"The marvellous thing about a joke with a double meaning is that it can only mean one thing."
Ronnie Barker
TODAY IS THE GREAT DAY.
THREE MONTHS ALREADY =)
SO MEANINGFUL FOR ME, FOR US.
last night i wrote till 3:30...am
then i found that i cant sleep imdeately =S
and then... finally i selpt at 4am.
today morning, i got his sms.... thanks for darling.
i was a bit sick, maybe too tired...heehee
so i told him i'm still sleeping, but i'll wake up very soon.
he felt strange for my reasons.
last night, silly him help me to upload the pictures on net...
coz i dont have time to recieve his cute pictures, i gave him password, log in id...
haha... but silly darling opend a new file for no pictures =P !! haha.
anyway... i just wake up, i slept till 11: 00 am.
it's just too bad =(
coz actually i need to wake around 8-9 am
hum...
i m going to start writing again...
11:14 am
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now is 6:33 pm .
hum... today, i didnt do much things... i feel so lazy haha...
but i will review my econ test first, coz i'm going to take the third test tomorrow.
you know... i'm a bit stressed, coz i wanna get higher marks on it.
hum... let's wait and see.
lunch, i've called him, we've chat for a few mins.
hum...sweet.
i have to learn... how to be a thoughtful girl.
i really really wanna tell him i love him.
i miss him soooooooo much.
work hard.
let's work hard together =)
i love him, so i should love myself more.
thanks to jesus.
i love myself, but i love him much more.
beautiful day.
*****
>>December 1, 2004 at 10:39:18 AM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 29 日 星期一 【晴】
hi....
today cant wake up again...
last night i've chated with some friends, net friends.
then i've found something so meaningful for me and for him =)
Thanks to jesus=)
actually... hum... my friend is completely like him... haha... they're like in the same type.
by the way, they're different. one is my love, but one is my friend.
hum... he told me alot of truth that i've never thought about before.
like... actually i'm not a thoughtful girl... coz i'd never thought of his tough, but i just keep asking.
hum... anyway... i know it's hard to trust him all... and it's hard to accept his charatarstics.
but it's fine... coz i'm going to learn of it =)
my friend told me... like him, he also very busy, is a very private man also...
(i dont know why there're so much private men in the world)
he just dont want to look back, regret about what he did for girls, but lost his dreams.
er.... it's sorry to heard about... coz they're bad memorries.
he just walks out his dreams. yup... that's the long story... and,... he feels alright then it's fine.
coz he's very good... how to say... a nice friend... but never could be partner.
you understand? coz.. he's older, of course much mature....and... just two types.
he says... he can always have fun with girls, but he need a girl who is always supporting
in stead of complainig. that's right anyway.
he suggests me to firgue out what motivates him to catch his dreams... then support him...
he'd never wanna losse me than. haha...
he suggests me to walk my own roads, to follow the dreams, my own dreams.
i told him i would go study abord soon... he feels so glad. but he also suggests me to learn
other things, such as cooking, ... coz that's important.
yup, i know.
he ask me to help him, to promote about his products in hk.
i'll help. let's see the oppotunities..... hee
i've told benny about that... coz still no chances to talk about that's the serious stuff....
anyway,
thx for his sms, coz he wakes me up~haha! ^^
hum....
yup, i've called him today lunch.
i thanks him alot today. haha...
might be he feels a bit strange... but that's true from my heart ^^
thanks for his love, thanks him... coz he treats me so well...
thanks to him...coz he's a very sweet guy, always makes me laugh... always love me.
i know i'm not a good girlfriend.
i asked him if i am a bad girlfriend...
he says... never. he told me dont need to give thanks to him.. . ^^
i feel so nice when i think of him every min.
i know i'm not good although he denly on it... haha... i'm tring my best.
he asks me why still not good enough. he doesnt sense it...
i dont know, but i know i'm not good enough.
actually he's much mature than me, much thoughtful than me.
i dont know why... but i have faith in him.
that's something starting to be changed...
it's like the life being. we're growing =)
and i think i'll love him real. dont know when it started... but it's started already.
i am going to do my phil final paper tonight,
perhaps i can finish it tonight. at least... draft it once.
Today , i wake at 9 am
and then go out to study with lee wai, coz we both take the test at the same group.
we have nice lunch/ breakfast at mcdonald's...
then... we relax a lot... do the last review... then... haha.
on bus to hollywood palza, i've got the sms from him.
thankyou darling... it's you to make my days become pretty =)
but it's jesus to mkae us be that thankful =) is jesus teachs us how to love and what is love.
then i call back... haha ^^
anyway..." i hope you will understand that i do love you and i have faith in our relationship."
that's the santence from my heat =)
well.... i coppied this santence from someone, heheeeeee~~ !!!!
i do know who's that person in my heart.... thanks.
by the way, after tofel, we went to hollywood plaza again...
she need a bag, so we go to get a bag. and then we've eaten a lot of nice food !
hum... haha... then we go to take pictures, coz she sledom takes picture... so let's take some for fun.
and thanks to god, she has a very nice day toaday. she enjoys alot, although we've tofel today.
of course i enjoy my exam too... this time is less tired than the last time.
hum.... still ok. not that stressed.
i got the range higher than the last, i got... 133-193... worse... but better than last time.
hum... haha... if i take the tofel again, i will prepare well.
anyway... i enjoy this time lots. coz i can feel the love from god. thanks to god =)
hum... on the bus to home, i got his message.
his car broken... oh oh ... long time for him hasnt take train to home ... heeheeeee.
i told him to be careful... then we chat later.
