2011 年 3 月 13 日 星期日 【晴】

the earthquake is just.... bad..
i'll come back tmr to write..
i need to got to bed now.
too many things happened in the past few days..

>>March 14, 2011 at 5:11:40 PM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 10 日 星期四 【晴】

hi...

i'm home.

hummm... its sad. coz... we didnt even have time to say bye,
but... maybe coz we didnt really say good bye then we would meet again soon?
as far as i found a seat on the bus, i just bursted into tears, of course not crying crazy
but... i was crying... i dont know if i was just sad or angry or what that is.

the flight was horrible, got some weird smell at the seat, then the guy next to me was
really bad and so rude. the lady at the back was kicking the seat and very annoying,
laughing out loud. the meal was bad, i didnt even wanna eat. dad was busy, so he didnt
come pick me up, mom and sisters did. we took the bus. it was really long.
the storage was full, so i couldnt get my stuffs in. then, i didnt have changes for the bus,
and my octopus card was low in balance, but mom and my sis got on the bus already.
then it was just bad bad bad. i had to hold my baggage all the way back home, and it was
like almost 1 and a half hour. then i got off earlier to catch a taxi instead.
back home, i didnt wanna unpack my stuffs, and i was in a bad mood. i just sit and ate some
dinner then took a shower and wrote an email to him then went to bed.

i was alone waiting for the plane at the airport for.... almost 3 hrs..
i couldnt do that, i just kept walking ard, but the airport is dark and small.. i just felt bad.
i bought lots of stuffs, lots of kit-kat. special kit-kat..

i miss him... there are so much i wanna say to him but we didnt get the chance.
its either he didnt want to give us time, or he couldnt. but i dont know what to do.

i'm home, everything goes back to the normal. i tried to have a peaceful day yesterday.
i just went back to work, and i tried to take things slow so i wouldnt feel too too bad.
i took taxi to the station, same as when i was coming home. i didnt walk.
and when i walked, i walked slower. i found myself lost weight. i dont know...
i have a lot of things to do actually.... i need to do lots of stuffs..

everything's so stressful here, i'm stressed out easily everyday.

i wanna write more but i gotta run now..
dont cry, cas.

>>March 11, 2011 at 3:20:00 AM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 8 日 星期二 【晴】

i couldnt sleep last night...
its just strange..

when i was here, i could easily fall asleep, then i could leep for 11 hrs without waking till
he came in... i guess i just feel.... secure to sleep? i dont know..
in hk, i wait till i m completely exhausted then i go to bed.. i wait on line, just wanna stay on
line, i could feel closer with him..
but here, its different. i can sleep. but then last night i just couldnt sleep..
i finally fell asleep ard 4 am... its crazy.. i usually can sleep ard 12.

anyway, i m leaving in an hr, but not sure if he's going to the bus station with me.
we didnt do anything last night neither..
some ppl said the more the guy pretends he doesnt care, the more he actually cares.
for me, i dont know if he just really doesnt care or what. i dont know what he's thinking,
dont know what he wants. i just know.... i want him but if he doesnt then i cant do anything.

i finished packing already... the first time ever been so quick. i hate packing, and usually
wont finish till the last moment. but.... i dont know..

i keep having Taylor Swift's ''Back to December'' and ''Dear John'' in my mind..
''i missed your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me so right,
and how you held me in your arms that sep night, the first time you ever saw me cry,
maybe this is wishful thinking, probably its mindless dreaming, but if we loved again,
i swear i'd love you right. i'd go back in time to change it, but it cant.
so if the chain is on your door, i understand... this is me swallowing my pride,
standing in front of you saying i'm sorry that night, and i go back to december,
it turns out freedom aint nothing but missing you, wish i've realized what i had
when you were mine, i go back to december turn ard and make it arlght,
i'd go back to december to change my own mind, i go back to december all the time...''

i dont wanna leave him coz i love him so much, but... if he doesnt love me or doesnt
want me i dont know what to do. it just seems like he doesnt really want me to be ard.

good bye...
i'll see you back in hk.

