2004 年 6 月 18 日 星期五 【晴】

忘記尊重自己的車嘉豪 - 你的名字叫失敗吧!
幼稚與欠缺包容的車嘉豪 - 你的名字叫膚淺吧!
莽撞與氣量狹隘的車嘉豪 - 你的名字叫短視吧!
忘記尊重別人的車嘉豪 - 你的名字叫孤陋吧!
看不透人生
看不清世情

Note: Visited Kai Chun's home and shared some experiences through the years.

Today should be a nice day (expected), somehow, failure in interview + blame by classmate because of communication problem + two fatal conversations = total lost/upset.
Case 01 Failure in interview
Interview at a multinational com. for post in technician. From the wording, learned that failure for sure.
Case 02 Phone running out of credit
Phone running out of credit, result in the horrible ending.
Case 03 Resturant expected for dinner was closed alreay.
Result in blame by other
Case 04 Lack of communication and confirmation on number of people
Result in no room for dinner.
Case 05 Wrong wording to encounter Miss Lam
Lost of control .....
Fatal mistake phase I
Case 06 Wrong wording to Foon Ling
Fatal mistake phase II
Really upset about it when she ran away because of my incomplete sentence..... as I try my very best to invite her for this meeting. One simple sentence can spoil the entire efforts.
Really feel sorry to her.
In conclusion - mission failure.
Anyway, glad that everyone have their new life in HK, enjoying their very best. Think of Wing Hung out of suddenly, feel like crying.

Met some guys from Ls-te. Just to say hi with them.

Returned home and proof the RAM module is really down.
Called Mr. Yip for his PC problem. Gotta solve it on the coming Monday.

Confirmed the job issue with him, need to tune up myself. Oil ++ ->(Trend To) Infinity Ton !

I believe I can fly　　　　R. Kelly

I used to think that I could not go wrong
And life was nothing but that an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

*I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
Oh I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes inside us, it can seem so long
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me

Could I believe in it?
If I can see it, then I can be it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it (*)

>>June 21, 2004 at 3:05:58 AM GMT+8

2004 年 6 月 17 日 星期四 【晴】

Dress formally and attended a meeting. Met someone I knew before and played the "social" game.
There was a conflict in the meeting, well, I remain silence. As this is not my show time or suitable time to demonstrate my ability.
Afterward, had dinner with Ping, Ka Wo, and Ivy. Sound off for the years passed in between us.
When will Ping marry? Wait and see.
Later on come to Snake's home and sound off overnight. Invited Ling to join as well.
Told them what happened in draft. Of course, something is remained top secret.

飛花
作詞：陳少琪　作曲：李偲菘　編曲：吳慶隆

凌晨同靜望　奇幻冰雕亮光
你我抱擁於陌生的地方
同遊零度下　純白色的札幌
你說要永遠擁有這夜風光

＊綿綿頭上飛花　散聚了無牽掛
　誰能求漫天雪地裡這溫暖長留下
　（誰能求漫天雪地裡這足印不退下）
　綿綿頭上飛花　能遇上壯麗落霞（能遇上一次落霞）
　如像你跟我　暫借的火花（懷念那一剎　耀眼的火花）

為何流下淚　沉在一碗熱湯
你說你擔心　若我不在旁
為何還在願望黎明後捉緊曙光
你我有過這個故事　便至死未忘

Repeat ＊ ＊

>>June 19, 2004 at 3:42:53 AM GMT+8

2004 年 6 月 16 日 星期三 【晴】

Wake up at 0700, call mooncake at once (I was misunderstood that I wake up late). Then discovered I made a silly mistake. Arrived at Cheung Wa Community Hall at 0850. Work as a volunteer for entire day till 1500.
Job offer? wait and see.
Mr Yip said that he will introduce someone hard working and genius, great idea, wait and see.
Met fish on the way home, sound off with her for a while.
Chat with Welcome for a while, really nice.
Kept inviting people to join the class meeting at Sat night. Updated the contact list for 5E with Welcome.
Chat with Ping and Ivy for a while, Ping will marry soon, so great. Going to have dinner with them tomorrow night.

