(女)天天都需要你愛 我的心思由你猜
I LOVE YOU 我就是要你讓我每天都精彩
天天把它掛嘴邊 到底什麼是真愛
I LOVE YOU 到底有幾分 說得比想像更快
(男)是我們感情豐富太慷慨 還是有上天安排
是我們本來就是那一派 還是捨不得太乖
是那一次約定了沒有來 讓我哭得像小孩
是我們急著証明我存在 還是不愛會發呆 BABY
(合)不得不愛 否則快樂從何而來
不得不愛 否則悲傷從何而來
不得不愛 否則我就失去未來
好像身不由己 不能自己很失敗 可是每天都過得精彩
(Rap)I ask girlfriend how you been
來去了幾回 我從來沒有想過 愛情會變得如此無奈 是命運嗎
難道難過是上天的安排 沒辦法 天天的每天的心思到底由誰來陪
我誠心 我誠意 但周圍擾人的環境始終 讓我們無法在這裡自由相戀
我精采 你發呆 兩顆心不安的搖擺
應該有的未來 是否真的那麼的無法期待 捨不得在傷害
You're girl my girl my friend
How much I love you so so much baby
看著你哀愁 要我如何怎麼承受面對
I'm sorry you're my sweetheart
My love My one & only baby
(男)會不會有一點無奈
(女)會不會有一點太快
(合)可是你給我的愛
讓我養成了依賴
心中充滿愛的節拍
***
last night,
late dinner, but nice.
hummm, i miss my darling, so .... heehee
actually oo long darling forgot to bring phone to home.
hummmm heeee..
but dont know how's he now ?
i quite miss him =(
but i think we're ok =)
heeheeeee
he's quite fine, too. he's quite happy lately.
he's happy, then i'm happy ^^
and he treats me not bad, huh?
although he didnt answer my call today morning(tonight there)
hummmm
=)
>>September 26, 2005 at 8:16:35 PM GMT+8
2005 年 9 月 25 日 星期日 【晴】
hummm
last night we had tomato, egg with pork, for dinner.
very nice.
then... yesterday we didnt go out... just stay at home,
today we might go out for a walk.
anyway.........
last night, darling and me had chatted.
heeheeeee
before sleep, i've called my sisters, parents... haha nice.
then i slept around 3 am last night and waked at 8 am.
weeeeeell.... haha, then i called my darling of course.
hummmmm =)
darling is very nice huh ^^
i really love my darling...
by the way, my life in vancouver is counting down now =P
yay! hum.... it'snt that i dont like my life in here, but just wish to back, and then i really
want to go over sg to visit my darling.
hummmm yea... and also eat the sg food =P heehee.
but so sad that i still cant find my brace lace back =(
>>September 25, 2005 at 8:51:03 PM GMT+8
2005 年 9 月 24 日 星期六 【晴】
hummmm last night rest a lot a lot...
i waked at 7 30 am, called, then fell a sleep, then waked and call,
then slept again till 11 30 am.
woo... long sleep, but darling didnt answer my calls.
i dont know what happened with him.
i'm really sensitive... is it? erhhh... i dont know =)
but last night there was another urgent call or he's still working?
i called.... around 10 30, i thought it was ok, but not...
then i fell asleep... and i called around 11 45 pm overthere.... not fine also.
i dont know... is that called sensitive for my strange feelings...
anyway,... fine.... i dont mean to complain actually.
but just feel strange...
and then if i dont ask him, he wouldnt really tell me what happened.(most of time)
is that the all man kind? hahahaha
but he did sms me about the urgent call, the night before, for the missing call from me.
hummm unfortunately i didnt recieve his sms, or i just couldnt check it actually.
why he didnt just call me? much easier. just buy a card, then can call me... right? =S
by the way,
last night, before sleep, i spent quite long time in the kitchen for preparing the pork meat,
i mean to... "flavourize" them.
heeheee
one is for cooking tomato with egg.
one is for the "sui cai ro shi" rice noddle.
one is for the dumpling. heeheeee
i think all of them would be great, tasty.
hummmm, yup, i quite enjoy cooking with friend(s) =P
but i'd preffer spending my time with my darling at home, if it's posible heehee.
but really, i'm a little bit worried for him, dont know what happened with him...
