2004 年 12 月 18 日 星期六 【晴】

Full Packed today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!So crazy.

Morning 0845-1300 to be invilgator for exam.
Then rush to 76 bus-stop, dont wanna miss the bus again, (like last week), lucky i can catch up the bus..however, joe is in Causeway Bay....he's late! Btw, it doesnt matter as only our daugthers in the pool....So so so sleepy after teach swimming.....go to take a deep nap in WL......damn touching......wanna cry when i touch the bed......never have nap since June....never on the bed at 4:45pm.......(I mean afternoon)....only 3 mins,...i think.....then i fall in sleep........wake up so hard as really miss the bed....i finally understand why joe always cant wake up in morning.......haha.....the area is so nice....if not meet Fred, I think I will keep to sleep......It is necessary to mark today as i got a nap!

Rush to IFC to meet Fred.....he inspirit me again....in the ideas of research areas.......
he is a very nice guys........he really teaches me how to do in the coming days......i know he really want me to go UK to study....haha.....i always reply him " Opportunities are always here!"

then need to rush to Maonshan to go my cousin's banquet....really wanna die......
no time is not rush.......! rush rush rush in my life~ Oh my God......
My mum insists me to go even I am late.....sigh....suen la....no method.....
Finally I go there....eat 15 mins.......then go home......
I sleep at 10:00.......crazy early.......as crazy tired..........

>>December 20, 2004 at 2:25:17 AM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 16 日 星期四 【晴】

Fred comes back! REALLY miss him for a long time...u know...I am his daughter..really miss the days I do my dissertation~ we work together....and finally got a good grade...somehow I think grade is not important for me (frankly!), I really enjoy the process to pursue the knowledge...get in deep in the "women leadership in sports industry", enjoy searching journals...finding latest information,,,get insight of the famous scholars' theories....what an amazing process. I talked about it with Gummo..I think he understands why I want to study PhD..it is my only goal at this moment....

We had dinner in Central...a nice area...but SUPER WINDY...what da hell....the night scene of HK..really really good! We talked a lot...he gives me some ideas about my proposal....it sounds interesting.....I think the difference between Fred and me is "Experience"! u know...i really lack of experience.....but i understand it needs to buy time! buy time! buy time! but on the other hand, i dont wanna to be an adult....hehe...still childish? hehe....

Tai Man talked a lot about Softball to me....as I told him Gummo talked about their WL sen-tut, is he cool? really wanna spend time to see a softball match....So many people are shocked when they know I was separated with my bf...and so many people wanna introduce me good guys these days...thanks so much~ All of u...if you have any good guys around u, plz introduce me...haha....no matter he has gf or not...haha.......May I?

Rennie phoned me and chatted with Fred....so funny, isnt it? We are planning for our lonely Xmas....
where should we go? let me think about it! Rennie said she want to get the sovenior from Joe from Thailand...haha....I dont know how to tell Joe,,,u know....even me.....also might not get that....Hope he can remember to buy sth to our kids are okay......especially Chan Hoi Yee and Leung Hoi Chun....they just like our kids so much....when will joe invite them to have a big dinner? huh? Does he need to pay 2 people's charge for Chan Hoi Yee...as she got a baby in her tummy.....hehe...

Tsing: Look forward to 練波 with u in Causeway Bay...Can I start in 2005? I really want to explore new things! u have to teach me!
Tai Man: Find one day and then bring me to see softball match!

Who is crazy...leave msg in my diary......

>>December 17, 2004 at 9:11:00 AM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 15 日 星期三 【晴】

Quite relax today...
as yesterday I finished preparing those damn lessons ......
so this morning, I can have time to deal with those Sealion things.......thanks God.

Have lunch with my students,,,they said I like a kid, do I?
I go to print those pic with Leung Hoi Chun, family pic again,,,but our kids change.......change to a naughty one, and a talkative one. I think,,,if one day, I really got twins...that is so good......one boy and one gal....it was my dream when I was in primary school. Btw, now, nothing can happen....even cant get baby...as no bf....sigh......

Gummo came to swim.....tonight so many kids got stomache, johnathon, Chan Hoi Yee, Chan Hoi Kai.....what da hell....what did they eat? I asked Chan Hoi Yee.....are your baby coming out? haha....
she said "No, you listen wrongly last time, I didnt say I got baby".....I really look forward about her pic in X'mas singing performance,,,,how did she look like? An angel?

