2005 年 8 月 19 日 星期五 【颱風】

咩事呀~做咩咩都無晒~唉~~

shit~幹麼雨下得那麼大~.........仲要non-stop,有傘都無用~有無人可以話俾我知因咩事搞下咁,無人答到我~好...check左勒,果然有一道低氣壓影響我地華南沿岸地區,不過呢幾日會逐漸減弱~不過今個星期日,又下雨,咁即係沙灘去唔成(我想sunshine),ride bicycle又唔得,我又唔想去唱k,因連續呢3星期,我都每星期唱一次~羽毛球場又full booking~唔知想點~有無人話俾我知,可以有咩做咁呢~真係頭都大埋~cyrena唔好為星級獎而動搖la.....唔好咁虛榮~

好,講返尋日先~我地食完飯,我就上左去契媽home~而阿sai就上左阿四home~我上到去,都無咩野做,齊齊坐低睇電視劇集~今日隆隆都在家~佢home原本好大既空間,都俾好多野佔有左lu~大家都互問下近況,又話有機會上去john's home睇下守怡~hehehe.....我都好耐無見mabel姨姨~原來佢去左日本~佢又話有時都想叫我上去幫佢餵魚~哈哈~我無問題既~佢ok既話~契媽好衰呀,一見到我就話肥~又話我可以去做空姐,因阿高,個樣ok,又講得,但肥左些~之後隆隆仲話我令架機墜~死野...不過佢成日都咁話我既,無咩野~契媽響我走時,叫左我一聲,肥x~算......佢咋~

不如我2個week探佢一次呀~!佢都70歲勒,要見多些,keep多d contact~kekeke~我唔搵佢,佢地都好少搵我既~因佢地話之前搵我唔到,我好難搵wor~哈哈哈.....唔打緊啦,我搵佢地啦~之前都覺得搵佢地都怪怪的,不過依家既我無咁既感覺lu~因之前我走左之後佢地都換左鎖~嗯.....個心總係有d野既~同埋明白既~自己亦都知自己事~....依家,想搵佢地咪搵囉,唔好think太多,太多顧慮都唔好既~好多野會miss左架.....我真係好掛住佢地......隆隆問我幾多歲,哈哈哈~佢地都概嘆,咁多年勒....

走既時候都係咁大雨,有傘都無用~又截唔到taxi~daddy急call,話我間房災情嚴重,要我返去睇一睇~我都唔知返去做咩,又無咩用,我又做唔到d乜~佢太緊張勒,不過佢急又會惡,唔聽佢講,又急,又激氣~我就返左去先~如果唔ok,就去sai's home訓~因阿四都上去~返到去,都只係床邊jei,無咩大礙~不過都決定左上sai's home玩~同daddy講一聲,執好野,沖好涼就出發lu~原來sai住個度,係第時做義工個個centre既附近,坑口站,將軍澳~哈哈哈~真巧.....

上到去~佢地打winning,我都幾悶~佢地知~不過又無咩其他野做.....佢地咁耐無對打,算啦~我搵書睇,一個醫科生......見到既只係咩商科書,投資呀咁,唔止一,兩本........不過男人都要學下呢d投資野既~見到一本說話技巧,唔多得囉,又無咩實質例子....我寫都得啦,咁簡單,我都知啦d野.....好片面~見到一本周星馳,不過無興趣~阿四就俾左佢個部Nintendo俾我玩拍子game,打左一陣,好累,就放棄~阿sai無幾耐想叫我落去buy snack~我都唔hungry,仲頂住~佢好快飽,又好快肚餓~見佢係咁隊photo chips~

3點幾就sleep lu~我訓佢間房~不過都訓下醒下,怕訓得太"lum",睡姿不好~哈哈哈~~費事流口水嘛~我知道有人入黎close door+開冷氣,以為係佢mum,原來係佢~佢仲誇張我既鼻鼾聲~無計啦,我有鼻敏感,鼻黏膜細~又有一支toothbrush~莫非佢mum又入過黎?oh...no~失禮死人~9點半就起左身~佢地又打左陣~我打俾人傾下計~cecilia俾我嘈醒左~又打俾phyllis,michelle~sandy未起身,估唔到michelle都係,cyrena我估到未起,就無打~我記得我尋日做咩咁多電話,除左關遊船河事,就係date佢地去sing k~~

由於manhattan,星期一至五都有優惠~星期三係k nite~星期四係movie nite~睇簽帳額做人~星期三好抵呀,只要$50,就全包,最少2個半小時k~不過遲book,就得返2230,廣東道red box~訂左位lu~~yeah~就算係唔出得夜街既人,我都打左去問,唔好話唔知,我無invite呀,哈哈,我一視同仁,不過可能有漏~最後有cyrena,我,pinky,michelle/菁菁~星期四睇戲,$1咋~不過應該叫sai,阿四~佢倆請左我咁多,都係時候俾d jetso佢地勒~我可以有3張飛咁多~不過呢d優惠都係有限制既~要1930既場次,同埋只有UA朗豪及時代先有~原本叫cyrena,不過都係見得太多勒.....佢都享有左一個優惠,俾我其他fd受益一下先得~

之後,阿四走左,因佢要同公司既人有gathering~而我,就繼續stay~無幾耐就落左街食breakfast+lunch~又陪左佢buy褲~我都有收獲.....見到body glove既滑水褲半價,又見到swimming goggles~buy左swin既blue one,sai話得意d wor~好,聽佢講~原本佢話要等fitting,唔想等,我叫佢等~佢試褲又唔俾我睇.....真係....之後都出左黎~可能之前個條太窄,佢唔好意思~~唉.....去俾錢勒...點知....sai話送俾我,遲疑左一陣,我就老實不客氣~多開心,so surprise~yeah....多謝晒~

之後返home~大家都無咩野做,佢要translate一篇野,咁佢叫我打中文,之後我就有野做,就係打字~不過好慢,因我唔識一路睇一唔打~佢個篇野初時又未睇得明係咩~我依家知道勒,係講子宮頸癌既research~點形成呀,咩同咩有關呀咁~之後個d表太waste我時間,打左3個就放棄左.....叫佢自己搞掂~我打既時候,佢又sleep下,又打下機咁~之後就齊齊睇電視,台灣既綜合節目~哈哈~~之後佢mum返黎.....問我食唔食dinner~我唔勒,其實我都走架勒,不過想睇埋先~我想返home dinner嘛,費事出得太多~之後迫左佢送我落去~哈哈哈~

michelle話我亂咁上人home wor,又話我亂咁收人野wor~~我覺得無咩問題呀,我同佢地都識左好多年勒~不過佢去左美國既時候就少左contact,我又leave左church,都少左同佢地contact~不過都算熟既~不過,都可以話我太易信人既....但係有阿四同埋佢mum嘛~唉....無野既~返正我依家都無事~cyrena叫我自己衡量,不過都ok既~如果你係都要think佢地有野,佢地點都會俾大家講到有野既~仲有呀,佢都要take risk架,俾我地上,唔怕我地唔乾淨咩~我信佢地呀~如果真係有事,仲有你地響我身邊,我相信都可以渡過既~反正依家都無野~我會小心架勒~

sai既女朋友如果有假就好lu~黎hk,我request左一餐~原本佢唔想叫佢女友咁辛苦,但我話一餐啦~佢應承左lu~yeah yeah~~有好野食~好野......問佢地幾時marry~好似未知咁~~oh......hehehe~~希望快d拉埋la~不過sai既事業未定~我呢.....我幾時有呢...我既戀情......

