2005 年 8 月 7 日 星期日 【晴】

有時候，真的不知道神想我點。

中五的時候，又差d入唔返自己學校讀中六，結果冒住大雨去四維搵學校，當時陪我的是 charmaine~~點知第二日又打電話話收返我。

中七既時候，又差少少，入唔到大學，結果去左poly HD。
係poly讀既時候，玩得好開心，又搏盡讀書，希望可以升degree year2，結果真係得左，全班40人得3個人升到，我係其中一個。

但最終，阿爸決定叫我去hku，佢話個名好d，前途會好d，到宜家，我都仲懷疑緊係唔係。
不過，我識到d好smart既人，亦都見識多左，呢個係事實。
3年degree裡面，又搏盡讀書同埋玩，希望可以升mphil，其實我覺得自己玩得好少，如果可以返轉頭，我會再搏盡玩多d，至少玩一種ball game。結果最終冇機會升mphil，令我即時喊左出黎，當時陪我既係ada~~~我反覆問左自己3次，究竟有first hon有乜用，3年努力為左乜?

之後為左前途，走左去ied讀pgde，發現自己實在不能忍受ied既教學水準(只係我自己，not others)，返左學一個月，就胡里胡塗報左份工，又得左，吹脹，結果係ive教左一年書，part-time照做，讀書照apply。

等左一年，終於可以返hku讀mphil，結果阿媽又話唔好留低。

究竟我既人生將來會點.....簡直係一個問號。
不過我諗，最重要都係唔好後悔自己做既決定，that is。

+++++++++++其實我真係好累...好想休息一下，我好想試下做雙失青年，可以嗎?+++++++++++++

>>August 7, 2005 at 12:26:35 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 6 日 星期六 【晴】

Yesterday, go to tutorial then rush to buy gift to Ada then rush to Sheung Wan then rush to Sandy Bay.
What a busy day!

Have fun during 6-7 as coach replaces joe and me to teach...so we can have fun swim with Gummo and Daniel...Really excited when meeting Daniel! Long time didnt see him! Keep on chatting w/ him~
Btw, my daughter crys today! Coach is really sucks! Always makes kids CRY!!!! Joe and me immediately recover her...sigh....Let me bring her to go out to play next week.

Finally meet Rennie...We hve dinner with Daniel together. Originally Ada comes but finally she doesnt!
Btw, nice dinner~~~~~~~
So wonder when Daniel says: 到我做到housement既時候，就會有大把護士湧埋lei~
原來Daniel都Joe一樣...都係唔洗溝女，係等d女湧埋lei。
++++++++++++++++++++++++++Oh My God+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

>>August 6, 2005 at 12:11:50 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 6 日 星期六 【晴】

Suddenly memorize a song I like before.

親朋勿友

我與他重拾友誼　相約也沒有不是
相信她　可惜不敢相信　感情已終止
這樣難得再見面　你未愛他別晚膳
我若還不癲　他朝還是會癲

＊為何不跟他走　等我說分手
　會你親朋蜜友　就算盲都可看到
　他跟你極好　我怎可比你好
　試問誰拆散你　自問我可　跟他不見面
　但是每夜有手機留言
　未被我撞破　都不願收線＊

我與他純屬友誼　心癢昨日已根治
不愛他　冬天手執冰棒　一人吃一枝
會別離總會別離　也別要全沒顧忌
要是還不死心　心還是會死

REPEAT＊

還我半點清白　戀愛運經已黑
如當我好朋友　可會為我收手

REPEAT＊

見他不算做錯事　怎會破壞你好事
不愛他　怎麼偏偏感到　咀唇也羞恥
你若和他已別離　我又為何在妒忌
既是如此知己　他人沒法比　不阻住你

>>August 6, 2005 at 1:15:09 AM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 4 日 星期四 【晴】

Thousands Sorry to Gummo as I didnt tell him I have another offer instead of HKU.
Btw, I got a call from hysan today...interview for hall tutor tmr night...omg~

After teaching in Sandy Bay, rush to home, wanna sleep on bus but cant do it finally as keep on phoning. Then go home...wanna have nap...but my mum rings me and requests me to go MK again....OMG...I just come back from MK...then soon go again....to go bank and do the currency exchange.

Attend Science Museum Docent night afterward. Finally got 5-years service award. It's not easy to get but finally get it. My next step is 10-years service award...I think I cant do it.

Heidi: Thanks for your phone card first. Plz help for lending me sth.

++++++++++++++++++actually, who will read my diary?+++++God knows++++++++++++++++++++++++

>>August 4, 2005 at 11:09:58 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 3 日 星期三 【晴】

Wake and then send resignation letter..my Vice HoD replied within 10 mins.
then go beach with Colin and honglu...have fun...see a lot of gays.....crazy..
then teach swimming......still the same......

