2008 年 5 月 30 日 星期五 【晴】

hi.

hummmmmmm....... there were days i wasnt able to use the internet.
but now i'm on again. and... i just wanna keep all the secret notes on my diary book.

so.. just some brief things i wanna write it here is that...
i went to the Kwantlen University tody which was good.. i wasnt very comfortable as first as in...
i dont really socialize with ppl, it's like...... they seem all come as a group or at least with friends..
i was the only 1 or a few among the a bunch of them that's alone..
and... i'm like.. the only a few of the Asians.. and actually... i was visting, i wasnt presenting..
so.. it made it a bit weird. but the interesting part is... i saw some pretty well done reseaches, and
some of them just doesnt reach the high standard. there were many of them presenting in the poster
sessions.. and i visited some interesting topics there, gotta talk with them a bit to see how they did
the research, where the concept is from, what kind of problems or diff they found... what insights
they got from the process.. and any further plan to continoue on the research... so much stuffs to
get touch on.. it was brillient. and then... yea... the most uncomfortable time was the lunch break..
i was alone at my session.. and then.... ppl came sitting.. but i wasnt very sociable.. and.. it's like...
most of them are the presentors as well.. so... it's kind of weird when i introduced myself...
they dont really understand what i was talking about.. and it's the most huge thing i find in this conference
which... is VERY INTERESTING... that.... the Psych programme in Canada is very similar to the States,
but YET DIFFERENT. well... i gotta say...... from what i see today... Canadian students are more
creative to try ways out to do the research... as in... starting from the begining... it's like....
the concept and topics. i saw some great topics, i saw some interesting topics.. but then... the
methods they use to conduct data and sampling... something in details... i think.. the US style is more
strict on that... in another way saying... US style has the more strict process to follow?
and... i found that... the students tend to use lots of recent examples or studies as their background
or reasoning to support their belief and hypothesis.. but... in the US style, well at least i wasnt really
taught in this way... i think... we base on more like... historical bases? like.. the theories since so long
time ago.. maybe plus some new study as the "side dish". so... it's just the different way to do the
research paper. i kindda talk with a student in the lunch break.. and.. i asked whether they are using
the textbooks from Canada or from the States. then... she said it's Canadian books all the time..
and i remember i used to borrow a textbook from Ade to get some prepartion for my classes last year..
and end up when i went back to HK starting my first classes... i was a bit lost.. coz.. it was slightly
different from what i've read on the Canadian textbook....so yea.... it's interesting to see these little
things.. coz... it's North America anyway... but just ... different style of students, different styles of
research paper.. how ppl conduct the paper... it's interesting.
i was listening to the presentations... some of them did good job.... some of them are the good public
speaker... some of them are just so so but still a very good job. and then... the thing is.....
again... differences between Canadian style and the US style. omg.. i just... feel a bit weird as in...
i know exactly what's going on, yet still cant really tell verbally what some little differences are..
anyway.. i had a really long day.. and it was GREAT. i got bored sometimes coz.. i was sleepy and
sometimes i was just alone...

i woke ard..... 6 am... left home at 7.... got coffee before getting on bus..
crazy walking from Alderbridge bus stop to there... i was so lost. hahahaha.. and... there used to be
ways that i can walk straight ahead but not now anymore. it's crazy. the constrction is crazy. haha.

i was a bit bored in the lunch section... so i sms Cyn... she was so funny.. and yea.. actually...
i made a couple new friends through Cyn... met some new guys.... German and Chinese guys...
Cyn was joking with me... why not talk with some cute guys, you know... there are cute guys..
there really are.. esp... those presentors, some of them are doing pretty good research paper..
but ... i was there to visit and talk to ppl ABOUT PSYCHOLOGY and their research...
i dont go there to meet guys hahahaha... anyway... well i could if i want to.. and some guys are just
you know.. not too bad.. one or two were kindda interested ... but..... at the moment now... i dont
really want to complicate myself more. just too much to handel.

the last session was some talk... it was really great... i appreciate that a lot.. coz... it was so insightful..
and at the question time.. i asked one question... hey! i was proud of myself on that! hahaha..
so... yea.... he mentioned about self awareness... so i was making it further since it seems like some
important mesg to the others too... so i asked if he would suggest any ways for us to increase self-
awareness... coz.. yea.. there were actually many many things he has covered.. but i'm more
interested in this one.. coz.... i think some ppl are just high monitor but low in self-awareness.. it's like..
"you dont even know..." in that sorts of sense. then.. he mentioned the critical thinking training, starting
from the education and with the teacher training, something like that.. i took notes on his speech though.
it was just very insightful.