好累呢~因訓得少,又訓下醒下~

今日無遊船河呀~咁既天氣,好彩船家肯改期~都好既,否則我都係勉強落得水~同埋原來係農曆7月14日附近,近排又死左一個人~大家都stay左響home,michelle就出左去整頭髮~死人阿sai懶到,同表姐改期~哈哈哈~~唔想出wor.....太大雨,無咩人有心情出街~我成日笑阿sai好似中年人咁....有大肚腩,髮線向後退~成日俾我話,好彩佢無嬲jei.....真係好好笑~佢話要咁既樣先有老一輩既人show佢wor.....hahaha~仲有有深深既眼袋先得~

我地3個好似小朋友咁,玩到傻左~對住佢倆,都已經無修飾既必要,我響佢地當中,都只算係一個小妹妹罷了~多好......被人照顧一下~他們,值得倚賴,信靠~撒嬌...哈哈~~阿四都會架....我叫佢扭計....好得意呀~哈哈哈~一個大男孩~good~大家無隔膜~玩得放~又傾得~good~~

近排,我都係行動派,主動派既人,好多野,我都無細想,想做就去做~都幾好呀~打俾人就打,約人就約~想講就講....哈哈哈~~當然,都唔會過火既.....放心....過火,我會勇於承認及道歉....

打左一篇日記,做左facial,就sleep lu~

>>August 21, 2005 at 5:52:12 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 18 日 星期四 【颱風】

oh...how come....non stop...raining~~

今日真係出左成日街.......做左好多野....哈哈哈哈~~真真正正既行街睇戲食飯~

一早要陪阿sai去科大register~點知佢地個個都late~我同阿四去左食breakfast先~見到danso有人rehearsal,only a part of them dancing well,but no one looks good,disappointed~oh...i wanna try to type English~It sounds so powerful.....kekeke....silly mind~After sai met us,we played Nintendo's game,then we left and found where was the department of chem~I discovered that they never checked out the signal carefully...As they kept talking and talking while going there~I couldn't imagine that how's chem related to be a doctor,but anyway,they say so....and i'm not a science student.....may be i won;t understand in my life.And i won't follow them when they don't sure the map.hard to think if i ony trust them and follow them~

sai went to see professor and found that the photo on the board is different from where he saw through the Internet...hohohoho~and we waited outside~and talked about my future,how i plan~and also talked about my trip~sometime,i think that i have to talk to my friends about my mind and plan, so that they can giver as many as advice to me....Thus,I have to tell my friends my things,wahahaha~~It may take long time....hahaha...but i willing to tell them mine~Four tod me that his friend go to Europe alone and by himself,it took 1-2 months and only cost about 30-40 thousand dollars~it sounds great....I have lots of thing need to be asked......i'm so interested in it.....yeah...i just think that my plan will come true....

Four told me that not to use netvigator but hutchsion which have 10M and bad services~but i only have 3M now~the problem is uploading things are very slow~oh....but i just sign the contract for 18 months...oh..just forget it....Because i use netvigator for a long time,lazy to change(traditional chinese characteristic)~Later, i have to ask for professional opinion~when i grow,friends around me,their knowledge become more pro,so happy~~that's mean i can rely on my good friends~有時都唔想自己變老,有時都好怕,唔知第時會點,我好怕咩都抓唔緊,但係,當我知道有我既朋友在自己身邊,大家又識咁多野,可以教我既時候,又感到好開心,好欣慰~出外靠朋友.....係對既~又唔好話我利用你地ar...我先無咁既機心~

Then,we go to APM sing K~sai,four,me and gut~this is the first time sing with them,but gut told me that we has sang before.really?i didn't remember~four was singing with a heart~so great~quite good.....hahaha~~discover more his cons~hohohoho~~gut with a nice voice~U know,the services was really bad,i had called the Ketchup for a long time,and i went to find it and ask them to give me myself~we sang from 1300-1610~gut left first since she had a meeting with an insurance agency and went to see flat where she want to hire with her sister, and those took long time,she hadn't join us dinner~she said we left her alone~i understand what she said,as four told her we went with her,and she said really?four said that she sounds doesn't want us to go......but i told him....she want!!!!i know from her sound....everyone wants someone stay by side~~HAHAHA......

i;m bad too...i know that and haven't remind them~but i don't want to go ma~then,we go to see "land of the dead"~i saw my classmate who know by CCSS~we talk a little~a scare film with some laughing points...hahahaha~~~four laugh at me ar.....scare ma...hahaha~~i must close my ears when i scare~as the sounds scare u most~we爭popcorn ar...哈哈~都係玩既jei,原本阿四叫我再買,不過其實我地都唔係食太多,一開場就唔食架勒~哈哈哈.......

都係打返中文~哈哈哈~~之後行左陣,阿sai買左bag勒,nike個個都ok,有個位裝notebook都可以~咁就成交~d sales都幾好人~~有求必應~pro~我話應該啦~我幫佢個bag驗屍咁....哈哈哈~~俾錢時又同阿四鬥快俾10 cent~哈哈哈~個sales話俾多個chance我,叫我俾$5,之後我話我先唔會蝕俾阿sai ar~hahahhaa~~

之後think食咩~就出左kowloon city~反正sai都要上四home拎野,我又好耐無去九龍城~又想去探契媽就過去lu~之前講開想食永珍~不過星期三先食左越南野就算lu~我地去左試新既日本野~都ok wor~d三交魚幾長ar...好好味~多謝阿四,即係我契老豆~hehe,佢話幫sai洗塵~佢唱k時都話佢請架勒~hehe~~我好幸福,亦都不客氣咁受左~yeah yeah~真開心~~hehehee.....我做野之後都要對佢地咁好~大家又講下美國與香港不同既地方.....

hehehe~~今日真係好大雨~好啦~今日打住咁多先~仲有好多野未打~但依家我好累~仲有ar,今日好多電話,又要成日打俾人....因遊船河可以改期了~later再講....byebye

唔like下雨天~non-stop....

>>August 20, 2005 at 4:59:59 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 17 日 星期三 【乍寒還暖】

因為出左好多日街,就靜靜地待在家中~

懶洋洋的.......

仲要鬥我既日記.....哈哈哈哈~~

今日好似有同phyllis msn~哈哈~~

知道細米你掛住我地勒~不過你一返黎,成日話咩咩咩gathering,不過唔知點解無我地份囉~

個個都去旅行,sai,細米,michelle返左黎,細ryan又走左lu~

>>August 20, 2005 at 4:08:35 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 16 日 星期二 【乍寒還暖】

swim~好勁呀我~自己起身,swim1000呀~不過好累,就swim左1500米only~~哈哈哈~~好慢.....

drink~去左青衣城starbucks~date左michelle~

跌左入谷底,係要靠自己起返身~所以佢成日take course,佢響當中get到好多信息,有好多得著,佢之前同我講既,就係咁既意思,個時我又死蠢,get唔到,唔怪得之佢覺得我唔係同行者,等我仲jealous點解vienna做到,咁我又無多d響佢身上感受一下,仲成日誤會佢,激佢,唔明佢,話佢.......其實我明白個時佢要既係unlimited既體諒,關愛~有時見到佢地既關係咁,又令我炆..因為大家誤會,唔溝通,唔表達,有覺得佢身為社工,知架,佢個時又識講唔識做,不過個時仲要求佢什麼?一個已經跌到落谷底既人~

就去話佢.....真係不該~因有時我都同pinky講,體諒下la,因為佢真係太多打擊,佢daddy件事已經好大,仲有佢既好朋友既逝世.....不過我自己又會炆,去大叫.......balance一下~始終我地都係小朋友.....唔成熟,愛得不夠~我深深感受到當一個需要俾人care既人,如果仲要俾人話多2句,指責,叫我去反省,個一種唔體諒,委屈既心情,我feel到,我前幾日就feel到~如果係咁,我會唔想再explain,我自己已經要療傷,無力氣再去解釋咁多~好down....好似響我個傷口撒鹽一樣.....

