2006 年 2 月 27 日 星期一 【晴】

Today..... around 6 something,
then my mom waked me up... i remembered i've told her that i dont ve morning class today,
so i wont need to wake up so early...
then she asked me... a woman's dead in Pacific Coffee's washroom.
i was really shocked !!!! i asked WHAT?!!
coz i know... yesterday... when i was working, i heard my head said their collogue collapsed
in the washroom for around 30 mins, then someone found out and sent her to the hospital.
they were kidding like if they should go visit her after work...
but i'd never thought she's gone already.... =.=
i was scared and shocked.... coz.... yea.... happened just at the store, where i got my walk-in
interview.... and... seems like... the woman was the one who gave me the interview.
so... actually in my heart, i thank her alot, and i feel she's a really nice person, manager...
then... so sudden... and i still havent a chance to thank her personally or just work w/ her.
i hope i was just... wrong... i hope she's fine... but i really dont know who's that...
coz... i dont think there are lots of 30++ yearold woman working at that store...
and the one who's dead is at that range... i'm quite shcoked and sad... =(

then... i got up around 10 am, still discussing with my parents.
my parents just back form the breakfast lor, then bring me some dim sum =P
heehee so sweet hohoho... today is really cold suddenly ranining and windy...
then i had a warm breakfast before school.
i left around 11 30am... then a bit late to class. it started at 12 30, but i arrived at 12 45.
then yea... no heart in class.... coz i'm shocked....
then we keep discussing on ppl's research paper... shit... hk students dont have nice research
is it?! why always's like that huh? HONG KONG PEOPLE!!! WAKE UP!!~ we need to do a great
job you know?! otherwise, we would be laughed by other students from overseas.... =.=

then had the last class, culture class at 3 45pm
hummmm boring, but i did joke with my classmates abou the birthday cake, which Bobo
prepared for her boyfriend. super funny man... then... some discussion in class was quite
funny anyway =P hummmmm then..... yea..... i 'm bored in calss actually... no heart...
why? coz of the woman, and then coz of my Benny.

TODAY!!!
i've made a call to Ade, my dearest friend!!! ahahahahaha ^^ so happy!!!!
i made the call while breaking in Chan's class, i mean the Research Method class.
hahahaha.... so nice! i really miss her alot lor !!!
hummm she's really happy, too! i wanna meet her! i wanna stay at Ade and Cyn's home
hahaha... would i be welcomed??? hahaha i think so ^^
i miss their house, i miss their rooms, i miss Somekindda Pasta, i miss TimHorton's !!!!!!
the American Egle, the timbits =P the ROCKY ROAD CHOCOLATE!!! haha Aldo Shoses, wow!!^^
i miss Granvile Island, i miss Robson Street !!! hahaha i miss VPC!!!!! oh my god... i'm crazy...
hahaha.... wait for me Ade !!! and i wanna visit my teachers there... and i miss UBC..
i'm sad that when i be there, Vic is already back to SG, and i wouldnt be able to visit
her appartment anymore.... that's really sad for me.... but... i could visit outside .... right...

then...
i left school, taking MTR(opps... i typed MRT again... MRT is Sg's term, not Hk's one)
then trans to KCR, then wait for Shan at Tai Wo station... coz i made a call to her...
i wonder more time with her now... coz i'm sad lately... sigh....
then yea... then we went to ParknShop, the super market to buy milk for mom.
then we walked home... she lives quite near to my home...
we used to live in 2 blocks apart... coz... she's in block 6, i was in block 8, in Sernenity Park.
then i moved to another appartment. so... yea my home is more far now(since 5 or 6 years ago)

back,
the fist thing to do is put down my stuffs then still wearing my wet coat(outside raining)
then imediately come ask my sister, if she can go off line to let me sign in...
why? coz... i wanna know if Benny's on line...
yea... then we do a small chat.... he read my e-mail and i've told him about...
my later trip(although it's not confirmed yet, but i wanna let him know first)
he tensed up when i told him about my dad's boss gave me a mission to go overseas...
actually that 's not a really "hard" mission as long as i could... hummm anyway it's okay.
yea... and... i think he understand what i say in the e-mial...
coz.... in the past... our e-mail contacts're so messy and quite emotional, when i was in Van.
but... this time is different... he seems understand and i seem could calm down....
i mean more possitive-ly peaceful... and i'm happy with that actually, really =)
then..... we might have another chat tonight, which i'm not so sure....

