2004 年 2 月 29 日 星期日 【晴】

否極泰來 + 船到橋頭自然直
This time I solved my problem with the help of Linda and Ian. Anyway, thanks for their kindness and efforts.

一命二運三風水
四積陰德五讀書
命 = family background/ Genes
運 = luck/ People Relationships
風水 = Environmental Factos
積陰德 = Moral/ Ethics/ Behave
讀書 = Education/ Knowledge

In a tradition Chinese norms, these factors are important in their life, while study is considered as a factor for successful future. Personal I consider knowledge can change one's life, so no matter how hard I'm, I'll try my best to learn and provide education chances for my brothers.

Complete my photo album in server. Gotta start another stuff on CSS.
http://www.tonichair.adsldns.org/public_html/server_local/photos/index.php

To My brothers
He Ain't Heavy, He's My Brother

The road is long
With many a winding turn
That leads us to who knows where
Who knows where
But I'm strong
Strong enough to carry him
He ain't heavy, he's my brother

So on we go

His welfare is of my concern
No burden is he to bear
We'll get there

For I know
He would not encumber me
He ain't heavy, he's my brother

If I'm laden at all
I'm laden with sadness
That everyone's heart
Isn't filled with the gladness
Of love for one another

It's a long, long road
From which there is no return
While we're on the way to there
Why not share

And the load
Doesn't weigh me down at all
He ain't heavy he's my brother

He's my brother
He ain't heavy, he's my brother

>>March 2, 2004 at 3:29:45 AM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】

Slept at 0700 this morning, how can you urge me wake up at 1000 for buying stuff at TESCO - please forgive me. (My reason to sleep is I really cracked many problem overnight).
Today my performance on research and implement raise to a new level, so happy about my achievement. The feeling of break through challenges is really nice. Thanks to my friend willing to help me testing the server setting for me.

What's next: write a menu on how to configure a simple server to provide basic function

Hacking on php/MySQL, discover that I prefer CGI/Perl. Anyway, learn something new is nice.
Revision on Advance Grammar, discovered that I'm really a shame of the family - as my grammar is rather poor in the view of university final year student.

Planning to establish a website for ex-student from BMKC.
Functionality includes
1. Collect and distribute Contact information
2. Post "Most Wanted" notes to find someone lost contact
3. Share experiences over : Education/study Business/Career/Work Family
4. Provide information about employer/ posts offer
5. Forums to link student together
6. Organise social activates / annual meeting
7. Fund raising for equipment in BMKC

Ka To remind me that today is 29th of Feb and year 2004 is abundant year. He said we need to wait 4 years for today. He's right, but he forget that everyday is unique in our life. No matter 365 or 366 days in a year, we still have to survive.

She start to prepare for exam, wish she can success. I'll be the one stand by her in the shadow. (or someday I will raise to surface ^.^ ). I have nothing to lose now, so why don't me try very best for my future - that's youth.

When reading a friend's diary about Lunch time event, think of days in MKC. So just write this article to leave a record. (Based on True Story).
Ton's Present 2004 Vol-1
Tom & 他的"雪菜火鴨絲炆米"
中六時有一次去海聯地下某酒樓食午餐, 我同學Tom Leung仲慘啦. 我咁大個人第一次見人食"雪菜火鴨絲炆米"食到流下男兒淚.
因為那天我們要做實驗 (通常下午五後才放學), 可以想像沒有食午餐捱餓的下場.
當其他同學要的食物一個又一個送到桌上後, 最初各人堅持等齊才開始吃.
隨時間和食物溫度飛逝. 最後他很無奈地叫各人先食. 最要命的是伙計不斷安慰他 "就來啦, 就來啦, 等多一陣就來o啦架".
時間不留人, 當每人食完準備離開時(離完場前13分鐘), 而他很無奈地認命, 準備取消他的訂單時.
千呼萬喚始出來的"雪菜火鴨絲炆米"出現了. 當然他二話不說便將"雪菜火鴨絲炆米"往口裡送. 不知道是否因以下其中一個/全部理由
1. 吃得太快
2. 雪菜火鴨絲炆米的確 "好味"
3. 苦盡甘來的感覺
4. 一班同學沒有離他而去的感動
我看到了他眼泛淚光, 一個為了"雪菜火鴨絲炆米"而流淚的"昂藏七尺"男子漢 >.< 不過最後我們差一點便集體遲到, 幸好素來"以權謀私"的我以prefect身份(其實有幫凶)讓守門員放我們一馬.
而T.Wong 不負眾望, 當天也為我們準備了經典中經典實驗 - 解剖"沙威隆"白老鼠, 我們解剖之餘還要畫出解剖後的白老鼠, 在生物室內充斥死亡, 沙威隆, 白老鼠血腥/糞便(因為有人失手弄穿了內臟)的氣味. 我相信當晚沒有胃口食晚餐的人大有人在. 不過, 我們眼中最可憐的當然是滿肚"雪菜火鴨絲炆米"的Tom 啦.

