2005 年 5 月 20 日 星期五 【颱風】

wanna cry in my office in the morning...
finally I decide to go another room to work...
SO RIDICULOUS! Please Please Please leave me alone!

Everything makes me SICK! My life is:
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++SUCK++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
I really dont know how to handle it, how to face it, how to respond it....

HL: Thank you so much to share with you. otherwise I will die....
Pris: Good idea! Lets die in pool!

>>May 22, 2005 at 12:50:40 PM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 19 日 星期四 【乍寒還暖】

好耐都未試過訓唔著...omg...

返回起點。


Rennie: Pris will join us to die together, find a place~
Heidi: no need to be scare, that is alright! I made it also.
Pris: Congrad.
Joe: I like your sentence--"count on me"

>>May 20, 2005 at 5:30:41 AM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 18 日 星期三 【乍寒還暖】

feel sick about my life.....

++++hate++++waiting++++everything is not under my control++++hate++++

I got sth yesterday and today...am I right?...OMG...no time to think about it...
Btw, prepare for the worst. Is it the worst for me?...hm...might be...I am not sure....btw, it is clear.

+++realize+++step back+++fingers cross+++no way+++back to origin+++leave me alone++++++

Love the time to chat w/ our daughter, she is very very cute.......if I were guy, I must chase her...
tonight is the first time I get the seawater smell in Sandy Bay's pool, it is cool. I like it.

Rennie: decide a place to die together, I cant wait anymore.
Heidi: I wrote in English today!
Ada: Please remember Friday, babe~


--------hide-----------my heart--------hide---------my feeling----------hide---------myself---------hide---------

>>May 19, 2005 at 5:27:18 AM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 18 日 星期三 【微雨】

Ich bin so früh nicht geweckt worden (4:00 am) für eine lange Zeit. Ach mein Gott. Ich will sterben. Krank um den BM setzt aus. Hassen Sie meine Aufgabe. Gestern Abend habe ich schon Büro an 8:00pm verlassen. Helfen Sie mir bitte. Warum habe ich so viele Stoffe, zu machen?

>>May 18, 2005 at 7:00:01 AM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 17 日 星期二 【陰】

........SHIT.........
How come so many things to do..........tell me plx.........

+++++++++++++救命呀++++++++++++++++++++++++++

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Ich will sterben~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

>>May 17, 2005 at 10:07:58 PM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 15 日 星期日 【晴】

Friday...damn tired...worked until 6:30 in office..then rushed to Sandy Bay..Originally dont wanna go..as cant finish the MC script for tmr's ceremony....sigh....btw, I went finally...
Met Joe's new gf in Sai Wan...what a pretty gal..haha..I finally understand why Joe is so happy these days...as he changes gf...haha.....had a dinner in Sai Wan w/ someone who's watching TV throughout the meal...無奈...

Saturday...wake at 5:00am as wanna print out MC script...HOWEVER..my PC CANT OPEN! DAMN IT...
rush to office @8:00...luckily Natalie helps me...otherwise...so rush....I didnt do any preparation for the ceremony..However, I am MC again~~~~sigh.......everybody says that I am fit to be a MC....MAD.......I dont wanna do it anymore...but it seems that I got another one in summer again...why is me again?!!!!
Btw, I found that I didnt feel nervous to be a MC anymore...yestersday's ceremony...over 200 people....so what....not a big deal....thanks for everyone who praises me....

Have lunch with my kids in pizza hut again...I really love them...have fun time with them.....they are so so so nice...they are very helpful.....then go back office to wait.....wait for someone's call....so so so tired......as only sleep 1.5 hrs last night.....

Finally: 2 things have happened--
1) someone called me finally
2) however, the promise is failed to make.......
++++++++++++++ Hate++++++++Waiting++++++++Promise++++++++Cant make+++++++++++++++

Went to teach swimming afterward.....got a fun time with my kids......they are cute....haha....
then rush to home....as preparing to go out to play.......long time didnt play 通頂.....feel dizzy.....OMG~~~~

++++++++frustrated++++++++face the truth++++++++++Not the one+++++++++illusion+++++++++++++
++++++++So what = 咁又點+++++++++Hate myself = 憎自己++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
++++++++want to have a DEEP cry = 狠狠喊一場++++++May I = 可以嗎+++++++++++++++++++++++

RenRen: It is totally fake....false hope again.......illusion.......trust me.......
Daniel: Nice to chat w/ u....add oil......look forward to go out with u......
Man Ying: nice to share w/ u.......love u......
B: have a fun time~~~~~~enjoy it!

>>May 15, 2005 at 6:15:12 PM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 12 日 星期四 【晴】

Morning lesson, lunch rehersal, afternoon packaging....omg..I didnt sit on my chair today over 30 mins...crazy man.......nice to have Mcdonalds lunch with Clayton, Kenneth, Apple, Ting and Alvin..I pretend to be student in 6/F student resting area...hehe...so so so nice to have a nice sofa to have a nice lunch......I get really close with these kids...actually happy to know them...and we got fun time for packaging in afternoon...we made some nice protective packagings for the books (gifts)...haha.....

My eyes cant open today after 4 days didnt sleep.....OMG~~~~~help me please....wearing glasses finally....cant predict how can I survive tmr and Sat.......DAMN BUSY.......wanna die.......OMG~

You are hanging around my mind these days....
Suddenly wanna eat 低脂雪糕 in somewhere....miss it.....
100 = a miracle number for you ar~~~~~~~

>>May 12, 2005 at 9:12:47 PM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 11 日 星期三 【暴雨】

I soon become mad within these four days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
.....nearly cant sleep every night..........tonnes of things need to do.......so many people bear on me......OMG~~~~~~help me please......

"If you want to watch, and no one go with you, I might go"
......it is a damn odd sentence I never heard.......
if you really want to watch movie with someone, can u ask:
1) If you want to watch, I can go with you
2) Do you want to watch? Lets go
3)...

RenRen: How come you and gummo also have the same conversation.......haha......so coincident..it makes me think about what Pris and Ada said "guys are jerkz"

>>May 11, 2005 at 11:15:40 PM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 9 日 星期一 【颱風】

..........Sigh.........cant sleep.....

Just wanna ask one question in my deep heart: Do you regret what you have done? If time goes back, what will you do? the same as the past or...?
2.7.2002......nearly three years before...tears wanna come out....


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>>May 10, 2005 at 2:02:18 AM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 8 日 星期日 【晴】

the first time to wear short today.....in 2005.....hehe...I wont wear anymore as I really fat a lot...damn it

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

am i real am i true
am i borrowed am i blue
is it just the dust of leaving you
settling
am i fair am i strong
when i'm there do i belong
is it only skin i touch when i reach for you
the leaves they fall
they go so far sometimes
do i blame the wind
or the tree that let it go
or do i wave goobye
settling
do i stay and do i fight
is it wrong when nothing's right
or is it just the closet light
i leave on for you
the leaves they fall
they go so far sometimes
do i blame the wind
or the tree that let it go
or do i wave goobye
settling
so many times i've needed you to be strong for me
but you bend beneath the slightest breeze
you have no leaves
no leaves
no leaves
settling
am i real am i blue
do i stay and do i fight
is it just the closet light
is it only skin touch
or is it just the dust
settling

>>May 8, 2005 at 12:15:13 AM GMT+8