2005 年 7 月 3 日 星期日 【晴】

now is 10:52 pm 3rd July.

i'm so fine!
my neck still a bit pain..... shit....
but i'm fine.

tomorrow i have quiz...
man... i dont want it....

hummm
today went to bbq with aunt's family~
great...
and i 'm really really secared of doggy.... >.<
they have a dog there....oh my "goodness".

hum
i miss my darling soooooooo much.
i really miss him so much.
i think i just love so much too, and i find that finally, trust him totally,
without any doubts. haha =D
i love him, i really love him.... that's true.

hummmm lately watch tv, always watching...
then i watch some news, entainment news from hk,
i really want to watch those tv shows in hk!!!
and.... =.=
i watched the series about a man was killed,
but actually that's his twin brother.
that fucking guy kill his twin brother,
then repaired himself to US, then has a new life,
but left his wife the murder plenality at tai wan.
that's totally shit.
that's impossible ?
hummmm that man can go to US and cheat to a very rich girl.
and it just make me scared...
how come it could be real in this world?
that man is pretty smart and clever.
how come ????
he's the evil !!!!
holly shit!
i hate this man...... =(

by the way...
i really miss him really much.
and i send my sister, Miki e-mail...then
i also send it to him.
so, the recievers re my sister's@ and also ben's @
heehee
and i said " hello Miki and darling,"
hahaha...
actually lately mom always ask me if i'm dating or not.
heehee
she asked me if there's any guys..... hummmmm =)
i told her, yea, there're lots...
but i'm not dating.


sigh...
that fucking guy, i mean... that series..... is really really bad.
that man can talk on phone with his rich girlfriend,
but his new wife is passing by him, the girl ask him to kiss her on phone.
then he takes his wife's hand and kiss her hand?!!!
that silly girl thinks he really kiss her on phone! =.=
then... after hanging up,
the wife asked him why he kiss her
when taking an important phone call from company,
then... you know... that fucking man said... coz.... he miss her wife so much,
and coz... they cannot always be together, so... that's why?!
so crazy !~!!!!!

hummmm
i've already upload all the pictures to my page ... at yahoo.
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/lau_mei_kwan/my_photos
click on it, then view those all, and feel around!

>>July 4, 2005 at 6:05:27 AM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 2 日 星期六 【晴】

Here’s a tip to try:
Next time you get the urge to send her dozens of roses (yet again) or drop
everything to watch baseball with him, ask yourself: “
Am I doing this because I really want to, or because I need to look perfect?”
If the answer is that you’re doing it because you feel you have to,
or that it’s a standard you have to uphold, guess what?
It’s time to scale back, relax, and let love happen with a little less effort.

****

hunmmmmmmm i'm great!

anyway, yesterday was the national day of canada.
then, me, staphine, alisja and her friend went to downtown.
waterfront, downtown...
hahaha! we have lots of fun! (w/out any guys =))
hummmm we've met johnho and his friend at waterfront!
haha...
then...
we have japanese food for dinner! great!
and...
lastnight was our lady's day~
ohhhhhhh soooo nice.... hee
then we walk around at downtown
so great!
and i've met a new guy at down town, at ... the... bread garden.
hummm he's a.... staff at that coffe shop.
i go buy the ice tea.
coz they have the tasty( for me, that's nasty) itlian ice-cream!
haha...
then we take bus to home.
great!
anyway...

then i went home, mom calling me again.
then...
actually... something happened.
and... i ve to decide on somthing...
hummm
and... i also got my boyfriend's advise too.
hummmmmmmmmmm thinking of it.

then...
i called my darling boyfriend huh,
haha... he's so cute.

ok.
gotta stop first.
up-loading the cute cute pictures now.

>>July 2, 2005 at 7:00:30 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 29 日 星期三 【晴】

9:26 pm 29/6


today i went to the ICBC...
then i had to report to the officer what happened.
i consider to ..... ask for the responsiblities and start the claimation file.
then... i might be able to get money from this accident.
i'm not injury, but... i think... like what other ppl tell me,
i have to right to claim for my lost.
and... my neck got problems....... at my bonds...
and now, not just my neck pain... and even my hand.
so... i think it might influence for life if i dont feel better later.
then... i think... right now. i have to start the file.
but you know, the officer said that i might not be able to start the file,
coz i didnt record the bus plate# or the bus driver's name.
shit..
of coz i didnt!
but... then aunt felt angry... then she and aunt dabbie phone to the transit line,
then... we got the pleasent reply.
actually not only us call to report....
and the transit line has the record and file is started already.
so... the transit line could provide the information all i need to the ICBC directly.
but, since we want to get the payment for my lost....
then we need to struggle in it for long i guess.
hummm last night talk with mom,
told her everything... then tonight i would contact her again later.

today didnt take the morning class,
just take the sec section of the afternoon class, the hospitality class.
by the way,
the class is end earlier, so... aunt could drive me home.
but i lost the chance to observe the hotel lobby with other ppl.
anyway, i'm going to do that tomorrow after school with wilson.
hummmm...

last night finally that stuppid benny didnt leave me message =<
then today i didnt call him, didnt wake him up.
then... just now, i checked my phone.
i got a sms from him.
wow... finally he told me he's on the way to work now.
fine.

