2006 年 4 月 7 日 星期五 【晴】

Today...

woke up very early, around 7 something, then left at 8 am.
i went to have breakfast at McDonald's. A Quiet Breakfast.
then... went to school, class started at 10 am.
hummm before started, i closed my eyes, listening to my music.... feeling... blank but anxious.
i didnt want to wake up... i just wanna break away...

today class, we 've watched a movie, called " School of Rock ".

really great funny music, man ! it makes me think of.... S.O.M.A.
really missing my guys and girls there... our worship-band, the beautiful team.
i know we would have the gathering tomorrow... but i'm not sure if i can go..
coz we would have the meeting at afternoon... what a sad thing..
coz i've missed last time already... sigh..... sick...

then after class, i went to Sha Tin, met my sister, Miki.
then... went to libary, and hang around... and we take a seat at PCC-Pacific Coffee Com.
i dont think Rocky Road Chilinno is nicer... i think cookies'n cream one is nicer..
then... in HOSO trying couples of shoes and in Esprit, WeekendWorkshop trying clothes...
very nice.. Pretty good !
i think i will do some shopping tomorrow after the meeting or before the meeting...

hum,.... now, back home... really tired...
hummmmmmmm

someone unblock my sister... i wonder why someone blocked her but someone didnt know?
someone got to check first... =.= who does the account belong to ?
dont wanna think... i'm so tired..
i think i'm tired of everything or anyone.

***

>>April 8, 2006 at 11:30:48 AM GMT+8

2006 年 4 月 6 日 星期四 【晴】

ahhhh...
"Let the rains fall down, and wake my dreams !"
"Let the rains fall down , then come and clean..."

okok la...
today, woke up, washed up, check e-mials, have a short breakfast: saya milk,
then went to school. holly sh*t... i thoughti have class at 12... then i found it's supposed to
be 12 30. haha.. why i say "holly" ? coz... i was very affraid to be late again!
i've missed last class, i really dont wanna be late this time...
so i was in the affraid mode for 1 hr, then found that.. oh dear cas, you're too good in memorry.

i back to class, wanna call Ade, coz.. it's been long hasnt her news..
then... yea... but my classmates keep chating with me asking me ques, then... just wait till
they've finished, then i called Ade.. hee =) shirt but nice chat.

class started, what a beautiful class, wow i really learn a lot ... Gender Role..
hummm i think HK Girls is really like that... so... sigh.... hard hard hard and hard to find a mate.
ha... and then... we talk about the felmale in hk... hummm i know i'm not that bad ! =P
i'm a nice girl in hk... but youk now... not only girls are bad, guys also..
so, ppl plx stop asking me, cas why dont you find a guy in hk? coz no key..
i'm not asking for lots and lots... but basicly, i dont find anyone ...

after class, dad called me..
then i went to meet him, then went to his office..
hummm a German, came to hk, and he's Aunt's friend...
then he got some problems with his accomodation... then need our help..
then after meeting "Mr. German" i dontk now his name... then i went back to dad's office,
after dad finished job, we went home together! =P
soooo long havent been like that... i think it happened when i was small, still be only child?

ahhhhhh !!!
i am talking with my boyfriend, benny...
hummmmmmmm he doesnt reply me by e-mial, i think he's too busy or...
anyway... we're on msn talking... okay, i still dont undersatnd, that's it.
i wonder why cas, you could... you could love him till... you crossed out of your bottom line.
you've been really really like a balloon... receive lots of pressure, and being bigger and bigger.
but someday you would explose. that's your fate... a fat balloon... flexibility has its limits.

anyway,
i've met some bad news about my school last night through Edgar.
and i've seen a bad woman on street today. she did something badly to me.
but i'm okay, i dont mean to... you know... scolding or arguing with her on street.
fine... bad ppl, bad buisiness com is everywhere.

being such a bad mood... just want the peacful way to relax myself.
i'm so young, but being like that... i think it's not very healthy...
i should think more positively, right? i think i'm still the typical Type A person.