^^ yea i love him.
actually i wanna tell him in voice that
i really really wanna give thanks to him, coz he really really makes my life beautiful.
i dont need much, i just need his love and of course the love from jesus.
i dont ask for much... i just need his real heart with me.
i dont care if he's rich or not... just enough for his living or our basic living for future is ok then.
that's simple, easy thing.
but the most difficult part is that we need to have faith, and the need, help in god.
thanks to god...
thanks to my darling.
>>November 29, 2004 at 12:34:54 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 27 日 星期六 【晴】
i have the sec interview today...
i'll try...hum... i 'll.
before, i got his sms... hum... it's touching.
then i call back... we've chated for a few mins...
at first, i s a bit embarassed... but fine, coz of shy....
anyway... it's ok...
i call back when home.
tonight is the celebration day for my parents.
we've bbq tonight =)
i've called him...
we chat.... haha... silly...
who's darling is he? haha... mine.
hum..... let it be... i love him.
and he does too....... so .... we both have no choices.
last night he told me how much is his bill for calls fees this month.
wow... haha... mine is sent too... $ hks 245. much less than him.
but i tell him... i'm the expensive darling for him... then he says...
what to do i love you. ohoh... haha..
i love him...
thanks to jesus... coz i ve the beautiful days...
i treasure everything that jesus gives me...
wether the road might be very hard to go...
might be we'd brake up soon... but i do treasure him lots and lots..
i treasure the days being happy, being sad, being confused...being frustrated...
coz it's all given by him.
tomorrow i'll take the sec time tofel...
i'm not stressed... coz i know someone is supporting me, the jesus.
and someone is blessing me, loving me... that's jesus and my darling.
although he's not near to me, not going to take breakfast or lunch with me before exam...
he's with me in heart.
i feel so great. i feel so proud with jesus and him.
i dont know how the result will be... but i do will try my best on it =)
that's i promise.
love him...
i got a lot to tell him, i got lots to share with him...
perhaps he'd call me =)
*如果你想打俾我就打啦.
*如果你食完飯,睇電視,掛住我,就打俾我啦.
so different! haha...
>>November 28, 2004 at 2:19:11 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 27 日 星期六 【晴】
last night we've taught for long.
i've never expected he'd be on line... just after my nick changed to be
"i better off everyday... i dont mind."
hum....well... he asked me what's that mean.. but i try to dont tell.
coz i was so confused too... dont know how to tell him or what's the answer in my mind.
i try to "avoid" his question... talk another things..
but he told me i treated him like the stranger.
finally,... i've told him where the nick from and... told... him... what i thought...
hum... i told him i feel so tough... coz i dobnt have chance to know more about him...
like last time about his past with his ex-girlfriend....
but he refused to tell me... and he explained last night why....
and i know how private he is now.
coz... he doesnt wanna bring back his bad past memorries.
he hesitated about if it could help me to know more about him... but make him sad.
well... i felt so sorry for it, but actually i got no more methods.
but i just respect his decision... i wont ask him anymore.
but actually i think if we could break though it together... it's much better than he cule himself alone.
but i told him... that's not my specific concern on his past... i just try to know him more.
whenever, the past, present or future...
he said... he just try to move on, dont turn back...
hum.....
he told me ... time is very important... knowing him is a process.
but he's a private man, that's it.
he hopes me to love , accept the real him, but not pushing him to be what i want him to be.
hum.... he said he'd never ask me what i dont want to mention about.
but i told him... i'd like to share everything with the person i love.
well... at that moment... i thought... my godness... a sharing girl with a private man.
how to ....be together?
hum... but by the way, i stop the conversation peacefully.
coz i think nothing good to descuess about on.
i say... ok i stop it... [white flag]
hum....
yea... might be i'm just over reacted.
>>November 28, 2004 at 7:15:09 AM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 26 日 星期五 【晴】
Ashlee Simpson - Love Make The World Go Around Lyrics
Here...here I am again
And I'm starin at these same four walls
Alone again
And now all the colors blend
And I'm growing up and i've become this empty page
Hold on it's tragic stumblin through all this static
I just wanna talk to you my broken heart just has no use
I, I guess promises are better left unsaid...yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that i'm the only
But i'm the one whose crawlin on the ground
When you say love makes the world go round
My love (my love) look at what you've done to me
For someone who has felt so strong it's amazing i'm completely
gone
Hold on it's tragic stumblin through all this static
I just wanna talk to you my broken heart just has no use
I, I guess promises are better left unsaid yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that I'm the only
But i'm the one whose crawlin on the ground
When you say love makes the world go round
That's the kind of love you give me
I'd rather be alone, believe me
Is that the way you want to treat me
I'd rather walk away
I just wanna talk to you my broken heart just has no use
I, I guess promises are better left unsaid, yeah
And everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that i'm the only
But I'm the one whose crawlin on the ground
When you say love makes the world go round
Yeah you say love makes the world goes round
Everytime you try to tell me
I don't care you're not the only
Don't you know I'm comin back around
Cause I say love makes the world go round
Cause I say love makes the world go round
今天...