i think...
i'm so ..... bad...
but... i know he's sick, and he told me he feels better today.
i'm really glad about that.
but... i guess...
he would ask me someting... like how's going with my body
and everything, am i feeling better now... something like that...
but he doesnt.
that's.......... a... bit..... disappionted....
i think he's going backward.

you know,
my parents recieved my post card long time ago already.
but he'd never recieved my post card and letters.
not that letter i wrote on plane, but also the post card.
and i'd never got post from him also.
actually i think that's really his own responsiblity to make sure i got those 4 posts.
but i'd never got those...
i 'm so.... frustrated actually, anyone understand?

in these days, i have to chase back my time, i was on leave.
so...
i'll be very tired with those stuffs about the accident, and again,...
i'll be quite stressed in my studies again and... being pain =<
but.... would hime ask me about that?
i dont think he would...
no matter what he says... he'd not really did anything...
he asks me to give him one more chance... to make up his fault in past...
but.... who gives me a chance?

well, i need to mention him hey now i need you to ask me how i feel,
hey now i think you have to call me, hey i think you have to pay more for
ensure i would get the post.
hey i think you shouldnot let sherry or author to be the excuese to me anymore.
all the stuffs shouldnt be mentioned, otherwise... that's... quite.......... bad?

i dont know what to say...
is he telling me if i want to be with him then i have to accept all of them about him?
nope, that's all about other family members also?
but... what if i dont want.

BUT, that doesnt make sense for what he did again and again.
SO,.... again...
i ve to be patient? or i need to talk with him again?
but i'm quite tired about those .... problems...
that doesnt make sense for me.

>>June 30, 2005 at 4:44:41 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 28 日 星期二 【晴】

7 19 am 29/6

i'm quite angry right now.

anyway cant go to school today too, going to the ICBC later.
maybe i need some pys treatment later.

why.... why benny chew cant let me know when he's ok already?
i've already left him messages plx to let ne know when he's home, right?
i'm worried for him. and ... he should let me know when he's ok.
i'm in trouble now, but i still very concern on him,
dont you think i should rest more than worry huh?

if everytime there's a miss sherry or mr author in us.
i dont think it's acceptable.
and i think... he's going backward...... and i hate that.
what if i could just speard him a min to leave me a simply message huh?
am i that troublesome? okay then,
i wont do it anymore. it's too tiring but no one cares.

i know i should stop doing such stupid thing before i get through those.
i mean... my bad feelings.

>>June 29, 2005 at 2:29:15 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 27 日 星期一 【晴】

No news from darling.
keep calliong him but no respond...
i'm quite worried for him...
='<

anyway, i got the bus accident today on the way home.
taking that stupid 98 to home, around 49th - 70 th avenune...
then the bus suddenly stoped.
then everyone in bus fell down...including me.... shit...
someone push me, and fell on me, then i fell down... sitting on the ground.
that's quite hurt...
at my ass and myleft side body.
and of course some places got a bit red.
and my neck... that's stressed.... very very tired, and feel a bit hard to move around.
aunt asks me to seek doctor tomorrow, dont go to school.
holly....shi...

that bus still works... till the 7oth ave, then... we have to change to another bus.
and get on another 98...
kept standing, actually that's quite pain...
then... i got off at no.3 road.
go to aunt dabbie's home to see the little baby.
baby and her month left today ='<
miss them... she's so cute...

hummm by the way,
auntsss ask me to "buy the 469."
and aunt will help me to call the IBC, for recording,
and maybe i can get a pay from the bus company.
i think woen is smart on money.
they said i was so stupid. this time is my sec time got accidents from bus com,
then last time i should ask for pay.
aiya... i missed the chance. i might get back around $500-1000 CAD.
hummm but i really didnt want to.... do that.
by the way, my nect started a bit pain now...
=S

i'm not worried for myself much,
but i do worried for my darling.
ai....
i saw author on line when i was in school
so i left him message, to take care of darling, ask darling to stay at home,
and seek doctor....take the record and take back the vitamin back with record too.
hummmm ='<
i 'm worried for him...
today i keep calling him, but no one take my call.
what happened with him?
sigh,..... i'm worried... very worried.

>>June 28, 2005 at 7:05:51 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 27 日 星期一 【晴】



tired...

thankyou for sheila ;>

i miss darling really much,..
oh... i'm at school during break now...
missing him so much, and my family and friends...

i really want to take his hand, be with him forever..





OH MY GOD!
DARLING'S VING FEVER AGAIN!!!
just now talking to author, his brother =(
=:<::::



mypicture at my birthday party ay red robbin.
i'll upload more pictures on my ablum later.
(on procedures)


OHH!!
I MISS MY DARLING!! I'M WORRIED FOR HIM SO MUCHHHH!!
=; < !!!

