2007 年 1 月 24 日 星期三 【晴】

hi, it's 25th night. i mean.. it's 26th morning at night.
the ticket is confirmed, which means... i'm going anyway.
my paretns havent known yet, i'm quite worried they would be very angry.

i had work today. kindda busy... morning was a bit busy, coz Ella has early class.
then, we had lunch together, and we did some shopping for the office too.
then ad been helping her and working on my job, then... i had a class with Fiona.
Ella said she's bullying me... i think so... i'm just too nice to her. she just doesnt like doing work,
but i think she's improving now, coz... she's not as lazy as before, still lazy though =)
Alex and Billy were here on Wed. Alex was here on Mon as well.
i think Alex is pretty smart, but Billy's attitude is... weird.
sometimes he's aggressive, but sometimes he's lazy. sometimes quite confident, sometimes not.
Alex is pretty good, very simple to understand him hahaha. he' my fav kid =) he's a bright kid.

hummmm.... then had been busy doing stuffs... quite lots of arrangement, and need to follow up
some document. then.. i tidyed up the "fridge". then tidy up room.. i said i feel like i'm a house keeper.
Ella laughed. but it's kindda true.

i didnt really stay on line today, coz... Ella was in the office for the whole day.
tomorrow and Sat would be the same too...
hummmm... maybe not much chances to catch up with honey.

>>January 25, 2007 at 5:26:00 PM GMT+8

2007 年 1 月 23 日 星期二 【晴】

honey was back to Canada.
hummmmmmmm... i was sad the day before he went back. coz...
we're in the different time zone again.
it's like... we had been so near, but now back to far far away.
we could share the same day, we could say good night and sleep.
we could have breakfast at the same time, do crazy thing in the same time zone.
now, he's back to Van. haha.. i miss him..

hummm the day he left... we had chats in the morning...
then... he sms me when he arrived the airport.. and we talk till he was aboard.
hummmm then...yesterday i kept thinking of him.. thinking of.. what he would be doing on plane.
haha coz i could guess.
the last ten mins of his flight, i was thinking what he was doing. i recalled my experience on plane.
it was quite good. but i dont know what he feels.

now is... almost 8pm there.. he's very tired. hummm now is also almost 12 noon here.

sometimes, i would be very stupid doing something very stupid.
well, sometimes i'm afraid someday he might find me so stupid.
like, sometimes i'm talking rubbish, or something not very meaningful for ppl.
i dont gossip, i dont harm ppl, but what i say is just not useful. i'm quite naive sometimes as well..
so... i'm a bit afraid. haha... once honey said... he's happy that he's much older than me.
hahaha then i said so you were not happy? i was so stupid.. haha.. he was abit angry.
sometimes, i'm just worried or wanted to help him.. then.. end up like... i treating him as a child.
and he complaint to me hahaha... he's cute.

ppl ask me why i love him.... hummm i dont know why. haha..
then some ppl say Cas, you're so blind...
then i would wonder... yea.. blind in love. but how about.... if two ppl re forever blind in love?
is it good? is it sweet ? i think so.... it's the bliss.
there's no such a way for me to measure love.
i think, at the begining, the passin is strong, and it's very romantic.
after a few years, passion would still be there, and the relationship would be more stable.
after a few more years, a family would become more more stable.
after a few more years.... and years.... and years...
it's process, different ages of me and stages of the relationship.
a lots of challenges, and lots of happiness or sadness. i dont think i would be bored.
he would be someone i live with. my life, my everything is connected with him.
it would only be getting more comfortable and happier.
just like friendship or my fmaily relationship. it's always getting better.

hummm
tomorrow is the deadline of my ticket.
i should pay today or tomorrow. i still havent told my parents.
they just assume me not going, but the truth is... i am going. i really want to go.
it's been so long for me to plan to visit him... and i do get things done.
so... i dont wanna give up in the end. i know what i am doing. it could be risky, but i trust what i am
doing is right for myself. it's hard to understand by others but i know i'm correct.
hummm i do protect myslef.. as in... i could stay at my friend's place, i could give my parents
honey's numbers and address. and i could give my friends' number. so... i think it's okay.
i'm afraid coz... my parents are always over protective...

