee

today, lunch box is canceled. hummmm good job =)
and lately i really ate alot!
especially the sweet food and fried food or spicy food.
hum.... i think coz i'm so happy lately? but probably for my stress and tiredness.
since i feel stress or tired... i'd like to eat.
that's the worst habbit for me haha...
i want to stay healthy, so... after this week, i'll go exercise every week.
not just for apperance, but for health =)

perhaps ving good sleep and...
darling wanted to wake me, but'd never he's over slept too! =P
hahaha... he's too tired le...

anyway...
good good good...

actually, Sheila, i've sent you the message to your page,
ve you got it? =P

everyone being good?
dont know how's jackie now,... dont know how's my old schoolmates now...
dont know how's star team, sankie, wyane, rachel,...
dont know how's calais, vincent, joey, meiwen,.... how're you guys?!
queenie must be fine haha!
and how's lsc now?
how's angeline and jeanline? how's junming, chris and you guys's girlfriends?
how's pky, water, dennis, yingying, ting ting, gigi...?
yup, agnes i know you're really busy sometimes, take care ok?!
and cynthia? heehee...
miki, leggy and dad mom... heehee
anyone got my message here, plx report to me! hahaha...kidding..
hope to hear from you guys ;>

keep praying...
and give thanks!

>>June 2, 2005 at 1:46:40 AM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 31 日 星期二 【晴】

hihi,

i'm okok in these days...
a bit tired, or actually i'm really tired.
aunt's not home now, but i feel nice haha!
coz much more freedom~ yeah~~~!

just now i cook dinner for myself =P wu dong+ egg + veg+ marhroom + guo jia zheng.
my first time to cook dinner for myself heehee...
haha...

lastnight, i chated with darling, actually these days i kept chating with darling,
not really could concentrate on my work.
anyway, i'm still doing good job.
last night i spent 4-5 hrs to edit my essay. from the crap to become an good essay.
(darling work hard with me lately heeheee)
then,... today carry, my instrustor said.... she just want one paragraph...
>.< ! i really feel so bad.... coz i dont ve enough time to rewrite again, can just shorten
them into one piece of paragrapg... that's so... terrible.
argh....... bad bad..

today 's kiana's birthday! happy birthday kiana!
but i didnt go dinner with them.
dong eon, taku and alisja go for dinner with her =P wish they ve good meal!

tomorrow my lunch box from simon got canceled =P
he's so busy, and dont want him to spend time on cooking for me.

actually darling's jealous !
last night i was with darling on line... he did his job and i did my job.
haha... i love him so much.
then,... we start talking about the friends around me and his friends around him.
then... you know what happened?
he's so sensitive on my side with guys. welllll~~~ of course i feel okok,
coz he cares for me so much, i feel so gracefeull with that,
but, when he's so aroused about other guys around me( the stimulis), then...
he's like a child boy, getting jealous. tried to stop me dealing with others closely.
haha... i really love this man.
he tries to compare with other guys, or actually being so defensive.
anyway, one word.... " jealous"
:)

darling's really thinner than last time seeing him on line.
stress makes that? i dont know .
i ask him to take a body check up after the assignment done. i'm sooo worried for him.
i'm really worried for him... =(
pray ....

hum....
quite busy,
3 tests and writting all make me tired and stressed.

wher's darling now?
he went there for so long already...
he went to see doctor leh....

>>June 1, 2005 at 4:31:55 AM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】

wow~

finally can get connected!

hello guys...
castor's here doing very well.. heehee

darling and me start over again.
we're very fine now =)
thx for jesus.
and..... darling knows i've been to dong eon's home for two nights already.
but he asked me to promise him never slept at there again.
hum... =)

anyway...
school is fine.
last sat, we go to the beach to play ball game.
so bored and tired.
here's summer now.
everyday sun shining from 4 am to 9 pm.
haha
then now....it's 7:58 pm, outside is still sun shining~ haha

aunt goes for trip already.
so... here's just me, terrance and uncle,
but today, we ve the guests,
uncle's sister and her little son, and another uncle.
hum...
tomorrow ve a quiz... sigh...
tonight ve to study.

you know,
darling finally remember my birthday!
and finally he knows my favourite color, food and
which kind of food i cannot eat!
sigh... finally he knows them.

and... i feel so happy for that!
^^ he quits cigarettes already! yeah!
he quits for awhile already... heehee

me here's very well...
dont worry for me.

hope you guys're doing well too =)

keep praying,
jesus will listen it =)
god blessing...

>>May 30, 2005 at 3:03:04 AM GMT+8