2009 年 1 月 10 日 星期六 【晴】

hi.

i finally finished my presentation at school. it was okay.
i was 40 mins late actually.. but they waited for me. so.. yea.. ha.. lucky.
the printer didnt work well, so i took a taxi to the office for hte print out then rushed to school.
the taxi driver was so nice. then yea. i didnt prepare well for the presentation. just a rough job.
but it's ok i think. it was smooth and didnt over run. basically i just present what i did with this reseach,
how i did it, why i did it, problems i faced, solution i have used, then the result, interpertation and blah blah.
then yea.. i saw the others. they were okay too.. so.. i dont know hope i will be okay.

then back home was really tired and sleepy.. replied the e-mails.. update with Shan.. then wrote an
e-mail to honey then i already falling asleep.

today woke up late coz i over slept... then rushed to work. today is chilly outside.. only 7 c.
then yea... worked and thinking if James really gonna buy me flowers. then i went out for lunch.
Ella's back to work officially.. today was fine. then yea just more work to do.. and lots of stuffs to
follow up coz i wasnt here the last daysss. so yea.. then lunch alone.. lonely.. then back to the office.
i saw Ella sitting right at the desk.. and flowers are on the desk too. i was like WHAT? he really bought
me flowers! omg. that's so sweet. and the flowers are so beautiful. i dont know the name of the
flowers.. but yea they are orange, purple, and white. and to be honest, it's my first time to get flowers
from guy. so i was nervous and surprised of course. then Ella was so happy.. like she was like excited
about me getting flowers from James. she is so happy, just like SO HAPPY. i was like more nervous.
Carole also knows about the flowers.. she is happy too. it's like.. it's sweet. yes it's sweet. but the
students also know that too. i'm a bit embarassed.. i was blushed. then... i didnt go into the classrooms
untill i got all my stuffs done and ready.. then i didnt really wanna go in but i had to. coz at least to say
thank you, right? so i went into the classroom and say thanks this and that. humm it's ok. he is just so nice.

then yea.. i bought egg tarts for everyone. first day to work with Ella since she's back to work.
then also for my research done as well. so.. yea.. just bought egg tarts.
so they kindda talk about how sweet and ncie James is.. and how nice the flowers are.. yes i know all
these... and then it's like they like James a lot. i know he's a nice guy. i really think he is one of the
nicest person i have met. but.. i am not single, what can i do? then.. they said like.. i should give this
guy a chance or something.. but the thing is.. i'm with stephen. then Ella said he's not in HK, and he
doesnt treat me well. then Carole asked if stephen ever sent me anything.. how he treated me, if he is
a nice person.. if he really loved me.. so many comparison. yes. i know all these answers too.

then.. after work.. i gotta carry those flowers home.. that's nice.. if you gt buddies ard. or it's my bad
to think too much. coz.. if i buy someone flowers, i'm happy to carry them ard. but now i got the flowers
from someone else but not my boyfriend.. and in fact my boyfrined had never sent me flowers. so..
yea.. ppl started asking when they saw me. the cleaning lady.. then i passed by Mendy's store.. so..
yea....... it's kindda odd.. coz i have to stopped and explaint. then i went to the body shop to buy some
lotion, make up stuffs.. then the sales girls asked about that too.. i know them, they are nice ppl.. but
still it's just... a bit odd for me. i'm shy.

so yea.. i bought the white musk hand cream, then the eye concela.. i got big dark cycle since i havent
any nice sleep in weeksss. then also bought the vtamin e intense cream. i just need that so much.
my skin is so dry.. then also bought the eye shadow patel. it's sooooo cheap. it's 30%off.. and the
thing is.. this is like 5 colours in 1 box! and it looks nice and have mirror as well. it's just NICE. and nice
colour. though some of them are very similar with the oens i have... but they are all different. so yes.
and it's cheap. really cheap. the quality is good too. it's like.. i can only get 1 eye shadow from MAC
with the price i had today with The Body Shop. it's just great.

back home... we had hot pot tonight. surprise. it's like a surprise dinner for me. haha. nice..
then my parents saw the flowers... they smiled. they are happy. then mom started asking more..
then i was like it's nothing much actually. i just dont want questions. coz.. they are gonna ask about
Stephen too. so what am i gonna say? oh yea Stephen doesnt send me flowers coz i dont like flowers?
no. i love flowers, but he isnt a flower person or anyone that would give me flowers. if i say so..
what will they think? sigh. it's jus kindda... embarassed.

