2006 年 6 月 18 日 星期日 【晴】

[ the entry is from friendsters, on June 19, transfered by today, June 22 ]


June 19, 2006
Hummmmmm

where to start... okay...
why i'm here, coz i couldnt go to my diary, the server down.
anyway... i woke up ard 7 am..
then went to the government, SFFA, for apllying some doc.

then i met Vicvic.. hummm was supposed to be at 10 am.
i was there, Langham Plaza ard 9 sth. am...

i were there, Pacific Coffee, having coffee and newspaper, and my lovely book.
and i sing... so long havent this kind of relaxing day...
but then... actually i ve to rush in my project today.

anyway, we had so much fun, we were so happy actually ~
then i went to work. saw miss Chin was early waiting for me.
hummm alright.. then we started doing different parts.
and ive told her about my holidays started from tomorrow.
and i did some simple chat, with my students. they're so lovely.
i think they really treat me as a friend, or someonce liek a sister.
they love me la... they dont let me do heavy jobs... sometimes they would like
being a child, then asking me for sweet or whatever small talking, like the mom
would give them.

alright, i washappy working, even thogh i am so tired, and there're so much
stuffs in my mind... about lots and lots.. humm yup.

then... i mesged someone.

then... not after too long, i got the reply. and i bascily went mad.
i was very calm at first... then my tears started flowing, and falling..
i called Ade, and.... i called Vicvic... then... yup... i was so mad on phone.
i was sad.. pretty upset... i think i was on phone for... 2 hrs ?
firstly is the international call to Ade, then the local call to vic..
they're really my nice friends.. i was so upset, i spoke so loud sometimes..
then i scared my students. they galnced at me sometimes. and i know i was
affecting their studies there. i'm so sorry for them. but i couldnt stop myself.
and i was thinking like i didnt wanna stay at the office anymore.
i just wanna step out the env. and calm down my emotion. but i couldnt leave
my place. and i wonder who the hell wanted me to be like the mad bitch in
my working place. i wondered what have i done to deserve such the nice reply.
was i so wrongly being nice to people?

some students kept asking me for help. i was very calmly helping them politely,
trying to be professional... just like having "two faces", "two voices".
and that moment, my heart is like breaking.

Ade was quite.... madalso... she asked me like.. Cas you should know it would happen someday.
and it's good for you. Yup, i do know that would happen, and actually i dont mean to do anything.
then Ade said.. you'd never known if he really comes. what i mean is... i dont wanna you know..
actually i would step out. i dont wanna stay in actually. but the point is... i really treasure the
relatonship with him. not that kind of real girlfriend or boyfriend realtionship. i just appreciated that
when i was really down, he gave me big hands and support, his cares make me understadn that
i could live better. he makes me feel so beautiful. okay.. when i knew he has a girlfriend. i didnt feel
good. i felt damn bad, and i still love my boyfriend. he told me he really wanna come. no matter what
he's coming. okay. i ve never seen a guy sincere like him. so i was touched, but that doesnt mean i
would.. you know... i like him that's the fact. i couldnt be with him that's also the fact. and i did warn
him that i couldnt.

okay... i dont regret for what had happened... really dont.
and i would say yup, i admit that we have romance. but so ? i thought... he wouldnt come..
buthen again he made sure something which means he's coming. i really prepared for him and his
mom, really. i dont mean i go order something nice or buy something so nice for them. but... since he
was quite serious, i wanna give him the best memorries in hk, just like what i do for other best friends.
this time i really treat them like my dear guests. coz... i found him was very sincere. even though we
couldnt be together, that' would still be the good time though.

Ade said i was too serious... i told Benny i was 40% serious. actually... i'm very serious to everyone.
then why i said 40%.. coz i know we wouldnt e together. but the real thing is, i'm serious to him,
just like to anyone. so...i found him so sincere, and i was touched by his charaters. by the way..
he just dissapointed me. not that he choose his girlfriend. HE SHOULD. but the point is.. i really couldnt
stand for this kind of irresponsible attitude.
you could talk to me, you could tell me what's doing on, you could tell me personally if you're really
sincere about your decision. he should say sth !

i totally feel like being slaped my both side of face.
it doesnt show any respect at all. it just totally destroy all the stuffs.

i wonder what i should do with the gift i ve bough. i wonder how to burn the diary book i bought.
i wonder how to explain to my boss about my early leaving today, about my crying my rude talking
in offcie today. i wonder how to let my students understand i didnt mean to be so crazy today.
and otehr tutors saw everything also. everyone knows i was crying and so mad.
i dontk now how to finish my project. coz... i just couldnt finish it before i leave the office. that's
all counted on me, coz... boss eventually giving me a helper, buti still couldnt finish the project. so..
no matter what, i really scrafised too much. and what i get is just a nice short mesg. i dont expect
anything at all, why couldnt just be fiar to me, just talk to me nicely about what you wanna do. that
shows respect, but now i ust feel like so foolish.. not him, i mean ME. i'm SUCH A FOOL. and why ?
coz i'm too kind huh?

i left office.. coz on of my students, she helped me dealing with some notes. then i could leave
10 mins ealier to go bak to Tsim sha Tsui meeting up Vic. anywya... we had pasta for dinner.. then...
we went to have dessert. man... i really love the time we're together. thanks for ade and Vic lots
and lots today.. coz... if there're no them.. i dont know what i could do. maybe crying at the
washroom in the office? and scared the students more and more? that's too much for them alrady...
oh my god... but at that moment, i couldnt leave the office, i couldnt calm down. i felt like i lsot the
control. and i was so mad at ade also.. i appologized, kept doing that.. i'm so sorry to Ade and vic..
coz i was just too upset. and i need to speak out.. i mean... yea.. i couldnt just hide my emotion
when i'm facing so much problems, just too much for me.. is that called venting? kindda but not rally.
i didnt yell at them.. i was just angry at the situation that bringing me too much influences.

anywya, after dinner, i finally calm down. then i mesged him like... it's ok, i appreciate his decision,
but then i wanan make sure if he's really not coming tomorrow. coz simply, i just expected myself
as a tour guide actually. what the hell if i wanna do something EXTRA? no way man. why have to
think at that way? Ade made me cry at that point. yea i undersatnd there couldnt be no under control.
but the point is.. his mom is here and he has a girlfriend. do you really think i would do something to
him???? i really feel so upset.. coz Ade thinks i would. if there's aything happen that i really dont
wish for, and if that he really come. i would pretend that happen. i just dont mean to you know...
why ?
whatever, he didnt reply me. that's fine.

hummm i was thinking of benny.. coz he got something serious to do tomorrow. i m worried for him.
i kept calling him, but... yea... he didnt ans. that's alright. i guess he might asleep already. it's ok...
i juust wish him all the best tomorrow. my cell phone battery flat.. so.. that's off... sigh...
ok....

when i was on the way home... i couldnt control myself.. my tears keep falling.. but i'm not blaming
on his decision. i think he should do that. but just the way make me so upset. feel like he should
make this decision earlier or later. not today at that moment, not the way he used today. and then
i was actually asking him if he should make the trip later.. but then... yea... today i just got his mesg.
and.. i was totally... broken. not as in... coz i'm lost, or coz he doesnt choose me.. but the point is..