=(
>>September 24, 2005 at 10:25:07 PM GMT+8
2005 年 9 月 23 日 星期五 【晴】
Last night,
we bought a lot of stuffs to home, now... we dont need to eat out always.
great.
then... we boil chinese soup, very nice, tasty...
and then... we have chinese baked salty chicken, with vegetable rice.
i feel so nice...
but last night we slept at 4 am,... so.... i feel not good when i waked up around 7 30am
for calling darling.
then.... i dont feel alright lately.... it's kindda strange.
hum,.... i dont want to..... write down what happened.
and then.... i slept again, coz i feel really tired and sick, but dont know what happened
on my body, just feel sick but dont know what it is..
hummmm.... then victoria waked up, then i waked again...
and then we chat and watched tv
and then i go bath, wash up...
and now sitting in front of the computer, having bread with kaya(singaporane style)
it's like " the coconut milk with egg.." i buy it from the asian super market.
then i'm drinking soymilk without sugar also,.... new type, so wanna try... but not so good.
by the way, yesterday i also bought the rice souce for cooking hainanese chicken rice.
i will bring it to hk, and cook for my family. i know my parents love them.
and then, at night,.... haha i used the web cam with my parents...
telling them everything about my life here, and then they're so happy about.... my cooking.
i mena they feel happy that i can cook, and boil chinese soup hahaha
and then ... dad was kidding with me... and implying me i'm stupid.
he said... i used to, or i like to do some stupid thing, but not by the direct way...
hahaha running arond to do the stupid thing? something like that...
but i didnt tell him i lost of brace lace.... sigh...
and then i diddnt tell him or mom about my darling...
i just dont know how to let them know...
i think if they know everything, my dad would ask me to... you know my meaning.
and then mom of course will say the same thing.
few days ago, mom already asked me how re we going...
then she implied... we're aprt, and quite far from each other, cant developed properly,
so... then she impled that.... we should be only friends, but not couple.
i didnt answer her "questions" i just "humm..., okok la.... 得啦得啦 erhhh,..."
something like that...
hummm i dont know how to explain to my parents also.
if they know my bf is like ..... then they will not be able to... "not worried"
and et us develope along. you know my meaning?
my dad, long time ago, is a tour guide, especially leading to singapore, malaysia, taiwan.
and then dad met mom at my mom's first trip to singapore.
nice, huh =)
anyway...
i dont feel happy... and i feel so strange.
dont ask me why................... i just dont feel good...
it depends... right? hummmmmm alright... i dont want to .... post it here.
i lost my brace lace, which is from daddy, last night...
='<
i waked up, then i found that ve happened already.
i couldnt find it.
i'd never put it off, but dont know why and when it happened...
i`really want it back...
=(
so bad...
i waked up at 7 30 am.... actually 7 am.
hummmm,... .. . i called him, so i ... set the alarm.
last night i was very sick, so i regonize i'd over slept to call.... so... that's what the alarm for.
by the way,
i dont like talking on phone with him.
dont know why.... it sounds so strange...
i'm so unhappy....
later we will go out...
=(
1 30 pm
>>September 22, 2005 at 8:47:19 PM GMT+8
2005 年 9 月 21 日 星期三 【晴】
today i 'm really really tired...
i waked around 7 30am, then i called darling...
heeeheee ^^ sweet.
quite early to wake up, but so long vent talk with him... so...
and ^^ heeeheeee i dont tell you !
then, i go bath, wash up, coz cant sleep,.... then have some soy milk with wheat bread...
then... i was reading my book, about the eygept language.
hummm wait for victoria, then we go out together,
we take bus back to richmond, to ICBC, we wlked for very very long...
we got lost !
then... finally we arrived...
then e go to alberdreen.... okok la...
then she wants to walk around,
then we go to eat some chinese food at the chinese resturant ( cha cang tin)
then... we buy some bread from the bakery, and then buy some thing in the,.....
the chinese super market,
then we take bus back home... very very tired...
in these two days we buy lots of food to home,
juice, vegetable, fruit, soy milk, meat... everything... and then tomorrow we will go buy more
at other place, then we dont need to eat out, we could cook at home... much better.
actually!!!!!