anyway.. i'm going ot sleep..........
i cried last night.... and.... i met up Cyn and the new friends...
then today got a really long day... i got Starbucks this morning, and brew coffee again in break time.
then... after home,.... got dinner.... haha i had a good time at Joy's house though... then... got lots of
funny chat.. then... back to home, and chatting with Lisa and Denis. the cats are so so nice.. soooo
friendly. i love them. yes.. i moved out. i am staying with Lisa and Denis now.
tmr.. we would go out together.. Sunny Sunday tmr. YAY~ outting!

>>June 1, 2008 at 10:00:39 AM GMT+8

2008 年 5 月 22 日 星期四 【晴】

hello..

today is.... Thursday.. 1 week is gone.

in this week. i havent done so much things..
basically, i just rest alot.. hanging ard and staying at home.
i finally got my phone number here, and then i have called Kiana and Cynthia.
i would call granny and aunties tonight..

since i have more time here now, i could spend more time to take a rest, and start thinking of my future.
hummm.. as in... what i would like to do when i'm back to hk, and then what about the school, and my
job, things like that.

before i come here, i was really looking forward to seeing honey and Vancouver again.
i was waiting to eat my Tim Horton's doughnuts, and then i would love to go back to my fav resturants
for the korean and japanese food. i will love to go back to Robson Street to do some shopping or
maybe... just hanging ard like i used to be with Alesja. having bubble tea or dessert.. hanging ard with
friends.. doing silly things together.. dancing in the public, reading in the bookstore.. it was so much
fun. so.. i was always looking forward to coming back here, to have my vacation. it doesnt have to be
a long vacation but... i made it really long this time.. and.. it's a bit too long. when i'm back... i see so
many changes in the city... it's like... everything is so familiar but yet.... different. and then....
my feelings are kind of changed. and i dont know why.. it's like... everyone was so excited for me to
come back here... but for myself.. when i come back, i dont find things as exciting. maybe i'm getting
a little bit older now. well.. maybe when i can meet my friends, i would be so excited again? i dont know.

youth... what is youth ? what am i supposed to do in my young age?
when i was in HK.. i always think... i have been quite in advance compared to the same age girls..
so... my life is like... always busy and tiring... rushing to here and there doing diff things at a time..
sleep less, stressed out... stuffs like that.. till... i have done all my courses and only working part time
at Elchards after March. then i started to have more time on my own, started to rest more and hang
out with frineds more often.. it's like... i was kindda happy for that but wait a min... i kindda got lazy.
and i started to think more besides study and work.. like.. my life.. ?
i mean... yea.. i have been seeing my consellor for ard 6 months since last summer.. and then...
i really got lots of changes inside myself.. as in.... i dont know.. i cant deny on the progress of my
personal growth. then.... eventually..... after so much struggles, i am back to Canada again.
and here i can see so many changes in every ways too.. i should be glad for that, coz... everyone
and everything is moving on everyday, and seems like... everyone is fine.

i talked on phone with Kiana for almost 3 hrs long.. sooo long.. and i was glad that we are back into
contact.. i was kindda guessing if she has changeg her phone number actually. but luckily ha..
we just catch up alot.. and we plan to meet up soon. and then i called Cynthia as well. she was just
after work. we could meet up soon i guess. and then.. i dont know.. i would call granny, aunties,
Lisa and Joy tonight.. oh yea.. i gotta call Dr. Dastur to see what i should do for the conference.
then... yea..

i was in the library down town yesterday... to search for some psychology books.. i didnt find many..
not like in HK... in HK... there are just tonz of books more than enough.. so.. i hardly found one.. and
i was studying in that.. actually like doing revision. it was about Human Growth in Lifespan perspective.
hummmmm yea.. talking about the psychological, cognitive, and physical changes in different life stages,
as in seeing life as a whole with the progressing stages.. i'm interested in developmental psychology
and educational psychology.. of course conselling psychology is really great too.. so... yea... wanna
study and get ready for my research paper. so.. yea.... Capella suggested me to go to UBC library..
but then.. i dont have their student id, so i couldnt bring books out from there right? anyway... yea..
i might go there one day... coz.. i gotta go have a look for Hilary. when she comes to Van.. i need to
be there for her for everything.. so.. it's better that i could have some ideas what there is like.

