2005 年 1 月 13 日 星期四 【雷雨】

Tired today again.


Whole morning for meeting...then afternoon...my final lesson in this sem.....then.....mark some kids exam paper.....then already 5:30...rush to MK to tutorial....so so so tired.....

Have lunch w/ Fiona and Bosco. even though Bosco is......fine to have lunch with him as we are the same team for teaching BSA..Fiona is the module leader who is my job interviewer...she finally told me my performance during the interview.......she appreciate my presentation skills again....btw, Good to teach with her as she is very nice and she is a Christian too....she is happy that I am a Christian...she said "thanks God to give me two siblings in this sem"...She invites me to help the school fellowship~

Btw, I got a fun time with Charmaine, Siu Keung, Kee and Fai during our dinner time!
Great.....even though I am always inched by them...especially Fai and Kee.....
Fai still concerns why I can be a teacher ....as I am stupid.. :P
However, stupid is my icon~~~~it is so free to have dinner with them..as we grow up together and we know each other..i mean the truth side....haha...i dont mind to be "blue" in front of them..haha

tmr retreat....sigh.......damn it........
Honglu: sorry for cant help you~

>>January 14, 2005 at 1:39:14 AM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 12 日 星期三 【晴】

Still bad mood today.
Get bored and tired in office...Those log books are flooding in my area...It just like to build up a wall. I cant think how I can finish those within 5 days.....
1) mark 200 Log books
2) mark 100 Dreamweaver
3) mark 100 Access Exam...........
4) mark 200 write up............
How can I finish those...........how ........plz tell me.........
Used over 30 mins to pack those Log books.....feel tired and seems get sick.....as the air con seems suck in office. didnt do much after 5:00 as seeing my colleagues left office one by one.

wanna tell joe immediately after off...
however, when 5:15, i still see him online......oh no....he is still in hall.......
sigh.........i think he might wait for me......however, he didnt.
he rang me twice when i was in 76, however, dont wanna deal with him.....didnt pick up the phone.
he left a msg but my mobile seems suck.....cant listen finally.
saw him finally but i didnt talk much w/ him as relutant to talk...
he promises to help me get a prospectus but finally he doesnt give me....i bet he forget.......
sigh....i didnt tell him i was upset. btw, he never knows.

he is innocent but it is not a right timing.
just like Rennie vs. Gummo.

>>January 12, 2005 at 11:07:37 PM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 9 日 星期日 【晴】

Something happened.......shit........禍不單行...

Eugene sent an link to me, it is worth to see......
http://www.classifiedpost.com/jsarticle.php?lcid=HK.EN&arttype=COACH&artsection=CAREER

Didnt go to the ball (party?) tonight....very sorry....as that contingency really make me suck.
Originally I prepared a dress to go...elegant lei....as it is a grand ball.....

Eugene: I am unhappy because of u....didnt sleep with me..and didnt talk with me.... :P
Btw, I am happy to have a good start in 2005 with u~

>>January 9, 2005 at 11:10:56 PM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 8 日 星期六 【陰】

心情好低落......
好低落.....
好低落....
sigh...

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Somebody asked me whether I will get along with my ex again or not...
I dont know..I really dont know..even I want, I think he wont as he doesnt luv me anymore.....
and the main pt is ---he initated to separate.....so.......that is hopeless.....grey........

>>January 9, 2005 at 11:37:33 AM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 6 日 星期四 【晴】

雖然已經分開左....但佢依然都係我心中......每次想到都哭起來。

有一日，我經過沙田，見到一架電單車，上面坐住一對情侶，我想起了初初我由反對佢買電單車，到佢為左我換左一架綿羊仔，之後仲用埋我既生日做psw。之後佢就撞車，我好記得佢出事既時候，立刻打電話俾我，當時我係poly lib門口，唔知點算，即刻搭車去醫院。佢係醫院既時候，我最記佢同我講: "宜家我唔洗打電話俾你, 我都知道你會黎睇我，仲可以日日見tim, 你話幾好呢?"...想到這裡...眼淚就不期然流出來。

經過很多一同到過的地方，都會想起以往的日子。
兩個人一起真的不容易，真的要付出很多很多.....
愛真是要恆久忍耐...點解佢要放棄.....放棄我地努力建立既感情，放棄我......

