last night i went to sleep not early but not too late.
hum.....
today i waked by his message. but i didnt reply... coz i was so sleepy...
i was still in dream... haha.
but i eat some biscuzt at noon, then i start to work... my proposal.
hum... i havent done much, coz i dont have enough data, i need to ask from my teamate.
hum... didnt got joey's... so i didnt decide what.
however, we (lee wai and me) fix the problem ( the topic)
but i got the other problems... about the format on stat. which kind of stat options we'll use?
i dont dare to decide by myself... i read the discription, the notes... but i didnt find anything.
hum... then i eat my lunch when mom'd back. i ate a piece of bread....
hum...
anyway, i was doing another reasearch after lunch.
ai...
then i have tea time with mom, and leggy. i go out then...
i feel so............ bored to sit in front of the computer.
i go out posting him letter... then i go to walk around.
wanna buy something for leggy's birthday. but i got nothing.
i meet shan on wed. her birthday's coming so soon too!
and also wanna search out the first date present for his family also =)
last night my mom told us about her dream the night before...
she said leggy stays with them, didnt get marry... she's almost 30++ in her dream,
haha... and they decide to give the house to her.
coz i married to a guy already, and in her dream, i told her i dont need the house...
coz in her dream, my husband is not a poor guy, i sometimes come to have dinner with them.
and miki is rich also, coz she earns a lot of money by herself.
haha.... when i heard what she said, i felt so fun !
and last night.. we' re kidding... leggy dont want to get marry... so stay with mom for whole life,
but it's not good for my parents actually.. it's kind of bad luck. haha!! =P
and then my mom say after 20 years... then she'll become almost 30... haha! then
leggy say... me , i 'll getting old. haha! and she said no body 'll like me.
haha! my mom laugh! thne i say... no way, after few years, i'd be read for marry ! haha...
then i go back room. wow.... haha...
at noon i called him back.
he's in toilet ! haha... so silent...
by the way... he chose to have lunch, dont talk with me. ok fine... =<
but he called back around 7:30...
i was talking with lee wai about the project. anyway...
we've chated for a few mins.
he still remember that he said he 'd write me letter. oh... well...
i teach him chinese when i'd be there... haha...
aiya... actually i know he's never has a min to write me letter. but he said...
but i 've promised you...
you 've never be free to write me a word.
i complian to him about my school policy, and he told me about his diploma also...
hum.... i dont know...
he'd come on line tonight, for the course assignment,
ok... then i tend to we work hard together tonight.
coz i've to finish the proposal also...
and if he doesnt come on line tonight... then i think i'll do it tomorrow morning....
it's kidda shit for me, coz now, miki moves back to my room...
then dad sleep with mom of course, then he's still sleeping when the early morning...
erm.... i dont know.
i was kidding i dont want to talk with him... haha... but it's like a joke for us... haha...
chinese... yea that's chinese =P
hum... work hard man.
>>November 22, 2004 at 1:48:48 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 20 日 星期六 【晴】
hihi....this is the third time for me to write about today...
coz stupid sister,leggy delete my diary just now.....=.= !!!
shit...
anyway.....
last night i went to bed early....
and today i go to work.
not so tired, but really busy day today.
might be i got enough rest , sleep yesterday... so i 'm not dead yet.
today.... there's a rude man come to me.
he asks for help... he asks me to take the order for him. alright i think i should help him,
otherise, he'll beat me... haha... kidding. but i'm a bit scared.
he asks me if i wrote him ticket would let the proceedure smooth.
i told him yes, coz i supposed to asn like that " modle ans".
but actually i know it couldnt be help....
by the way, he seems understand that i'm just saying something impossible to him.
haha... he asked me" but how if you keep writing for everyone..."
okok.... he says " would you make it quick?"
oh.. ok yes, i'd try my best to make it fast.
so, at the same time, i order for others, also pick up his ticket to the counter,
told them to be fast walking, moving, working the value of the ticket out.
and i 's doing three orders at the same time.
an old woman asking me for the manul, food...
the order after the old woman didnt line up right. so, i stand probably in front of him, stop him
come to the counter, and i give the counter ticket, told them to be quick...
and the old woman's one, also... coz she doesnt wanna tell them what she wants by herself.