so yea.... today the sky is getting a bit more blue.. i m thinking to take a walk later..
but then i know that honey is really busy.. and then... we got a talk last night.
i hope everything would be fine. i just dont want to disclose too much here. it's been strange though..
i mean.. like... i have no ideas why sometimes i got so many points rasing everyday here.. only sometimes.
like.. i dont know.. sometimes i dont have much, sometimes just a lot. and then it's like.. really not much
ppl have the passwords, really less than 10 ppl.. some of them dont even come.. so.. i really dont know.
maybe some ppl have already got my password but i dont even know.. or... like... i dont even know
who isnt my friend but still got my access, which some of my close friends dont even have.

just now.. i saw the water the sprinkle outside. i watched for a while.. it looks so beautiful and funny.
ha.. i saw honey running away from it. hahahaha..

anyway... yesterday at the library.. some man came talking with me.. his line was catchy..
he walked by and asked.. " are you con ni ji wa?" then i was shocked.. i told him no.. i'm from HK.
then he said " ni hao ma" i told him.. hummm no.. that's mandarin. hahahaha.. then i said it should be
"neh ho ma" then he started chatting with me.. he gave me his number and asked for mine.. he wanted
to buy me coffee.. i refused.. i said i need to study a bit more. then he said there would be some
musical performance this Fri night. well.. nice to meet him.. but i dont think i would really go out with him.

and then... at Rogers.. the saleman thought i was Japanese too. then i wonder if i do look like Japanese?
i am really pure Cantonese. my mom and dad are pure Cantonese Chinese.

okay.. i wanna take a walk later.. and then... i wanna cook tonight =)

>>May 22, 2008 at 9:39:48 PM GMT+8

2008 年 5 月 19 日 星期一 【晴】

hi.

Castor is in Van now..
i'm doing fine so far... just rest alot alot.. actually... today is my... 4th day.
this time i got jetlag.. omg.. the last 3 times i came over Van didnt really have jetlag.. maybe a bit but not
serious at all. this time.. i just kept falling asleep in the past few days.. i guess coz i arrived Van at the
morning time.. and it's not like afternoon.. so i got a really long day before the sleep time.. but the thing
is i was soooooo tired and i lost sleep before i came over.. so it's like... i got some sorts of sleep debt,
and then i couldnt rest on the flight. then the flight was like an hr earlier.. and i was really tired.
and i couldnt sleep at all.. so.. yea... having short sleep..

then.. i havent got my own phone card yet.. and i just got connected to the internet yesterday..
honey helped checking then i can finally go on line now, yay.
so.. i just left many ppl mesgs. haha.. dont want them to worry for me.. and i also e-mail Miki..
but i dont get her reply. dont know how's everyone doing at home..
then.. i dont know... probably i would need to start doing my work and stuffs here.. get to the telephone
company and get my phone card, then also.... need to go to the library actually.. gotta start the prep
for my coming research, and... i think i should e-mail Dr.Dastur about the conference on the end of this
month. then.. yea...

i have fun here.. not much fun.. still alright. honey's busy.. then... i havent got my phone card.. so..
i havent called Cyn and other friends and granny.. and then.. i dont know.. like what i have expected,
i am a bit bored sometimes, but... it's not like the end of the world. i got my own lap top this time..
and i watch a lot tv... then i chatted with Shan last night. hahaha.. nice to get in touch with her =)

well.. yea.. yesterday when i woke up at 5 sth am... i felt like i was so lack of sugar.. so.. i ate some
chocolate and drink plenty of water.. then i lay in bed again.. omg.. coz the night before i only had some
energy bar for lunch.. then one ferreo roucher chocolate in the evening for dinner. so... yea...
then.. i just wait for honey wake up.. and go get McDonald's breakfast. ha...
i told Shan about these.. than she was laughing and said like.. why i ate only snack always.
then i told her that not really but just... yea.. anyway hahah i admit. coz i guess in HK.. i always have
regular meals.. it's good.. but then... you know.. sometimes it's like.. when i wanna eat i would eat..
when i dont wanna eat much i would still need to eat lots. like.. actually dinner time at home was late.
and when i got off from work, i was always so hungry.. so i would eat snack.. but then when dinner
is prepared, i am not hungry anymore. it's so easy to get fat. hummm but anyway.. i miss mom.
i miss her food. and then i'm thinking ... maybe i should cook dinner tonight or tomorrow..