i told stephen about it too.. i dont know.. he seems dont care.. i dont know.
i do miss him and love him. but all of the sudden, there's such a nice guy being so sweet and nice to
me that i have never met before. if you make comparison there's nothing i can say. they are just too
different. i love stephen, but not all about him. no one is perfect.. but.. i dont know.. just wanna wait
and see... James probably doesnt have anything for me actually. dont wanna make those silly thought.

i will meet San for dinner next Mon... then i dontk now if Karen is gonna meet me tomorrow. ha.
she is back. i miss her alot. =)

but yea.. i miss my bf.. but there's such a mr. nice or mr. right being so nice and sweet to me. that's
surprising me.. and then i dont know what stephen is thinking.. if he minds, if he cares.. if he is upset..
or if he is fine with that. why would he be fine with it anyway? i wont be fine if there's other girls
ard him being so nice to him. well i will be okay, dont wanna get too jealous but definitely dont find it
well or fine at all.

okay.. i need to go to bed... too tired.. and i want my happy time in bed.
if honey is here.. would that be better? if he buys me flowers too.. then.. what would i feel? i wonder
how it is like..

>>January 10, 2009 at 5:52:18 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 8 日 星期四 【晴】

hey there.

yesterday was the very tiring day.. but after it's done, i kindda miss the time at that exhibition.
the ppl are nice, this and that.. i did have a good time there actually. but i'm not working in that company.
and i'm too busy with my own stuffs, i didnt pay 100% efforts at the exhibition actually.. which is quite
sad, coz.. i tend to try make everything perfect. so.. hum.

i talked with honey for awhile... i miss him sooo much... also told him abit about James. James wanted
to buy me flowers, this and that. humm i'll write more on this later.

i'm just ... sooo tired... and i need to rush wrapping up the paper, then make graphs and powerpoint.
i need strong coffee and breakfast.. i cant wake up.
the thing is... i felt like faint.. it's like.. i dont know if i'm that tired to fall asleep without realizing it or i just
fainted. its weird.

presentation starts at 7 tonight, gotta leave home before 5.

>>January 9, 2009 at 2:24:13 AM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 6 日 星期二 【晴】

hi..

i'm just exhausted.
i got the same amount of sleep last night.. then rushed to go.
i took train and ferry today. it was a good start in the morning, i also had brakfast on the way.
work was sorts of busy, but not too busy. i got more chances to chat with the staffs there.
some of them are from the China office, some are local. then also met lots of guests or clients,
some of them are Janpanese, European, and more Eygeptian, Canadian, Chinese, Singaporean, Malay..
so it was quite okay actually.. then had lunch with one of the staffs.. got more conversation and stuff.
it was fun actually.. meeting lots of new business ppl from different places.. interesting.
then also got to talk to the Chinese ppl who worked in mainland.. talk about politics, i quite like it.
but then again, dressing up, make up, heels, all about the image.. and then the talk, the attitude, stuffs
like that are just.. so business like. then.. my job is kinda different from them.. i was there as the
promoter or something.. then.. yea.. they are the managers or senior staffs.. so.. for me, it's like the
lesson and internship. saw lots of new things that i have never seen or heard. they are very nice to
me, and yea it was a good time though i felt like half dead, i still gotta walk like the charming woman
there somehow. our booth is like one of the biggest company there, and we only deal with clients
who have made appointment with us, no walk in guests. unless we can arrange in short. it's just
the marketing skills i guess. anyway.. yea.. working in the big company is totally different. today is
okay. i like it. but the worst part is.. one of the appointment didnt show up and i had waited for 45 mins.
i was so exhausted actually.

back home fell asleep. i was sleeping so dead on train as well. it's crazy.
then.. yea.. i fell asleep couldnt waake up for dinner but still got up.
now i gotta finish my paper. i'm writing the conclusion now.. still figuring how to do the graphs.
i wanna buy Shan dinner or sth.. she has been helping me alot.. really wanna thank her.
James is being nice to me.. he's sweet but it makes me a bit afraid.

anyway.. i miss my honey so bad.