+++this morning...sent a lot of email (Dr. Whitby, Prof Chris, Fred, and Dr. Alison+ Got a lot of reply++++

Kiano,

Thanks for letting me know your decision. Ironically, I should have
been attending a sports science conference in Loughborough from 4-7
September but decided to go to Canada instead.

Anyway, it should be a very positive experience for you and I'm sure
you won't regret your decision. Keep in touch.

Kind regards,
Dennis Whitby

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Dear Kiano

I think this is a great decision and you will learn a lot from the Dept
in Loughborough ..... also enjoy the sporting facilities - they are
amazing!!!

Best of luck for the year,

alison

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Hi Kiano

Nice to hear from you. Great news about your decision.

Life should be lived as an adventure so make the most of it. I'm sure you will derive long term benefits from the UK experience.

Things going well here - very busy but also very rewarding. Please say hi to the SSLM HKU crew.

cheers

Chris

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Congratulations Kiano, I am sure it is the right decision although it is expensive and will be hard work. We will have to have an IHP/HKU reunion what with Winnie and Ding Dong being here. Not sure if Zoe will be back to do her dissertation - she might be offered a job in the next day or two.

Take care, see you soon. Love fred

>>August 4, 2005 at 1:16:52 AM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 2 日 星期二 【晴】

Finally told some people I am leaving soon.
Most people are shocked.
Btw, all people replied in the same way--"A crying icon + call me not go + they must miss me."
So touching...wanna cry...plz dont come to airport..I must deep cry...hate it...so embarrassed.

My mum fully supports me...very touching...
the feeling is the SAME as I was in F.5...the day which released the HKCEE..AUG again!
I never forget the msg she sent to my pager in my whole life! Cry everytime when think about that.
Actually sometimes even my mum is suck...she is still a nice one...it is difficult to explain this kind of love...the only love that never break in the life! That is why family is the most important thing in my life.

Chatted with JoJo for a long time...talked a lot about ex-bf's event...it is nearly a year.....
actually jojo's case is nearly the same as me...honestly, I cant be optimistics for her case this time....
God bless you~btw,
如果兩個人個心都已經唔係對方到...咁真係冇得返轉頭...
如果兩個人溝通係有問題，咁點解決都係解決唔黎...no solution actually~
如果兩個人相處係唔夾...咁你想點挽救都係冇乜用...
JoJo: 要記住，如果為左責任or感情(not愛情)而挽留兩個人既關係...到頭來..大家都會唔開心。 find a new Mr. Right la!

So many people worry about my affection.....I will add oil to out pool~~~
Btw, I know all people have same goal--find a rich guy/ gal to marry~~~~~~~hehe~~~

ps...the 1st time I learnt the term "入屋" these days...

>>August 2, 2005 at 8:10:36 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 1 日 星期一 【晴】

Sounds like everything going fast suddenly after the decision is made by my mum.
1) booked air ticket
2) applied passport
3) selected the hall and faxed the accommodation form
4) asked the bank account, visa, and living stuff.

seems like leaving soon....crazy......
it makes me think about the days my brother went to Europe...
Sunday night made decision to go, then Monday morning bought air ticket, then left on Tue afternoon.....really the same......

----how come my mum can do those stuff so effectively and efficiently?
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++What a superwoman++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

JoJo: Pray for you. good luck~

>>August 2, 2005 at 1:56:13 AM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 31 日 星期日 【溫暖】

My mum talked with me for a very long while this morning.
She still keep on encouraging me to leave rather than stay.
Btw, these days, when I go Sandy Bay, I meet coach, I really dont have anything to talk with him...seems have distance.....feel uncomfortable....cant predict how the coming 2 years will be...
Btw, this is not the major reason, rite?!

My mum made the decision for me.
1 year, new experience.
I think I will follow her idea.

>>July 31, 2005 at 12:10:14 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 30 日 星期六 【晴】

被塊階磚界到隻腳，好耐都未試過流血不止，頂。
即時冇晒心機。



Joe: Happy b-day~~~
Honglu: Let me see whether we can meet tmr night or not.

>>July 30, 2005 at 9:42:55 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 29 日 星期五 【乍寒還暖】

At Wei Lun now....somebody is sleeping while i am playing computer.
Bought a b-day cake for Joe...I know he is not very happy about current situations...
Hope he got better after eating the cake and got his gift.

Nice weather in Sandy bay this morning...not too hot...no sunshine...a bit windy...
The best thing is nobody swims beside of my kids.....
I love here...Nice....so nice~~~~~

Honglu: Add oil for today~~~~miss you a lot....
On: thanks for your sms

>>July 29, 2005 at 2:30:24 PM GMT+8