last night, we chat till the morning...6:00
i felt good after chating. really really thankyou for the sharing.
then i went to his home to finish my writing and listen his work =)
last night, i havent posted my second part here, i put it in the private way.
it's about some misunderstanding with someone, there're too much tricky dependent.
and i think it's too ashamed for me to say it out...
especially when that guy comes and see. only four people knows it right now...
that guy, guy's friend , me and shan. hum,...... maybe i will tell jackie also... coz she is my best fren too.
anyway... i dont wanna make any mistick or misunderstanding between me and him.
if he acts like all is misunderstanding, i perfer to trust him.
if it's not the misunderstanding... then.... i just want to say... make it clear plx.
在 city super 裡面…連看更見到我咁唔妥都識得過來問我要唔要幫助…
我好希望我d 朋友仔可以….用個心去細看一下身邊既人同事.
>>April 15, 2004 at 5:58:07 PM GMT+8
2004 年 4 月 13 日 星期二 【陰】
Today is a working day... for my paper.
i just buy the book 咖啡王傳奇.. that's a story of starbucks.
hum,... that's why i come so early today. i tend to write the first part diary now... and write back
the other part tonight =)
just now, i got ince's mail! haha... so early to get my birthday card and present !
he sends me a necklace, nice nice... is it made in newzealand? haha... i dont think so~ but it doesnt matter!
thanks for him~
he got a nice and pretty girlfriend ~ and his girl was born in june too! ^^
perhaps he will prepare a nicerrrrrrrrr present for her~
write back soon.
>>April 14, 2004 at 9:15:44 AM GMT+8
2004 年 4 月 12 日 星期一 【晴】
haha...
today i go to school taking my bis exam in tst.
however, when i see kitson, i feel so scared ...
he just...provoke calais... haha! calais seat behind him... i saw kitson come and attack him!
haha!!! and i shout out "och~! " haha! then... he comes to me ,he tries to so the same thing to me...
i just run away , refuse him~ haha.. i ask him to stay off.
exam is fine. after that i take lunch with rachel. we go mcdonald's.
i take the happy meal .
and ... she told me about the camping. she got lots of fun. but i think it doesnt coz of the actitives flow.
but they've a lot of private party time~ haha!
then, i accompany her to interview . after this, i go home with joey and vincent.
i know where vincent lives now.
today ... just fine.
but i think i'm still in sick.
i'm going to start my paper tomorrow, i gota buy a book tomorrow, hum,....i really need to work hard.
i dont want to lose my degree. *sigh...
in my heart ...
something is very important... but i dont act like this. maybe just covered it...but not by purpose.
some people are meaningful to me, but i didnt show them. i wanna, but i didnt. just put it inside.
chances come and go ... i tried hard , to learn how to share with others.
it's hard for me anyway... i can share my difficults to anyone, any of you can get my concern,
but not everyone can understand me. maybe fews of? it's a nice answer already.
sometimes it's frustrated . i think my good friend will know me, will understand me, but they dont.
am i that bad ? is it the right comunication? i can give everything, but so what.
everything people do must for at least one reason what? no reason coz you dont know the reason only.
if i'm just the surplus ... ok . i shut up.
today ... i saw that hateful guy, i told him i will quit. he just laughing and say good.
he even doesnt glance at me. he doesnt respect me. this's not the 1 st time... i feel so ashamed.
ok fine. it's not nessary to saty . i'm that shit in the union right? haha ....so frustated...
what i have worried for them are just the shit. it's the problem of attitude.
just keep moving. nothing more i can do.
i remind myself i have to have faith in god, in any ways. fine....
i have to trust myself trust others. make things easy , but it seems so useless.
just make it simple, i do what for only oneself , why do i do, coz wanna others feel peace and warm.
maybe i go wrong way, but it's not my want. i'm so sorry... i have tried my best... always.
only God would understand all, perhaps He forgives my wrongs.
plx clean my sin, take away pain. i really really tried hard , i havent give up yet.
i need God to help , to guide me . i know i'm not perfect, perhaps i can accept myself first.
>>April 13, 2004 at 2:38:33 PM GMT+8
2004 年 4 月 12 日 星期一 【晴】
今日我返早班...好靜. 但後來就好忙...!!!
好辛苦,好難過d時間... 可能因為我心急想見返joey佢地, 又想俾個supprise calais 喎.
好似未出發先興奮咁... 我成日都看著 個 watch... 時間過得好慢...
後來我知道我原先既諗法好似唔 work 喎,我都幾擔心ga. 但係太累... 車上睡著了.
後來,我知道之後就真係有d down down 地,不過好快就無事lu~我都明白事理既~
反而諗緊好唔好同joey佢地食野.