>>January 7, 2009 at 4:02:52 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 5 日 星期一 【晴】

i'm stressed and... worried.

same as before, i had 1 hr sleep last night, then.. got up.. then worked on the paper again before
heading to Wan Chai this morning. humm made breakfast and coffee. it was okay today.. but when i
am facing my paper, it's not okay. it's not okay. i'm still writing it. i find it very terrible actually.

i guess i'm just not that strong yea? what doesnt kill you would only make you stronger..
do i have to be that strong?

anyway.. today just met more ppl from different places. i was outside the booth sometimes this afternoon.
got chances to greet different ppl as well. i found this company is kindda cocky, as in.. well... i might
feel offensed if i 'm one of those buyer. yea it's business but there're other companies too. i dont know.
maybe it's just that person isnt very nice? not my business.

after done at work, i just took ferry back to TST from Wan Chai and took train to home.. nice view.
tired.. took 2 hrs nap as well.. watched tv just now. just stressed.

good to see honey on line even though not much chances to talk.
hummm i'm quite lonely actually.. though there's no place or time for those lonely feelings.
it sucks.

>>January 6, 2009 at 4:40:57 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 4 日 星期日 【晴】

hey..

last night i just slept at 4 sth.. got up at 5 sth... 1 hr sleep.. SUPER TIRED.
i was a bit stressed... dressing up and make up and made breakfast and coffee.. then packing and
left home ard 6 30. got into the taxi and.. went to the hotel in new world center TST with the other ppl.
then... hummm it was okay.. i was preparing it in the taxi.. kindda sick coz the driver drove too fast..
then.. had my strong coffee. i wasnt too nervous, i guess coz i had the experience with the grad speech.
thanks honey.. then.. yea.. the presentation with the disney ppl from US, UK, and south america.. there
were 20 - 30 ppl today.. then .. it was okay actually.. we stayed for 2 hrs sth.. also had the tea and
coffee section.. then we headed to the conference and exihibition center in wan chai.. by taxi too..
so.. big company with the big allowance on transportation and resources i think. the company paid for
my lunch set there. and it was actually cool. then yea.. went to the booth.. it was nice set up. then..
also do lots of presentations, meeting with different big clients from different places from Europe, US,
TaiWan, UK, India, Pakistan, Eygept.. the buyers there are most white ppl... they are from different companies..
and i just noticed how big this exhibition is actually... so.. yea.. it was ok but i was very tired and
sleepy. just tried so hard to stay awake and stuffs.. then at the end i just bought myself a lovely hot
chocolate from pacific coffee company.. but it's not as nice as the one form Blenz. Blenz is still the best.
i miss my honey so much..

i took ferry to TST from Wan Chai. it was so beautiful.. especailly the sky. it just reminded me of Van.
sigh. but i will be there soon. probably in Spring, ard April or May i think. the lady told me about the
job vancacy again. hummmmmm.

anyway.. either way that honey moves to HK or i will move to Van, or... we break up.. there's actually
not much chances that i will have my career path in HK for a really long time. if i do stay in HK to have
my career, then i might be very sucessful oneday, maybe not taking a really long time too.. but... like
what i said... either way honey is coming or i m moving. so it could be a big waste of the chances i have
here. coz i'm sure not much fresh grad are gonna be hired before really graduated this year. i dont
know, especially this is the internation company. but... what about my honey? i cant leave him being
alone over there by himself for that long, and i cant wait to be there with him as well. so..

Jame is very sweet. he asked if i would be embarassed if he brought me flowers on Sat. i was like...
impressed, coz i do love flowers and none of my ex or honey had ever given me flowers. how nice
James is.. and he's just really sweet. i'm thinking if he is just a friend or.. maybe he might want more.
i dont know... sigh. i think i should talk with honey about this soon.

ok.. i'm gonna start working on my research for awhile then i need to sleep.

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hummmm 4 am now... after another 2 cups of coffee, now i'm so awake but.. if i am not sleeping
now then i would have the super tiring day tomorrow again, i need to get up at 5 sth or 6 sth cant
remember, shit.

still working on the paper. so much stuff to write. i really wanna postpond it. is there any way i can
do that and still keep the chances of getting an A ? hahah.. sigh.. SIGH.

i miss my honey lots. dont know how he's doing.