>>March 9, 2011 at 3:09:25 AM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 7 日 星期一 【晴】

hi there...

today is my last day here, i m leaving tomorrow...
i m not ready to go, but..... i have to get myself ready coz... once i get home,
then i'd need to go to work the next day.

seems like everything is gonna go back to the normal which is actually kind of scary
for me. things changed, for me, everything has changed again. perhaps right now i am
still worried and feel like i m a little girl, but deep down i know i grow up a lot...
and once i m home, i wont be the same girl as i felt when i was still in Van, living in the
shadow in the past. i dont wanna let go of the good part of it, coz it's my memory with
him. but the bad part should be gone by now. the bad part as in the sadness or some
stuffs i am not very proud of. which those had took away my courage, now i should
let them go. seeing him has started his new life here, seems enjoying it, everything goes
fine, its such a relief for me. although he doesnt seem wanting me, which totally hurts,
it's still a good news for me. at least, he moved here, settled down, having it started,
at least he achieved it as we have planned.

maybe his new life doesnt need me, maybe he wouldnt want me here, maybe his
feelings changed. if so, i cant blame him, i cant. i could only give him my blessing if its
really what he wants, if he wants someone else.

when we were in Van, he told me that i was irreplaceable, i believed him...
when i left there, at the airport we hugged and kissed, he asked me not to worry,
and we both almost bursted into tears... i have been waiting for him.. after 6 months,
few days before i came, i was totally looking forward to seeing him..
first day i met him i was so happy so happy to hug him, he held me so tight so did i.
few days after that he showed me stuffs that i gave him, all the stuffs he has brought
here as well. but after that, he no longers feels anything with me, he was cold, avoiding,
and it seems like i m a baggage for him. why things changed so fast?

brb, i need to tidy up my things first..

>>March 8, 2011 at 3:28:50 PM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 6 日 星期日 【晴】

i m so scared one day when i got up we wont be together anymore.
but i m also so scared if i m not what he wants after all.

i got myself a very full dinner... dont know if coz its too oily, or coz i drunk too much,
i almost threw up just now. i drunk by myself. i was thinking, maybe we three could
drink together, just like what we did in Vancouver. but no, i dont think they wanted it.
they arent feeling well. and... i guess he's not in mood anyway.

i sort of brought up the topic with him... seeing if he's going to have sex with me.
no. i dont think he would.

omg, i wanna throw up again. i m really feeling so sick... probably coz of the alchohol
mixing with the oily food in my stomach. it feels like burning in my stomach just now.
now it still hurts. i didnt have too much, just half bottle of it.

anyway, no.......... i wont get sex this time.. quite disappointed but i cant force him right..
i dont know what to do actually. since he's not in mood, theres nothing much i can do.
i wonder what if i really feel like to have sex, when i go back to hong kong what should i do?
i wanted to wait in the past 6 months coz i wanted him so bad. but now when i m here,
he doesnt want me. and to be honest, somehow i feel like i m bothering him or disturbing
his life here. he is starting his new page of life here, but i m just.... a baggage to him.
i m just visiting, i wont stay long. but it seems like everything has changed.
he no longer wants me or wants me to be around. it feels like he's not into me anymore.
its like he's happier with Ayako than with me. not seems like, its just the fact.
sometimes i do wonder if they are married or should get married coz they are just
such the perfect match, i mean as in their daily living basis. i dont know... i just worry
maybe things have changed but we dont even realize that.

i still love him so much... but i wonder if he still loves me the same,
or its been changed already?

i m leaving the day after...
i'm gonna miss him again.

>>March 7, 2011 at 3:37:32 PM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 5 日 星期六 【晴】

Cas, would you want to live a simple life or a complicated one?

i dont know. but i m not supposed to keep wondering what i want isnt it?
i should have known what i actually want. or maybe i m just being greedy, i want this then
i want that. i want to have a relaxing life but then i would worry i would be bored.
i want an exciting one then i would blame it exhausting me. whatever it is, i know i want
to be with him. and thats the difficult part, coz i dont want to go on without him.
but i would be back to HK and keep wondering about him everyday, then when i come
back to him everything becomes very relaxing and quiet again.

he was sick last night, but then he also showed me lots of things that i have given him
before. seems like he has brought everything i gave him. he even tested me if i
remembered the smell of the colon i gave him. of course i remember. and that was the first
gift i bought him when we first met in 2007, in person, the first time i met him in Van.
i m quite sensitive to smell and i can distinguish different smell and colours very well.

i dont wanna go back to HK coz i know i would miss him so much.
but i have to go back coz i need a job and i need money. i wonder if my vacation is an
escape, then one day i'd need to go back to the reality. but the thing is i dont want it as my
escape, coz it really is a part of my life. there is priority in life, and i set it with very
specific order. if people are important to me, i would even sacrifice for them.
no one ants it happens, but if its necessary, i would do.

what should you do, Cas? what would you do?
or should i say what should we do?

i should stop now, brb.


