2003 年 12 月 7 日 星期日 【晴】

Today back to university and check my university user mail accout, discovered I received many mail form my tutor. My personal tutor show her concern about I didn't attend some seminiar last week. (Because I got flu last week). My tutor in independent student mail my with a warning that if I don't see him, I'll fail the unit! I was really scare about it so I rapidly send him a reply to ask what's going on and made appointment with him tomorrow. Willl I fail the unit?

Today take some instant photos, and realize what is defination of instant.
1. wait for 10 mins in query
2. ask for taking passport photo
3. wait for 5 mins for the lady get the equipment
4. one, two, three, smile, ok
5. please wait for about 5 mins for you photos
6. sorry the film have some problem, may I take the photo again
7. repeat step 4 to 6 for 2 more times
8. sorry again, the film have problem, I replace the film. May I take the photo again
9. step 4 to 5
10. OK (totally I smile 4 times, even smile is good for mental health)
Therefore I got a proof that the defination of "instant" is about 30 mins

>>December 10, 2003 at 11:36:18 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 6 日 星期六 【晴】

Today another friend call me, Sister Cheung (a 60 years old woman I made friend with in summer job). She asked me if we'll back to factory in the christmas holiday. As she told me that she's the only chinese in the factory and she feel lonely. My reply is I may not come back to it because I fall behind my studies and I need to get rid of it before the new year.
If someone left HK when she was 15 and spend 45 years in UK, then this person is completely westernize. She is the case, she can speak fluence English, however, she speak fluence chinese foul lang. as well. Anyway, she is a nice person to make friend with. She asked me if I have interest to have a chat with her sons because they speak fluence English as they are BBC (British Born Chinese).
Someday I'll visit her again, maybe in Christmas.

>>December 10, 2003 at 11:24:42 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 5 日 星期五 【晴】

Today Dinasor phone me, this really suprise me. He pour "bitter water" to me about his situation.
He asked me if I can introduce some girl to him. However, the nice girl I know either studying or too busy in work. Also they live in North district, how can him dating with these girl from Wan Chai to Sheung Shui?
He is still not manage to solve his credit card debt. I long air to him again to urge him cutting his living cost and clear his debt. My advice is you're single at that time, once you got a girl, you'll in deep debt again. Everything need money... Even a say that "got love drink water is enough" there are still problem.

>>December 10, 2003 at 11:17:33 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 4 日 星期四 【晴】

My group project encounter some problem as one of my partner have problem with his woman....
Anyway, I think he'll manage to solve it.

Feel like crying because can't sleep well these days. On avg. 4-5 hrs per day. I wonder how long will it last for.

Have an argue with my brother on his assignment: He consider that my problem solving is not suitable for his program, sadly. I proof that his program's problem is out of his design and insist (he got error in subroutine, result in forever looping). Sometime make it simple first, then step by step achieve the goal will be better for complicated stuff.

Today discover one more friend believe in god; So I made a fool decision to argure. As a result, it hurts....
Anyway, believe it or not, human being still human being, solve problem with their own wills.

>>December 6, 2003 at 3:11:43 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 3 日 星期三 【晴】

Love me little, love me long - John Heywood
Shall we start now? 1998 first time asked a girl
Shall we start now? 1999 CE oral exam
Shall we start now? 2000 same qs to same person
Shall we start now? 2000 CE repeat oral exam
Shall we start now? 2001 recovered and asked another girl
Shall we start now? 2001 ask myself when landed on UK
Shall we start now? 2003 recovered from another nightmare
Shall we start now? 2003 yet to ask this person

To be or not to be
To be
Main reason: Just want to be with this person
Not to be
Unaffordable to withstand another nightmare again

Promise in mouth never come true, only action does promise.
Promise creates by people, people destory promise.

Can you do me a favour? Let me to love you little, love you long?

