2007 年 10 月 13 日 星期六 【晴】

heehee..

last night, i got a long long sleep, i woke up at..... 12 i guess..
then washed up, and went on line...
i chatted with Stephen =)

then i went to TST to meet my cousin, Sheila.
hummm we had late lunch together, it was 3 sth already...
we had Taiwanese food and bubble tea.
then we seat tehre till 6 sth.. yea long talk..
then we walked from East TST to Harbour City.
it was the beautiful evening there..we grasped the coffee from Starbucks too.
then kept walking and chatting... nice..
then we walked ard Harbour City.
we shopped at Roots. heeheee... i got a t-shirt, a pink one yay~
it was 50% off. it's kindda cheap and nice ;)
then she also bought something.. then i wanted to buy a t-shirt in Roxy, but it was quite expensive,
so i rather wait till next month. probably i shouldnt do any shopping till next month.
in Oct... i only bought two items, well... Castor spent so much on the bag from Guess.
anyway, not only shopping i need money, i need money for my transportation, on coffee, phone bill,
on the expenses about school, and counselling, and.. snack haha.

then.. we had dinner in the food court, very nice food there. then we chatted, and walked back to
East TST. i sent her to her bus stop, then i took train and taxi home.

we chatted alot today.. hummm she told me about Andy and her.
then yea... what i was trying to do is... to accompany her and listened to her.
coz it's like.. we havent met for long, and i'm sorry for what happened lately.
she is a very nice person, i love to be ard her when we were still kids.
we grew together, with Isabella, her sister. we used to play together.
sometimes my family visited her family, then aunt Kitty would make a cake for us.
i like Sheila, she is like my big sis, my friend as well. we used to write christmas card to each others,
and we sent birthday gift. then... Isabella is in China now with her studies, i wish her good luck.
actually i wish them both good luck and happy. i have so many counsins, but these two are like
my friends, the closest cousins. so yea... if they need me, i would be there for them absolutely.

tomorrow might be my last one or two sessions of the counselling.
i havent prepared the answer yet. last time she gave me questions to think about.
i guess i am not ready to answer it. i dont know if i am not ready or i already got the answer.
i dont know... things changed, and... we will see.

but i am definitely much better than before, and.. much happier..
i hope it is because of myself, not of others. i think i have learnt so much during this period.
i really start to live my life, in stead of just floating sadly everydays.
i start to gain more self respect and love myself. it's not like.. caring about what others influencing me,
but about how i feel and think about things happened on myself. the self respect is like.. not given
by others, but by myself. more confidence i guess? like i am glad to say i love myself, i'm glad i m me.
it's like i am still very caring and friendly to ppl, still put others first before myself, but i would tell myself
what my limit is, and i do care myself too. i wanna be loved, but firstly not by others, but myself.
coz.. now i think... i am so lovely and nice, if you re not gonna love me, doesnt matter, at least i really
love myself.
i am still lonely sometimes, really. but i understand that... if i m lonely, maybe i should do something.
i dont wanna just sit and wait to see what will happen on me, but i wanna find somethign to do.
so, i choose to live happily. do what i should do, do what i wanna do. enjoy what i like and dislike.
coz this is life that i have, and this is me. =)
i want to have ppl enjoy the life with me. not necessary to be very rich or fancy, but just happy and
lovely.
sharing fun and tears, facing problems and got each others back.

i chatted with Stephen today...
we had webcam and some chatting.. it was nice.
and i thought of lots of things when i was on train to TST.
maybe we are really meant to be. i cherrish him and our relationship.
for all the things happened since last Sep, we ve been through a lot.
eventhough we have been together for only 1 year 1 month, it was long for a long distance relationship.
i think we do experience a lot and we are both serious with each others.
i personally think that he is the one, and i do hope things would be better for us.
i hope he would be my last, be with me and love me till the end.

