hum,... after lunch at home, then i go out to join soma at mong kok.
finally elston hasnt contacted me... hum,.... fine.
we've a nice night, ... after that then i go back tai po by myself...
when i arrived, tung called me....
aiya... i preferr staying with them tonight~
anyway, calais came mong kok tonight, wow~ welcome calais =)
so nice to see him tonight.
before i left home, i called him,... he's sleeping.
we've taught for few mins.
hum... that's it.
tonight.... it's very lonly, is .... non- favourite.
is strange, is not that happy at all... and i rather spend my night at store might be.
i rather go out with tung tonight.
he left me alone... actually... "sick" cant be the excues.
sleeping is not the excues,... i dont understand why he could be like that....
is it my problem again?
i dont want to argue with him la... let him do whatever he wants.
i've tried to call him, but he didnt ans my call.
he's sleeping must be... might be just toooo tired to listen me call?!
alright... I STOP IT...
tomorrow cant meet up with hui ping, my friend is arrived hk with her family already.
tomorrow got to work... i'm still waiting for his news... when he'll call me back?
why he keep me waiting?
pray hard.
>>December 20, 2004 at 4:25:17 PM GMT+8
2004 年 12 月 19 日 星期日 【晴】
hihi~!
i've already got my abording pass today!!!
i went to sha tin today,
and bought a lot of things at marks & spencers, hum,... chocolate, buzikit,...
for the visiting later.
yup, i've bought the nice chocolate and cokkies for benny's family.
then bought some chocolate to junming, and some nice candies for angeline.
i'm still looking for something for chris.
hum,... let's wait and see, however, i'll bring some nice crafts for their girlfriends =)
i'm planing to catch up with shan and queenie on 23 rd , at night, after school.
and... 24 th ve to work, 25 th at home, baking cakes with family then at night soma have shows.
26 th taking rest, then 27 th, 28 th will go work and out with Elston with his girlfriend =)
29 th will rest... 30 th go to work and school, then 31 go to work~!
Jan is coming then!!!! so excited!!! haha
but i miss him so much~~~
hum,... when he'll be back?
i'm still waiting for the news... for his news...
hum,.... why he's always like that =S...
>>December 20, 2004 at 12:54:15 PM GMT+8
2004 年 12 月 19 日 星期日 【晴】
I've replied to Jackie...
and i 've wrote a list to Shan...
that's all i want her to do for me after me dead.
i dont know when i'll die, as in the suitation that .... worse in this world.
i just hope god to recieve my life at His right time.
i dont know when it will come..... coz i'm one of the miss LSC might be?
that news i've read today is really made me down, and too sad.
i wanna tell benny what happened in these days without him... i still can live nice,
but actually i'm not. i feel bad without him. in this week, i always think of him...
it seems passing through long days ago already, but actually it's not, just 10 days.
i used to think he'd contact me today...
but i'm wrong again...
i thought he would not let me worried again, but he did.
is me too stressed... it's not his fault.
life is just too short, and i think mine is very short kind one.
coz i've too many beautiful things, i'm too fortunate.
maybe... i should glory god alot, i should return to His love...
but i dont now how to do it... i want to help benny to be a christain...
this is the first thing i want to do....... the great thing for me is to help a person to trust in god.
nothing is better that that.
i'm not good in these actions, so i rather to live it out.
use my life to prove that god 's really the only, holy god.
and he bless me since i was born. that's obvious.
i just want people who're with me could see that who is the real god.
and wish to bring this message to them...
god love you very much... and that's where the faith, hope and love from.
go to check out the evidence, the world history, the bible, the speech from christain.
see it, find it, view it, feel it, the real evidence, the real god, the real love.
when people will wake up???
what can we do now jesus? i'm so worried for the people who still vent understood.
sometimes we decide on onething is just by feelings, by the chemistry in us.
emotions tell us to do what we want...
god is real, we all could wait and see it clearly.
i take this risk... not as a risk, but the time for me to give myself a way to go, to find the answer.
if i'll be died or injured or whatever in this time, i'll not regret for everything,
and i'm still proud of myself i've take this "risk".
i'm so wise, so honest, so brave.
i can see my faith, hope and the love.
thx for god for my trip.
thx for god to let me know him, thx for god for evey things inside me.
just wait, and we will see what will happen on me.
maybe we cant stay together in the future, but we've been together,
left the footprints in this world.
maybe this moment, we vent met up yet, but we would see in the Father garden, the heaven.
we could not control anything,
but by faith, haop and love, we'd see our road so bright.
all is from god, the jesus lord.
thankyou so much...
i hope you keep me in your hands jesus.
i wanna i wanna i wanna too much, you give me too much...
i am just walking with you and them.
i need you....
i need him, benny, i need my family my friends...
