2007 年 3 月 9 日 星期五 【晴】

hey.

hummm
i think i fall sick again... why? i guess coz of the ... dusting. Sh*t.
i hate that, i just get well then fall sick again.
i feel so bad.
i cant even eat dinner.

hummm
today is kindda busy. coz... lots of thigns to do.. this and that, some typing...

hummm then... i just try to rest..
humm i got chating with honey. oh gosh.. i dont like those girls. but yea it's okay.
9 days more then i would be in Canada.
hummmm haha.. i would be so nurvous to see him in the airport =)
^^ in the airport not outside the airport~ hahaha
=)
i'm so happy he's not just outside the airport, but would actually come in

it's exciting and kinnda... you know... nurvous..
then.. yea... =)

i will be quite busy in the coming week.
sick, i am sick.
then Tomoyo would come everyday, GOSH... i cant rest if she's here.
then i will have calsses, more classes i think. i do plan for that.
i will have 2 new students... hummm.... but i'm leaving soon. i'm kindda affraid.
i want to take care of my classes when i m back again. i dont know..
then, my last day would be on the coming Sat. and i will have class with Ricky on Sun,
then fly on Mon.
it would be a busy week i guess.. then i could have my vacation with honey. good.
finally can rest...

i am very tired.. sigh...
sick. bu tomorrow dont need to go over Ricky s home.
okay.

>>March 10, 2007 at 4:10:11 PM GMT+8

2007 年 3 月 8 日 星期四 【晴】

hummm i am very very tired..
cant tell why.. probably coz of my period...
i feel sore back, too... so bad..

this morning was fine, chatting with honey, though Ella was here in class....
yea, i really love the time with him.. he's so cute..
i saw his pets, i saw his smile. ^^ hee..
we chat, we talk on lots of stuffs.

then, Tomoyo, the new receptionist came. hummmmmmm Ella had the interview with her again,
then i went inside to explain and introduce courses to her.
then she left, Ella and i talk a bit then had lunch together.
we chated, nice ha.. then.. back to work..
Tomoyo's back. then ... hummm she has been staring at the computer, so i couldnt stay on line.
Ella told me that i could go on line, but Tomoyo shouldnt do.
she doesnt want her stay on line.
then.. has been giving her some small training to see if she can handle things.
hummmm yea.

i had a talk with Ella. probably when i'm back, i would work part-time there.
like, Sat and Sun, 1.5 day/ week to take care of the front.
i think i would miss all of them so much...
if i work there, i would have need another part-time job on 2 week days.
i will go to school 3 days/ week full time, then on weekend work for Ella.
2 weekdays left to have another part-time job and rest.
even just part-time work, my aim is... firstly getting $3000/month, then later ard $3200- 4000/ month.
i final aim at over$4000/ month within 1 year.

i'm very tired now, i would go to sleep earlier tonight.
sore back, slow brain, heavy eyes, what else?
yea this one... missing my honey...

tonight... mom talk about my trip again. she said... dad doesnt let me go there.
omg.. dont kidding please.

>>March 9, 2007 at 4:28:33 PM GMT+8

2007 年 3 月 7 日 星期三 【晴】

hi..

nothing much... i'm very slow.
had been busy working, i'm very slow.
things just kept being wrong... like i'm not okay.
i eat very heathly today and probably for the next coming week till my body getting better.
i would drink lots of cranberry juice and have more soup, have healthy food but no more snack,
just back to the regular meals first. i really cut down on snack before, but now just stop eating them.
my body is telling me that i have to eat regular meals.

i just miss my honey.
where was he....

i got two new books today. thanks.
they're "Hotel Babylon" and "Air Babylon". i think i would enjoy them alot.
tonight was the last episode of Hotel Babylon on TV.
the ending is a bit.. sad. i'm looking forward to the new season.
Tue night Prison Break is quite nice. i quite like it.

i almost finish the movie "The Departed" at office today. hummm but maybe finishing next Mon.
this movie is very nice. i didnt watch the HK verson before but i think it must be a very good movie =)

next week would be my last week in Elchards. perhaps... have the good memory there.
i would miss the students, Ella and the parents, miss the days there, miss the place.

my phone is okay. my first day to use it.

i'm going to bed now..
i need more rest especially now.
i just wonder if i could say goodnight to my honey..
coz i really miss him lots.

