2004 年 5 月 29 日 星期六 【晴】

Carry on research for at morning. So confused.
Met Dinasor at Luen Wo Market on the afternoon, visited Mr. Hau's shop and got a card for suk fan.
Then went to SS with Dinasor to visit suk fan, but she can't out for a drink, so disappointed. Anyway, it's nice to meet a pretty girl.
Get the ID photo copy form Dinasor, Wan, and one of his friend. Need to apply the temp restricted area ID for them.
Called Man later, have a chat with norika for nearly an hour.

Rock music, but still a nice song.
I Hate Myself For Loving You
(Joan Jett/Desmond Child)

Midnight getting uptight Where are you
You said you'd meet me now it's quarter to two
I know I'm hanging but I'm still wantin' you

Hey Jack It's a fact they're talking in town
I turn my back and you're messing around
I'm not really jealous don't like lookin' like a clown

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you

Daylight spent the night without you
But I've been dreaming about the loving you do
I won't be as angry about the hell you put me through

Hey man betcha you can treat me right
You just don't know what you was missing last night
I wanna see you beggin, say forget it just for spite

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you, that's why
I hate myself for loving you

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you

尋開心 趙學而
曲 : 周初晨 詞 : 林夕 編 : 王雙駿

別來扮 伶仃孤苦身世 你是我哪位
誰也學會 拾得起 放得低

而眼淚嗎 我不敢發揮 就如洞悉一切
亂世的情侶 誰亦滿身傷勢

別忙著 狂抽煙的手勢 以為愁腸是美麗
你令我 有歡慰 才是實際

你讓我 有安慰 誰亦不必理虧
你別要 再幽怨 和慚愧

我尋你開心 你尋我開心 我們還有甚麼可以恨
你贈我體溫 我贈你興奮 男或女來製造愛我不關心
愛情求開心 沒有所謂敵人 快別要弄壞美好氣氛
別在乎甚麼 所愛非人 誰能讓你愉快 便算 合襯

誰能讓你愉快 便安枕
誰能讓你愉快 和安枕 也就能合襯

>>May 31, 2004 at 12:03:06 AM GMT+8

2004 年 5 月 28 日 星期五 【晴】

Help 契媽 to carry on network setup. Discover that the router have some problem. Need to have more time for research.
Help Mr. Yip for setup his PC. Discover that his pc is inflected with the torjan in system file. Need to re-install the system at the end. Have a dinner in his house for the first time. Everyone said that I look alike Andrew (ar Wai), his little son.
They just kept saying thanks to me about helping them for the computer related issues. However, this is just a minor constribution in my view. Moreover, I learn a lot from them through out the process. Either skill sets or experiences/ recommendations.
One of my friend in UK is finding job as well. Thanks for her helps on providing some jobs form her friends in HK.
Sorry to call you late. I won't forget the meaning of today.

原來只要共你活一天
曲：陳少琪 詞：陳少琪 唱：張學友

我相信 和你的相識不會是偶遇
就像上天施予 造就兩心相遇
我說你是我公主
時光每處每夜每清早我也記住
望夜星的相遇 望日出多歡愉
送上我永遠的關注

原來只要共你活一天
凡塵裡一切可以別掛念
(凡塵裡一切可再不掛念)
原來海角天際亦會變
原來生過死過深愛亦無變
原來只要共你活一天
完全去把你所有都發現
原來只要相信便看見
原來給你真愛的我是無悔
是每一天

如果天意 要俗世消失這個故事
就讓大海失意 陸地傷心飄移
放棄每日再開始
如果世界 會尚有真心真意故事
就在我目光內 滴下淚的當兒
告訴你 你已看到一次

>>May 30, 2004 at 1:36:44 AM GMT+8

2004 年 5 月 27 日 星期四 【晴】

Visited Ling Ying with Mooncake. It was a nice trip, chated with Kei Wai Yi principal for a long time. Learned that for the coming 5th June, the 1st principal form school will come back. It will be nice to meet this respectful person.