I FEEL LIKE WHY AT LAST HE COULDNT SHOW ME RESPECT. I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG.
AND I KEEP MY POSITION CLEAR THAT I DONT MEAN TO HARM ANYONE.
WHY HE DOESNT RESPECT ME AT LAST. IS THAT JUST COZ OF SOME PRESSEURE FORCING
HIM FROM THERE? I DONT KNOW. BUT HE JUST SHOULDNT BE SO IRRESPONSIBLE.
IT'S TOTALLY UPSETTING ME AND DISSAPOINTED ME. FEEL LIKE WE 'RE NOT EVEN FRIENDS.
AND I WAS JUST A FOOL. AM I BEING TOO KIND TO ANYONE ? WHO TEH HELL IS THAT
MAKING ME SO UGLY TODAY? I DONT WANNA GUESS AND I DONT WANNA KNOW.
I DONT MEAN TO BE ANGRY OR HATING ANYONE. I JUST WONDER.. I'M INOCENT OR NOT.
FEEL LIKE I'M THE BITCH AND I DESERVE THIS KIND OF WORDS. THERE'S NO SUCH DIFFERENCES
AS SLAPPING ME ON BOTH.

I TREASURE OUR REALTIONSHIP LOTS COZ I APPRECIATE THAT'S JUST SO PURE. BUT THEN NOW,
I FEEL SO SICK. COZ I'M BLEEDING. I FEEL NO RESPECT AT ALL. I FEEL LIKE I GOT SET UP OR
CHEATED BY SOMEONE I REALLY TRUSTED.

AND FOR WHOEVER FEEL HAPPY TO SE ME LIKE THIS TODAY. I WANNA SAY,
YOU GUYS RE SICK.

on train... i was so silence watching the window.. my tears re falling.. and the girl who sit
opposite of me was galning at me sometimes.. yea... then when i got off, i used the public phon
called my best frined, Shan. then i started crying, creeping.

so, now, you're happy, is it?
nice...

i wonder what ppl do when they find no rooms for themselves, and simply got slaped in front of
so many ppl.

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>>June 22, 2006 at 1:19:48 PM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 17 日 星期六 【晴】

Today i woke up like..... 2 pm? hahah so long sleep and i'm happy..
finally satisfied with sleeping..

ok...
had lunch, then come on line... saw Alesja... we chated..
so funny.. humm we chated about all the stuffs around me... she's so happy?
she keeps laughing at me ya! hahaha so funny.. so long havent heard she laugh. so i'm happy =)

then i walked out.. i take a walk... then.. have a call with Tung, one of my buddy..
haha good son.. he was going to have dinner with his family.. but then let me help you la..
yea, i went to the resturant to make a reservation for his family.. he walks too slow hahaha..
nope just kidding. coz the resturant is near ard my home. so i help him..

then i meet him, give him the ticket, then i walked to the bookstore.
bought two nice cards for Alesa, then i buy a book. very nice book..
for whom? hummm =) for my guest. coz i wanna mark down everything about this trip.
then when my guests leaving, my guest could have a good doc with the memorries.

then i seat at a Taiwanese Tea House, ordering a drink, very nice "iced black bean mucha with rice".
kindda like Jap, kindda like Taiwanese... just taste nice. stronger than green tea, a bit soya,
and very strong mucha taste. there's some rice inside... crispy rice. cool =)
then i started writting or Alesja, and i started writting for my guest also.
i wonder if i could be a good writter later? after i find my ideal job boring?
maybe after married? after my children all grown up? hahaha after retired????
anyway... nice =) if i really wanna be a writter, then i ve to contact Carie, my writting tutor!!!
i love her the most, in all of my Eng teachers. SHE IS THE BEST !!!
and where i met her? i met her in VPC, Vancouver la...
then Miss Erin is also wonderful actually!!! i wonder if the western really teach better.

S.O.S. !!!
that's the feelings of everyday ! S.O.S. !!!
especially when i was doing the copy.. erhhhh.... tomorrow gotta work...
but then Miss Chin would come at 12 noon? so i ve to be back at 12 noon ? i think so..
then....... yea... tomorrow morning, i will meet Vicvic !

She is back from Jap already ! and then going back to Van on Tue,..
so i will meet her torrow morning. actually i dont wanna go working tomorrow..
coz i wanna take a break, and meet vicvic... then my guests re cooming on Tue..
so, i really dont wanna go working tomorrow... somehow i'm dealing iwth the project..
and that's stuck.. i mean it's like in between someting.. cant get out of there..
sucks..

ok... hummmm
i like today.. coz i do have lots of private time, and i could stay alone, doing my personal stuffs,
and i coulld have such the cool drinks! *CHEERS!

by the way... i still havent got the reply from Arthur, Benny's brother.
i mesged him in friendster. hummm yea...
anyway, Benny would have some thing important to do on Tue.
why always TUESDAY???? the book, "Morrie with Tuesday", Vicvic leaving on Tue,
my guests coming on Tue, Benny got some important thing to do on Tue..
=.= |||

hummm i still ve somthing to do..
1) the aplication for SFFA
2) the letter for Alesja
3) the letter for Ade
4) the tour plan for my guests
5) the expenses report to my dad
anyting else? should be more... aiya...
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Rihanna - Kisses Dont Lie

Kisses dont
No they dont
Never dont lie
You can run if you want but you cant hide
Tellin you its the truth dont you ask why
Kisses dont
No they dont
Kisses dont lie

Emotions come and go
Almost how the wind will blow
There so little in this world to trust in
Seduce themselves with lies
Some dont realize
They call it love but its really only lustin

So you see you and me
We're gettin close to the danger zone
Show me how tell me now
Should I stay or should i go
Cause I'm caught between yes and no