>>March 8, 2007 at 5:08:01 PM GMT+8

2007 年 3 月 6 日 星期二 【晴】

hehee^^
hihi~~

today... i finally got my phone~~~~ ^^ hohoho

i had a long day. i was kinnda angry at work.
some work stuffs pissing me off. some parent was very demanding from me and teaching me what
to teach her son. too busy today in the afternoon. shopping for 1 hr, waking here and there with
the heavy A4 paper, different kinds of stationary, and some cleaning things.
then back had to tidy up the classrooms. Ella just made the place very messy. things are everywhere.
then i need to deal with the things i ve brought, some reciepts, transfer the docs to the files,
then, the parent came enrolling my class, then my lovely student Alex came..
i had been very busy. i really needed a pee but no time at all. the class was over run, then still need to
report to the new student's parent. then she's very demanding, asking for this asking for that.
even say her son's result is relying on me now.
what the.... i dont like this kind of parents. sucks. then Ella was pissing me off.
the hand books of her students are so messy on my desk. blah blah..
anyway, just too much work to do.
i was angry coz there're lots of things she could do by herself but she doesnt.

hummm...

honey and i have been talking lots and i am happy.
we compromise things and that's good. sometimes he's a baby honey.
if i am not patient, i think i would be so mad easily. i could be though, i used to be like that.

sincei work at here, i changed alot. especially since i have been being a tutor, i'm much more patient
then before. i used to be like ... if you say something wrong i would defintely let you know you're wrong.
if you disrespect me, i would tell you stright away that you piss me off.
i would skip class, i would confront ppl, i would just you know make a debate.
but now, i'm much more patient. i usually listen first and listen and listen.

it's very important when you deal with the children or parents or elders.
the more patient you're, the better life you would have with them hahaha.
children love patient and funny teachers, who take care of hem, teach them new things,
play with them and chat with them. they like me ^^ i love them.
i let them being naughty, i play with them, i am like their sisters, but they have to listen to me,
they trust me and learn things with me. i want them to enjoy learning English. they deserve the fun
time with language learning. i'm their teacher, i take the control in class. when they do good,
i give my appreciation. when they're afraid to try, i make thigns easier or encourage them to try.
when they do bad, i give some reinforcement but if they get progress, i give possitive comment.
so in a class, they learn fast, they have fun and i have fun haha.
they give me more respect now. i think coz i've earned their trust already.
i will miss them so much...

yea, honey honey honey... i really miss my honey.
i was suprised by him today =) hee.
i got a sweet call during the lesson with my students~
i asked alex to say hello. haha Alex and honey were so cute ^^
hummmmmmm... i really love my baby honey. coz he knows me very well.
his words are very convencing, it's scary you know..
but he's not someon stupid. he's reliable. he's highly intelligent.
he' not afraid to do somethin against to the social norm if he sees there's good future.
i really appreciate him... i do. well ther're something good i can see, also bad things.
i dont wanan comment too much. i jsut wanna share with everyone that i'm happy in love heehee.

