last night i've message him when i was plainting the thing for him.
that'd be our fisrt dating present~ heehee ^^ so sweet~
one pair... hand made. there's only only only one pair in this world.
and i know we'll like it very much =) heehee.
Today morning, i wake up late.
then i take lunch with parents outside.
after lunch, we went home watching tv... heehee stairway to heaven
then...
i went out with joey.
she wanna see my new look.
i've sent some messages out... but he didnt reply me.
then... when i was with joey... messages come.
i've got his, he says... in nov,
he'll be very busy in weekdays.
i dont know when 'd be suitable for us to meet.
i wanna make it in dec, coz i could stay longer. but... about his operation...
what should i do jesus?
today, mom and dad joking... if i get marry so soon, with the rich man, then i dont need to study.
coz of my cury hair man?! oh my.... i'm myslef being, an independent girl.
mom says i look prettier and mature, not like a little child anymore.
she kidding that ask my aunt in vancover looking for someone for me.
oh no.... haha... of course i didnt tell them i've boyfriend in singapore already.
i look at my dad, he smile at me... haha... i laugh then... * embrassed.*
they're always like that.
joey says it's like 50's ? haha! i'm like being a 50's woman?! oh no !!!
haha i joked with darling... i've perm my hair, and... traditional feeling?
haha... then he aska me dont tell him i'm auntie looking.
no la.... it's fashionable, quite nice actually.
i feel like it's like a doll more than woman.
in fact, that's the new tech from japan, not bad la...
however, i said if he doesnt like it, then he'd dump me, haha.
we'd see so soon...
hum... haha... waiting for it.
looking forward the day coming.
he's very busy now... perhaps he'd takre care of himself very very well.
Thanks for god,
i've a pretty day today.
thx for the gift from you ^^
吉祥說... i must stay strong.
難道不 strong, 就沒資格當他的女朋友嗎?
噢... 原來是這樣子的.
(我好想說一些癈話, 氣話... 可是... 不了. 我停止. 免得說錯話.)
>>October 19, 2004 at 1:10:36 PM GMT+8
2004 年 10 月 17 日 星期日 【晴】
Thanks for all of you...
Yup,
He's fine now, but still have to rest very well.
But just now, we two got misunderstanding.
we've sms each others alot just now.
and... i've asked too much i think.
i think it's my fault. i 've asked too much...
i've apologized... but dont know the message lend there already or not.
and... i feel so bad.
long time cant contact him, but i bring him bad feelings...
and... hum... i dont know him much, you know.
seems like he thinks that i'm sassy...
but you know, as my name smoo sassy rowdyruff.
maybe i'm really a sassy girl..... ><
ai...
i'm so sorry.
tomorow i got exam,
after lunch, i back home with mom,
then start studying. but it's not working man...
i message him and studying at the same time...
perhaps ... he would understand that... i didnt mean to argue with him.
i've said... i'm not asking for agure.
by the way, my pc got problems, completely down.
i cant use mine to do stuffs... and now, i'm sitting at my mom's room. ai... i cant stat in front of pc for long.
however... i dont know wether he knows i've wrte a lot about him on this diary.
me so lame already...
his clerk knows all of my message... so lame me......
but just coz of that, we start argue?!
that's so.... sh***tttt.... ai~
=<
how many pieces of " i love you " can express my my feelings?
how many days and night could let me to let you know i'm really really trying my best for you?
how many many many many tears could tell you that i dont want to argue with you,
but just coz of a small misunderstanding? " i dont know you hate people asking your private affairs"
" i've never got chances to know about maybe..."
i'm so sorry.
i just ... want to say... i dont know what to say, just.... relax?
thx for god anyway, thx for all my friends supporting me during these 3 weeks.
>>October 18, 2004 at 1:41:30 PM GMT+8
2004 年 10 月 17 日 星期日 【晴】
Hi ~
Goodafternoon.
Last night, computer down... then i cant come here writing diary.
and today, i waked by the message...
heeheeeehhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
i got the message from Benny! My dearest!
~
Finally He 's out from the hospital.
but coz of the operation, still cant speak.
hum... i felt so glad and excited~
=)
but i dont know what to say, dont know what to do...
i just feel like... congraduation and... i dont know. that's really great, he's fine.
all i want is ... to thanks for god.
love... is a kind of... blessing... from god, from others, from surrounding.
have i finished my work already?
haha... that's really great to know about he's fine... haha...
blessing... thanks... love... thanks...
i've thought a lot to do when he contact me... but...haha...
now, i dont know what to do...haha...
hum....ha... au- huh..
all is great, nothing more need to do... coz... that's all already.. haha..
>>October 18, 2004 at 5:28:54 AM GMT+8
2004 年 10 月 15 日 星期五 【晴】
I'm so tired...
you know... i'm so tired...
