2004 年 1 月 10 日 星期六 【晴】

This is surely best of the best in my favorites

The Sound Of Silence
Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
'Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dare
Disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools" said I, "You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the sign said, "The words of the prophets
are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls."
And whisper'd in the sounds of silence.

I am an old-baked. Since the first time I listen this sound (F3 - 1997), I was impressed by the lyrics. I found that I feel the same with the singer: Live alone and view people at a different point of view. The song name also express the "spear and Sheild" How silence have sound? I think this is the sound insider our heart so it remain silence to the outsider.

>>January 10, 2004 at 1:46:21 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 9 日 星期五 【晴】

One of my favorite

Same Old Lang Syne - Dan Fogelberg

Met my old lover in the grocery store
The snow was falling Christmas Eve
I stole behind her in the frozen foods
And I touched her on the sleeve

She didn't recognize the face at first
But then her eyes flew open wide
She went to hug me and she spilled her purse
And we laughed until we cried

We took her groceries to the checkout stand
The food was totaled up and bagged
We stood there lost in our embarrassment
As the conversation dragged

We went to have ourselves a drink or two
But couldn't find an open bar
We bought a six pack at the liquor store
And we drank it in her car

CHORUS:
We drank a toast to innocence
We drank a toast to now
We tried to reach beyond the emptiness
But neither one knew how

She said she'd married her an architect
Who kept her warm and safe and dry
She would've liked to said she loved the man
But she didn't like to lie

I said the years had been a friend to her
And that her eyes were still as blue
But in those eyes I wasn't sure if I
Saw doubt or gratitude

She said she saw me in the record store
And that I must be doing well
I said the audience was heavenly
But the traveling was hell

CHORUS

We drank a toast to innocence
We drank a toast to time
Living in our eloquence
Another auld lang syne

The beer was empty and our tongues were tired
And running out of things to say
She gave a kiss to me as I got out
And I watched her drive away

Just for a moment I was back at school
And felt that old familiar pain
And as I turned to make my way back home
The snow turned into rain

Everyone have something sad in their past, however, when trigger these memories, it's worth to think again sadness and happiness in between.
How many people can actually "drink a toast to innocence" and "drink a toast to time", it should be very nice to do so. Sadly, I think that this won't happen to me ..... (because I don't drink....)

This song like Last Christmas from Wham, all about story in christmas. However, this song is even more better in my point of view. In term of story developed and emotion in behind.

>>January 10, 2004 at 1:37:05 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 8 日 星期四 【晴】

Lazy bone
I discover that sometime I am a natural born Lazy bone. As a matter of fact. I enjoy relax myself completely unless I got something to deal with (maybe the matter make me interest is network and solving assignment at the moment). However, the sad story is one of my brother follow my way. But he is not possible to manage it especially deal with assignments. He just want to finish it within 2-3 days without think about the question before. Maybe his result will tell him that this doesn't work on him unless I remind him many time about his problem.

>>January 9, 2004 at 7:19:26 AM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 7 日 星期三 【晴】

Watch online media from RTHK about story of Lee Ka Sing. Learn a lot from it.

Finally I learn the name of this song. I just remember the rythum of it before.
傷信

曲:西村由紀江 詞:周禮茂 編:黃丹儀

重讀著你的告別信 抑壓而暗湧
雖不信寫的話 竟可以這麼重
但再哭亦無用

*
徐徐又當這信是你 緊貼我抱擁
可惜信太單薄 怎可填密落空
愈信傷早抑壓 痛便愈沉重 *

#
難平衡自己 忐忑的起伏
難原諒我心 反覆的變動
是我個性舞擺 換來這封信
曾令你瘋 舊情要一別而盡 #

@
仍多麼需要你 仍多麼需要你
如今天失去了 怎麼退怎麼進
如果可不要信 寧死都不要信
但看我手 再激動仍只得傷信 @
Repeat * # @ @

>>January 9, 2004 at 7:10:24 AM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 6 日 星期二 【晴】

Spend entire day to solve the Linux problem, feel like dying.

Learn more on firewall and NAT, wish solve them all asap.

Friend send me a mental age test, discover I'm getting older now, now score 46 years old. So terrible, I am 3 more years older than last time I took the test.

Tomorrow gonna start the assignments, time to effort.

