2003 年 4 月 10 日 星期四 【雨】

心情平平。o的lab做到pat屎咁。都唔知點樣同老細交代。

琴晚真係好累，搞到今朝居然一起身就已經係十點二，真係…唉…

我做過o的乜呀？我可以點做先可以畢業？我好辛苦喇，身心俱疲…

>>April 11, 2003 at 11:40:45 PM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 9 日 星期三 【雨】

今日真係累到死…

老細買o個部iMac今日到佐，個個都爭住走過佢試，老細自己亦沾沾自喜。但係對於我o黎講，只係多佐一件玩具。

做o野都係唔順，想死。

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To Leslie Cheung,

AMERICAN PIE
By Don McLean

Long, long time ago
I can still remember
How that music used to make me smile
And I knew if I had my chance
That I could make those people dance
And maybe they'd be happy for a while
But February made me shiver
With every paper I'd delivered
Bad news on the doorstep
I couldn't take one more step
I can't remember if I cried
When I read about his widowed bride
But something touched me deep inside
The day, the music died

So bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee, but the levee was dry
And good old boys were drinking whisky and rye
Singing "this'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die"

Did you write the Book of Love?
And do you have faith in God above
If the bible tells you so?
Now do you believe in rock 'n roll?
Can music save your mortal soul?
And, can you teach me how to dance real slow?
Well, I know that you're in love with him
'Cause I saw you dancing in the gym
You both kicked off your shoes
Man, I dig those rhythm and blues, ooh!
I was a lonely teenage broncing buck
With a pink carnation and a pickup truck
But I knew I was out of luck
The day, the music died
I started singing

Bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee, but the levee was dry
And good old boys were drinking whisky and rye
Singing "this'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die"

Now for ten years, we've been on our own
And moss grows fat on a rolling stone
But that's not how it used to be
When the jester sang for the king and queen
In a coat he borrowed from James Dean
And a voice that came from you and me
Oh, and while the king was looking down
The jester stole his thorny crown
The courtroom was adjourned
No verdict was returned
And while Lenin read a book on Marx
The quartet practiced in the park
And we sang dirges in the dark
The day, the music died
We were singing

Bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee, but the levee was dry
And good old boys were drinking whisky and rye
Singing "this'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die"

Helter Skelter in the summer swelter
The birds flew off with a fallout shelter
Eight miles high and falling fast...
It landed foul out on the grass
And the players tried for a forward pass
With the jester on the sidelines, in a cast
Now the half-time air was sweet perfume
While the sergeants played a marching tune
We all got up to dance
Oh, but we never got the chance
'Cause the players tried to take the field
The marching band refused to yield
Do you recall what was revealed
The day, the music died?
They started singing

Bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee, but the levee was dry
And good old boys were drinking whisky and rye
Singing "this'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die"

Oh, and there we were all in one place
A generation lost in space
With no time left to start again
So come on, Jack be nimble, Jack be quick
Jack Flash sat on a candlestick
'Cause fire is the devil's only friend
Oh, and as I watched him on the stage
My hands were clenched in fists of rage
No angel born in hell
Could break that Satan's spell
And as the flames climbed high into the night
To light the sacrificial rite
I saw Satan laughing with delight
The day, the music died
He was singing

Bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee, but the levee was dry
And good old boys were drinking whisky and rye
Singing "this'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die"

I met a girl who sang the blues
And I asked her for some happy news
But she just smiled and turned away
I went down to the sacred store
Where I'd heard the music years before
But the man there said the music wouldn't play
And in the streets the children screamed
The lovers cried and the poets dreamed
But not a word was spoken
The church bells all were broken
And the three men I admire most
The Father, Son, and the Holy Ghost
They caught the last train for the coast
The day, the music died
And they were singing

Bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee, but the levee was dry
And good old boys were drinking whisky and rye
Singing "this'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die"

They were singing
Bye, bye Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee, but the levee was dry
And good old boys were drinking whisky and rye
Singing "this'll be the day that I die"