Cause when you kiss me
I feel everything that I been missing
I try to slow down but my heart wont listen
And its tearin me all up inside
And when you touch me
I feel a rush but I'm afraid that it might crush me
Should I put my trust in somethin I dont trust in
I try to run but theres no place to hide
Cause baby kisses dont lie

Kisses dont
No they dont
Never dont lie
You can run if you want but you cant hide
Tellin you its the truth dont you ask why
Kisses dont
No they dont
Kisses dont lie

You whisper in my ear
But are your words sincere
Cause pretty words can cut just like a knife
You see I'm nobody's fool
I play by my own rules
So please think twice before you step into my life

So you see you and me
We're gettin close to the danger zone
Show me how tell me now
Should I stay or should i go
Cause I'm caught between yes and no

Some Pictures on my 20th Bday... happy birthday Cas... and here you go..
my best girl, Shan or Agnes, and my good friend, Queenie.
My Nice Cake Time with My Family

2006 年 6 月 16 日 星期五 【晴】

hummmm i over slept...
i woke up and left home almost 10am... which was supposed to be at office.

anyway... i worked from 11am to 5 pm.. shit... my brain is slower than 56k.
i felt a bit sick today.. all day dizzy....
hahaha... i kept talking on phone,... talking with Ade for quite long... then..
yea... talking with Shan... shan felt sick, she took the sick leave.
hummm alright... i've been quite upset and tired...
Ade was so confused by me.. she asked me.. aiya why it's like that de...
and then.. Cas... plz find a nice boyfriend in hk.. then i replied.. if i could, i would..
haha.. then i glanced at my students and Mr.Lam.
they're around me, doing different jobs.. seems llike.. everyone was so busy...
and me too.. talking on phone, hands re dealing with other doc, and talking with other students.

ok... finally, i gave mr.Lam the chocolate. ha... so bad...
i mean i'm os bad.. keep chating on phone, didnt really help him in time... aiya.. sorry...
i did copy the notes for his students at last. but the point is.. i ... i know i'm so bad..
coz even though my boss is around, i keep chating on phone, never stopped, except i gotta
help the studetns, or tutors.
yea i'm so bad.. even though giving him the chocolate, i was still on phone.
i dont like chatting on phone la, ppl know that.. but then why i keep chatting for so long today?
coz.. i just need to talk.. i dont wanna go working actually.. but then today is Sat..
and i wanna give mr.Lam that chocolate. otherwise it's gonna expired le. ha..
anyway.. i kept seeking for chance to give him la..
but then... no chances at all... eventually, i just gave him. nice. he said thanks, again. ha...

ok... i had lunch with Rami today at office.. hummm same lunch box as usual..
curry chiken legs with rice + ice tea. humm yea.... then we chatted for long.
so funny... havent chatted with him for long... last time was like... at school ?
not really. we chatted a few times on MSN.. yea.. he told me about his girlfriend.
nice.. haha... i think he's lucky. but he said it's not. ha.. "mirror"... isnt it good actually?
anyway... nice chat, my friend.

i'm so guilty with my boss,... coz recently i ve been too tired... then i couldnt funtion well.
i admit that and i feel sorry for that... but i'm very easy tired... yea...
so... i'm still rushing for the project. youk now what... when there's actually lots of stuffs to do,
and your helper is not helping you, as in she has other stuffs to do.. then the truth is...
i dont know what to do... i feel a bit helpless.. coz.. i rushing the paper, keep renewing, updating
information... but then... it's just tooo slow, super slow and thats not expected by me !
somehow i couldnt take control, coz the situation is.. just i cant expect everything i want.
and the truth is... i'm not that "powerful". i'm just a part-time staff. and i'm doing something so special..
sigh.... i'm a bit affraid that i couldnt make it donw on monday.
due date is tue, but then my guests re coming on Tue... so.. yea... tue to Sun, i wouldnt go work i
guess... and... i wonder if i would go back take a look at least. coz i dont wanna just hang my work,
my job on the table, and just run away for fun. (or no fun). anyway... yea.. i'm and i wanna be more
responsible for my job. i just think i should do well on everything.
yea...

and i found that actually those three new tutors, the miss, are quite friendly...
=) hee.... i like them hee.

and then...
after work..... . . . .... not really after work 4 pm.. nop..i mean i ve OT today till 5 pm..
then anyway, i go seek for a gift for one of my guests.
eventually i went to Sha tin... the big big mall la... then... i walked in a gift shop..
i didnt know what i wanna buy... have been thinking for long.... i mean not started by today le..
hummm i called Tung, want the advice, i called Rami, wanted advice..
i called Agnes, and Boey, want the advice.. hahaha... eventually only Boey ans the call.
and she was with her handsome-boyfriend. hahahaha... her boyfriend looks so sweet, tall and
everything is just so perfect in ALL-GIRLS' EYES. maybe except me.. coz i dont care much.. ha..
Boey is my new frined, one of my new groupmate from my Gender role class last term.
anyway... they're so funny! i chatted for 15 mins? in the shop. hahaha so crazy talk.. haha..
ok... then i finally buy something not very unique, but cute though...
i hope my guest would like it. i just hope, coz i think my guest might not like it haha..
then i was walking back to the train station... then i got the call from Rami.
hahahaha he laughs at me !!!! so funny... he siad.. "i definetly dont want this gift." hahaha...
aiya... haha... so bad ..ha... anyway.. i just wish my guest would like it.

ok... back home, resting..
come on line imediately.. coz i saw Benny on line when i was leaving office,
(i was on web msn for only 1 min, today, my whole time in office)
yea... i reached home like 8 pm already... then chatting with him till 9 sth..
of course we didnt chat for really long. he's busy..
ok.... we share feelings. talking on life... i'm glad that he's not angry at me. and he's still fine.
he's a really tough guy. i do appreciate him at this point. hummm i m just trying to do something..
and......... like what i said.. i'm still not really over yet. i'm not seeking for a chance for us..
but just sharing the feelings and i know he just need someone now. something terrible going on
with him. and i couldnt just say coz we're end then.. yea... couldnt. coz i still care of him much much
and much. when he told me what happened.. i was really shocked and worried for him.
i just.. i need some time to... figure out what i want and what i should do..
i dont wanna let the feeligns to get me back to him .. coz i dont wanna just end or start a relationship
so easily. it's not me.

