2010 年 12 月 10 日 星期五 【晴】

today was so crazy at work... super busy. super super busy.
i m dying...

Henry kept messaging.

Mrs. Fung called again, i would have an appointment with her on next Tue..

i just got honey's email...




>>December 11, 2010 at 5:27:40 PM GMT+8

2010 年 12 月 9 日 星期四 【晴】

hi.

i got a call from the v tech company just now. the manager there told me she has an offer
for me. she would tell me more later... then at the mean while, i m so close to have my
review at work, i m gonna see if i would pass my probation. i wanna pass, i want my own
uniform, i want my name tag without ''trainee'' this title. i wanna do better at work.
in the past 3 months, i have learned a lot. i still have lots to learn.. so... i wasnt planing to
leave, at least not right after i pass my probation. i was thinking to apply to Cathay, i m still
thinking. i know i wont be able to work for customer service forever. but i liked what i do
right now, coz i have a team, and they are all very nice to me. then, i have the uniform,
and i have sources at work, salary is on time, benefit isnt too bad except lacking of holiday.
the bad thing is, i have to deal with lots of b.s., lots of unreasonable ppl and some crazy
stalkers.

its okay at work today... just busy and tired... yesterday was okay too.. i register 17
passes for the vip tour in the morning. i'd never done that much in row before. it was crazy.
the christmas promotion counter was okay. except seeing those bad faces, everything
was fine.

after work, i met up with aunt Priscilla. i havent seen her since i was home.
i should have seen her earlier, but i just didnt feel like to do that. well, i was kind of angry
at her actually about my ticket. anyway, its past already. we went for a coffee today.
just chit chatting. nothing much.

i miss my honey. when will i see him again?




>>December 10, 2010 at 3:27:29 PM GMT+8

2010 年 12 月 8 日 星期三 【晴】

no matter what, i m not giving up my honey for someone else.
i wont, i just cant do it.
i dont want to give him up for anyone or anything, he is too important to me.

-------------------

i m home.
hummmm no, my answer is no.

he wanted to buy me gift, i didnt let him. whatever i m looking, he asked if i like it and wanted
to get that for me. he wanted to pay for my drink, i didnt let him. he wanted to buy me
dinner, i said no. he introduced his family to me, which i didnt expect that. when i use my
wallet, he could see my pic with honey. isnt it clear enough that we are just friends?
i cant accept his gifts, coz i dont want to give him the wrong signal.

i know he's rich. but its not my business. i appreciate that he wants to spend time and
money on me, but that doesnt mean i should accept anything from him. i dont know if he's
surprised i didnt take anything from him. but that's just me. and i m not a paid-doll.
at least not his. i dont want to owe him anything. if i want something, i could buy it on
my own. unless he's my bf or my family, otherwise, i wont just accept gifts that easily.

i emailed honey today at work... i just miss him so much.

>>December 9, 2010 at 6:09:51 PM GMT+8

2010 年 12 月 7 日 星期二 【晴】




Henry came to HK. he mesged me, and came to see me today.

i used to hate him lots. but when i saw him today, he's just like a normal friend to me.
i dont doubt that he still likes me, and i dont care if he really means it or just wants to get me.
but for me, i dont want another bf, i really dont. if he's serious, i m so sorry.
i cant accept him just like years ago. he was too late. he hurt me, he made his choices.
that's the fact. when i was there to support him, i didnt want to be his gf coz he had one.
i couldnt accept that he just said that hurtful thing to me. i rather thought that i had never
met that person at all. so, i was sad for two days, then i just totally moved on. i was angry,
really angry and felt like betrayed by a very good friend. so, i just blocked him for a really
long time. after a year or two... he mesged me on facebook or somewhere else. i really
disliked him, so i was just replying without concerns about him. then, i told him to leave me
alone. and i was with honey already. then, once awhile he would still message me.
i ignored him... till last year sometime, all of the sudden, he apologized to me. after 3 or 4 years,
he came apologize to me and told me he broke up with his gf finally. i told him i moved on
already. i wouldnt accept him again. he kept messaging me once in a while, asking about
me and see if i m single. i told him i was living with honey. i wouldnt tell him my relationship
problems, and i seldom talk with him about personal things.. i dont understand why he is
still trying, there's really no points to do that. he has the worst timing ever. at first, it was
just impossible for us, 5 years ago was like that, after 5 years now it's just the same.
when is he gonna understand? or is it me misunderstanding him all the time?

