Today, i wake up at 10: 45 am.
last night before 12:00 then i go to sleep,,, coz too tired in these few days.
you know... everyday although i'm awake, actually i'm not.
i can sleep when walking on street, when i sit down, fall asleep imediately.
however... today when i back to school, patrick tell me he wont count the attendent since this lesson!
wow! so great~ haha... actually if i am too tired, i may choose not to attend the class.
coz i can download the notes from internet, and study at home.
after school, at school, low b joey and vincent play some jokes~
haha...they make me mad(kidding) , coz kenny and patrick dont know what they're talking about...
and i dont want them to know about this~! haha... it's not nessary for them to know too much~
then i go drink the soymilk ,go to libary with them then i go home...
i have chated with my friends ... ... i 'm so confused with something.
well, something that i cant tell and i cant admit.
i have to stand for it till the right time, maybe till the end.
that's why i'm so confused.
just now,i asked e-man about the ce. e-man told me the ce has been started already.
she even asked me if i care of them or just him, oneself only.
hum,... just ask.... i dont know what to answer, just ask.
i have to stand for it , stand for what i'm confused.
perhaps they do their best.
perhaps, there'll be no worries, no sadness , no regret in the exams.
i know god will protect them, strengthen them, keep them safe all the time.
today i am very very tired...
i didnt listen to class, i attend, but just keep sleeping. i feel so tired and dont wanna go to school.
maybe coz of the medizine.
chem lesson... well, i have to finish the assignment first later.
that song i paste here is telling about the feelings two guys 's meeting at the first place.
and.... it's pity that they still havent chances to go together.
i have strong feeling on this song.
i dont know why, but it just touch me inside.
today just very normal day.
last night jackie called me, we have chated long.
she's born on 19 may. birthday is coming very soon~
well, we meet to have a nice day on 12th.
she's very fortune~ coz 19 th she will have a nice dating~ haha...
and although she will go tai wan soon, she doesnt need to face the problems like mine.
well, she will goes with her friends, and good friend, so she doesnt need to carry too much sadness.
but she knows we 'll miss her so much~
of course .... i 'm the one of most missing. haha... jackie is my best friend...
i know i will cry a lot when she leaves....... >.< !! but i 'll give her best wishing.
last night he called me, i help him to record the tv programe "24" then when on line...
dennis asked if i were angry or not.
yea, a bit... but not much. but i think he understand that i'm just too serious.
but i will try to put him down from the high place in heart.
actually he told me he doesnt need the notes now. ok fine.
he asked me to ring him today when i back to tai po.
i have, but ... he never take up the phone... still sleeping? then when he wake why cant just reply
a call? is it very hard to reply a call? at least he should let me know what he wanna me do.
i dont wanna call him, find him... i think it's too much for me or for our relationship.
we're just friend right... but in friendship .... should i mind of this?
jackie is never like this, joey never, queenie never, celia never,shan never...all has never treat me like
him. not only this event.. but if i go compare all with them,... i cant get a good explanation for myself.
maybe it coz i dont know him well honestly.
perhaps... perhaps.... perhaps...
hum,....a lot of things cant be shown here.
but you guys.... perhaps you guys would understand what i wanna say.
>>May 1, 2004 at 1:22:27 PM GMT+8
2004 年 4 月 30 日 星期五 【晴】
hi
i cant type chinese again!!!!!
why????!!!! i wanna type chinese....
well, today i'm fine.
after school i just have tea with rachel and calais...
we three are in the same ENG class, by Grace.
anyway, just havent take the lunch...
and i have the tart, which i like most and apple juice~(juice!!!! ^^ ) and half of sandwiches.
that's good enough~
then me and calais go tsim sha tsui.
we walked around in 2 selling music-things shop.
he bring me there to search for the information about instruments.
well, i just got some information, perhaps can get more...
i go home then.
i sleep in the bus, coz too tired.
just now, i saw the show by jacky cheung~~~~~
it's not under my expectation. a bit .... ... ... disappointed.
coz he didnt catch the note perfectly. it's like he is not ready, not prepared well.
you know.... i just looking forward for this...
i thought i missed it, coz dennis told me it's past, but just a misunderstanding.
well... a bit dissapointed. but... he is still the perfect one in my mind.
but leo ku is very nice too~! haha......
jacky is the best singer ~!
but just now .... the show 's really bad ar....