thanksssss daddy~~~~
tonight after work i was quite pissed... then i was in Body Shop, coz my lip gloss got some problems.
then i was asking them for help. they help me fixing it.
then i got a call from daddy..
he was in Smartone Vodafone, my cell phone service company. he said he as buying the phone
for me. i was kindda.. youk now... melting =)
i thought daddy woul;d never helped me to buy that then i wouldnt be able to get it.
it's not about money, it's about the contract. so yea, then i walk to there. he was still there.
then we get the phone together =) now it's on charging ^^ yay~
my lovely pearl pink phone~
it's much cheaper than we knew. it was a very good deal, why? coz of my dad =)

i miss my honey...
i know he's being a good guy for me.
i cant explain why i'm so atrracted to him or why i am so comfortable and happy in this relationship.
we had lots of problems and hard time. but everytime i trust him, then everything is fine.
something that is very crazy, but we're doing, in our way. i dont mean to tell everyone wat's happening
with us. i just dontk now how to say how amazing the relationship is.
he's very special. Thanks God.
this is just the way we are. just like this is just the way he is, this is just the way i am.

>>March 7, 2007 at 6:04:43 PM GMT+8

2007 年 3 月 5 日 星期一 【晴】

hi.

i have been wondering how many ppl are here reading my diary?
do you come everyday or you just walk by here sometimes? or one time...
it's funny.
i still remember.... this is my second account on this website.
i started this one a few years ago. at first, i wrote lots of short articals in Chinese.
it's really a blog. then i wrote lots of relationship stuffs and difficulties.
i remember a friend from Singapore, she asked me if i really wanna be a writter here, i said NO. haha =D
i checked the website few times a day to see how many ppl have seen my site.
i did lots of .... advertisment.. haha i mean... i did adv it to my friends.
then i ofund some friends couldnt really read Chinese well, coz they're from Singapore.
so, i started wrtting in English. my English was very limited and quite bad.
it was very intresting.

i dont really count how many ppl come here per day. i just know there's always a big change
when i see the number at the buttom. it suprises me everytime. coz i thought no one coming actually.
ppl stop leaving my messages. the last mesg was from Ade i think... hummm yea... haha..

so, who are you? who are you out there reading my diary? haha..
i dont even know you. how silly i am to share my life here with some ppl i dont even know.
should i have the password here? so, this site could have a bit more privacy.
it's my place man, it's my space.... should i keep it more private?
anyway, thank you for reading this, even though maybe you're just "八卦". it doesnt matter =)
coz you've been being my guest =) my secert guest.
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today is.... tired, busy and stressed.
well, i'm still okay.

in the morning, i actually took the leave to go to a doctor for some chekc up stuffs.
i didnt really did the check up after talking with the doctor. then yea i went back to the office.
well, i had been on phone wih Ade for... how long... for.. ard 3 hrs.... IDD call.
i actually wanna call Cyn, coz hahaha she moved already~~~ but i havent congrad her yet =)
then yea.... had been talking a lot of stuffs with her. basically take about what s happening, that's life.
well, she was quite angry. maybe that's how we spent our time in almost 3 hrs.
i dont know... i know she worries for things, i do too.
but think positively, it would be fine, okay ?

back and saw Ella. then we talk about the work... then we had lunch together.
i ifnally eat Mcdonald's haha. =P
then back to the office have been busy for lots of things, some worksheets, calling,
some shopping for the office... blah blah...
then back to sit down in front of the computer and i waited for honey.
he asked me where i had been........... erhhhhhhhh....
i didnt really ans him directly. but then we chated for long. we talk for long for lots of different things.
yea, we talk...
anyway, recently we're good ^^ hee.

yet, there're some things we need to deal with. yup.
i dont know... i m having a very big headache on that. urhhhhh...