前排睇叱吒，古巨基話好多人聽<愛與誠>好有feel，佢叫人留意歌詞，我發現歌詞有可能係佢既心聲...我想起又哭了上來。

今日係屋企find things, 個d hello kitty係個櫃到跌出黎，我又哭了.......

呢排發生左好多事，我成日都不期然拿起個電話，press左"9261"，..之後我發現...我習慣打電話俾佢...好可惜...我地唔會再聯絡。而佢個電話...唔會再響起警報聲，....而我個電話，亦唔會show up佢既來電。不過，可能佢已經delete左我個電話。

好多人問我究竟佢係咪有左第二個，我同大家講，我唔知，亦唔想知，
因為係唔係個結果都係一樣，點解要知，知左可能個心更痛，因為証明佢對我講大話，因為5年前佢同我講，佢一定唔會咁....但我覺得，佢會俾我更快recover, 可能佢已經期待住另一份新既感情，又或者佢已經同第二個人拍緊拖，又或者佢已經完全忘記了我.....因為....我係佢心目中，連以往既一個小小既位置都沒有了。

而我....
心門已經唔識再得開....
因為條key....遺留左係佢到...而佢...已經掉左條key.....因為條key對佢係微不足道......
我以後都唔會再信人.....佢以前話信就係信，唔洗問點解.....我以後都唔會再咁易信人....
我就係太信佢.....尤其係佢既promises......
finally.........................................

>>January 8, 2005 at 12:09:06 AM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 5 日 星期三 【晴】

我班學生今日做左件白痴既事.....累我差d俾人炒。
sigh...俾人篤背"隻"....教書jei....唔洗咁呀ma......
sigh...好驚呀.....

>>January 7, 2005 at 10:41:43 PM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 4 日 星期二 【晴】

All my kids discover my hair colour changes.......damn it...sigh....
Got a cold call this afternoon...wanna cry during listening as I found so many people know that what happened between me and my ex......everybody sends me the best wishes and this cold call is really really touching.....I know everybody really concern my feeling...thanks..so much

好想睇到北極光同埋去kenya~
kenya既天空同太陽真係好靚。

>>January 4, 2005 at 11:14:55 PM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 2 日 星期日 【晴】

去左細wing個wedding~~~第一次參加天主教的婚禮，感覺怪怪的。
got fun with Siu Keung, CC and Fok Wing Ching...have a quick lunch in Euro Go Go..Met some old Ti-l Teachers....Saw a senior got Baby....crazy...Baby....
today seems warmer.....even my fingers are still painful.....God damn it...
星期三要打針呀.....唉....聽日要返工啦...唉......

我個電話個msg box爆晒啦...
let me left all sms here la....
即使我好想save d msg係個電話到...sigh,,,sor ar~ really have to delete some lei.....send me new sms ar, baby~

究竟whose mobile is 90202344.....you left a lot of warm sms to me..but i am sorry that I really have no idea who you are....plz tell me.........

1) 致各好兄弟姊妹:祝願新的一年開始，全世界天災橫禍及不快之事從此消失。珍惜擁有的一切，開心快樂迎接新的一年! wan sir, 1-1-05, 19:10
2) 師父，新的一年更進步，更感主愛，為主作工 louis, 1-1-05, 11:09
3)"Happy new year!"Wish you all the best in 2005! :P Heidi :), Heidi, 1-1-05, 5:37
4) 10, 9, 8, 7, 6,5,4,3,2,1, 發射新年快樂! 90202344, 1-1-05, 2:31
5) Merry Christmas, Joe, 25-12-04, 20:06
6) To my dear pretties, Merry Xmas! Wish u all have good health, gd job & gd bf! :) best wishes, Jeannie, 15:04, 25-12-04
7)白痴仔, 聖誕快樂!, Hiu Ying, 25-12-04, 1:15
8)Merry Xmas! you know where I am?I am in the church!Listening to the Xmas songs is really a new experience! Eugene, 25-12-04, 1:09
9)Wish you a merry merry and sweet sweet christimas! And wish you a happy happy new year! Candy, 24-12-04, 23:06
10) 昨天我夢見上帝，他要我找十個長得像豬的人講"聖誕快樂"，不然我會變成大頭豬，以你的長相和我們的交情，你當然排第一，所以聖誕快樂! mimi，24-12-04, 21:14