因為好耐無見,同埋我都有小小避開佢地..(係我自己心理問題)
但係...諗諗下...我都係想見佢地喎...所以最終都係去左囉~
好耐無一起吃飯~~~lu~ 第一眼見到joey, 好想攬著佢. 咁我真係走過去攬住佢喎~撓住佢
叫左句 mami~~ 哈哈~
頭先呀淳send me home 喎...我地又係 shan 留下同佢傾計喎~ 哈哈!好好笑ga.
仲有啊...唔同既人係唔同佢人群裡面有唔同既 acting.
就好似呀淳咁.我真係feel 到佢既 唔同gor wor~ i mean 只係係朋友既圈子裡面.
hee... 不過 maybe it's good for him. =)
喂喂..今日呀 chris 生日啊.我無搵佢喎..我都唔記得左佢生日...i mean 今日太累,太忙
我昨晚 sleep 左2 hrs 咋. 不過就算記得都唔會再call佢.
我之前 send 左 張 card俾佢. that's all enough.
joey同我講,叫 我小心d...唔好用第2個人去忘記以前既人. she means (用第三者 去忘記chris)
我話我無. 佢問我有無拍拖...我無......哈哈...唉... jackie叫我小心d...要帶眼識人...ok...fine...
哈哈!! 佢地似乎有d暗示... fine...
忘記 chris 是主既幫助...主已經解決左我既 困難. 放心啦.
我無事喎, 我真係 take over 左喇... 你地唔信啊? 我認真ga~
我now 好 free 喎~ 我認真 ga~! 係因為上次 lsc 個camp 嘛...明白嗎? 哈哈~
goodnight castor =)
and good night to someone who is reading my diary right now.
give you a nice smile to thank you =)
Today here is full of sickness in my family.
mon , dad and leggy sick, and maggie didny feel well last night...
only me is fine...
i dont know what to say.
hum,...well, i wanna go jogging, but too lazy to run.
and i wanna stay with them.
i will do my eng soon.
and... lastnight, my friend told me that ch has girlfriend already, and his girl is my friend's friend.
wow...complicated relationship. anyway, he's like chris, but not chris.
and i wont fall with him coz he got gf. i told my friend that's serious if she let others know about it.
coz the relationship is a bit complicated. by the way, i just told my friend he's like chris.
hum,...just know i talk with ince, nice chat.
we talk about many things... and.. he makes me think twice on the relationship.
better pray more.
anyway, gotta stop. i wanna go off now.
i wont spend too much time on net. i will do better job in studies and work.
perhaps that all will become fine soon.
and i dont want to hurt myself and waste my time.
if i cant fix my problems, i wont fall with anyone.
soma will have the performance on 8th.
god bless... and remember to bring a real heart to do the job.
we have to glory Him not to provide a musical show for them.
good show man...
我本來今日要去camp,但係我都無去.
話我意氣用事又好,咩都好,我就係唔滿意,就係覺得應該要好好咁示威一次.
我係學生會裡面做野唔係做左好耐,只係短短1/2年.
但係我好心淡.我覺得自己係無責任要去陪學生會繼續落去.我覺得留低係好無意思.
所以我決定要離職.
本來我都好有心去繼續努力ga,我諗著好好咁同大家一起並肩作戰,但係我覺得...
慢慢我自己既心已經唔係咁諗囉. 我想做得好d,想得到at least 75%同學既認同,但我發現係無可能囉.
係team work既問題... 我唔想再係咁落去.咁,...不如我自己離職啦.
其實我本來打算係遲d先離職既...因為我跟進開一樣幾重要既野.
但係我真係好心淡,好氣憤.
我落心落力去做學生會,每一次我要做既野,有咩係做得唔好?需 要提醒既地方我做到足.
我唔係話要認叻,領工,但係有唔好既地方就係要人去 tick it out ga啦.
咁滿意既咪自己做好d囉.我做好自己既責任有咩唔好? 我覺得我唔可以再同學生會既人共事落去囉.
佢既然可以用粗口去鬧我,仲鬧我媽咪既,我對呢個人都無野講囉.
well, 我唔會再理會學生會d野.
好開心啦, 19號個星期開始我就會調去公關部. hee~ 咁我都好大機會會同ch合作.
唔知啊,最近...見到佢時,總會怪怪地...
做野都幾辛苦, 因為...點講呢...有d客都幾麻煩.我都幾心煩,有累...
但我都要學去忍耐啦,學習什麼是服務既精神. 唔係單單因為收人人工先俾笑容,
先努力去學習,而係由心去做,諗下...如果一個好既服務係會令人食野食得開心,have a good time
既,點解唔做好呢.
anyway, it would be fine.
heehee~ 我其實都幾開心,因為d客對我都幾nice啦,都會有讚許既回應~ hee~
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
last night, we chat till the morning...6:00
last night, i havent posted my second part here, i put it in the private way.
Today is a working day... for my paper.
haha...
Today here is full of sickness in my family.
Someone who know