then yea, i am excited, and kindda nervous, and you know... kindda worried and...
i dont know how to say... i'm very worried for the future when i'm back.
it might be very hard to you know... back to school and work part-time at the same time.
it would be all by myself, like before. it would be pretty hard..
when you go to school full time 3 days/ week, then you need to find a part-time job for 2 days half.
and the salary couldnt be too low, otherwise you wouldnt be able to survive to afford the
books, transportation and meals. maybe no shopping, maybe no ice skating, no vcds, no extra money.
and i would be extremely tired all the time, coz i need to study hard to maintian my GPA.
and then work. it must be very hard. but Cas, you're going back to that stage. are you prepared?
No.... i am not ready =(

i am still waiting to buy my new phone. so sucks...
dad doesnt like that phone coz he thinks it's not fair to buy that.
but i love that phone. i think it's quite worthy. the company is not taking extra money from the plan,
and i can get what i want. isnt it just perfect?! it just doesnt fit dad's theory.
i understand what he means, but i'm choosing the phone not him. why he's always like that?
actually lots of ppl are like my dad.
so.. yea.. but that phone is what i really want after seeing so many phones.
i couldnt buy it coz it's about the plan i'm using.
it has his name on, not mine. so if i really buy it then i need to change another phone number.
i was very angry, coz he's rude sometimes. and it's not at home, it's outside !
then i just walked away. i walked back home and he took the bus.
i dont like talking to the ego men.

now i really dislike these kindssss of ppl... listen...
1) Cheater/ Liar.
2) Aggressive for nothing type.
3) Rude/ Bad Attitude.
4) Ego, Selfish, Self-Centered.

i really love my dad alot, he's a great man. he's my great daddy.
but think about it, it's just a phone.
why is he giving me a hard time on this ? it's just so minor.
i'm not asking him to use the phone i choose, i am the one who will be using it, right ?
i'm so tired about getting a new phone now. LOOK. i mean it.

>>March 6, 2007 at 5:59:48 PM GMT+8

2007 年 3 月 3 日 星期六 【晴】

hi.

actually now is 1:10 am, March 5.
i'm very tired, and ready to sleep.

i got something unhappy and happy happened.
hummmm...
on Sat, i catched the mini bus, i thought i could save the money from taking the taxi.
but then.... i crossed the road on the red night, and i got caught by the police.
it was kindda rushing to work. so.. yea.. no cars on that long road, so i just crossed it.
i usually dont cross even though ppl would do. i usually just wait for the light.
but that day... only that day... (no. actually i do that like maybe 1 of 15).
i lost $1500 anyway.
i'm waiting for the letter or notice or ticket whatever flying from the Gov.
i would need to go to the court. i was pretty down and angry.
the first time to feel like offencing the law, and it's like something very wrong in my life.
this $1500 is such a big money for me now.
coz i need to buy a new cell phone, and i'm going back to school when i'm back.
i'm kind of worried for money. i would be really lack of money.
anyway, i'm worried for the date, and stuffs about the court or ticket i'm gonna recieve.
it might be crashing my trip. i'm worried.
i'm worried for the job, too. coz i would need to have a job once my school start again.
i think i would need to deal with all of them when i'm back. such the hard time coming ?
or if something worse? i couldnt imagine how bad the situation could be to me.

=)
i'm happy, i'm feeling better now, coz my parents accept my trip, after such the long time in pain.
for... i guess... ard 2 months. from the beging till now. i gotta thanks God.
i'm happy now, coz... much less presure i get from home, i finally get over that period.
thanks for honey, some of my close friends, and God.
thanks the understanding form my lovely dad and mom.
now, i think the love is really great. it brings you sadness and pain, but youknow... my real happiness
is from the real love of my family, friends and of course my lover. they re just always true.

i got some questions in my mind now, but i really dont know what i'm gonna do..
if i should take this plan or take another plan.
both them are very you know hard to walk, and... i dont wanan talk with ppl much on this,
coz it's personal, and it's ... my decision anyway.
in a chinese way, i should at least meantion that with my parents, otherwise i ll freak them out again.
but in my way, i dont like to discuss things with them before making the decision.
what am i gonna to do... ?
i have to do something on Tue. i got an apointment on Tue morning.
i'm kinnda nervous, i'm kinnda confused if i'm doing the right thing.
it's a really big thing in life.
i think i would need to talk with honey first.