"p.s. ii'm still not over you.." that's the song from Rihanna... very nice melody..
i love this kind of song.. a bit urban + jazz+ a bit r&b.

last night, in bed.. i pray again... finally after 2 months, i pray again..
i cried and apologized that i couldnt face my God. coz i know i'm so guilty..
eventough Benny knew what happened already and he's not angry at me.. i couldnt forgive myself.
yea.. i still couldnt, and couldnt accept i've broken the promise with Benny, and broken a girl's heart.
yea... Benny knew.. he asked me today... and i told him when i needed someone, someone was just
so nice to me. but i didnt know he has a girlfriend, but then the girl found out already and she was so
sad. then Benny said no wonder i wanted a break up. NOPE. i d never compared Benny with someone.
Benny and me.. not this case.. as in the third party joint in then we broke? not this case...
someone knew i love Benny so much, too.
anyway... i shouldnt say too much..

Ade said... she thinks i should move on.. coz she thinks i'll not be happy with Benny.
my frineds.. have different advice for me.. thanks... and i just want some time..
anyway.. feel like someone and me would just not to be together.
i dont think i could keep him, and i dont wanna go share...
dont know if that girl want or not, i definetely dont want and wont do that. anyway, really dont want to
hurt her, and really dont wanna hurt someone. coz they're the very nice ppl.
dont know... see how things go.. anyway, he's my guest. and i'm gonna be a good guide at least.

Some Pictures on my 20th Bday... happy birthday Cas... and here you go..
my best girl, Shan or Agnes, and my good friend, Queenie.
My Nice Cake Time with My Family

2006 年 6 月 15 日 星期四 【晴】

i go work today... ard 12:00 noon... then off ard... 9 somthing pm.
hummmm i had a breifing with my helper, Miss Chin today..
very long and nice breifing, and we chat, and share our experience.
well, i think we would work well together =)... and... i would let her take over my part,
coz i might just be no show, not showing up for ard 5 days, from the coming Tue.
and then i would go on trip in Aug, the Canada trip, for another 10 days or longer...

hummm have been very busy...
humm i got the sms from my dear someone.. and i was a bit supprised and a bit shocked.
basically, i was... happy and a bit sad.
anyway, i was not able to give a reply... till.... i went to web messenger...
anyway..... yea... some problems... and have been quite busy..
i do enjoy working, even though it's quite tiring, i love the time staying with the kids, students.
i know i'm quite pop there now hahaha... they love me.. i know =) and thanks !!!
humm okay....

i got the coffee and donut before work.. at Pacific Coffee... then..
i ve a chinese bun ard 7 pm.. after work, no dinner home, humm i ate some chips.. ok...

i got one message. and it really turn me down... not saying as in i'm dissapointed..
i just mean.... i feel so down.. that feelings is even worse than dissapointed.

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Everyday i wake up, i feel terrible..
i sit on my bed, i dont know what the hell is going on.
i dont know the date, the time. what i'm gonna do, where i'm going to.

i just know... everyday i have my schedule to follow, i have stuffs to do..
then.. i put aside all my private stuffs... i stay away from my... personal affairs..
i just give time on work and.. i escape from my real feelings... seems like giving a break on
everything on my mind, which was belonging to the past and kindda present.
taking the pause... but.. cant lie to myself.. that... time flys... and it d never stopped.
these few months re passing sooo fast... i didnt catch on any moment..
it just let it flow.. coz.. i dont know what i should be hanging on to..
i just know... days by days.. i dont wanna face the damn problems, old feelings..
i dont know.. if i'm detecting them or just skipping them.

i got a reminder from Alesja actually... her postcards...
she let me think... of... lots of stuffs.. and yea... i have forgotten her... really...
yea, i did mention her lots of time on my diary. i ve been thinking of her everyday..
but then.. i really forgotten her that's the fact. why? coz.. i forgot to post her a card..
that was our promise... and... yea... and i totally forgot that..
coz... i guess... i'm giving myself so much damn excuses..
i dont mean to forget it, but i did that.

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anyway... here, i wanna remind myself..
i ve to buy a gift on tomorrow after work.. i ve to make it fast ! coz i got no time left !
i ve to make my application for SFFA on Monday..
i ve to post the letter and cards to my dearest Alesja! wishing her a nice and safe trip to there.
i ve to make a detail plan for my dearest guests, who are coming on Tue.
i ve to make the expenses table before this weekend.. and i m still searching infomation on some parts.

at work:
i ve to finish the project on the coming Monday.
i ve to teach her, Miss Chin everyhing, and let he practice, experience all before i'm leaving on Tue.
which means on Monday. and then... i'm not sure if we would make it.. anyway.. give a try..
i ve to make my schedule in details, for my work. no time left, no rooms for rest.
he's actually forcing me, i feel that, i sense that. he mentions more and more to me about his partner,
and how well a woman doing at her business. he bascilly want me to be competable with her.
damn. that's her business, she's earning big money, totally directed to her own pocket.
and i'm just reciving $25/hr. what do you expect from me actually?
i come to work almost everyday, and OT, and i got none holidays under paid. i take care the center well,
i deal with your project. the students love me lots.. and what esle you're asking for more?
if he's just comparing me with her.. i would really like to ask him...
you give such a nice position to me, and give me the very nice money. hahaha..
yea, he's my boss, and my friend.
i dont know.. i work for him, coz i like what i'm doing, and i 'm just taking experience.
so i dont really care how much he gives me.. so in some degrees, in this situation now,
i think i ve to protect myself. coz he's asking moreand more from me.. but it's really not balanced.
anyway... i'm stressed.. coz... i m really responsible for my position, and i'm giving in all i could do.

>>June 16, 2006 at 4:15:42 PM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 14 日 星期三 【晴】

wahhhhh so sleepy...

i m going to work..
just wanna make a list for reminding myself..
Personaly:
1) the deferment application for SFAA
2) the expsense detials:(accomodation, taxi)
Office:
3) project: original copy, ve to be done before Sat:
before: check class time table, tution fee, subjects orders, school names order,
no package (all in one), summer class, all in ease.
4) exam time table update..
5) Maths Class all changes.
6) AL-Use of Eng class addmentment.
5) Notes for Dr. Liu (Class of today??), Ms. Ching, Ms. Pinky, Mr. Lam, Mr.Yu.
anything else?... hummm yea.. water... on monday..
paper and stationary... yup..
ok...

anyway, last night, when my hands touch the water, then i felt pain. i find.. i got a few cuts by paper
recently. keep being hurt by just something soft, paper. sigh. fun...

hummmmm got a call from dear someone today morning..
hey cas, dont be too sensitive.. and.. i just dont wanan think relationship.
my priority is... ? dont ask, coz i dont wanna tell myself.

ok.
bye. be back later..


