I'm looking forward the day we meet so soon.
but i'm affraid the day coming too fast.
i dont wanna say goodbye to you,
but fate seems make our distance so far.
what i can do for you, or else what actually we should do,
it doesnt seem wise when i decide to get you,
but i ve no choices coz i know i love you,
everytime when i wanna say love you,
but i dont really know how my feelings go through,
if now you want me to be sure... the relationship about,
i will tell you i got no choices to,
it doesnt mean i dont wanna trust you,
but the way to get hurt is just too soon.
why i'm like that, i dont understand too,
but will you accept that aint the other views too?
cheated is quite hurt,
no heart is not allowed in church,
what else about the rules, i think i'm injured.
i'm not sure, i'm not sure, i'm not sure
if someday we meet, that'd be the foolishest joke.
i'm waiting for the day to come,
after all, i know i'll ve a nice new start.
coz everything will be bright and sharp.
Thankyou for jesus.
this is very scaring and exciting, but a little bit stressed perhaps ...
before i 'd be there, i'll get ready for myslef, and he'll too.
perhaps this guy wouldnt hurt me, wouldnt cheat me...wouldnt lie to me.
you know me jesus,
the line is very clear, that's all of your laws.
for me, the basic line is that , respect, trusting, honest.
the faith is yours, and the hope and love are yours too.
i got nothing, but you brighten me, strength... all from you.
i trust you more than i do, more than him either everyone too.
i should ve faith, that's the lesson i should take.
but plx you guide me the right, coz i dont want to be lost from you.
thankyou very much... and i do trust you.
i just back home to rest...
now is 4:03 am already...
today so excited.
coz.... in the store....
anyway, i've to rest now...
i just can say, so nice tonight!
and i miss him really much =)
but i'm still very fine, dont know how's he? =)
but i think we'd see, and i ve faith... just perhaps he'd be fine too =)
that's all the lengrage in singapore? haha
anyway, very nice today,
i went out to join them for the morning tea, at tsim sha tsui, which one we always go.
they use the... plate to eat, not by the bowl. interesting is it ?! =P
and then,...
we go to the cause way bay, to walk around, to take the photo stickers
then go back to buy the lao po biang~ haha!
:P
very very nice trip.
and then i send them back to the hotel, and wait till the coach come.
hum,.. they're really nice =)
so nice to see them.
i ask wendy that is it a nice trip for them, she said yes,
smooth, and knowing me =)
haha~ thanks la~ ~~~
they give me the phone card, so when i arrive, i can call them by the local call~
^^ thanks so much~!!
i think i'll ask them out to drink or dinner, of course, my treat~!
must invite them to join,
and you know,... haha... hum,... i'd like to let them know benny.
coz like what she advice me la... haha,...erm,... haha...
and just just intorduce to each others, then it's kindda good for us too.
at least, my friends can see better than me mah =P
she told me,... let's see, have a look before everything start( someting like that )
ah-huh, i do understand what she means =) heehee~~~
and then,... still ve them, touch wood that he's a bad man.
anyway, i think my trip is going to be very very nice~
so excited and i really looking forward it comes!
i told them i've to list out what i wanna do in the sg.
we've taught a lot today,
and we chat a lot... kinda eng kinda chinese. that's pretty nice =)
alright, start from today, i start planing my trip =P
and benny,... hum,... he's my boyfriend mah,
of course i miss him lots and lots~
^^
thankyou jesus ^^
List:
1) The newspaper from singapore.
2) The art mum, and the largest library.
3) try the mcdonald's and the roti prate.
4) night life.
5) Singapore CDs and tv shows!
6) maybe HMV and the beach, i want the sun rise and sun set~
7) the po lo bao and egg tart.
8) dim sum in singapore.
9) food court, and the school food.
10) starbucks, and the ferry ~
11) photo stickers! with benny of course~
12) perhaps to get the dictionary for translating into malay or fu jiang.
13) going to walk around the tampines and the orchard road.
14) try the local food!
15) watch movie !
16) hum,... i dont know, maybe just sitting outside to ve the nice chat with anyone?
17) must go try the fresh juice =P
18) and the biggest shopping mall !!
19) i ve to get some crafts or assesorries for myself =P
20) clothese or skit or bag or whatever ^^ heehee~
haha... and i think i'll ve more to do so~! ^^
i think this is the cultrual walk~
=P nice~
looking forward to telling benny that i've met my friends ! and had a really nice plan soon!
^^ and geeting to see him so soon ^^~~ heehee~~~
Thankyou Elston and Wendy,
thay do give me so nice lessons and very nice experience in my life.
i wont forget them, and they're really friendly and kind people , really good friends to be.
they're like my old friends, especially wendy, she's like my elder sister ^^~
=) thanks so much... ^^~~~
anf give thanks to jesus~~ ^^
>>December 29, 2004 at 10:15:28 AM GMT+8
2004 年 12 月 27 日 星期一 【晴】
Today is great!
so supprised that elston call me !
finally we've met in mcdonald's... haha... with his very nice girlfriend, wendy!