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what're you thinking? do you wanna run away now?
i just wanna settle down, can get my life going, can be with the person i love,
spend time with him and my family, wanna love the person who loves me the same
as i love him. wanna stay happy, not half awake inside the bubbles or false dreams.

when i get back to hong kong, things are gonna change again.

if i m not the one he wants to be with, then he should let me go.
if he's no longer interested in me, then he should let me go.
if he's looking me as a back-up plan, then i m the wrong person and he should let me go.
if i m just like another girl to him, then i should leave.
coz no matter how messed up i am, i m still..... a valuable girl.
you cant see me shine coz you dont let me.


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i hate that when its like he hates me or something..
i prefer him telling me whats wrong than being all silent and cold to me.



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everything here seems so relaxing for me. coz i m on vacation.
hk is another world for me. coz its about job, my family, my other roles in my life,
many many many other things coming right through me together.
cant make any mistakes, cant slow down, the only time i could rest is being home
or being with my family or close friends. but my heart is always not there, coz...
i m thinking of him, i m missing him..... so.... i cant live my life without him. i cant get
going without him. i always look for connection with him, wanna be close with him
but, somehow it becomes an addiction to me. i dont know what to do without him.
but when he's here, when i m here now, he doesnt know how much i miss him
and how much i love him. i cry its not coz i m leaving so soon, but there are so much
i wanna tell him but i havent yet. coz there are so much i wanna do with him but we
havent yet. yes, i m angry at myself, how come i m so useless.

if everytime i have to warm up myself before telling the truth, can i fasten the whole
period of time or just skip it then i can get to the result? just knowing if we still love
each others or not?

>>March 6, 2011 at 1:36:42 PM GMT+8

2011 年 3 月 4 日 星期五 【晴】

i m in Japan now.

my first time ever. its a very special experience, coz.... the first time i found myself sooooo
scared in another country. coz the thing is it seems like no one really understands me,
i m the only chinese in the area most of the time. i dont understand what they say, they dont
understand but then keep speaking to me. i m so lost and kindda feel bad. i m so shy.
and then again, i m on vacation, i should stay away from work and the stuffs in hk.
i should give myself some space to rest and think about my future.

before i came here, i thought maybe its time to come back to honey. maybe he would see the
different side of me, but then actually..... after 6 months, we meet in another country,
we havent changed much. we havent. maybe there are changes, like.... coz the situation
changes, his job changed, he's very committed to his business and he can spend more time
with his dogs. he's more into his business than other things else. i expected myself more
active or passionate towards him but actually i couldnt. not that i dont want to, just the whole
thing doesnt feel right. i dont know if its my problem or its our problem. sometimes i do wonder
if we are still........ considered as a couple now. we havent seen each others for 6 months,
and we have lost the interests or passions over 4 years and half?
is it coz.... i m not pretty enough? or..... coz.... i m just...... not attractive enough or what's
wrong with me now? i rejected all the guys in HK and i have been waiting to see him,
and when i m here, he doesnt touch me. i do question if i m that bad. or i should start looking
for other ways for myself. i start to realize why desperate housewives are so desperate.
no wonder some women love to stay single. coz they dont have to go through so much
troubles, deal with so many differences and difficulties.

i have talked with him... like.... why he decided to move here, and when i see him smiling
when he looks at the kids here, it kindda makes me think he might want kids one day.
then, i also admire the japanese women here... the housewives here.... they can take care
of so many things, works and family, and they could still have time to dress up and look
good. and they are all very quiet and polite, unlike me. somehow i do wonder if its better for
him to marry a japanese woman here later.

i love kids and i want my own kids, but i dont dare to picture myself becoming a mom,
coz i worry one day he would just tell me i m not the one, or when i wake up one day,
we are no longer together. when i see the kids here, even though i dont understand them,
i do wonder what they are talking about. although i m very scared coz i have no ideas whats
going on ard me and i dont understand anything they are talking about, i do want to be with
him. but it really seems like we are from different planet. he wants his time alone, he doesnt
touch me and i m accept that, hello Cas? is it really you? yea, i could accept it although
i dont like it. i dont know much about the culture here. i m scared, i wont even survive
if he leaves me anywhere.

there must be something good about me yea?
coz i have to depend on him for everything here, thats why i find it so difficult when it comes
to asking and about the spaces we need and other things. i m not an aggressive person,
i m dumb and ... i m from the china land.

i wanna write more but not now... brb..