May God Bless everyone!
***

>>April 7, 2006 at 1:29:39 PM GMT+8

2006 年 4 月 5 日 星期三 【晴】

I've been such a good listener.

mom's talking to me everyday, about family stuffs.. problems...
my friends have been talking to me with their problems.
In class, we sit and lsiten.
OIIE, they told us today that they have no ideas where we would go.
UIU just left us an e-mail and we would listen to them on Sunday.
Work, i dont have any schedule now, im waiting for the call.
Myself, i have my relatinship problems, and i'm very very very anxious
about all these matters above. i cant even have a quiet moment.
at night, i couldnt sleep, i sleep, i have nightmare.
i wake up without a smile. and i have the very heavy days-everyday.

everyday got so many ques around, so many noise and sounds...
i would become crazy someday... totally burnout.
when my brain can take a break huh?

Mom, whatever you talk to me, i couldnt help, and you just repeat and repeat
the negative emotions to me, and repeating the ques+problems to me.
i really cant help! what do you expect me to say anymore? what do you want me
to do for you, huh? i cant do anything! ihave to respond to myself, it's rally hard
for me already, do you see it?! it's really a big challenge to me right now!
and what you expect me to do for the family, huh? STOP REPEATING!

PPl, i dont get any money from home anymore, you do know how much i can do...
i'm a left out full time student in a fucking school, and i'm just working as a
fucking fresh "washing person" in a cafe for $25/hr. I cant really work coz i have
classes! i probably earn 1k or 1k+ (no more than 2 k)/ month.
and now my school say... students, start from next term, OIIE and UIU would
break off, and you guys have to wait.
What the hell... i'm really feeling damn bad, coz no one knows what to do!
bascially, we dont know what we can do.
Dr. Greene says... it's optimistic.. coz.. we could look for the better chances.
but youk now what, in HK, this kind of situation is usually negative.

well well well...
everyday i try so hard to cheer myself up.
i find the lovely stuffs to laugh about, i catch up with news, i think possitive.
i release my pressure in my diary through typing out everything.
i dont talk with friends, unless they ask, coz.. it's not necessary for them to
take care of my business. and i dont think repeating the stuffs would make me
feel better. it's just all the same, but bringing other ppl sadness or worries that's
really not a good thing to do.

i'm really really tired... really tired...

i know my aunt, Pricilla, from Van, would come over HK soon in April.
She might live in our home for a week. well i'm looking forward seeing her
again! then... dad should start tidy up the room. the room has been really messy,
full of his rubbish letter, document. so.... it really takes time to clear off.
**************************************************************************************************

Enough...

okay...

today, i woke up, wash up, shower, pack up the stuffs, have breakfast,
then wet to the stationary shop to buy something, then went to the post office,
and post the little gift to Benny, my boyfriend. hummm i still use that address.
but i've wrote a statement at the back " In the event of non-delievery, please
contact: [email protected], Ms. Castor Lau." then i've also left my
home address there.
See if he would get my post ! i dont know!

i went to kowloon Tong to transit to Ya Ma Tei, but i went to Festival Walk to
have juice first, and then i check my e-mails... i found nothing new.. sigh..
being pretty patient... then... back to school have the "discussion meeting"
wiht OIIE. erhhhhh... i've know known that they couldnt ans anything =.=
so... let's wait for Sunday, UIU would talk with us. then... hummm still have 2 hrs ++
for the class, me and LeeWai just walked to Tsmi Sha Tsui... we went to the
Kimbery Street, hahah like the "Little Korea". haha.. some Korean Supermarket,
and Korean Restuarent organised by native Korean. then... back to class!

*************************************************************************************************
we've got back the result of the Human Growth Report, we got 20/20.
Really SUPPIRSE ! Rami was very happy. he says "sweet". haha..
i know, but how much it weight in the course? i forgot it..
i care about the product and procees more than the teacher's fav or the score.
but of course if we got the score lower than our effort, i would be pretty
upset. coz there must be something wrong. anyway, this is the good news =)

************************************************************************************************
Today, the Group Dynamics Class...
is really great, i've met a new friend during class activities.
hahaha... i'm not a good active listener, neither do Sunny.
Oh actually it's hard, coz... obvious that we know we're just practicing,
then... sometimes feeling a bit strange and embarassed haha.. so.. cant really
work out. And then... when he was the listener, i could say alot actually,
but coz he stopped asking and i saw he painic alot! then i wonder if i should
keep talking or let he asked me what he wants to know?! haha.. funny !
then, my turn... hummm... i've associated lots of ques to ask... but then...
it's like too far from the topic! haha... better take a step back and think again.
finally we use so short time then complete the practice.. and then..
we chat, also with Rami. Hey, they're the funny guys!