大家又將重點放錯~哈哈~又think..咁做仲唔夠?係咪佢要求太高咋?咁我地又有否響佢角度think,大家又係咪真係唔夠呢?一個好down既人,我地又有否反省自己,自己係咪真係做得唔夠多,而唔係去指責人先呢?仲要指責一個傷重既人?

重點放錯~又覺得佢已經咁professional,我地又點幫佢solve呢?對.....我話俾你,一個人跌低,點都要佢自己爬返起身~無人幫到佢,要佢自己領悟~所以,有時除左點醒佢,最重要既.....係unlimited既關心~愛~我地唔係幫佢solve~solve係要,不過唔係大前題~唔係重點~佢自己都識take course,都識搵solution~因佢都係專業人士,但佢都係人,需要care~加上....佢今次好傷~我地低估左佢既傷?高估左佢?其實佢都係人....

我地係自私~我地計較對佢既好~話自己唔係一d成日打俾人既人....咁有無其他方法表示關心,關心有好多種方法,不需要時時刻刻每分每秒都在佢身邊,起碼俾佢感受到,而唔係離開佢,話佢要求高,話佢講就唔需要時時,但都係要既~咁我又想問....難道你地又唔想?我相信大部人都想咁,如果你唔係既,sorry,我話錯你~你可以唔理我呢個point~

我地唔成熟,仲未了解愛為何物~所以我地無放低自己~無錯...佢有時harm左我地,言詞太鋒利,但係,有無講錯先?唔面對自己,逃避責任,就會將focus轉左去人地既指責你既言語上,令自己罪惡感無咁重~哈哈~我都會這樣,我認~將錯既責任轉嫁到他人身上,良心責備輕一點~或許,佢harm得我唔深,令我唔介意咁陪佢,或許,我比大家更feel到咩係愛,所以放低自己~或者,我真係當佢係朋友,去愛佢~你地又反省到什麼呢?

就係因為唔夠愛,大家唔體諒~大家大部份都覺得佢唔係朋友,所以唔付出?你地對朋友又點既呢?不過呢個時代既人,都係好冷漠既~好悲哀~只係得幾個人既care,夠咩?你地覺得夠咩?我都覺得唔夠啦,我都想越多人越好啦~

唔係話我地錯既....或者我地真係太young,同埋愛得不夠~

去愛,去關心,大家都識既~或者大家think得太複雜~又無同當事人溝通,又估估下~愛得不夠,就會計較~耶穌捨身,都無計較~不過呢個例子似乎唔多貼切~阿德蘭修女呢?佢既無私,佢既愛,大家又點睇呢?不過我都體諒到既.....both side都係~不過2者比較,係咪傷重者緊要些呢?我覺得jei,都未必係既~價值觀不同嘛~不過我呢d無咩事既人,咁就當然2邊都care啦~hahahha.....

大家明白點解佢話你地care唔夠嘛?體諒到嘛?你地唔明,又唔問,唔知,又唔問,又多顧慮,就唔問,唔講~好多感受,又唔表達.....真係俾你地激死~唔知你地聽完,又有無咩回應呢?

好似winnie咁,我幫唔到佢,唯有閒時send sms,care+點醒下咁,點知收到佢既reply,我覺得好warm(當然,都係不計較地持續左一段日子,又唔期望有些什麼,佢突然醒覺,feel到,我先會warm得入心入肺,好感動,好surprise)~

有人唔開心,有人既方法,佢鐘意點就點,佢認為好就好,係唔suitable響佢身上~佢係需要人care~好似放縱咁....唔緊張咁,唔通佢跳樓,又由得佢?唔係既....好似好開通既一種方法,其實都只係好似縱咁,但都有limit,有要求,有限制既~

佢之後都無再做harm人harm自己,佢都有反省自己,所以會做一些獨立既野~

大家要記住,人地唔開心,我地幫唔到咩,要佢自己起返身,領悟,所以,可以既話,請給予無盡既耐性,愛同埋關心~我知難,盡能力~

行街~行下咁啦~哈哈哈~~無咩特別~不過傾左好多~而佢都解救左自己~

sai,契老豆~搵完michelle,就去左join阿sai~佢自己一個人逛左2個多小時~哈哈~無計啦~我約左人在先~hehehe~~一見到佢,想死囉,肥左好多呀~我不斷咁問佢,做咩肥左~原來呢一年,佢work,日日都見佢女友,佢女友知佢之前個幾年食無定時,依家就日日迫佢一日3餐~哈哈哈~佢塊面...真係脹左好多~佢話肥到連佢mum都唔認得,開門既時候都呆左一呆~哈哈哈~~契老豆見到佢串佢,問佢,你個下巴啦?哈哈哈~~阿sai都係一個有planning既人~返黎係想熟識環境,因佢想響大陸幫下手...我都話,o岩既,大陸需要醫生~佢呢幾日都未慣hk既環境~

之後等埋契老豆,即係阿四,就去出電話,上台,之後去左越興園食野~好飽呀~多謝阿sai~之後帶左佢地扭蛋~我抽左隻叮鈴~阿四抽到叮噹~佢想抽中呢隻~阿名sai仲欠我一隻~哈哈~~之後過旺中又扭,無野做,不過未refill囉~咁阿四要阿sai俾佢抽龍珠,點知佢最唔想要個隻魔童,都俾佢抽到~哈哈哈~之後散band~星期五又見~企響佢地後面,覺得自己好渺小,佢地即刻笑....仲差好遠wor~死野~不過佢倆都話我瘦左,之後我話其實肥返勒~佢倆有時傾d野,我都唔知咩黎既.....悶悶的咁....哈哈哈~~因sai問返以前同學既情況~

>>August 18, 2005 at 11:36:06 AM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 16 日 星期二 【乍寒還暖】

同左michelle drink~一個人去搵佢,因佢又話sandy細個,唔需要一個listener,又話細ryan已經唔係個種關係,唔會講咁deep既野,benny未到朋友既階段~點知benny搵佢....佢都好直接咁同佢講,佢響度就唔講架la.....同埋好悔氣咁話響starbucks~不過都體諒benny既....有時d野,都要死纏既....即係爭取~

佢響旅程中get到既3個point~1.跌左入谷底,係要靠自己起返身~所以佢成日take course,佢響當中get到好多信息,有好多得著,佢之前同我講既,就係咁既意思,個時我又死蠢,get唔到,唔怪得之佢覺得我唔係同行者,等我仲jealous點解vienna做到,咁我又無多d響佢身上感受一下,仲成日誤會佢,激佢,唔明佢,話佢.......其實我明白個時佢要既係unlimited既體諒,關愛~有時見到佢地既關係咁,又令我炆..因為大家誤會,唔溝通,唔表達,有覺得佢身為社工,知架,佢個時又識講唔識做,不過個時仲要求佢什麼?一個已經跌到落谷底既人~

就去話佢.....真係不該~因有時我都同pinky講,體諒下la,因為佢真係太多打擊,佢daddy件事已經好大,仲有佢既好朋友既逝世.....不過我自己又會炆,去大叫.......balance一下~始終我地都係小朋友.....唔成熟,愛得不夠~我深深感受到當一個需要俾人care既人,如果仲要俾人話多2句,指責,叫我去反省,個一種唔體諒,委屈既心情,我feel到,我前幾日就feel到~如果係咁,我會唔想再explain,我自己已經要療傷,無力氣再去解釋咁多~好down....好似響我個傷口撒鹽一樣.....