It is a bit annoying after swimming, as Joe and Gummo keep talking about WL and non-stop to say foul language....I dont mind they say fouls but I do mind that they ignore me......really cant join the conversation...they keep talking, talking and talking......no matter in bus stop, on bus and even having dinner....sigh..miss the bus stop.....but I didnt say anything to remind them even I know....as they still keep talking....quite uncomfortable...I mean I was ignored and they just treat me as transparent.....
sigh.....even having dinner.....still like that.......I paid for their dinner as I am quite annoying.....
dont wanna get their money....and also i made my promise as Joe call me to pay him dinner tonight at pool deck as I blocked his way to swim....when I arrived at home...I even didnt ring to joe...just send him msg...as I dont wanna talk with him.....dont wanna be ignored by him anymore.....the feeling is so bad....

sigh.........Priscilla says "Guys are jerk"....is it truth?

>>December 16, 2004 at 12:28:39 AM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 11 日 星期六 【晴】

Have make-up class this morning and then go to South Island again.
Nice weather, nice water, and nice kids....
Those kids seems hyperactive today and some kids bite me!
They said " We saw Coach Lee and Coach Luk kiss kiss today".
I replied "What the hell?"..and Joe only laughed.....crazy man...those kids.....
I wonder WHICH eyes did they use? When we kiss kiss? ha?
Are they mad?
They also said they got pregrancy....What da hell? ha? 5 years old kids got baby in their tummy!
We got a lot of fun today during teaching......really got fun...i love those kids....
never been like that......never teach so happy...with kids.....

After that, Leung Hoi Chun invited joe and me to go his home to see his toys...
he is so funny...even he is damn naugty...we got pic again....Joe insisted he has to study for exam..
I can see the disappointed eyes of Leung....so pity....
I think Joe will buy you gift from Thailand during Xmas lei....

Then we rush to Campus to have graduate pic with all swimming teammates
Very happy to see so many teammates together and take graduate pic...

Ada: thanks for coming even you are in hurry.
Others: Love all of you and hope you all SUPERPASS in coming exam!
Rennie: dim suen.......so confused......"I am confused" ...hahaha

I finally can change the new wallpaper!
GOOD!

>>December 13, 2004 at 1:09:21 PM GMT+8

2004 年 11 月 27 日 星期六 【陰】

So rush today...
Wake at 12:00....then immediately rush to South Island to teach swimming
then go to HKU to renew DVDs....
then take quick pic with Mandy, Ting Ting and Vanise,,,,
then go to Causeway Bay to have a very nice tea/pre-dinner with Rennie and Ada....
then go to Tai Po to bbq with Chris....and others.....

Thanks God to give me some friends like Wade, Colin and John....
Wade talked sth to me tongiht......a bit touching.....
btw,,,I know.......lonely Xmas is coming....sigh.....

Honglu: .......wanna say sth to u.......but......forget it.....
REnnie and Ada: NICE to have pre-dinner with u
LLC: thanks for caring about me....

>>November 28, 2004 at 12:58:42 AM GMT+8

2004 年 11 月 23 日 星期二 【晴】

So touching today...
Some kids come to find me especially and asked why I didnt have class yesterday.....
as they especially come to the school to attend my lesson.......
so touching......
kids....I love you........

>>November 28, 2004 at 12:54:55 AM GMT+8

2004 年 11 月 20 日 星期六 【晴】

今日終於唔洗返工，太好啦..我係屋企同阿媽講左有成十次話"正呀!唔洗返工呀"
之後我就出左門口去ihp見阿chris...ok啦...始終都係個句...真係有得讀先算啦。
跟住我就去左library借vcd...同hea左一陣，打俾joe lee佢仲訓緊，唉..成11:30...仲訓緊。
去左maxim..買左飯，就上左wei lun...食埋就去教水。

今日我見到個太陽，想喊呀...感動到想喊呀...久違既太陽同好藍既天空，最重要係個天一片雲都冇，正呀! 我最鍾意天空既colour, 尤其係藍色，天藍個隻...天空既轉變真係好奇妙，就好似人生咁，每一日都唔同，神創造既大地真係奇妙。joe話見到我個樣真係好慘、好感動，就好似一隻小狗俾主人帶出街咁，仲要係好耐冇出街個隻。

