i was quite unhappy last night..
coz, i found a bit guilty to buy that faked bag.
it was just so cheap, but then,... i m thinking that... if i would actually use the bag.
coz it's faked, and.. i dont used to use any fake goods.
i checked on line at the e-bay. i found that my bag is quite faked. if you notice on the small things,
then it could be obvious telling the truth of my bag.
hummm and then today, i didnt go to work.
once i dont firgue out the bank issue, i dont want to work for him, yet, still need to work.
coz that's my duty, my responsiblility.
i wonder if the problems couldnt be fixed by today, then i might not work 8 hrs or more for him/day.
coz obvious that i shouldnt work for a "friend" who's lying to me and delaying on my salary for 2 months.
then, i have my job to do, to finish.
and then, i found my shorts... was not the one i should buy.
they gave me the small size, but i want the medium size.
i didnt notice that, coz in hk, the sales person used to check for the customers.
in vancouver, customers used to take their goods to the cashier, or the sales person would tell the
custoemrs the size of their goods before they hang over to another colleague.
that's the problem. coz... i didnt check the size... =.=
well, it still fits, but i would definietly prefer the medium size.
ii buy small size for the t-shirt or top, but i want medium for the bottom.
(did i spell wrong? hahaha).
Cyn, Ade, and Cap will start the school tomorrow. good luck there!!
i miss them and i just called Cyn..
and then, hee.. i saw someone on line.
who's that? dont tell you.
castor knows it. oh yea! CAS KNOWS IT =P
>>September 5, 2006 at 5:18:03 AM GMT+8
2006 年 9 月 3 日 星期日 【晴】
hahahah
today, i went to china mainland for one whole day...
damn tired.....
why?
coz aunt Pricilla and me shopped for one whole day..
tired...
i bought so many things.. well i didnt expect myself would buy so many things..
and i bought my first faked bag from Juicy Couture.
and that only costs... $ 150...
and it's quite faked one but damn nice looking though.. heehee ^^
then i bought other stuffs...
very cheap.... hahahah VERY CHEAP !
we had dim sum there... oh gosh... so delisicous hahah =P
then... walked around, shop around..
and like.. hummm i havent been to there for 6 years already..
and then... i know we really look like the tourist hahaha...
and the guys, hahahaha... whatever whatever and whatever..
hummm meet a new netfriend, he's Stephen.
he's quite nice.. =)
thank you.
hummm thanks aunt Pricilla hahaha..
then tomorrow i will be sick, coz i'm already sick today...
ve been feeling not well the whole day..
maybe coz i 'd never really rested well .. since was going to Van till after back from there and now..
aiyo....
then tomorrow i'm not going to work.
something really bad happened... i'm thinking to... search for another job.
that's the wise choice.. but i'm still considering it.
then Wed, i will meet up LeeWai and Season in afteroon at pacific coffee !
we will have tea time together. we're gonna discuss for some school stuffs, and chating for life =D
then at night, i will meet my best girl, Shan for dinner! she's always my best friend =)
dont know if we could meet up Queenie also. coz she needs to work...
i wanna have ice-cream with Shan =P
whatever... i need to rest.. need to slow down myself first...
let's take some rest..
and i'm gonna miss my aunt. coz she's leaving again =S
she's going back to Van for one month...
may God bless Alesja, coz.. she's facing some problems now..
may God bless Benny, coz... i really hope that he would understand my e-mail and..
we would still be good friends...
Take care...
night night cas..
>>September 4, 2006 at 4:20:37 PM GMT+8
2006 年 9 月 2 日 星期六 【晴】
wow~
today woke up around 11 am..
after lunch, i rested and tried to tidy up place..
but i was too lazy >.< heehee..
then i came and do some uploading..
then eventually end up chatting with Stephen... humm a new net friend from Vancouver.
nice to meet him =)
then after shower, i met Queenie at a Taiwanese Tea House outside..
and then, nice...
we chatted... hummm con. to her again =) why? dont ask me la.. haha..
then we walked around, then i came back home..
resting and had dinner. nice dinner! i love mom's cooking!!!
then...