>>December 19, 2004 at 5:08:59 PM GMT+8
2004 年 12 月 18 日 星期六 【晴】
This is note, or quiz i saw from net.
How Happy Are You?
You're happy enough, but could be more so.
You know the feeling of happiness, but every now and then, fear clutches your heart
and ruins the whole thing. Your primitive fear sensors -- the ones left over from the days when life
was fraught with rampaging tigers -- are working overtime. Change scares you a little, bad days seem
permanent, and you sometimes feel isolated from others. Sometimes your life feels out of
control."Unhappiness is based on fear, and fear cannot be held in the brain at the same time as love,"
says Dr. Dan Baker, psychologist and author of What Happy People Know (St. Martin's Press, 2004).
His quick fix to start the attitude change: look for something in the moment to appreciate. "See problems
as possibilities," he says. Done something great, or even good? Appreciate yourself and pause for a
moment of pride.David Myers, a professor of social psychology at Hope College and one of the nation's
foremost research experts on happiness, says, "We can sometimes act ourselves into a frame of
mind. Manipulated into a smiling expression, people feel better; when they scowl, the whole world
seems to scowl back. So talk as if you feel positive self-esteem, are optimistic, and are outgoing. Going
through the motions can trigger the emotions." He also recommends strengthening connections with
others, sleep, exercise, an appreciation journal, and membership in a faith community.If you hate your
job, either change it or engage in a hobby that will help you experience "flow." The state of flow -- a
sense of un-self-consciousness and serenity -- is caused by pursuing enjoyable and meaningful
activities, either on the job or off, from golf to needlepoint, from weeding a garden to organizing your
closet. The activities or thoughts that bring on a state of flow are different for each of us. Doing more
of those things, though, brings on more joy and a habit of happy living.
Is Long Distance Romance for You?
You can handle it, but you don't like it very much.
Okay, so you prefer your guy closer to home. You like a hand to hold, another mind to
bounce things off of, and somebody to cook for you -- or, at least, with you. But that's not happening
right now, so you're trying to look on the bright side.You love the walloping high of reunions with your
long-distance lover, the intense romance, and the love notes. When he's not there, you openly revel in
holding the remote and watching Cinematherapy on the Women's Entertainment network while eating
popcorn for dinner.When the girls go out after work, you're right there, lifting a margarita. But if a few
silver-haired millionaires should float over from the bar to join you, you might feel a little bit sulky.
Sometimes you wonder if all this chastity and devotion to your long-distance guy is worth it. If you
weren't watching Lifetime TV, could you be out hunting for a guy who is
richer/taller/funnier/smarter/has more hair? Or maybe one who would surprise you with a
spontaneous date? Be honest, now!"There has to be an equal commitment from both people," says
romance coach Leslie Karsner, founder of Longdistancelovers.com and author of The Long Distance
Romance Guide (iuniverse.com, $11.95) "You both need a willingness and a wanting to put forth this
extra effort. There should be an end in sight; you should always schedule the next time you're going to
get together."Also, she recommends: "Both partners should truly have a life of their own, social and
physical diversions. It's not just about being busy, but about really being involved in something
rewarding. To make this work, you also have to surround yourself with people who are willing to stay
supportive, even other couples who are friends who'll invite you out on Friday night."
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i've heard a really bad news today... for my old school...
that made me shocked, and sad...
i really concern this news lots.... and perhaps people are fine.
i'll pray for them, and my teachers.
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i still vent got his call yet...
hum,... i'm waiting for him... who knows when will we really meet?
who knows we're really that truly for each others...?
jesus knows.
i am waiting for him... till the day i heard that i must stop.
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
MERRY CHRISTMAS
HI!~
今天是 christmas eve 的前一天,
Today… I feel bad.
Someone who know