last night i couldnt sleep.. i thought of honey..
then... i am happt, i find that he 's protective as well as my parents hahaha..
then.. i think he could take care of me. and of course i would take care of him.

i dont know...
i hope things would be fine..
coz i trust there's Jesus looking at me hee.. he must be there... watching me..
everytime He gives what i need, never been too late, never been too less.

>>January 24, 2007 at 4:30:40 AM GMT+8

2007 年 1 月 20 日 星期六 【晴】

hi..

things happened too fast, couldnt slow down myself to blog.
just a few days, i'm feeling much better already.
in these few days, i worked, seat and thought..
i readed, i slept, i ate and watched tv...
sometimes chatting with Stephen.
we stopped arguing..
i'm sad sometimes... coz i would wonder there's something been hard for me to accept.
and then the ticket stuffs are still bugging up my haed.

i can pay for it anytime, i should pay before 25th if i decide to go.
i have planed to go for long.. now coz of my family, i'm hesitating.
i dont want them to get angry at me. i always think... they're very important to me.
but this is what i really want to do, and i have planed for long.
it's not just about myself, it's also about Stephen.. so.. i couldnt just drop it.

Thursday... i have to make the decision before Thursday.

today i had class with my cousin, then i went to Festival Walk Glacier.
ice skating. woooo i skate much much much better now ^^ so happy hahaha!!
we skated... from... 3 30 - 5 ... 1.5 hrs.. quite fun.. haha..
then we had ice cream, and then walked ard... and i went home..
i was so tired...

back home.... i saw my lap top... it's here at my home now..
omg.. it's nice.

but what i want is... my trip to Van,
and teh happy time with Stephen... to see... him.

ahhhhhh tomorrow need to work.. sigh.
and Stephen is goning back to Van on Tue.
so i guess he must be very busy these few days.

>>January 21, 2007 at 12:46:40 PM GMT+8

2007 年 1 月 17 日 星期三 【晴】

i feel like to say... dont fool me please...


i skipped my dinner.
mom came in asking why.
i said i'm talking with my good friend.
she said my good friend wouldnt make me giving up my dinner.
she said if it's coz of the ticket then dad would be very angry.
i didnt say much. she asked me why not eating dinner.
i said i m not gonna say anything since she'd never listened.
she asked what not lsitening.
i said no, i m not gonna say anything.
she asked me if i am angry coz they dont let me go.
i didnt say anything.

Queenie, Andrew, and anotehr guy friend are on line with me now..
Andrew trys to open my mouth, but no... i dont want to cry too much.
i control my tears by hard.
Queenie has some serious troubl;es talk with me. i wonder to go out meeting her later.
but it s late already.
my another guy friend is not supposed to be talking with me, and i told him i dontk now why
everyime he contacted me when i'm feeling bad.

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Third part.

I'm back from home.
i was quite angry... coz my friend calld me coz she's sad or in a big trouble.
i wanted rest, coz i'm not good in mood. but she needed someone,
so i said yes, we could meet up.
i knew she has something to do at the moment, but she said it would be fine done
before my work off, even i think she's going to do her work in the improfessional way.
but then it's okay, let's meet up.
i called her before i left, coz i just wondered where she wanna meet, so i could go there first.
but then she said she'll call me later... then i waited for another 25 mins, then i called again.
she asked me why i kept calling again, she has said she would call back.
gosh.. please... you wanna meet up and you said you would be there before me off.
if you cant, why not just text me or call me? at least i didnt need to wait !
i only called TWICE. and i think i AM SUPPOSED to call her, otherwise i would need to wait for an hour.

