Now, i'm at school, at classroom...
lunch break.
haha... dont want to eat, then nothing to do.
today morning i go to school with shan and fai.
we chat alots...
then i feel much better.
and then just now, i was in class, and i cried.
i try hard to control myself... even cring i'm still tring hard to focus on notes.
i was listening to class, i just want to control myself...
i'm a bit sick after the coffe...
i dont know what to do, i keep waiting for his call. i'm so worried.
haha... i want to cry.
perhaps... i'll get his reply later before home.
after school, i'll go post office to send him letter.
i wrote letter till 2:30 am... haha... what to do...
>>October 5, 2004 at 4:42:19 AM GMT+8
2004 年 10 月 4 日 星期一 【晴】
天國的階梯插曲歌詞
想念你------金范秀
無論如何也無法阻止我對你的等待 （ar mu ri ki dar ryo tu larn mu gar）
像個傻瓜似的在你身旁哭泣着 (par bu chor rorn wu gu I nun nor wi kyo ten)
即使遍體鳞傷也要繼續不問原由地執着等待着你
(sar cho marn chu lun lar ru wen mu ru gu ki dar ri li)
我根本離不開你呀……(dor lar kar rarn mar ryar)
#想念你…想念你……(pu gu sip dar…pu gu sip dar…)
我是這麼憎恨命運的坎坷(I ron lan gar mi wor chi marn kun)
真想大聲哭泣…乞求上天的憐憫(wu gu sip da…lan gan mu rup gun gor
即使幾乎未曾共同擁有過什麼也要不顧一切地抓住僅有的……
(mu tu orp ton li ri toin su I tar myo…)
瘋狂地追憶着往昔的摯愛(mi chi tu sar rar han ton ki ork ki chu ork tun ri)
不停地追尋你的芳"�和倩影(lar ru charch gu I chi marn)
越是如此追求理想就越碓定對你愛情(tor I sar sar rar I rorn pyon myo rae)
如果没有對你的眷念，我根本無法生存
(lor ru kar tun su orp sor I ror myon arn toi chi marn)
到死的那刻仍然是如此地想念你(chu kun marn kun pu gu sip dar…)
#想念你…想念你…(pu gu sip dar…pu gu sip dar
即使我是這麼憎恨我們的坎坷命運，但是我還是那麼確信……
(I rorn lae gar mi wor chi marn kun mit gu sip dar)
我們的抉擇是正確的(or rorn ki I rar gu)
除非你非要我離開，我才會離開……(lar ru wi hae dor lar yar marn harn tar gu)
瘋狂地追憶着往昔的摯愛(mi chi tun sar rar hae torn ki orp gi chu orp tu ri)
不停地追尋你的芳"�和倩影(lar ru charch gu I chi marn)
越是如此追求理想就越碓定對你愛情（tor I sar sar rar I rorn pyon myo ae)
没有對你的眷念(lar ru kar tu shu orp sor)
我根本無法生存(I ror myon arn toi chi marn)
到死的那刻仍然是如此地想念你(chu gun marn gun pu gu sip dar…)
到死的那刻仍然是如此的難以忘懷(chu gun marn gun mi gu sip dar)
the great thing for life is to learn to love and be loved.
the theme from the movie.
這大概是某個人與他的情人的故事.
女主角死了.
那一場,...我和男主角一起在哭.哭得要緊.
吉祥...不要離開我.
這句話,大概不可能送到他耳邊,我很是難過.
要是他真的要離開了,我可會花上這個代價去見見他?
我不敢說,也不敢想像.
總之...這個情況不可以想像得到...到時候我可become crazy 了.
唉...真的好想他...試問這個時候的我,是不是有點傻得可憐呢?
一方面在呆著,會流淚...之後好有衝動立即過去,好有衝動就此認定他.
一方面跟自己說 no big deal,其實自己並不是那麼愛他的, 也不可稱愛.
我就是怪人一個.
試問...我又怎可能有安寧?
就是剛剛安頓好自己的情緒,立即又會再想起他.
不敢忘卻他的處境,心裡面的都是他的影子.
好折磨.
link post comment
佢哥哥:
"i'm benny's brother. he wants me to tell you that he's in hospital.
his nose bled yesterday evening during dinner. doctors want to keep him in for
a few days to monitor his condition. he'll call you when he's out."
之後... 我個人好理智...但一邊流淚一邊回覆佢...
"thx alot, plx take care of him plx, keep in touch.
i'll keep praying for him."
我好驚...
之後我冷靜左一陣就出左去.
途中我打電話俾呀 shan... 之後再 打電話俾 joey.
我同呀 shan 講完之後我個人安定左d. 無再喊.
之後我就行左一陣, 冷靜左自己之後再打電話俾 joey...問佢有關情況的原因.
佢去線留言...我留言時都好緊張,語氣都怪啦...好緊張,好緊急.
之後再 call 佢...同佢傾左一陣,好好多.
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
Now, i'm at school, at classroom...
Someone who know