Part II, now is... 12: 22am.
have been really busy today.. sigh.... i was very very tired..
still dealing with the project. hummmm and then... i left office like... 11 :02 pm.
oh man... i ve been on web messenger.. hummm was looking for friends, need to ask some
information from them. yea... then i saw my dear someone on line.. got the sad news from him.
i wish him well.

okay... tomorrow will have a helper come, finally.
but.. she's one of the teacher here, with us !! and she 's not working with me for long..
i guess she will leave me ard July. sigh........ so boss asked me not necessary to teach her so much things.
but the point is... she's a tutor here! how dare i ask her for helping some minor stuffs?
i didnt ask my boss about that. coz... i think no matter how i have to ask her for help.
otehrwise, i will not be able to get my job done "NICELY". i guess the point is my attitude...
i'm a bit worried and affraid. coz... since those since tutors left, new tutors are the girls,
including this girl. and then... i dont find them very nice or friendly. and you know...
working with girls is just... quite... "no good". coz... girls re quite bitchy, eventhough i m a girl,
be honest, i ve to say that, right? and i hate this kind of strangers, i mean the bitches.
i dont mean they're ... somehow, one of them 's acting it out. i feel like... she's quite proud and..
not very friendly though... the studetns told me also... so... i feel a bit stress to talk with them..
coz they re ot so friendly. feels like they dont really like me or look down on me? i dont know.
so... if it's true.. how about the girl now? they're from the same group. they're a group, really.
they're friends and old schoolmates. so... if what i feel is really true.. then..
how to work with this Miss Chin? i'm a bit affraid... she' quite frinedly.. but i'm not sure if she would
mind helping me for so many minor stuffs. coz obviously, she 's supposed to be a tutor..
she doesnt need to deal with the administration work.
and i hate and scared of the gossip... so... yea... better be careful ?

ok.....
last night, i didnt sleep well, today eventhough i have coffee, i still feel sooo sleepy..
and i feel back pain. =.= ahhhhhhhh =(
hummm i spilit off my coffee in MTR station... damn... the coffee was so FRESH, means HOT..
i just took away, didnt stay for a min, from Pacific Coffee...

anyway... tomorrow will be working from 12 noon. and then.. yea maybe be OT again ?
ahhhh i dont like it... i like resting instead...

anyway..
dont wanna talk about relationship stuffs.. since there's been something happening.

hey! looking forward for the dinner coming on SAT !!! Shan ! Queenie!!
let's go there ! i really wanna go to that resturant for long ! so nice!
every chairs, tables, are just different! very unique decor and it's so warm !
i will work first, then after work, maybe hanging around.. still looking for a gift for someone.
yea...

*by the way... Queenie mesged me in web messenger today...
she mentioned about the pictures we took on my bday night.
i wonder what she means =D hahaha hey, Queenie... i didnt really understand actually.
i was very very busy, so i didnt really think about what you said bascily..
i just recieved your mesg, but i didnt really think abt it.
so, tell me again next time, ok? heehee.. you know me very well, i'm like that, ok? haha!!! *cheers!
anyway, thanks for the Moomin... but did anyone tell you that i love another cartoon now =P?
hahaha thanks!! also thanks for Shan !!
ALESJA!!! i got her day card today from Germany!! ^^ THANKS! *kisskiss.

hummm my trip has been almost firmed already. i'm really going to Toronto on 14th.
then arrive at Vancouver on 15th or 16th. waiting for the feedback now.
i have an essential task to do in Toronto.. so.. i need to do some research before i go..
and i'm a bit worried that i will get lost in there.

hummmm if he's really coming, i would be very very happy, and i really do appreciate that.
however, if he is not coming, i still would understand.
and..... i dont know what it would be like... anyway, i think that's really lucky and nice to meet
him here =) i'm looking forward his visiting.
***

>>June 15, 2006 at 4:48:11 PM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 13 日 星期二 【晴】

today...

i woke up ard 7 am +++ then..... i watched movie... till 10 am sth..
then i go back to sleep till ard 11 am...
left home ard 11 30... meet my sister, Miki for lunch before work...

haha we had a very full and lovely lunch, jap food... fine...

then i went to work..
really really busy.... boss was not there till....... 5 pm i guess...
ve been really busy... coz... actually i ve my dialy jobs at office..
then... today... there's a "plus"... the copy machine really down.. both down...
then simply.. just keep jaming paper.. and then... no serive provided.
sigh..... then i did other stuffs la... got some doc to read and prepare..

anyway,.... i was dealing with the project. still vent done.. i ve a talk with boss today..
i asked lots of ques, coz basicly i ve not enough information.
then my boss told me... hummm he was sorry not letting me know enough, niether nor him
dont really know what to in put. he generaly telling me the ideas..
then he gave me an suggestion... he asked me to... use whatever method to get it done.
put everything on a A-4 paper.. then i could go to the office to talk with the techni.
sigh... okay... i bring the file home... keep thinking of it... on the way home..
i couldnt relaz myself or enjoy my reading on train.
anyway... i would get it done, perfectly done.

anyway...
i got something happy and also sad to share..
hummm ha... i called Kiana today. she's a very lovely girl, one of my very close friend in Van..
then we chated for... 30 mins i guess? i told her i would be there ard Aug.
but then she will be out of town.. so sad... coz i miss her so much... when i left, we didnt ve enough
time, as in... spending time iwth each others... sad..
by the way, i was sooooo glad to talk with her =) and she was really supprised ! haha..
coz i keep asking " may i talk to kiana? may i speak to Kiana? " haha...
she said yes yes yes... then i asked her... " hey! do you know who am i ?"
..... "who?" ..... hahaha.... then suddenly she doubted, "Castor ???" yup =) that's me !

okay... hummm i saw Benny on line..
i dont know what to say... anyway............................................. i dont know..

i changed my msn nick... i said.. i just wanna be alone and stick with my work.

anyway.. my b-day pictures re released ... haha "released"... yup... go check..
go yahoo.

>>June 14, 2006 at 3:16:59 PM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 12 日 星期一 【晴】

hummm..

I WAS SAD LAST NIGHT.. COZ EVENTUALLY I WAS TOO BUSY AT WORK,
COULDNT LEAVE AND MISSED MY PLAN ON MY B-DAY GATHERING.
NO HELPERS ARRANGED FOR HELP.. SUCKS..

ANYWAY..
BACK TO TAI PO... WISHING FOR A DRINK WITH MY BEST LADY..
CONTINOUE OUR LADY' NIGHT.