here i would try to come often.. but i would have another small diary book with me...
so.. yea.. dont wanna double my words.. see what some diff things i can do with both diary =)

>>May 19, 2008 at 11:44:03 PM GMT+8

2008 年 5 月 15 日 星期四 【晴】

hummmm..

i'm very sleepy..

today... was my last day at work.. and.. i was sick..
however.. having lesson with my student Alex made me happiest at work.
he's so sweet. ha.. alright...

so.. i'm really leaving tomorrow.. taking the AC 8 flgiht.. departing at 12 45pm..
arriving on the 16th Vancouver time at 10 am.

i'm going to sleep a bit... a few hrs.. then.... gotta say bye to home for 2 months and heading to the HKG airport.

see ya there, Castor..
safe trip.

>>May 15, 2008 at 8:36:30 PM GMT+8

2008 年 5 月 14 日 星期三 【晴】

i'm very sick and i'm trapped in the office now.
i'm angry.

i dont know why.. i just couldnt sleep well.. kept waking.. stomachache and headache..
then.. i just need to wake up earlier today.. went to the post office before coming back to the office.

i'm so angry.. coz Ella blamed me losing her business registration, that piece of paper..
i didnt lost it, so stupid. long time ago i ve reminded her to pay that fee and correct the mistakes on her
form, and she didnt do anything afterward. i'm not the employer, why i would be responsible for
such things? so stupid. today is the deadline and she blamed me didnt get those done. where was
her signature then? so stupid. she didnt even check if the form was ready. i was so angry.
if you gotta renew the business registration, you gotta fill in the form, sign your name, pay the fee,
then send back to the Gov department. if you didnt sign it, you didnt give me the money to pay for you,
why would you suppose all things got done already? i dont understand her, pissing me off.

when i'm back.. i saw her memo on the log book, then i just... i was kind of pissed off.. dont know if it's
coz i'm very sick or what.. 2 pages and half.... like.. you dont usually check every students why
they didnt show up if they do called earlier before the lesson. if i gotta call everyone in the same case,
then i would be on phone in every 1 hr, and it's fucking irretating. does it matter if tehy're sick or busy
at school that they cant make it? it's still the same that they cant come! and wether you could offer the
make up class or just let the students skip one lesson, right? why the hell we would need to know
if the students got headache or a cold or cough? i'm not the doctor. if the students dont show up and
didnt call then i would definitely call and see if everything's ok. but now it's just not that necessary.

sometimes i'm irretated coz i dont wanna keep swtiching studnets into the schedule we want them to
be. it's like... at first, i explaint to the paretns about the schedule we could offer, and it wasnt easy to
start a new class, gotta be the right timing with the right teacher, and also matching her schedule.
the students couldnt join the exsiting lesson there are some reasons, and we knew that already, and
that's why we arranged the new class time for them. and now... after only 2 lessons? you are so
hurry to put them into the other class.. what the parents would think? what the teacher would think?
it's not just about you, employer.

it's like i dont know what she's thinking about.. she left me the students' exam paper and want me to
mark them. no problems. i have marked 80% already. and 10 % that i was marking on them coz there
was 1 part i wasnt sure if the answer was correct or not. and yesterday was so busy like hell i didnt
finish them but it was already 8 20 pm. i just wanted to go home. i'm sure you're not giving the paper
back to them within 1 week, then why do you need to hurry me to finish them? coz i'm leaving?
so stupid like.. the otehr 10% was just finished last night right before i left the office. what the hell..
i'm so angry.. like.. everything got the proceedure alright? and it's not like if you wanna do this then
it would be right done in the next few secs.

i'm very sick.. i just wanna go home actually. but i cant. i havent packed up, and tonight when i got home
it would be like almost 9 pm. and then tmr i would need to wake up early. i just wanna go hoem honestly.
but she left me so much work to do beside those.. sigh..

