2004 年 12 月 29 日 星期三 【晴】

Finally threw some rubbish and start to write proposal.
Clean the room...no more dust...better for me to 閉關。

Dr. Li gave me a PhD thesis in 1994 (his friend), he highly recommended me to read that because the English is so so so beautiful. I wonder how good is it. When I read the first page, I finally understand why he would like me to read it.

Topic: "Healing our split from nature: A phenomenological exploration of wilderness travel leadership"

The page before abstract, it writes:
"Mountains should be climbed with as little effort as possible and without desire. The reality of your own nature should determne the speed. If you become restless, speed up. If you become winded, slow down. You climb the mountain in equilibrium between restlessness and exhaustion. Then when you're no longer thinking ahead, each footstep isnt just a means to an end but a unique event in itself. This leaf has jagged edges. This rock looks loose. From this place the snow is less visible, even though closer. These are things you should notice anyway. To live only for some future goal is shallow. It's the sides of mountains which sustain life, not the top...(Robert Pirsig)"

so pretty English.....

"All paths lead nowhere, so it is important to choose a path that has heart" (Carlos Castaneda).......

***********I have to work hard in my proposal, no matter it can grant me a chance or not.**************

>>December 29, 2004 at 4:58:54 PM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 28 日 星期二 【晴】

開眼既時候已經係11:45am，正呀!
之後改埋d test paper，就要rush去補習，之後同honglu去左睇戲，之後再meet wade同食飯。
a normal day~~~miss this kind of life style........

突然間諗起放假前，同兩個同事既對話。
1) 話說我個日，係office行過一個同事個位，佢用左佢同兩個仔仔同佢先生張相做wallpaper，佢個兩個仔仔戴左兩頂好得意既tigger帽，cute到震，跟住我同佢講，"好cute呀!"，佢話"我都係見到你個wallpaper，唔底得，所以先用呢張相jar，你個張都好cute呀，不過，你記住呀，仔仔係唔可以不勞而獲架，你估好似你咁易就有個仔仔呀!"，之後大家一起狂笑。

2) 就黎收工既時候，我地部門個文書chloe (剛剛新掉過黎架，我未試過同佢好好對話)，佢走過黎，以下係我地既對話：
chloe: kiano，我想問你d野呀。
me: oh~ok，問啦，做乜?
chloe:我見到你個wallpaper同screensaver，原來你咁後生就有一仔一女，真係令人羨慕呀!
me:哈哈，佢地得唔得意呢?
chloe:我覺得個仔仔似你先生多d jei，個女都好得意呀，我覺得個女好似你同你先生呀。
me:....................

如果我咁後生就有一仔(5歲)一女(6歲)，就真係正如 joe lee所講，我老公一定係衰11。
仲有呀，終於有人話陳可兒似我呀!免得joe lee成日都話個女似佢，佢話因為爸爸係靚仔wor。
sigh..........

>>December 29, 2004 at 12:37:43 AM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 27 日 星期一 【晴】

好累了。
really play hard these days...
心還是掛著學生的功課，所以一起身就開始改啦。
改左好耐...原本被人約左，後來有親戚來了家中，...不能上街啦。
最後honglu 同wade話晚飯後出去飲野，結果還是要等明天。最衰係honglu，不過--冇壞la...等我好好改晒所有功課，可以玩得盡興d。好想get drank既感覺。

honglu今日send左一個好窩心既xmas msg俾我。
"wei merry merry x'mas ar
希望你快ｄ比人搵做女友
希望你快ｄ比大陸佬搵做佢學生"

我replied
"thanks...haha~~~~
咁我祝你快d去到旅行 (但唔好去馬爾代夫)
同埋快d搵返自己既目標"

呢排日日都影相...哈哈..我想留低每一日既回憶呀。
我間房要大掃除la...好多dust.......so dirty......................

>>December 27, 2004 at 10:34:45 PM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 26 日 星期日 【晴】

Cant wake finally to go church...really really tired these few days.....
when i open my eyes...that is already 11:45...crazy....
Start to mark my kids' assignment...

Then go SWIMMING w/ RenRen...ring Gummo..he said too far away....
btw,,,swim 600m.....so harsh for me...nearly cant finish.....
the water is so warm...i NEVER swim on Sunday afternoon.....relaxing swimming ......
I think we should go beach in coming Sunday~~~~~i want to lay on the beach and enjoy the warm sunshine.....not as hard as summer....winter sunshine......so nice.......