>>October 14, 2007 at 5:41:05 PM GMT+8

2007 年 10 月 12 日 星期五 【晴】

i worked today.

humm well... i was early there, on time, 10 am.
then i was soooo sleepy..
today got lots of calls, students being abs, and some wanna rearrange classes,
some called the class off, hummmmmmm had been thinking of those and busy with attendence.
some ppl pay and some new inquiries. busy.

i took a short nap in lunch time, not good. coz May came into the classroom before 2 pm.
i looked at the clock and thought.. "what?! it's not 2 pm yet, why you moved to this room?"
never mind.. crazy.

then i was bored... sigh... sometimes busy sometimes bored...
then some parent talk with me.. then she said... last year when she first met me, i was pretty young..
then now, i look more and more tired and older. i said yes... i am very tired..
then... hummm.... Sophia talk with me as well, hummm as same she likes to say something good to me.
ha... she is so polite always, i could see she has worked in some customer service before, and i was
right. she did. then yea... she said my working hr is long. i know, and Ella let me cut down 1/2 hr,
and raised my salary a bit. i was happy and thankful. hummm yea.. still trying ot be professional.
sigh. life is tough yea?

by the way.... i was on line in office, then.... at the same time, when i was away, Ella signed in
with window messenger, same lap top.. she might find that i have blocked her on my list.
coz when she signed in, the lap top didnt show the little pop up of "Ella just signed in".
then of course she wouldnt see me on her list as on line, coz i blocked her, right?
it was sooooo stupid of me didnt unblock her when i was about away the desk.
the thing is.. sometimes i do block her, coz i dont want her knowing that i m on line..
it's all about the work, nothing about our friendship. i blocked May as well. i dont mind being on line with
her, but just when i m at office, i dont wanna let her know i m on line, especailly when she is not
in the office. strange of me, but true that what's the point to let her know i'm on line always?
i'm sorry to let her find out that, coz i dont want her know that... so yea.. i hope she didnt notice that.
but if it was me, i defintely have found that in very naturally.

got a little chatting time with Stephen. it was okay. i hope his connection would be back to normal soon.
it's not that i dont miss him or i dont love him anymore. i still miss him and love him.
somehow... i m a bit changed... and i wanna be careful about the love i'm giving is not killing me or him again.
i wanna be a better lover too. so.. i m improving myself... i wanna be a better girlfriend or fiancee =)
hee.. is he lucky? maybe not.

i guess i m more... independent now. in a way that... i dont put my emotion as in happiness or sadness
over some ppl. i put the focus back on myself. i am glad that i am me. and i find myself more stable now.
i'm a shy person, there are so much fun inside me that i seldom take it out.
female close friend might find that, but not with guy friends. with guys, i could be playful, especially
not with the real friendship. i dont know, it's just me. i am shy but not all the time.
i am brave when i have to be. i laugh out loud when i find thigns funny. i cried when i'm sad or angry.
if i m very angry, i could be aggressive, reacting in diff ways depends on the situations, could be pretty calm.
i think i m a good care giver, coz it's more like gifted with education. i think... there re lots about me,
some are known, some are underdiscovered, and waiting for some ppl to go through with me =P
who would be so unlucky? hahahahahaha... guess my friends are my life long buddies..
then my boyfriend should be the lucky one yea? hahahaha... better ask him.. probably he would say
no, he is very unlucky to have me actually. well, then should wait to ask my husband in the future,
i mean ask later when i'm married.. proabably the husband can tell more, right? hahahaha..
i do hope to marry someone who would love me for life long, really cherrish us, passionate about us,
and would share a happy healthy family with me and with our kids.
no matter what happen, he wouldnt leave me alone, wouldnt be selfish to give in. he would put
family even before himself. well not necessary to be sacrafying but say when chances are about
to make choices in between personal fun and family, he would take care of the family first.
then yea... love me and love our relationship, having fun and tears together. not just by talking, but do something.
i do have my own perceptions and values for a marriage and family. not very fancy, but..
i dont know.. it's better that i would have my own words of myself in stead of being taken granted.

by the way, FAll comes!!!! ^^
and Halloween is coming ~~~
then the chocolate season comes~~~~ =P
i love FAll and Winter~~~~ OH I LOVE YOU !!!
it's a great season for love too =)


do you wanna share a whole new world with someone you love?
yes, i want.... does he ?