沒有看到自己的能力而去做妄想天開的事情, 可笑
沒有看到別人的貢獻而去質疑別人的付出, 更可笑
請不要將本人與你視為同類,
本人也不會與你一般的目光.
當你滿臉偽善與阿諛奉承時,
我已經明白到如何與你相處.

I'll try to be nice if possible, please don't force me to change.
想起從前一句挖苦別人的說話: 野心100%能力0.
也許你是一個有能力的人, 不過只懂得"窩裡反"的人注定難成大器.

Story - Ton
有故事的人
詞: 姚若龍 曲: 潘協慶 唱: 周華健

走著 忍著醒著 想著 看愛情悄悄近了

冷的 暖的甜的 苦的 在心裡纏繞成河

曲折的心情有人懂怎麼不感動

幾乎忘了昨日的種種開始又敢作夢

我決定不躲了你決定不怕了

我們決定讓愛像綠草原滋長著

天地遼闊相遇多難得都是有故事的人才聽懂心裡的歌

我決定不躲了你決定不怕了

就算下一秒坎坷這一秒是快樂的

曾經交心就非常值得我要專注愛你不想別的 沒有忐忑

>>June 18, 2004 at 6:43:20 AM GMT+8

2004 年 6 月 15 日 星期二 【晴】

Worked on Ching Yi's PC till 0400. Tested and validated with my 256Mb RAM.
Discovered some of my best collection form Hin's harddisk backup for my MP3s.
Found a nice website consists of many good oldies.
http://lyricsplayground.com/home.html

Waked up by the call of 姑媽 - She is concerning about mother's health problem. Slept for a while, then wakeed up by Mrs Ngan, next is a call from uncle about his's pc fault. Turned up at his home and resolved the problem (BIOS failed to detect the primary boot harddisk) within one hour.
Chat with sister, uncle and aunt for a while. Aunt and sister strongly recommand that I need to change my "outlook". Confirmed an appointment with sister at Mong Kok next Monday evening.
Back home and got a message form 契媽 about volunteer for the elderly. Only managed to invite mooncake to join, so bad. Anyway, be my very best for it.
Called Siu Sun and validated the one I meet last sat. Off Watson is he. He is so far so good. Wanna arrange a meeting sooner or later once I got the job with classmate of MKC F.5D.
Will have a lunch with Ho Kai Chung at Sat afternoon. Quite look forward to see him.
Called many classmate from F.5E using formal tone. Trying to invite as much classmate as I can.
Chat with Kwan for a while, she is working as a Program assistant. Wish she will enjoy it.

改變是好是壞在乎時間地點與人事


Think of an old classmate called Tracy, she will back to HK by tomorrow or day after tomorrow.
TRACES
Classics IV

Faded photograph, covered now with lines and creases
Tickets torn in half, memories in bits and pieces
Traces of love, long ago that didn't work out right
Traces of love.

Things we used to share, souvenirs of days together
The ring he used to wear, pages from an old love
letter
Traces of love, long ago that didn't work out right
Traces of love, with me tonight.

I close my eyes and say a prayer
That in his heart, he'll find a trace of love still
there,
Somewhere

Traces of hope in the night that he'll come back and
dry
These traces of tears from my eyes.

Traces of hope in the night that he'll come back and
dry
These traces of tears from my eyes.

History - Ton
讓我歡喜讓我憂 - 周華健
曲：飛鳥涼　詞：李宗盛

愛到盡頭覆水難收　愛悠悠恨悠悠
為何要到無法挽留　才又想起你的溫柔
給我關懷為我解憂　為我憑添許多愁
在深夜無盡等候　獨自淚流 獨自忍受

多想說聲我真的愛你　多想說聲對不起你
你哭著說情緣已盡　難再續　難再續

就請你給我多一點點時間
再多一點點問候　不要一切都帶走
就請你給我多一點點空間
再多一點點溫柔　不要讓我如此難受

啊　你這樣一個女人　讓我歡喜讓我憂
讓我甘心為了你 付出我 所有

>>June 16, 2004 at 5:34:47 PM GMT+8

2004 年 6 月 14 日 星期一 【晴】

Nothing special today, just keep hacking on the web page for Geog society.
Rain for a while and sent some photocopies to brother Lap at the afternoon.
RE-submit the the report with additional comments and changes.
Proof that the main problem for the system is out of the RAM module used.