>>March 5, 2011 at 9:14:42 AM GMT+8

2011 年 2 月 26 日 星期六 【晴】

i m very tired...........

i dont like going to work, especially working with *H.
i dont wanna work with him. sometimes he just makes you wonder, its kindda like.....
you are not sure what he wants, is he a good person or a bad person.
coz, he's a very weird person that got double standard all the time. i dont like ppl like that.

this morning, i was at N counter at the opening hr, the key was missing, so i couldnt
open the counter... its like.... i didnt know wether i dropped it somewhere from the safety
box at the control room this morning when i was checking tickets and docs there, or
it was missing since last night. if it was, then IC should have told me this morning
when i was talking with him for the doc, he didnt. so......... i didnt even realize it was missing.
i saw some keys in the box but it wasnt the right one. i went down to the counter,
couldnt open any drawers or shelfs.... those guys from the other team were standing
waiting for me. i was late to the counter, coz *C was late this morning, i had to check
the tickets and doc for her counter as well. then yea, those guys were waiting for me
and the store room key. i had that key but not the other keys for the counter.
then one of them always help me with small things when i m busy... i dont even remember
his name though. i told him i didnt have the key and i couldnt get the log book for him to sign.
then he stood there waiting and helping me to call ppl.. he told me what happened
yesterday about the washroom problem. it was so disgusting. but he's a nice person
anyway. he didnt need to help me to make calls, coz i have called to the duty IC..
but he stayed waiting and making calls to other for me. he's usually shy so i didnt expect
he would help me. a few IC came down... then all standing at the counter trying to open
the locks, then the alarm went off, they all left, like running upstairs. i was like WTH is going
on? that guy asked then told me some worker broke the sprinkle at the tunnel..

i used the computer to make up some forms to use... had to wait till 10 am, coz they
found out *My took the key home last night accidentally. then *J passed the key to me
after 10, then i started moving the doc and data back to the file and the sheets.

after 2 hrs at the counter, i was pretty tired already..... then i bought a coffee then went
to the office to do the report.... then *H told me *Y called in sick, so schedule changed.
i was supposed to have another small break during the filling hr before i finish work today.
he canceled mine and move me back to that busy counter. i asked him why me?
coz there are more than 4 girls could sit in the office resting, why me? then he said coz
everyone already had 4 hrs at that counter today. i was like allllllright..... but then i read
it again, actually not really. and some of them have the very relaxing schedule today.
for me, i was kind of pissed. he probably was just taking advantage of me. he knew i
wouldnt say anything and the others would. so i was pissed and i just asked him why me.
i usually dont confront him anyway. but these days, i m sick of working with him.
i dont care if he's my supervisor. i dont care. then i still had at least 10 mins before i had
to go back to the counter, he hurried me to leave and not wait for him, he would be ard
10 mins later than me to leave. i was like WTF? i said okay but just left on time in fact.
when i went back to the counter, *L and *J asked me where *H was. i told him he said
he would be late. *L wanted to stay longer for me, he wanted to wait till *H came.
i told him no, just leave. its like everyone got their schedule, dont fucking leave your partner
at the counter alone, especially on weekend at the N counter, unless its your lunch break
or time to go off, ppl dont want you to go but would let you go first based on being nice
to you. and *H just ditched on me for his little smoking time. FUCK HIM. so, i could get off
earlier to get my coffee now too yea? so, smoking got some privilege now yea?
*J said it's not nice to leave me alone at N Counter in lunch hr. i said no i'd be fine, i told them
to leave. if i m not fine, it's *H's issue, not ours.

at the last 2 hrs, *H was at that counter waiting for me to rotate. he got like 3 hrs sitting in our
room. then what he does isnt anything urgent or important. but as a supervisor, if ppl called
sick, and he's responsible to amend our schedule and arrange himself to the counter
if necessary, not just changing others' he's selfish. really selfish. he was waiting for me
at N counter, i was at the S one. i didnt go there on time. i was with *J pretending we were
very busy. then he left without waiting for me to take over. i just dont see how busy he
is and i dont like him at all, NOT AT ALL.

we usually share snack in our room, like sometimes we receive gifts from customers or
we just bring some snack to share sometimes. these days they dont last long which is
weird. and you know why? coz someone who always stay in the office doesnt really
bring in anything but keep finishing. i remember i told him once that i didnt know what to
get in japan for them. then he said if i really didnt wanna buy things then i could shop
in HK at some snack shop pretending to be from japan since we do some japanese
snacks here. i was like no. i m not gonna do that. its either buying real or not buying any.
i m not gonna buy things in hk and lie to my teammates, i just cant. its not me. then i was
thinking no wonder he got us those shitty stuffs ''from Taiwan'' which totally made
no sense to us before.