Good song whenever think of ages in memory
Those Were The Days　Mary Hopkin

Once upon a time there was a tavern
Where we used to raise a glass or two
Remember how we laughed away the hours
And dreamed of all the great things we would do
　 　
Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days
　 　
Then the busy years went rushing by us
We lost our starry notions on the way
If by chance I'd see you in the tavern
We'd smile at one another and we'd say
　 　
Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days
　 　
Just tonight I stood before the tavern
Nothing seemed the way it used to be
In the glass I saw a strange reflection
Was that lonely woman really me
　 　
Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days
　 　
Through the door there came familiar laughter
I saw your face and heard you call my name
Oh my friend we're older but no wiser
For in our hearts the dreams are still the same
　 　
Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

>>February 29, 2004 at 7:05:41 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 27 日 星期五 【晴】

Complete goals
1. Partical setting for file transfer (using pscp over win32 environment)
2. Apache http file transfer (but the upload stream is limited)
3. Tests in transfer file from HK to UK and vice versa (thanks Ka Wo and Pui Kwan)

Another friend called for enquire about PC quotation, time to complete it.
Today snowing again, beautiful but freezed.

Don't you know what I'm thinking of you now? Are you alright now? Please let me know. This will take a long time for waiting and withstand.

情難自製 彭羚
曲：M.Masser/G.Goffin 詞：張美賢

任晚風輕吻我耳邊 悠然相擁
共你的心意再接通 重投美夢
在發端飄過是你氣味 滲出興奮的眼淚
今天他朝過去 全也屬你
花 猶如是我心裡熱愛 懷著柔美色彩
此刻再盛開 笑著靜待 得到你再以心灌溉
如果 從前沒有跟你別過 誰亦難以清楚
放開各遠走這麼苦楚 心中最愛 還是原先一個
愛情如熊火溫暖著我 情人好比心裡的一切
世界若要失光輝 但這點火永遠美麗
愛情如濃酒可醉掉我 情人今生不再可取替
每句話語收於眼底 此刻跟你對望 情難自製
當從前共你分隔 我如像無悔輕易
可會知卻是同時 感覺到迷失的真意思
任晚風輕吻我的肩 悠然相擁
共你的心意再接通 重投美夢
在發端飄過是你氣味 滲出興奮的眼淚
拋開傷感過去 重新親你 愛情如熊火溫暖著我
情人好比心裡的一切 世界若要失光輝
但這點火永永美麗 愛情如濃酒可醉掉我
情人今生不再可取替 每句話語收於眼底
此刻跟你對望 情難自製 愛情如熊火溫暖著我
情人永遠沒法可取替 以愛換愛多麼徹底
此刻跟你對望 情難自製 此刻跟你對望 情難自製

Saxophone solo form Kenny G of this song is great
HOW COULD AN ANGEL BREAK MY HEART ? (Toni Braxton)

I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

I heard here face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch may falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wish our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

Oh my soul is dying, it's crying
I'm trying to understand
Please help me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