大家又將重點放錯~哈哈~又think..咁做仲唔夠?係咪佢要求太高咋?咁我地又有否響佢角度think,大家又係咪真係唔夠呢?一個好down既人,我地又有否反省自己,自己係咪真係做得唔夠多,而唔係去指責人先呢?仲要指責一個傷重既人?

重點放錯~又覺得佢已經咁professional,我地又點幫佢solve呢?對.....我話俾你,一個人跌低,點都要佢自己爬返起身~無人幫到佢,要佢自己領悟~所以,有時除左點醒佢,最重要既.....係unlimited既關心~愛~我地唔係幫佢solve~solve係要,不過唔係大前題~唔係重點~佢自己都識take course,都識搵solution~因佢都係專業人士,但佢都係人,需要care~加上....佢今次好傷~我地低估左佢既傷?高估左佢?其實佢都係人....

我地係自私~我地計較對佢既好~話自己唔係一d成日打俾人既人....咁有無其他方法表示關心,關心有好多種方法,不需要時時刻刻每分每秒都在佢身邊,起碼俾佢感受到,而唔係離開佢,話佢要求高,話佢講就唔需要時時,但都係要既~咁我又想問....難道你地又唔想?我相信大部人都想咁,如果你唔係既,sorry,我話錯你~你可以唔理我呢個point~

我地唔成熟,仲未了解愛為何物~所以我地無放低自己~無錯...佢有時harm左我地,言詞太鋒利,但係,有無講錯先?唔面對自己,逃避責任,就會將focus轉左去人地既指責你既言語上,令自己罪惡感無咁重~哈哈~我都會這樣,我認~將錯既責任轉嫁到他人身上,良心責備輕一點~或許,佢harm得我唔深,令我唔介意咁陪佢,或許,我比大家更feel到咩係愛,所以放低自己~或者,我真係當佢係朋友,去愛佢~你地又反省到什麼呢?

就係因為唔夠愛,大家唔體諒~大家大部份都覺得佢唔係朋友,所以唔付出?你地對朋友又點既呢?不過呢個時代既人,都係好冷漠既~好悲哀~只係得幾個人既care,夠咩?你地覺得夠咩?我都覺得唔夠啦,我都想越多人越好啦~

唔係話我地錯既....或者我地真係太young,同埋愛得不夠~

去愛,去關心,大家都識既~或者大家think得太複雜~又無同當事人溝通,又估估下~愛得不夠,就會計較~耶穌捨身,都無計較~不過呢個例子似乎唔多貼切~阿德蘭修女呢?佢既無私,佢既愛,大家又點睇呢?不過我都體諒到既.....both side都係~不過2者比較,係咪傷重者緊要些呢?我覺得jei,都未必係既~價值觀不同嘛~不過我呢d無咩事既人,咁就當然2邊都care啦~hahahha.....

大家明白點解佢話你地care唔夠嘛?體諒到嘛?你地唔明,又唔問,唔知,又唔問,又多顧慮,就唔問,唔講~好多感受,又唔表達.....真係俾你地激死~唔知你地聽完,又有無咩回應呢?

好似winnie咁,我幫唔到佢,唯有閒時send sms,care+點醒下咁,點知收到佢既reply,我覺得好warm(當然,都係不計較地持續左一段日子,又唔期望有些什麼,佢突然醒覺,feel到,我先會warm得入心入肺,好感動,好surprise)~

好似hong咁~佢唔開心,ching既方法,佢鐘意點就點,係唔suitable響佢身上~佢係需要人care~好似放縱咁....唔緊張咁,唔通佢跳樓,又由得佢?唔係既....好似好開通既一種方法,其實都只係好似縱咁,但都有limit,有要求,有限制既~又或者,大家誤會左菁菁既意思?michelle佢最嬲既唔係大ryan事件~而係佢咁down既時候離開左佢~不過我想同michelle講,菁菁覺得佢地唔夾,一早有意離開~因菁菁都想有自己天地既人~有自己空間既人,佢為左michelle,個時已經放棄左好多~

又think過俾錢人賺,不過佢自己都係好pro,已經係咩都知,所以無咁做~

2.要大家既care,唔係solve佢既problem,因事實已定,無法改變,只可用時間沖淡~以及只好加多些positive thinking~去balance一下~越多開心既事,正面既事,會緩和~因個件事不變,.已發生了~

3.去旅行調劑一下,平衡心理~所以佢好開心~

另外~佢寫左封信俾細ryan,話俾佢知嬲咩,亦表達左佢倆既關係唔想好似依家咁,有gap~又話左旅行所think到既野俾佢知~又問佢想唔想咁~佢無reply,michelle有少少disappointed,不過佢都看化了~nevermind~好在~細ryan響機上打俾michelle,呢一個電話對michelle好重要~因為証明細ryan都唔想咁~只係欠無詳談jei~都好.....哈哈~~

我話俾michelle知,我感到安慰,佢有reply,同埋大家都知佢仲想挽回細ryan呢個關係~佢覺得好surprise~佢話因為估唔到我咁care佢~呵呵呵~~我就叫佢唔好咁得戚,我對個個都咁好~我唔care佢地,又點會寫letter俾細ryan,叫佢坦白一點,唔想見到佢地咁~不過依家d年輕人,都怕肉麻既,唔講露骨既說話~唔表露心意~

我日記中寫既驚嚇事件,係cyren既妹留言俾我~菁菁同sandy話佢妹串,因佢話俾我知無得去佢home,好似示威咁,潤我地~不過我就無咁既感覺,只係覺得震撼,佢點解有我既日記,仲留言俾我?佢既舉動~wahahaha~~以為告一段落~所以我決定左將個2日既日記locked~大家都叫我俾password大家,咁當然唔得啦~我一俾左,之前既日記,咪俾大家睇晒..唔好既~哈哈~唯有send email俾大家~哈哈哈~~搞笑~

行街時,我講左俾michelle知,我寫左咩俾細ryan~佢問左我佢生日點~咁我就講左下,佢有少少唔開心啦~又有少少悔氣啦~因我問佢emily及michelle點解唔黎,佢就話點知jei.,唔通生日個個去問咩,咁怪,發我爛囉,之後我話唔問咪唔問囉~michelle話佢好少會咁~又講俾佢知,佢中學既fd好煩,又唔知去where,即sandy,我,打俾細ryan 3 line事件~又講下佢講過,是但啦,佢地like啦,黎就黎,唔黎就唔黎啦~可能真係覺得關係呢d野好煩......唔想理咁多~就咁囉~

又講下佢同hong~又話hong以前咩都同佢講呀咁...依家無呀~問佢係咪唔開心,佢又話無wor~無所謂~之後問佢ong又無叫佢join winnie既cafe,佢話無,之後就話算啦~咁.....又有欄杆事件,我想玩下,佢就好認真咁話,你唔好以為人地唔開心咁,其實可能無野~可能佢真係太累.....認真一點~無心機think咁多~

michelle同我講,magic ant個d人,唔同level,講極都唔明,因大家無咁高層次,咪有得佢地囉~叫我將佢個套俾cyrena,細米,同埋phyllis仲好wor~唔好激死自己~

依家對大家都係學生咁~不要強迫他們接受自己既關愛~同埋大家都唔覺,咪就係蔡生咁講,可能俾不足50%就夠了,反正大家都唔覺,因以前既100%真係俾得太多了~又話我,sandy,cecilia俾比較貼心些既~

不過我對michelle,好早就昇華左係朋友lu~但係,有時我話唔打緊,佢like啦,我就真係無所謂~唔計較~因我真係一d無咩所謂,可以就咁give既人~我都有呻既,俾返少少我就夠勒~有回應就可以了....咁回應,都係一種鼓勵黎既.....咁有時唔知個個人get唔get到,會係一種waste~我真係唔多要求michelle架wor~唔奢望~因為我覺得已經好多了......