at the mean while, i dont wanna blame honey for being busy with his life, but i need him.
where is he? i wanna tell myself that i shouldnt be so needy, then i ask myself if i m very
needy. it's like.... i m weak sometimes. i wanna tell myself, maybe it's like some training for
me right now, i need to train myself to be stronger, so that later i could be a stronger woman
to maintain our relationship and family with my husband. yea, if i'm someone's wife or a
mom yea i gotta be that strong, coz that's my life, i'd need to protect my family and my
husband. but now it's like.... i dont wanna get serious with the guys now. i dont mind
to be their friends, but seriously.... i cant handle more than one guy at a time. i wont
be able to breath. its already hard enough to be apart from him, it's so hard, so hard.
and how many more freaking tests do i need to take? how much more bull shit do i need
to take to just to ensure myself what the hell is going on? right or wrong, doesnt it just
depend on how you explain it now? then what's the point to figure out or why should i
still care about it?

i cant understand myself sometimes.... how come... like how come....
i know i love honey so much, i know. and i know i probably shouldnt trust him so much
but i cant explain why. if you give me another chance i would still choose the same.
that's really scary. and i dont know how do i get this kind of weird strength? or
where my courage came from.

is he gonna understand me?

i dont know if i m just way too over the top right now..
i need some rest.

work from 9 am to 6 pm tomorrow, gotta get up ard 6 am.

>>December 8, 2010 at 6:50:28 PM GMT+8

2010 年 12 月 6 日 星期一 【晴】

hi...

i wonder what i wanna do...
i wanna be a mom, i wanna be a house wife to take care of my husband and kids.
i wanna work for school or psychology, then when i grow older, i wanna have a
bakery or a cafe selling cookies, cakes, and some sandwiches. i wanna be the
super mom and a great wife for my husband and kids. i wanna worship my man,
and educate my kids. watch them grow up, watch them become adults, be with my
family. help my husband to fulfill his goals, grow old with him, reach our goals in life
together. i m just..... a very simple girl... and i believe that although i m small and simple,
i m unique. i m not the best, i might be bad in so many things, but i m me, and i m loyal
to my life to my dreams and the ppl i love, the ppl in my life.

this is not the job i'd choose to do for life, but right now it's really a great chance for me
to earn some experience. it might not be the best or the most suitable thing for me, but
i should be humble and patient. i should search for more other chances, i should
think for my life. i should do what i wanna do. i wanna take the cookery class. i wanna
take the first-aid course. i wanna learn dancing. i wanna do the tutoring for experience.
i wanna join the art classes. i wanna learn to make different dishes as well.

i wanna be with him.



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Here is the complete transcript of the speech from this video. It’s just a fantastic story.

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of
Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities
in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I’ve ever gotten
to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That’s it. No big deal.
Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for
another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate
student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be
adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by
a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that
they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle
of the night asking: “We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?” They said:
“Of course.” My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from
college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the
final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that
I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as
expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents’ savings were being spent
on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn’t see the value in it. I had no idea what I
wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out.
And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided
to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking
back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking
the required classes that didn’t interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked
interesting.

It wasn’t all romantic. I didn’t have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends’ rooms,
I returned coke bottles for the 5￠ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles
across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple.
I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out
to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country.
Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand
calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn’t have to take the normal classes, I decided
to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces,
about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes
great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science
can’t capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later,
when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we
designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never
dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces
or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no
personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped
in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography
that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in
college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking
backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You
have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has
never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents
garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the
two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just
released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30.
And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew
we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the
first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and
eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at
30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was
gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn’t know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation
of entrepreneurs down – that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met
with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was
a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something
slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not
changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn’t see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could
have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness
of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most
creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar,
and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create
the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful
animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to
Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple’s current renaissance.
And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I’m pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn’t been fired from Apple. It was awful
tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick.
Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did.
You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers.
Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to
do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do.
If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know
when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on.
So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: “If you live each day as if it was your
last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for
the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: “If today were
the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the
answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me
make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride,
all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving
only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know
to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no
reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it
clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn’t even know what a pancreas was. The
doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should
expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my
affairs in order, which is doctor’s code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids
everything you thought you’d have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means
to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family.
It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an
endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into
my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there,
told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying
because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery.
I had the surgery and I’m fine now.

This was the closest I’ve been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more
decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than
when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there.
And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it
should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change
agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday
not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be
so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma —
which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions
drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart
and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else
is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog,
which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart
Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This
was in the late 1960′s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made
with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback
form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools
and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when
it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age.
On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road,
the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were
the words: “Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.” It was their farewell message as they signed off.
Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you
graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

http://onemansblog.com/2010/02/01/steve-jobs-outstanding-stanford-commencement-speech-from-2005/

>>December 7, 2010 at 4:38:37 PM GMT+8

2010 年 12 月 5 日 星期日 【晴】

hi..

i m off today, i got up late then rushed to the post office with Leggy.
then we went to Ma On Shan to have lunch with mom, grandpa, aunt and uncle.
it was okay, nothing special. then went to grandpa's home. sit around, chatting with him
for awhile, then did some shopping for food, then came back to Tai Po.
i had tutoring with Ching Ching. i bought her stickers today, also gave on to her little sister Jun.