i hope my friends wont ask me, what is this or what is that.
if i feel like to talk with you on this i would. if not then please dont ask.
it would be quite shocked if you ask, or i wanna bring you guys a suprise when you see me later.
so, you know me well, right? please understand that and just respect that.


today,
i stayed 45 mins at Rickey's home... just reviewing worksheets and chating with him.
he's on progress, i'm happy =) i just hope that what i've been doing could help him a bit..
you know, no matter what, the kid is innocent.
after that, i sent him to his friend's birthday party,
and i met my family. we went to Sha Tin today. hummm accompany Miki buying stuffs,
then had dinner, went to the book store... blah blah.. yea.
well, i wished to have a day off resting by myself, sitting somewhere, or just take a walk.
but haha... family time.

i'm going to sleep now.

i miss my honey.
dont know how he's been doing these two days?
i will see him soon, pretty soon... in 2 weeks.
the first time i counted was 5 weeks, now is only 2 weeks.
=)
the feeligns is complicated...

>>March 4, 2007 at 5:46:17 PM GMT+8

2007 年 3 月 1 日 星期四 【晴】

hi there.

i got a very upset night last night.
i cried for 2 hrs i guess? it was very hard. i felt asleep when i was too tired.
coz my dad was so angry last night.
i think why i'm sad is coz i made dad so angry and sad.
i dont .. you know.. i'd never meant to upset ppl.
i would rather take the pain instead of letting ppl suffer for me...
it's been very hard for me. coz.. i know exactly what's going on.
what my familly frinds worry for me, or why they're so sad and worried.
i also know what i've been planing to do, what i've been trying to do.
i understadn pretty well about the situation between me and him.
i mean... it's normal for ... my parents being so worried or angry.
but just.. i ve to do this to hurt them. coz otherwise, i would regret.
i want them to be proud of me, but it's not possible right now. i hope someday they would understand.
i couldnt see very clearly about the future now.
but i'm NOT giving up. i will firgue that out, strive with that. coz that's me.
stay happy, smile after cry. coz... life is like this.

i still love my family, and i love my honey also.
i think... things would be fine.


That's me and my sister MiKi. hahaha


ME and Jackie ~~~~ hohoho


i really love this picture hahaha MeiPo, me and Jackie ~~


hahahaha so silly ~~~ !!


what's going on???? hahahah =D


where's Jackie? hahahaha... so lovely moment we had.. haha...


this is from the Christmas 2006.
the fun fair at night in Causeway Bay with my family.
this pose is what i used to use when i was 4 or 5 hahaha...
now, i watch this pis then i find my hair sucks hahaha...


another pic form there.


nice =)
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today is kindda busy. has lots of things to do.
then, hummmm....
ye from the morning, coz we have morening classes,
then had lunch with Ella and Richard.
then back rusing for some work stuff, and went to the bank,
then back preparing for classes and interviews.
humm i interview a girl for the reception posistion today. then Ella interview two guys for teacher
position. the is girl is quite nice, even not as well as i hahaha, but she's not bad,
i'm recomanding her to Ella. i dont wanna comment too much on this girl. but she's very simple,
so i tink it's good for Ella. a least she wont cheat on or harm the center. i think some basic works would
be okay for her. but like marketing things or some more, she wouldnt do so well i guess..?
she would need some time to adjust i guess. time to learn ? i dont know.
i dont think we can expect too much, coz the salary is not high enough.
i just hope to find someone honest and reliable for Ella, that's it.
coz i know it very well, if i find someone so cunning or bad, Ella would get so much troubles.