>>November 10, 2005 at 8:53:01 PM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 8 日 星期二 【雨】

今日覺得唔開心，因為眼見自己冇乜可能畢倒業。

返到去都唔知做乜好…又眼訓到死…琴晚搞個ftp搞到兩點幾三點先有得訓。死人中文大學，o係出面連個ftp入o黎都唔得，極廢。唔通只係可以中大連中大咁廢都仲可以叫做ftp？

Set佐一個reaction，睇怕都凶多吉少。

好累。聽日仲要講literature，好煩。好憎化學，好憎中大。

>>April 9, 2003 at 12:25:35 AM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 7 日 星期一 【雨】

琴晚食佐屎，點半上床訓，但係「典」到五點幾先訓得著。不過憑住意志力冇翻訓，結果今朝八點九就返到lab。不過都幾辛苦…

九點半媽媽打畀我話佢o係金鐘買倒《明報周刊》，好o野！錫晒媽媽！

今日用佐大半日都係set個GC o既新program，由21分鐘縮到10分鐘，慳返以後o的時間。實驗冇乜做，send佐o野畀老細佢又叫我自己諗o下…頂…我唔想再諗同chem有關o既o野喇！！！

夜晚返佐屋企食飯同飲板藍根。走o個時我屋企o個兩個女人o係度嗌交…嘩…好嘈呀…

>>April 8, 2003 at 12:48:27 AM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 6 日 星期日 【雨】

我需要一個家，我好想同您組織一個家庭。

今朝七點幾先訓，掛住同亞辛打pool同傾偈…之後訓到四點先起身，食完晏，上佐陣網，就出去喇…頂…琴日出o既《明報周刊》居然一日就賣晒買唔倒，有冇搞錯…我要呀…哥哥…

夜晚場波就真係峰迴路轉喇…全場波都落住雨打，仲要六打六，因為有o的pk放佐飛機，頂！不過呢場打得過癮得o黎都有o的辛苦。一開波大鴻就入波，不過好快就畀人追返。之後又唔小心畀人入多粒，半場休息之後，再畀人入多粒…諗住死梗啦，於是我都唔理喇，索性唔守全攻。

六打六，始終都多o的空位走，我仲有球單刀添呀…不過最後督佐出底線… @_@ 不過又好彩喎，我有機會襯住對方唔解圍，踏順步用右腳射，又因為個波濕，龍門掂倒都入！yeah~~~我入波喇（雖然有o的付碌…）！係踢呢隊波以o黎第一次入波呀！哇哈哈！

追得番三比二，全隊士氣大振。之後大鴻再o係窄位射入一球，追和喇！諗住咁就完場就算，但係最後都係因為落雨關係，大鴻再有機會得手，賽果係四比三，我o地居然反敗為勝！我o地終於都贏返佢o地，好o野！

>>April 7, 2003 at 1:21:28 PM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 5 日 星期六 【陰】

今日係紅假，難得我可以同您一齊。

實在太想同您一齊，巴不得要同您同居。雖然您總有好多好多大意同埋我睇得唔眼o既地方，但係我愛，我通通都愛。我愛您o既冒失，愛您o既大意，愛您o既一切。因為您都係咁樣去愛我，愛我呢個喜怒無常，情緒支配一切o既冇用鬼。

其實我真係好擔心，成日都會諗︰如果同您生佐啤啤，您會唔會仲係咁懞呢？結果搞到個啤啤出佐咩事呢？我擔心o既，唔係怕冇佐個啤啤，而係怕您會因為咁而傷心難過。好怕好怕…

媚媚，我愛您。真係好愛您。您就係我o既一切。

>>April 6, 2003 at 5:06:21 PM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 4 日 星期五 【陰】

又冇返工，老細要我in writing咁畀原因佢。

今日您因為PBL只係需要頹present而唔開心。肺炎令到您o既心血白費。我明白您o既失落，支持您。

夜晚幫您搞佐個lab o既calculation，原來您唔識用Excel。我教您，您唔好覺得自己冇用乜都唔識o徙晒自己o的時間。冇人係一出世就乜都識o既。您唔識o既o野我都一一願意教您，因為您係我一生之中o既最愛。