i need to go back to work tomorrow.
then my crazy schedule would start. no more day off till next Tue. i dont like it. and then my
review is coming soon probably next week. i should go work out more often.

lately, i just got the feeling that i m getting old. i m 24 this year, getting to 25 in 6 months.
i cant believe that i m getting close to 25. after that, i m no longer ''young''. i m no longer
allowed to be childish or naive, or whatever related to being young. i'll be old.
i dont want to feel like that, coz i m not ready to be old. it feels like there are tonz of stuffs
i havent tried or done, but i m getting old. and there are so much i'd like to do but i dont
have the chance to yet. its like i m not moving forward, not any near to my dream.
do i worry? a little bit. coz, i need to think about my future. he's not sure if he would
stay in japan, i understand. so if he does, then how am i gonna move there? if he doesnt,
what am i gonna do? wherever he goes, i would follow him. does he want the same?

these days, i have been hearing lots from my co workers about their bfs and gfs.
its like....... the way they are dating their bf/gf is nothing near to him and i. i cant make
some much comparison, coz there's really nothing much i could compare myself with
them. at least i know i m not like them. what i m putting up with, they probably would
never accept, what i have been through, they would never agree. i wont blame anyone
if they see me in a bad way, coz what i've done is the fact. everyone have some secret
dont wanna let others know. maybe somehow that's one of the reasons why i'd feel
lonely. coz it's like the person who is ''with me'' is not really with me. other than him,
i dont think the others could understand me. well of course my family and my close friends
they know me so well. of course they do. then of course he hasnt known every
parts of me yet, especially he hasnt been here, i mean hk, so... of course he has missed
out lots about me. still, what i wanna say is.................... i want him, but... if he's not
gonna choose me in the end or not be with me in the end, then i dont know what to do.
maybe i worry too much right now.

anyway, i need to start doing some christmas shopping for my family, and maybe a
few close friends. i miss my close friends and my best friends, like... Alessja, i worry
about her.. then also Cyn and Ade, i miss them lots. i miss Jackie, and we dont have time
to meet up yet. i miss Karen, it's been so long i havent seen her, also Queenie.
i always get to see Ivy whenever she passed by my work place. i'm so happy to see her
everytime. then i'd meet up with Shan for breakfast once or twice a month.. whenever
the schedule would fit for us. so.. yea.....

i miss him.. i really do. Cas... what are you gonna do?

anyway, i m want to write some letter and send to Reader's Digest.
i dont think they would publish it, but i'd like to try. it's about the weird stories of customer
services. i want to show how selfish and fake those rich customers are, and while we
are smiling and serving them how we actually think and feel. i m not in this field for long,
i just saw so much bull shit that i ve never thought about customer service before.
then, now i wonder if it's the same at the airline and the hospitality field. if i write it,
i m gonna be very honest with my words and the reality.

i should go to bed first..

>>December 6, 2010 at 5:44:20 PM GMT+8

2010 年 12 月 4 日 星期六 【晴】

my back and my right shoulder hurt so bad..
also my legs and my feet. i couldnt get up this morning. i struggled a lot, wondering if i should
go to the gym this morning, and i gave up :(

i should go work out more often.

last night, after work i wanted to shop for stuffs for honey, but then.. i couldnt find what i need.
i went to different places and shops, no... i couldnt find any. i m gonna try another place today
at work. my schedule sucks... sigh, anyway, going to work now.

by the way, i'm happy that he can take some rest now. he doesnt need to work at that
company anymore :)


brb..

>>December 5, 2010 at 3:14:57 AM GMT+8

2010 年 12 月 2 日 星期四 【晴】

hi...

today was okay except i was very tired..
after work, i just went to do some shopping for christmas. i went to Marks & Spencer.
i looked around, chose some goodies for honey. i wanna get him a jacket or sweater...
but then when i think about he's moving to Jap with limited space or baggages, then
i think it would be better to send it to Jap later or i would bring him personally instead.
coz the thing is... he's probably headache to pack stuffs, i dont wanna add him an extra
piece. so, i m just gonna send him some goodies and a hand made card.
i dont know if i have enough time to make anything, although i would love to do it.
i have to catch up the last day of post, on the 6th. so... tomorrow after work, i would
need to go to the store or M & S again, then going to the stationary shop or book store
to get some paper and glue. today is Fri. then Sun i'd work from 1 to 10. then on Mon,
i gotta go to the post office in the morning before visiting grandpa. its a bit rushed.
but i gotta make it =)

i dont know why i just dont feel the same for christmas now. i dont know if it's coz HK is
still hot, or coz it's only the beginning of Dec? i m seeing the decoration at work everyday,
redeeming gifts to the customers everyday but i dont feel anything strong. i love christmas
time, but its just different now. i just want a cozy one with the ppl i love, like honey, my
family, and some of my very close friends. a party is a party but not like the thing i really
want. i dont know if i m gonna join any parties, i dont think so. but i would spend my
christmas with my family for sure, and might hang out with some close friends on some
other days. will see... well...... if my honey is here, probably he's my first choice, coz..
some how he's already like someone like.... a part of my family.

i should go to bed soon.
early shift again.... but i feel glad that i dont have tutoring this week. i m so needed for some
time for myself, like no rush to go working somewhere else after work. its not like i dont like
teaching, or tutoring. i do like being with children or teenagers doing education. i do.
but my job demands lots of my energy and time, so... i m so tired after work. otherwise,
i would love to have more students.