Help 契媽 and Mr. Yip to setup their PC.
Make friend with Leung Lap, learn a lot through out the conversation between us.
Mr. Yip and Leung lap said that I am not self-confidence enough, suggest me to address this problem.
Visited Golden to buy the CAT5E cable and hub for the network in new office of 契媽.
Leung Lap comment on me is too simple and too naive. He think that self-protection is very important and never tell other too much about yourself. So your weakness/disadvantages won't be revealed by your counter-side/competitor. It's time to change, Ton.

Mind (memory) carry out manipulation constantly, in dynamic environment, we change to adapt different variables.

傾城 許美靜
曲:陳佳明 詞:黃偉文 編:吳慶隆

熱悄就算 熄滅了 分手這一晚 也重要
甜言蜜語 謊話嬉笑 都給我一點
不要缺少 話題盡了 也不緊要
吻我至蕭煞的深宵
繁華都市 燈光普照 然而共你 已再沒破曉

紅眼睛 幽幽的看著這孤城 如同苦笑 擠出的高興
全城為我 花光狠勁 浮華盛世 作分手佈景
傳說中 痴心的眼淚會傾城 霓虹熄了 世界漸冷清
煙花會謝 笙歌會停 顯得這故事作尾聲 更動聽
紅眼睛 幽幽的看著這孤城 如同苦笑 擠出的高興
瓊樓玉宇 倒了陣形 來營造這 絕世的風景
傳說中 痴心的眼淚會傾城 霓虹熄了 世界漸冷清
煙花會謝 笙歌會停 顯得這故事作尾聲 更動聽

>>May 29, 2004 at 12:12:46 AM GMT+8

2004 年 5 月 26 日 星期三 【晴】

Returned to MKC this afternoon. Talked with many teachers that bring me up for the 8 years time. Donated 100hkd for the school's rebuild, I think this is a mirror constribution to mother school because I learned a lot form her. Discovered so many changes in school and people. Somehow, I was managed to recongize some student. Promised one of my teacher about the website reconstruction, will be finished by the coming Monday. 1/6 will have a meeting in school about the ex-student union in MKC, hope to join it if possible. (if I can't get a job at that time).
契媽 called me and asked me about helping her setup the equipments. She asked me if I'm interest in some admin job and will have a disucssion with me tomorrow in details. I informed father and Ka Wo about it but I think it is a good idea not to tell my mother about that before confirmation.

Photographs and memories　Jim Croce

Photographs and memories
Christmas cards you sent to me
All that I have are these
To remember you

Memories that come at night
Take me to another time
Back to a happier day
When I called you mine

*But we sure had a good time
When we started way back when
Morning walks and bedroom talks
Oh how I loved you then

Summer skies and lullabies
Nights we couldn't say good-bye
And of all of the things that we knew
Not a dream survived

Photographs and memories
All the love you gave to me
Somehow it just can't be true
That's all I've left of you (*)

好久不見 曲/詞: 黃凱芹

仍舊照樣渡過每天 如沒有起點跟終點
剎那之間彷彿失方寸 前路不知怎麼去選
但你只要靠緊心裡面 在我心中風雨不變
閒來隨便講一句贈言 能令我灰心回暖

人在每月每夜每天　越來越來越懷念
情在每月每夜每天 越來越來越想念
身邊看著每度朋友變遷
感激你和我仍情牽一線
就算多麼遠　都不覺遙遠

如若你偶然情緒紊亂 磨滅了意志感到困倦
與我一起再返到往年 無限思憶心中上演
共你天各一方不碰面 但信即使好久不見
仍能互勉守一個諾言 重聚也許在明天
　
人在每月每夜每天　越來越來越懷念
情在每月每夜每天 越來越來越想念
身邊看著每度朋友變遷
感激你待我仍如此真摯
暫別也不改變　等他朝再相見