HAHAHA WE DRINK... AT AFTER5. WELL WELL WELL...
AFTER HOME, SO LONG HAVENT DRINK ALCOHOL... LAST NIGHT WAS THE FIRST TIME..
THEN TODAY GOT ALERGY.. SICK...
ANYWAY..
LAST NIGHT I SLEPT QUITE LATE.. BUT MISSING THE FEELINGS OF A BIT DRUNK.
AND I THOUGHT OF LOTS OF PPL, THEN I CRIED... TILL I WAS REALLY TIRED THEN FELL ASLEEP.

WELL, ME AND SHAN HAD ICE CREAM BALL AFTER WALKED QUEENIE HOME..
THEN WE TOOK TAXI TO HOME...
I THINK I BACK HOME AROUND 1 AM...

TODAY, I GET MY CALLING CARD FINALLY..
TEN GAVE THE CALL TO MY DEAR SOMEONE AND ADE.
HAHAHA... MISS ADE LOTS !
AHHHH I REALLY LOOKING FORWARDING GOING BACK TO VANCOUVER...

ANYWAY,
TODAY IS SUPER BUSY AGAIN..
EVENTUALLY I GOT NO HELPERS, NOT ENOUGH TIME TO DO MY PROJECT.
AND THE DUE DATE WAS POSTPONED.

I GOT ALESJA, HAK GON, LEE WAI, MY COUSIN, AND SOMEO THER NET FRIENDS'
" HAPPY BIRTHDAY " MESG OR E-MAIL! SO NICE!
TAKNKS FOR ALL !

BUT SOMEHOW I WAS WAITING FOR A REPLY... NOPE.. I DIDNT GET ANY.

>>June 13, 2006 at 4:03:57 PM GMT+8

2006 年 6 月 11 日 星期日 【晴】

HEEHEEHEE !!!!

I GOT A CAKE ! BLACK FOREST ! =p
^^

HUMMM I LEFT HOME, I TOOK A WALK, AND PAY MY CELL PHONE BILL.
HEE.. THIS MONTH HUH, IT COSTS ALMOST $500. I DONT REMEMBER THE EXACTLY PRICE.
I DIDNT LET MY DAD PAY FOR ME OF COURSE! OTEHRWISE HE WOULD ASK ME WHY..
AND YOU GUYS KNOW PRETTY WELL THAT I DONT LIKE TALKING ON PHONE..
AND WHY ACTUALLY? COZ OF THE SMS =) HEE

ANYWAY,
THANKS FOR MY BEST BUDDY ALESJA !!!!! I LOVE HER SO MUCH !!!! I WISH HER GETTING WELL SO
SOON MY DEAR.. SHE COMES TO MSN EVER THOUGH HE WAS SO SICK IN BED JUZ COZ OF MY
B-DAY... I WAS SO TOUCHED.... SHE'S THE FIRST PERSON SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
THEN I VE TO THANKS SHAN~~~ MY VERY VERY BEST FRIEND ! HEE... SHE SAW ME ON LINE..
THEN HAHA.. ANYWAY! LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING HER TOMORROW ! =)
THEN... TUNG, MY BEST GUY FRINED IN HK. HAHA THX FOR UR ANSWERING AND UR SMS AT THE
12:OOAM. HAHAHAHA SOOOOO SUPPRISE !
THEN MY SISTERS... AT 12:00 AM. THEY KNOCKED THE DOOR.. I WAS AT BATHROOM..
THEN THEY SMILED AND SANG.. HEY MAN... FEELS LIKE THE VERY SWEET CANDY MELTING IN MY
MOUTH.. AND THEN I FOUND THEM SO LOVELY !
AND THEN SOME OF MY FRIENDS, CALAIS, GIGI, AND A NET FRIEND-BROTHER. HAHA THANKS...

MY FAMILY IS SO FUNNY.... JUST NOW... I WENT OUT, PAYING THE BILL, THEN MET MY PARENTS..
THEN WE BOUGHT SOMETHING AND A CAKE HOME..
HUMMM NO ONE REALLY CARED ABOUT MY BIRTHDAY... THAT'S HOW I FELT..
SO WEIRD FEELINGS.. COZ... THEY DIDNT REALLY ENJOY THE CAKE TIME AND STUFFS.
THEY SAID THE CAKE IS NOT GOOD, THIS AND THAT, THEN... WHEN I CUT THE CAKE..
I ASK MIKI COMES. SHE WAS IN HER ROOM.... SHE REFUSED...
THEN... I CUT THE CAKE SO UGLY.... THEN MY SISTER LEGGY AND DAD ALWAYS TAKE
PICTURES FOR THE CAKE, NOT ME OR ANYONE... I FEEL SO STRANGE..

ANYWAY, I APPRECIATE THE SWEET SONG FROM MY SISTERS AT 12:00 AM ^^ HEE
THIS YEAR... NO GIFTS ... LAST YEAR LOTS AND LOTS.. HAHA.. SO TOUCHED..
GIGI TOLD ME.. SINCE I'M GG TO BE 20, THEN I DONT NEED ANY BIG CELEBRATIONS ANYMORE..
THIS'S NOT THE CASE. NOT THE POINT OF 20 OR YOUNGER OR OLDER.. OR ANY PARTIES.
THAT'S UR FEELINGS AT THE MOMENT. WHEN YOU'RE STEPPING INTO A NEW STAGE,
YOU WANAN SHARE IT WITH ALL THE PPL YOU LOVE. AND YOU WISH THEM TO BE WITH YOU
AT THAT MOMENT. NO ONE KNOWS IF THERE'S ANYTHING COMING GOOD OR BAD.
YOU WOULD LIKE TO STAY WITH THEM AT YOUR PRECIOUS MOMENT IN LIFE.
YOU MIGHT HAVE 60 OR 90 BIRTHDAYS... BUT EVERYTIME IS JUST VERY DIFFERENT.
I JUST DONT WANAN MISS ANYTHING, ANY MOMENT WITH THE PPL I LOVE, I CONCERN.
HEE.

HA HA, HUMMMMMM...
THE SWEETEST CALL I GOT TODAY IS........... YES! FROM MY DEAR-SOMEONE !
THANKS. I THOUGHT HE WOULD FORGET... BUT HE DIDNT FORGET=)
NICE! *GIVE BIG HANDS PLZ~~
SWEET SWEET DEARIE.. HEE..