tomorrow i will go on the trip heehee ^^
kindda looking forward for it..
hummmm i understand what Queenie means..
and i'm really ready to get over it already. i'm really moving on now.
and i m letting go. actually i'm doing okay.
i m not sure if i would meet someone in hk soon, who knows?
i just... dont wanna... you know... i would just let it be..
i m glad that Benny has a new relationship, which means he's doing fine now.
and i''m doing okay. i'm not about to bother him for what already.
just should not be...
i'm quite okay =)
i just wonder why he didnt tell me directly. he might have some reasons, but it doesnt matter now.
coz it happens. hummm it's nice to break up anyway =)
coz after break up, i see more, and i understand more. i dontk now his part..
he might be so happy and relaz now, coz finally he could get rid of me.
i dont find as sad as before, especially when i know he is in relationship again.
and Queenie is right, i might just.. ... ruin up everything.. and i'm probably doing this now exactly.
i think just let it go would be the best for us.
i love him so i should just let go. reduce the pain, release the tension, set it free.
he deserves someone better, deserves the better life =) i wish him good luck =)
i really wish, wanna to be friend with him again.
i love the happy him. i love his smile. i wanna give thanks to him..
and i want the blessings from him also haha.. coz i m gonna carry on the life alone.
i dont know when i would meet a new one, haha.. so.. i really need the blessing from everyone !
just kidding. i'm doing okay. i want one, but i'm not so hurry for this.
i'm 20 this year, and i'm looking for the right one start from now. dont knwo how many years later
i wiil meet the right guy. i will watch for the signs haha.
>>September 3, 2006 at 3:35:47 PM GMT+8
2006 年 9 月 1 日 星期五 【晴】
You know what's called DAMN BUSY?
i smiled less, but being more professional now.
dont ask me why, just that the more emotions involved, the bigger frustration would come.
but i like my job =)
you know what's called.... ignoring ? or irretating?
my position is just like that.
by the way, after work, i met my aunt today. haha.. hang around...
hummm i bought a handbag for mom =) quite nice erh, and not expensive..
we were in Sha Tin today... then... i didnt shop anything for myself..
not in mood for shopping.. i just shooped too much in Vancouver..
i spent... over $1000 CAD in two weeks there. i really bought too much stuffs..
and i ate lots too hahaha..
i went there with two baggages. but one was empty, and my stuffs only filled 3 quaters.
then you guess what.. when i'm back, my baggages were almost full, both baggages, large size one.
so hahaha...
hummmm sad that HK is damn hot now.. SUMMER... which is not so nice to say out..
coz i do love summer, but the Vancouver Summer only.
coz HK is just too hot... Van summer is cool. haha...
nice, tomorrow is sunday, i'm gonna rest at home.. coz... since i'm back,
i didnt really take a rest... DAMN.... then one week already..
i'm still listening to Ade's CD... i still miss them lots and lots.. and sometimes i do cry..
tomorrow i will stay at home, resting and tidying up my room and kill hte baggages, and my desk,
my everything.. have to do lots of washing and dusting i guess...
why washing? coz i wanna wash over my desk with dusting.. so many things on my desk,
so many books, so messy, so many make up stuffs and accessaries on my desk..
some doc from school or gov.... etc..
then.. it's like... it's been 4 months i d never touched my desk hahaha..
and then, wanna arrange the space for books, files, or whatever.. so messy, so many things..
Monday, i will go on a day trip, not so far, juist Mainland.. but i wonder how long i havent visited
Mainland. i will go there with aunt Pricilla.
then on Tue, got back to work.. and might be able to meet up Shan heeheee...
one of my best girls!
then, i might meet up Nelson on Wed or Thurs.. see if he'll be free..
but i guess if i wanna meet friends at night, i have to work from the early morning then.
okay... i will do that =)
i wanna blog more...
but i gotta rest now *Yawning
>>September 2, 2006 at 3:53:38 PM GMT+8
2006 年 9 月 1 日 星期五 【晴】
Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round
Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time
hummmm
today was damn busy..
what the fuck.. i planed to meet my aunt at 7 30pm,
then.... ard 7, i planed to leave..
but shit, there're tonz of data to update, and there're tonz of the tution fee notice rushing out, released.
and damn it, there're all the special cases on my desk, which means i have to work on every single
reciept and the attendent sheets, and then cal the amount for them, checking when did they start
the courses, how many admendment was about the class, and gotta present to boss..
then, there're so many tricky shit that i ve to pay extra attention on.
then finally... i couldnt finish my job, then left. i left around 8 30pm.