i just dont like that. if you wanna meet your friend, call.
even if the friend cant, and you wanna meet up,
she's willing to make time for you and listen to you coz you're in need !
then you just let her wait for you, and finally it's canceled.

why i am such a person like this to let my good friend and my aunt does that to me?
it's not the first time already.

anyway...
mom just talked to me about the ticket again..
she asked me to cancel the ticket.
i had been keeping silent for a few days on it.
they even brought it to the table this afteroon in the resturant. i just didnt say anything.
i really dont want to start the fight. you know what... it's never been changed, if they said no on
something. no matter how i tried to talk over, or i just have the reasons, they said no is no.
what the hell.. i just hate discussing things with them. coz they stand their points and me too.
and i would cry in the end. i really hate this.
protecting me in this way is really terrible. it just make me sure that i'd never ever be appreciated
by them. they just dont trust any of my decisions. it's always risky so it's wrong.
how many times, i dont want to tell them anything when something is decided by myself.

i just dont feel like to tell them. it's so painful to do something against their ideas.
you know what.. mom said... dad would CUT my passport if i dont delete my ticket.
they just wont let me go over.
and then it would be like.. breaking our relationship. then mom said.. it's not necessay to be that
for this trip. they dont against Stephen, but just too early for me to go over. and then he should
come in stead of me going over, if he loves me. she said maybe after a few years i will go over but
not now.

i really hate my aunt now, you know..
i really cant believe she's doing all these behind me. she's such a liar.
i just blocked her. i'm so pissed off.. i just dont want to talk to her again.
i think why she told dad all these, is not just coz she cares about me.
the care about me is not enough for her to do these.
NOT ENOUGH.
there must be some other reasons, which i dont really wanna understand.
or my parents and she have been acting up something.
both are the most disgusting things to know about or be found by me.

i shouldnt come home tonight.
i should be outside. i dont wanna talk to them and i dont want to face them.
i dont feel like to talk to them. i really wanna run away.
i really support that the teens once reached 20, they should move out being independant.
it's just what non Asian culture doing. what the hell... i lost my identity again..

i really dont know what to do..

and then my frined just apologized.. i dont know..

Stephen and i have argued quite alot recently. i planed to go LKF tomorrow for dancing..
or ice skating on sunday.. then.. i know he doesnt like. and then i also said i didnt like the feelings of
being home late. i feel very insecure.
but the fact is.. i want some fun from there. and since he could have fun outside why not me ?
my parents would worry for me, he would be worried for me, but so ?
it's like... i need a break from my paretns and i want to do something to reduce the negative feelings.
it's been such a hell. everyday is so boring and tiring. and then my stress is really high, and i ve to
face my parents everyday. Stephen said he would e-mail a letter to me but where is it???
just go have fun ! it's not about the compliant. it's about the break out. i am collapsed.



Just So You Know -- Jesse McCartney

I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away

And I dont know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's gettin' hard to
Be around you
Theres so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killin' me
And I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there, just never spoken
I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here

Oooh

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Whoa
Just so you know
Whoa
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Just so you know




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just back to office.
just now i had lunch with my family.
my mom asked about the ticket again. she asked almost everyday.
saying the same thing. today dad talked about it too.
they said.. it's so silly. and the same reasonssss...
mom said they wouldnt let me go over.

at this moment, i think Stephen and i have some problems.
i need to pay the rest before 25th. i want to go...
maybe it would be so stupid to go there, or whatever..
it's just too painful for me to you know.. sitting here.
we need a chance. it sounds so stupid but... it s not wrong at all.
this road is so painful, but i wanna see...

i am worried



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Food choices can show your mood.
The below is the artical sharing. i'm sorry for the incorrect reference writing.
it's not the correct accademic reference writting.


Foxman, Stuart. "Choosing chews". RDHealth. Reader's Digest January 2007. P.134.