^^ nice nice, really nice to see them!
they wait for me to off, then we go to the peak!
haha... walk around, some pictures, then go to pacific coffe...and then,... we sat for few hrs~
well,... me and wendy talk alot! ^^ heehee~ seems like she's my friend from net but not elston!!!
haha, anyway, they're both 24, older than me...around 6 years. but no gap lor~
good good~
then after that, we go to the place for dinner buffet. that's really expensive !
hum,... i think i'll treat them when i'll be there =)
anyway,... we do chat alot, i mean with wendy! haha...
then,... we went to lan kuai fong together~
that's really nice experience...!
hum,... i know more about their culture, and... they know more about hk.
then, she told me lots about the stories... well, secert =)
i know more the night life there, and some food and places.
hum,... the price index, a lot a lot.
and then,... i know the word " a mor a mor" is meanging the "red hair"
haha! that's so cute !
it's really nice today, thx to jesus...!
hum ^^ so happy you know, although i'm really tired...
and i feel so nice !
yup, i spoke alot of english today... that's nice... and, anyway, it's really nice~
=)
i said on the dinner table...
pity that he's not here with us tonight.
and lucky that i cant book the seat on christmas, 13 th of Jan.
i still want to prosopne the date for my flight... but i think if it's prepared by jesus,
that's the best treat for me already =)
tomorrow i'm going to ve dim sum with them together,
then send them to..... the.... cause way bay to buy something,
then they'll leave... i think i gonna miss them .
but anyway, they're my friends =)
she says... hope our friends last... well it should be =)
we will see when i arrive, right?! ok it'll all being fine =)
she shares a lot of things with me,.. haha... about their trip this time =)
^^
next time to coome, remember to call me =)
anyway!
looking forward for tomorrow, and looking forward for benny ^^
coz i love him.
Thanks to jesus ^^
>>December 28, 2004 at 3:58:44 PM GMT+8
2004 年 12 月 26 日 星期日 【晴】
last night ... the sleeping was worse.
today i'm late to work...
by the way, lst night i'd never thought that he would be on line.
well... i was upset... then we chated... then,... hum,... that was fine.
we've taught for few stuffs...
i know ... he's not like me... that's good.
i ask him dont let me know if he's cheating me... he says that's the same for him...
dont let him know, or else he'd skin me alive. that's scared.... =S
hum,.. i say why dont trust me, still vent believed me yet.
he said he'd ask me the same que too.
haha....
but i cant sleep well last night.
today i go to work, wow...
nice sales today.
two b.p. all got $1000 above, one is almost $2000.
that's great ;) hit the point!
but only me and joyce hold the parties... well i ot for almost 4 hours. that's a bit too much.
anyway, i know sankie doesnt like working with her... hum,...feel ....like... conflict...ed...
that's not good =S
anyway, i'm so tired,
but after off, i called him on way to home.
then i sit outside the culture centre... to sweet chat with him ^^
coz i know he's leaving tonight. so... we better talk more...
coz we're going to miss each others.
like what we've cahted today,... i know he's going to do the right things...
please take very good care of himself... and i'm here waiting for him.
dont expect me will ve sex with him plx... i'm not that kind of girl.
lucky that his family(relatives) in there are still fine, although losing the ship...
but still lucky. coz you know, the vallege they're in just locate on the next vallage.
hum... he also felt a bit shaked in songapore.
just take care plx.
dont call me the zhi fu da ren la.
haha =P
when i worry him, then i star to miss him. so that's good for him.
like the evil ar! haha... i say dont always keep me worried la...
if worry for me than you'll miss me more... hum... something like that. haha... silly.
yea, i'm not wearing the red , so if you're really the ox... dont come drop me down. hahaha...
the kiss,.... hum,.... haha!!
i ask him,... when he come to the airport with the... then before you see me you'll get caught!
haha... what he reply?! so silly and crazy !! haha...
will you still be there when i arrive.... that's not possible.
if any accidents... no way, choi... haha!!!
ok la...
ok la, dont play la...
take care.
two weeks......... soon.
i'm here waiting for him.
>>December 27, 2004 at 1:25:23 PM GMT+8
2004 年 12 月 25 日 星期六 【晴】
Today... i got the nice gift from dad and leggy =)
Thankyou daddy ^^
long time havent received gifts from people...
today after waked, we went to have dim sum.
then me, aunt ching, leggy and daddy went to walk around.
dad and leggy brought me earrings ^^ so nice~
that's kindda supprised. lovely.... it's much better than someone.
i mean benny.
then actually, only me and aunt go to walk and chat... long time vent been around there.
hum,... just chating. she's my aunt,
of course cant tell her about benny. no one knows in my family,
except sheilla, my dear cuson, and tingting, her sister.
hum... my friends know that. but sisters cant. they're too young.
anyway, we've taught about... sheila and her boyfriend today.
i'm a bit affraid that... they might not accept me with benny.
by the way, i m not really confident with him.
hum,... how to say...
maybe he's kindda selfish. but i hate that. you know... love is a kid of share.
if he cant share everything with me... that means... we're not ready to be together.
that's true for me.
it's not me dont want to trust him... but he 'd never provided me chances.
hum,... wait till i'd be there.
and i admit that's kinda dangerous for me to go there.
but, i ve no choices. and i got to find out the answer.
>>December 26, 2004 at 12:42:01 PM GMT+8
2004 年 12 月 25 日 星期六 【晴】
Thats the song:
Robbie Williams Lyrics
Feel
Thanks for for submitting thelyrics
Thanks to for submitting thecorrections
Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role Ive been given
I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I dont understand
I just want to feel real love
In the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
I dont want to die
But I aint keen on living either
Before I fall in love
Im preparing to leave her
I scare myself to death
Thats why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming
I just want to feel real love
In the home that I live in
Theres a hole in my soul
Cant you see it in my face
Of real disgrace
I need to feel real love
And a life ever after
I feel like givin' up
I just want to feel real love
In the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
Going to waste
I just want to feel real love
In a life ever after
Theres a hole in my soul
Cant you see it in my face
Its a real disgrace
Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role Ive been given
Not sure I understand (x4)
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
I'm looking forward the day we meet so soon.
hi!
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