FUCK !!!! i was there, the Tsim Sha Tsui station almost 9 pm.
whatever malls are ready to close.. then... sigh.... finally didnt enjoy the shopping or "walking".
we had dinner at the CitySuper, we ordered one Korean noodle, we shared..
then we ordered some desert and shared.. then we walked outside,... walked around and eat
snack hahaha on the side walk, and then... we had herbal tea.. hahaha..
nice..
hummm
tomorrow after work will meet up another aunt..
then Sunday i will stay at home, resting and tidy up my messy room and kill my two big baggages..
then i also need to study some inofmration for Cap.. then yea also wanna search some courses
for myself.. then i will finish my PICTURES UPLOADING heehee..
then there you go, you would see my ugly faces again on net.
then, Mon gonna go on my DAY TRIP @@ !!!
then Tue or Wed will meet up Shan for dinner @@ hee~
you know what...
tomorrow will be Mr. Lam's last day..
hummmmmmmmmm wondering if i should buy him something.
coz i used to give him chocolate, but ... i stopped.... then now he's gonna leave.. i feel a bit strange..
hummm yea...
and then,...
i still havent wrote the last e-mail yet..
have been... waiting for a chance to write..
what i mean by "wait" is... like... i'm waiting for myself...
when i'm ready to write, i would..
now i'm okay, i'm still searching for my true words to him now..
i dont mean i was lying to him, I D NEVER LIED TO HIM. WHATEVERI DONE I LET HIM KNOW.
but the feelings i mean. and.. stuffs like that.. i dont think he's waiting for my e-mail.
and then why i do this is just for... letting it go.. i think he let go already.
that's why he didnt reply me or he changed his profile in frinedster, being in a realtionship now.
yea... he doesnt give a shit on us anymore.. he didnt give chances.
whatever...
i'm sad.. but it doesnt mean thati should be always frustrated or whatever..
today before work, i have dim sum with my family and aunt. woo~ nice...
then i got some information for Cap, and i will do some shopping for her, cyn and Ade soon =P
wiait for my supprise plz ! little gift hee..
busy for two days le...
how to say...
lots of things to do lor.. at office i mean..
very very busy... like... hummmm have to deal with lots of diff ppl and tasks at the same time.
then i'm doing some big projects.. eventhough i'm just a small person in this "big company",
it's still my duty to finish the projects, tasks by tasks.
thanks for Thomas, coz.. he helps alot on the time table planing, and for the new courses arrangement.
and so big changes at personnel... and i'm gonna miss the ppl.
i'm actually learning to be the "in-charge" person of this center, which is happy and sad.
coz the more i deal with, the more professional i am, higher value i have.
i will be more about the marketing, accounting and personnel.
coz i'm doing quite well with the administration job now, yet got some problems with the new system.
everyone is going through the transaction now..
so... in the coming few weeks, i will do lots of marketing, and personnel things.
like.... we're hiring new staffs now.. whoever interested in it, let me know..
i will arrange the interview for you, then i ll probably be there for the interview, too..
coz i will be the administrative supervisor.
then, after work...
i went back to Tai Po, and FINALLY MET UP SHAN !!!!
supprised =) ! got a call from her..
then met her up at that Taiwanese Teahouse...
drink and eat something.. humm chatting...
updating news with her ha...
okay la~~ really miss her lots!
i will meet her again next week~~
tomorrow night i might meet up my aunt Pricilla, coz she's going back to Van again..
then, on Sat, i will meet my another aunt after work..
then Mon, i will go for a day trip... just wanna take a rest, let my heart go on holiday haha..
humm will go with aunt Pricilla.
then Tue or Wed will meet Shan for dinner..