Discovered a nice song's lyrics.
我為你狂 湯寶如

一陣叫聲　無力地吶喊
請聽我講　心底那份愛
不管一切　呈示你一看
原諒我　我的衝動　怎可再忍耐
可會令　令到你痛苦　我不願事實會這樣
你使我瘋瘋癲癲　一張臉朝晚難忘
然後每次見你　使我心震蕩
始終不知　不知你心意如何
每天站在遠處望
無奈獨自暗盼望
每天獨自暗盼望　每天獨自暗盼望

IF I ONLY HAD TIME
John Rowles - 1968


Mm...
If I only had time, only time

So much to do *
If I only had time, if I only had time
Dreams to pursue
If I only had time, they'd be mine

Time, like the wind, goes hurrying by
And the hours just fly
Where to begin?
There are mountains I'd climb if I had time
Since I met you I've thought
Life really is too short
Loving you so many things we could make true
A whole century isn't enough to satisfy me *

If I only had time, only time, mm...

>>June 15, 2004 at 7:56:50 PM GMT+8

2004 年 6 月 13 日 星期日 【晴】

Slept for 2 hours. Wake up by Ka Wo's return. Morning tea with mother then help friends to move the belongings. Later on dress formally for a meeting. Met aunt outside post office. After the meeting, went to centre for photo copying some text. Stay till 2130 then walked to SS and retrieved the PC from Ching Yi. Arrived at home around 0015. Confirmed the meeting at 19th June night time 2000. off Mong Kok Need to invite pretty girls and handsome bogs tomorrow.


When you believe　　　　Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston

Many nights we prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood

Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long before we knew we could

*There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer bird
Too swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith
　and speaking words I never thought I'd say(*)

They don't know it happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blind
You find your pain
can see or wake me through the rain
Boy, am I still resilient voice
Says love is the relief

>>June 14, 2004 at 5:50:52 PM GMT+8

2004 年 6 月 13 日 星期日 【晴】

Kowloon, NT one day round trip.
打鼓嶺 -> 鹿頸 -> 大尾督 -> 大埔林村 -> 林錦公路 -> 八鄉 -> 荃錦公路 -> 大帽山 -> 龍翔道 -> 荔枝角 -> 長沙灣 -> 屯門公路 -> 藍地 -> 虎地 -> 富泰 -> 粉錦公路 -> 上水 -> 打鼓嶺
view off 大帽山 is so great.
Had lunch at Tuen Mon with Lam Ling, receive a great photo from her ^^. Snake missed my appointment again.
Wonderful weather and had a nice trip with Dinasor.
Returned home and discovered that needed to help her re-install the pc again.... poor Ching Yi.
K.O. the report overnight, need to finish the web tomorrow.
Chatted with a friend from uk, her comment to me is I'm just too old....... thinking as if a middle-aged man. Don't know if this is a good news or bad news to me. She got fever, wish she can recover soon.
Thinking from different view is an art.

鴨子

看著你搭TAXI孤單的離去
全世界只剩我在淋雨
想著你可能去誰或誰懷裡
胡鬧猜搞的我無法呼吸
明明是

好天氣卻感覺下雨的情緒
我和你為何都我對不起你
轉個灣到街上一個人溜冰
要自己像只驕傲的鴨子
不要愛的鴨子

＊
啊哈　去吧　沒什麼了不起
什麼都依你　卻看輕我自己
雖然我愛你　不許你再孩子氣
寂寞的鴨子　也可以不要你

有時愛會讓人變的笨笨地
習慣心只去你的心裡
沒有你我的心就像遙控器
在每個頻道理瘋狂找你
瘋狂想你　瘋狂看你

重唱　＊,＊,＊

>>June 14, 2004 at 5:34:59 PM GMT+8

2004 年 6 月 11 日 星期五 【晴】

Visited Wing Hung's grove at Lok Fu with Mrs Ngan and mother. I don't said much to them. When stared at his only picture, I was sucked. What I did was pray to him and wish that he can enjoy his life in the place upon us. I clearly know that I must do something for other's future before I can re-union with you wing hung. I'll visit you again when I free.
Afterward have Lunch with them. I wish to invite 番薯 with us, however, as this look strange to them, I give up this proposal.
Picked up the Office XP from Ching Yi later on. Chatted with 番薯 for nearly 2.5 hrs.
Then came to uncle's home for repairing the PC. Fixed the USB Sony DSC-P5 problem. Had dinner with them and tasted my first cup of beer in 2 years time. Gave some suggestion over the Internet connection problem. Discovered that I'm so weak on withstanding the ethanol effect - i.e. easy to get drunk.
Arrived home around 2340. Call many friend, get played from 番薯 /Cindy /Mrs. Hung /someone else. I don't have a clue that why they kept mentioning Tracy to me. She is just a secondary classmate mean to me now. Why they so keen to mention her?