11) Happy Birthday!! Wish u all the best- Colin & John, Colin, 28-10-04, 15:07
12)媚媚，生日快樂呀...祝你工作愉快! sum chai, 28-10-04, 13:46
13) Happy birthday to u! from chingho: :P Ching Ho, 28-10-04, 13:27
14) Happy birthday! Eugene, 28-10-04, 10:02
15)Happy birthday to u ...happy birthday to u...happy birthday to mei mei..happy birthday to you!!!
@(^.^)@, Fai, 28-10-04, 10:00
16) 老師早晨!Make a wish la. it must come true. My dearest lovely, I love you! :) 64241265 (Lun), 28-10-04, 9:56
17) 亞媚，祝願生日快樂，工作愈做愈舒服，愈開心，愈賺錢，愈靚女。總之就是心想事成! wan sir, 28-10-04, 9:52
18) Happy birthday to u ar! wish u always be happy la! Yeah~ Chiu, 28-10-04, 9:20
19) 師父，生日快樂! 靈命成長! louis, 28-10-04, 6:52
20) Happie birthday!! My lovely Mei Chai..lets have a nice dinner tmr,,,need to escape from work! Rennie, 28-10-04, 0:09
21) Happx birthday, enjoy it, Joe, 28-10-04, 0:03

>>January 2, 2005 at 6:34:32 PM GMT+8

2005 年 1 月 1 日 星期六 【晴】

rennie + B chai: 我地做到呀!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我今日做左人生第一次發左癲既事 = 游元旦冬泳!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
43年最cold既元旦，變態架 = 6度.......我問左好多個人，個個都估會我放棄，
sorry~令大家失望，我游畢全程，仲要冇俾電視影到，唔洗人救我，你話我勁唔勁。
好彩件nyc，真係救我一命，otherwise，我會死係淺水灣。
好多人都encourage我去試，多謝你地。

我好記得每個人同我講既野。
b仔話: 人生一定要豪一次，橫死"點"死，我地要無悔青春。
eugene話: 新一年要有新既開始，以前唔開心既野，就要好似jump落水個一下咁忘記晒佢，要have a new 2005。
老程話: 不論天氣多cold，我地都會係巴士站見。

我做到呀! 新一年要有新開始。今日真係好開心，有好多人陪我一起游水，crazy polymates~
rennie，b chai，老程，杜偉華，eugene，yau bun, Shun, new fai, carmen, candy, yan, eric, ho, arther, chow sir, .....we are CRAZY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
We also crazy ate 79 dim sum after swimming....madness.......

thanks for all ur Happy new Year sms~~~
i love you all ar~~
Heidi: WE made it!!!!!!!!!!!

>>January 2, 2005 at 5:55:47 PM GMT+8

2004 年 12 月 31 日 星期五 【晴】

Deep Cried this morning. Becoz of you.
You made something that is surprised me.....Never thought you made those.
I will not dig it out if I didnt get a msg.

In my heart, it is still painful....it is really a deep hurt of me.
Nobody knows how deep it is, and nobody knows how can be recovered.
I think it just represents our affection....really a deep affection, in my life.
Nobody can replace your position, it is truth.

我覺得很可惜，
因為我曾經以為你是我可以付託終身的人，
因為我曾經以為我們可以一生一世，
因為我曾經深深的愛過你。
一個7年前破了的鏡子，7年後你才發現，原來依舊不能重圓，真可悲。 7年，足足7年。
我們的故事就此劃上了一個句號，我曾經努力地挽留，可惜你堅決放手。你一點都沒有流淚的面孔，依然浮現在我的腦海中。

你令我成長了不少......
以前從未試過自己一個人返屋企，而家終於學識。
以前是一個每事問，而家唔再係。
以前人地話出黎做野同讀緊書既情侶會分手，我堅決唔信，但而家真係發生係我身上。

雖然內心好痛，但你令我學識一樣以前我唔識既野---
就係當你真心愛一個人既時候，你應該用說話同佢講，如果唔係，可能呢一世佢都唔會知，唔會感受到你究竟有幾愛佢。

我就係一個唔識表達我內心說話既人...唉。

如果時間可以返轉頭，我一定會待你更加好，我以前真係唔識得珍惜。可惜--宜家你已經唔再係以前o個個你。但...我對你.......無恨......

我喜歡heidi同我講既一句說話: you deserve to have a better one

>>December 31, 2004 at 11:44:14 AM GMT+8