Then go to Vanise's home to have re-union.
A nice place...a nice DVD.. take some silly pic with Jie,....surprised to heard that 16/F got a CCTV gang......haha.....nice food......nice play with hallmates......really miss the days lived in LHT.....
my treasure time!!!!!!!!! An area that all gals chat all secrets.....we dont have secret...u know...we even remember and talk about others underwear style and colour....u know....i always sleep in others bed...haha...everybody knows it....we take shower together.....haha...play water during shower....haha......even "certain period" also come together......
crazy.....enjoy the life in LHT~~~~~~~~Even I am not Hotungian....my heart is still there! Never CHANGE!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I am belonged to 16/F of LHT~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Small Peg: so pity that you cant come tonight...Good Trip to Germany and enjoy ur every moment with KEN~~~~miss u ar~

>>December 27, 2004 at 5:42:36 PM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 25 日 星期六 【陰】

Thx for Sum Chai to call me to wake up, today i got a duty in church...so have to go as early as possible. It is funny to work w/ Kenneth.....
sorry that I cant help until the ceremony end as I am rushing to MK to take bus to Tuen Mum to bbq....
Rush Rush Rush...
Rennie forgot the time we meet :P~ low B gal....we take bus then catch up with New Fai...
haha...u know..last night is a pre-meet of today....

BBQ in Lung Ko Tan...a strange place.....with strange people..like going to mainland China ar.....never go this place.........haha...and dont know all the people.....me, Ren Ren, New Fai, Pin, Yan, Yan's gf, Fay, Ester, Chris, and Fat Chai.....Fat Chai is a funny guy lei...Cant suffer from Yan's gf's softvoice.....i really cant make close friends with these kind of gals...but i think this kind of gals got the largest bf market.....isn't it? Sorry lei...I am not this kind. We go hiking...to a station which to see dolphin....chinese white dolphin....we rotate to say the criteria of our target...haha......seldom to listen New Fai to say those stuff...got fun lei......

After Tuen Mun, we went to Festival Walk by "West" Train...my first time, I try Maonshan train, East Train, West Train and MTR today...crazy man...Ren Ren eat again......crazy gal..so wonder how can she eat so much..but not fat....we took some nice pic....then so so so tired......i go to bed immediately after arriving home....

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Play so hard these days~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

>>December 27, 2004 at 5:31:03 PM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 24 日 星期五 【晴】

Silent night, holy night~

Rush to HKU in morning as got sth from Joe....he is sleeping while give me sth.... i think he cant see what I look like......then go to HSBC to do sth....then go library to borrow book then have a nice tea in supersandwich.....so enjoy to have this kind of life......so relax.....not necessary to see my watch..dont care about the time....so so so relax......

then go church....have a holy silent night.....
then go Lan Kwai Fong...with Pin, New Fai, Rennie and Gummo.....cant meet Ham Ham......chiu....
we took pic in Central....a nice Santa Town......
got a good time.....nice nice.....Happy to have Xmas with Pin, New Fai, Rennie and Gummo.....Love you all......

btw, meet students in Central, TST, and Maonshan......crazy man..................SIGH!
it is good to meet my students in Central Mcdonald....otherwise we cant get a seat!
Got so many Xmas msg.........so touching......

btw,,,,,,,,got some Xmas msg from some guys.....but I dont know who are u lei~~~~sor ar.
plz tell me who u are if ur phone no. are the following:
90202344, 61898565 and jason (which jason....as i know so many jasons, sor ar)
Btw, thanks for all your msgs! I really like to recieve sms lei~~~~~~~
this Xmas, I super like the story of Mistletoe Boulevard~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

>>December 26, 2004 at 11:28:57 AM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 23 日 星期四 【晴】

Last night go Shek O bbq with my students......they are so nice......really touching when they gave me the Xmas card...they write a lot of feeling in there......happy to be their personal tutor....u know....i am just elder than them a bit...2 or 3 years only......they really treat me as their sister...haha.....last night arrive home at 3:00am......crazy....then ......start to make the gifts to my colleagues......so tired.....

This morning.....got 2 classes......217-1a and 1b.....they are so disappointed after knowing I will not teach them in coming semester......those kids in 1b even say they will not go lesson if not teach by me......haha...a bit touching....as we really establish our relationship! I bought some candies to them and they are so happy....yeah...Merry Xmas....

I gave some gifts to my colleagues, Natalie, Fiona, Florence, Judy, Helen, Regina, Amy, Connie and Louis. u know....they also gave me gifts....Helen (vice department head)....said I just like a student to give gift to teachers.....sigh......student vs teacher...
In afternoon,,,,,the HoD inched me during the annual party.....he said I am the only one teacher that can go into the students' group and nobody can find it.....sigh.....dim ar.....wanna fire me?....say it directly la....suen la.....i will not put into my heart.....i know he is a kind of person doesnt know how to make joke...make some worse joke....sigh....