just at my last hr, i received some huge complain. that lady even brought me to the
washroom to check..... if she did report to the newspaper, its gonna be bad.
so i took her case very seriously, and i wrote a very long report in details.. i passed
that to *H afterward. he was reading it then he edited it. i found it very disrespectful.
i dont know what he did, but if he changed my words and if my manager call me tmr,
i m gonna tell her i dont know since i saw *H has edited that sheet. if he wants to act
all professional and shit, fine. i follow but dont pretend to be friends and asking me
so many personal stuffs then question me if my work performance is tied up with my
personal life. everytime when he sees me he asked me how's life. i told him tired,
then he kept asking why. i just said nothing special just tired. he said i looked tired.
i told him i m alright. then after awhile we have dead air for long then he said again
i look really tired, then i just said actually i m not that tired. i was just thinking everyone
looks tired when we are quiet. we are not that cheerful 7 days a week actually.
what's his problem? isnt he tired too? then why the hell he has to smoke so much?
i just want him to shut up and stop pretending to be nice and caring. fuck off. if you
dont really care about your teammates which is what i see quite clearly when i look
carefully, i rather just see him as a work mate more than a teammate.
and fucking stop using excuses as care about me to ask and talk about me behind.

i saw *Le another day at work... he started asking for my msn.. i didnt give him..
he asked me when i ran into him. then i was rushing to wash my apple. i told him later.
then later of course i ran away and stayed inside our room. then he came in after awhile.
it was kind of embarrassing for him coz we are from different team, and he doesnt
need to come in at all... then he came in and we were all busy, then i was eating my
apple, no one really know why he came in.. he was kind of embarrassed then he stayed
for a min then left. the thing is........ i dont know if he knows i have a bf... i dont tell
everyone by putting a tag on myself, but if his assistant is close with *J and he'd know i
do have a bf. the thing is, *Le is married. i dont know if he's like that to every girls but
when i asked ard, it seems like he doesnt treat everyone the same, and when there are
some other ICs ard or when he's very busy, he would act differently. guys are just weird.
he asked me to go for a drink together before.. i said ohhhh i m busy maybe next time.
if its a group thing with the ppl i m close with, maybe. but if it's just me and him noooo way..



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i bought the new macbook from Apple directly... i m waiting for the shipping now..
i m going to Japan on Wed.... hopefully can get the computer before i go, and hope
everything is gonna be fine...

i miss honey so much, and yea..... excited to see him again, excited to visit a new
country i havent been to. i dont know how its gonna be like....
i asked him if he's happy to see me, he said sure. sometimes its hard to tell if a person
is being honest or not... but then.... yea, you would know in time.
i do appreciate his effort helping me with the route, map, and other information...
i really wanna just stay with him, i really do... i just wanna be with him..
are we gonna stay together and become husband and wife later?

>>February 27, 2011 at 4:14:55 PM GMT+8

2011 年 2 月 21 日 星期一 【晴】

i've been quite unhappy the past few days.

i was wondering if i should try taking the computer to refund..
but the problem was i didnt wanna go through the problems again.
i called to Apple, but they didnt accept my case. i called to that company before too, but i was
so pissed off. coz the first time that guy said no no and no. he was kind of rude. then i called
again, and they never picked up my calls since then. i was really upset. i knew it was my
problem but i did want the refund, especially i dont trust that company and i dont want the
deal with them for my computer. i kindda feel bad coz it was my responsibility to check
what i bought but i didnt, i havent done enough research about the new version coming,
and i shouldnt have expected the same service as Apple. so...... i had my fault.

but then, i went to the store today with my parents. we met after work..
i got it refunded. and yesterday i went back to City Super to exchange the bag.
sigh............. i felt bad although i got the computer refunded. it was my first mac, but also
i had to return it due to my personal problem :( i feel bad for the sales person too...
it's not totally his fault, but his company is gonna blame him for everything.
after i got the payment back, i might write a comment card to this company for the help
with the return policy. they didnt wanna let me return the computer, but then i told them
the problems and troubles i have gone through just coz he didnt remind me and didnt
tell me rather it was the 13'' or 15'' but then of course i was responsible for that..
anyway, they let me return it coz they were rude on phone before, then they admitted
they were not careful with the procedure. sigh.......... it really was my fault.