after all.... the rude man was so lame.
coz he keep pushing me to be fast for his order, but he forgot to pay the bill.
cool.... i asked him " $ 22 dollars plx " so loud.... coz he's not in front of the counter already.
he's already left...and he's so clumsy to find the money in the pocket.
well well... the counter crew said... ohoh.... is he really in crushed? of course i know she's...
haha...
anyway, he steaded at me sometimes... i did notice that.
i was a bit scared... coz he's not chinese, and he's not teens, but not really old.
his eng is a bit hard to adjust.
i dont know what he wants....
and he looked at me when i s doing my job.... er.....
so, i give him a smile. i dont want him to be rude to me.
he tired to talk to me... alright, i listen what he wanna say.
and then... he told me his opinion on my name... "castor"
he says it's not a nice name for me.
but i'd be friendly to him, tell him why , where my name 's from.
hum... and he asks me the chinese name. he says it's much better than the eng one.
we've chated for a few mins.
your name is special, yea i know thx... and you're special too. well...thanks.
and... i like you.
thx....( * oh no ! what ?! ) thankyou...=) (* i was shaking....)
then.... he asks me if i'm always here ... no i'm not.
i only work in sunday. only sunday? yea... only..
oh.... so... hope to see you again....=) he...smile to me......
ok, see you later, have a nice day, i said.
hum....
when afternoon, he called me, but i missed it,
then i called back...
heehee ^^ he's still in bed. he's so cute~ i love him. haha...
anyway, after few mins, he slept again.
**** and ****... then **** again~ haha....
i love him.
missing...
>>November 21, 2004 at 1:39:35 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 19 日 星期五 【晴】
last night i called him, he didnt pick up the phone...
but he called back...
he's just too busy and tired.
i dont think it's good for him anyway.
anyway... it's ok, coz he does know what he's doing.
hum... today i wake up late.
then do rest alot,... eat out with sister, miki.
hum... then he called me =)
heehee... yes, miss me. and i miss him too.
he ask me if i chosse to have lunch with sister in stead of him...haha...kidding.
then... he bought the bad food, haha...
he loves mocha, like me. we both only like mocha. heehee ^^
mocha is nice, really nice. i tell him why i dont like copp or latte.
i was with miki and ching(aunt)...
so i cant talk with him long, cant call him honey what...haha...
hum.... but i really really miss him and love him...so...
when ching's left, miki and me go hang around... we go inside a big shop...then...
we start doing our own stuffs, our own indiviual time~!!
haha...i call back, then sweet talking him...haha... >.< haha! =P
erh.... haha.. ok, stop here... haha!
alright, i wrote him letter last night, i told him to be careful and i told him i'd be very busy till mid of dec.
hum,..... love him lots.... hee....
i stop at 3 am last night.
and tomorrow i've to work from 10-6 =) heehee.
anyway, just now i watched the spiderman 2 ... nice movie.
and i went to join soma for around 10 mins, then i left...to the tai po center.... have dinner
with my parents and sister leggy.
miki is still not home yet... she went bbq with her girl guilds.
goodnight castor, goodnight my darling,
and perhaps my darling is fine =)
>>November 20, 2004 at 12:51:59 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 18 日 星期四 【晴】
today.... waked at 6 am.
i've the breakfast outside with shan.... nice ...
then we go to school.... hum... i got his message.
then i called back. we chat for a few mins.
i go to wan chai, the book store, buy the coffe in delifrance(very bad)
then go back to class.
hum... i didnt eat my lunch, but i ate some fries when the ethics class for tea.
after school, lee wai, me and only went to tsim sha tsui.
i buy some pen...
anyway,... tomorrow have a holiday, have to rest more.
last night he didnt call back,
he fell asleep. i think he's over working again...
ai... anyway, no matter how, i just wanna stay at his side, to support him.
plx take care.
on train to home, i sms him, but still no respond.
so... i think i'll call him later.
i just worry if there's anything wrong, .... you know... he's always careless for himself.
miss him much.
thx god for a peaceful day.
