2009 年 1 月 11 日 星期日 【晴】

the kids' exam finally comes...it's tomorrow!
now it's time for us to have a rest.

其實大家都知道exam 要來
近幾天都有學生lunch or after school 驚驚青青的探頭進來library 的內閣

i was zZ..i felt sick today.
cuz yesterday I did my work till 4xxam.
and woke at 615.
i just slept abt 2 hrs.

其實我覺得有點爛尾
cuz my supporting teacher took away all the last several lessons from me
so I didn't have chance to see them anymore or take some pics with them.
it's the same situation with 欣欣..her kids also have exams now.

...so my kids came to visit me today while I was zZ on the table during lunch hr
so I got up and chat with them.

Thursday there were 4 girls, so sorry i still couldn't remember their names.
Friday was wai lok.
they're all f.3
today was a boy and a girl, also f.3
just a free chat..
and I could feel they love me

they complained abt how bad my supporting teacher was
but of course i dont want to compare or 搞分化.
cuz I respect her.

and then we chatted abt their choice of subjects..
the route they're gonna take for their 3-3-4 curriculum.

and they asked if I would stay in this school
然後我就火都黎埋說:我差點被你們那班f.4 整死.
如果我failed, 別說做老師,
我要即刻留班!
你f.4 那班衰野

其實我喜歡教大個d 的學生.
i dont like teaching f.1 f.2
f.1 f.2 are still like primary kids, they look very little
sometimes I really wanna explore some deeper issues with them.
it can be abt their future
it can be abt society
it can be everything that they feel comfortable to talk to
and I think teenagers like them at around 14,15 yrs old can understand the discussion
and I believe after all they will go home and think about the issues.

although my classes are also like babies....
in certain aspects they are becoming more mature, this is a very crucial time.
thus building up positive intrinsic values can help them to be stronger, and to face different challenges.
I love to be with them for their personal growth.

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super exhausted,
gdnight.

I felt very sweet today:)

>>January 12, 2009 at 4:03:31 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 10 日 星期六 【乍雨乍晴】

今天是我的農曆生日 :)
when i was still zZ in the morning Dad said go out to have dinner tonight...

不過咁鬼凍..
讓我做功課好過..我都不想出去.
listening and speaking 又改了deadline to 12th
so 我一直沒有心機做....
拖拖拖.

那麼...如果計農曆..
我都應該25 歲了吧?
今年的月亮特別圓大!

mum cooked me my favourite yellow oil chicken.
fresh chicken is always tasted better than the frozen one. :p

聽說今年水瓶座的人是2009 the best
可惜西曆生日後我又犯太歲.
so, if all these are true and influential.
that means, from now on till till 24th Jan is my best time.
maybe tonight and tomorrow are still bad cuz i'm rushing for hw.
but after all, I can sleep.
cuz i feel like i'm gonna sick if i still keep on this poor lifestyle
stay up late..and over-work

everybody's sick.
maybe due to pressure and also the bad weather.
and I have to wake up at 6:15 tmr morning.
so I need to be careful, too.
學校很冷,maybe 在mid-hill 位置, 很食風
行上斜最吃力, 被風吹乾個人....趕時間的時候或許臉也歪,kaka.
limbs are frozen...usually feel much better after lunch
所以我每天回到學校都要裝滿滾水當暖水袋

我穿中長coat 在pc lab也不夠
但library 室內穿太多太焗又會想嘔
我想我需要件再長一點的大褸
這裡沒有很多人穿羽絨..奇怪.

>>January 11, 2009 at 3:29:45 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 9 日 星期五 【晴】

lunch 飲茶,然後買了件3
其實我本來不打算買3
因為有很多3.....
但是我想洗錢....買甚麼都可以
總之就是要把銀包裡的錢花掉.
我已經很久沒有行街購物....除了放學後匆匆忙忙買禮物給kids 之外
都沒有shop for myself!!
尤其是今年聖誕竟然困在功課堆中非常無奈.

今晚dinner 突然覺得失望
因為是我最不喜歡的火鍋
甚麼丸甚麼丸..
真的開始覺得反感

所以今晚吃比較少
現在又餓了起來

次次吃火鍋我都有血壓上升的感覺.....
香港人特別喜歡打邊爐
我其實從來未試過係出面打邊爐..
maybe 出面better..i dont know.
講真一出街, 我情願食個M記都好過打邊爐.
而且我不太喜歡食中菜...
單是進入中式餐館那刻個mood 都已經大減
不知道是甚麼原因..總之食完中菜很多時候都會覺得有點不舒服.
覺得心口透不過氣來...
他們說是味精中毒
但西餐沒有味精嗎?
i dont know.

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我竟然夠膽還未繼續my assignment ...tmr dead.
真的很沒有mood 做
連人地都已經問點解你地IEd 咁多hw ga..................

無辦法la...這裡龍蛇混雜,甚麼人也有,連栗子頭這類人都可以有的....
總要有些嚴格一點的制度去管束他們

原來,最近才知道栗子頭面試了兩年想入IEd都被拒絕.
面試的lecturer 說一定不可以收他.
呵! 當初我跟他說話後我都覺得怎會有這種人做老師?!
........其實真的不是個個人都適合做老師.