i dont understand how come companies are so fucked up these days..
if they do their business honestly, keep the customers happy then customers would
come back. but i also understand there are some bad ppl abusing their good services,
or stupid companies think they could cut down budget on costs so they changed rules.
should we blame ourselves then? to be honest, i didnt want to return the computer.
i think it was a waste, but i really cant stand their attitude and the way they treated
me and my computer... so... even though i could get the money back, i m not happy.
it kindda feel like my mac is gone for some stupid reasons, and it could have been
avoided. but it's also a good thing, coz i dont need to say bye to my old laptop yet.
i have been using it everyday, before grad, after grad, when i stayed in Van a few times,
after i came back to HK till now.. ha.....

anyway, dad wasnt on my side before... and i was debating myself if i should go today.
i was off at 6, i dont go off early till the end of this month.. so today was my only chance.
then i was gonna accept it and let go of it, then dad called mom, mom called me asking
if i really wanted the refund. i said i didnt know... but at the end, they brought the computer
and met me at the shop. dad knew it was my problem, but he came. he said he also
understand sometimes shop did dishonest business and he hated that. so even though
he knew it was my fault, he came helping me. thank dad and mom.

anyway, i dont have my new computer now.. and when i buy it again, i m going to buy
it directly from Apple. but it wont be any soon though......................

how's my honey?
i havent talked with him for 2 days or 3 days now?

i went to the bank today to get currency. its all done now..
i m gonna see him so soon... in about a week?

after tonight, i do wonder.... what customer service is... coz... i always think if i didnt do
wrong or if my company didnt do anything wrong, then i dont think i should offer free
gifts of promotion to those bitchy assholes i always see at work. but somehow at the
end they always get what they want. and i always have to deal with them, and some of
them are the total bitch or just idiots.. i dont like them and i dont like the bull shit policies
or ''rules'' we are following. i think they are all faked and its just some kind of product
of the marketing things. i used to love customer services coz i love to help ppl. i love
helping ppl... but these days.... if i stand at my company's side then i m offending those
asshole customers. if i stand at their side sometimes, i m cheating on my company.
but at the end, i m supposed to entertain and fulfill their unrealistic wishes. if i m being
too easy, they are definitely gonna abuse me, they always do anyway. i dont know why
chinese ppl are like that. i hate us. if i m using my own judgment then i get pretty upset
easily every day. and my day is soooooo long. then the traffic is like adding so much
stress on me everyday before and after work... 1.5 hrs on the way to work, 1.5 hrs
after work... i m exhausted.

i wanna be a flight attendant. do you think i still have the potential to do it?
i study psychology, how come i havent been applying what i 've learnt to my work life?
sometimes i do ask myself what's wrong with me now?
why i lost my confidence sometimes, why i changed so much since i m back.
i m not as patient to ppl, i m much more assertive which is good, but at the same time
i m more easily irritated or annoyed by the rude ppl i see everyday. i dont know if it's a
good or bad thing. i just know that's the way it is... i can see lots of fake faces now,
i can tell if ppl are lying and i cant accept ppl like that. please tell me, why are we human
being have to be so selfish and ugly? and me too......... i have thought about just let it
be, dont return the computer. but when i gave up, then my mom called me, then at the
end i still went there and saw more ugly truth and saw that guy got into troubles coz of me.







>>February 22, 2011 at 5:02:26 PM GMT+8

2011 年 2 月 18 日 星期五 【晴】

i'm so pissed off today...

i have seen too many assholes before work, at work, and after work.
i m so sick of the traffic, i m so sick of those selfish ppl. so sick of them.
one day if i quit my job, one of the biggest reasons would be about the traffic.
then i'm having problems with my new laptop. it's just the old version of the software,
and not the size i wanted, then the new version of the computer is probably coming next week.
so right now i m so disappointed and very upset actually. thanks honey for telling me though.
otherwise, i wouldnt even notice the problems. i do wonder if i was that stupid couldnt
find the problems when i bought it or what. i would never trust the Chinese companies
that easily anymore. its like even they have the license to sell, they are not being honest
selling the product. how dare they still sell me the care plan, its just fucking bull shit.
i didnt buy their plan coz i knew there were tricks. i just confronted them to get the truth.
i just wasnt aware that they would even sell the wrong software and gave me a wrong
size but didnt tell me. yes i should have checked every detail, i just didnt expect the ugly
truth what i m experiencing now. if they dont refund it, i m gonna complain to Apple, and
the consumer council.

at work, nothing special, just meeting more assholes and bitches..
the weather is terrible, its so dark and wet.
:( i dont like it.

>>February 19, 2011 at 5:45:18 PM GMT+8