>>May 15, 2008 at 3:25:55 AM GMT+8

2008 年 5 月 13 日 星期二 【晴】

hi..

when i was home.. i always wanted freedom and my own personal space..
when i was working.. i always want to leave my work place..
when i was having every Chiense food, i d never doubted whether i would miss it or not..
coz.. in the end of the day, i know that tomorrow would be the same.. i would go to work, i wouldnt
miss any food i always eat, after work i would go home be with my family..
when everything becomes a routine, everything is just the same. i didnt think that someday i m gonna
miss that, i just wondered where i could find something different someday.

when mom made soup, i didnt really want much.. coz i didnt know that someday i wont have the same
soup.. mom asked me if i want some fruit, i usually said i was full, i didnt recognize that... without mom,
i might not even could have apple which the skin is already peeled off for me.
i always thought Leggy was always irretating me... so bossy.... but actually... it's kind of fun when
she talks to me with her silly tone. Miki is just like a baby girl.. when i was busy... i didnt talk with her
much, but actually she was always tehre for me.. if i wasnt sleeping with her in the same bedroom,
i wouldnt know she actually needed a sister to stand by her in her tough days...
these days... i see my dad happy. i actually spent more time watching tv with him in mid night..
and you know what... this time was his first time ever asked me, not through mom, asking me what i
would like to do in Canada in my trip, with smile. i was.. a bit surprised.. he d never asked me.. he only
asked mom to talk with me.. but this time.. he speaks. i know he cares about me.
my family.... my parents and my sisters love me so much.

i's so complicated for me.. coz.. i will be away from home from the office for ard 2 months..
and.. i would say bye to my life here for 2 months.

last year when i was back from Vancouver... i realized there was a big change for myself.. and..
i wasnt quite able to adjust a bit... then i started my new crazy busy life in Hong Kong..
i have witnessed so many things happened, many changes in myself and with others...
and yea i am going back to Vancouver again this year.. and.. it would.. kind of interesting to see...
what's been changed and... how's everything going now.. you know.. when i will be back to HK again,
i might be a little bit different from now.. i would be happy.. as i promised myself... i would live happily.

you know... the quake in China was really terrible and horrible..
i got friends from China.. and we seldom contact each others now.. and i wondered... how they're doing.
i'm lucky that.. i dont have relatives or close friends living in those areas affected... but... i feel very
bad for them like... it could happen in anywhere so close to me, and i wonder what i would be like if
i have lost the ppl i love the most and care the most in the world. today i still can... see my family,
eat with them have fun with them... living happily at home... but maybe you know...
humm i wanna help the ppl in China but i dont have extra money or i dont know what i can do..
i just wanna pray for them that... May God Bless them all..

like.. when everythign becomes the routine, no surprises.. everything seems so boring..
but... it's just... without a notice that i already got used to what i have and what i am.. becomes like..
the habbits... and i'm used to the love from my family and friends, with my work and study.....
it is what it is.. it's my life here, my home town, the place that i grow up...
i'm only leaving for ard 2 months, not really long, but i find that i am having some reflection...
humm i think this is just the process of getting ready for my vacation... and also getting ready to take
a break and get some changes in my life again. most importantly, to see... how much i love my family,
friends and my life in HK.

i just wanna cherrish the things and ppl i have here. it's so meaningful to me.

>>May 14, 2008 at 5:25:40 AM GMT+8

2008 年 5 月 12 日 星期一 【晴】

hummm i am soooo tired today...

i couldnt really concentrate.. but then... i tried..
i didnt drink any coffee.. coz.. mom said i shouldnt drink too much coffee..

i keep the "baby crystal" for a week more.. they do grow bigger.. and my sister Leggy keeps that too..
then slowly we find it kindda silly.. coz it would only grow bigger.. but we couldnt figure out what kind
of substance it that made of... and.. sure it's pure chemical reaction.. so... we are kindda bored with
it and dont know if it would really give birth... it's like... it's so amazing but... i wonder what to do if these
eggs would really grow too big and giving birth... then... what i'm gonna do with them? by that time...
i might have the deeper bonding with them... then i wont wanna throw them away... and you know..
they are only substance but not a real life.. so.. everything i see like the growth is not real... but...
i have my feelings with them... so... it would be really difficult for me to let go of it.

anyway... then... yea.. just tried to work..
very tired.. very very tired..

then back home resting after work..

i havent started packing.. and then... yea.... i dont know.. tmr and the day after would be busier..
then the day right after, i need to get to the airport, leaving home early morning..
oh no.. i'm not prepared well =(
and it's like... i still need some more time to get my things done here..

tomorrow... Miki would come joining the class.. and then... Shan might come over..
actually on Thurs, i hope i dont need to work but i would need to..
i just wonder if i can work one hr earlier, then finish one hr earlier.. coz.. i would be pretty tired when
i get home.. and then... yea... still need to have dinner... rest a bit then need to pack up..
hummm wont be sleeping much i guess... then... yea... i m nervous now.