>>December 5, 2003 at 5:55:10 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 2 日 星期二 【晴】

This morning check e-mail found that my classmate send me a task list for me to complete, and hand in day will be tomorrow. Will be "a hard day night".

My brother ask me about perl. But he just let me have a look then change the program himself. How can I help him without understanding what's going on his program? He just "Inch" me again and again. Do his stuff on his own. I got an impression that he's showing his keyboard skill. But it doesn't help to solve the problem "Why I can't print the 'Hello' in my while loop".

After a long waiting, my firend finally have the exam for LCC3. Wish everything run smooth.
When I'm having lecture this morning, someone called me, but I haven't ans the phone. Who called me? Who can tell me about it?
Carry on my assignment.

>>December 4, 2003 at 10:27:30 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 1 日 星期一 【晴】

Today carry on my road to Shogun. win with 北條, 上杉, 島津 in one day.

A meaningful song, sometime we're doing things for other. However the end result/achievement/benefits will belong to others. Live in other shadow is not really easy to esacpe from it. I glad that I'm the oldest son in the family, so nobody will compare me with others.
別人的歌
曲：Radius　詞：林夕

為何仍要歌唱　不願再細想
每夜卻照常　等知音讚賞
曾用真心認真唱
藏著辛酸的歌
觀眾的聲音卻　常比它更響

人人隨意點唱　一樣那些歌
唱罷也惹來　公式的拍掌
其實掌聲屬於那
人盡皆知的歌
演唱的歌手卻　如永沒名字

驟變的音階　屢次起跌
如同年月蹉跎
別人的歌　別人風光
藏著我一生痛楚
但我不甘心　永遠灰暗
如同陪襯
不相信就這般　無聲的渡過

台下熱烈射燈正閃亮
像千盞欣賞眼睛
從前願望逐漸變真實
如像看見聽眾　個個細聽我的歌

漸暗的燈火　卻叫醒我
仍然如舊磋跎
別人的歌　別人風光
藏著我一生痛楚
但我不清楚　那裡保証
何時能突破
只恐怕像首歌　重覆的渡過
不相信就這般　無聲的渡過

>>December 4, 2003 at 10:37:33 AM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 30 日 星期日 【晴】

When I check my draft notepad today, I found a letter that wrote in Feb. Reveal that I lied to myself for more than 9 months. Somehow I'm weak in this field, time to get myself better and focus on my career.
分飛 徐怀鈺
曲： 陳國華 詞： 黃郁 編： Unknown
你和我 相約在 午夜喧嘩的大街
告訴我 這段感情今夜將會是將會是終點
傻傻的 看著你 眼角不流一滴淚
說好了 要堅強 不流淚
我以為 我可以 讓愛變得很甜美
才發現 愛情竟是一場殘酷的考驗
太愚昧 太依戀 才放你自由飛
一瞬間 愛決堤 在今夜
雨紛飛 飛在天空里是我的眼淚
淚低垂 垂在手心里是你的余味
誰了解 真心的付出換來的是離別
我知道 愛過后會心碎
我相信 愛情沒有永遠
Believe it or not, it's never easy to fall in love.

>>December 4, 2003 at 10:47:03 AM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 29 日 星期六 【晴】

Today discovered brother really the game master. Maybe the best job for him is playing game.
Look at the lyrics of song "Days" from Shela. (English/Chinese translation), found that it's very meaningful. Even I don't know Japanese at all.
Suddenly out of control today, play Shogun Total wars for entire day... Anyway, it's not bad to be evil (sometime).

>>December 1, 2003 at 12:17:30 PM GMT+8

2003 年 11 月 28 日 星期五 【晴】

Today tried to install BSD in my old harddisk, it's running. Just looking some way to config the o/s for php programming.

With refer to a friend diary, who failed the driving test again. I think once she passed the test, she will become a good driver. As she experience more on driving. Wish that she will pass it next time.

>>December 1, 2003 at 12:22:48 PM GMT+8