但你可知道　今宵我難眠

>>May 30, 2004 at 1:36:27 AM GMT+8

2004 年 5 月 25 日 星期二 【晴】

Today had a basketball game with Kai Chun and Wai Hong in Luen Wo Market.
Discovered that my physical strength is really sub-standard. Hope to tune up within 2 weeks.
Read an article about Alpha male in management, really nice and I discover some of my shadow of Alpha. Maybe I need to address this problem as soon as possible.
Had a long chat (sound off) with Kai Chun and Wai Hong in McDonald after the game. Then visit Lung Fung Ling together. Joking between us about who's gonna make her to be girl friend.
Afterward, came to meet Chun Wing in his shop off Fanling Centre. Got his mobile then left.
Came back to Luen Wo Market. On my way to the bridge, I re-union with her again. I was sucked on her. So far, I didn't said much, in fact, I wasn't expected to meet her again at that scenario. On foot to home after sent her the package that contains my pervious life.
"Effort for your exam", with many words inside my soul.
Added another classmate from MKC, get the phone number from this classmate for another classmate.
Called and had a long chat with a classmate, wish this classmate can achieve an excellent result for the coming exam.
Will return MKC tomorrow.

Photos, Letters and Memories - passed
時光倒流二十年 詞:林夕 唱：陳奕迅

童年你與誰渡過 聖詩班中唱的歌
再哼一哼可以麼
當時誰與 你排著坐 白色恤衫灰褲子
再穿一穿可以麼

遺憾我當時年紀不可親手擁抱你欣賞
童年便相識 餘下日子多閃幾倍光
誰讓我倒流時光一起親身跟你去分享
能留下印象 閱覽你家中每道牆
拿著你歌書 與你合唱

從前你與誰路過 逛的公園有幾多
再走一走可以麼
當時誰對你凝望過 是否真的比我多
再演一演可以麼

* 遺憾我當時年紀不可親手擁抱你欣賞
童年便相識 餘下日子多閃幾倍光
誰讓我倒流時光一起親身跟你去分享
遺憾印象 沒有你家中那面牆
拿著你相簿 *

從前拍過的相
多麼妒忌你昨日同過的窗
早些看著你美麗模樣
對你天真的讚賞

Repeat *

從頭細看 你六歲當天 已是我偶像

A nice film and theme song
Something To Talk About (theme of About a boy) Badly Drawn Boy

I've been dreaming of the things I've learnt about a boy
Whose bleeding, celebrate to elevate
The joy is not the same without the pain

Ipso facto
Using up your oxygen, you know I'm shallow
Calling out for extra help
You've got to let me in or let me out

0h something to talk about
Yeah something to talk about

I've been dreaming of the things I've learnt about a boy
Whose leaving, nothing else to chance again
You've got to let me in or let me out

Oh something to talk about
Yeah something to talk about

>>May 26, 2004 at 5:59:55 PM GMT+8

2004 年 5 月 24 日 星期一 【晴】

The appointment will be Sept., 2005. More than one year to wait. Why it takes so long to wait.

Visited Kwan brother and Ka Wo today, had a nice dinner with him - so many changes in between us now. Kwan mentioned her again - somehow, I don't know how to answer him, just leave it unanswer.
Found that I don't know how to talk with Kwan, fail to find the common topic in between us.

Diamonds and rust　　　　 Joan Baez

Well , I'll be damned .Here comes your ghost again
But that's not unusual
It's just that the moon is full and you happened to call
And here I sit, hand on the telephone
Hearing a voice I'd known a couple of light years ago
Heading straight for a fall

As I remember your eyes
were bluer than robin's eggs
My poetry was lousy, you said
"Where were you calling from?"
"A booth in the Midwest"
Ten years ago I bought you some cufflinks
You brought me something
We both know what memories can bring
They bring diamond and rust