>>December 3, 2010 at 6:01:08 PM GMT+8

2010 年 12 月 1 日 星期三 【晴】

hello..

i m very tired, but i need to go to work tomorrow.
my 2 days off would be finished~~~~ ahhhhhh~ i want more holidays.
i didnt expect *Py would assign 2 days off to me, coz only 1 day off in a week.
but then, she actually arranged me to have my public holiday with my regular day off.
i like it, coz it's been almost 3 months that i only have 1 day off in a week, havent got
more than 1 day each time. so yea...

yesterday i fellow my parents to go to China. haha.. it's been quite a long while i havent
been there. we had lunch in Shen Zhen, then walked around, took the metro to Dong Men.
then back to Shen Zhen to have dinner. it was cool. we ordered curtains, then bought
some really cheap shoes and a bag. not those fake one but just some regular stuffs.
i bought some pantyhose too, same brand but much cheaper in China. we would go
again next time before Chinese new year. i would get some chinese clothes. i havent
wore those since i was a kid, i m always into those outfit actually. so this year i m gonna
buy one, the tailor made one. its unbelievably cheap.

back home last night... then today i got up ard 1 pm.. 10 hrs sleep.. had lunch with mom,
then just went to the bank to take info for the credit card, then did some shopping for
food tonight. gonna make pasta tonight.

honey and i talked... hummmm... he doesnt show on line, then he said hi to me.
he doesnt usually say hi to me, so i used to think it's like if i dont talk to him then he wouldnt
talk to me. but these two days are different. hee.

hummm i wanted to visit grandpa today but he's taking a nap, so... maybe on Mon when
i'll be off again next week. he's dying. he is. i kindda feel bad, but then.. there isnt much
i can do or help. i just wish he's happy, but he isnt. he's been always a good man, but
he's not happy with his life now. is it every orderly the same? i have seen some happy
old ppl. they are content and not afraid of death.

i miss my honey. i wanna see him soon. i m thinking to visit in Feb, after Chinese new year.
then i can also show him how i look in those chinese suit. haha..
anyway i should go back to the gym this week. cant be lazy anymore... really need to lose
weight. i dont wanna be a balloon.

>>December 2, 2010 at 11:07:18 AM GMT+8

2010 年 11 月 29 日 星期一 【晴】

hi..

these two days have been very tiring at work.
got the notice for another promotion starting tomorrow. so...3 promotions, and also plus the
parking redemptions going on at the same time.. lots of procedures and paperwork. need to
deal with so many ppl, especially those rude and unreasonable ppl. then they could scold or
swear to us anytime.. if they want they could complain about us anytime. if i follow the
rules, then i would get complaint, then if the complain goes to the supervisor, then those
customers usually can get what they want. so.... sometimes i feel frustrated, coz it's like..
no wonder those ppl always call us ''loser'' and they refuse to deal with us. WTF.

somehow i started to find customer service is just bullshit.
rules, regulations, public relationships, these are just pure bullshit. just some games.
and who're suffering in it? those who trusted the company, either the customers or
the staffs who work hard for the company.

and you know... i start to wonder if i could trust *H at work. coz he's really not there
yet as in.... he's my supervisor but when problems come, hes not that countable actually.
coz he doesnt want troubles. he rather does less to protect himself. he's this kind of
supervisor. i dont care after work if he's a cool person to hang out with. if he's not
gonna be a good supervisor, i m gonna dislike him at work anyhow.

i m close with *J these days.. dont know why we are always partner together..
but yea, she told me about her problems lately... i wish i could help, and if there's anything
i can help i would. if that guy is not returning the money to her, then i m gonna go to the
police office with her.

anyway...
i m not feeling very well these days, so tired and just cant concentrate well.
i could chat with honey today finally. i wish i could be there, i hope i could help...

i have 2 days off tomorrow and the day after. dont know why i could have a double day off.
my parents are going to China tomorrow, i havent been there for a long while.. so...
i probably will go with them, just a day trip, like a getaway day trip. but i wonder if i would
get even worse afterward.

i miss my honey, i really do.. sometimes i dont know what to do when i miss him so
much. i just miss him.

>>November 30, 2010 at 5:21:07 PM GMT+8