都仲係話pinky,細ryan唔明~可能得我地3個較多問佢既感受~care about佢既感受多些~

>>August 18, 2005 at 11:35:56 AM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 15 日 星期一 【乍寒還暖】

都係累累的,不過好多了~~

有驚嚇事件~即刻同左cyrena講,咁o岩我同緊佢talk~之後搵唔到sandy~打左俾菁菁~cecilia應該訓左~響icq講左俾michelle知~真係好想話俾大家知呀....真係好驚嚇架....我好唔冷靜呀~

睇戲~wahahhaa~~好似響家中睇卡通片咁~不過都幾得意~agnes,benny送左個d sonfina俾佢,有杯,公仔,錶~wow...幾得意wor~仲有片中好得意既風子~大雄突然變得好勁~技安唔喜愛暴力....haha,仲好勇敢咁做~楨途hahahaa.....有少少導引之後仲有主題曲添~套野都幾搞笑架wor.....細ryan遲到呀~唯有放張飛響櫃台,佢仲飛的添....強~

飲茶~去左稻香~多謝michelle~等左好耐.....因好累,就行黎行去~到呢一刻都未訓醒,有些九唔搭八,隻手又無力,夾野手震添~不過agnes成日俾位我串佢~~哈哈哈~~大家傾下計,都幾開心~似乎michelle個個團真係好多野睇,每一group人都有唔同既奇怪野.....真係笑死我~你地想知就自己問佢啦~有遊學既+古板校長,有叫老婆為賤人既,2夫婦既相處,一家人奇奇怪怪的~

行街~因michelle想買pocket手帳既套,最後響mk黃金商場buy到~benny唔sure間商場,又唔行去找/睇囉~於是我就行去~佢又想buy wallet俾家姐~不過睇唔中~響豐澤時,我問個女sales,有無canon既防水機殼,佢好似唔明我問咩咁囉,等我講左幾次,溝通唔到~

捐血~過左4個月,原本尋日去,不過無帶card就算啦~我又拎到定期捐血章,同埋surprise地有張捐左5次既certificate~我仲要換card添~我等左好耐lu,就黎訓著~我捐左6分鐘咋,真快~唔知幾時可以捐成分呢?咁d血好用d,仲可以幫到多些人~michelle問我,點解要捐血?因為我想幫人,而我又有時間同埋能力~你知嘛,唔係個個人都捐到架,要珍惜架~呢個問題,cyrena之前都有問我~同埋我係一個認真既人,總係想點都去捐~有心捐既,點都捐到~benny以為我真係為左張cert?傻啦......我係想幫人咋~

一套叮噹扭蛋~hehehe~~我同sandy夾份buy俾michelle~仲扮野未捐完血~雖然知買貴左,不過費事俾人捷足先登~哇哈哈哈~~真係好靚......我想要埋大雄~我think緊點樣將隻蛋轉2個洞,因我想掛出黎,今日飲茶,細ryan問我,佢個頭呢~哈哈哈~~因佢既$5 coin係第二個入,咁照計,技安個頭係佢既~哈哈哈~~sandy話我死蠢,應該answer響佢自己頸上~

飲野~傻婆michelle以為有6個人,其實個時細ryan已走左去搵表妹lu~我地去左italian tomato~不過我捐完血,又飲左杯野,又食左3包餅,好飽lu~都未講,有3個女仔,明知多人,就唔係懶死唔走,阻住晒~不過好似有個男人都坐左好耐~不過因其中一個女仔係無捐既~我地幾個,講下講下,就講左感情問題~哈哈哈~~不過我好認同michelle既point既~不過真係唔知有d話係夫婦既,其實唔係囉~我真係單純,同埋幼稚~不過,我自己識得自重,我亦都由magazine,newspaper睇到社會既現實~都知道時下既年青人,都唔知愛為何物~同埋咩叫尊重自己~

散band~我同sandy去睇下沙嗲王~最後改左地點~哈哈~期間,對sandy亦有點炆....哈哈哈~~因為佢無聽我既意見,佢自己又唔sure.....hehehe~~同埋我趕時間~

julie打黎~佢唔打黎,我都唔記得今晚有function~今日都係呆下呆下.....咩都唔記得~不過估到佢病,daniel唔出,就大家都唔出u~

返home~之後就俾daddy催~因要buy moon cake,要用citibank既credit card~michelle佢地好醒咁知係俾表弟帶返去既~哇哈哈哈~我都think唔到,同埋唔知依家buy都叫早~同左daddy講,佢都響度笑~仲好講,我落街,俾daddy擋住左我,問我幾時返~哈哈哈~~

表弟~佢聽日走lu~問佢係咪好悶,佢又話唔係~我問佢做咩咁早走,佢就話咁佢遲一日走,俾張ticket我返去~哈哈~~唉,daddy又唔早出聲,無plan,真係o丫~搞到佢落黎,我地都無咩理佢~由其是我~佢撩我新年返去,睇下點先啦~又話一定齊人wor,大家都考晒高考~又話帶我去睇公仔~好平wor~我又俾左我既技安佢睇.....哈哈哈~~~原來佢上年已經想落黎架勒~

sai~佢知死...打俾我,哈哈哈~~算佢啦......仲大我話上契老豆home通頂~我大得起~

得閒又打俾大家傾下計~呵呵~~我有好多自己野要話俾大家知嘛~哈哈~傻既lingling~

手信~多謝michelle norway既筆,for我童軍時,易掛,易拎,方便寫~yeah~真細心.....

>>August 17, 2005 at 5:22:47 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 14 日 星期日 【乍寒還暖】

唔記得多謝pinky既sms~~哈哈哈~yeah~客氣客氣~你like就得啦~

sandy打黎~佢11點幾就打俾我,但係我真係好累好累,超累.....佢係咁問我野,我都叫佢揸主意,唔想think,只係想快d收線~同埋我都唔記得今日要上workshop....我差d發脾氣勒,不過響之前我用哀求既語氣叫佢俾我訓.....之後佢1300叫我起身~~今次一睡,就睡左12小時......勁.....不過搞到我呆呆的~

喊~因為一個誤會~呀L君用好輕鬆既語氣叫我,之後我因呆呆的,就用不帶感情既語氣answer...點呀~之後佢話我語氣咁既,就唔同我講野...收我線~我即刻第一個反應係....做咩呀,癡線架,咩事呀,仲即刻標眼水~我都明白當人地用咁愉快既心情打黎,但有一把好似好惡既聲,就即刻被打沉左既心情~我知我衰,但我都唔想~之後打返俾佢,講返清楚,就無事lu~我覺得佢嬲,不過佢話無~佢話知我要做義工,怕係因為可能唔方便,又或者我唔記得關mobile,突然響,有種尷尬,就遷怒於打黎既人,先會有咁既語氣,所以快d收線,唔好阻我同埋惹我~~我話佢嚇死我,佢就話我惡先~其實....我都唔想,我都say左唔好意思~我因為好累,我已解釋過了.....