then soon, i will go to Ocean Park or anywhere with her, too =P
by the way,
i'm opening for all new friends now...
i'm interested in meeting new ppl, making new friends !
hey, let me join in your social life plz ~ i just need that.... coz i was too used to be...unavilable..
thanks =)
>>August 31, 2006 at 4:51:52 PM GMT+8
2006 年 8 月 29 日 星期二 【晴】
hummm
i forgot to set alarm... i set the time, but didnt accurate it..
sick... then... got late to work.. fine..
i worked from 12 to 7 15pm.
thanks Nelson visiting me today..
at least i got someone at office with me.
those kids all left the camp already.. so... i'm kindda bored at office..
and then quite much things to do, quite stressful..
lots of marketing stuffs to update, and some administration work..
and coz this is the end of the month, then have to prepare lots of things, and update lots of data..
then the network sucks.. got spy in the com,.. and then... cant use the internet..
then... still havent got my cheque for July.. and then.. gotta chase the students to pay tution fee,
and then blah blah blah..
but i'm fine.
i cried as usual.. and thanks Ade's CD, and her words.
you know what.. i think she's right, so right.
i should thanks Henry. coz he's honest and sincere. he speaks up no matter what.
and i should thanks Benny. coz he chose not to talk to me. and i know more from the back,
under cover i mean..
then it told me that... we would not have a chance.
since he's not giving chances anymore, i shouldnt be affected, too.
coz.. he changes already.. if he still loves me, he wouldnt do that.
you coukld say that's me cheating on him first.
i apologize, i felt damn guilty, i felt so terrible, and i'm so sincere to make things up..
i'm so honest with him no matter what.. and then.. i wait and wait...
what the ans i got is.. he 's in a relationship now. he didnt tell me.
i guess it would be easlier for me now..
last night i pray and pray , i cried when i confessed to God,.. and...
i just... i am so guilty.. and.. i really... dont know what to do.. i pray till i fell asleep twice or three times..
then i sleep..
Jesus... i really wish Jesus would forgive me.
and i wish Benny a beautiful life ahead.
i guess i would e-mail him once more then let it done. let it go.
i need a few days.
anyway,
i left the office, then met up aunt Pricilla.
thanks her so much.. coz i had a nice night..
i really love being with her. she's kindda like my mom and close friend.
you know... she said... con. to me again... ha.. no matter what, thanks.
and then, we did or talk about some silly things.. like... chating about man at the McDonald's.
haha.. we walked around.. ate around.. i really ate lots..
hummm i couldnt stand for the feelings of missing.. then i eventually called Ade, Cyn..
i guess this is the forth time calling them since i'm back to HK.
hummm i miss them so much..
and then i got some new information for Cap. so i called..
hummm then,.... .. . .. i'm searching somthing for them.
i might mail them something later =)
Thanks Ade... thanks Cyn and Cap... coz... they're really my best friends.
i remember what Ade said..
like... yea... i really remember... thank you Ade.
Cyn's sweet.. Cap is nice..
Thanks for WuHao... thanks..
i really miss my friends.. really... hey girls or guys, where're you?
i need you guys...
and then... i enjoy and i cry.. i feel glad and upset..
everything's messing up.. okay...
i have the cd with me, so i'm not too lonely.
i ve the memory with me, so i'm not too leftout.
i had him, but i broke it... i tried my best, always tried my best..
and then " something had happened and all always got a reason".
i shouldnt be too sad, i should be happy that i'm back to Jesus finally.
and He holds my hand, leading me to the future. He's watching me, blessing me..
when i cry, He looks, and give me hand, give me peace.
my friends are like my angel. thanks dudes.
i miss him always, i love him always, then.. i would let go.
i think there's no rooms anymore.
>>August 29, 2006 at 5:07:06 PM GMT+8
2006 年 8 月 28 日 星期一 【晴】
you know what...
yesterday... the glasses broken in front of me..
i was thinking like... how about i would get hurt from that?
then i concern on my leg..
whatever..
you know,...
i found something today.. i saw Benny's profile in friendster.