tomorrow i need to work.... i'm affraid.....
coz.... our store also got a washroom......... and then......... erh.....................
actually human body is really chemical, argee with me huh?
just some mixture of medicine non-purpose-ly, then could lead to posion and death.
oh...my...gosh..... i'm really scared of death i guess....
dad and mom said... i'm like my younger sisters, also scared for gohst.... kindda...
it's the bad feeling, not really that kind of fear of gohst lor.... it's the.... uncomfortable feelings.
then youk now what... today on hte way to KCR station, i got chased by a dog!!!
on the sidewalk around Serenity Part 2 and Serenity Park 1.
the dog approaches me, then i walk away, the it follows me quickly...
it stared at me, i was pretty nurvous!!! i just ran away, and it chased after...
then i keep moving fast... i was scared!!!
=.=


i should stop now...
i still ve lots or work to do for research paper and my notes review...
tomorrow need to work.... hummm and i'm waiting for Benny...
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>>February 28, 2006 at 3:00:28 PM GMT+8

2006 年 2 月 26 日 星期日 【晴】

Hey...

Anything new to share?
nothing new... nope... i got something new.
hummm first of all, wanna thanks for Rami's sms again, coz... if not, then i'm gonna attend to
the class, which is canceled already.
i hope he would forgive me... coz i know he has sent quite a few sms to me in two days...
oh my god... he's so nice... but i'm really sorry that my cell phone account got some problems
so i couldnt make any phone calls or sms.... so terrrible... but now it's fixed.
*(i kindda understand Benny's feelings.... =.=)

then, wanna say... my job is really tough....
oh my... sigh..... i'm very very tired...
Benny asked me why i didnt go back to McDonald's...
coz Snakie has resigned, and no one would take care of us, then.. that's the political world.
i'm sure that i cant survive... coz... althoug Anita likes me, but Fandy wont let me get work
done so easily... if Sankie's there, then i 'm not worried... but Sankie is not there...
then only my dear friends with me... erhhhhhh would be very tough, pretty high workload.
and then actually no one is gonna teach us anyting new there. coz no new Star comes.
so... yea... and i wanna try other new stuffs, get higher pay.

2006 年 2 月 25 日 星期六 【晴】

I feel so pain.

stormache last night...
sitting on my bed around 6 15am.... why i woke so early man?
i guess... the last week got used to 6 15am.
oh man.... the only sunday i could sleep more, wake late.... but got stormache during
the whole night..... i was sitting in bed wanna vomit.
i didnt take any pils, coz i still want to sleep... then yea sleep again,
eventually wake around 1 30pm.
i still feel not well...

thanks for Rami's sms, but i dont know why i couldnt send sms...
i wanna reply his sms today, but still cant send, i wonder why.
have a little chatting with Alesja and HakGon last night, nice.

i got an headache in my head, not phy-ly.
sigh.... so bad...

later, i would go for a dinner with my family.
tonight is a bit different, coz we would meet dad's boss's family.
i might have a new friend, and a mission later on summer.

i'm still sad and angry.
he still hasnt talk about anything to me.
i feel so pain.
***

The saddest thing is... even he's standing infront of you, you found the distance,
he is still very very far, which is like un-reachable.
***

>>February 26, 2006 at 8:09:07 AM GMT+8

2006 年 2 月 24 日 星期五 【晴】

Today.... lazy to wake up, but i should wake up,
then...
i need to go to the HKCEC for school, as a helper.
yea, Miki go with me haha...

i was a bit late, like a few mins i guess... i stayed there for 4 hrs...
then i've met two new friends, they're nice.
one is younger than me, but a cute teen.
another is an "Austraian", just back from there... yea nice =)
they're my new guy friends huh, which is not from school.
yea, last night chatting with Rami, super nice guy haha...

about... "the him"
then yea, was kindda mad at him, coz... hummmmmm
ask me if you wanna know.