LAST NIGHT I VE LAKSA !!! nice haaha
anyway...
today is quite windy.... =.=
then i feel a bit sick.........................
later, i helped victoria to pack her clothes,
then we cook... actually i cooked...
i fried the lunchon meat( mom taught me to put some sugar when it's almost done)
very very nice... and then fried egg...
coz i dont feel like to eat...
then i just eat very very few meat or egg either,,
then.... i feel like my thoat iis not well....
then i made some jelly for her, haha she likes it, good!
and then... we sang .... hahaha... at her home.
she has lots of concert vcd, then we were singing...
actuallyl i dont feel good today...
then now i'm really sick.. getting worse.
tomorrow hope to talk to darling again,... but dont know if i could wake up...
but i really miss him...
hummm by the way, i'd like to let him rest on the way to home...
i dont know, he's really tired and very very busy, so... yea.. wanna let him rest more.
but if ppl ask me if it's kindda strange,
that's absulotely right ! coz we dont really ve time to..... communicate, right?
sometimes i would think,.... .... it's really not good for us...
but okay.... he has his reasons, and then... i respect him and try to understand more... so...
it's ok... but honestly, i dont really like it, but i'm still ok with that coz of him.
hummm if he doesnt really cross my line, then i would let him be...
anyway, be lated congratuations to my dearest darling ^^
although a bit late... at least i know now?!
erhhh....
>>September 22, 2005 at 7:58:10 AM GMT+8
2005 年 9 月 20 日 星期二 【晴】
i'm at victoria's home now,
hummm i miss my darling so much...
nice day huh,
coz at night, we have malasian food.
i ve laksa noodles, tasty...
and then we ve bought lots of juice, bread and soy milk to home.
tomorrow i will go to richmond, ICBC...
then... yea...
i really miss him...
>>September 21, 2005 at 5:13:05 AM GMT+8
2005 年 9 月 19 日 星期一 【晴】
today, i waked up late,
nice sleep.
then, i keep watching tv, quite bored...
then, eat a bit of the moon cake, then the egg tart,
and then... watching tv...
then later have half of the corn, and then the banana... big breakfast?
maybe,.... i want more fruit and vegetable actually.
then late lunch around 3 pm...
i ve some bread...
that's it.
so boring day....
i really want to go home.
tomorrow aunt will leave, then... i will go over, to victoria's home.
before, i ve to go to the clinic, and post the form to the ITC, that insurance company.
hummm darling doesnt want me to go to her home...
i dont understand why.
actually we could take care of each otehrs, altough i know he worries for me.
i didnt really tell him i will go over, but my parents know already.
darling didnt really have time to talk with me lately, so i didnt tell yet. he's really busy...
and that's why his brother blame me today.
hummm maybe not blaming me, but... just talking, we've talk today.
i wanna know... which color would darling prefer for a t-shirt.
i would buy something home, and i would buy him something, too.
hum,.... i miss him, really.
***
***
whatever ppl say... i just wanna say i love him.
no matter how, it's hard to see anything, what's showing me now is not a good sign,
but i'm still willing to walk along, coz i really love him.
i know i might look quite selfish from his side, i dont really understand his situation,
like what his brother says, but i hope... somedays... darling would appricate my efforts.
i'm trying, trying and trying... for him.
but,... if i'm really doing something wrong, making things even harder for him,....
i hope he would tell me...
and tell me what to do.
everyone has emotions, but i dont want it to accfect our relationship.
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
我很辛苦。
tired, sick...
不得不愛
i lost my brace lace, which is from daddy, last night...
Someone who know