2004 年 2 月 19 日 星期四 【晴】

A good article (http://erato.hkistore.net/)
後悔，本來便是成長的副產品。
那個人一直也對你很好，但你始終沒有愛上他。
你自問以你這樣的條件，實在不用屈就。
然而，有一天，他跟別人談戀愛了，你竟然覺得心酸。
不旦心酸，更糟的是你發現自己其實是愛他的。
你對他的戀人妒忌的要死了，你想他回來你身邊，但又希望保持自已的尊嚴。
他現在愈是快樂，你便愈痛苦。原來，你愛他已經愛得很深了。
釣不到的魚是最大的。

你愛他並不是你自已所以為的那麼深，
你只是沒有你自已所以為的那麼有自信。
吃不到的葡萄也不是酸的，而是太甜了，甜得你不敢想像，唯有說是酸的。
有些女孩子知道舊情人談戀愛之後，整個人會很失落。
明明是她提出分手的，她自已也有新的男朋友，
卻為甚麼還是有酸溜溜的感覺呢?
原來，
放走了的蝴蝶是最美麗的。
捨棄了的東西是最有價值的。
走失了的小狗是最可愛的。
我有一頭失走了的混種小狗，
直到今天，我還是覺得牠聰明伶俐，活潑又美麗。
而事實上，我只是大概記得牠的模樣。
你的仰慕者移情別戀了，你就當是你養的小狗走失了吧。
牠的好處，就是牠走了。
假如可以從頭來過，你曾經有這種遺憾嗎?
事情發生了一段日子之後，
你想，如果讓你重新處理，你會處理得比當天好一點。
你當時太不成熟了。
也許，你太天真了，太年輕了，太意氣用事了。
當事為甚麼那樣固執呢?
今天回首，那件事並非那麼嚴重。
你沒有做錯，但是，你可以不用那個方法去做，結果也會不一樣。
假如可以從頭來過....失去的友情，已經不可能挽回。
當時失去的東西，也已經不可能復得。
後悔，本來便是成長的副產品。
當你一天比一天成熟，
你自然會後悔自已昨天所做的事。
啊，原來你可以做得好一點。
直到一天，你不再為昨天後悔，你才是真的成熟了。
我們雖然不再後悔，卻仍然會遺憾。
我們一再對自已說，當時是可以有另一個方法處理的。
遺憾，其實又有甚麼意義?
檢討，才有意思。
從今後以，相同的事情發生，你會聰明許多。
況且，事情已經過去了，
根本就沒有機會讓你用今天的智慧去重新處理昨天的事。


If You Don't Know Me By Now

If you don't know me by now
You will never never never know me

All the things that we've been through
You should understand me like I understand you
Now girl I know the difference between right and wrong
I ain't gonna do nothing to break up our happy home
Oh don't get so excited when I come home a little late at night
Cause we only act like children when we argue fuss and fight

If you don't know me by now (If you don't know me)
You will never never never know me (No you won't)
If you don't know me by now You will never never never know me

We've all got our own funny moods
I've got mine, woman you've got yours too
Just trust in me like I trust in you
As long as we've been together it should be so easy to do
Just get yourself together or we might as well say goodbye
What good is a love affair when you can't see eye to eye,oh

If you don't know me by now (If you don't know me)
You will never never never know me (No you won't)
If you don't know me by now (You will never never never know me)
You will never never never know me (ooh)

>>February 21, 2004 at 9:53:22 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 18 日 星期三 【晴】

Today my project tutor miss the appointment with me, anyway, passed. Next time need to hand in another pre-version of my final report. Go ahead Ton.

When having the Server side web application lecture. Phil was getting angry by a classmate. Well, I think this guy may tell the words of soul for some classmate. However, I quite agree with Phil encounter. This is because all guys in the room is supposed to know what is 'form', 'radio buttons' 'check box' sort of HTML tag. However this guy just say ' I never hear of this before, and I know nothing about every words you said in the notes'. I found hard to imagine a final year student can said this. We are not in primary school, we are adult and consider mature. Supposed to research when experienced any problem. Moreover, these are taught in foundation year 1 course.

The following is based on a sad story from my mkc friend.
First define the relationships
A <-> B
B <-> C <-> D
B -> E
E is the victim, also my friend.
A, B, C, D, E are from same primary school.
B proof to be flower heart, good at pretending
C is a female that attractive to male
D is competite with B for heart of C
B show positive feel on E
E is so lucky this year because seem that she is attractive to male now.
Famous phases from E
I inch him, he think that I'm interested on him.
I refuse him, he think that I'm shy.
Anyway, she is just hard luck. but better than nothing

聊 齋 主 題 曲 「 夢 裡 花 落 知 多 少 」/ 隔世情　 　
彭 羚
　 　
長夜天空　冷的風
吹過一抹的浮雲　雲聚雲又散
原是分隔又再走近
不知不覺已情困
來讓不可思議的也發生
在今夜望清這痴心女人

＊
紅是杯酒　我心口
減過一片哀或愁　懷念人漸瘦
擁著你足夠
當天空再次紅透
重現的清早倍教人難受
讓思念轉身走還有

＃
從花開花飛一夢中　心傷心碎卻未涷
只因知你摯情　仍是和我相同

＋
一首歌一闕詩　千世百世都傳頌
夢散處　誰又不心痛

重唱　＊＃＋＋

>>February 26, 2004 at 9:21:11 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 17 日 星期二 【晴】

Finally, I get you, I get your name.

