hum~~~
我很是開心啊~ ^^
真好, 所有東西都會有人安排~ heehee~ thanks for my dearest~ ^^
可是我也不會讓他太操勞的~heehee~
感謝主.
>>September 22, 2004 at 1:12:34 PM GMT+8
2004 年 9 月 20 日 星期一 【晴】
Today,... that's the special day for me and my ex-boyfriend.
just now, my mom mention me. =)
if we didnt sepreate, that'd be the celebration day for us.
=) but i'm still glad. although we're seprated, we're still frieds =)
dont know he still remember today or not.
we both used the date of today as the password...haha!
of course got changed already =P
Today, i was so tired...
then i went to school. i was late. lesson started when i 's back.
then i got his message, but you know what time that was? it's 9:40 already~
but the message was created before 8:29.
that's soooooo long ..................
so i didnt reply to him,and i was taking class, very sleepy also.
so, i miss him so much during class. but i cant reply.
after class, i want to call him imediately, but i didnt.
coz i know he's busy as usual.
so... i wait till 12:30... i called, haha... he's busy leh.
few mins after, crossed it.
then i did reply his message again around 2 p,.
i wished him has a nice meal, happy day although busy, tough enough.
i asked him to smile ~haha... something like that la...
but i think the message was blocked again... Ai !!!!
we've talk lastnight... i asked few questions.
that's all make me laugh! wow...wonderful answers huh~
^^ haha~!
i really like him alot.... heehee.
i'm very sleepy now...
tomorrow i have to study at home la.
today i've chated with joey.
she's much happier now? seems like ar!
they're really broken up... well....
hum~~~ nice chat =)
and i've contacted rachel. she's sick... oh.. take care well la.
i think... i'm right to believe that time can prove everything.
they're both real to me. but there's too much misunderstanding to make me confused.
anyway...
let it be.
i enjoy my life so much, especially with him =) heehee~
he's so far ffrom me... it does matter alot.
But .... it's not the most important thing for us i think. heehee.
but time will prove everything... actually it's God's working time.
heehee~~~
no matter how, i'll trust my dear God, and my dearest love.
today, kitson asked me whether i put god at the first top nor him.
hum,...for me, that's meaning-less now. i was confused also... but i got something changed.
God is God. He is he. For me, i think God would like me be happy, joyful.
and he is different from god of course.
they're both very important for me.but i dont have to choose what.
coz God has given me all already. what to choose? why to choose? ^^
i just have to treasure everything,
everymoment from given,with them, including him, my family, friends....
i love my life, coz i could glory Him.
i love my life, coz Benny is being with me, i feel so glad and fortunate ^^~
i love my life, coz i'm runing for my dreams.
i love my life, coz that's so vauleable, i have lots of memorries that only belongs to me.
that's it, so simple =)
>>September 21, 2004 at 10:25:23 AM GMT+8
2004 年 9 月 19 日 星期日 【晴】
haha!
today morning finally i've recieved his sms.
but i didnt reply, coz i was depressed to reply by sms.
mom goes to check body today morning, then i waked at 8:15.
then i waked leggy up...
we go out for breakfast! heehee!
on the way, i've picked up his phone call~~~
heehee ^^ nice morning ar.
miss him so much...
today i'm like a mom for leggy.
i take care of her, we have nice breakfast, then i sit there, having my reading time with tea.
she just looking at me... then i give her my book. let her read it.
by the way, i've left my feelings on my book... seems like chating with the writter.
i'd like to send the book out, to share with others.
after the breakfast, we went to the book store, i've brought a case for lutures's notes.
and i brought a vcd, a scarcy movie from thailand. well... it's quite fun.
i'd like to buy another book soon. that's about 50 brands over the world to strengthen the market.
i'd found my favourite brands there. and i found some new books that i'm interested in!
and that book recommended from him " follow your heart ".
then i went to bank with leggy, coz i've to do some stuffs for maggie there.
then we walk to home, besides we brought some jelly for tonight ^^ heehee.
i tell you~~ today how to wake her up?
i take the photo to her! then she was crazy to me! hahaha!!! =P
then, when i back, i watched that fun movie.
after, i've called him, but he was just eating... i know this's a busy day for him.
mom back ! we've durlin together~ heehee.
then i go back room to collect my notes...
i've reviewed partly... i'm still not ready to go exam or what , i know i'm not ready.