actually i love this place, i love working with them, coz i'm so free all the time actually, "bored",
but you know.. i'm happy with them, usually, i love the kids soooo much.
i'm good at public relationship. i'm just gooad at communication with the parents and children..
i handle simple works pretty well. hard thigns are challenging for me. so..
i dont know, maybe i would never be able to find another job like this one.
i think, if i dont need to go back to school, i would like to stay longer ?
actually cannot. there're something i dont like about the center. but the point is....
i cant change those. if i were Ella, i would you know... change a lot of things.
she's not so aware of danger ? or i'm not a very risky person. anyway, yea..
i start to miss this center now.
i've been here for 6 months, 6 days/ week, 9.5 hrs/day.
i am kinnda close with Ella and May.. we share things, so... it would be hard for me to...
not staying there. i know everything about the center, i take care of all, even something that
Ella wouldnt think of, i have in mind. so... i dont know... i would miss them soooo much.
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i got chatting with honey today...
hummm i hope things would be fine.
and i think we would be fine.

i love him.
i wish i could be there for him.

>>March 2, 2007 at 4:25:16 PM GMT+8

2007 年 2 月 28 日 星期三 【晴】

hi.

i found i have lots of spelling and typing mistakes. i'll try to proof read my writing before saved.
especially last night, i think probably i was too tired.
i found lots of mistakes last night when i read, but i was too lazy to correct them already.

nothing much special today.
just worked.
humm we had the dicussion in the morning. quite nice, coz i learnt lots of new things,
haha but i think it's not so good for him, might be he didnt really enjoy ?
and then, the morning is gone.

i had lunch by myself, had noodle soup in the Taiwanese tea house.
hummm kindda bored.
then, back to the office resting and worked again.

today is just normal normal.
hummmm i did something that honey doesnt like..
and i'm thinking what i should do.. i mean not about now, but... later and everyday.

actually am i bitchy ?
i mean.. do i bitchy alot ? hummmmmm...

sometimes yes, at work. gotta report stuffs and say what i've seen and found.
i need to maintian the good relationship with everyone, too. teachers, students and parents.
especiall with Ella, May and Learnard, those teachers. so, i do need to make good communication with
them. Ella and i are kindda like good friends. she's quite nice and friendly, and she's my boss.
and then, in a way, she's quite good, coz at least she has started her own business at my age.

with frineds, not really.
nothing much to talk about i guess? daily life is just super normal ?
sometiems on Snday i would go out with some good friends. so.. updating news and sharing fun.
joking alot, playing, sharing fun.

IF THERE're PROBLEMS....
problems are shared with my very close friends... a few of them.. i mean.. some ppl knows some small part.
no one knows everything exactly. coz i dont want to make things like everyone knows what's happening.
and i dont want any of my close friends know my things too details.
i would like to keep some privacy for myself. really, i do.

family is not the ppl to share problems. my home is like the peaceful place for myself to rest.
i dont really bring problems or questiosn home, unless my family's involved.
i dont like to create problems to ppl.. and i dont want my parens or sisters worry for me, so yea.

the person who i always turn to is... someone haha..
gues who he is? someone pretty reliable and good enough =) HE IS.... My Honey.
i am so bad ? i dont know... maybe... coz i always make him angry or worry i guess?
but i think...
coz he'll be the person i would spend my life with, so i really need to.. you know..
get to know this person pretty well and of course let him to know me well, too.
we could experience things and problems together, our problems, his problems or my problems.
we dont only share problems, we share happy things. share life. i think it's good =)
you know.. i love him so much. hee.

well you know, i am changing.
i used to be a person who could tell everything in detials with friends.
but now, i think no.. i would like to keep some space for myself.
and now, i think i understand more about... "the feelings". other ppl's feelings.
i mean i should respect more and more about others. so.. i think i'm really gonna stop writing about ppl ard me.

i wanna apologize, i wanna say sorry, if i have ever made you feel bad to be involved in my diary.
i didnt mean to infade your privacy right or anything.
i'm just... happy that you have been in my life =) so you appeared on this small diary space.


alright..

>>March 1, 2007 at 1:57:25 PM GMT+8

2007 年 2 月 27 日 星期二 【晴】

hi.