Hard To Say I'm Sorry - Chicago

Everybody needs a little time away
I heard her say From each other
Even lovers need a holiday
Far away from each other

Hold me now It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay
After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you I promise to
And after all that's been said and done
You're just the part of me I can't let go

Couldn't stand to be kept away
Just for the day from your body
Wouldn't wanna be swept away
Far away from the one that I love

Hold me now It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to know Hold me now
I really want to tell you I'm sorry
I could never let you go
After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you I promise to
And after all that's been said and done
You're just the part of me I can't let go

After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you I promise to
You're gonna be the lucky one

When we get there gonna jump in the air
No one'll see us 'cause there's nobody there
After all you know we really don't care
Hold on I'm gonna take you there

>>February 18, 2004 at 12:49:21 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 16 日 星期一 【晴】

A friend get hurt, wish she can recover soon

Today make a silly mistake.
Wake up on time, back to university on time, go to the lecture theater on time.
Everything on time.
However, nobody here! What happen?
Then I confirm from my friend : Tue have no lecture or sem....
So fish........

Live inside little world, little world can make little mistake, little mistake can make little silly, little silly can make little crazy.

Sometime we are waiting for someone to tell, while sometime another person is waiting for us to tell
偶遇　詞：鄭國江　唱：林志美
電影＜少女日記＞主題曲

風帶著微笑輕吹
天空裡雲偶遇
難忘是當天你
那默然的相對

心印下微笑的影
天天去回味
迷人是一剎那
再回頭已是沒法追

看著看著你來來去去
彷似仿似彩雲散聚
那日才可 那日才許
再共你相遇

要是以後有緣能見你
今天一切都成往事
會是如歌 會是如詩
怕沒法遇

>>February 17, 2004 at 6:51:33 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 15 日 星期日 【晴】

Define freak 任性

Today suddenly think of an advert by Leon lai and Lee Ka Yan
Lee Ka Yan ask Lai Ming "我係未好任性?"
Then Lai Ming reply "係不過係我揀"

So I asked some ladies about their defination on freak, yet to find a conclusion on it.
This maybe strange to a girl to ask about defination of freak - maybe they never think of the defination before or perfer use this term to solve any problem.

Sometime we are selectively freak, forget about the importance of advices from people surround us. So in most case, learn a lesson from painful/failure.

Someone say a girl's freak make she is lovely because this demonstrate a man's superior.
This can fool most man......

盛夏的果實 莫文蔚
作詞：李焯雄作曲：Meyna Co

也許放棄，才能靠緊你，不再見你你才會把我記起，

時間累積，這盛夏的果實，回憶裡寂寞的香氣，

我要試著離開你，不要再想你，雖然這並不是我本意。

你曾說過，會永遠愛我，也許承諾不過因為沒把握，

不用沈默，再去掩飾些什麼，當結果是那麼赤裸裸，

你也不必說什麼，才會離開我，你只是轉過頭不看我。

不要刻意說，你還愛我，當看盡潮起潮落，只要你記得我。

你曾說過，會永遠愛我，也許承諾不過證明沒把握，

不用難過，不用掩飾些什麼，當結果是那麼赤裸裸，

其實你不必說什麼，才能離開我，就讓那些經過屬於我。

也許放棄，才能靠近你，不再見你你才會把我記起，

時間累積，這盛夏的果實，回憶裡愛情的香氣，

我以為不留痕跡，思念卻滿溢，也許這代表我，我的心，

不要刻意說，你還愛我，當看盡潮起潮落，只要你記得我，

如果你會夢見我，請你再抱緊我

>>February 17, 2004 at 6:46:06 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 14 日 星期六 【晴】

Have a chat with my friend in HK, learn that his dad passed away, wish that he can feel better soon.

Another friend said he want to apply for police force and ask me if I will join him. My advice to him is police is not a suitable career for him. Anyway, at least he know what to do next.

when you chat with your old friend, you will find infinity topic to share with. However, sometime I found that I am running out of things to say with the people I chat with everyday - dead air can kill.

It must be very boring to listen me about " I can't solve the SSL stuff" then later " solve it/get it". Just a repeat on these should be killing. Need to develop diff topic to sound off.....