Hummmm... after the funny time... back to the problem world.
and i'm waiting for lots of e-mails from diff groups of ppl.
my boyfriend, Benny; some companies; Mr.Tan from SG; OIIE ; UIU; any of you =)

Lastly, plx forgive my foul language.

>>April 6, 2006 at 1:07:12 PM GMT+8

2006 年 4 月 4 日 星期二 【晴】

Three Points:

1) You cant love w/o giving
2) Block
3) Hiding Information
***

Wahhhhh so tired...
i wake at 12 something... then... ... come on line,
chat with a net friend, then... bring my sisters out for lunch.
mom and dad are out...
back, then... come on line, and fell asleep... then i wen to sleep..
so sleepy... then.. . . . . wake up still so sleepy... =.=

have been feeling so bad in these few days, feeling myself so heavy,
the heart is ... dont know how to describe... suffocating..

hummm..
night night..

P.S.
those three points are for my notes.
whoever you understand what they mean, plx keep it secert.

***

>>April 5, 2006 at 10:46:33 AM GMT+8

2006 年 4 月 3 日 星期一 【晴】

How to impress the one you love is to make yourself connected with her deeply.
not necessay being tight, but at least, you pay your heart on her.
Do whatever you think she would be happy with.

today... i've met Mr. Simon, my friend...
and i finally missed my first class of Gender Role.
hummmmm, i dont regret for missing the class, but more or less i'm a bit guilty and sorry
about that. if you ask me to make once more decision, i would still walk in this way.

We have a nice day, lots of chating and i have a meaningful lesson.
He gave me advices, and gave me lesson about lots of word history.
and i also get some information,
kindda like the "observation" on the teen's aspect of China among hk.

hummmmm... i actually understand what he means... but.... i dont dare to do what he asks me to.
i dont want to regret for anything...
junming is talking with me now... hummm i think... i just get stunk here...
feeling like suffocating.. how to get out of here ?
it's hard to accept that... it's really hard to accept that... really hard to accept..
really really really hard.

***
Here part is for myself, not anyone:

Love is giving.. you cant love without giving...
love is honesty. love is sincere... love is protection, love is concern, forgiveness, acceptance.
love is not ashame, is not hurting, destroy, not counting, not the easy-anger.
finally... love is something that i cant catch, i cant hold on to..
it's near, but still so far. it's not reliable, it's not the real happiness.
and i'm waiting for him.
something like... i trust him, but i'm also blaming myself why to trust him.
also sounds like... the more i give i try to understand, the worse comes out.
there are so much difficulties with him. and here i kindda understand, coz i have such lots too.
but i dont understand why i still could give in, but he cant. maybe he's trying... come on...
i was pretty happy for what he does for me lately, every-little things are so real and loving.
but, now... i found out... there's something i havent known.
i dont know why he cant let me know. i dont know... i think in relationship...
that's nothing should be hiden...
it's just a very tall block, blinding our hearts... Keeping Us Apart..
communication... is it that hard ? that's the excuse of you or me ?

***

>>April 4, 2006 at 2:44:59 PM GMT+8

2006 年 4 月 2 日 星期日 【晴】

Big Issue of Today...

OIIE no longer ties up with Upper Iowa University.
Which means.... satrt from next term, we have to move !
all of the students have to move to "somewhere" we dont know?!!!

Oh my God... i still havent recieved the e-mail from school...
so, what can i do now is to wait and read the e-mail.
And see what kind of options they offer us.
i might not be able to get my degree by next year Feb.
and the problem is... i might need to go to other countries to finish my degree.
Such as Singapore, Malaysia and The United States.
I'm PRETTY SHOCKED AND WORRIED !
i havent told anyone yet, coz dont want other ppl worr for me, especially my parents.
even they know, they cant help and would just keep asking me ques(i cant ans).

secondly,
a very very very nice sentence here sharing with all of you:

" You might give without loving, but you Cant Love without giving. "

Think of what i say here... Please.

