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2006 年 3 月 30 日 星期四 【晴】 2006 年 3 月 29 日 星期三 【晴】 
 
 
 
 
 
***END*** *** >>March 30, 2006 at 10:44:33 AM GMT+8 2006 年 3 月 28 日 星期二 【晴】 " IT'S JUST A JOB, CAS. " CAS, JUST WORK FOR MONEY, NOT FOR FUN, NOT FOR ANY MEANINGFUL THINGS. AND GIVE YOURSELF A TIME LIMIT, WHEN YOU APPROACH THE LINE, YOU NO LONGER NEED TO WORK AT THERE. YOU MIGHT FIND SOME FUN THERE, RIGHT? SO, DONT GIVE UP SO FAST. IT'S NOT EASY TO GET INTO THIS COMPANY, DONT SAY QUIT TOO FAST. JUST A JOB, DONT TAKE IT TOO SERIOUS. TAKE IT EASY, CAS. tomorrow and the the day after, i would be free at home, doing preparation for exam, and i might hang out, by myself. coz ... frineds are not free,... but i wanna hang around. i'm not sure yet, so... let's wait and see. i have to follow up some school stuffs and edit my resume. i might apply for another part time job. When we approach the Lord in prayer, We can come boldly to His throne; His children come expectantly, For grace and mercy will be shown. —Sper Pray as a child talks to his father. i really think of what mom said. she bascially doesnt want me to suffer, she said... if i need to work hard for money, why dont stay at HK but SG... at least i would have my family(parents+sisters) around. she also said... if i marry a poor man, then maybe we cant afford the air tickets =.= oh my god... what can i say ? i just wanna bring darling to HK, let him talk with my parents... I CANT FACE THIS KIND OF QUESTIONS BY MYSELF... when will darling comes? VERY HEADACHE... God Bless. *** for anyone of you missed hte pictures, here again: or check it out from there: http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/lau_mei_kwan/my_photos
***END*** *** >>March 29, 2006 at 12:36:05 PM GMT+8 2006 年 3 月 27 日 星期一 【晴】 Eliphaz said to Job: "Your words have upheld him who was stumbling, and you have strengthened feeble knees" (Job 4:4). Job earned this tribute despite his own deep suffering. And when we offer comfort to sorrowing and suffering people, we not only emulate Job—we emulate Jesus. In the midst of a host of hurting people, each one of us can reach out to become a comforter like Job. Let's ask God to make our hearts tender enough to support and strengthen those who are hurting. —Herb Vander Lugt Reach out and give your love to the loveless, Reach out and make a home for the homeless; Reach out and shed God's light in the darkness— Reach out and let the smile of God touch through you. —Brown hummm wanna know my new hair style? check it out from there: http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/lau_mei_kwan/my_photos or here =P
hummm nice =) ? hee i've told darling that, i have to support my own expenses from now, i'm stressed... then he said everyone have to go through this stage. mom said it's good for me, coz i would be able to handle stuffs better than others in future. it might be a bit erly to start, but not much harm. the point for me is... i cant have the saving, coz i cant earn alot, i need to balance my life, right? i ve to study hard, that's my real job in this stage actually, and that's what i want !! then i dont have much income, so.. i've got the challenge which it means that i cant buy whatever i want to buy, cant spend as much as before, i have to watch out my expenses. and i might not be able to have enough money to go sg after grad. the last point is my real worry. "where got saving to go sg ? " sigh... i might have tree trip by next year actually. one would be around July/ Aug, 06 sec, would be around Feb/ March, 07 third, would be around May 07. so... i 'm headache now... how to make things done? and how to balance my life b/w the job, the school, family, and my private time? ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- my mom told me she doesnt like my grandma(dad's mom), coz... she was like blind. she couldnt see what is right ot do what is wrong to do. mom said... there're aunts behind us, telling grandma what to do, what not to do. but those women dont know what's going on. i dont want to hate anyone. and i dont mean to do that, too. but i wonder why... why and why... i dont hate her, but i feel hurt by all the gossip, by what the women do. if they wish my family well, why they do such of things behind? if not, why? we're all from the one big family. why they do that? i dont blame them not giving us a hand, but plz... tell me what to do. we are not hte bad people, we are not doing bad things in life, but they why we deserve this kind of things? oh... it's not a serious problem at all. we're still alive, still working hard for our life, we're still happy together. but i wanna tell you this, if i have chance to let you know, i would let you know, i 'm not against you, but someday you would know without your help, we would still be fine. and in the future, you've got the judge, not by me or my mom, but God. i'm sorry to say this, and i wont do anything or say anything to make the war start. but you do know what's going on, plz end it. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- l love you all, my dearest, and i love my darling so much. i really miss you all... i really miss him so much... hummm i really pray... coz i know... we, my family are facing a big problem ahead. i hope you guys are doing fine =) and pray for me plz.. Jesus, i know You've the plan. I know You love me. Keep Going For God! They shall still bear fruit in old age; they shall be fresh and flourishing. —Psalm 92:14 Each of us has a responsibility to God, as long as He gives us physical and mental strength, to work heartily "as to the Lord" (Colossians 3:23). We are never called to retire from life and coast home to heaven. The psalmist said that the righteous "shall still bear fruit in old age" (Psalm 92:14). For those who are physically able, that means continuing in active service. For those who can no longer move about, that means being active in prayer and in quiet service. Let's make sure old age doesn't stop us from bearing fruit. We need to keep going for God. —Dave Branon Growing old but not retiring, For the battle still is on; Going on without relenting Till the final victory's won. —Anon. To stay youthful, stay useful. *** >>March 28, 2006 at 12:48:10 PM GMT+8 2006 年 3 月 26 日 星期日 【晴】 2006 年 3 月 25 日 星期六 【晴】 How do you view the Bible? Do you think it's simply a unique ancient book known for its historical and religious values? Or do you look at it as a personal letter from your heavenly Father, the only such letter in existence? And do you read the Scriptures repeatedly, even daily, finding in them something that with each reading touches your heart? If you no longer sense God's love letter speaking to you, try spending a week with Psalm 119—an anthem of praise for His Word. You'll find that the Bible will make you wise and help you to restrain yourself "from every evil way" (vv.98,101). It will become "sweet" to your taste, "sweeter than honey to [your] mouth" (v.103). —Vernon Grounds 你的心情總在飛, 什麼事都要去追, 想抓住一點安慰, 你總是喜歡在人群中徘徊 你最害怕孤單的滋味 你的心那麼脆,一碰就會碎,經不起一點風吹 你的身邊總是要許多人陪,你最害怕每天的天黑， 但是天總會黑,人總要離別,誰也不能永遠陪誰, 而孤單的滋味,誰都要面對,不只是你我會感覺到疲憊. *當你孤單你會想起誰,你想不想找個人來陪 你的快樂傷悲,只有我能體會,讓我再陪你走一回 my song again =) i wonder someday will anyone sing this song for me, haha... i hope so... really... last night i slept before dinner, then dinner time i didnt want to get up... too tired, too sleepy... mom just couldnt wake me... but then finally i woke.. after dinner, i watched tv, and come on line. wah... super tired... we watched spongbob squarepants. so funny... =) today, i work from 9 am to 3 pm... have 1/2 hr break time. i felt not as tough as before... today.... i dont have so high, much work load.. this store is called GEC- Great Egale Center. my store is called HNR- Hennessy Road. today is my last duty at GEC, dont need to take over there, next week. i think GEC staffs are much more funny and the customers are more friendly ! hahaha today they joke alot... and i was laughing... i think i'm stupid, and they sometimes laugh coz i asked some stpid questions or did some stupid things... hee.. but they're friendly. today we got a small problem... yesterday, two girls(oh i didnt know she's the flight attendent) they're from europe, then they've ordered two cinnimon rolls for today... but then manager didnt see the memo from last night, then we didnt save the cinnimon rolls for them. they come today, and that girl(the flight attendent with uniform) was a bit angry... these two days see alot of FA-Flight Attendent ,a few Pilots(Men and Women)... they told me... there's a hotel around HKCEC.( just near to our store, so near) GEC is kindda liek the tourist place, so... not really much business ppl hangin around. but HNR is for the business type guests? i think so.. hummm... next week will work on Wed only. coz i need to prepare for my final. and i will be in HNR. just now i chated with darling on msn, thanks for his "angermanagement" it's sooo funny.. hahaha... so crazy.. i miss him alot =( i shared with him of my tired days and told him my feelings. it's real that... everyday when i finish my school day, work day or meeting.. i would just go home, as soon as possible... so sometimes my classmates or my workmates would ask me " after class/ after work you go home le ??? " they're supprised that everytime they asked"where would you go?", everytime i said "home, i'm going home " hahaha... why i go home? coz... i wanna come on line, to seek him... if he's here, i would feel better. it's like... i know he's over there, and we're connected, feeling like closer. even though we dont talk alot, but the feelings is like connected. sweet huh? sometimes is YES =) tonight SOMA got gathering... i wanna go, but i'm really really tired now... dont know if i should go... sigh... so long havent seen my SOMA friends... Thanks for Jesus =) so sweet. Thanks for my family... today mom leave me some sushi and the chocolate tart ^^ hee thanks for my darling, coz he's kindda like me support for what i do everyday. what Jesus says i wouldnt forget, perhaps, and if i forget, plx guide me back, remind me. *** finally can rest tomorrow... but i need to visit my cousin tomorrow and pick up my course assignment from school. i need to schedule my time table for April. coz... PCC-Pacific Coffee Company ask me to .. God Bless all of my dearest you. *** >>March 26, 2006 at 10:10:22 AM GMT+8 2006 年 3 月 24 日 星期五 【晴】 what to speak, and when to simply keep our mouths shut. For "in the multitude of words sin is not lacking, but he who restrains his lips is wise" (Proverbs 10:19). It is often wise to be quiet and speak few words. But if we