A Whole New World


>>October 13, 2007 at 5:19:48 PM GMT+8

2007 年 10 月 11 日 星期四 【晴】

today... was fine....

i got up, and rushed to work.
then yea, pretty bored and busy as usual.

then had lunch with mom, then back to office, started to be busy.
then... left office on time, but i saw Eman, Man Jun, and Curtis.
ahahaha... they were my old high school friends. so funny...
we were chtting for more than 30 mins on street. coz they were super funny.. i kept laughing..
they were still as same as before, so funny. they actually made lots of jokes,
well, soooooo long havent met them, they re still really funny. i feel so warm seeing them =)
Curtis and Man Jun said i m more beautiful now, i was like okay, i hope you told the truth hhahaha..
thanks them anyway, made me laugh today haha...

at office, i was so excite about Ella's lap top. it got webcam in, and then hahaha mic as well !!!
i tried the webcam today with Stephen. then at night when i almost got off, i tried the mic with my
sister, Leggy. it was quite nice =)

hummm i chatted with Stephen today at work.
i m glad that we re back into contact.
i miss him...
and i hope things would get better soon.

anyway... tmr need to work from 10- 7... hummmmmm i need to sleep first....

>>October 12, 2007 at 4:11:38 PM GMT+8

2007 年 10 月 10 日 星期三 【晴】

hummmmm

i just watched the last eps of the Hotel Babylon Season 2.
it was soooooooooo wonderful. and you know what... i will miss Rebecca..
humm.. i will be looking forward to it coming back.
i really like every mesg of each eps. it's like giving me big insights.
well, ususally it s like some meaningful stuffs in life, as in job and friendship.
i really like that. and i love hotel industry, remember? hahaha... thanks VPC. thanks Hotel Babylon.
i actually have this book, and i was reading it too. it's so attractive, so charming.

then yea.. back to life..
i got work today. i dressed up, wearing formally, coz some Gov ppl came for checking.
we are on process for some doc stuffs. then yea, Ella, Mandy and i had beening working on those,
then Ella and i stayed at te office today, and got prepared in the AM and Noon. it was fine i guess.
i was soooo sleepy and bored waiting for Ella back with her lap top, but she appeared late and late..
then we prepared till late afternoon, the Gov ppl came.
then yea... we are changing the computer, so.. Ella brought her own lap top to replace the
old desk top. she took it home last night...
then hummmmmm hahaha.. her lap top got the internal webcam. quite nice. it was funny using
lap top instead. well, i think her lap top is pretty good actually, much better than the desk top.

i walked home after work, but the high heels were killing me, i found feet bleed a bit.
so silly i should take taxi in stead. but this morning, i have tooken taxi already.

yea.... soooo tired... wanna rest earlier tonight in stead.
but i dont know..

anyway... hummm i dont know how Sheila is now..
my cousin, Sheila... i feel so sorry for her about Andy and that girl.
i dont really understand what happened but... i wish her fine...
you know... we grew up together, i dont want her sad.

and for myself... hummm... wish myself good luck and... yea...
we will see...

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Hotel Babylon Season 2, Final Eps. 8