金毛先生黎左游水，我見到d家長望住佢游呀...哈哈，好型呢...
今日同我個女陳可兒一起take shower...佢好cute....btw...佢今日終於肯同joe lee講野。(我諗joe好開心)哈哈...其實joe唔出聲既時候，個樣真係幾惡..佢死都話自己成日都笑，唉...如果佢成日都有笑...d靚妹就唔會咁驚佢啦。

之後去左西環睇跌打，間跌打館既小狗好得意，hehe...
finally，去左cyberport睇戲，見到sandy bay既日落，我真係好miss hall......
第二次去cyberport，終於可以睇戲。正呀....但係因為冇得choose,,,,最後只可以睇<鬼影>......
估唔到我隔離個位朋友仲驚過我....哈哈哈......佢全程都用件衫cover住自己，hahahahaaaaaaaaa.....不過呢齣戲真係好q驚嚇....哈哈.....但我真係估唔到佢咁細膽...
btw, 個結局真係出人意表。

期待星期一.....

>>November 21, 2004 at 6:48:08 AM GMT+8

2004 年 11 月 16 日 星期二 【晴】

Got so many emotional problems these days....

separate with bf...
being flied aeroplane by joe on Sunday.....
blamed by teresa about insurance.....

MY LIFE IS SUCK.......
Why is my life like that these days...
PISSED OFF TOTALLY.......

How can I stand up again?! How much time do I need?
Struggling.......

Rennie, Ada, Jojo, Pin, Small Peg: I love you all........
HL@CW: ABSOLUTELY cant believe you have time to see my diary at 16:48..and cant believe you see my diary (it lets me some times to think about who u are!), btw, thanks for giving me the game...the students are quite okay in that lei....>0<.

To my dearest Rennie:

=IF(AND(Throw rubbish after dinner in Australia,Give surprise to gals,No strong personality),"Must have many gf",IF(OR(Handsome,GPA>3,Tall,Rich),"High successful rate to have gf","Low out pool rate"))

ok ma?

>>November 16, 2004 at 9:50:32 PM GMT+8

2004 年 11 月 15 日 星期一 【陰】

Today is ur b-day, we had dinner together...
Even have dinner together, we didnt have much to talk......
then in the bus......we both talked in the phone separately...I heard that you are talking so sweet in the phone...to someone...

Desperation.....
Totally despair.......
Even I hope we can go back...but seems cant......
When I back home.........i cried.....again......in my bedroom...as I saw all the stuff in my bedroom.....all from you.....all my hello kitties = all my memories.....I still remember all the days we had....we passed all the difficulties....even you got accident...I still remember your leg and the days you were in hospital....I worried about u deeply.....We got quarrel in Shatin KCR Station.....we argued because of $50......we cried together....because of our love.....You always take taxi to my home...because you wanna see me more....When I was sick,,,,you skipped lessons to see me....even at mid-night.....u still come to my hall to give me gift.......I really feel God between us.....Where is God now?!.....God, do you listen to my pray??? Do you really care about your daughter?

I cant accept you suddenly become cold to me......
suddenly.....I cant accept.......I am so sad....
Even you initate to separate...u didnt cry.....no more tear to see from you.......
you didnt treasure about me, us and our days....
Is it easy to forget?! Can you tell me how to do that?
I cant....I cant like you......no tear........
tear comes from my eyes...my heart....my deep heart.....every day

you make me to feel that I am not worth to have a bf.....
I am not good as others.......so I dont deserve to have a bf......
I am rude.....not cute....not soft....not depended.....dont know how to "lum" others......
that's me......
I scare about love now......really scare........trust is not easy to establish.....I trust u......but you finally give me false hope......i dont believe in love anymore......

love is far away from me............
Is there anyone can teach me how to stop the tear come out of my eyes?
Plz tell me....Plz.....

>>November 16, 2004 at 1:00:36 AM GMT+8

2004 年 11 月 6 日 星期六 【晴】

We come to the end.....
He initiates to separate........
I cried.....deeply.......for 4 hours.........

what I can do is to cry.......as I really dont know what can I know.....as I dont know.....

>>November 7, 2004 at 10:30:51 PM GMT+8