must speak, let's talk of those things that encourage and move others closer to God, not those things that will discourage and hurt them. "The tongue of the wise promotes health" (Proverbs 12:18). —David Roper The tongue can spread suspicion, And reputations steal; But when the Lord controls our tongue, Its words will soothe and heal. —Sper 你的心情總在飛, 什麼事都要去追, 想抓住一點安慰, 你總是喜歡在人群中徘徊 你最害怕孤單的滋味 你的心那麼脆,一碰就會碎,經不起一點風吹 你的身邊總是要許多人陪,你最害怕每天的天黑， 但是天總會黑,人總要離別,誰也不能永遠陪誰, 而孤單的滋味,誰都要面對,不只是你我會感覺到疲憊. *當你孤單你會想起誰,你想不想找個人來陪 你的快樂傷悲,只有我能體會,讓我再陪你走一回 that's the song always being with me nowadays =) anyone really know me ? i think, since i was so young, i have been practicing to be lonely... why? although i have two younger sisters, mom and dad had no time for me. i was lonely in pre-school, but i did have a few friends. i was lonely in primary school, coz of my shy charateristic. and then i was not a smart student. and bad at frienship... i was not isolated yet, then got into highschool, then i had more friends. but you see me, F.1 - F.2, i had a few friends, around 4 to 5 alwaysing hanging together. but then found out that there're something really wrong. feeling like same as the primary schoo life, so i quit the frieship. i 've gaiven up, i left my best friend. the misunderstand make my another friend suffer, so i quit. then i had another group of friends, around 7 to 8 i guess.. but then, finally come up, i opnly keep 2 best friends, and few close friends/good friends. leaving high school(those basic 5 years), then... i anroll to the associate degree. i had a new friend, but then she left, coz she quit the school. then i had another few friends,... coz of grad, we all dont keep in contact for much. you know... i am a lonely person. and who knows me well? hee... i dotn know. i actually dont like nightfall, which means becoming night. i dont like being alone, but since experiencing life more... i start to enjoy my own private time. but youk now, that's the time for "relax", not the real lonely time. the real lonely time is... when you wanna stay with someone, there's no one aside. but i try to get used to it... and i'm doing well. i'm a weak person, but wanna try to be strong and tough. i dont like to stay in the crowd center, coz i feel like i'm a weird person. but i need to stay between ppl, coz i hate the kind of feelings, like loneliness. who undertsands me well? hummm i dont know is there any. Junming might, coz he really knows me quite well i dont know why. Chris might... actually they both understand me quite well, i dont know why. but then my dearest friends... they might not know, or might know.. i dont see =) darling.... i dont think he knows ? *** today got to work,,, when i'm back... i was almost dying... i was happy that today when i'm home i have sushi and dessert... haha.. but at store... it 's a tough day... i wonder why i would quit. i almost cried... when i was cleaning stuffs today. 4 jobs for me... put the chairs back to the right place, cleaning the table, sweeping the floor, and cleaning the window doors. but before those 4 things, i have to... use the chaemical stuffs to clean up bread show case, the shelfs... the under draws of the bar table. i wanna cry, coz i wonder why i should do this and that? castor, you come over to hk island and for doing the cleaning stuffs. sigh,,.... i think i still cant accept whati'm actually doing now is just same as a cleaning worker... but the one, who can speak eng well. i talk with the customers today and yesterday... just some simple chating... but i always feel like i'm just a washing person... i'm not myself. i'm not the one with my dream, i'm not the one studying in psy, i'm not the one i'm familiar with. i feel so tough, coz i cant adapt to my life now... i'm so easy to get tired... and i feel very un-movitated. i wanna work for money, but how much they give me just cant satisfy me. ahhhhh cas, what do you want actually? maybe all i need is some encouragement from the person i love, or from my frineds. my darling, he s also busy and tired... and now, he at least willing to spead me a few mins. which i really feel happy for. so thankful and loving it is. compare to lots of relationship, our one is really suck i think... i have nothing to say, coz... i dont want to compare to others... though it always happen appearntly, honestly. but i dont do it on purpose, and i m happy coz he's trying his best for me. isnt it great? it is, in my heart. Thanks for darling, and hope he would be fine in his career and family. oh well... i think i have to stop now. i really wanna date my friends... =( thanks for Jesus, giving me a great family, and letting me undertand more about life. i dont know what would happen in the future, but i'm not that scared now, coz i know You, Jesus is with me. i dont want to speak the useless words fro mouth. sometimes i dont mean to speak , or i even dont notice i've gossiped about ppl. plx remind me and guide me plx. Coz You're the only God. i dont wanna hurt anyone by my mouth or generally by myself. if i did or i have done anything made ppl suffer.... plx forgive me, and geal the ppl, who have been hurt by me. *** >>March 25, 2006 at 2:42:31 PM GMT+8 2006 年 3 月 23 日 星期四 【晴】 2006 年 3 月 22 日 星期三 【晴】 2006 年 3 月 22 日 星期三 【晴】
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