***
Today, work from 8 30 till 3 pm.
i still have an hr break time, what a lovely candy it is.
hummmmmm..... sigh... Thursday doesnt need to work, they dont arrange for me,
dontk now i should be happy or sad.
coz i need to work, to support myself. this month schedule really sucks already,
then now cant arrange for me, so... yes i can rest more, but i cant make money.
hummm i'm worried for this and i'm much more worried ofr my school stuffs =(
then.... really wanna tell darling that i might NEED to come SG to finish my degree.
but he's not here. I think he's still dealing with the stock work...
Anyway, i've forgoten to buy the IDD CARD !!! ARGHHHHH!!!
i've told myself that i have to buy tonight, but i forgotten... sigh...
otehrwise i can call him and call my friends...

wish you guys all the best.
especially dalring and Alesja.

>>2006年04月03日 Mon 20:07:55 (GMT+8)

>>April 3, 2006 at 12:12:06 PM GMT+8

2006 年 4 月 2 日 星期日 【晴】

April 02, 2006
Truth or Dare
Today i read one's blog.

and i have thought about myself.
it seems like... the shadow of myself reflexed by the mirror.

i dont understand why guys/ girls tend not to treasure their mate after getting
together. and i dont understand why ppl would lie to the one they love.

the story is not from my firned, i read it accidently.
the girl loves her boyfriend so much, she always puts him at first.
but then, she couldnt deny that the feelings of the guy had been fading off.
the guy doesnt want to break up, and the girl loves him so much.
the girl struggles, suffers behind the relationship.
but then... one day, the girl met another guy.
this guy treats her so good, really good... they're so happy together.
this girl just did one thing wrong( or not wrong at all), she stays with this guy.
at the same time, she has two boyfriends.
she loves the one, and she also need another one.
i start to think... why and if i could accept that.
the point is, i 've changed my mind after so much happened, i aceept that.
i feel so bad, but i got to accept that it could also happen on me.

maybe... it's my fate. i always get temptation... never stopped.
i wonder if i could really be satisfid, honestly.
i dont tink i'm really happy with my relationship, coz.... there're so much
that other ppl cant understand, nor me either.
i cant quit, and i cant do much. sometimes, i know the dissapointment are less
and less coz somehow i dont really wanna care for much. when it comes, i put
it away. it's not the healthy sign.

i wonder if it's called " the real accept " .
when i love someone, i really give in totally. as a result, i really hope i can have
someone, who would care for me, too. i dont admit that i m a demanding girl,
coz i'd never seen myself demanding asking for anything.
i know i love him, and i know i dont want to leave him.
but i also need someone who is really willing to care for me, including putting
efforts. but i really dont want that finally comes out with hatres.
you know... the ppl who try to two time ppl would totally hurt three ppl
eventually. No one would want to see it happens. and i really dont want.
should i be greedy? or should i just... accept that's my fate? and fight with
temptation ? this kind of toipic i'm already tired of discussing with others.
i've already known what ppl would say.

you know, lately my friend and me argued.
on what? on something that's i'm really sorry for.
i've already hurt him, and i dont want to expand this.
i could only say sorry, no matter he would forgive me or not.
i should make things clear to him and also to myself.
i didnt, coz i thought we're just friend. and i misunderstood that he's just
a liar. i was pretty angry and he was, too... but then after long, i tried to talk
with him. he asked me if he's just a liar why i still care and talk with him.
(i think i just dont want to lose anyone and i am really selfish)
i dont want to lose a friend, a sincere friend. i dont make things clear coz i cant.
i know since i've made things so clear to everyone, that means i would be so
lonely forever. Here, ppl comes and ppl goes. I do know why ppl come to talk
to me, and i do know if i say i wont give a chance to you, then... i would also
lose a friend. so... i always just say i have a boyfriend, and i think that's pretty
clear enough. i dont want ppl ask me about my boyfriend, coz i really dont know
how to ans the more more ques along. and the point comes clear that...
i know the more i say, the more they would like to know.
the more they know, the more they think they have the chances.
it s just... like... the more pressure i give myself.