hea teach today.....haha...so relax......holiday mood already......
pack all the stuff to home for 2.5 hours.....i will not go office for 10 days......haha!
I got many gifts from students, cookie, chocolate, cards, e-cards......so touching....
i just teach them for 3 months.....we establish good relationship.....u know,,,i really put heart to teach them.....Got a call from Louis,,,,,he is so surprised that I gave gift to him....haha...dont wanna explain the case......I printed out the jame wong's book by colour laser printer....as nobody in office.....haha!!!!!!!crazy print......then go to take MTR to TST.....crazy man......so many people.....damn crowd!
Have dinner with my secondary school classmates tonight.....haha.....might be they know I dont get bf this year...GOT A LOT of fun during dinner........I laugh and get stomache......Kee gave me the graduat pic....SO SO SO NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!thanks for him...I really enjoy the time with my friends....we dated 9/1 for hiking....Fai and Siu Keung seems got trouble to go....haha....but Cheung Ching and Charmaine insist to go.....Me and Kee are in middle.....sigh....war..between them..........first time to take Maonshan train....so interesting.....

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God really does sth on me.....
even my affection is blank now....I got a lot of things.....
A large group of good friends, nice colleagues, not lonely Xmas....
God really recover my heart.....

>>December 26, 2004 at 11:12:11 AM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 22 日 星期三 【晴】

人生總是有錯折和失敗，怎樣可以從錯折和失敗中站立起來，真是很難。
但宜家呢一刻我想同自己講，
我會狠狠地睡一覺，狠狠地放下過去，重新的站起來。
Be TOUGH and STRONG! (何東妹精神)
呢個先係真正既我呀!

~~~~~~~~~搏盡2005!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

>>December 22, 2004 at 9:24:12 AM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 21 日 星期二 【晴】

Sick leave this morning.
Rush to HKU then meet Dr. Li.
The first time to meet him, he is a nice person and we talked a lot.
I really want to leave him a good impression in our 1st meeting. I am so so so happy when he said he is interested in investigating Sports tourism, especially in 2008 Beijing Olympic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOu know, my eyes immediately become shinny *star*
However, he doesnt say how many students will he receive and my chance to study.......
Btw, he asked me three times about my gpa.....he said if my gpa is lower than 3.50.....it is hopeless to apply...Of course, i am not....btw, at the end of the meeting, he finally recongize I am working.....got a full time job....haha.....I think I should tell him I got 1st hon in my undergraduate.....then he will not ask my gpa.....rang joe to wake after meeting....wanna share with him about the meeting at the first moment (as just finish the meeting).....however, he is so sleepy......just says" it is good to finish la"..then he go to sleepy mode......sigh.......sleepy guy.....

Call Ren Ren and Honglu......Honglu is really a nice guy as he really understands what I need.....might be it is because of similar background of us.....he also feels happy after knowing the situation.....

Btw. dont wanna take too high expectation.....dont want the situation happened again.....
dont wanna cry for the failure again......btw, I will add oil in the proposal......

>>December 26, 2004 at 10:48:55 AM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 19 日 星期日 【晴】

I automatically wake up at 8:30 today...
then I immdiately back to sleep.....as I want to wake up at 12:00...
finally I made it! Sleep at B chai's bed until 11:45....haha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Never try to sleep later than 7:00 start from June...today is the first day! I mark it too~ same as yesterday's nap....Really wait for today for so long time.....when I wake...haha...immediately send a msg to someone: "Oh no~I just wake!" Then later on, I got a msg "Diu u"......what da hell....I laugh for 10 mins becoz of this msg...what da hell....the first time i receive FOUL sms......haha.....mad on u.....

then I iron my clothes....for afternoon's graduate photo taking + evening wedding banquet....
Photo-taking with Jojo, jeannie, new fai, angel, + jojo's bf......
sigh....talk about bf again......sigh.........jeannie,,,,,lets go out in Xmas.......
New Fai: Thanks for coming!!!!!!!!!
Then I put down my clothes to Joe and then go to airport ....Regal hotel....to have my cousin's banquet....Joe is a bit surprised when he see me got make up......damn it.....he must be scared.....sor ar.....dont wanna scare u...:P......I am wondering which face is more scare....."Just wake up" or "Got make up"? :P

The venue is so so so nice.......I mean the hotel......so large hall......for his wedding......
The MC is really good......nice controlling the atmosphere and pace of the banquet.....
It is quite touching when seeing the video of my cousin and his wife....11 years....not a short dating......
marriage is the right time....as I think his wife cant wait......as they are born in same year.....
Many relatives ask me why I dont accompany with bf to come....sigh........I tell them I dont have bf....they dont believe me....as my little cousins also got their bfs.....and they also come for banquet....
sigh......hard to explain, btw, they also ask me when will I get married? Sigh..GREY.....Silent *~*~*~*~

Start a new life in 2005! Look forward to it!
Wanna buy Xmas gifts to my friends, hey guys, what kind do you like?

>>December 20, 2004 at 1:08:38 PM GMT+8