HUMMM TOMORROW I WILL GO IKEA AT THE MORNING, COZ I NEED TO DO SOME RESEARCH =p
THEN I WILL GO FOR A COFFEE OR WHATEVER BREAKFAST I GUESS,
THEN I GO WORKING, HUMMM TOMORROW I WOULD HAVE A NICE HELPER I HOPE! AND THEN THE
FIRST PART OF THE PROJECT IS DUE TO TUESDAY... HUMMM I'M CONFIDENT, COZ I GOT THE
SUPPORT AND I VE TO TRUST ON MYSELF. BY THE WAY... WISH HIS MOM IS FINE.
THEN AFTER WORK I WOULD MEET MY BEST FRIEND, SHAN, WHO'S MY
WONDERFUL GIRL HEEHEE.. MAYBE QUENIE, ANOTHER GOOD FRIEND, WOULD COME =p AND TUNG!
HE MIGHT COME. ANYWAY, *CHEERS !
THEN I WILL GO HOME REST...
HEE... WISHING A CALL, CAN TALK WITH MY SOMEONE TOMORROW..
PERHAPS WE WOULD BE ABLE TO TALK A BIT LONGER.. COZ EVERYTIME..
HE'S BUSY OR I'M BUSY. HA.. BUT IT'S STILL NICE, COZ AT LEAST WE'RE WILLING GIVE CHANCES.
THE CALL, SMS, THAT WOULD BE THE BIGGEST GIFT FROM MY DEAR-SOMEONE...
=)

cheers*






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2006 年 6 月 10 日 星期六 【晴】

* RockyR Cho (um) Laissez-faire * 괜찮아
The Confession from Rocky R.Cho, Ms. Rowdyruff.

TOMORROW WOULD BE MY DAMN HELL 20TH B-DAY.
ERHHHH........ FEELING DAMN COMPLICATED...
PRETTY BORING B-DAY COMING SOON... SAYING GOODBYE TO MY 19TH,
AND THAT REPRESENTING THAT I'M STEPPING IN THE 20S.

HUMMM OBVIOUSLY, ONLY MY FAMILY AND MY BEST FRIEND SHAN REMEMBER MY B-DAY.
TUNG, HE KNOWS, COZ I'VE TOLD HIM A FEW DAYS AGO..
SIGH.... SO SAD... COZ... WHEN THESE KINDS OF DAYS COME, I WOULD HAVE TO WAKE UP THAT
ACTUALLY VERY VERY LESS PPL WOULD REMEMBER ME.

ACTUALLY FEEL LIKE... NO ONE REALLY REMEMBER MY B-DAY.
YEA MY MOM REMEMBER... BUT JUST NOW... COZ I MENTIONED ABOUT TOMORROW,
I WILL NOT BE HOME THEN I ASKED IF I WOULD VE A CAKE TONIGHT..
THEN SHE SAID.. OH YEA TOMORROW IS YOUR BIRTHDAY! =.= SO MOM ACTUALLY FORGOT..

YESTERDAY, AFTER WORK, I WANNA MEET SHAN, COZ BASCILY I VE REALLY FEW FRIENDS IN
HK... THEN... SHE SAID... OH YEA.. YOUR B-DAY IS COMING ON MON! YEA...
THEN WE WOULD MEET UP TOMORROW NIGHT. STILL DONTK NOW IF QUEENIE WOULD COME..
SIGH.... JACKIE... WHERE ARE YOU? I REMEMBER THE FIRST YEAR YOU WENT TO TAIWAN,
YOU POSTED ME A BIG GIFT FROM THERE.. HOW MUCH SUPPRISE THAT WAS..
THIS YEAR AND LAST YEAR... I WAS IN VAN AND HERE BUSY FOR EXAM, DONT EVEN VE
TIME TO TAKE A BREAK.. SO I MISSED HER B-DAYS.. BUT I DID MESG HER..

BENNY NEVER REMEMBER MY B-DAY? ON MY B-DAY UST LIKE NORMAL DAYS.. SIGH...
FINE.. WE'RE OVER ANYWAY.. HE DOESNT NEED TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME ANYMORE..GOOD FOR HIM.

ISNT THAT TRUE SAD... WHEN BASICLY NO ONE REMEMBER YOUR B-DAY...
JESUS HAS A DAY, CALLED CHRISTMAS, TO CELEBRATE HIS BIRTHDAY, SO GREAT!!!
HAHA JUST KIDDING, I'M NOT JEALOUS OF HIM. HE'S GOD'S SON =)

IF THERE'S NO ONE REMEMBER MY B-DAY, WHY NOT JUST HAVE A SMALL PARTY BY MYSELF?
I PREFFER A SMALL QUIET NIGHT FOR MYSELF ONLY THEN.
WHEN ONLY I KNOW MY B-DAY THAT'S STILL MUCH BETTER THAN THAT, YOU KNOW LOTS OF PPL
KNOW YOUR B-DAY BUT ALL FORGOTEN ABOUT THAT.
AT LEAST YOU DONT FEEL SAD OF THE "NEGLECT" ATTITUDE. RIGHT ?

LAISSEZ FAIRE... MEANS.... DOESNT MATTER, NEVER MIND...
괜찮아 IS KOREAN, ALSO MEAN THE SAME THING..
THE CONFESSION FROM ROCKY R. CHO, FROM MS. ROWDYRUFF:
THAT'S THE NEW NAME OF THIS DIARY. I NAME IT AS THE CONFESSION.. COZ..
BASCILY IT'S NOT A DIARY ANYMORE... IT'S MORE LIKE TO TALK TO THE PPL ?
I FEEL LIKE TO WRITE DOWN LOTS OF STUFFS...
I REMEMBER WHEN I COME BACK TO HK.... IT'S BEEN QUITE A LONG TIME I VENT WRITTEN ANY
WORDS HERE. THEN I SAID I'M WORDS LESS, I M SPEECH LESS. ACTUALLY I AM.
WHEN I'M OUTSIDE, I DONT TALK. WHEN AT HOME, I DONT TALK AS MUCH.
I COULD BE VERY VERY TALKATIVE, BUT JUST DONT FEEL LIKE TO TALK.
MAYBE COZ NO ONE TO GO WITH AND NOT MUCH TIME TO HANG AROUND.
NOT LIKE IN VANCOUVER.... COULD TALK TALK TALK.. PLAY PLAY PLAY..
ANYTIME I WANT. CAN REST ANYTIME I LIKE. CAN GO DRINKING , HANGING ARD ALL DAY LONG,
THEN ENDING DRINKING AND SINGING WITH FRIENDS.

HUMMMMM TOMORROW NIGHT... I MIGHT WANT ALCOHOL THEN.
JUST NOW TALK ON PHONE WITH SOMA, MY CHURCH AND OLD SCHOOL BUDDIES...
THEY CELEBRATE WITH ME ON MY 18TH B-DAY... WE HAD A PARTY AT A FRIEND'S HOME..
THIS YEAR, THEY ALL FORGOT MY B-DAY LE HAHAHAHA... SO IRONIC...