Today, i've to work, at the morning i 've found that i got 2 missed calls.
one from joey, one from sankie, since last night around mid night.
i go to store 151, tsim tong plaza to take over. from 1- 4... for the ronald's show.
hum... the first time to take over , i feel so glad, but you know...actually ive no mood at all, haha.
you know, before 1 pm, i was holding a birthday party.
that really killed me. mess....
supossed to leve at 12:30, but i left at 12:50 from my store. but the party not finished yet...
we got compliant from the customers. but you know, i was not the holder at the party.
and my buddies... you know... i dont know what to say.
well, i run (is runing! through the subway, mtr station, streets...)
to 151, oh my god... my foots are so pain... i was late.
then... after half of an hour, show started... i played with childern.
they makde up so well, haha... heloween ~~~ haha... they re so cute~
but i'm so tired.
mr. donald played with them, migic time... well... haha... nice and fun~
after the show, i played with the children and just take some pictures with them.
then i go back to my store, starII house.
and then i keep helping in birthday party...
people, the children are crazy~~~ i played with them... i'm like...uh~~~.... a silly teacher.
haha... anyway, it's better than staying at the kicten or counter.
i take break then leave.
i've got the message from sunny, he's around, and i 've got the sms from jackie!!!
my dear jackie!!! oh how i missssss her~~~~~
i didnt reply her sms then delete hers. coz.. i dont want to keep message inbox.
i've wrote her a letter at train to home. hum... its a long time havent her news too.
but you know, we via e-mails most, and she asked me to write her letters~ haha...
i've told her a lot about me and benny... i wanted to cry on bus and train. but i didnt.
if she were here, i'd hug her... and cried to her... she's not here... but i know she's in my heart,
never left me. i miss her soooo much. she's my best friend.
jackie..... jackie..... i need your support. jackie... i feel so bad. my eyes are wet.
well.... anyway,
today morning, i was at store, playing with a very very very naughty blone baby.
he runs runs and runs.
i twished a ballnoon, i make it like a dog to him. he.......
then i make a soul to him....then....
oh... i got to chase him at his back to stop him run into the toliet. he sings ...
haha... Eniem.
i'm so tired...
i'm always thinking that someday... he will come to me then say hi so suddenly,
but i couldnt regonize him... but i would when he talks to me.
ah..haha... i'm day dreaming right?
i know... it's kinda impossible. dont be crazy girl... you shouldnt think that much.
may god bless you all the time.
blessings is not for all the people in this world.
people not in god cant take the blessing.
may god lead me to walk along.
i' ve to thanks for god.
you know, at the morning, i'm waked by my mom. daddy and mom drive to sha tin.
then we 3 go to have lunch together... chinese food.
you know, i'm very fortunate one. coz my parents love me so much.
after lunch, dad goes to work... and mom and me go walk around.
i've seen sunny today, at sha tin.
but i didnt greet him, coz he's in crushed, and i s with my mom. we're finding washroom.
haha...
then i went to school, meet joey at the hung hom kcr station.
then we've seen vincent at the bus station.
we'd comper make up class today at tst. long time havent come over this center.
well... not really concentrated in class. still fine... alright.
and i've chated with net friends in class via msn. haha...
me and joey went to tea after school.
then i sent her to her "french" class center. then i go take train to home.
i'm so tired today.
last night, i've asked myself some questions... i didnt cry.
but in my heart.... there's nothing better than tears. i've cried in my heart already.
no more tears.... as my nick in msn... ( but i cant type chinese now...so i cant type it out)
[be more self interested, but cant stop thinking of you... what to do.]
how to balance it? i smile everyday, coz i still have to live along... but am i happy?
nope... i'm not.
why dont i .... just put down the stuffs, going over to find him out... if i really love him shouldnt i do that?
i should... i got money, passport is near to me... but i still havent step in for it.
i dont want to lie to anyone anymore.
when i was so young, around 5 year-old. i've made a big, very big mistake but just coz of bored.
i'd lied. coz of it... my mom and my gand pa gand ma.... my relatives.... having a big misunderstanding.
this makes our relationships very very worse till now...
i had told my mom that was me to make the things became that worst...
but she didnt trust me... but you know, i was 5 only. how could a little child coud be that sinful?!
i dont know... i just know that i hate people lie, no matter is the white lie or black.
if i told my parents i leave for a few days, coz of the school camping... that's so unair to them, to me,
and to my sisters. what would they think if they know their older sister lied to parents, then go fly over.
if they dont know of it... then... i cant... i cant i cant forgive myself anymore.
but if i dont lie to them... how to explain to them i've to go sg for a few days?
they wont accept on it !
'wo de ni"... everytime i listen to this sound track, my eyes would get wet.
just now,in class, i've sent him e-mail... dont know he got my letters or not.
i saw his name on my list... eyes wet......
i feel like if i forget him, it's so unfair to him. i cant hurt him, as the promise.
i've promised him i'd never left him before he really given up.
on the way to hun hom, i've told joey that it feels like i've lost my boyfriend already.
joey replied... yup... you've lost him already, since long ago. i laughed then quiet.
i smile, laugh everyday... but... it doesnt mean i'm happy. coz i'm really sad and worried.
ji xiang, ni kuai yi diang zhao wo.... wo hao pa ... hao ... pa... wo hui wan ji ni.
ni zhi dao ma... wo zheng de hao xiang ni... hao xiang hao xiang ni...
i'm coming soon.... wait for me.
cant give up, ok ? i dont mind we 'd break up, but i do mind your health.
nothing is more important then your life, ok?
i'd forgive you everything eventhough you've lied to me all the things...
but at least you let me know... you're safe! i just need you to be safe, nothing more.
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
hihi.
剛才去了 sha tin, 第一次在 味千 吃拉面. 和 shan 吃啦,
今天...
今日是考試的日子,
I'm so tired...
Someone who know