喊既時候,又搵唔到人,打左俾p君,點知....唉~有d後悔打左俾佢~我真係被佢激死左~我講左....之後佢話你都知佢份人係點架啦~又話,咁你可能個時既語氣真係差左些....佢講完2句,我即刻無野好講~我話唔講勒,收左佢線~anyway....我個一刻要既係人地既安慰,唔係指責,唔係話俾我知我係錯~我唔需要佢了解個個人,我只需要佢站響我個邊,感覺我既感受....令我情緒無咁激動,令我冷靜~好明顯我覺得佢只係評估事件,誰對誰錯囉,仲指証我~anyway....呢個只係一個misunderstanding~你話我錯又好~我都唔係刻意犯~可否體諒我?

workshop~佢地無同我地講係咩角色,所以我地認為佢地只係當我地係參加者~今次有精神病康復者~一齊玩games~開始係分內外圈,互相認識~之後就分左4 group,不同既estate,初時大家都互不相干~又定口號及代表性既野~又扮左少少野~青組有傘,紫組無,咁紫組既人唔信青組既人咁好人,肯遮佢地,所以就避~咁大家響組內有唔同既no.,大家與對方個組就扮演返~而時間亦調慢左~大家都慢動作~之後白組唔幫綠組,白組就避,而綠組又怕自己病左,照顧唔到家中既老人家,就想遮一遮~

之後就扮草,扮山,扮車~響後期,大家手上既色帶,都有4種color~大家又接納左大家~之後sharing~不過其實都唔多投入,都無咩點think d games既真正meaning,其實,我都知佢想講咩,不過現在對我,無多大感受~只係講左,好多時,要踏出第一步先會發生咩事~之後...佢地回應我,話好似我依家咁,第一個share~哈哈哈~之後呆呆的,無咩講野~之後影下相~我地響組內又互相認識時,我一話玩outdoor activties多,同埋like swimming,佢地第一個反應係....佢地見到,feel到~楊麗芳仲以為我同sandy係泳隊~

格仔餅~sandy知我想食,就帶左我去ida帶佢去個間~之後一齊去左西九龍~原本想食豆腐花,不過好飽,就算了~大家plan下野~就散lu~

返home dinner+打日記~

睇首映,千杯不醉~今日病重既daniel,有出席,不過之後走左lu~佢仲吊緊鹽水,手包住繃帶~唔駛返入hospital~佢地好想cry~cyrena問我有無....我就話我無行過去睇,不過就算係咩人,我識既,見到咁,我都會有少少心痛架~套野得wor~我好鐘意方中信囉,好突破,未見話佢咁肉麻~正.....都係她warm既一套~有幾個位,我都熱淚盈眶~我眼淺~最搞笑既係,有一幕,我見到我舅母推住車仔行過囉~之前,phyllis想睇,我同佢講,呢套會難些,因為會有首映,陪唔到佢~之後佢地個個都話我串.....哈哈哈~睇完散band,因不用等daniel~今日見到連凱3次~哈哈~都見到不少明星啦~今日幫shirley撐傘,因佢部pro既機唔濕得~依家既daniel,人紅左,都cool一點~

好累,12點幾先返到home~

突然好似好多野做咁~真係.....一係就無咩野做~

頭髮~唔think住電lu~~因為怕d頭髮太軟.....電唔鬆,一陣就"sai"氣...都係錫住把頭髮先~

我間房漏水,妹妹上格床遭殃~無得sleep~唉....我響我老豆部dc見到妹同bf,"c搭"c既相囉~我知佢地會做....不過收埋就ok囉,呢d野,自己save就得,唔好俾人睇囉,咁核突~唔好咁白癡啦,咁大個人仲唔識think~我都幾保守架,呢d野,唔好俾我見到就可以了~我覺得人,應該識得自重~

>>August 16, 2005 at 4:17:28 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 13 日 星期六 【酷熱】

camp既第二日~訓左約4小時到~前一日又只係sleep左5小時~

咦~d人起晒身,都嘈唔醒我既?同埋,佢見我地咁遲都唔起,無人叫我地既?我問polly,polly話呢間房d人好cool~不過咁,你問佢地野,佢地都會answer既~無咩野,係唔會主動跟你講野罷了~

breakfast,好快咁食完,又返房....之後去左ride bicycle~有polly,靜雯,crystal同埋我~好耐都無踩過勒~幾正,不過好熱~好想去踩~crystal初時俾左polly,佢就running~佢真係三項鐵人~之後仲去swimming~哈哈~~有個小妹妹好可愛,hehehe~~有班人行,行響路中心囉,不知所謂~明知有咁多單車,就泊埋一邊啦~無腦架~有一次,有個小妹妹響我前面炒車,踩佢前面既2位不知,我就大叫,我都即刻放低架車,去幫手~~因我見到佢一頭栽入花叢中~真係...嚇死我~途中見到anthony同埋henry,佢叫我地去打波,我就叫佢地ride bicycle,佢慫恿我,話會腳粗wor~哈哈哈~~sandy話唔會~

之後交車,又無無聊聊,睇下d人swim,polly射箭~我就同靜雯,敏卿去體育館先~不過我都係坐響度睇佢地~我又唔like玩康樂棋~之後差唔多就pack up~而休息左一會~就lunch~之後又走lu,走之前我換衫~響車上有sleep,不過我個個位唔多好,一釣魚,一不小心就會跌....不過我都釣得好厲害~哈哈哈...條頸就黎斷~

呢個camp site,真係好遠....我訓個度都好far~真係行到真係腳仔軟......又ride bicycle~cyrena都話遠~原本佢話過黎sleep,不過太黑......佢怕自己一個行黎,就算了~

之後送左大家~我就meet返cyrena,去又一城,之後出發去灣仔~因date左phyllis,cecilia去美食展~欣欣有親戚就唔黎~哈哈哈~cyrena買左好多野~我地4個都成日share咁buy~哈哈哈~大家都收獲豐富~phyllis想buy蝦干辣椒醬,咁就幫佢留意下~而cecilia想buy柚子茶,幫佢留意下,成日叫佢buy,不過都因為太重而唔buy~不過都搵唔到~真係好多人,好迫......每迫完,就周身酸痛~要拉筋.....真係feel到好酸軟~都唔係條條都咁迫,係好多試食既地方就好多人咁解囉~

我地都好醒,識得格價~有d真係無得平既,就唔會buy,而個個攤位都會少d人架~我地都無咩試食呀~費事排隊~見到apolo,好想食,記得上年既美食節講到依家,都未食~不過行到去,都似乎貴左些,就無買~我隻腳俾車仔輾過2樣,好彩唔痛,只係知有野輾過~哈哈哈~~cyrena同埋phyllis見飲品抵,一人buy左一條~好重....哈哈~~見到榮華既好抵....cecilia去buy,hahahha~~cyrena又係...我就buy左包裝小食~hehe~~有時都真係好抵架~不過有d野費事拎,就無buy~麵個d都係勒~叫daddy buy辛字麵先,好食~

之後大家就坐左響出面,分裝及休息~之後好浪漫,好有情調咁take ferry過tst~因phyllis知我想食apolo嘛~大家又有coupon~就去食~yeah....yeah~~滿足了我差唔多一年既願望~之後去左harbour city~去toilet~之後phyllis去tst take mtr~cecilia,cyrena,我就行返jordan~~呵呵呵~~hehehe~~好多伴~不過其實大家都好累~~唔知係咪因為我,大家就行左去harbour個邊,無去ocean個邊....否則他們都有車~呵呵呵~~唔好意思咁,不過又怕自己一廂情願~

真係好累.....響camp site都已經好累~

返到home~都無力氣,因良好既語氣去應人~態度好差~不過好彩,佢地無嬲我~響大家姐度知表弟黎左,點知我換完衫,一出到去就見到佢~嚇得我....你知我地d女....響屋企無牽掛~原來我入camp,佢就黎左~hahaha~~佢似我表哥多些lor....我都要認証下....佢係咪真係細我2年~佢85年~唔知佢大學定大專~哈哈~~真係好高~佢話我肥囉~不過佢口甜舌滑,麻麻地......唔多like....之後我都應酬2句~見佢細個同我地咁friend咋~否則唔會理佢~唔知佢點.....人大左,變左?都無咩機會同佢詳談~問佢野,又話傷佢心,話我唔留意佢.....有時又唔係直接講answer~