Would you be Rebcca or Charlie?
i admire the intellegent of Rebcca, very good critical decision making and management skills.
i admire Charlie of his good realtionship and networking, his interpersonal relationship with co workers,
very good helper and assistent of Rebcca.
hummmmm i think Rebcca is a really good manager actually.. but Charlie got ppl's trust.
i think... for myself, in my past few years of working exp, i think... Rebcca has been doing the really
great job already, and i hope i could be as strong, but... Charlie got the points too.
and.. i ususally work as the assistent, and i truely find that usually the assistent knows how to take
care of the mess the best. well... the boss makes decisions of course, but the boss needs to listen
to the assistent. assistent alsways got evrything prepared well and organized.
i'm better at this.. so i guess i would be more like Charlie than Rebcca. and in my exp, i am always
the vice person than the main one. as i know, the main one ususally doesnt need to do much.
like the year i was in Student Union. i was the vice, my chairman didnt do anything much,
i gotta do everything, and my words gain more trust than his.
then when i became the calss chair, i didnt need to do much, really. maybe nothing much need to do ?
then the year in McDonald's. my head girl was always so stressed, but then she shared her work with
me, and she brought me to some important meetings with the management team. i even got invovled
in some important presentation day and events, i worked more somehow..
then in Elchards, Ella is my boss, but... you know... i am glad that i have the autonomy at work.
many things after i explaint, they would be approved, or i could discuss with Ella, and influence her decisions.
i guess... somehow being the assistent is more effective to communicate with diff ppl, or say..
being more helpful in daily operation. coz the boss needs to count on you, and you are probably the
best person understanding most of the stuffs, except some confidential business secrets you dont
need to know.
i wish i could be as intellegent, strong and firm or calm in business as Rebcca, but be countable and
muti-telanted, skilled, humanitive as Charlie.
it would be great for me in any sense or really important in my life.
i remember in my leadership training, i have learnt so much about these stuffs..
and one thing i remember really well that... the learder is not necessary to be the perfect person in the
group, as in high educattion, just all he needs re the bonding with ppl and work, muti-areas of skills
and knowledge, and time.

i dont care if i am not good enough or not, i just think... learning is never end.
and i am so passionate about learning anything new in life.
i hope someday i would be someone sucessful, not necessary be in business stuffs,
maybe just with my family with husband and kids, or career development.
i know i would sucess =)

>>October 12, 2007 at 4:13:50 PM GMT+8

2007 年 10 月 9 日 星期二 【晴】

hummm

i woke up, then worked.. i walked to office..
today is a bit cool... i think Fall really arrived.
Fall... hummm one year passed. just too fast..

ard lunch time, i went to the post office. i posted Alesja and Ade gifts.
of course for Diana and Cyn as well =) Ade is grad soon, then i found something really nice
for Alesja and Diana before. i wanted to cheer them up, so i sent them some small gifts.
then for Cyn heehee i saw something really cute for her ;)
and for Ade, i got her a grad gift =) i m sure Ade would love it, well i hope haha.

then i had lunch with Ella, we did some shopping for Halloween. we decorate the office a bit.
then had been busy, i had class with Alex and Cerene again. so naughty..
i dont knwo why everytime when Alex and Cerene are together, then.. crazy..
then after Alex, i have Winnie.. omg.. she does improve her prounciation !
i was happy. i was very very tired but i did enjoy the class with her, time flyed.

then i walked home..
i m so tired, but i enjoy walking in Fall, coz it's a bit cool, then it's good for long walk.
i love it =)

hummmm recently have been busy for something urgent in office... gotta prepare lots and
help Ella to prepare, too. and we re working on new posters, so yea.. kindda busy.
this and that, very stressed.. especially there would be another English learning center opening soon.
so.. what i do in office now is... to try my best to catch up with everything, so that i could have things
in control, understand how things are going, and be ready always to help.
i know Ella is stressed. she needs my support, so i am trying to share with her.

and for my own.. hummmmm my exam is coming in 2 weeks, of course i m a bit stressed.
then i have been thinking about the Master degree and stuffs, thinking of the information i need
to apply for some scharlorship.. then thinking about my text books as well.
hummmm the book store stopped working with us, coz too few students ordering text books,
so they dont give us discounts anymore. omg.. i dont understand why the students dont need a book.
i need my book, coz i study my book with my own notes and stuffs. i have no ideas why they dont
need a book. anyway... yea... i gotta find somewhere would have those books. but without discount,
that would be freaking expensive. normally i buy a book for ard $260@. but without disscount,
it would be like... $ 330@. SIGH.

then yea, for the little business... i have been preparing lots, and i dont know...
Rami and i have discussed a few times.. and then have a few meetings, and also with Edgar.
so.. yea.. i'm dealing with some small things now and waiting.