Tung talked to me on MSN just now... he told me Miss MeiYi is in hospital now.. hummmm...
i will call her tomorrow... and then yea.. Cai Hui talked with me too.. so funny him... haha..
and Alesja also... nice ..

anyway... im really... going on Fri..

>>May 13, 2008 at 6:44:38 PM GMT+8

2008 年 5 月 11 日 星期日 【晴】

hi.

last night... i slept very late.. humm early in the morning... ard 5 am..
i woke up late then went to meet up my parents and aunts for dim sum...
it was okay.. i was the youngest and i was just sitting and being a good girl..
at the same time... i was listening to them talking.. they were discussing on some problems with
grandpa and some other aunts. hummm complicated.. so.. i was just listening to them and thinking.
anyway.. it was nice... i like to hang ard my parents, coz yea... i guess coz i will be away from home
for a month and half.. so... i would miss them and they will miss me much.. so yea.. it's good to sit
down and have food with them.. some family time with my 2 sisters as well..

back to Tai Po... did some shopping for dinner with mom... then walked home resting...
it's okay.. today is quite relaxing. it's also my last holiday before getting back to work and leaving HK..
tomorrow should be my day off, but then Shan needs to take a day off, so i would take over. ha..
it's okay.. =) then... sigh... i would need to carry on my jobs.. i'm a bit worried actually.. coz i dont want
things not ready before i would pass them to the others..

i hope.... i can get the designs of the poster, banner, and flyers done before i go..
then i need to prepare at least 5 weeks of worksheet for Alex... and also..... gotta get the lesson done with
Winnie on Wed.. then i would need to refill the stationaries, water, plates, cookies, air freshener oil...
make extra coppies of every note sheets, flyers, hand books, envelopes, just in case Shan might be
too busy... and then yea... need to update all the student record... hummmm... i guess i would be quite
busy and.... i would be a bit tense at work.. coz.. i dont want any mistakes.. i would like things to be
perfectly done. humm on Wed and Thurs.. i would have my students.. so... i might be a bit stressed or..
anyway.. Miki would come taking the classes with Alex.. so.. i would need to give her a demo..
let her come joing the class.. so that she would have the general idea of what to do.. oh yea... it might
be better if i could write a list or a piece of paper about what .. no... maybe not... i guess Shan would
be okay to handel diff things now.. dont worry Cas.. she's not the freshman anymore, right? she will
be fine.

yesterday and last night i saw honey on line... chatting with him... i saw his worries. i dont want him to
worry too much, coz... it's not like... i'm running out of the reality... but just ... it takes time to do what
we should do.. i do have my concern too.. and i usually have the tendency to overwhelm myself..
i was not saying good things for God sake.. but... i want him to understand that i'll be there with him
to try out with him. i might be afraid but i would place my trust on him..



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>>May 12, 2008 at 5:02:38 PM GMT+8

2008 年 5 月 11 日 星期日 【晴】

hi.

i tried to sleep more.. but i just couldnt.. i woke up.. check mails.. then go out to meet up aunt Priscilla.
i went to TST.. we had dim sum again.. hummmm it was okay..
then i went to her office to get something and we went to the Harbour City.. we had juice.. walk ard..
i bought a book. then... nothing much..

i went home resting after that.. i was very tired.. then i watched "The Mummy 2" with my family..
it is one of my fav movies. ha. i like it still. then had dinner.. tv... then playing UNO with my sisters again.
hahaha.. it was okay...

today is the mother's day... so many ppl outside.. i guess some ppl might think that Priscilla is my mom..
ha.. never mind.. she wanted to buy me dinner, but i refused then came home earlier for my mom.

i'm getting a bit nervous now.. i mean for everything... i havent finished my jobs at work..
i havent started packing, i havent done so many things.. it's like i'm not ready to leave HK yet.

