2011 年 7 月 20 日 星期三 【晴】

hello..

its been very busy these days.
i m not happy at work as usual, but i m just trying to do my best so i could have
less troubles or be hated less among the bitches. oh i hate it.
lucky i have *J, *K, and *C... the new two girls are not bitchy to me, at least not yet.
got lots of work to do, was stressed and intimidated by those bitches..
ppl on train are crazy, stepping on me and not appologizing, jumping in line and
pretending nothing. kids bouncing ard, ppl talk so loud on phone or to each others.
no personal space, ppl's bags are flying, keep pushing and dont know how to
respect ppl. i m so stressed, i really am. i dont think i m good but there are so many
horrible ppl standing next to me. and especially the old guys uncles, they are just
pure jerks and assholes. looking at me with the weird look, they look like they'd never
seen a woman or touched a woman for long. its fucking disgusting. it made me mad.

today i stayed at work over time, doing some doc things... the whole file got problem,
so bascially we needed to erase all the tenant's info for that company, and re-entry
the data, re-do all the registration procedure for each tenants from that company.
there were like at least 150 ppl. it was my supervisor's work, but she didnt finish coz
she had something else to do, so she asked me to work on that. and the phone never
really stopped ringing, called from outside, called from our other department. then
also got some other registration requests and got a few problem call-in. then, lots of
visitors or tenants were lost coz of the construction work. so i was like one person
doing three tasks, and i couldnt make any mistakes especially for those data
entry. coz otherwise, the tenants wouldnt be able to access the tower with their original
card. like 150 ppl. if that happens, that company is gonna be so mad at us, and make
huge complain. then, the whole management office would bitch at us, and i d get into
a big trouble.

i miss honey, i m gonna take 1 more student to help me save more money.
i m planning to see him in Sep or Oct. i do miss him too much.

>>July 21, 2011 at 12:23:48 PM GMT+8

2011 年 7 月 18 日 星期一 【晴】

work is tough, life is tough.
i just want him and my family and friends.

>>July 19, 2011 at 4:06:35 PM GMT+8

2011 年 7 月 16 日 星期六 【晴】

:(



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i m not very happy..
mom was okay during the trip, but after back home she's back to the same stage.
it does concern me.

i miss honey as well. dont know how he is. havent got the chance to chat since last
week. so... havent really talked since before i went on trip.

work was so so... bitches causing me stress. i really dont quite understand them.
but whatever, i cant care too much. i have more important things to worry about.
just really pisses me off when i think about my job and the girls there.
*J was upset today... after work, we went for dessert. wanted to get a drink but
she has early shift tmr, so we went for dessert instead. i had some fruit frappicino.
she told me lots of stuffs about her and her bf, and we talked about work as well.
hate the girls there. one of the guy from the other team wanted to date me next week.
i think i m much older than him, i hope he understands. he's been asking for
a few times already, he wanted me to let him treat me dinner. i dont do that...
i usually separate bill if i go out with guy friends, unless they really insist to pay for me,
then i d get them something else in return. coz, that shows clearly i m not admitting
anything. and its just weird.. obviously i m older than him. its just no-no.
its very strange. lately my former student Ying contacted me again. she doesnt
usually do that. humm...

today, i especially miss honey so much. sigh. where's he?
tmr, i'd be off.. i think i d just spend time with mom, have lunch with her and see
how things go.. i dont wanna hang out at the mall.. not that i hate it, well i dont really
like it if there're too many ppl.. i just wanna rest and relax rather than staying in the
crowd and noise. i wanna stay home actually. i wanna watch tv or movie at home.
i wanna chat with honey, but i dont know if he'd be on line.. then i wanna go to a few
shops as well, so, i dont know...

>>July 17, 2011 at 7:26:24 PM GMT+8

2011 年 7 月 13 日 星期三 【晴】

hi there,

i m home...
very tired today. came back to hk last night, got home ard 11 30..
the trip was okay actually. not getting enough rest not like last time in Japan. i like both.
family trip is always nice i dont know why, but it's a bit tiring for sure. coz 5 of us do
things together, always have different ideas, then need to discuss and make decision.
but somehow it's alright. we always compromise in the end and be happy, just enjoy
the time we could be together on the trip. we're not like the perfect family on tv drama
or whatever, we're pretty down to earth yet get a little childish at times.
so yea, a 3-day trip is done. i didnt really do any shopping only buying some
water, coffee or food. i didnt get anything for myself at all. that's alright.
but i still havent got time to organize my things or upload pics... so tired...