Jackie left today...
hummm didint call her.. i miss her...
i dont think ppl could reach me through the phone as well..
my phone is spoiled. i'm looking for a new one now.
before, i dont have anyone's number.. so... sigh.... cant stay in contacts.
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hummm
daddy is still very angry at me...
he even said doesnt want me as his daugther. i m very sad.
i totalyl udnerstand why he's so dissapointed and upset.
but i find things so difficult for me here now. i really wonder where i got the guts to face all those.
i love my family so much, and this time i'm standing out there for myself.
i'm not saying any good words for myself or for Stephen.
i just think.. i have considered for so long, i do know what possiblities could be.
i' ve decided to go, coz i think it's very important for me.
Stephen should come, he's not comming that's his fault. if he wants to see Stephen's sincerity
he should talks to Stephen asks him to show him right? why putting me at this difficult situation ?
we really dont speak to each others now. i feel soooo terrible...
he has siad so many bad things, i heard from mom. i just dont understand and i really wish that
he or Stephen could make things easier or me. i feel very very difficult to.. you know..
face my dad or whatever.

these two ego men are the most difficult men i have ever dealed with.
they both re the men i love the most in the world, except God.

EGO, EGO, EGO.

i had a chat with Ella today after work.
why i seem so desperate for guys? i dont think i'm really desperate.
but, i cant say i am not desperate at all. if you were me, you would understand why.
if not, then you wouldnt know.

i'm a very independant person. i look very weak, coz of my natural nice personalities.
i have a soft approach. i'm not aggressive, but i'm ambitious.
i am easy tired but i am very hard working and i could concentrate on the focus pretty well.
i could do multi tasks, i work well under presure. i'm brave and i like challenges. i'm responsible.
i would rather deal with problems by myself. i m not easy to ask ppl for help.
i like to share, to discuss, i listen to ppl but i make my own decision.
when i think the thing is right to do, i do it in my way.
if i think you're wrong, i might not tell you straight away. i might just ask you what do you think and
listen to what you say. i think if you have your own reasons, then fine, i respect that.
i dont usually worry for ppl, coz i think they have to take care of themselves. they're responsible
for themselves.

Ella asked me.. what if that happened on my children. i think i'm just letting my children to do the thing
they think it's correct for them, once they reach 18 or 19. my children should be the tough as well.
of ocurse we would teach them how to protect themselves and then give them some guides
when they're still children and teens.

i had lunch with mom today. i think mom has been worried for me. she must be in the hard position,
too. coz she has to talk iwth me and talk with dad. it must be a very hard job for her.
she's a really great mom. i'm getting impatient, irretated... but i dont wanna vent on mom.
she's just being a good responsible mom. daddy also..
they're the really great parents, i'm so lucky to be their daugther...
i actually cried a few times... coz.. they're just so great but i'm making them worried or upset.
so... i'm really in a very hard situation.

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this morning, i greeted honey Stephen.
he suddenly said HE LOVES ME SO MUCH.
i was kindda suprised.

we chated alot today actually...
then i went out for lunch with mom and worked..
i had a class with Alex today. humm i scold him a bit today. he's not concentrating well.
i think coz the holiday is just gone. kids re getting sleepy and bored. kids are all like that...

hummm then in the evening, he was still on...
then we chated for awhile.
*** HE CALLED ME.
it was PRETTY suprised. i didnt know that was him but i was gussing.
it made me pretty nervous !
i wondered who's that calling. i thought it's the interview person, Mark.
coz he just called to cancel the interview tonight. he should call back in short though,
but it should be him calling, otehrwise shouldnt be Christopher though.
but his voice was a bit strange. shouldnt be Mark...
then after 2 secs of dead air, i asked " Who re you? "
he said " What do you mean by who's that ?"
then i asked him.. " re you the interview people? "
he said "yeah."
then i asked, " are you Mr. Mark ? "
he said "Yea."
then " oh hi, Mr. Mark. so, you said you couldnt come tonight right? "
"Yes. "
" let me see... but tomorrow 8- 9 pm, Ella would have a class, so.. tomorrow cant.
when would you be avaliable ?"
he said... " 11: 30 pm"
=.= ii was shocked !!! then i thought.. 11:30 ??? i asked " are you kidding? "
"yes."
=.= ??? i was scared......... i wondered why Mark would say that..................
then i asked Ella if 11:30am would be fine.. then Ella wanted to talk iwth him. i let them talk in stead.
i was scared.