Poeple who are angry often eat meat, which they can chew aggressively. "It's a release, like screming,
or stomping your feet, " says Power. Perfer "bulky" foods such as pasta or rice? You might be lonely--
"You ar empty, so you want something that makes you feel full."
Stressed out? You might reach for chips or crakckers. The same glands that pump adrenaline can
generate salt cravings, too. Ppl who are sad, meanwhile, often opt for "comfort foods" such as
ice cream or macaroni and cheese. And if you gobble bread or doughnuts? Foods that are
carbohydrate-rich and provide quick satisfaction, says Power, are often favourites of the sexually
frustrated. "You want something that slides down easy, no hassles-- it just feels good and is there
for you."

-end-

Personal reflections:
i think this is quite true for me. i always eat carbohydrate, unless i'm pretty full.
why i would be so full before regular meal, coz i ate too much snack before meal.
and usually they're carbohydrate. i recall the time i desire for rice or pasta, those are the time
with my family or at my upset days. There is 70% of my lonely times being with my family.
and, on my lonely days or feeling empty i would comsume spicy noodles or fries.

i usually dont feel angry at all. i'm not the meat lover. a little meat for me is fine enough.
i dont liek to chew too much, though loving the chewy food, but for fun only.

i like eating crackers or sometimes i would have chips at office and just arrive home.
stress is something always inside my body, i mean it's hard to get rid of it.
i cant deny that my eating habbit is related to stress.
little food in mouth continouesly would make me feel better.
and usually the snack like chips has seasonings, so the stimulation is quite strong, motivate me to have
some more to release the stress. lucky that's not happened too often, not everyday, so...
i think i'm still okay coping with stress.

my comfort food is marshmallow, dark chocolate, tea and dessert, such as sweet soup.
sometimes spicy food could comfort me alot as well.

hummm if carbohydrate is the symbol of being sexually dissatisfied, then i would say...
it also regards the emptyness and loneliness. and i should be correct.
(is it a good hypothesis? heehee.. anyway, i'm just sharing my thinking.)

In my opinion:
sexually satisfaction is not just about having sex or even the process of intercourse.
sex is a whole thing about hornmons, intimate feelings, sexual behaviors, communication and
the ideas or identity. So, at my point of view, if a person feels not satisfied sexually,
it's usually not just coz of the "great sex" or any sexually behaviors he/she doesnt enjoy.
it's also about the life. he or she might not be happy with life, and might be feeling empty or lonely.
this type of person needs to focus on his/ her own-self in stead of which type of partner he/she
desires. In the short-term, he/ she might feel satisfied, but it's not serious or long-term happiness based.
he or she should firstly regonize and identify himself or herself. Through living experiences, exploration,
confusion, to understand what he/ she needs. i think it would be easlier for the person to get
higher satisfaction and the real happiness in long term.

>>January 18, 2007 at 3:42:09 PM GMT+8

2007 年 1 月 16 日 星期二 【晴】

well...

this morning and afternoon i was in Casueway Bay.
i had an appointment for my skin.
humm i hope it would be getting better soon........

anyway, last night had a chat with honey... it was okay...
we talk..
then.... i slept..

hummm
today i read alot actually at the office, coz i was doing nothing at all, after back from Causeway Bay..
i had hot tea from the Taiwanese tea house and cookies from Mrs. Filerd.
the artical is quite interesting actually. i really like this.
i will share more later. i'm just so tired to type haha.. lazy... haha..
then, i went home resting and watching tv.
i walked home. these two nights i didnt take bus, cozi need some exercise.
well.. the ER i was watching. it's sad.
then.. after dinner, i found my old video clips, i took them for fun before, about some songs.
then i had an idea.. i just turned on the cam, and started video myself again.
coz i missed my frineds, i wonder how they're now... especially some friends just so far away from me,
then i wanna see them.. maybe they do also, so i just take the clip and put on Youtube.com
HERE YOU GO ~


who i wish they'll be watching me...?
humm ALESJA ! hummm ADE ! hummmm CYN! hummm VICVIC... hummm CAP !
humm KIANA ! hummm HAK GON ! hummm JASON ! hummmm SUSUMU !
hummmm LISA ! hummmm JOY ! hummmm ANGELINE ! hummmmm YUi ! hummm MEHYEON !
hummmm some old old frineds, maybe VPC schoolmates.... and of course my HONEY~ !
HK friends also please hahaha...

