pray and pray.
darling's phone back, but... still....
hummmm,.... alright.
i just need him.
>>March 7, 2005 at 2:34:56 PM GMT+8
2005 年 3 月 4 日 星期五 【晴】
i'm really tired today.
dad's back already.
peacefull day.
>>March 5, 2005 at 2:21:59 PM GMT+8
2005 年 3 月 3 日 星期四 【乍雨乍晴】
really miss him much and much.
sigh...
waiting and waiting.
trust him and trust his family.
most is trusting in god what.
what can i do...?
dad's still in hospital,
today ving lunch with grandpa(mom's)
feeling nice.
thx for god.
waiting and waiting, being patience.
i should know that all is hang in god, nothing should be worried for.
i make believe that you're here.
i know i need you.
>>March 4, 2005 at 1:07:20 PM GMT+8
2005 年 3 月 2 日 星期三 【晴】
Everytime Lyrics
Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
i'm during the dark period again.
i ve to trust in god. He would bring me through it.
where is my darling now?
lost contact with him for two days already.
today is the special day for us, we've been 1/2 year already.
but i didnt see him on line, or he'd never contacted me.
why he's always like that?
i dont know what i can do, maybe just waiting?
sometimes i think we're not matched actually.
we're just too different.
but i dont want to think what in these days, i'm very very anoyed.
today i got the new view on my work.
i feel fresh and nice. thx for god and lsc.
i need jesus's help.
and i wanna know how's my darling now,
i'm soooooo worried for him.
in these days, i really dont want to care about him, but i cant.
he got my concern.
tough tough tough...
he asks me dont worry for him much, if he were me, then how?
last time he said he scared.
now my turn what?
it's not his fault, he doesnt wanna be that, but actually maybe ve some solution too?
but i'm too tired to firgure out now.
give me a breath plx...
i just want someone stand by me, dont disappear. that's it.
coz of work, then cant on line, why not to buy a new phone first?
he got that money, but want to save up, then wait till collecting enough money to get a new one.
i appricate that he got this mind, but now the situation is... i'm not in singapore.
if there're anyhing like now or last time, then at least we could contact each others.
but now, we cant do anything.
if i respone for something, i'll try my best to maintain everything perfect.
i respone to him, that's why i feel tired i still stay on line,
i spend my time on everything regarding him. i respone to him, that's why i left him message.
even i get sick i ...
he does that also? yea he does. but,... i know no one is perfect,
but he hit my hates. i hate ppl disappear.
coz i scared.
remember simon?
he had blocked me for more than a year already...
today e finally chat. alright.
jesus, what to do?
>>March 1, 2005 at 4:32:08 PM GMT+8
2005 年 2 月 27 日 星期日 【乍雨乍晴】
* Sigh... lucky that Darling supports me alot.
The World is not what i think, but what i live through.
Maurice Merleau-Ponty
Last night i've chated with darling for long,
then i thought that he would dislike me, but he doesnt.
when i was so frustrated, so upset, then i lose temper,
needing the support, then i'm lost.... but my darling didnt blame me,
he 's very gentel to me. although he didnt say much, but i could get his support.
i 'm touched, feel like i still ve someone standing with me.
my family and friends do stand by me, but they'll ask me alot, pressed me lots,
sometimes, lots of thing just pissed me off...
i 'm so moody...
we got argue sometimes, that bring him hard feelings,
but finally,we settle down,
discuss about the solution and the reasons why i act so angry.
but he'd never angry with me.
so nice...
i will always love him,
Thanks for his love and support, he says he wont leave me.
i got to thanks him and jesus =)
we got so many problems here with the student permit.
hummmm i wanna give up, but just cant.
daddy goes to hospital today morning,
hope he's fine.
i think he'd be back on Thursday or Friday.
i'll pray for him everyday.
Be right back...
>>February 28, 2005 at 11:45:24 AM GMT+8
2005 年 2 月 26 日 星期六 【晴】
last night we've argued again.
today i rest alot, didnt go out.
hummmm watching tv, eating, go on line, then off line then watch tv again,
hummmm thinking of the work, thinking of lots.
i sent the e-mail to darling today, for last night.
i apologize again.
sometimes i dont think that's the wrong from whom, but need to apologize...
coz i'm not totally right, so i apologize and learn from this, then next time i'll be careful,
hummmmmmmmmm dont want to look back,
but it does affect our relationship.
but i really dont want to think of that le, i feel so tired.
they ask me, cant i dont go on line, why i ve so many stuffs to do on line.
i mean my parents. coz they dont understand.
i dont want to explain...
but i enjoy going on line sometimes, coz i can read lots of information from net.
and can chat whenever i want.
these days,... so many things happened,
that stressed me up a lot.
from family, from work, from studies, from network problems, from our relationship.
coz lots happened at the same time, it makes me very...... stressed.
and finally it explosed... and it hurts my darling, and myself.
sigh.... i'm thinking that would my darling feel so hard to keep our relationship.
and i 'm also thinking that i'd brought him hard feeling already.
i dont know what to say.
i just love him, love my work, love my studies, love my family,
but how come i cant do well? i'm lost...
tell me what to do ok?
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
今天累死左.
和老公聊天是開心的.
really miss him much and much.
i'm anoying.
Someone who know