but i'll be... i'll keep going. =P
then after some reviews, i have my reading time again =)
after that... i go on line, searching for some new interesting books.
i picked up the call from roy... i felt so...........pressed.
he pissed me off all the time you know?! i hate talking with his faked voice.
he acts like so fuuny?! but ?! for me... that's nothing interesting. i feel so sick...
he talks about god with me? is he kidding? i think he' s just acting.
i dont think he's that stupid ? he's playing me. wasting my time.
that's why everytime he calls me i fell so bad.
he use god's name to talk to me?! is he crazy?! what angles what evils ?! get off !
he's cheating ! i feel so sorry about him, coz nothing i could help !
he just speaks too much. from what he says, he shows me he treats me as the F.1 girl.
get off man. i'm not your cup of tea. well , this theme is so easy to understand,
that's what i've learnt since F.1 , your tone level.
am i so mean to him? yes , i am. but i got to do it.
then... so lucky, benny calls me at that moment =)
we talk...keep talking, i've told him about roy. and i asks him some questions.
we' ve been chating till he becomes busy again.
wow... 8 pm... still in office. just back to office...
hum... haha... i know how busy today huh~ haha.
tough day.
take good care for himself plx...
by the way, last night , i've thought much.
i think i've to control well my eq. emotions come too much and fast.
i'm sorry for myself. heehee.
miss him alot.
but i'm quite happy today, he seems has sensed something from me, so he contacts me that frequently?
i dont know. happy not coz he contacts me that much,
happy coz i enjoy my day much =)
such as the time with leggy. we're pretty nice to each others, except that moment~heehee.
such as the time being sweet to him, and he 's honest to me.
such as.... hum... when i know he's alright, although going to be sick again.
the time for us to say something for each others.
that's all pretty nice for me. thx god.
and plx forgive me that lousy to roy, coz i was very pressed, and ignore.
but i think i treat him like that maybe it's good for him.
anyway, pretty nice day! thx!
and i'm going to read again, having dinner, and taking the tv serial.
i think he wont come tonight. haha... i might understand his need i think.
be a considerate, and caring castor =)
>>September 20, 2004 at 12:51:44 PM GMT+8
2004 年 9 月 18 日 星期六 【晴】
just now, i've watched the series, " stairway to heaven "
and now, i'm listening to the "fist love" that's the song from junming long days ago...
i've recieved his sms.
but when it's after 6 pm.
i was reading a book, being in my onw world.
i dont promote my diary to anyone.
but here is my place,
i would like to write down my life here.
whatever happy, sad, depressed, hope, joy, angry... whatever.
i'd say i'm very happy. i'd say i'm laughing... just a record.
but now. i'm going to say... i'm so weak.
yea, i'm.
should i stop ?
coz i like him, even love him, so i should stop? it's kindda hurt,
you love someone, but you cant stay with him, you cant take care of him.
i'm so confussed. coz i have so much time to think about him?
but i have to be brave.
i've to make up my mind...
castor... take time, think twice.
>>September 19, 2004 at 3:25:56 PM GMT+8
2004 年 9 月 18 日 星期六 【陰】
Today, i waked at 11:00.
we go out for lunch at 1 pm.
i've messaged him, but no replied.
yesterday he has called me, i was so glad...
he told me about his tired working and days...
the night before, he'd meeting with his dad till 2 am.
perhaps he's alright now...
he didnt come on line last night, but he said he would.
by the way, i feel hard to keep the relationship at all.
i know the problems donot just exsit in long distance relationship, i know it...
i known it before we started.
we still havent passed through 1 month, problems come along...
i could feel how hard the road ahead.
as he said... no matter how hard the road ahead might be, he'll be always there for me.
but i add " that's all true untill you give up. "
i'd promised him i wont give up untill he does.
but what he tole me? " he wont. "
i miss him so much.
tomorrow mom will go body check.
i'll stay at home with my sister...leggy.
well,... perhaps we wont fight. haha.
mimi will leave on 1 st Oct.
i'll be at the airport that day.
wow...airport again... 3 or 4 times already, everytime i say" next time i come, 'll be my own trip."
by the way...
i really worried for him.
......
...............
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
好慘啊!!!
今日好唔開心.
Today...
昨晚等了好久沒見他... 有點枯燥的...
Today,... that's the special day for me and my ex-boyfriend.
Today, i waked at 11:00.
Someone who know