***
just make it simple, you dont want coz you dont want !
(sometimes i do trust that the resasons re real, but not everytime please! you should find the way!!!)
yea... every family has their own problems.... so... the point is... what you do
is the fact. no matter whatever reasons they're, it's still the same. you couldnt
just push your excuses to me, then say castor you gotta accept, and that's not my
fault. It becomes your fault, coz you dont make it better, right? try to pay for
me? you dont understand what i want. i want to stay longer just with you .
you're just lazy to think, and not willing to make it happen. what else can i do huh? ACCEPT???
you choose that then you give up something, that's always true.
coz there is no third ways, which we bove agree on... so?
it's still the same ! i think something is really wrong.
if i'm wrong, i'm so sorry, but it's too much for me.

HakGon, i just dont want to.... bring my problems to him. he's a happy person.
Alesja, thanks for the support, i couldnt let her know everything...
my new friends, i cant tell them what's happening...
my best friends, you know the most.

listen, i'm just dissappointed, i want my ways, and i dont think i'm wrong with
this entry... here's my place, if you dont like it, fuck off.

i love him, but why it's so hard.
Shan told me... it's like we both dont understand eachothers...
is that true ? but ppl say.... if there's love, it would be fine.

i dont want to bother anyone anymore...
our problems are nothing new, and should be solved by us...
i'm sorry coz i shouldnt say too much in the public... but same thing... here's my
place please.
i'm just honest with what i think, and yea i'm sorry for letting everyone know if
you're involved.

***

it's... my emotion not allowing me to forgive.
basically my life is doing well, i have lots of fun with friends and in school i'm
still doing fine. just my emotions not let me go. i dont want to let the relationship lead my life, coz it's dangerous, falling in depression is dangerous.


***

>>February 25, 2006 at 3:08:32 PM GMT+8

2006 年 2 月 23 日 星期四 【晴】

sigh.....

i had a quiz today, so bad ,i havent prepared for it...
even though it is open book, i feel it terrible =.=
sigh.....

then had the lunch, short lunch then attend to class.

then after this class, i had a mid term for culture class...
of course i didnt prepare for it.... how do i feel huh?
disgusting.... coz i cant concentrate on it..... it's.... just..... =.=

hummmmm i 'v a chat with a new friend, Rami last night...
he's really funny !!! oh my god, i'd never thought he's so funny.
hummm coz in class i'm quite cold, and he's cold too...
then finally he aded me =) we had a chat hshahaha... nice.

then... today in class, i have chated with another new friends (my new frieds are my new
group mates) Bobo and Edgar.
hummm you know what... Bobo shared some good points of view with me.
you know... we are just so similar... and then Edgar gave me some good points.

i'm at Shan's home now...
kindda feeling not well psy-ly and phy-ly...
coz i feel bad....

staying at Shan's home now... wanna do some chatting or just staying with friend...sigh..
hummm another frined is here too =) so long havent seen her too hahaha...
okay.... i will go home soon...
kindda depressed...

just now i got a call... i might need to attend to a dinner on Sunday,
why? ask daddy.... and his boss....
i might have a new friend, soon.

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>>February 24, 2006 at 12:39:14 PM GMT+8

2006 年 2 月 22 日 星期三 【晴】

I HATE YOU, CASTOR !

anyway,
today i had worked again, same schedule.
tired, really damn tired. pain, very pain, i couldnt walk any more, i need to take taxi
to home from the train station. i walked so slowly, every steps are pain.
i spent so much time and energy on work, how about my studies?
i love my studies so much, much more than my part-time job. then now... so painful and losing
time and energy on studies... wasting time and money on transportation.
why castor... you ask yourself why.
and you see your lovely ans from someone today,
then you ask yourself again, does it worth.
DOES IT WORTH???

i feel so angry.
yea la, keep going la. keep going la, KEEP GOING AR !!!


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>>February 23, 2006 at 12:46:49 PM GMT+8

2006 年 2 月 21 日 星期二 【晴】

My first day in Pacific Coffee today...

hummm i waked around 6 15am,
then left home at 7am, arrived store at 8 15am.
hummmmm.... finished work at 6 30pm, i got 1 hr for lunch at 2:35pm.
back home around 8 pm.

today.... i'm really tired, my legs are sour and pain...
then... i've been washing washing and cleaning, ... like a maid =.=
really like a maid.... but nice lor, coz i've learn how to do so much washing now =P
then... yea i've been practicing washing, and i could practice saying hello and byebye to
the gusts. hummm i dont wash at home, my mom does all...
then when i was in Canada, cometimes i helped my aunt, and then when living with Vicvic,
i also wash... so i've learnt how to wash... today i just... keep practicing this skill haha
and then of course i walk a lot... coz i ve to clear up tables and back to the washing place.

i think i have to read my book... coz Fri i 'll ve a quiz and a mid-term.
then i still need to do some preparation for class + the research.
Rami added me on MSN =P that's better i guess... coz we can discuss on net.