A goofo song to remind everyone
念親恩 詞：楊繼興　唱：陳百強
「突破」民歌創作比賽學生組冠軍

長夜空虛使我懷舊事
明月朗相對念母親
父母親愛心柔善像碧月
懷念怎不悲莫禁

＊長夜空虛枕冷夜半泣
遙路遠碧海示我心
父母親愛心柔善像碧月
常在心裡　問何日報＊

親恩應該報　應該識取孝道
唯獨我離別無法忍親旁
輕彈曲韻夢中送

重唱＊

>>February 17, 2004 at 6:54:12 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 13 日 星期五 【晴】

Valentine's Day

To the one who got another 50% share today
Share this with your 50%, you should glad that you get the one with you.
Everything I do (I do it for you)

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

默契 鄭秀文

曲:陳國華 詞:李敏

就是離別過 就是懷念過
便清楚愛怎出錯
便清楚你真的愛我
但往日我很傻

就是常做錯 就是求自我
未珍惜身邊一個
在此生再不想錯過
從年月裡 能全部看清楚

由始至終只有你一位
難以代替愛得多仔細
靜看著對方無言語
仍然是覺安慰
明天世間怎去作估計
和你默契愛一生一世
是你令人生能完美
誰人及你等於我一切

To the one yet to find another 50% (like me) this is the song for us

情來自有方 蘇永康

曲：黃尚偉 詞：梁芷珊

長帆悠悠靠岸
仍未靠向我只好在看
長帆榜　長堤上　笑問隻身的我
是否心底嚮往

情緣誰人也稀罕
無論有過萬次的失望
仍遙望　帆搖盪　縱是千千的過
自有張　來日靠心上

＊
情來自有方　只要仍祈望
天邊海角互不相干也戀上
情來自有方　繼續向最好的衷心去想
卻冥記情最虛妄

＃
情來自有方　當愛還渴望
不必刻意夜深的闖強奔放
情來自有方　你問我會否孤芳一個賞
我笑說從前樂意　惜今天　毫不想

從前談情愛風浪
帆欲靠我被我拒於岸
誰能料　情奇妙　最後我竟需要
自嘲　緣是要這樣

重唱　＊,＃

>>February 14, 2004 at 12:34:49 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 12 日 星期四 【晴】

神啊! 請給我多一點時間
Let me complete the promises I made to my family, the one passed away from me, and myself.

Running out of my time to work out my server - so many to patch, to improve, to learn and to solve.

Today got a mail form passport office about the English name used in my passport, just solved.
When chating with a friend from mkc, think of someone called 余適玲 - nickname by me "z0". My friend ask if I love this person. This is a stupid question to me. We can't say everyone we think of is because we "love" this person. Just another passed-by in my life.

In fact, another person is in my mind. Just alway with me. Wish she enjoy her life and live a joyful future.

I'm never someone reliable, I used to lonely and survive in the way I were. I concern about people surround me, because I know that someday they may leave me or I may leave them.
Other's ignorance is something good when you're in deep trouble.

成功的甜美 讓人進取學習
失敗的苦澀 使我反省改進

同一的天空下
凝望無雲夜空
星之海中尋覓
人世間的曙光

>>February 13, 2004 at 10:56:45 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 11 日 星期三 【晴】

Another excellent white lies song to the girls

Always On My Mind - To IPSec/NAT HowTo
Elvis Presley
And maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Maybe I didn't hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine
If I made you feel second best
Girl I'm sorry I was blind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me,
Tell me that your sweet love hasn't died
Give me,
Give me one more chance to keep you satisfied
satisfied

天生一對 夢劇院

愛看海邊那真摯美 獨在思想當天一起
可惜我從不會 令你歡喜
想你定將我忘記 從來沒記起

愛看星空那閃爍美 獨在空間在運轉裡
那感覺漸冰冷 沒你共我一起
一切便不覺完美 唯願在某地

在世間讓你我變一對 無懼怕各種困難與唏噓
在我心 全合意 是最真的一次 心中彼此載著舊日名字
你我彷似一套戲 盡力演出花點心機 早註定一對 又再共你一起
想已是一切完美 重逢在故地(回頭望過去) 從來是一對(完全為了你)(常會念記)

All passed

>>February 12, 2004 at 1:33:45 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 10 日 星期二 【晴】

Carry on NAT server setting
New Firewall script implement
http, ftp, dhcp service added
ssh access
DNS applies.

Enjoy Lecture/sem of AI and User Support. Found BIO is quite useful in AI.

Carry On Till Tomorrow Badfinger

In younger days I told myself my life would be my own
And I'd leave the place where sunshine never shone
For my life's too short for waiting when I see the rising sun
Then I know again that I must carry on
Carry on till tomorrow there's no reason to look back
Carry on, Carry on, Carry on

Beyond the shadows of the clouds and onward to the sky
Carry on till I find the rainbow's end
For my life's too short for waiting when I see the rising sun
Then I know again that I must carry on
Carry on till tomorrow there's no reason to look back
Carry on, Carry on, Carry on

Drifting on the wings of freedom leave this stormy day
And we'll ride to tomorrow's golden fields
For my life's too short for waiting when I see the rising sun
Then I know again that I must carry on
Carry on, Carry on, Carry on

And when the heavy journey's done I'll rest my weary head
For the world and its colors will be mine
For my life's too short for waiting when I see the setting sun
Then I know again that I must carry on
Carry on till tomorrow there's no reason to look back
Carry on, Carry on, Carry on
Carry on, Carry on, Carry on...

>>February 11, 2004 at 9:00:19 PM GMT+8