我和 lee wai 去了溫書.. for tofel 啦.
我們之後聊天聊了很久... 什麼都聊. 又逛逛這裡那裡.
hum... ok 啦... 對於 tofel, 我不想再有太多的無謂壓力.
So his emails raise your blood temperature a few degrees and bring a blush to your face. Somehow he knows just what to say to get a rise out of you and fill your mind with wild imaginings. But even though his key-stroked sweet nothings cause you to breathe a little faster, how do you know if he’ll really have that magic touch, in the flesh?
Does hot cyber-chemistry automatically translate to sizzle between the sheets?
In a word, nope. But that doesn’t mean it can’t happen, because thousands of brilliant matches have gotten their start online. But even when the e-repartee is hot, it’s not until you meet face-to-face that you’ll know for sure that you two have that spark.
Katherine, a 41-year-old single mom and registered nurse, became a true believer after meeting her soul mate over the internet.
Katherine says, “When Paul and I met online, I was skeptical that it would go anywhere because he lived in Italy and I lived in the States. I wasn’t even sure I’d bother responding to his first message, because it seemed futile. But something about his emails really resonated with me, and soon we were communicating several times a day. We just seemed to click on every level. After a couple of weeks, we began speaking on the phone. It wasn’t too long before I felt I was really falling in love with him, and he with me. There was definitely lots of chemistry between us! After five months of emails and phone calls, he arranged a trip to the U.S. I was so nervous as I watched his plane taxi in. What if the chemistry wasn’t the same when we met face-to-face? It could have been a devastatingly heartbreaking blow. But the miracle is that our chemistry was even more powerful in person. After a couple more trans-Atlantic visits, Paul has now relocated to the U.S., and we are happily married.”
Terry, a 49-year-old social worker from Massachusetts, shares a different perspective.
Terry relates: “In my experience, not only does cyber-chemistry not automatically translate to sizzle between the sheets — it doesn't even guarantee you'll want to see each other again after coffee. Some people are far better communicators via the written word than in the flesh, and the opposite is also true. While it’s exciting to have an erotic pen pal of sorts, it’s only one small aspect of the person. There's no sight, touch, smell, hearing — and even one's sixth sense is questionable. Nothing can offer more clues to a person than his body language, gestures, the tilt of a head, not to mention the sound of his voice.”
Terry continues, “When you think about it, cyber dating is like waiting for a Polaroid to come completely into focus. You get one thing at a time – first the words, then the voice, then a body, then the person – at least the part they want to show you. I use my intuition more then anything and it's rarely been wrong. Is real-life chemistry possible? Absolutely. Is it automatic? No way.”
Bottom line, the mystery of romantic chemistry is just that: a mystery. Whether you meet online, or the old-fashioned way, if the chemistry’s sizzling, you’ll know it’s for real when you feel it in the flesh.
>>November 26, 2004 at 4:45:26 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 25 日 星期四 【晴】
hihi =)
today i wake up, then go to school....
erm.... i sent him message... but no reply,
then... i called him when lunch... no respond...
but he messaged me =)
he was taking check up.
after that he called me back.
we've chated for a few mins in class... hum.... yea.... heehee sweet.
i've told him that about my trip.... hum... might be dely it to jan... =(
anyway... me and joey go to cheung sha wan after school...
then go back tai po.
i've pizza with family tonight, coz leggy's birthday.
anyway... i sms him... no respond.
then on the way to home, he called back.
love him lots.
=)
but coz the pc virus still not fixed...
so i'm a bit moody by it...
12:55 am arranged...
Quote of the Day
"Once the realization is accepted that even between the closest human beings infinite distances continue to exist, a wonderful living side by side can grow up, if they succeed in loving the distance between them."
Rainer Maria Rilke
>>November 26, 2004 at 4:55:35 PM GMT+8
2004 年 11 月 24 日 星期三 【晴】
last night...
昨晚...那個衰人... send 他的 diary link 給我...
之後... 個網常常彈那個 "sear for poker on line research" 出來...
我搞了 3 個半 小時... 又delete 又install... shit...
開機關機... 條死人link 還在彈彈下... 我真想... 找他出來給他兩掌兩拳 !
fu*k... 我等好耐先拿回電腦... 重新裝好我要的東西... fu*k...
第一晚...就... 我真的內心充滿著怨恨...
他平時已經好衰... 常常問我有關 sex 的問題..扮什麼?! 還年幼啊?!
超嬲啊 !!!!!!!
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
"The marvellous thing about a joke with a double meaning is that it can only mean one thing."
hi....
last night we've taught for long.
Ashlee Simpson - Love Make The World Go Around Lyrics
Someone who know