I was chatting with Hak Gon just now!!! ^^
hahaha so long havent talked with him, miss him so much! haha...
he got a call, then left already, heehee... his pig pig need him.

hummm i called darling last night,
coz i knew he's sick, yea i just planed to leave him a simply voice message,
oh! it was supprised that he took my call haha ^^
i miss his voice !!!! hummmmm =) dont know how he's.... must be very busy and tired..
he's busy, so never ans me on line. Hope he would get well soon...

Thanks for Jesus...
Thanks for my dearest frineds =P

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>>February 22, 2006 at 1:02:12 PM GMT+8

2006 年 2 月 20 日 星期一 【晴】

Anyone knows where's here:



anyway... last night i didnt sleep, coz i think something is wrong...
just dont know why and what it is.... then just now darling told me that he was sick yesterday..
that might be why, right ?

i had a funny story in the morning before class,
an old woman, came to sit with me at the McDonald's in the morning...
then she started chatting with me, asking me questions about the food...
then telling me her story with her home town, why she need to seek a doctor today...
then i gotta go... =)

the first class is just sooooooo bored, help me plx...
then we seperated into groups... hummm i think i might work with Rami in group.
coz Bobo wants to work with Edgar... yea...
tough day.... coz i just couldnt pay attention at all..
maybe coz of the "6th sense" telling me something's wrong over there.

i had a quick lunch, Mcnugguts from McD... then... very tired....
taking the sec class, reading some research papers... nice... hummm...

the last class is the culture class... hummmmmmmmmmmmm...... tired actually...
i feel so lonely today, coz i 'm lack of energy, then my friend Yedda is not here today.
ahhhhhh dont wanna stay in class actually but coz the coming Fri would have Mid term...
so... what can i do huh? stay in class and jot notes... that's all you need to do castor.

after 3 classes, i just leave asap.... no more chating, no more hanging...
directly go down stair and take MTR, KCR to home.
crowed MTR and KCR... sucks..... ahhh hate that...

anyway, i wonder why the US has so many stupid hate crimes...
that's stupid right? crazy.... then we talk about multi culture, then Cananda isthe best,
i think Vancouver of Canada is the best, then Singapore and Hong Kong is not bad.
no energy to make discussion with teacher duh~~~~ =.=

okay fine...
tomorrow have to start working, pretty nervous.... T.T
then i still dont know where the store is.... sigh...
i feel so much stress today, coz in the coming Fri i would have one Quiz as usual + Mid term.
hummmmmm i'm a bit worried actually.

take care my darling, i wish you would get well as soon as possible...
i would just pray for him......
Thanks for Jesus, i felt so neverous and stressed up already...hummmm what to do...
plx take care of my darling first anyway~~~ >.< there's my prayer...

i'm sorry that just now i was rude to my sister, Miki, coz i was very busy,
and she was just stimulating me... anwyay, sorry.

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>>February 21, 2006 at 12:17:56 PM GMT+8

2006 年 2 月 19 日 星期日 【晴】

hi =)

today i went to Sheng Wan to meet my aunt for lunch after wake up,
then... hahaha... we had a "okay" lunch... i mean not really nice taste but could be full.
you know... i've seen so much traditional and beauitful chinese stuffs.
then i went ot the office to take my uniform hee
then i went to my aunt's home hahaha... nice...

my aunt, Ching =)

That's me

me & me

Me and Shan @ Best Berry

Shan and Choi

That's the celing with tvsss... Rain is on show hahaha!@@

Our little pie v.s. Shan is cute~~

i was drink and eating~

Hummm nice =)

The ugly me with the BIG BIG bite!

Our pie became like that huh

Yeah yea and Cute cute

opps... something on my bite..