碧藍半月映凋零
淡紅斜陽照滄桑
枯黃落葉訴無奈
霜白飛雪說落寞

An article (http://erato.hkistore.net/)
p.s. 這是一封遺書
等

五年,一個不長也不短的日子.
雖然我倆是真心相愛,但有誰能夠預知五年後的情景?
最後,我答應了她:"我願意等你五年,甚至一世!"
回想起來,簡直有點可恥!"五年!並不是""五日""!"你願意等,但人家可沒有啊!你憑甚麼去留著她那顆心,令人家白白為一個素未謀面的小伙子,浪費五年的青春去換取一個不知名的幸福?!我不能回答我自己......
"傻瓜!大傻瓜!!"五年?!人家身旁有多少追求者你可知道?!人家青春可人有很多選擇.你呢?!只是一個為了自己對愛情的憧憬,而去強迫一個前途充滿希望的少女白白為你等下五年的大傻瓜,你是多麼的可恥!!
五年......難道這五年的時間會把我們之間的感情帶走?難道這愛情故事將會因此而有所轉變??
我望著照片上的她那天真的笑容,不自禁地流下淚來.這是我一生中第一次為自己心愛的女孩子流淚,也是唯一的一次......
難道我們的愛就是這麼兒嬉?!
"相遇","相愛","分離",難道這就是愛了嗎?
我對著照片上的她,深情的說了一句:"我愛你!"這一句話並不能表達出我對你的愛,或許這只是我心中一句思念你的說話......
回想起那段相處的日子,雖然並不長,但你每一句話我都深深的記著.你的鼓勵給予我無比的支持,把我從絕望中拖了出來.開心的,不開心的都成了我腦海中的一本日記,我根本不能忘記你!
沒有你的日子怎樣過?我不能想像,也不敢想像!
或許,這五年內,你會有一個更疼你的男朋友,但我不介意,因為我愛的是你!!

"送給一個我願意等一世的女孩!!"
天定絕筆

Ton's comment:
1. This letter wrote out some words in my soul/ part of my history
2. This guy is a natual born loser, as he selected to end up his life
3. This guy is selfish, not qualify to love that girl
4. 一哭二罵三上吊rule in love is not always useful

>>February 28, 2004 at 10:21:17 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 26 日 星期四 【乍雨乍晴】

Today snow heavily, so beautiful, so cold....... but I needed to come back university under snow.
Made appointment about tution issue on next Monday afternoon. Looking forward about the arrangement.

Ton's life in UK - 湯水篇
01. 豬肉/豬肘/雞胸肉 300g - 400g
02. 杞子 15 - 30 粒
03. 元肉 (龍眼肉乾) 5 - 10 塊
04. 沙參 3 - 4 枝 (折斷成 7-8cm 小段備用)
05. 黨參 2 - 3 枝 (折斷成 7-8cm 小段備用)
06. 百合 3 - 5 塊
07. 玉竹 半個 (切薄片備用)
08. 淮山 6 - 10 片
09. 伏神 面積 12cm x 12cm 一塊
10. 麥冬 7 - 10 粒
11. 蓮子 7 - 10 粒
12. 南北杏 15 - 30 粒
13. 瑤柱 1 粒

肉去皮/脂肪組織後飛水去腥味/ 雪味
其餘材料以溫水略洗, 洗去沙塵以及防腐劑/漂白劑(Such as Sulphur Dioxide, which is corrosive when dissolved in water)
煲1.5L 水, 水滾放肉, 待水再滾加入其餘材料, 待水再滾後以文火煲1.5-2.5 小時
加鹽(不要事後加豉油, 後果自負)
必要時可以先飲一半再加水煲, 效果不錯

開夜車/通宵作戰前後飲提神補身效果顯著
Maybe I need to seek some professional advices from man, because her home open 參茸海味中藥鋪

Good song to encourage my friends in blue
李克勤《醒覺》
Theme of 五個醒覺的少年

別難過 走錯了許多 失去了許多 信那又如何
在人世 終會有一天 總會有一方 可找到自我

青春少年時總多苦惱
如何面對錯失感迷路
有許多夢想要傾訴
祈求父母為我所做覺自豪

看著前路 可以達到
只需勇敢去踏每段路途
試過盡全力 得失看運數
不必太苦惱讓每事看好

改改改 改寫你以往那態度
從今天起開始新的目標
珍惜所擁有 這世界縱冷酷

人生不竟經起與跌
方可領略到

>>February 27, 2004 at 9:27:09 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 25 日 星期三 【晴】

Got my result and assignment back......... and need to visit someone to loan us money.
Received award from my personal project tutor on my effort, feel not bad. Going to have my demonstration in the coming Thu. So great, then I can complete my dissertation soon.
However, unless I can paid all the fees before end of May..... I will get nothing on qualification for 3 years study.
Relationship between Univerisity on Lincoln and me
Ton: 我仲估我地o既交往係建築起感情之上,估唔到.....原來都係一盤生意
Uni: 講感情都要錢o架.
Ton: 明白o既....有一早比o左你喇

A friend come home late, make me worried. Anyway wish she get rid of the problem soon.

Another friend send me a fuuny site to take photo from a flash movie, quite funny.

