2003 年 12 月 31 日 星期三 【晴】

Another years passed. As I tell myself before, I got another 17 years left behind. 20 years old birthday, I received present form the sky look upon - my life. I learnt that someday I maybe killed / die out of sudden. 40 years life is more than enough to me to complete my missions planned before.

One of my friend tell me that I'm very gray about life, however, I think that I'm a person never give up about my life. I may not be the best one in the world but I must not be the worse one in the world.

He stopped to read my ICQ message after I told him via the message he read. I don't like conflict at all. It's because it's meaningless and result in hate and sadness. Also I don't really care the tone and language of their words, as I know that answer back sometime is useless.

Chating with an old friend sometime really invoke many memories, it's really hard to find someone to talk with. Somehow, I know that I may find someone worth to share with for my coming swing future.

>>January 2, 2004 at 1:17:06 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 30 日 星期二 【晴】

Year 2003 come to the end, just think of some words of my life philosophy


只有黑色的人生 才可以展望充滿色彩的生命
哀大莫過於心死 心死的一刻正是哀傷的終結
建築堅固的圍牆 保護自己同時破壞互相了解
充滿矛盾的人生 一成不變盲從標準導致失敗
世上不存在客觀 客觀標準本身便是主觀標準
知識會改變命運 智慧是一種運用知識的知識

修身齊家治國平天下 批評人前首先批評自己

It's snowing outside, as I said before I got a white new year

>>January 2, 2004 at 2:10:04 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 29 日 星期一 【晴】

Listen song "last christmas" from Wham. Really enjoy and understand the lyrics.
Sometime self-control drive someone feel like dying. I am the case now. However, I will not start it before I back to HK. As I can't afford to get the impact anymore. Sometime cold-blooded to myself is essential.

>>January 2, 2004 at 2:15:37 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 27 日 星期六 【晴】

Download the old film "Leon : The Professional" (這個殺手不太冷)
I like this film very much, because it demonstrate some life philosophy in a different way.

Just as we can't judge anyone without truely understand what this person is

>>January 2, 2004 at 2:22:38 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 24 日 星期三 【晴】

I feel very happy today because I made calls back to hk with my friends, Kwan brother, Kai Chun, Ping, Ka Po, Lin and so on. wish all of them enjoy their holiday and have a happy new year.
When chatting with chun, I retrieved many memories, including some days in F.4. Life is just a path of no return, If it passed, it passed forever and become part of history.
He said that he got many chance but haven't put into action, sometime we're really scare of put into action. It's because of so many limiting factors. Sadly, if we never try, we'll never success. I think my way is just make best possible correct decision and do it all the way.

I'm yet to tell what I think. Maybe tomorrow is a chance...

>>December 25, 2003 at 11:54:23 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 23 日 星期二 【晴】

christmas eve, do nothing....
Have a chat with uncle in HK. He advice us to effort and try to find a job in uk. I think this will be the way of me as me.
Have a chat with ku ma in HK. Ka Wo told me her leg have some problem because of uric acid, Anyway, wish she have health in the coming future and enjoy her christmas.

chat with a friend in hk, realize that she need to work in christmas day.... so hard workiing, wish she can care about her health and not to get overloaded.

>>December 25, 2003 at 11:43:46 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 22 日 星期一 【晴】

Today try to install new linux over the pc, discover that the agp card / slot have problem. So at the end I can't install it... gonna solve it soon.
All snow have gone, anyway, feel very cold.
Watch movie of red pig, so fun.

>>December 25, 2003 at 11:45:10 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 21 日 星期日 【晴】

Wai read icq info of Wo and laugh at his content. However, I think it's not something correct to joke on others feelings/ expressions.

I think ka wo got some problem with his decision, anyway, he gonna solve it by his own.

Love story (part 1) and Love story (part 2) form suen yiu wai are some of the best songs I have ever heard. I can still remember I use part 1 to tell a girl how I feel. Sadly a result of part 2 I experienced as well.

I think nobody can judge others expression but themselves.

>>April 27, 2004 at 10:47:31 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 19 日 星期五 【晴】

Started out of control to play Shun Cheung 11.

Discovered that more and more white hair. Maybe have my hair cut will pretend it.

Chat with a friend in HK. They will camping in the christmas... Really nice.

I lost control to my internet access. I must take it back by setup the linux router successfully.

>>December 21, 2003 at 9:51:58 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 18 日 星期四 【晴】

I was completely released form assignment pressure. However, I can't manage to solve the linux problem. >.< just another day have no achievement.

Sometime I found I'm doing somthing anormal, for example, I expect to buy some food from the superstore nearby. However, when I left my home. I just stright to morrison which is 20 mins for travel by bike. I just want to pooling around. Maybe I supress myself in the room for so long.

>>December 21, 2003 at 9:47:54 PM GMT+8