>>January 5, 2009 at 8:07:38 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 3 日 星期六 【晴】

hello.

i knew i wasnt able to wake up this morning, and i did get up ard 2 pm afternoon. haha.
humm yea.. i slept at 7am i guess. so yea.

then i came on line checking mails and doing my research.. hummmm.. then made sandwiches for lunch.
i worked on the paper till..... ard 5.. i took a walk. i just need a walk.. need to breath.. then i walked to
Tai Po center, did some shopping for snack and some stationaries... and some egg tarts too. just really
wanna eat for a long time, but never really went into that bakery. then back home working again.

the thing is......... im writing the dicussion section now, it's the 10th page.. i expected myself writing
at least 2 pages or more in this part.. coz.. i have done lots of different calculatoin for different things.
so yea.. if i have enough time i should just construct the better paper.. but now i just gotta do it as fast
as i can. coz it's due to Fri, and i wouldnt really have time these days till Fri, which is totally out of
control for me. so yea.. definitely stressing out right now.. just trying to stay calm and using my will
power to make it work this time. i just know at this moment i cant really step back or back off, i just
gotta give out the best, be confident, and just do the best as i can. i gotta belive in myself i guess...
Alesja has been always with me on line.. we talk once awhile coz we are both busy working hard..
then James also told me he has faith in me, Shan said i would be fine... Karen Choo wished me all the
best.. honey has been here for me since 2 years 4 months ago.. and he believes in me.
i pray.... i do pray.. and i should know that i can do that. i shouldnt and i cant panic now. i should belive in myself.

i m gonna study abit for tomorrow, then will be going to bed. i just gotta stay calm and be confident.
i can do that, because i wont be alone.

for my paper.. i still have to finish the discussion section, ard 2- 3 more pages.. then i need to do the
reference page and the graphs or tables. i hate using Excel. then editing and editing. then on Fri...
i'm gonna buy myself a nice breakfast, then working on the presentation for my research. Cas.. this is
it, you cant back off. you gotta be the toughest girl this week. suck it up. you're gonna make it. you will.

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now it's 3 53 am.
i'm supposed to wake up at 5 15 am... should i go to bed? for 1 hr? i probably cant wake up if i go to
bed now. i find things very stressful for me now. i just wonder why cant life be easier...
i just wanna scream that I AM FUCKING STRESSED! that would be fun if i do it to the hills. i'm just kidding.

i got the post from Alesja. she made a book for me. she's so sweet... how come i'm not happy when i
have so many good friends around.. why should i keep chasing some sorts of challenges that is torturing
myself, making no fun in my life. i am supposed to enojy the christmas and new year eve holidays.
but there were nothing beside stress and work load for the research and this presentation for tomorrow.
where is the fun? where is the happiness i'm supposed to have with my friends and family once a year?
they are all gone and i cant have them back. is it what i want? i dont think so.
Castor.. you probably made a very wrong mistake that.. you know how important the research paper
is and you have been working extra hard on it, and now coz of the stupid presentation tomorrow and
the 3 days after, you are risking your paper now. you might not be able to make it as nice anymore.
why do you want that money and experience while these just made you cry? it's so unwise.

but you've made the choice and you cant turn back of time.
i just want it done, i want all of them done. GONE as soon as possible. but.. i'm still running out of time
for doing everything. so... what the hell?

i'm so weak.. i shouldnt complain but i am just so weak. i'm only human...
i wish honey could be here beside me.. i just need him.

>>January 4, 2009 at 8:05:02 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 2 日 星期五 【晴】

today is actually the 4th of Jan, but the morning at 6 am.

hummm last night.. i mean on the Jan 2, i slept at 3 am? then woke up at 12.. got a call from James at
the office. thank him waking me up.. i set the alarm on my phone at 9 30.. but i slept again. so yea, it's
lucky that he called, otherwise i might get up very late.

i couldnt remember what i did last night... maybe just writing? yea i guess... too much happening at the
same time.. then yea, today.. i got up, then washed up.. had lunch then worked on my paper.. then at
the same time waiting for my honey hee. he seems very busy lately. we chatted for a short while.. he
was working, i was working as well, but i let the webcam on =) anyway yea.. that's one of the reason
why i didnt went to the office today, i rather staying home on line with honey and working on the
research. i trust Shan would be 100% okay today at work. haha. then yea.. i called back to the office
afternoon to see if everything's okay. it was kindda funny anyway. seems like they were having fun
at the office.

then i kept working on the research... sigh.. then i gott go to TST with my family to have dinner with
the Mr. Zhang and his ppl and family. i dont really like him of course. but.. no choices.. if i dont go, that
means i'm rude, coz he speficly invited our whole family but not only dad. so.. i couldnt choose not to
go.. but yea.. it was okay. i saw Hailey, haha. she is fine. she is okay. catching up with her a bit..
then yea.. pretty much like that... came home ard 11 pm.. then started working on the reseaarch again.
the dinner costs me 5 hrs away from my lap top. but it did do some work on train.. so yea..