>>January 17, 2007 at 4:15:50 PM GMT+8

2007 年 1 月 15 日 星期一 【晴】

This is the later entry i type here after back home from the office.
10: 23 pm.



i feel so... bad.. about arguing with honey.
i spoke up for myself, but i felt bad to said such hurtful words.

i worked, then i read my book..

i wasnt feeling good.. i felt bad still..

i had lunch with my parents and Miki today. my treat. hee.
we are... okay.. but.. you know... there's still a problem about the ticket with my family.
hummm..




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humm i had been okay, but tired..
i dont remember how many days i didnt type the diary..

anyway, my weekend was okay.
finally i didnt meet Angeline's sister. maybe she's not free so didnt call me.
it doesnt matter, so i could spend time with my fmaily and rest.

i finally issue my ticket already, on Sunday.
i paied the deposit first. then i will pay the rest later.

yesterday, i was so bored at office. then LeeWai was chating with me. Honey was on as well?
i forgot.. i couldnt remember.. why?... coz of something happened unexpectedly.
LeeWai and i were tlaking about school stuffs, and perhaps we will meet on this Sunday.
we can chat and go ice skating and have ice cream =P hee
she's still a very nice girl, ahhhh i miss her.. haha... then, she told me about her life. she's afraid.
but i think the nice christain like her shouldnt be worried, coz Jesus would give her the best she
deserves =)

hummm.... i had lunch with my parents. i love them... coz.. i just ove them... no reasons..
then.. mom was here with me in this office i mean. i'm at office now..
and then... she left, and my student Alex came. he's so cute ! i really wanna kiss his cheek =P
his exam only got 80. it's B. last time he got 89. it was A. hummm his mom was angry at him.
then i told him... said hummm please dont come next time, you didnt do good enough on your exam,
then i smile at him. then.. he was so funny, he yelled happily that NOOOOOO~~~
he's so cute. but then i said but you did bad on your exam~ then i smiled. we were playing. haha.
i asked him why you didnt do good? he said he made lots of careless mistakes and then, he misunderstood
the questions. hummmmm so careless, like me.haha

hummmmmmmmmmmmmmm
then, at night, before leaving office, i got a call from mom.
she was very angry scolding me for 15mins. she didnt stop actually in that 15 mins.
then... hummm basically she knew about the ticket thing.
i didnt speak anything coz i didnt want to.. explain or argue over the points.
i just.. didnt want to explain to her. she did say something hard to listen. then.. i felt so bad.

i sms Ella... then she called back... we was on phone for.. another 20 mins i guess..
then.. after that i sms honey and called him..
we talk for.. another 20 mins.
i was crying.

then i called Shan, my best friend.. then.. i walked ard... ate dinner by myself..
then i met her up.. we chated we waled.. and we had dessert togetehr till 11 30?
then we went home..
hummmmm mom pretended nothing happened.. dad didnt talk to me...
i know they're very angry, especially dad. they are dissapointed.
of course it is. i didnt expect they would know that early. and it is supposed to be me to tell.
my aunt, my good aunt just reported to them. i was so pissed actually but.. you know..
i just dont want to talk to her, i dont even want to call and confront her. it's just not necessary.
she just took my chance. i do will tell my parents and talk with them, isnt that my job?
why she took it?

i dont know..
i feel better today.
but.. i think i need some time and my parents also..

>>January 16, 2007 at 3:39:09 PM GMT+8

2007 年 1 月 12 日 星期五 【晴】

hummmm

i was missing honey, but okay.
i sms him this morning... we had a small chat on sms.

i had been working... it was okay.
then in the evening, i was quite free, then i just changed some format stuffs of my friendster..
then... left and went home.

i'm so stressed today.. and i'm tired..
i think the reason why i am so tired is coz of the stress.