coz of that, and other things, i called Stephen..
i asked him for advice. i wanna hear what he thinks.
and of course because i miss him. i think of him, wanna know how he is.. so yea... i made the call.
and i wish him good luck there, and i really hope to see him soon again, well at least on line.
wish the things would go fine soon.


and now, i slowly start to learn to be happy living my life =)
i mean really to experience, to feel what life is. to live a life, not just let days passing.
i take days as it comes, but with a life in days. with my heart, with feelings and meanings.
i guess, i could be happy too =) i deserve to be happy and satisfied by myself, not by others.
anyway, Thanks God. He doesnt kill me, and He makes me stronger =)
well.. i'm still learning... how to live a life.
but can you feel it, Cas ? yes, i find it lovely. how good it would be, if i would be able to feel true
happiness in my life. my life is alive ! and i dont have to be sad or upset over something.
coz i learn to love myself first, so i wouldnt lost myself. i wanna be loved, why not by myself first?
i'm glad that i am me..
wait... there is something... i need to find out..
=) hummmm....






Come Back To Me Lyrics

>>October 10, 2007 at 5:00:10 PM GMT+8

2007 年 10 月 8 日 星期一 【晴】

hello.

the cofee is too strong to me..

i got the meeting with Rami at 2 pm,
then the meeting with Edgar at alsmot 3 pm.

then... after the meeting, got knew some new guy, who is also my schoolmate, which i dont know.
Eric. he is from England as well like Rick. hummmm he opened that cafe at Edgar's building.
hummmmm which means.. i need to work with him sometimes.. and he looks smart, and he looks
like my old schoolmate, Jin, who is in Utah state now. whatever..

then after that, i met Rami again, so as to kill time.
we seat at some resturant, discussing on some business stuffs and some chatting..

then i went back to school to have my class.
omg.. i got 84% on my Mid Term... well.. i knew some one or two students got 90 and 91.
i am... 84... which is a bit..... not that cool. but still.... okay...

then Bobo was sitting next to me and asking me, comparing with me about the score..
i started to find her irretating, coz it is none of her business and she is always like that.
i remember once long ago i was in the same group with her doing a research...
i got some problems with the computer, so i didnt give her information on time..
then i had been working on my part for a long time, and i was trying ot fix everything..
then i was about to discuss wiht them, but then since i arrived the classroom, just seat down,
then she kept confronting me like... where the hell your data gone? i was like what?!
she kept scolding me like why dont you send me this and that, told me like everyone worked hard,
but not me, then i was really really pissed off. coz everyone in class was looking at me,
then i told her that i had been working hard on everything but just my computer got problems,
and my whole family was helping me to get help in the past 48 hrs, and it was at 12 am,
my dad drove me from NT to HKI, to get a lap top from my cousin. blah blah blah and what the hell
you are doing now is to blame me not to help, why do you think you got the right to confront me.
i spoke in English, she was shocked and silent. then i left.
after that time, i d never been in group with her. she sounds a bitch always anyway.. so.. i dont like
to be ard her. and i was always like... not quite sociable with the other schoolmates..
coz the HK students there are always in groups and i dont feel comfortable to socialize with them.
so yea... today she seat next to me and compared stuffs with me, i actually wanted her to shut up.

today i saw the notice board abt the information of the professiors for next term..
all are the western ppl now, except Dr. Chan. i was a bit suprised..
coz.... it used to be so many many Chinese professors but not Western.. but seems like...
now, they want more real western professors teaching... it is good. coz.. it really improve
the level of the school. if the studnet's ot up to standard, then they should work harder, right?
that's why i am happy, coz i think it is more fair.

then yea... in class, there are lots of.... inspiration, it makes me think..
and yea...

what do i need the most in this moment?
what about the future? what i need to most...
these two ques concluded our lesson tonight.

i answered... what i need the most now is to learn to live my life and be loved.
for the future, i need to settle down happily with my husband and kids, a happy healthy family, and
maybe career achievement.

hummmmmmm.......

