我返 10 點, 但好早就回到去, 我還在 starbucks 買了 orange juice 在 starbucks 坐了一會.
就是讓自己的精神休息一下, 迎接工作吧... 我偏偏想起吉祥.
我在想我好久沒有機會到那間 starbucks 坐... 想起上一次...
我在那間 starbucks 寫著 postcards 給 ince, 又寫信給吉祥... 那時候我還是很禮貌的叫他 benny 而已.
我好想他... 打電話給他了, 之後... 不知道應該說些什麼.
可是... 我真的...有情緒, 我居然說起英文來...
" i have my own things to do... i cant wait you that long. you know... i cant wait for that long...
i hope you understand that."
好傻... 之後, 回到 star room, 換衫啦, 化妝啦... 最後為我所說的陪上了道歉.
哈... 好笑的, 今次他的電話大概是關上的. 不想猜原因, 不想想.
Today is Sat.
i've wondered that joey would call me at the morning... coz... she might go sg today.
but... she didnt.
tonight leggy has performance at hall. we went to have fun just now.
now, right now i'm listening a song, called " wo de ni "
it's song from stairway to heaven. i really like this song. everytime when i think of it...
pleasure release from my heart. it's a bit sad... it could bring tears out... i still like this song much.
especially when i 'm on way to home, alone... i'll ... sing it out.
it led me to think of many things, moments with him.
i cant forget him.
i dont want to count the days for him, coz it's really heavy working, i'm tired.
he's a happy sign in my heart, i dont want to make it sad although it's really sad to lose ...him.
i'm really really really worried for him. that's true. and i' miss him so soooooo much ,so badly...
today i havent cried.
but it doesnt mean i 'm tring to forget him.
he lives in my mind. he doesnt leave. but i've to carry on. tears would come out anytime... i cant stop.
and i let it out.. coz it's real. like now, my eyes art wet.
i cant wake up on time...
i took back my notes from joey morning, then i go home...
and then i go sha tin again, having lunch with sunny.
thx for sunny alot.
we've chat...
today is the first time we have lunch together. japanese food...
we eat, we talk, we walk...
then, we go post office to post the card for his family.
maybe coz we're not very close friends... so... let it be.
well, he's a nice friend... let's see when we'll have another meal.
i take train to home,
i'm totally lost already.
thx for calais... that's possible , if i lie to my family... and i dont want to lie.
that's meaningless to do something for others but which will bring hurts to others at the same time.
it's the trust between my family and me... i dont want to lie...
last night i've chated with junming...
he suggested me ask joey for help. let she to clearify things....
i'm a bit affraid for joey, if i ask her for help. coz she's not me. i'm not her.
but i just have to make the choice for best... and god will do the rest.
i think i should let her help me.....
coz i really cant come over there right now.i wanna go, i really wanna go...
but i cant... i should have faith in god. trusting him will guid me well.
i'm really sad and feel like ... i'm walking on my own road.
and i have to believe in Him and trust benny that they're in my mind, walking with me together.
i feel so..... scared, worried, affraid...
no matter how hard the road ahead might be, you'll be always here for me.
how long i 'd being sad.... and how long should i wait.... how long i'll be able to keep on.
when will i say give up...
i'm tring my best, can you see it?
are you with me now? how can i contact you my dearest.
it's hard to cover the sadness.... can you feel it... can you see it.
queenie asked me why i still feeling sad when i understand the situation be.
coz i'm human being. i have feelings, and i'm easy to get hurt.
coz i'm just the small potato. i'm not the real angel, i'm not prowerful.
today is the 11 st day already...
everyday you bring me hope... and bring me tears.
hope, and hopeless... days come days go...
will it never end... i dont think you'll leave me alone for long.
tell me what to do.
Here used to be called Shmoo Sassy Rowdyruff's page. It was a random name i got from The Powerpuff Girls' site. however, i am not that little girl anymore. i'm learning how to live a life now. haha! and this is the pic of my 22nd year in my life, taken in the summer of 2008.
here is like my reference, my history, my story, and the little pieces of memorries in my life. someday when i get old, maybe i would just review my life again. or i can share with my close ones... would they miss me someday? i dont know. i just wanna live my life fully and happily =) with the ppl i love on this planet.
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今日我返工啦, 好早就起床, 因為想和 shan 一起乘車. 她返學 9:00 到嘛.
Hi !
Someone who know