Benny might be in another relationship now.
he's in a realtionship..
hummmm
busy busy and busy...
i have alsmot 12 hrs work today.
nice? okay... great... damn tired.
and i miss my friends lots and lots..
i cried when i think of them, sometims i smiled... coz i think of the happy moments.. haha..
silly things.. haha.. okay..
and thanks for Nelson..
thanks for his call.. and thanks for his concern.
but he's leaving soon...
just like what i say... it's like... all my close friends re leaving me..
sigh..
and i'm alone back to HK... facing my daily stuffs, work or wahtever..
without Benny, without my closest friends, without... it's like... without the supports,
the love..
i dontknow...
i'm so tired... i'm confused..
i do love him still but i think he really doesnt like me anymore,
and he has a new one already.
he would have good life.
good luck on him.
i'm sorry.. i did cheat.. i really did wrong..
and .. i'm sad again..
coz i finally lose him...
and.. i'm alone again..
and why...
>>August 28, 2006 at 5:40:44 PM GMT+8
2006 年 8 月 26 日 星期六 【晴】
hummmm
yesterday was my first day back to work..
have lots of things to do...
oon the way to work, i was on train, then i listened to the cd, which is from Ade.
the first 2 songs are quite peaceful... then the 4th or 3rd one is... " Thinking of You"
oh my god... *TEARS DOWN....
i couldnt control myself... i just keep recalling the moments in Capella's car or at Ade's room.
in Capella's car, Cyn and me sang that song when she played the song by her phone..
then we four in the car, like... very close frineds, and actually we are.
hummm and the songs kept going, then my tears fallings... and i tried to stop that falls.
coz... i feel so.... "not desperate", but the thing is.... my feelings are so strong about " alone".
i mean it's like.... i'm back to HK, being alone to... face my life here.
mayb coz my close friends here are all too busy.. then i've lost my love already...
so yea... and now my family here becomes my most important ppl. my home is my shell..
my works is the challenge... and my studies is like the hope..
my life cant be filled coz of the lost in love. i couldnt forgive myself and i didnt let go.
not the case about willing or not.... it's just like... the longer period i've going through,
the more things i find, or i start to understand... which is sad and happy at the mean while.
coz... sad is... i finally lost my love, glad is i finally learn something.
the price is too high... i'd never wanted it.
sometimes, or the momrning in bath room, i look at myself in mirror, then i would ask myself...
cas, you 're so loving, and you got everything, almost everything you want..
you're easy to feel happy, easy to give thanks and easy to cry..
you're so lucky, you have lots and lots... it's like you have everything( as in i'm not so greedy),
but i've lost somthing... i've lost my love.... sounds like it's the most important thing...
after break up, i really find that actually i really love him so much..
and i find myself a fool, coz i didnt know... (he should understand what i mean by "i didnt know").
i didnt know so much things...
well... lots of friends would say... cas you should be happy coz your bf didnt know how to treat you
well. but i'd never find the same way.. and the longer time after break up, the more sadness in my heart.
well, there're lots of silly things that we did, some were hurtful, some were sweet.
couldnt say who's right or wrong at times. only one thing i know is... the love has not die..
would he still miss me? would he still want me? would he still love me?
if i think or hope he would... then i'm gonna ask myself that how about if he wont..
do i still think he would as in now he hates me, he's mad at me..
if i say he would never be back with me, then.. it's like i dont trust him at all if he's coming back.
i dont know.. i just know i want him back, i want the future with him, only him not other guys.
coz he's the only person taught me what's the love based on no conditions.
i fell in love with him after i said i m willing to be with him no matter what.
there's no such the big crush at the begining.. but the longer with him, the more beaut inside him i could
see. but too late that's just too late.
ppl asked me if he's just someone married or just playing me.
i said i dont know, but i trust him.
sigh....
i'm waiting for him...
or let say i'm waiting for someone in future.
he's waiting for his someone also..
life is like.. ppl have to wait.. and we dont know who we're waiting for..
life is like.. i dont wanna miss the person but sometimes i got no choices..
this time, i really... wish that... hope that.... we would be together again..
and i would never ever hurt him again.
today, i saw Capella on line. we chated for awhile.
i really miss her lots, and i miss Ade and Cyn..
you know... i really wanna call Ade and Cyn..
sometimes i wonder are they still playing games at nights? or not going out in day time?
sometimes i wonder would they miss me haha.. coz i really miss them..
sometimes i wonder if Benny miss me.. but i dont know.. and when i think of it.. my eyes would be
moisturenized.
you know what... the road is quite hard..