>>October 9, 2007 at 6:13:11 PM GMT+8

2007 年 10 月 7 日 星期日 【晴】

today was okay.

i had lunch with my sister, Miki.
we had Jap food, then i sent her back to her school.

i went to Sha Tin, coz i wanna see what's new in Fall.
then.. on the train... i saw Principle Cheung..
i was... shocked and scared... i am supposed to say hi to him but i was so scared..
coz i was wearing mini skit, with some tight t-shirt, and with that new bag, and with my sandle..
i think i look really really NOT like the way when i was in high school.
i used to be the type of modle student, like everything is A+.
how could i let him seeing me wearing some clothese i do nowaday?! i was like OMG.
the fact is... i know i need to contact him in the coming months for my reference letter..
so i am afraid that i have left him some bad impression now, and changed my old image in his mind.
well, i do change alot from high shcool.. but if i know i am going ot meet him, i would at least wear
jeans or some longer skirt in stead >.< OMG... i was...sooooooo scared..
i'm not sure if he has noticed me on train. i saw him when the train was in Fo Tan.
we both got off in Sha Tin, one station only.. i was scared..

then yea... walked ard the stores, pretty nice.. then Shan called me..
she came to join me.. then mom called me as well.. humm sorry mom...
then yea walked ard, then we seat at Starbucks for coffee..
we chatted lots..
then we walked and went home.

at home just resting and watching tv, relaxing..
whoooooooo... finally can relax a little bit.. but you know what?!
tomorrow i would have meetings, then would have school..
then my final exam is coming in 3 weeks. i should start studying pretty soon.
then i'm thinking of my mid term, and my paper.. sigh... scary..

anyway... y ea... Shan and i were talking lots about wedding stuffs..
since some of our friends started getting married, we really do dream of that now?! hahahaha
hummm we are very excited for our friends who have married, and we do enjoy in helping..
hahaha.. but then i think Shan doesnt really wanna get married soon.
we were kindda joking who would be the next. hahaha...
well... who knows~~~~ maybe Shan would be the next! hahaha..

hummm then yea... i am watching the pictures the photos that from Vancouver..
i actually have lots of great memorries, great time there..
i should definitely give thanks to the ppl ever happened in my life,
the things and love i have with my family, friends, schools, my lover, everything, everyone, and God.
coz... this is just the Castor you have seen, that's just the Castor you know and are familiar with,
coz this is just what you have done with me and helped shaping me, giving me this good life.
the road might be rough and tough, but i got through it with all of you, who have given me help,
care and love. i give thanks to everyone and God.
coz without you, there is no Castor today. i am not a great person, but at least someone you might
like to be with in your life ;) i hope.
i do appreciate all of you..
well.. i m sure many many ppl cant get my mesg here, but in my heart, i really appreciate them and
wanna give my thanks to them, from my heart.

now it's Van's thanks giving day.. wish they would cherrish the day and the time they have,
and make some sharing with their beloved ppl. thank them, praiset hem, appreciate them.
take time to do something they should, and enjoy.


Don´t wanna miss a thing - Aerosmith


I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While youre far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And Im wondering what youre dreaming
Wondering if its me youre seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God were together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

I dont want to miss one smile
I dont want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
Cause Id miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
Id still miss you baby
And I dont want to miss a thing

Dont want to close my eyes
I dont want to fall asleep
I dont want to miss a thing

>>October 8, 2007 at 5:12:42 PM GMT+8

2007 年 10 月 6 日 星期六 【晴】

hi.

hummmm i slept at 4 am last night i guess.
then woke up ard 11 then rushing something and have lunch with my sister, Miki.
we had Taiwanese food. quite yummy! =) i love bubble tea there, and not expensive.
cool.

anywya, we went to her tutorial school for some information, then we went home..
i uploaded lots and lots of pics to Facebook. =)
then i rested and took a nap..
had dinner and rest.

i'm so sleepy, i think i m going to sleep soon...

hummm~~~
Thanksgiving day is on Tmr, but in Vancouver time should be my Tuesday.
i dont know, in HK we dont celebrate for that, but simply like what we did in high school,
The Appreciation Day. i love it, we have lots of good time before =) missing it.
anyway, i really wanna give thanks to many many ppl and things that happened in my life.