i seriously hope mom is feeing better now. we had the family talk.
we want her to relax and just rest, she really needs to rest and relax.

i miss honey everyday... i was thinking of him everyday. i couldnt go on line when i was
there, but i did think of him a lot. wherever i went, i thought of him. yea, even when i was
with my family, i do think of him. i emailed him today at work.. i went to the post office
today. hope he would get my package soon.

i went to work today... i guess only *J, *C and *K have noticed my absence the
past few days. coz only they have asked about my day-offs and said missed me.
the others, when i greeted them, they didnt even notice i was not at work. so its like,
whatever. i chatted with them for being polite only, coz we are a team. but personally,
i seriously have no interests chatting with them. i wouldnt want to talk with ppl who
dont care about me or treat me like the alien.

ahhhhh i miss my honey..

>>July 14, 2011 at 5:26:28 PM GMT+8

2011 年 7 月 10 日 星期日 【晴】

well, i m saying goodbye to HK for a few days..
at least now, i m gonna getaway from work and HK.

i miss honey, wanna be with him.. wanna go with him or we could travel together..
not this time though, we cant this time. but yea, i rather he's here with me or i m there..

back in awhile.

>>July 11, 2011 at 12:13:41 AM GMT+8

2011 年 7 月 7 日 星期四 【晴】

i had a very long day at work..
pretty tired... dont really like it, hate working with the bitches.
but i guess before i leave, i need to stick with them for awhile.
i had 1 hr with *J today, so yea, at least we could chi chat a bit.
then, also... i met with Ivy after work. so good to see her again.
we talked and had dinner at KFC, then walked ard and i did some shopping at the drug store.
then also had dessert with her. it was cool. we talked and laughed. just girls' talk.
talk about work and life and relationship and family things. i didnt talk much about my
relationship though. she knew i was shopping for honey, she knew the situation is hard.
she knew it, coz hers wasnt any greater. well, we joked about lots of stuffs today and
we laughed. i guess thats the happy part with friends. can talk about everything and
laugh at things, nothing stressful, but could share tears as well. comparing with those
bitches at work, its like hell and the heaven, friends are real. *J and *C are okay,
*K is fine too.. but *L is gone now, *F is gone too.. so... i only have *J and * C now.
the rest are just horrible. it doesnt matter, i prefer alone if i need to be surrounded by them.

anyway, i bought the medicine for honey. he couldnt find it there, i should get some for
him here. i dont know if i could make the post pack tmr before work. will try.
otherwise need to wait till next Thurs. its late.

i found this song online just now.. sounds nice..... hummm..
but it also makes me miss him more..
my right-eyelid kept jumping. usually its nothing good. i hope he's alright there.
i miss him much.




>>July 8, 2011 at 4:32:09 PM GMT+8

2011 年 7 月 6 日 星期三 【晴】

tired..... really tired...

why does that bug me that much?
''i m just trying to do my job. to you, maybe i suck, but i m trying to get better now.
and the thing is.... dont put your theory on me, coz that's definitely WRONG.
wrong for me, just wrong. i m not like you, not as bitchy as you, not as fucking
annoying as you, not as horrible as you. there's nothing to do with the way how i write
things down. as long as you fucking understand what's going on, then you should
shut up and do your work, not come picking on me for such tiny minor thing, which
doesnt affect anyone at all. NOTHING at all. if you have time, go change the front
or the colour of the info folder again as you always do. leave me alone, dont bitch to me.
i m so sick and tired of your sick voice complaining about this or that or this person
or that person. shut up!!''

sigh. one day when i finally leave, i m gonna tell her that.
right now, i wanna just do whatever i can to stay out of the terrible girls game.
i cant handle more. i dont wanna get them mad at me for more, coz i really dislike their
attitude. but i need to do something to make myself clear i didnt do anything wrong.
otherwise, my supervisor is gonna bitch at me again. i m so sick and tired of that already.
like, so sick so sick and tired of that. i m trying to take things easy there, i m learning to
not to panic about their horrible things. i m learning to accept that's how things are
here. i m learning not to think so much.

honey and i were chatting yesterday.. i also went to the post office as well..
i paid my student loans, my first time installment. a lot of money there.
then i also sent the package to him. i dont know... i'd like to see him actually.