花心 周華健

花的心 藏在蕊中 空把花期都錯過
你的心 忘了季節 從不輕易讓人懂
為何不 牽我的手 共聽日月唱首歌
黑夜又白晝 黑夜又白晝 人生為歡有幾何

春去春會來 花謝花會再開
只要你願意 只要你願意 讓夢划向你心海
春去春會來 花謝花會再開
只要你願意 只要你願意 讓夢划向你心海

花瓣淚 飄落風中 雖有悲意也從容
你的淚 晶瑩剔透 心中一定還有夢
為何不 牽我的手 同看海天成一色
潮起又潮落 潮起又潮落 送走人間許多愁

春去春會來 花謝花會再開
只要你願意 只要你願意 讓夢划向你心海
春去春會來 花謝花會再開
只要你願意 只要你願意 讓夢划向你心海


Windflowers　　　　　　　Seals & Croft

Windflowers
My father told me not to go near them
He feared them always
Said them carried him away

Windflowers
I couldn't wait to touch them, to smell them
I held them closely
Now I can not break away

The sweet bouquet disappears
Like the vapor in the desert
Take a warning, son

Windflowers
Their beauty captures every young dreamer
who lingers near them
Ancient windflowers, I love you

>>June 13, 2004 at 1:20:52 AM GMT+8

2004 年 6 月 10 日 星期四 【晴】

Back to Ling Ying with Basketball and Mooncake. Chatted with Lei Foon Yin for a while and received some information form her.
Left Wan a message asking him to give me additional information about the centre's systems.
When I was working very hard for the report. Wan called me suddenly and argue with me for half an hour. Afterward, another guy called Mr. Tam argue with me.
I must apologize to them about the wordings I used. However, we evalutated this problem with different stand point. I must be firm to this issue as a professional and independent of their negative emotions.
Please don't annoy me anymore - I'll do next otherwise. Also I'll never underestimate you guy's abilities.
Chatted with Ching Yi for a while.

無知是罪

Fallen - Soundtrack from movie Pretty Woman
Artist: Lauren Wood

I can't believe it, you're a dream comin' true.
I can't believe how I have fallen for you.
And I was not looking, was content to remain.
And it's ironic to be back in the game.

You are the one who's led me to the sun.
How could I know that I was lost without you...

And I want to tell you, you control my rain..
And you should know that you are life in my veins.

You are the one who's led me to the sun.
How could I know that I was lost without you...

I can't believe it, you're a dream comin' true.
I can't believe how I have fallen for you.

And I was not looking, was content to remain.
And it's erotic to be back in the game.

>>June 12, 2004 at 9:16:57 AM GMT+8

2004 年 6 月 9 日 星期三 【晴】

My kitty was deposed by mother >.<
Completed the outlook express configuration for 契媽. Had Chinese tea lunch with Debbie, her and Sherry at Cheung Wa Estate later on. Afterward moved to centre and had an assessment over different PC. Chatted with someone in centre and install the PC with Open Office. Met Mr. Chan on the way to Luen Wo Market. Chatted with him for 30 minutes. Will be back to MKC the coming Tue 1345. Will have a trip to Sai Kung at 10th July. Start my physical trainning right now. Chat with Ching Yi for a while on resolving her PC's problem. Called Lee Pui Chun afterward and learned that she is working in Tsin Sha Tsui as well.

Sometimes when we touch　　Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
　than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you on what you say or do
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

*
And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
　leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
　still trapped within my truths
A hesitant prizefighter
　still trapped within my youth (*)

At times I'd like to break you
　and drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
　and hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
　and I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend, a brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again (*)

>>June 11, 2004 at 6:22:18 AM GMT+8