>>November 19, 2004 at 12:10:56 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 17 日 星期三 【晴】
haha...
last night, someone said he'd joint my dinner... well... but someone was really late to come.
he missed it.
we've talk on phone... sweet ^^
i just found that he's studing in the diploma for programing. hum... he's much hard working than me.
he studied till 1 am... i think coz he was in hospital for a month that's why he must be that hard working.
heehee... the online course... i think it's kindda like our course.
by the way... he's always hard working in work and studies... aiya...
he said , in singapore, people are all very hard working... then i say...
i cant live in sginapore. haha... but me... i'm the happiness type.
i dont like too stressed feeling, if it's too stressed...
i'd try to make it like a game or the actitive for myself.
today, i waked at 11 am heehee =)
then i start reviewing. hum.... i've missed a lesson, so i feel a bit hard to understand some questions.
at 1pm, his call come =) heehee~~~ i love him ^^
swimming? riding bycicle? hum...sorry i cant do that. haha..
but he can. ok fine~ good godd.~ haha =P
where is my hello kitty? i want the red color!
last time juning reminded me there's promoting the hello kitty now.
i found that red color is nice too. so i wanna get one for him and one for myself ^^
let him look for it, instead of junming. heehee~
he told me he'd tried later... but i think he has to move fast... but he's just too slow.
aiya......
today i'm also looking for stuffs for christmas.
for him, for my friends, for my family, for his family also.
coz i'm coming over singapore soon, maybe just at the christmas or late of dec.
i've made him a little hand made box. the little box is made by wood and colors=)
that includes lots of meanings. i've a pair. one for him and of course one for me heehee~
i think he's an un- thoughtful man ( except in work )
he always doesnt wanna input other things except the working stuffs into his mind.
including me. but he always say he loves me. haha...ai....
if so, he's like a child, being forgetful to mom(me) , but always need mom(me)'s caring.
mom, i love you, but i also easy to forget you, mom.
am i correct? haha... perhaps he'd not be angry after reading the above.
haha... but i think he'd never come here to have a look.
i feel so tired of my exam today.
ai... did worse... hum...
his pet cat dead at his office corridoor.... poor little cat... someone killed it...
that's really sorry to hear about.
anyway, i've a pretty nice day today, thx to god ! =P
>>November 18, 2004 at 1:03:35 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 16 日 星期二 【晴】
ai...
yesterday we had econ class, and sir was explaining the questions... that
he said the questions are just the exercise.
i saw many people coppied down those... but i was too tired...
i fell asleep. i missed lots of them.
i just coppied the 2 short questions, i thought that was enough, coz...
short que is quite hard to handle, so i did want to practise myself in it...
but you know what happened today on paper?
i think the paper yesterday he talk about in class is the 65% as same as the paper.
i was.... hum.....
the short questions are the same questions from yesterday.
and i know many classmates coppied all the questions(MC) ANSWERS...
so... i think.... they all will get high marks.
(coz my schoolmates love to memorrize answers for the exam)
shit... i hate that, but i got to pay for my unwillness... that's i will get low marks.
as normal, i m the latest person to leave.
well.... how do i feel?
give me THREE DOTs PLEASE * . . .
i waked at 9 30 am.
i come to view the assignments, and... i take my lunch on train, some bread...
and then i went to delifrance to have coffe before exam. i had a seat there...
hum.... give me THREE DOTs Again Please * . . .
after exam, joey and me went to yau ma tei.
she bought a hand bag, chinese traditional bag.
and... walk around the streets for chinese stuffs... then we take bus to home.
on bus, we've chated alot... and play...haha.
perhaps she didnt mind what i've said, or i was kidding about.
tomorrow we'll have another test, math.
do well castor, you should do well.
last night he called me at 12 00 am...
we've talk for a few mins... haha... he's so sweet.
he went sleep, i started re-viewing... but not succeed.
today i sms him at them morning...
hum... called at lunch... but he didnt contact me. i dont know,
when i come on line, he's here already. he just kidding with me too.
i think he's a nice day today. good for him ... but i'm not in mood.
he 's away for bath, he said he'd call me soon, let's wait ...