>>June 27, 2005 at 7:49:20 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 26 日 星期日 【晴】

here's 26/ 6.
9:31 am.

anyway, i know i've been long time havent come blogging..... heehee
since aunt'd taken this stupid computer for debugging,
then it no longer be able to read chinese now.
and this stupid pc cant be linked with the usb adapter inside.
that's totally caois...
my lovely daddy, mami, my suppuer cute sisters sent me the web cam,
the usb line with soft ware for my dc.
but now, i cant do anything with those.

anyway,
sometimes happy things come and, depressing things come at the same time.
and i just have nothing to say about them.

i'm so sorry lately i dont even have time for myself to take a break.
i was always busy, and dont really what things're happening around.
coz last time i miss two lessons in a week,
i cant catch up a few teats/quizs.
then i just got low marks.

i know ... something wrong with my body, i always feel tired easly,
feel tired tired tired then leading to sick, and then just cant stand for that.
and the pass week, i kept exercise,per 2/3 days .
that's quite exciting right?
i go exercise even the school days.
at the morning, i go jogging for 20 mins, then i come back bath,
wash up, tidy up my stuffs, then i go to school.
i just take my breakfast after 2 hrs, that's around 9:30 / 10:20
coz 1020 is my break time!~
but las week, i was quite busy, so... some times i just spend my time in pc lab.

anwya, last week is " awlful"

hummmm
darling's quite tired ... all the time.
i'm worried for him,
and i miss my family really much too...
hummmm...

ok, gotta stop.
come back later.
see ya.

>>June 26, 2005 at 4:46:24 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 17 日 星期五 【晴】

i miss my darling so much...

why my friend lies to me?
i hate ppl lie...
why is she?

hummmm
actually i dont mind if he likes her, but why she knows that but still lie?

today finally i didnt attend to class,
but i go to school at 11:30 am.
cool... i thought i would ve the make up test.
but extend to monday, cool.
then me, kiana, alisja and dong eon go to down town to ve lunch.
we ve japanese food.
then...
me, kiana and alisja walk around.
...
again, why she lies? why the ppl lie is she?
she said she treats me as her best friend. and... then... why? why she lies?

i miss my darling soooooo much...
my pre-paid card credits re done already... that means i ve to pay another $30++
to get it work again.
argh~~~ so expensive...

anyway...
i wanna make him a call... but it seems so hard.

ok...
my skin is getting better, coz of the medicine.
ut the medicine make me soooo tired.
and actually... i'm just soooo tired lately...

ust now, i went out with aunt,
nice.
she brought me donuts ... coz of last time?
maybe she knows i mind of that?
and she brought me ham also...
coz she knows i mind of that?
aiya...
and then!!! we found the singaporane food in the supper market!
she buys the kaya !! wah~! haha :D
hmmmmm ok... thankyou !

and...
i miss my family and my friends ...
i miss my darling so much !!!

>>June 18, 2005 at 1:36:16 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 16 日 星期四 【晴】

sick...

no time to study lastnight too tired, bad test,
funny party at joy's house,
funny games for alcochol,
i drink, then my skin problems come again.
so sick with storm also.

i feel so bad about it, coz i ...siad no drinks on my birthday ,
i promised to him no drinks on birthday,
but on today party i drink?!
oh...

anyway...
just now i talk with lim, haha... she got amrried already!
good for her! but she's so young.
hahaha anyway~~~

i wanna marry him too~!
i mean benny, my darling~ hee

hope h'd forgive me this time...
i really drink in party, coz everyone comes, not only my friends,
so, i join the games... and i lose i ve to drink.
please... i'm so regretfull already...
please forgive me...

tomorrow would ve a make up test for last time absant.
....
dont know if i could attend to class tomorrow.


I MISS MY DARLING SOOOOOOO MUCH~!!!
and i hope my family would accept benny too...

god blessing~

>>June 17, 2005 at 5:29:03 AM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 14 日 星期二 【晴】

today i'm sooooooooo tired....

i dont want to go to school, but i did.

i miss my darling soooooo much...
anyway,
today is just really really tired.

tomorrow have quiz,
then thursday ve a big test, but a party in afternoon,
then... quiz on friday again.
shit...
why this week is that busy again?

i just hate that.
monday i take the leave purposely,
then... if i can have few more day off i'd be so glad.
really.

and darling vent waked up yet.
dont know how's he now,
might be still sleeping well.
today is his holiday. the only holiday.
aiya...
but i heard from him that he quite enjoys his work.
actually, dealing with customers could be a hard job.
well.... it'd be better if you dont need to.........
stay at the front line.

anyway... it's d be fine?

darling got a pass in his studies already, even though the course snt finished yet.
so, might be next yeat he'd go to uk
hummmmm maybe next year i just go back hk.
then he left =(
it's.... not that happy at all,
besides, i really feel good with that he's so smart =) hee
and congraudation for my darling really hee.

darling sometimes would come to read my diary,
not often i guess, and it just starts not long ago.
haha...
hummmm he's the most welcome one in here. haha
anyway, i do appricate him in this.
coz in my diary, he can know me more.
and.... he'd know what's happening here with me also.

today i dont feel well.
i always feel so cold.
okok...

i need to rest more, then... i need to study hard for tomorrow.
that's caois...

i really want to chat with darling tonight...
=(
but i'm not sure if he'd wake up in time.

>>June 15, 2005 at 2:18:55 AM GMT+8