then.. i'm still writing the result section. i'm kindda frustrated with the statistic things.. i couldnt figure
out if i have to do the SD, standard deviation, coz i really dont want to do it.. then also there are so
many symbols i should use.. but i dont know them very well. so.. sigh..... wasting time to find those..
and i still dont really get it. it's just the pain in the ass.

then i'm thinking of the schedule and the plan for tomorrow.. it sucks.. and i need to work on the
presentation for Mon as well. honey said i have to learn schedule my time better. i think so. i was just
a bit greedy to take the offer from that lady, yea? but... again, it's quite challenging and fresh to me..
i really wanna learn something new and see how others work in that kind of big event. so yea..
special chance falls from the sky, should i take it? definitely. but.. agian like what honey siad.. bad timing.

anyway.. i'm going ot bed now.. 6 15.. i wish someone is gonna call me ard 11 am or 10 30 to wake me
up. i'm sure i wont be able to get up on my own if no one is gonna ask me to get up. coz i'm just too
tired these days. i wish i could have 10 hrs sleep per day. and i do wanna exercise, go ice skating!!
i want movies, i want my holidays. so yea... after Jan 9, i would be much more free.

hummm anyway... yea.. i miss my honey. but he is the big guy, he doesnt really miss me hahaha.
no just kidding. i know he misses me too. James is being so nice too. i wonder if he is gay or not.
he seems not gay but how can it be possible for a guy to be that nice like a girl? i dont get it.
i would think about that but dont really wanna disucss with ppl. coz it seems quite disrespectful to him.
or maybe i should ask honey.

okay i'm going to bed.
sigh. i miss my honey.. and i wish i could go ice skating with him.. i wish he could be here with me.
i'm not that strong actually..

>>January 3, 2009 at 10:23:36 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 2 日 星期五 【晴】

i prayed this morning when i'm in bed.

i slept ard..... 5 this morning.. got up ard 7 30. i just have a meeting at 9 30.
then... it over ran, it ended at 11 15. then i ran back to work from 11 30 till 8 15 pm.
very busy at the office today as well.
then got the call ard 8 10, so i needed to run to another meeting form 8 30 till 10 50 pm.
i ended up slept for 2.5 hrs, but worked 13 hrs 30 mins. nice. not nice.

i am dizzy again.

i cried last night... cried... coz i was stressed and helpless. and i prayed this morning.
it helps. thanks God. and i wanna thank my honey as well.. then maybe i should thank James.

i prayed last night. i wasnt ready for then meeting this morning, i just started writing the abstract and
introduction last night. i'm running out of time of course. then, i am restless and exhausted. i felt lonely.

James was pretty nice and sweet to me. sometimes i wonder why he is so nice to me, i start to
wonder if he likes me as a friend or more now. i dont know. he is just too nice, sweet and attentive..
he is probably one of the sweetest guy i have met, and yet not gay or weird. it's like.. he doesnt have
to be that nice to me. but he wants to. he is as thoughtful as girl. i sometimes find him... very similar to
myself. well... i dont know... he didnt say he wants anything specific, so i guess we are just friends.
some ppl are just naturally nice ppl.. maybe it's just the way he is.

i love my honey so much. i saw him on line today =) hee. i had fun this morning chat as well.
i dont know. maybe we were too close before, like... close. i really... like the feelings when i was so
close to him. i do miss that alot. beside, he isnt a very sweet nice guy i know. but he does has his cute
things, he has his sweet things.. he's adorable sometimes.. that's something i cant explain.
i think it's just the way it is.

i think Cyn is right..
when guys want to be nice, they would be nice. when they wanna be bad they would always be.
so we shouldnt see how nice the guy is but how bad he could be. nice ppl are always being taken for
granted. i think.... myself would be a very good example. i'm not saying i am very nice to ppl, but i do
think ppl take adv on me or they take me for granted. well.... i dont know..

but what if James like me?
sigh. whatever it is. i just wanna get my research done. and also that presentation thing..
omg. i'm so exhausted.. i do appreciate James being so nice and sweet to me...
but my heart is attached already.. i dont think it's that easy for him to steal it.

different ladies asked about if i am interested to join their company or sorts of things. i said i dont know.
honestly, i dont know what they are thinking about. why me. i'm just some bystander.
maybe they think they could hire someone to this job, and if it's screwed, no one is gonna be really
responsible for this. but since this is ordered by that lady manager, if i screwed her project, then she
would say it's my problem, she wouldnt be as much affected? but if i did it great, she would have the
good reputation? i dont know. that's only what i think coz i saw the ladies in this group were kindda like
refusing to take responsiblity in this event.. like they kept saying like this is too much to handel.