NOW I COULD UNDERSTAND WHY ADE'S BIRTHDAY WAS NOT SO HAPPY..
ME TOO.... SIGH........... TERRIBLE...

I WANNA GO OUT FOR A WALK NOW..
BYE CASTOR.

cheers*






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2006 年 6 月 9 日 星期五 【晴】

I m very very very tired.....

today woke up in the morning, ard 8 am.... damn....my eyes re still closed up while i seat up on my bed..
couldnt wake then slept again... then eventually i didnt have enough time to stay at the cafe..
i planed to ve coffe at Pacific Coffee before work.. coz i need to plan my schedule for boss today.
but then... no ... dont ve enough time.. then i buy the coffee seat for 10 mins then left.

working working busy busy... very busy... even though i was on web messanger, i was actually
away. i was sitting in front of the com, but got no mins to reply any mesgs , even i 've missed my
dearest someone's mesg for one hr ++... when i found his mesg, that was an hr++ passed already..
lots of stuffs to do... then have to take care of the students and teachers need.. very busy..

then boss 's back.. aiya... miss the chocolate to Mr. Lam.... i ve prepared the chocolate for him..
but then today he and boss were talking.. after talk, he left.. a student was talking to me..
then boss is around... so finally didnt give him the chocolate. ha... next time..
really wanna give him that chocolate.. coz i wanan share with him !
then i gave the candy to the student, hahaha she was so nice... she's a really nice girl..
then still remember a boy, last time.. no one trusted him... only me... and i asked boss dont kick him out..
heehee this boy actually is a nice boy.. yea... then today i ve lunch with him again. he's a good boy =)
i'm so happy heehee. and i'm getting along well with the students haha i'm so happy ^^~

hummmmmm on the way home, reading my new book... okok la, not bad.
and then after work, i ve been thinking of my dear someone and his mom and my work...
then back home resting and dealing with some payments. ok.

hummm i called Shan =P heehee,.... my birthday heehee...
MONDAY !!! I WILL GO HANGING ARD BEFORE WORK.
AFTER WORK, I WILL GO AFTER5, TAHT BAR, TO DATE ONE OF MY BEST FRIEND ! OR MAYBE MORE !
at least could go for a drink. alcohol? dont know... maybe not?
coz no fun la... only two girls ... haha... should be a party at least ! then can play drink game! =P
ahhhhh!!!!!! really miss those guys in Van !!!! >.<
even though just school party, hahaha we all drink and play game... and i got skin alegry if i mix alcohol..
after party, i usually dont show up class next day hahahaha...
I DONT CARE !!!! silly... i do care... and coz of that... i couldnt get the higest score in my class...
but almost all A on my cert.. hahaha.. fine... my teacher, Lisa wrote on my report, she said..
Castor, if she didnt miss some classes, she could do much better! hahahaha so nice !!!!!
she's really funny man... i miss her lots...
i remember... in school parties.. Dong Eon and Taku always get drunk.. coz they're just very good
at alcohol... THEY GO CRAZY EVERYTIME... then at night, we hang out.. they drink beer,
they drink lots and lots.. or Soju or DongDong Ju (both re the Korean Wine), they go crazy...
when dong Eon's drunk.. he usually do silly things... make me worried.. ha..
but then i did enjoy lots with Dong Eon, and his friends.. coz.. they take care of me much,
and then we really had so much fun. but dont know why so all of the sudden, he just keeps distance
with me. i did nothing, except onething to him... that's... i disagree with him on one thing about my boyfriend. SAD.

anyway, .... go drinking ! have fun ! only girls ... haha.... a bit strange... but could be fun..
could be so loving, coz only close friends, girls, then can talk about everything...

in Aug, i will go back to Canada for 10 days... or maybe a short period? i m not sure yet..
i really wanna seek them, my closest friends there, Ade and Cyn.. then my nice friends, Kiana,
and all of my friends from school... Vicvic would be back to Singapore by that time.. then Alesja
is not there... and MiHyeon, Susumu, Jason Op Bba and Hak Gon are all back to Korea and Japan...
hummmmm....... much less fun.... sigh....... really sad...
before i left, i really seeked Dong Eon by hard for long, then i know he moved and we live just two
levels apart, non purposely... that's fate ? haha Taku said that's fate.. haha!!
then.. i seek for chances to say bye bye to him before i back to Hong Kong.. he just... avoid me..
so... this time when i go back.. i really wanna meet him and his friends, also my Hang Sang Gong and
Cheung Gum hahaha... miss them lots ! and i would seek Pil, my Korean teacher and classmate,
and then seek Taku, and Yui... and my dear teachers!!!

BIRTHDAY COMING... i dont care much... the focus is changed... i focus on my friends more than
myself now.. coz.. no them ard, i feel so empty and lonely...
feel like.. i'm fighting in HK all by myself.. yup my family is with me, but i ve missed so much fun
with my close and fun loving friends....
i miss them so much....

and then... i m looking forward my guests coming soon =) hee...
and i hope i could spend all my time with them.. but then.. i'm arranging my job in office now.
doing some adjustment.. i would have a helper from Monday. then start from the coming Monday,
i would be quite busy at work. just need to finish this small project by pieces of jobs..
i would teach him/her then i let him/her do my job, and i work on the project..
actually feel like doing two things at the same time.
so... if this time i sucess, the timing would be just perfect ! hee.. dont miss it Cas.. !

thanks for the support from my dear someone =) hee.

hey... here's a ong and some pictures...
主唱：鄭丹端+伍詠薇+鍾景輝+盧宛茵+曹永廉+鄧上文+李思捷+鍾煌+苑瓊丹

作曲：鄧智偉｜填詞：陳詩慧｜編曲：｜監製：

*Da da dida de dida dade
Dida dida dida de Whoo Oh
Di da dida dida dada
Dida dida dida*

輕輕鬆鬆坐低睇喇喂
一家盞鬼十足三歲細路仔
點解點解咁好相處蝕底都肯制
其實我愛我家中每位

最愛鬥氣十足公園細路仔
盞盞鬼鬼鬥足一世　未有分大細
其實係我愛我家中每位
Repeat *

整蠱心思那位多幼細
多多計仔十足三歲細路仔
開開心心太好相處願玩足一世
其實我愛我家中每位

一家親親坐低邊有計
開開心心十足公園細路仔
假使請將笑聲收細　難蓋掩大勢
其實係我愛我家中每位
Repeat **

cheers*






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