hummmmmmmm yea...
Stephen and i talk last night. i miss him. i wish him well there.
i wish he could come to HK. anyway, i wish i could see him on line more often.

i think of the song in Disneyland:
A Whole New World

(Aladdin:) I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide

(Aladdin:)I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways, and under
On a magic carpet ride

(Aladdin:)A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

(Jasmine:)A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here, it's crystal clear
That now I’m in a whole new world with you

(Jasmine:)Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

(Jasmine:) A whole new world
(Aladdin:) Don't you dare close your eyes
(Jasmine:) A hundred thousand things to see
(Aladdin:) Hold your breath - it gets better
(Jasmine:)I'm like a shooting star, I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

(Aladdin:) A whole new world
(Jasmine:) Every turn a surprise
(Aladdin:) With new horizons to pursue
(Jasmine:) Every moment red-letter
(Both:) I'll chase them anywhere, there's time to spare,
Let me share this whole new world with you

(Aladdin:) A whole new world
(Jasmine:) A whole new world
(Aladdin:) That’s where we'll be
(Jasmine:) That's where we will be
(Aladdin:) A thrilling chase
(Jasmine:) A wondrous place
(Both:) For you and me

>>October 7, 2007 at 6:03:20 PM GMT+8

2007 年 10 月 5 日 星期五 【晴】

hi.

hummmmm
today... i was working, then had lunch on my own.
hummm.... then back to work, pretty stressed.. got many challenges in office.
well not necessary my responsiblities but i'm in.
so... Elchard's problems are also mine now.

hummm after work, i went to Admiralty to meet Rami.
holly Sh*t... i saw Sunny as well, no problems, but i met a new guy there, Rick.
he is a such a jerk. i dont know him much, but the first time to hang out with them really freaks me
out at first. then slowly i get used to his language and stuffs, then i got fun in conversation.
he is my schoolmate too? what the.. i d never seen him before. he is in the next class.
well, i might see him in the coming term, coz he joins Monday class as well. let's see.
these three guys were sp funny. but i feel like i m a guy there, not really a girl.
these "gentelments" dont really watch their words. i was like... "What?!".. suprised.
but we had fun, coz usually only Sunny and Rami would be a bit bored..
then today Rick was funny but a bit freaky.

well, Rami and i got lots of serious discussion on the business though..
i m super freaking tired. i m kindda worried for stuffs.. but yea.. try my best..

anyway... life goes on..
i dont even know.. you know.. things are never be in control..
there are many plans and great ideas, or many great things and ppl in my life..
but you know.. i just find that.. there are pretty much unexpected.
some are great from bad, some turn bad from great.
cant even expect anything.. gues this is life..

you thought... this is gonna be? no.. it doest come in the way you know.
you thought it's end but it is not. what is going on... just.. like... the scene in movies.
i couldnt even remember much, i just know time flys.
what i love, i couldnt keep them or touch.. what i hate and fear, i gotta face them eveyday.
life is like.. a ride..
ppl told me that if i have faith, everything would go fine..
but i guess in this kind of game, i lsot so much already.. am i a loser?
it doesnt matter. it all matters when... i couldnt be close with the ppl i love., i oculdnt do what i wanna
do. but the thing is.. the reality is pretty harsh and mean sometimes, and getting me tired and frustrated.
maybe i'm just tooo busy and too tired.

i hope that... the things i am doing now is not stupid..
i hope i'm walking towards my dream but not drifting away..
i hope i dont have to lose the things what value so much in life..
i hope i could gain it back, and stick with that for life long..
if there are choices, i would choose the way in my heart, not in my brain.