Angeline's sister is coming to HK tomorrow. i m gonna meet her..
then,... before, i wanna go pay deposit of my tickey..
but then.. i wanna have my family day.. just tell me what i should do?

i had lunch time with Ella today..
we have a chat.. nice... thanks her..

hummm i will see the doctor on Wed for my skin.
it's getting worse i dont know what is going on. it's terrible. i feel terrible !!
i dont want to be so ugly..

then.. i start to go on diet from tomorrow.. coz.. i dont wanna look over chubby in CNY.
then........ yea......
i m not very happy today.
i think i just need some time.

>>January 13, 2007 at 5:45:02 PM GMT+8

2007 年 1 月 11 日 星期四 【晴】

last night i was kinda sad.
we got argue.
i was so bad. i know it's some misunderstanding or some unclear stuffs..
anyway... this morning was quite bad.

i missed the morning alarm fro my phone. then, i got Ella's sms.
sigh... two sms.. i was reading it but i didnt understand what was going on..
then i read the sec one. then i realized there's some shit or problems i need to deal with.
some business stuffs that i hate.
then my mom was hurrying me to wake up coz... i would be late again.
and dad said i'm so selfish, coz i didnt wake up earlier to wash up first.
he would need to ge up at the same time as me.
but i was sick, i dont knwo what's wrong with myself i feel sick.
i feel like to puke when i got up. it's so terrible feelings. i didnt speak to him then i just got up,
then he ran into the washroom. i was pissed.
i took my stuffs then throw them on the table in dinning room then i went back to bed.
after all i was late. and i was in the bad mood..
then mom asked me to be quick so tehy would drive and sent me to office first.
then after all they said they're going to China and not driving.
mom said she wouldnt have lunch with me today. she kept asking me if i want the egg or any food.
i didnt ans anyting didnt talk to them i just came on line see if honey's there then i just left home.
my face is still red. got someting like pimple but not pimple on. it's so ugly !
i dont use any facial product for ard 10 days. i dont make up, sometimes even not wearing an eyeliner.
it's so weird, i need to seek a doctor.

back to office... no breakfast, and need to deal with "the mess". well, the thing is simple,
but i hate it. it's irresponsible. and it's not the first time.
then.. i talk with honey.. coz of last night..
then we're fine now..
i'm glad.

>>January 12, 2007 at 4:52:52 AM GMT+8

2007 年 1 月 10 日 星期三 【晴】

i m at office now, i didnt eat breakfast.
i just had Taiwanese tea last night, one chicken wing and one bowel of sweet soup till now....
i still feel sick. and i couldnt sleep last night till maybe 3 am..
then this morning i just couldnt get up. feeling so bad to get up and finally i'm 40 mins late to work.
this morning has nothing to do. quite boring.
i start to wonder if i like busy or lazy. i admit that i'm a lazy person, i dont like too high preasure,
but... i could funtion pretty well under preasure right? now is like... no preasure, but.. i suck..
it's so boring and.. i feel so slow... i dont learn anything new.
i hope i could be in class now, so i could read, could listen to new knowledge and could let my
brain think. feel like i'm kind of stupid now.
i dont know...

well, Stephen is on line, and i used to talk to him lots and lots..
but today i just type here, why ? coz i dont want to talk to him.
he said hi to me then i said hi. that's it.
well, i think he should talk to me more than i talk, since i'm so irretating.

well well well... i will have a laptop soon.
after daddy bought one for himself, (he actually hasnt used it), then now another same model one
just arrived hoem last night. why? thanks for his boss.

i have just confirmed the ticket. it would be on March 19, 12:45 noon.
i will arrive on March 19, 12:45 noon in Van time. SAME DAY SAME TIME ! ha.. funny.
i just called and confirmed it. i will pay he deposit on Sun. i dont want to pay the whole payment too early.
so, now it might be the time to tell my parents about my plan and stuffs.
sigh... i feel stress.