anyway, after all, he hung up.....
after that.. i found so weird... then i asked honey, if that was him...
THAT WAS HIM !!!
he said.. "no me.. its Mark " funny... i was so sillly........ ahhhhhhhh >.<
but it was fun hahahahahaha...
i love him...
i really love those samll suprises from him.

>>February 28, 2007 at 4:07:19 PM GMT+8

2007 年 2 月 25 日 星期日 【晴】

humm this is my sec entry of today.

i was very bored this morning, i was just on line, and then... surving net, my fav. on line magazine.
but the computer has some problems...

i called Ade today ! wah~~~ miss her ar...
humm we talk for a while when i was in the clinic.
i had an appointment at the clinic. i seeked a doctor again.
i m getting worse i guess? i cough so much, i couldnt even sleep at night.
and then yea... feeling so bad.
this time the medicine is very strong, so i get sleepy. this timei s quite expensive. it's $250.
last time was $220. you know what, recently, since Jan, i had been visiting doctors.
3 times for my skin alergy, 2 times for my sickness. i guess it's ard $1500 ? yea.

after that, i had lunch with my parents and Leggy. hummm chinese resturant for dim sum.
hummm mom told me dad has read the letter from Stephen. then he's angry.
he thinks it's only one side love. he thinks Stephen is not sincere enough.
but as i said, writting this e-mail was his original idea. dad thinks he could write whatever on the letter.
but i think, it's still better than nothing, coz at least we show them what this trip really means.
i oculd just hide up but i dont want to hide anything. i'm going ot be 21 this year, he and i have
been planing for this, so.. we're serious.
i know my parents worry about..... "that". i think.... it's gonna be alright.
i dont know. lucky that.. Stephen understands... so i feel less stress on this.

back to the office, was on line, and then... watching movie to make myself feeling better.
a lovely movie, "The Perfect Man", hahaha Haily Duff~~ woo~~~ sweetie.
i like her. hummmm i havent finished . but i'm happy to have this movie this afternoon,
otherwise i would depressed.
then.. got a sms from honesy Stephen.. then.. tryed to be on line again.
got a little chat time with him, then i had my class. soooooooo long havent sen my student, Alex.
so cute cute Alex, always soo naughty. but he's sick as well. oh...
then.. we did home work exercise. he's kindda slow today, he's just too tired.
then we played for awhile. then i had to ask him go home, coz it was over run for 15 mins already,
and i was too tired...

still chat sometimes with Stephen, he was on line for me...
he probably knows i'm very stressed and sad.
then... yea.... i think maybe when i go offline he would go off
and sleep, too. i was going home earlier, coz i was too sick and tired. then yea..
i didnt go on line when i'm home. i want him to have the better sleep.

then May was at the office.. hummm i dont care... Ella knew i'm so sick, she let me go home resting.
i bought some mini buns from Yamazaki, the jap bakery. then i went home.
oh.. i should buy the shampoo and some stuffs, but i was too tired.

back home, ate some buns then took medicine.. i hate the syrup >.<
then i slept, took a nap. i still cough alot..
hummmm ....

so weird, honey couldnt recieve my sms.
hummm i sms him last night ard 5 am before i felt asleep.

anyway.. ... we will see..
i still pray. coz i know He's watching me.. so... no matter what, things might happen in a happy
or sad way, but it will all be fine for me. coz He's God.

>>February 26, 2007 at 3:48:18 PM GMT+8