您話如果我可以快o的脫離呢行就好，咁樣我就會開心o的。媚媚，係真o架，我真係好愛您。冇佐您，我真係唔知點過。多謝您一直都陪住我、體諒我。您為我哭、為我笑，我一生一世都記得，將來一定唔可以畀您捱苦。

>>April 6, 2003 at 5:09:26 PM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 3 日 星期四 【陰】

今日曠職，冇返。原因︰心情欠佳，同埋起唔倒身。

成日留佐o係宿度，訓訓訓。

您陪我，我陪您。

我同您都認為世界末日會比我o地死o黎得早。我明白，張國榮哥哥其實係睇通佐呢樣o野，佢認為活著是苦（我都係咁覺得…），所以佢尋求自我解脫。佢怕死，但係最終都有勇氣去自殺，佢好叻。我亦怕死，但係又冇勇氣，所以我選擇要去愛我身邊我愛o既人。聖經之中耶穌教我o地要愛身邊o既所有人，甚至係仇敵，但係請恕我暫時未能將我有限o既愛去分畀呢o的人。我唔選擇死，係因為我實在太唔捨得我身邊我所愛o既人。

>>April 6, 2003 at 6:45:55 AM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 2 日 星期三 【陰】

張國榮o既死，依然令我好唔開心，但係原來身在遠方o既亞辛都係一樣。因為我o地都係o係o個年代成長。哥哥話︰「唔識o既o野就唔好立亂畀意見。」冇錯！一生受用。

今日係化系所有lab用1%漂白水清洗日，好無聊。今日又再去催but爺份報價，但係條友話佢自己好忙唔得閒搞。但係佢呢頭又可以o係士多房講是講非，話阿強o係佢女友度染佐肺炎…小佢老鼠啦真係，廢人講廢話。不過阿強真係好慘，雖然係女友o既同事係中佐招，但係佢就咁即時畀人逼走放假，o的人有冇腦o架？我真係唔明點解人同人之間o既信任一o的o的都冇晒…

夜晚終於都可以同您過，好開心，好掛住您。

>>April 6, 2003 at 7:30:04 AM GMT+8

2003 年 4 月 1 日 星期二 【晴】

郵差又痴佐線… @_@

張國榮死佐…點解呀？佢做乜事呀？點解o的識唱歌o既人都死晒？點解會咁o架？做乜要跳樓？張國榮同陳百強仲有黃家駒我都好鐘意呀，做乜一個又一個咁死？

今日好勁，雖然琴晚兩點幾先訓，但係八點九就起倒身喇，九點半前返到lab。做做做，做到五點幾，開始冇心機做，於是走佐去休息佐陣。

大學真係冇人性，成街肺炎都仲要我o地班postgrad.返都不特止，仲只係每人每星期派三個紙口罩，收買人命咩…但係另一方面佢又可以幫您訂，佢xy，慳埋o野o的死人錢，真係不得好死…

之後就出九龍塘畀o野家姐，佢就畀「板藍根」我。好耐冇見喇，大家都好掛住大家。同佢企o係火車站度傾佐陣偈，佢話自己好唔掂…我知道喇，撐硬您o架喎！

唔知係咪因為今日係愚人節，有人發放消息話香港變疫埠，搞到o的師奶呀婆走晒去糴米，真係搞x笑，人心惶惶…香港幾時變成咁？回歸之後未好過…

跟住再返佐屋企食飯，食完飯買佐龜苓膏您食，但係要返一返lab打個GC先。好耐冇您見喇，嘻嘻…雖然唔可以o係您宿舍樓下留得耐，但係都冇所謂啦，我o地仲有時間（至少去到世界末日…），您畀心機做埋o的功課先啦！

>>April 2, 2003 at 1:33:32 AM GMT+8