>>November 17, 2004 at 1:00:49 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 15 日 星期一 【晴】
hello.
last night he didnt contact me.
today i was late to school. i was toooooo sleepy, and moody.
when i got his message, i felt like....erh......
haha... but finally i replied him. but he tought me angry again.
er...heehee. he told me he slept for a whole day, but feeling very fresh after waked.
of course... but only me that silly waited for his call or message till 2:30.
i slept at 3:00 am.
ok la... i m still fine. not angry. we message each others till lunch...heehee.
i always fell asleep... i slept in class again! so bad...
and when i back home, then i start sleeping till dinner, 9:15pm.
and now... after dinner, i come here sitting down~
when lunch, i call hime, he call me back. haha...
then we've chated... for 16 mins. that's his lunch time. so short.
i ask him mant questions..^^ heehee !
about letters, about sweet, about chocolate...
he doesnt like the sweet last time i sent him, but i did like that.
he likes chocolate too. i say i'll give him some when valentine ^^ ...heehee.
he asks me i fly over to give or how...haha! i say you come here to take mine 'd be better !
he says... he'd consider it! haha! good good =P !! haha~
aiya~ finally my darling says 'll write me a letter. this letter 'd be very important le ^^ ~
im going to study now,
coz tomorrow will have the econ exam, and the thursday have math test again.
castor, work hard !
hum.... dont know we'd be connected or not =)
but i miss him. heehee.
>>November 16, 2004 at 2:04:11 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 14 日 星期日 【晴】
hihi
today i planed to go libary at the morning, bit i couldnt wake...
coz my feet was too pain and tired. and i really need to rest.
then, i wake at 11:00 am, when all is out already.
i came on line... before washing face, changing clothes.
erh... i saw my darling.
erh........... i didnt greet him.
coz last night he didnt call back or message me, just like he's disappered again.
actually i was a bit angry, coz worried for him, or i thought he loves sleeping rather than me.
hum... i was talking with aunt on line, translating the words to my dad on phone at the same time.
aunt is coming hk in dec, and uncle is coming earlier than her in dec.
so, they want dad to book the hotel room for them =)
and i know when she comes, we'll talk about the studies for me....
i still dont know the package from companies yet, so i still cant fix the schedle for my trip.
and he knows it, i mean benny. he told me he guess i'll not going there coz of my aunt and uncle.
i say "no of course."
but anyway, we started argue... about where he had been last night and... lots of whys.
you know me, i always question people, myself. i love to ask questions.
coz ... i love to prove out fact, i love evidence. too logical.
i asked not directly... but i think he was almost mad... coz he knows me... haha!
he felt like something wrong... he asked me if we were going to argue.
"no, but i'm questioned in it." haha...
hum... anyway, we didnt argue for long... coz he's so gentle. he stoped it.
actually no one should say sorry. we both aint wrong.
it's not the matter of " sorry " but, i think if he told me earlier that on fri or sat....
i'd not be that worried or not thought too much.
he was in malysia for his relative's dead...the funeral.
he drived over night... didnt bring the phone.
all is hard to accept for me in fact. but i got to trust him.
and i think we'll not bring back this event to our future anymore.
well that's why i am too late to k lunch today...
er... i am late for around 45 mins. and i was lost in mong kok again. just blind for road sign.
we celebrate for rachel 's birthday~ yeah~
me, rachel, calais, sunny and leewai~ haha!
we sang much... nice nice~ haha...
then, rachel and me go take photo(stickers)
this is the first time to take the "indevaldle" picture by accident. (i've forgotten the spelling)
haha... i'll post them on later.
then i go back sha tin library, larger than tai po one.
hum... he says... he'd call me when he is waked, let's see what will happen.
you can say i dont trust him well, coz what he did isnt that good for me to trust.
but i'm tring to trust him, coz i should trust him.
how to improve two people- relationship?
plx let me know you more before i trust you all.
you 'd never wanna, or never tell me much about yourself.
you're challenging me.
but maybe i just thinking too much again.
in my name, as in... i'm the number five.
coz the 1 st is his work, 2 nd is family, 3 rd is sleeping, 4 th is his car...
then me, is the 5 th.
haha...well. ... ..
i dont want to argue with him. i just learning how to deal with something i dont trust before.
i love him, so i'm still on.
双子座 别生气他老爱唱反调的个性，他只是想探看你的反应
狮子座 最爱展现其王者之风，其实是只无助爱撒娇的小猫咪
haha...給你一個全中吧 ! =P
I LOVE HIM.
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
last night...
今天... 好不開心.
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