2006 年 2 月 18 日 星期六 【晴】

Today is sunday, and almost my last free day.

i woke up late, then have lunch, after lunch...
we went out, take a walk at Tai Po Market.
hummm then we had tea time at the cooked food market (the public market).
not very nice, but my family seems enjoy alot =)
we walked back to Tai Po Center... hummmm okay...
i had an egg tart... hummm just wanna eat something sweet.
then we come home.

tomorrow i got to pick up my uniform at the head office, then need to attend to a semilar
at school... hee... dont know how it would be like..
anyway... wish me luck.

wanna pray for my dearest friend, Alesja, coz she got some problems.
and then wanna pray for darling, coz he's been busy for so long already...
i'm a bit worried for him.... oh... that's kindda .... not good feelings in my heart..
hummmmmmmm...

hey... i've got a updated info at friendster =P heehee
my dearest friends.... you guys if you're reading, plx check things out for me...
i wanna know if i'm looking myself right or not hahaha... here we go :

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About Me:
i'm like the Rocky Road Chocolate...
what else you wanna know ?

whatever, whoever, i would not rely on ppl, or lean on anyone.
that's my rule.

my class teacher told me i could survive nicely in the public relationship,
but i dont think i m meant to be that.
in hk, i'm in the majority group just by my race.
but inside, i couldnt tell you who i am. i'm more like the minority.
dont look at me in that way, i hate your adjustment and sterotype.

Back from Vancouver, then now strive for the Bachelor Degree,
major in Psychology in another university from US.

i do concern on ppl, that's why i'm interested in Human Behavior,
and Psychology. during classes, i auctualize myself more, and
that just bright my days. That's pretty good with life experiences.
Well, life spirit wont stop, so after grad, i would keep my spirit on,
in terms of my career and the dream chasing-- hopes.

you see right there is a cup of coffee, half full & half empty...
i'd be happy if i ve a half cup of coffee, as long as dont spilt it...

* Shhh....muach~k.. be quiet, ok?


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i love to share. i'm sincere, independent, brave, stupid, friendly.
i like laughing but mostly i'm a quiet girl with lots of smiling.
i m sensitive abt the ppl ard me. i think of why ppl say and do.
i really throw minor stuffs away from mind w/o control.
i like the story behind the story. i love thinking and listening.
i only like tasty food. i like spicy and sweet taste. i like dark chocolate.
i give my care to the ppl who come to me. i'd never given up anyone
who's in need. i love to make frineds w/ diff nationalities.
i respect guys and girls equally.
i respect who you are and who you're not.

i hate forcing ppl. i hate the liar. i dont wait for chances, i create chances.
i kindda fear of the slow ppl or brain-less ppl.
for me, if there's no response, that means refusing.
make sense right.
***

correct or not? hee... any comments? any mistakes included, plx let me know.
just leave me messages or tell me directly, wherever, whenever.
Thanks =)

i got a little chat with Alesja, and Angeline!!! oh gosh... they're my damn nice friends!!
Alesja is the only german i ve met, then she's a really nice girl for me...
we were always together in Van, then she was my best buddy there... she's really countable,
she's really smart and straight forward, she's always sincere and brave. she's just my
best buddy there and in school... pretty cool.. yea then after she left i've met Vicvic,
Ade and Cyn, and those three SG girls re just my best buddies, too. and then i had Kiana,
the young girl was really rock and pretty. she's as brave as guy, and very tough... i just love
the girls i've met at there. really.
Aneline was my best friend from SG, coz... i've known her for long already, then we kept
in contact... haha... last time i was in SG, then she took care of me for everything !!!!
and then you know... she's one of my friends ve met Benny, my darling. and then...
when i was in Van, having the bad time with darling, i've called her from Van... and she was
there for me, she's just so sweet... and i'd never forgotten her. yea i was crying on phone..
then... i still remember what she tried to do for me, whenever i need her she just give me her hands.
Thanks for my cute, lovely friends... my dearest friends..

Thanks for Jesus, too ~~~~
so... after tomorrow, i will be super busy and tired that 's what i guess so...
and i can see it would happen pretty soon... hummmm...
i feel the stress, hahaha... but... i need to be that and there's no regrets as i promise.
i just need to explore more and i want the chance to go to SG again next year.
i need to build my future by my hands =) Yeash~ !
God bless, love all of you my dearest friends.

Thanks for Jesus, for all the best you've given me... oh... how much love is that... =)
Thankyou~

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>>February 19, 2006 at 1:33:10 PM GMT+8