i'm going ot bed. i'm dizzy again..
and you know... thanks God for the peaceful walk this morning.. thanks God so much this morning.

thanks honey for the love and care.. thanks James being so sweet to me..
thanks Shan for trying to help. thanks my sisters and my parents....

i dont know how much more i can do.. i will try to do my best... so at least i wont regret..
i'm exhausted.. but i am very thankful to the ppl who have been supporting me and loving me.
i'm not sure if i am gonna be able to finish the paper.. if i am gonna screwed.. if i can do good presenation..
just... put every worries and questions in the pray... and... try to stay calm and work things out..
honey was right on my graduation day.. and i'm listening to him.

>>January 2, 2009 at 6:33:46 PM GMT+8

2008 年 12 月 31 日 星期三 【晴】

i am fucked.

i kept telling myself i am not desperated, and i cant panic.
i try not to panic and try catching up with the pla nand schedule.
i think i have been going great and doing the right things.
and i think i can trust ppl on the certain things so i dont have to worry too much i dont necessarily to.

and today is the 1st already. everyone got some ppl as the back up, and i find that i actually cant really
rely on ppl. no one is necessary to be responsible for your own business, right?
at work, Ella got me and Shan or even Carole. Ella has Richard at home. Carole has Ken at home, and
she has me and Shan at work. Shan has teamates at church or Choi. but i dont really have ppl to help
me, do i? actually it doesnt matter. coz you cant blame anyone, but ppl would blame you not being
responsible or organized enough to handel jobs on hand. but you know what... there are so much not
within your control and so you could be fucked anytime actually, and you have no one can help.
that's how terrible things could turn out to be. and that's exactly how desperate and helpless i am now.

happy new year, Castor. yea, i'm angry and i'm mean. ppl might think i deserve it coz i shouldnt take
that much of work load, i shouldnt take risks. but there are certaint things you dont know too.

>>January 1, 2009 at 2:20:56 PM GMT+8

2008 年 12 月 30 日 星期二 【晴】

hi there.

today is really nothing much. even though it's the last day of this year, i dont find things very different.
maybe... because i am too busy these days, and obviously, my plan doesnt finish before 2008.
my sheducle is totally full untill Jan, so.. no break or anything fresh or new untill i can get all of them
done, which is very.. stressful at the moment.

i wish everyone happy new year, i'm happy for the new year coming.. but this year i do feel like what
honey said.. it's just another year. i dont have mood for any party or celebration, although my family
is gonna have a nice dinner tonight. too bad huh.. only once a year that is supposed to be having fun
with everyone and welcoming the new year comes.

i think i am lucky at least i will have a family dinner with my family, and i'm sure my two younger sisters
are gonna be happy and crazy about the countdown too. i'm quite lonely at work, supposed to be busy
but to be honest, i cant be bothered. i have my research on my mind.. so.. i'm not being good at work
lately. i know. i'm lonely and bored. so it's kindda lucky at least i can have some gathering time with
the others.

i just ate 3 Ferrero Rocher. hopefully to use the chocolate power to cheer up myself.

Ella called me and asked me to help her phoninh the clinic. she forgot to take her baby there fo take the
vaccination. i was like what?! it's so important, how could she forget? sigh, i'm not her mom or anyone,
i am not supposed to call. she would ask lots of personal information of the baby. and then the thins is
they never answer phone calls. why the hell should i call them, isnt that the mom's responsiblity?

anyway... sigh.
i'm so bored. i want to go home instead.

i need to start writing the paper tonight which is not very fun for the 31st of Dec. but what can i do?
i'm actually too late to start writing.

i'm missing my honey the whole day today. i had fun last night with him.

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Happy New Year!
now it's... 12 24 am.
i'm home alone this year.
countdown by myself.

it's lonely.

got Jame's e-mail. i still dont get it why he is so nice. Avery is on line too. haha.

we had Japanese food tonight at home.... then they left to the shopping mall for the countdown.
i'm just too tired to go out. but to be honest.. i want someone to stay beside me. family is ok, but i want
someone i love to stay beside me. i wish that's my honey. but he doesnt really celebrate anyway.

okay... happy new year. 2009, i wanna welcome you.
i wanna give you a smile =) hee.. be nice to be please. haha.

>>December 31, 2008 at 4:30:27 PM GMT+8