>>October 6, 2007 at 6:46:48 PM GMT+8

2007 年 10 月 5 日 星期五 【晴】

i got a very weird dream last night made me a bit.... uncomfortable..
but then... yea.. i worked.

today is a bit different. today is a bit busy and.. i was content.
i mean.. yea, many challanges today actually.
we had meeting today. i mean Ella and me..
we were discussing on some new courses, and the promotions stuffs, got very good ideas,
later on, i would be busy for those stuffs. good.

then yea.. after work, it was already 8 35, so i didnt go to Ricky's home.
well, he didnt prepare his work as well, so we just change to Sunday. i knew this boy is against
English, hummmm i have been thinking and trying to let him working on Eng with me, but... i dont know..
i guess his problem is not about Eng but family issues.

anyway.. yea..
then i bought a bag! =) MY 1st bag from GUESS. ^^ ho ho ho~
finally i can get it.. i have been trying ot save money for it, so it took me ard 3 months, then i bought
a bag heehee. hummmmm it's expensive for me, but this is one of my mile stone !
hahahaha funny right?! but true that i earn money and save money and buy my 1st GUESS bag,
BEFORE 22. heehee... quite nice! ;P i'm glad that i can do this at least haha.


i miss lots of ppl... i got lots of thinking... i guess i have cooled down alot already.
maybe i'm just fine that i am more peaceful now. i dont know if it is good or bad,
i just know, these are the choices i barely have, that's to stay in peace.

All i wanna do is find the way back into love...
i think i am learning to love myself, to respect myself, and live my life.
=) i have been through alot already, Cas, you should be proud of yourself.


Hugh Grant - Way Back Into Love lyrics

[Verse 1]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.
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then... yea... got another song in my head..
謝安琪 - 3/8

一朝驚醒已在目前 怎麼走了這麼遠
one morning, i woke up and found... i have walked through so many things, i have walked so far.
屈指一算突然發現 很多好戲已上演
i counted the days and found, there are so many great things happened.

由這裡 行過去 行過去 下一區
from here, walk to there, and the next part
誠實地 無懼地 隨遇地 行過去
honestly, fearless-ly, walk to there
彈指間 第幾關 原來都走到這裡
counting with fingers, how many levels i have passed, then i found i just ve been through to here
別說出發以後習慣失去 鮮花開過掌心裡
dont tell me i would be used to lose since i step forward, i have got the bloosomes groomed in my hands.

把握青春最後十年 珍惜中午的光線
treasure the last 10 young years, treasure the sun light at noon
很多支票未曾兌現 只因長大了看穿
there are many things couldnt come true coz i have already known by sight
成名得獎一概不算 不可更改的最佳路線
reputation, rewards, all are nothing, coz they cant block my best way in life
何謂幸福秒秒在變
why fortune changes in every second
但我高興繼續漫遊於這裡 寫好這刻這一句
but i m glad that i could keep going, and i could write well at this moment
掌握青春經歷老死中間不免有唏噓
catch the energy in young, experience the years, there must be some hard time

行過去 行過去 行過去 下一區
walk to there, go there, go there, the next part
華麗地 懷舊地 前衛地 行過去
grogerously, heavily, proudly, walk to there
路彎彎 共深山 由無知走到這裡
cocky road, hided in hills, from innocent to here
但我高興繼續漫遊多幾歲
i'm glaad to carry on for a few more years

由這裡 行過去 行過去 下一區
from here, to there, keep walking, to the next
成熟地 緩慢地 回味地 行過去
maturely, slowly, smily, walk to there
彈指間 又一關 誰要劃時代創舉
flicking fingers, one more stop, who is gonna make the next big creation
只想懂得慶賀目前 不早不晚的一歲
just wanna toss for the present, not too early not too late
平常心境中探取 沿路的風裡..
be content, deep from my heart, in the air of my way
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Castor...
i guess... you do know why and what happened..
when you slowed down, then you just got it.

dont close your eyes, be brave, keep walking..
you should be proud of yourself..

take the responsiblities for yourself in every ways.
you are not dependent, you dont have to be.
you just need to be brave, be true to say, dont be afraid.
coz this is what has been hidden up inside you.

you know how beautiful you are, how great you could be, how happy smily face you have.
how true happiness you could have.. how lovely you would be..
how could you rieun your life like that?

where is yourself, what are you values, fears and need..
didnt you just hide them up before?
i guess.. it's time to bring them back, with yourslef, by yourself.

>>October 5, 2007 at 5:56:35 PM GMT+8