Jesus, i really know what i did was wrong ,totally wrong..
plz... take away my pain and... plz give me a chance that to make up my fault.
you know.. i want the chance with Benny not coz i'm too guilty,
but coz i really love him... maybe i should leave him alone, then that he might feel better..
but you know, i'm selfish that i want him...
i'm too selfish..
if he would be happier without me, okay... i think he deserves someone better nicer than me.
and i did hurt him lots.
i'm really sincere to pray that he would be so well, so happy, have so blissful life ahead.
alright...
you know...
the road is really hard...
you know why i love rocky road chocolate so much?
"rocky road" gives me a strong feelings of hardness. but then this chocolate contains the
soft marshmellow, which is the very soft and gentel sense.
it's like me. sometimes i'm hard like the rock, but sometimes i'm soft like the mashmellow.
rich in sense, full of emotions. soft and gentel after melt. sweet but hard. easy to melt, and gloss.
if you have enough time, you could let the chocolate melting in your mouth, and you could sense
me well. if you just bite me, you would find me so hard.
who will give time, who will not, that's not my choice.
sweet doesnt mean nice, hard doesnt mean bad. soft doesnt mean gentle, gloss doesnt mean worse.
only if the person give time to see me through then the person will get everything of me.
my frineds, where're you...
sounds like you're telling me that i ve to be strong and face the life ahead.
you tell me that you're with me..
but i'm so affraid.. coz i dont see you guys with me now.
i see the reflection only of myself in the mirror, which is so dman lonely and dark.
it's like i dont belong to where i am now.
i would say... here's like the big waiting room of life.
( the movie i watched today in morning that reminding me)
and someday, everyone will get to their dreams.
i want him.
and then i work hard to get my ideal job, and study hard to get the bechlor degree..
i learn hard to know about human beings, i learn hard about the human mind, human behavior.
i try o understand what life is, what human is, and what the true self of me.
i firgure out what i want is... to achieve my dreams and settle down with him.
i would love my family, love my frineds, or my dearest frineds, or closest frineds, and love
my future children, and the most important thing is to love the only man in my life..
to give him everything of myself, to take care of him, share with him, make him feel good,
make him happy, make him find life is good.. all the things i do that would make me proud of God.
that's all about my life..
now, benny might hate me so much, which is... so .. terrible for me..
i wish that... Jesus would listen to my prayer.
>>August 27, 2006 at 2:11:13 PM GMT+8
2006 年 8 月 24 日 星期四 【晴】
check on my leg...
it didnt heal... then... sigh...
got hurted during ice skeating...
you know what..
i m still coughing.. badly...
wonder i ve been feeling not well for 2 weeks already..
sucks..
tomorrow gotta work... ahhhhh!!!! i hate that, man...
got the call from Tung and Nelson..
thanks guys..
hummmm thanks for Queenie..
saw Ali on line.. eventually we didnt meet up. hope he's doing fine.
hummmm...
trying to un pack my stuffs and making cd for my pictures..
i've called Cyn.... chating with her for awhile..
miss her, hee..
then didnt reach to Ade or Cap..
damn tired..
guess i will sleep soon..
then would be busy busy busy till school started.
hope to upload my pictures soon...
and hope to finish the "un-pack" and tidy up my room soon , too heehee..
the most of my HOPES for now are:
1) can continoue my studies in Vancouver Canada after grad next year.
2) Benny and me could have a new start.
4) My Family and friends are all happy and healthy !!!
5) tomorrow dont have to work...
6) got the language or other course start.
7) got employed by Cathay Pacific Airway after grad, (if i dont enroll other programes after grad).
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
hummmm...
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check on my leg...
Someone who know