Last night Ka To was boomba by his brothers(including me this time) because he asked some silly question - should not be asked after a simple thinking and analysis. Anyway, the more fatal point to make us bombard him is he still not managed to identify what he need to do next. Why a 20 years old University student year 2 student in our family behave like this? Really a shame. At the end of the day, he will learn what to do (we wish).
Today I witness my brothers become snowman together because outside was snowing heavily by the time they come home. (Just out of luck to avoid become another snowman as I come back a little bit early).

心血來潮之作

逝

也許她已經忘記了我
也許我已經忘記了她

心血來潮想看一看她
相片中的她風采依舊
現實中的她今夕如何
祈求明天為她而璀璨

用一句沒有感覺結束
粉碎每個許下的諾言
吹走交織幸福的詩歌
遺下永不磨滅的創傷

過去為她準備的介指
現在見證別人的幸福
忘不了的辛酸與悽楚
說不出的無奈與晞噓

也許她已經忘記了我
也許我應該忘記了她



Foolish Games - Jewel

You took your coat off and stood in the rain,
You were always crazy like that
I watched from my window,
Always felt I was outside looking in on you
You were always the mysterious one
With dark eyes and careless hair,
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather
Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees

Chorus: these foolish games are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You’re breaking my heart

You were always brilliant in the morning
Smoking your cigarettes, and talking over coffee
You philosophies on art, baroque moved you,
You loved mozart and you’d speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar
Excuse me, guess I’ve mistaken you for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself

Chorus

You took your coat off and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that

>>February 26, 2004 at 9:28:02 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 24 日 星期二 【晴】

It's cold outside, but the sky is very blue.
Tomorrow get my assignment back, will be great to have a look at feedback.
New task assigned on MSS, need to do the PEST/SWOT analysis for it.......... not bad.
Download the steamline mediia using HiDownlong, can watch 傑出華人系列 smooth, so great.
But the program is full of bugs.
Tomorrow need to hand in report, effort Ton

Don't It Make My Brown Eyes Blue Crystal Gayle

I don't know when I've been so blue
Don't know what's come over you
You've found someone new
And don't it make my brown eyes blue

I'll be fine when you're gone
I'll just cry all night long
Say it isn't true
And don't it make my brown eyes blue

Tell me no secrets, tell me some lies
Give me no reasons, give me alibis
Tell me you love me and don't let me cry
Say anything but don't say goodbye

I didn't mean to treat you bad
Didn't know just what I had
But honey now I do
And don't it make my brown eyes
Don't it make my brown eyes
Don't it make my brown eyes blue

Tell me no secrets, tell me some lies
Give me no reasons, give me alibis
Tell me you love me and don't let me cry
Say anything but don't say goodbye

I didn't mean to treat you bad
Didn't know just what I had
But honey now I do
And don't it make my brown eyes
Don't it make my brown eyes
Don't it make my brown eyes blue

Who is so dare to make my eyes blue?

>>February 25, 2004 at 5:43:02 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 23 日 星期一 【晴】

Can cry solve the problem? Never
Can god solve the problem? Never
Can kills solve the problem? Never
Can war solve the problem? Never
Can blame solve the problem? Never

Brothers got their assignments hand back, along with the bills -- going to get a job now.
A friend asked me last night what is English translation of 色即是空 空即是色. And I can find it in google..... hard to imagine.
Matter are emptiness, emptiness are matter -- right and wrong, sometime don't have a border line. Also we are impossible to make any absolute judgement.
When someone identify problem and offer solution to you, think about the intention behind.
People usually regrad about what they already done, but don't ever dream of someone will regrad what they done. People general refuse to listen, especially when someone else point out their problem and failure. The only way to change these people is let them think of their problem themselves after failure/painful.
As only painful can wake someone up.


不讓我的眼淚陪我過夜 齊秦
詞:白進法 曲:呂禎晃/張真

你的柔情似水　幾度讓我愛的沈醉
毫無保留　不知道後悔
你能不能體會真情可貴
沒有餘力傷悲　愛情像難收的覆水
長長來路　走得太憔悴
你只留下我收拾這一切
不讓我的眼淚陪我過夜
不讓你的吻留著餘味
忘了曾經愛過誰
慢慢習慣了寂寞相隨
不讓我的眼淚陪我過夜
不讓你的臉夢裡相對
愛的潮水已經退
我的真情不再隨便給


我的真情不再隨便給 - sound of my soul right now

>>February 24, 2004 at 8:52:29 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 22 日 星期日 【晴】