perhaps i will get his new ablum soon~! yeah~!
yea, i have to tell you that...
i am still waiting for my jesus lord to give a real person for me.
haha...
i have to let you ,guys know,
i'm always there, coz you're so impointant for me.
i'll never never never leave anyone of you.
i have to let you know... you're always on my mind.
some of you are very important for me,
you guys affect me everyday, never end.
that's the love.
in love, we take care of each other.
in friendship also take care of each other.
love not = to friendship, but friendship does coz of love.
love is from jesus lord. i love you, coz He loves me first.
i love this world, coz this is my home from jesus.
if somedays He says He would not give me a real person....
then.... i got nothing to say~ haha.
but i do want somedays... i can get my real love.
i dont sure if that guy appears already....
but time is yet to come i think.
soon, but not yet.
maybe come already, i dont know.
hee~
>>April 30, 2004 at 5:45:30 PM GMT+8
2004 年 4 月 28 日 星期三 【晴】
i wanna type chinese, but.... ai...
well, today i have a great breakfast !
i take the hot cake with susage~~ with the orange juice! i like juice!!
i bring breakfast to dennis home, we have breakfast together, he shows me his singing content.
and of course i watched some great shows too!!! they were very nice~
and some pictures and the viedo~ haha........ silly guys =)
and i take the information about learning musical instruments.
he sent me to the mall.
hum~~~
then i go to school, i'm late today~~~ first lesson then late... haha~
patrick again la~! he is kind but sometimes just a bit confused about his behavior~
anyway, today is fine, the lesson is ok for me, not too hard. i know i can handel it well~
the coming day will be nice~ hee
i still dont know how to choose one between the chinese music lessons and western lessons.
perhaps i would pick up one nice for God.
after school, i go mcdonald's to have the crew meeting. this is the first time for me to join.
however, i think it's kinda boring meeting. it's the happy gathering only.
it's not that important.
but it's fun to help to prepare food for the gathering.
hey! my aunt in canada will come on 12 th may ! she will bring me some information about
studying there,... i think it must be the information of universites there.
let me think... she asked me if i discuess about it with dad...
yea, but my mom told me dont expect too much.
ai..... i dont know... but God will help.
the happiest thing of a day is to have a great breakfast !
my ideal breakfast of course is home make one, then i can have the nice soft music with the
sun shine, just shine inside my home, on the table. turning on the tv, having nice music,
then, i can read the bible, just a great start in the morning!
perhaps i can share my breakfast to the people i like or friends are both ok.
i would like to have a little cat to company me, if i dont have anyone live with me.
every morning after wake up is to prepare the breakfast and lunch box.
cleaning up myself, take the great breakfast then go to work or school.
i dont need too heavy breakfast, just a piece of bread or muffin, an egg, jam, and the juice!!!
or coffee is ok too. perhaps can have some fruit.~ wow~~~ so great !
it could happen when i move out with friends or by myself.
you know, i like making breakfast, lunch tea or dinner. sometime i wanna invite my friends
come to my home, but you know my family, they mind of it.
sometimes when i 'm free, i like baking cake. well, i dont like eating so much, but i like eating
some food which is prepared by heart~ ^^
i stay at home all day till 4:00.
i go pick my sister up with mom, then we go suppermarket, we saw maggie, another sister.
then we 3 go home together~ woo~ nice~
tomorrow also holiday!!!
and thursday got to go to school, after school, i will have the crew meeting in mcdonald's.
last night i slept very late although go off line early.
but i got up at 12:15... haha~ enough sleep~
well, long time havent heard about chris, havent seen him on line too.
and havent contact with nikita for long time ago..
and my old tutors, kita and anna~~~ miss them so much~
wanna have tea, lunch or dinner with my nice friends~ jackie, celia, cherrying, gigi ,shi hang, ching
and of course eling... still havent contact eling.
she lost her mom... that's really sorry about. but... i dont know what i can do for her...
and i think maybe she still feel angry at us... so ... i dont dare to call her...
but i really miss her so much.
perhaps ... she can understand me, i was not meaning to hurt her what, and really sorry about
she feels hurt from us.
i keep praying for her... perhaps she would understand.
castor, work hard.
but remember to take a min to see around who are in need, and do the things you feel right.
just stand for the right, do your part.
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
Today, i wake up at 10: 45 am.
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