>>May 11, 2008 at 6:05:03 PM GMT+8

2008 年 5 月 10 日 星期六 【晴】

YAY! my honey is back!

hummmm i was sick.. so i went to bed early.. but then... my stomach was so hurt..
i woke up ard 4am... i tired to sleep but i couldnt sleep again.. then i just took a pill.. but i wanted to vomit...
so terrible.. then. i hardly slept again... i slept... then ... yea when i woke up, it was still pain..
then... i was just one hr late to work.

when i went back, it was quite busy there.. then i came on line and i saw honey..
hee he's back =) and yeahhhhh he's coming to pick me up ^^ hee.
thanks God. thanks honey.
i was a bit worried.. coz... i didnt really get his mail.. anyway =) now it should be okay.

today was okay at work.. actually took many pics.. preparing for the promotion and summer adv.
May asked me why not take a sick leave... hummmm i told her i was okay after taken extra pill.
actually today is the busiest day in a week, and my last Sat shift before vacation.. so.. i think i should
come to work, right?

so yea.... aunt Ching came to Tai Po today.. so after work.. i left on time... then join my parents to shop
for dinner, then back home with aunt Ching. we had fun tonight.. then we also watched tv together..
ha.. we got lots of Ferrero Rochers at home now. yummy.

last night when i couldnt sleep... i thought of lots of things..
like.... i have been lonely and busy... and.. yea... not very happy.. but then... i still have my friends and
my family to get around with.. i got work to do, i got school.. so... i keep moving on my days with diff
things and ppl.. it was okay, even though the days are tough... when i go over to visit honey... maybe
i would be bored or i would miss my family and work and friends.. it's like... i have a life here that i have
been living hard, working hard... interacting with others.. so i am kindda used to my schedule and
habbits to do in HK. it's like the style of living and the pattern as well. it would be nice to get away from
town, esp to visit honey. it's like... finally one year is gone and we can get together again..
how wonderful it is for me.. and it's the good thing thing that we can see each others and see how
our lives doing, right? so yea... it's just a little bit complicated for me to switch my role a bit.
i have planned some sorts of things i need to do in Van... like the studying, one conference with diff
undergraduates about psych, visiting teachers, aunts, granny, friends.. so.. it should be okay..
esp.. i would like to try being a nice, hot, beautiful, responsible girlfriend. hahaha... so... yea..
be there for my honey anyway =)

oh.. tomorrow is the Mother's Day...
i got mom a flower. it's for free though.. but mom doesnt mind.. she's not so into flowers or anything
like that anymore, except on the anniversary day with dad, or her bday.. so.. ha.. alright..
but then aunt Priscilla wanna meet me for lunch and dinner.. i guess coz Terrence is in Van.. then
her girlfriend is just back to Van.. so ... no one celebrates with her. i dont mind to meet her tomorrow..
on Monday... mom and me will visit grandpa.. and have dim sum with him, auntie Kitty and Sheila..
ha. i like the relaxing days with my family.. coz.. it's just like... when i'm home or being ard my family..
i could just be their kids again.. you know.. i'm 21 going to be 22.. but i feel like i'm still like some 14 or
15 girls or maybe younger. coz i usually call home when i'm too bored at work.. then mom would
chat with me.. then i would defintely ask the same question everytime.. " what will we have for dinner tonight?"
haha.. i would ask with the kiddish tone hahahaha.. then mom would tell me.. and then when i go to
the market with her.. she would ask me what i wanna eat tonight.. then usually she would cook
what i like to eat. my mom is just a good cook. i d never doubt on anything that she cooked.
i like everything that she made. and.. you know what.. when i eat fruit.. mom peel the skin for me.
hahaha.. esp the apples. if she isnt free to peel the skin, i would eat with skin.. then she would say
why i dont know how to peel the skin and i shouldnt eat that skin. i would say... no.. i know how to do
it but just not with the knife. then she would say... "your kids in future wont have apple from you then."
i said no. i used to do it lots when i was in Canada. hahaha then mom would say " i dont think so."
hahahaha.. but truely.. when i was in Van, i did that by myself everytime.. with some seical cutter.
=) anyway.. i think i would miss home lots.. i would miss my friends, my students, and my work...
definitely.

but now.. i'm more concern on... the jobs i should finish before leaving..
and i m a bit nervous about everything of the trip =) hee.
i miss my honey so badly.. and i would see him soon.

>>May 10, 2008 at 5:58:11 PM GMT+8