士農工商
士 - 讀大學, 做研究. 斯文敗類
農 - 日割菜, 夜除草. 日曬雨淋
工 - 拼命做, 冇投訴. 手停口停
商 - 低買入, 高售出. 爾虞我詐

But I have done them before.........
士不可以不弘毅，任重而道遠啊﹗

祝福 　　張學友
詞：丁曉雯
　
不要問 不要說 一切盡在不言中
這一刻 偎著燭光 讓我們靜靜的渡過
莫揮手 莫回頭 當我唱起這首歌
怕只怕 淚水輕輕的滑落
願心中永遠留著我的笑容
伴你走過每一個春夏秋冬
幾許愁 幾許憂 人生難免苦與痛
失去過 才能真正懂得去珍惜和擁有
情難捨 人難留 今朝一別各西東
冷和熱 點點滴滴在心頭
願心中永遠留著我的笑容
伴你走過每一個春夏秋冬
傷離別 離別雖然在眼前
說再見 再見不會太遙遠
若有緣 有緣就能期待明天
你和我重逢在燦爛的季節
不要問 不要說 一切盡在不言中
這一刻 偎著燭光 讓我們靜靜的渡過
莫揮手 莫回頭 當我唱起這首歌
願心中留著笑容
伴你渡過每個春夏秋冬

>>February 24, 2004 at 8:49:54 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 21 日 星期六 【晴】

Mother called me enquired about HSBC account in HK. She suspect that someone use my account so she receive the promotion letter. Maybe need to investigate about it.

It's been a long time haven't waiting for someone come home and online, well, this happened now.
A good saying
"If you love someone, let it be and set him / her free, if he / she comes back to you, it's meant to be"

This song is dedicated to the one share with me.
We are live in different world, differnet physical location, different live experience. However, I believe that one day we will re-union and build future hand in hand. So let us wait for this moment come.

每一個明天　　陳奕迅
作曲：柳重言　填詞：林振強　編曲：柳重言/Anthony chu

結伴創將來　多麼的美
你的路　我的途　再也不分己與彼
有浪有風來　不捨不棄　每一明天也贈你

未懂占卦　也不懂命理
卻可先知我們　同步註定了不起
若我不普通　變得堅毅無忌
幕後有一個最大原因：因為你

每望向將來　都找到你
我所夢　我所期　全部喝彩因你起
你是我將來　不捨不棄　我的明天創自你

沒仰天觀星　看星宿日記
無問獅子雙魚　前面有沒有驚喜
一早知　幾多風吹與飛
活著也很快樂　自尋到你

天佑我的愛人　給她永遠笑聲　並常對她偏愛
天佑我的愛人　有她不再覺得生命無奈　敢愛

未懂占卦　也不懂命理
卻可先知我們　同步註定了不起
(若)我不普通　變得堅毅無忌
並沒秘方這是純因你

*天佑我的愛人　這日　明天　一世　把她寵愛
天佑我的愛人　有她不再覺得生命無奈　敢愛*

Repeat *
你是我將來　不捨不棄
每一明天愛著你

>>February 22, 2004 at 7:37:02 PM GMT+8

2004 年 2 月 20 日 星期五 【晴】

This maybe not a nice start. However, I'll respect what I said, wish you do so.
失樂園
曲：周初晨 詞：黃偉文 編：劉祖德

結果我共你 仍然逃不過
被圍攻 被捨棄
愛得驚天動地 總算運氣
無論褒貶尊與卑
愛可有定理 談情誰講理
越無理 越淒美 就算飛天遁地
萬年千里 亦決定要共你一起

* 苦戀注定難 我已經習慣
沿途承受不留情的雙眼
請給我負擔 叫世上人間
平凡情侶為你共我轟烈汗顏

苦戀注定難 我卻這樣貪
途人凝望中 寂靜的稱讚
請給我負擔 叫世上人間
惶惶情侶 在美麗與悲哀之間
留一線空間

已經愛定你 流亡情海裡
沒陽光 沒空氣
再多險境絕地 視而不理
任世俗繼續看不起
Repeat *

苦戀注定難 我卻這樣貪
途人凝望中 寂靜的稱讚
請給我負擔 叫世上人間
惶惶情侶 在美麗與悲哀之間
苦戀注定難 我卻這樣貪
綿綿情話中淡淡的感歎
喜歡這負擔 看冷酷人間
何年何世 為你共我苦戀驚歎
為戀愛平反

>>February 21, 2004 at 10:33:20 PM GMT+8