Well, you burst on the scene were already a legend
The unwatched phenomenon
The original vagabond you strayed into my arms
And there you stayed temporarily lost at sea
The Madonna was yours for free
Yes, the girl on the half shell
Could keep you unharmed

Now I see you standing with brown leaves falling all around
Snow in your hair
Now you're smiling out the window
of that crummy hotel over Washington Square
Our breath comes out white cloud mingles and hangs in the air
Speaking strictly for me
We both could've died then and there

Now you're telling me you're not nostalgic
Then give me another word for it
You who're so good with words and at keeping thing vague
Cause I need some of that vagueness now
It's all come back too clearly
Yes , I love you dearly
And if you're offering me diamonds and rust
I've already paid

>>May 26, 2004 at 12:23:44 AM GMT+8

2004 年 5 月 23 日 星期日 【晴】

Appointment will delay for one day.
Have Canton style morning tea for the first time in 2 years time, 50hkd for two people is alright.
Afterward visited NDAAA to see 契媽, she was busy with moving office. Gotta meet her in the coming wed.
Walked to the place showed in my dreams for years again, by myself. Stared at the bridge and river for the entire afternoon. Think of some words from princess Diana.
"leave me alone" - princess Diana 1997.
Moved to Lib. in Luen Wo Market Government Complex, get some books for CIMA, Project Management and Solaris 8 home to kill time.
Without the key for main door, so pooling around and met many people.


來到今天
作詞：陳少琪　作曲：謝杰　編曲：劉祖德　演唱：李克勤/黃伊汶

（李）我路過　行李藏著太多的傷痛
　　　那會為誰逗留盛放我笑容

＊（黃）我也路過　既能被你感動
　　　　你都失重　為何將言詞　都鎖進在眼中
　（黃）年紀小　不等於我是錯
　　　　盡情活著　為何代表闖禍
　（李）請別來愛我　我沒法親手
　　　　又再寫多一首昨日的歌

＃（李）來到今天　就當做記念趁著我們能避免
　（黃）我會勇敢跳進你的空白點
　（李）為何像隔開一光年
　（李）今天我又再失眠
　（黃）今天以后更驚險　都一起脫險
　（李）來到今天　別了別掛念趁著結局能預見
　（黃）我不怕雨天　預備共你的愛＃
　　　　用血與淚提煉
（李）如若肚餓了願你細心點　找到合適餐店 ＊

Repeat ＊

（李）只貪溫暖　終於只有更加混亂
　　　如沒有缺陷誰會堅決絕緣
（黃）明明是愛著要扮到隔開很遠
　　　若愛燒光耗損
（李）世上都繼續轉
（黃）世上不必轉圈

Repeat ＃

（黃）用血與淚提煉
（李）不可並肩
（李）如若雨未過
（黃）就算濕透身
（黃）亦要再遇見
（李）請等晴天

>>May 24, 2004 at 5:17:23 PM GMT+8

2004 年 5 月 22 日 星期六 【晴】

Home

Home changed a lot, parent's head become white now; Garden is filled with plants and flowers; The landscape changed as well.
Met and called most of the best friend.
Dinasor visits me from Wan Chai and pick me to SS. Met a good friend with Dinasor and have a drink. When I send her home, one of her friend look at us in a strange way. Just get suspected by this person.
Met Chow Chi Yan in SS in suprise, learned that Chow Chi Sing was sent to detoxicification centre because of drug abuse on "Little K". Sometime feel sad about it, however, can't help too much about it.

Dealing with a friend's study issues, wish to solve it asap.
Brother is dealing with the tutorial school issue in mainland China. Wish to solve it out asap as well.
Proof Ka Wai and Ka To were picked to Sunderland to handle Keung Hang's assignment issue.

Tomorrow have an appointment with blood test. Time to push myself up. Go ahead Ton.

I know my answer now...........................just take it as my chance.
P.S. A friend is suffering from cold, wish she recover soon.