I'd never meant to take advantage on other guys. never... never..
what i show you about my feelings, thinking, are all true, and not trying to get
anyone's attentions for getting more comforts or whatever you think of.

since that case, the more cautious i am. the more sensitive i am when i make
new guy friends. but my boyfriend he knows nothing about it. i dont tell him,
coz i think that's not necessary.

come back here, i dont know how long i could stand.
i dont want to do the same thing as that girls does...
i shouldnt be greedy but i should love myself, too.

yesterday, i chated with Shan(Agnes), my best friend. fianlly we have time to sit down eatting dessert together again. haha..
i've told her i've bought something for my darling, and she asked me how are we doing now. i say... we are doing better =) .

today, Vicvic told me what happened with her boyfriend.. i felt so sad. she also
asked how me and benny doing..
i said we're doing fine. At least he tries to give me time everyday. we chated
for once or twice a day... one or few questions each. those are all so lovely,
really... and i really thank my darling benny doing that for me. i have been quite
angry seeing him using his old nick name, which is also using by his ex girlfriend.
finally i've told him i really hate to see that, then he changed for me. i think,
what the little things he tries for me or does for me are just so real and lovely.
i dont think he's the best, but i just try to be fair to him, coz i love him.

If it's a que of Truth or Dare...
i would say... the truth is what i say to you.
dare is... i dont dare to make any decision.

ppl comes and ppl goes,
Anyone tried to stay awhile for me? no one.
i dont tell lie, i dont keep you. you have the absolute rights to decide if you
wanna spend time on me or not. just like my boyfriend, eventhough we're
together now, things could be changed. i dont want to hurt anyone, i dont want
to lsoe anyone. i dont mean to make things hard on anyone. you have the rights.

Truth or Dare?
you take the choice.

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>>April 3, 2006 at 12:10:26 PM GMT+8

2006 年 4 月 1 日 星期六 【晴】

tiring day...

i woke up at 1 45 pm.

then lunch and rest...
wanna submit the application for the offical transcript from USU...
but then got some problems...

was chatting iwth Alesja, and Aug... Vicvic and darling.
wish my friends are doing fine..

tomorrow need to go to work first, then go to school..
dont know how it would be. must be tired i think... sigh.....

***

>>April 2, 2006 at 11:36:44 AM GMT+8

2006 年 3 月 31 日 星期五 【晴】

Happy Birthday to Miki and Mom !

okay....
morning:
i went out, went to have the bagle with cookies'n cream chillino at Pacific Coffee, festival Walk.
then... sit there and reading the book, then back to school to take my exam.

wah... it's a long exam, i take totally 3 hrs to finish it.
finally i didnt take the Evolutionary Psychology Que,...
i take the Erikson's theory: X Y Theory - application on the theory with our experience.
one and the Prenatal Que - by what time do you think the human being formed before birth.
Both are short- essay Ques actually, i just try to summarize the ques here.
hummm and other 30 MCs,... the MC ... ahhh... some are a bit tricky...
then others... are okay... =) finally i've done.

then i walked to Jordon, and passed by the department store,
i 've bought something for darling =) heehee.
then,... i walked around, i saw the LOVELY SHOES @@ from Hush Puppies...
so cute.... Silver color... ahhh.... that's the one i found most cute from all silver color shose.
youk now... HK, here, silver and gloden color are just so hot.. then...
ppl are kindda crazy for it, hummm i m okay... i dont buy everything in this color..
but just so stylish, cute. but how much it cost ? hummmm $600 HKD. EXPENSIVE ?
Yes... IT IS.... if you asked me a few weeks ago, i told you no... but now it is.
coz ... i have to support myself ... so... i cant spend as much as before =(
Then i've said that i wanna buy clothes and bag at Esprit, right?
i dont know when i can do it now =(

i just buy two textbooks today... They cost.... $ 500... after discount...
so... i've already spent $500 HKD... sigh.... if i 'm a bad student, i could just take the money to
get my lovely shose or pretty clothes.... or if i dont buy anything, i can save up for my trip.
kindda lucky that... i could get my text books today... coz there're only two coppies... =.=
so... yea... if i dont buy it, then... i might not need to spend on these two books.
but you know... i'm happy to own my new books, not the coppy-books =)

then...back to Tai Po,
and met Shan (Agnes) HEY !!! hahaha.... i'm lucky huh, she called me !
coz she has been really busy... so yea we didnt meet for long.
then we go to te tea house to have dessert tea set heehee.
then we've chated alot alot alot... yea... so long havent really talk...
we talk on whatever happened good or bad... just everything.
hummm then..... just walked around... i passed my books to mom, coz dad drives down
to "town" hahaha... not the real twon la, just Tai Po Center. then yea...
after a while... i go home.
Aunt comes over, and we bought a cake for Mom and Miki ! ^^
yeah~~~ i didnt buy birthday gift, coz dont find anything nice. i will buy later.