唔係見咁耐無見~我咁累既狀態,我真係.....唔會咁好語氣~睇緊窈窕淑女,佢話個4個女仔叫靚,咁我就仲靚wor~又話落黎係見我wor~真係....childish~不過佢有時都直話直說~又大有自卑感,因一件事,我好醒咁幫佢,佢話我醒,之後我擰頭,佢就叫我唔好擰頭,令到佢好自卑,好似話佢咁小事都唔識咁~估唔到,sorry,不過我又無咁think,可能有少少咁既meaning,不過唔知佢睇得咁重~又話我有暗瘡~不過佢笑我,我又覺得無咩禮貌囉~哈哈哈~因佢都有好多,可能都係禿卑既一種表現~~不過佢對某d野,都有固執既態度~之後見佢無咩野講,睇magazine,我就入房~無幾耐就走lu~搵d時間,同佢傾下先~不過老豆之前又唔講佢黎囉,真係o丫~知佢黎,都幾驚嚇~哈哈哈~~不過都好,好耐無見~

不過經過小小時間既相處,就對佢作多處既評價~哈哈哈~不過佢無收收埋埋~~都好~哈哈哈~佢都係傳統既中國大陸男人~又同我講佢sch無咩女仔,1比8~因佢個間係工業學院~佢好似好down咁,同埋佢都好嘆息大陸既女仔唔多靚囉~.....唔知之後同唔同到佢talk呢~哈哈哈~~傾下計,但唔知同佢去where玩,一男一女又好怪咁~哈哈哈~~又下雨,又熱~佢話stay幾耐都得wor~study鋼鐵工程~佢未講前,話係世界三大原料之一,算我才疏學淺,真係唔知,好彩佢講左answer~

之後做facial,就sleep lu~0100~~

>>August 15, 2005 at 5:51:38 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 12 日 星期五 【酷熱】

今日date左polly同埋cyrena,不過....我遲左半小時,因我為左食埋碗通粉,走左架bus~咁叫左佢地食breakfast先~咁我地就take taxi入~個taxi driver都幾talkative,閒時又搭下咀咁~之後入到去,就見佢地準備緊熱氣球......我終於有得坐了.....yeah~~入左camp quality起碼4年.....不知幾緊張....hehe~好熱呀,不過上到去,攝影師俾左相機我,咁我掛住同大家take photo,就無咁驚~其實都唔係好高,同埋好慢.....hohoho~~之後大部份人都坐到,因為之後大雨......

唔記得講返尋日有咩人添~
唱k.....pinky,細ryan,菁菁,我~
飲野....pinky,細ryan,表妹,菁菁,sandy,我~
buffet..pinky,jeannie,gail,明,銘,yanny,grace,michelle,大佛,葛,benny,agnes,我,ida,cecilia,sandy~~

返去個camp度...之後henry,anthony,杰少,gary,tony,polly,靜雯 hold games~我就悶悶咁坐...得閒同呀cyrena,polly talk下咁~之後lunch lu....我同班男仔坐,tony叫嘛,之後佢先講話仲有3位st.john哥哥,我話唔係嘛~咁靜雯個d點呀,佢就話無位,我就話咁咪得我一個女仔....之後我就話走,tony叫我打俾佢地叫佢地快些~不過佢地坐低左之後個3位都一齊....polly話我好易呃,俾支波板糖就可以呃到..haha~~咁我見同佢地熟嘛,我又唔知同who坐,一係就同cyrena~咁我個女凱霖又坐低左lu~我又無咩所謂~不過個度好多food.....都幾好味呀~~唔知有無8樣一湯~

之後返宿舍,放低行裝,有時間,sleep a while~之後又有歷奇活動~原來我上次玩水個個叫流水柱~之後打左一陣badminton~個sport centre無air-conditon~熱死~之後無咩野做就返hostel~又訓左一陣~俾我既感覺,好似無咩野做,成日sleep,不過好悶~之後dinner~係buffet~~之後先發現有沙律,早知食左先啦~真係....佢地傻左,有炸魚蛋出,就起鬨~哈哈~~傻既~不過之後食野時間都無再同班男仔一齊lu~去dinner時,好凍呀......間房冷氣充足,外面下完雨又冷~

之後有表演~跳繩,好正~之後又係game既時間~哈哈~~我叫個妹妹仔除拖鞋,之後佢又主動咁同我talk~不過好細聲..幾好~佢地玩個時橫風橫雨~之後停左一陣~我地想走既時候,又大雨~期待而久,我終於有得坐車....哈哈~~我嘈左好耐...我嘈既時候,靜雯會幫我出聲~哈哈哈~靜雯同polly坐前面,我,anthony,henry坐後面~死仔tony想霸我既位?找死~~佢俾人趕左落車~yeah yeah~~不過因下雨....條褲濕左~

之後bath~就上去男仔房玩~玩..下,咩話~玩uno,killer,7級豬~3點就去sleep lu~佢地玩killer,唔記得我響度,哈哈,殺晒人...先死~有個男仔都幾怪...好激動~哈哈~想受人注意囉~下,咩話,我就擰埋個頭,因我怕錯~係咁糾纏既時候,我就炆炆地,用眼神叫佢地唔好再傳過黎~

有一位st.john哥哥似乎like polly咁~

阿偉早出camp,不過佢dinner見到我個時,話我靚左,同瘦左~

有人問我做咩多左瘡~又話我既mobile係remote control~有時既感覺都幾好,有交流嘛~起碼大家講2句,個感覺好一點~

我都唔知我幾時應承左henry,上去佢地度玩,佢地玩食蛋,因breakfast好多蛋剩,輸左就要食,佢地都突登keep起一d food,玩時用~不過佢地都係唔想waste jei~同埋0500陪佢跑步囉~我問我幾時應承既同埋我應承左佢咁多野咩?不過佢地都係咁撩我玩...食蛋就唔好搞勒~不過之後玩,我都未食過~

佢地個個男仔,都同我告狀~話杰少係咁話我....咩軍人,大隻呀~anthony仲問,乜佢講個個係你呀,講到咁恐怖~哈哈哈~~又話我隻腳粗呀咁囉~個杰少講黎講去都係個些....真係好悶....我初頭都問佢係咪發緊夢....之後我都只係笑.....無聊~幼稚~之後我串佢都無留餘地~佢地都幫我....佢又唔gentlemen,咁樣話女仔都得,仲有一d行為?...之後我問cyrena,我做咩成日俾人串,同埋俾人打~不過可能我俾人既感覺爽朗,玩得咁,串我都只係笑..一係反駁...好少嬲既~哈哈哈~~

camp既一日就係咁過lu~~佢地都只係玩到0400~~哈哈哈~~之後先知佢地好多都係85,86咁啦~polly,anthony a-level~tony,gary,靜雯,敏卿,henry入ive~杰少又報返ive~crystal就升中五~

有2位小朋友好cute呀~一個肥嘟嘟,戴眼鏡~一個女仔黎既,大大眼,乖乖,靜靜咁,白裡透紅,成日笑咪咪,可愛~有第3位既,不過之後見到佢唔乖,又聲大大,因佢知自己得寵,就唔多鐘意了~

>>August 15, 2005 at 10:45:48 AM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 11 日 星期四 【酷熱】

PINKY生日快樂~

我同SANDY 3 line咁打左俾pinky,傾左一陣~yeah~估唔到呢個世界咁細.....識既人都可能只係同一個圈~

我想改髮型~電鬆佢,之後束起,好型咁~轉一轉形象......細ryan又要電,菁菁又要....不過唔要同一間wor~~

唔記得講,尋日菁菁約我今日去唱k既時候,因得返菁菁同細ryan陪pinky,所以叫埋我,菁菁話我呢個孤獨老人,會無人約........真係....知我者,莫過於菁菁也........之後佢就話,唔好咁唔好咁....因呢幾日我都有出街~菁菁真係了解我......錫晒你....