>>January 8, 2004 at 4:53:54 AM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 5 日 星期一 【晴】

在逃避ma?

Sometime look info really trigger thinking. 逃避 sometime is a good tactic in order to achieve success. The only matter is we're not actually 逃避 the problem at the end ot the day at all, but 逃避 for a while and insist to solve the problem afterwards.
Under certain condition, if we try very hard to encounter problem, the end result will be a "lost-lost" condition. The winner is the one who stand sharp at the end of the game. So lose at the beginning never mean lost at all, unless give up the chance to success.
Road in life never easy, however, without trying very best in life. Our life will ruins. I know that there will be some hardship coming soon (really soon, with 6 months). However, I prepared for it since last year and I believe in there will be some way to solve it.

>>January 8, 2004 at 5:12:54 AM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 4 日 星期日 【晴】

Sometime think of days alone in UK a few years ago. When I were delievering Chinese food, or in case experience sadness. I usually use this song to encourage myself. "This is the road of yourself, you choose it, you make it and you walk on it"

誰能明白我
昂然踏著前路去 追趕理想旅途上
前路步步懷自信 風吹雨打不退讓
無論我去到那方 心裏夢想不變樣
是新生 是醒覺 夢想永遠在世上
前路那怕遠 祇要自強
我繼續獨自尋路向
常為以往夢想發狂 耐心摸索路途上
懷自信 我永不怕夜航
到困倦我自彈自唱 掌聲我向夢想裏尋
儘管一切是狂想
途人路上同望我 祇因我的怪模樣
途人誰能明白我 今天眼精多漂亮
人是各有各理想 奔向目標不退讓
用歌聲 用歡笑 來摶知音的讚賞
懷自信 我永不怕夜航
到困倦我自彈自唱 掌聲我向夢想裏尋
儘管一切是狂想
昂然踏著前路去 追趕理想旅上
前路步步懷自信 依照心中那正確方向
懹著愛與恕心 充滿夢想的笑匠
用歌聲 用歡笑 來摶知音的讚賞

君子病無能焉，不病人之不己知也

>>January 8, 2004 at 5:34:28 AM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 3 日 星期六 【晴】

等待是無奈

Sometime we had to wait, however, just waiting don't mean to get the stuff done. The process of waiting is a proceduce for prepare yourself. It is "will" killing or not depend on how we look at it.
As a matter of fact, everyone is waiting for their death since they born. However human being have the sense of death therefore they want to make use of their life. Just a different angle on a matter of fact.
I am waiting, I understand it is a matter of 無奈. However, I can't give up myself because I must survive. Also I believe in I can achieve my goal via my patient to hardship.

>>January 8, 2004 at 5:55:04 AM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 2 日 星期五 【晴】

TTL = Time To Live
TTL = 0
In the world, many new born baby die of diseases; murder by parent because of their sex; or ignorance.
TTL = 1 - 8
This group of people is relatively forturne: because in most case, As least they don't really need to worry about life. However, still have cases die of starvation and inhumane violent
TTL = 9 - 16
New element "surcide" start to include. They start to learn pressure, brokenhearted,peer pressure and bully.
TTL = 17 - 28
If they are lucky enough to survive in 9-16. They need to experience the pressure of finding someone in their life and their road to future.
TTL = 29 - 40
If they are luck enough, they may find a job, build a family. But when they die, they leave burden to the another side share the family. Also they may need to experience TTL problem of their child.
TTL = 40 - 50
Child is almost finished study, but yet to find a job. Also may lost job at that time : disaster to thje famly mrmber.
TTL = 50 - 65
Getting old and lost working ability, also need to experience lost of parents
TTL >= 65
Friends and family member start pass away one by one and experience different sickness.

Life is that dark, but through the progress of our life, we experience, we learn, we share and survive. No matter happiness or sadness, they will be part of our life and enable us the carry on to the next generation.
TTL to me is just a matter of time and the key point is how I make use of my TTL.

>>February 5, 2004 at 11:10:50 AM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 1 日 星期四 【晴】

today I add another friend from MKC 5D. I found that I'm developing the ages that passed me. Anyway, it's very happy to learn a friend is working very hard to equip for future.

We started at same point, using different path and different precedure to walk into future, that's life.

>>January 2, 2004 at 1:21:26 PM GMT+8