hummm we were home till around 8 something, then we eat out..
we have Pizza tonight... at Pizza Hut... quite full for them... not for me...
coz... the pasta and rice are both made with lots of cheese...
it makes me think of SomeKindda Pasta in Vancouver... @@ missing VicVic, Cyn and Ade also..
ahhhhhh !!!! wait for me !!!! i'm coming soon !!!

then.... walk around and walk back home =)

tonight, saw darling on line, but he didnt talk to me..
he might be away from desk or... he was just too busy... anyway...
i wish he's okay.... i miss him alot... i always think of him...

for last night,
i couldnt sleep, i keep thinking of that friend. coz... i know no matter what i said,
i've already made my mistake, and hurt him... that's i'm guilty for..
and then... i think just lost a friend... and no one would know how this friend could influence
my life later on. just like... before i've met you guys, i 'd never known how much you guys
gaven me, made the one standng in front of you right now, right?
so... yea... i feel sad coz i ve hurt him, i feel guilty and i feel sad to lost a friend... =(
i wish... he would forgive me someday, undertsand that was just something happened
unexpect-ly. so.... yea... hoope he would understand... even though he wont talk to me again.

Thanks for Jesus =) for my lovely day today !
***

>>April 1, 2006 at 3:25:46 PM GMT+8

2006 年 3 月 31 日 星期五 【晴】

hello, here i am again.

i wanan apologize to two people.

first one was the one i've metioned in my "5 cases, the Liar Affairs".
i didnt get angry at him for long, then finally oneday, during the conversation,
i found out that he didnt lie to me, coz the time was tricky.
he doesnt know i was angry, but it's fine... coz i dont mean to let him know, too.
coz the situation is quite embarassing.

the sec one, was my new net friend(lately i got two new net firneds)
i htink around weeks ago, i was angry at him.. coz i said.... he had a girlfriend already,
but then why came to talk to me... and yea, that's another case in those "5 cases"
today, i greet him... coz i think... we could be friend actually, and i knew i didnt give him chance
to explain at all. he was angry, i didnt dare to talk to him basically.
ppl say... when someone is angry, we should let him or her calm down first...then later,
can discuss, right?
but nope... just now i was doing some printing for tomorrow exam..
then he talk to me.. and we argued. it makes me think...

if i were that bad, or just misunderstanding.
he refused to accept my words.
i dont like the feelings of... be misunderstood... so i explain..
i also think of.. if i should explain actually.. coz.. the more you say, the more he would get
angry.. then the longer to calm down.
i was thinking... i might be bad, coz... i didnt make things clear to him.
or i didnt make things clear to myself.
but i wanna ask onething( but i didnt ask), if there's any pure friendship b/w guys and girls.
natuarlly, came to talk to me,... without any ideas... things could be more simple, right?
why relationship comes.. i think... it's a attraction formed natually...
just like... when you feel comfortable with someone, you would like to spend more time
with that person. then you would care of him or her even more ...

nowadays, i find myslef dont suit for this world's rule... why i say so...
coz... sometimes, when a guy comes to me, i would think... if he's with purpose or?
coz ... i'm so easily trusting ppl.. and also get hurt so easily.
i'm hoesnt with that... finally it makes myself puzzle.
and i admit that... it's easly for me to believe a friend, but really hard to believe a man,
as in the situation that he comes with "purpose" at the first place.

and today... it makes mistake... i mean i made the mistake..
and... i've hurt a sincere person.
i dontk now if he would hate me forever... i cant care for too much, but i do feel sad for that.
he had asked me... if he's someone that just a liar, why i still talk to him, or why i care.
i know he doesnt want to listen to me... but i have to make one thing clear(at least for me) that...
i'd never meant to ... "use" him to make myself feeling better, as in... using him to fufill my
empty feelings with my relationship.
and if i did make him angry or sad , whatever... i'm sorry..
however he makes me think... that i should thank him.
it would be pity that if he really doesnt wanna talk to me anymore...
cas, you see... what you've done a good thing huh...

it's so late now, finally i cant continoue with my reading.
but it worth... coz i have a a good lesson in my life.

my friends here, you know me well, do you think i'm that bad?
i mean... hummmmm.... do you think i'm this kind of person?
or... actually you guys should tell me what's bad about me, just tell me directly.

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>>March 31, 2006 at 5:47:15 PM GMT+8