記得妙手仁心裡面,francies,即係黎姿,同阿paul講,.......好多野,對與錯,好與壞,無人知,只係睇你點睇~事源係阿paul響SARS期間,有時用藥太重,雖然救返d人,不過藥力令大家失去部份機能~好似一個賽跑好手,藥重令他現在行動不便,但係.....個個人話,佢行過既呢條山路,以前係練跑既,雖然概嘆,但係佢話好過無得再上黎.....以前只顧跑,都無認真咁睇下d風景...依家先知原來d風景咁靚.....

值得深思.....

今日1100,旺中等~不過唔知做咩......0800就起左身,響床上轆左一陣,0900起身~同phyllis msn一陣~之後又閒閒咁,拖到好遲先出門,因為我知佢地實遲,去到月台打左俾菁菁,佢早到~good~不過平時準時既pinky遲到,因為佢返左school~下次都係去返九龍行啦,得2小時......菁菁同細ryan就抗議,話佢地平時係少唱k,又少搞呢d function...唔識wor~~細ryan問我做咩咁早到....差唔多啦,不嬲都準時~

之後搞搞搞.....又煩惱左一陣,之後pinky俾他們教導一番~好彩....無事~~自己約左,plan左後叫,會好一點~

由於以為細ryan走左之後唔返黎,就唔去workshop,sandy打黎扭計,原本拋左個波俾細ryan,點知佢話唔識收線,又俾返我,又同sandy糾纏左一陣,就收線lu,人地肚餓架嘛,阻住晒,早知佢會返黎,我就去workshop啦~因佢同表妹去左旅行社搞手續~行左陣,我累,去左仙跡岩drink,之後我地就行去大華酒店~

菁菁話石kip尾下一個站係天后~我呆左一呆,佢就話因太子同天后好似.....我都唔知邊一度似.....我宣揚左開去,佢就話我癡線,哈哈哈~

今日,同菁菁,細ryan過馬路時,突然想起,就好似醒起左某d野咁大叫左一句....今日我見到颱風一號..我見佢地望一望前方,我好smart咁get到佢地以為我見到邊一個.....我即刻解釋.....係現正懸掛一號颱風戒備信號......哈哈哈~細ryan今日就問我咩事~因佢問我食咩既時候,我將茄汁講左係芝士.....哈哈哈~~

佢地唱k好搞笑....細ryan就唱甩字,一係後補字,一係漏左字.....我同pinky講,佢無睇字幕,憑記憶唱~michelle話佢未訓醒~而菁菁就好虛咁,唱完一首,就話暈暈地....要休息一下~~

sandy後join我地drink野~今日見到表妹,同細ryan幾似,不過表妹個樣男仔些,,輪廓大些,黑些~~好friendly呀,好醒咁一見到pinky就講生日快樂~佢個隻青蛙都好得意呀,開左之後會著燈呀,原來入面個隻係小青蛙呀~表妹仲話可以照明添呀~pinky扭唔開,好似好暴力咁,表妹就阻止佢,叫佢唔好咁暴力~哎呀.....真係睇唔出呀~~pinky仲唔認~

今日ida蠢蠢咁,搵唔到入口~pinky同sandy跟住我,好醒咁入左去,呵呵~~我同cecilia都好肚餓,不過等埋michelle先~cecilia放工時都好興,因有人阻住佢唔俾佢走~好多野食呀,都ok wor~yeah yeah~~飽到不能再飽~jeannie唔輸蝕咁起勢咁食~gail因遲到,未坐低就拎野食~jeannie係咁打阿銘~無咩儀態.....佢地話jeannie靚左~gail俾人既感覺唔同左,好似成熟左~阿明同gail好似撐檯腳咁,自己倆不斷咁talk,旁若無人~

我同sandy好飽既時候,cecilia話仲未飽,勁~yanny俾jeannie話成日食草~yanny作戰到最後~因佢地plan左21號ride bicycle~yanny問...識唔識踩去大埔個個墟呀~之後jeannie串佢....去過尖沙個個咀未?去過沙個個田未?哈哈~~

sandy車左條裙俾pinky~我送左條虫虫~michelle送左手鍊~細ryan送左chocolate~大佛送左蛋形植物~其他唔知~~grace整左cake俾pinky~大家又問michelle既旅行情況~佢瘦左,仲話自己靚左~因佢無咩好食..成日都係個d..d風景好靚,又有充足既relax同埋休息~仲見到好多adventre既野~不過架船好大....d野食好多好多.....影左700幾張用digital既相,同埋6筒菲林~大家又講下近況~我又show下自己行causeway bay既戰利品~問我做咩少reply,無計,剛收到receipt,上個月36個sms,要$14.4,真係.....好貴....簽左contract,回饋$20都無用~因我唔係smartone~

之後,michelle走先~大家影下相,cecilia返home睇妙手仁心,我,ida,sandy行出去mk搵細ryan,順便大家行下,消化下,真係好飽好飽,飽到不能再飽~之後行左一陣,我都係忍唔住抽左叮噹.....hehehe~~抽到技安呀~即刻尖叫左,好開心呀.....叫cyrena再抽俾我先~我會買一套俾人lor.......kekekeke~~

我第一次抽呢d野,蠢蠢咁,見到有得抽,點知要3個$5 coin,我蠢蠢咁入左一個,之後扭唔到,之後發現要3個,細ryan俾左一個我,sandy再換一個比我,呵呵呵~~多謝晒~大家之後discuss點分,唔知做咩,我係最蝕既一個,點都係得返條鍊或個殼,因我既$5第一個入~~呵呵呵....好開心唷.......真係尖叫左~好得意呀.....yeah yeah~我要俾大家睇~~

之後sandy又陪我行返去jordan,我送左佢去take bus,我就去入錢(原本堅持同我入左先,因怕我危險),因我簽左咭,之後back home~用極速咁執好入camp既野,好快,慣了......唔知cyrena做咩每次去camp,都好似出trip咁,要用好耐時間執囉~都唔知做咩~真係.......

michelle扭計,因我地趁佢走左,去左cyrena's home hot pot~哈哈哈~~佢收到細ryan既sms,再收到pinky既sms~激死左~~哈哈哈~~唔打緊,我地會上去佢home~~

唔該cecilia幫我拎野俾欣欣,雖然星期日都見,不過佢知我入camp,費事我拎咁多野~今日既一小袋野入面,好多野,俾唔同既人,細ryan問有無野俾佢...oh...唔好意思,無~~有cecilia既cd-r,sandy既牌,pinky既b-day gift,欣欣既襟章~呵呵~~仲show晒d襟章呀.....

去旅行既細ryan,去australia,去唔到遊船河,上cyrena's home都有d難度~不過,好多野都無得驚,返大陸,話d人好愴狂,但係外國亦如是,外國人,咩人都可以有槍....daddy講得對~菁菁都贊同,好多野都唔驚得咁多....講真,搶野,咩地方都可以發生,唔一定係中國~外國都可以....你要死,要有意外,去到邊,防到邊,都會有.....未必避到....that's why我唔贊同細ryan既說法,亦感到無奈.....而掩面~哈哈~被佢見到,問我咩事~好多野,俾太多框框,會見少d野,經歷少d野~嘗試突破......

聽日0800入到元朗~入camp~byebye......

>>August 12, 2005 at 5:46:14 PM GMT+8