House of rising sun　　　Animals

There is a house in New Orleans
They call the Rising Sun
And it's been the ruin of many a poor boy
And God I know I'm one

My mother was a tailor
She sewed my new blue jeans
My father was a gambling man
Down in New Orleans

Now the only thing a gambler needs
Is a suitcase and trunk
And the only time he's satisfied
Is when he's on a drunk

Oh mother, tell your children
Not to do what I have done
Spend your lives in sin and misery
In the House of the Rising Sun

Well, I got one foot on the platform
The other foot on the train
I'm going back to New Orleans
To wear that ball and chain

Well, there is a house in New Orleans
They call the Rising Sun
And it's been the ruin of many a poor boy
And God I know I'm one

>>May 24, 2004 at 10:49:45 AM GMT+8

2004 年 5 月 21 日 星期五 【晴】

Count down 0
Check in discovered that overweight for more than 8 kgs. Luckly don't need to pay the penalty after claiming that I don't have suffcient money to paid it.

For unknown reason, all people on flight communicate to me with English. Am I really look like a BBC?


再別康橋

輕輕的我走了，
正如我輕輕的來；
我輕輕的招手，
作別西天的雲彩。

那河畔的金柳 是夕陽中的新娘；
波光裡的艷影，
在我的心頭蕩漾。
軟泥上的青荇 油油的在水底招搖：

在康河的柔波裡 我甘心做一條水草！
那榆蔭下的一潭 不是清泉，
是天上虹 揉碎在浮藻間，
沉澱著彩虹似的夢。


尋夢？
撐一支長篙 向青草更青處漫溯，
滿載一船星輝，
在星輝斑爛裡放歌。
但我不能放歌，
悄悄是別離的笙簫；
夏蟲也為我沉默，
沉默是今晚的康橋！


悄悄的我走了，
正如我悄悄的來；
我揮一揮衣袖，
不帶走一片雲彩。

Moon river　　　　　　Andy Williams

Moon river wider than a mile
I'm crossing you in style some day
Oh, dream maker
You heart breaker
Wherever you're going
I'm going your way

Two drifters off to see the world
There's such a lot of world to see
We're after the same rainbow's end
Waiting 'round the bend
My huckleberry friend
Moon river and me

>>May 24, 2004 at 10:51:41 AM GMT+8

2004 年 5 月 20 日 星期四 【晴】

Count down 1
After 4 hours travel, I finally reached the Heathrow again. It's a habit for me to stay in the airport overnight, as I got historical record of 4 stays. After read a letter for it's last time, I thrown it away, represent the end of its' means to me. It's very nice to witness the scence of people's re-union and separation. As I know that my arrival to HK will be by myself. Whatsoever, don't care about it. As I get used to alone for a long time. Sometime it's a nice idea to stay by myself and think about nature of lide and trying to find a solution with independenence. For nearly three years of time since you walked into my life, I changed and adopted new methodologies in different view points on approaching a solution. No matter just trying my best toward the best.

Keung Heung called me at mid-night and asked the phone number for Ka To and Ka Wai. Maybe he needs my brothers to be the "hit man" (槍手) again.

Heathrow airport
來來回回

有相聚有分離 還是始終喜歡你

明月清風總給我希望分開終於依然一起

我等待我希冀 如像初春的天氣

無論天青天陰酒雨酒霧心感覺也會很美

來來回回仍念記從前曾陪伴你

浮浮沉沉懷緬多麼似舊影戲

猶猶疑疑來讀你留下紅唇日記

原來從前曾為我不多講愛你便生氣

若我知假設若我知 才幾聲愛你導致別離在

那天講一千句我一生也愛著你

彌補表愛意沒有限期為你講講千億句 一生一世也愛你

有相近有分歧 還是始終癡戀你

明白必須講心裹說話否則不可能一起

我等待著我希冀還像初春的天氣

而無論天青抑天陰酒雨酒霧只想再碰著你

>>May 23, 2004 at 5:33:51 PM GMT+8