last night at office, i was reading. then it said the passion in a long term relationship it very important.
then if at the begining, there is high level of passion, then the relationship usually lasts longer and better.
and then of course it would be cooling off abit through years, then, the committment becomes the
point of "marriage". highly committed couples would be like the compainian. Supportive and caring
personalitiy would be the good thing in a relationship. we say communication is very important,
however men's negotiation skills are worse than wemen. so, when there's problems in the realationship,
men tends to hide it up or not talk about it, well at least more men is in this way than women.
the enviornment, culture would influence the couple 's life. then, the background of oneself shapes
the charateristic of his/her life. human is the complex animals. so, it's still hard for two ppl to get along
well and live together, eventhough they're in love.
at the begining and ending of a year, here would be some family gatehring or parties,
at a house, there would be lots of things to do and prepare, at this time, the couple might not enjoy
as much as they have imagined before. coz, you know, the fact is the disagreement occured.
the satisfaction in marriage would decline and raise, depends on who you are and your spouse is,
and the skills and the approach you take.

well, it's my personal summary of the pages i read on my Human Growth text book--
Development through Lifespan, by Berk.
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Hi,

it's soon to be 12 am, and i'm tired like dead.
back to home.. and watching the last episode of Nip Tuck
oh gosh.. i know the enging so long ago hahaha... but it's still nice to watch.
i m looking forward to the new one coming.. oh please come soon~~~
and then Prision Break is gonna end in two weeks =(
my fav tv shows are all gone~~~~ >.<
maybe the new tv shows would be great i dont know..
tv shows become part of my life. my life is pretty boring. i need to do something more meaningful.
now, i'm just trying to have fun. but is it very fun? not really, just relaxing..

anyway..
i've talked with honey already... coz.. i do care about him...
and he apologized about last night too.. so it's okay..
i toldh im about the ticket and other news.. good good good..

>>January 12, 2007 at 4:24:17 AM GMT+8

2007 年 1 月 9 日 星期二 【晴】

hummmm

on Monday and Tue, i had classes after work. i was just very very tired.
hummm last night i had chat with honey. it was sweet..
then i sms him just when i was asleep...

hummmm today i had been very free in the morning.
i had a kindda bad start, but it was okay though.
honey reminded me that i shouldnt complain.
then i had a chat time with honey....
since he's in Jap, we had more time to chat, i think the time zone influences lots.

then had lunch with my family.. cool... dim sum time hee.
hummmm back to office... Ella has class, then my work started..
and then i had my class. it was so funny haha.. Billy boy and Cerene.
they're so funny.. we had revision today... then i made them big completion...
it was so funny.. they were jumping all the time ! and then yelling out the words and stuffs..
hahaha... then... i was so tired ...

resting and read my book.. ate some cookies with my fav apple juice..
then... time to go.. but Ella invited me and the new teacher Pav for a drink.
we went to the Taiwanese tea house..
then back home feeling so sick....... feel like to puke..
i didnt eat my dinner.. but mom cooked my fav. dessert, the sweet soup.. so i just have one..
i'm feeling so sick.
honey has a headache.. then... i was talking with him. he was angry. he asked me to leave him alone.
yea i should.
dont feel like to talk to him anymore.
maybe i'm too irretating, keep talking rubbish. whatever, if he says so, then i leave.


anyway, for any of you to know here,
i have blogged the sec entry in my msn space.
i stoppe using frinedster blog already. maybe someday i would blog again there,
but there became kindda a space for my test results. i ve saved lots there,
so... i kindda dont wanna blog at there.
and then some of the friendsters ppl are not very close with me,
then.. the blog on my msn space are kinda personal, abt family and relationship, so..
i wouldnt mind to share iwth my firneds on my msn list but not that public on friendster.
check out there girlsssss and dudessss...

>>January 10, 2007 at 3:37:45 PM GMT+8