>>July 7, 2011 at 4:27:35 PM GMT+8

2011 年 7 月 4 日 星期一 【晴】

so tired... so busy..
too much stuffs.

i went back to work today..
i went to the exhibition and had dinner with my family yesterday.
took some pics, tried to upload them... lots of things to do beside that..
preparing lesson plans and materials for my student.. lots of work.
then, today i had mandarin class at work. not very easy but okay.
i did some shopping for honey today, nothing fancy.
i also went to the bank today during lunch. very rushy. very tiring.
then i need to go to the post office tmr, i need to pay my student loan.
then i need to go pay my phone bill as well. then i need to go printing my materials.
early shift tmr, and after work have tutoring. very tiring..

i m looking forward to my next day off next week... gonna be a 3 day-offs.
then, might be out of town, mom needs some getaway. i need it too.
mom has been unwell since grandpa left. hope she'll feel better soon.

hopefully tmr i get some private time alone at work, so i could do more prep for
the tutorial, and also need time to organize my stuffs and my schedule.
but i guess i wont, hopefully it'd be okay.....

fuck, i only have 4 hrs for sleep now..

i miss honey, hope i could send him the pics tmr..

>>July 5, 2011 at 5:31:04 PM GMT+8

2011 年 7 月 1 日 星期五 【晴】

i m not very happy today.
they are really selfish. i dont know how long i can put up with that.
i wanna get out from there..

they... really are just pure bitches.
:'(

someone left, he left us cakes from yesterday.. then they put their name outside the
box to reserve those, they didnt leave any for me or the others. i didnt see any cakes
yesterday, i was off early, then i came to work this morning and saw the notice on the
cake box about the cake, then i opened it and saw their names there. i was like what
the hell? so they didnt save any for me and the others? the new girl, *their friend
was off yesterday but she shared a piece as well. so.... why?

then i was with *Yn at my last hr... she confronted me about some work stuffs.
she asked me why asking about the stroller if it was lost. i told her coz *Ky told me it
was lost at *My's hr. but *My told him it wasnt her, she saw it missing when she got
there, and i was before *My. so she was implying it was me. what the fuck? i told *Ky
that's impossible, coz there were 2 there when i left, and the guy came borrowing it
when i was about to leave. the form was missing after i left, not when i was there.
i told *Yn that coz the problem is i was concerned when i was told the form was missing.
so i asked. then she said the stroller was still in the store room, not landed. i told her
then dont blame me coz i was told about that stroller was landed but the form was
missing. she confronted me why bothered since that stroller was broken and should
be at the store room. i told her no. coz sometimes it was available after so-called fixed.
even the manager knew it, and no one ever 100% confirmed with that. then we both
went silent for awhile.

that was my last hr of today shift. she said she was very hungry. then i let her go first,
though i should be leaving before her actually. i stayed and waited for that another bitch
*My, then she was pretty late. i knew she would be late coz of her location was far.
but then she was like REALLY late. she came 13 mins late, and she was smiling when
she came. asked me if i was in a hurry, i said no but i needed to go to the washroom.
she said she wanted to go to washroom first. i was like alright go ahead. what else am
i supposed to say? then it took forever. when she came back she was smiling but didnt
even say thank you. its like... what the fuck? i wouldnt get paid if i worked over time.
i stayed for doing them both good, but they didnt even appreciate that. so its like...
i m so sick and tired of them.

at the train station today i was so pissed off at the women there. when the train was
coming, that mainland lady was behind me and she talked so loud. she pushed and
stood next to me. i looked at her and ignored her. then she pushed and jumped in tried
to get in front of me. i was so pissed, my words just came so naturally, i said to her
if she could just waited instead. i was like.... so tired.. so tired.

>>July 2, 2011 at 1:42:54 PM GMT+8

2011 年 6 月 30 日 星期四 【晴】

i m so tired today... so tired..
humm i talked with honey last night..
i'd like to see him soon actually.... i really do.
i miss him..
i saw his name got ''HK'' i was like what? how come he has "HK" under his name.
but i guess he wasnt here, was he? if he was here then why not letting me know?

anyway, i dont want to work tmr.
today sucks. so busy, really busy.. i worry about tmr more though..
the ppl are just idiots. so selfish, so annoying. i dont find them as serious before,
they couldnt affect me as much before, but these days i m under so high stress at
work, facing them and feeling like in a war or something, i m just really sick and tired.
and also need to change my schedule, need to make a few calls, and need to
do a lot of work actually. and my salary has problems.. i m really tired.....
i cant lose any money now.

i need to go to bed now... Gees i m exhausted..

Happy Canada day by the way..
i hope he's alright..

>>July 1, 2011 at 3:57:05 PM GMT+8