有些人是不適合就是不適合.
就算讓你修讀到教育課程,
也不代表他們會找到工作.
我不知道那些lecturer IN 人的準則
但是有些人確實不適合做老師
只要說一說話便能知道

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[拉椅]

有個人,普普通通,沒有甚麼感覺
不過有一天我用的東西發生了問題
正巧他經過替我看看究竟是甚麼事
我站起來把椅子讓他坐.
但他沒有坐下
反而替我拉椅子
然後說請坐丫
就是這樣令我突然對他的印象加了30分.

其實這種感覺真的很奇妙.
對上一次有人替我拉椅已經是6年前
也是同樣地使我對那人有很好的感觀
我也覺得自己很奇怪....
就像是一種"拉椅"情意結
不是普通的,隨便的拉拉或移動椅子,
而是小心翼翼的態度直到我真的坐好為止
那個時候我會覺得自己好像是公主一樣被捧
我從來都沒有這種感覺.
但在這舉動下感覺來得特別強烈...覺得自己好像女皇一樣.

雖然偶爾悸動一下
不過我還是很理智.

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口腔受罪
不停咬傷左面的肉
真怕遲早會咬掉一塊肉.

飲茶又放了太熱的蝦餃入口熱親.

而且上次看完牙之後便一直覺得d 牙好似差了
the pk dentist.
或了幾千蚊俾個pk 搞衰了d 牙.

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發覺銀包舊了,我好開心.

我想買個LV銀包...
其實有陣時我都覺得自己很老套..
我喜歡的taste 像是一個30歲女人所喜歡的taste.....
就算今日買的3也是有點成熟...
很小的時候我便不穿卡通tee.
甚至今日我想從衣櫃裡找一件運動tee 也有困難....
因為全部都是斯文3.
我希望自己可以快點成長
我善羨女人30.
幾年前corn 說過她的朋友告訴的一個女人最好的時間是30歲....
說了很多原因.....
現在我都一一認同
而且我很期待成為一個時尚,獨立的30歲女人
小時候我想快點18
現在我想快點28.


其實我記起一個女人,她3x.
她的lv wallet 跟她很合襯
一點也不俗氣
我覺得她很時尚獨立...
所以我突然都想買個lv.
但最好笑的是我經常對人說:
"俾你買到個名牌銀包後,
我想你都不再需要銀包."

或者我等到我番工先買囉,呵呵.
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ok, need to do hw now.

>>January 10, 2009 at 5:33:03 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 8 日 星期四 【晴】

didn't do well on 8th. got a pass.

quite risky actually cuz the class didn't respond.

i think this is my problem.
i think i used a wrong place.
wrong estimation and expectation

but i'm fine.cuz i got pass anyway and that means i'm safe.
heard some ppl failed before so made me quite nervous.
now i feel better
and dont want to think anything else.

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11th hw deadline.
dont want to do anything at this moment.

this week is so exhausting.
i need to sleep.

今天在學校裡又missed 了supporting teacher 的call.
經常她找我都找不到.
不是她是否生氣呢?
不過我說我甚少打電話...
所以真是很sorry.

我很怕電話聲音, 對我來說它是一種滋擾
我的生活裡每天都有很多聲音
而且我也要製造很作聲音...teach, scold, communicate..etc.
故此放學後我都比較靜不太想說話.

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她說本來想替我慶祝生日但智慧齒要做手術 on 23th
到時候面部會腫起來不能出街
我說我生日是chinese new yr's eve. 人人要吃團年,你也要.
她說或者24th,不過怕面腫
我笑說好多謝你 :D
不過你不用勉強,而且我打算好好的訓和休息呢.

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這幾天我沒有上課因為supporting teacher needed to do exercises with them.
沒有見面幾天他們開始走來問我為何不上課 :)

因為他們說supporting teacher 一上課便邊罵邊上.
我笑說:不罵你們根本不能上課..而且快要考試..不要再玩了.
然後本來我是打算走的
但他們叫我替他們補習
所以我便留下來
反正都沒有太多東西做.
怎料他們又乘機問我私人野.
他們真的是欠罵..唉

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pc problems. possibly hackers.
that's enough

i always meet ppl like this...
there's sth wrong with their brains.
so they dont do normal things...
but hacking ppl's pc is illegal.

i need to take rest.
gdnight

>>January 9, 2009 at 5:15:39 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 6 日 星期二 【晴】

太缺乏睡眠覺得病病地.....
不知道是否空氣不流通今日在學校有點頭暈.

also, zZ in library.
the bitch and the sicky guy were around.
and when I woke up, she said gd morning wor.
擺明有骨
空堂我睡你管我!
好過你們遲到!...of course 你們睡飽飽然後遲到,我天未光就要get up.

我備好了課,我自己要做甚麼事情也不用向你交代
你認為你自己是誰.

學校裡面都沒有甚麼人特別去管我,
我的老師連pillow 都帶來學校
一累便拿出來睡,好搞笑
所以這是我認為這間學校最好的一個特點.
老師在空堂可以彈性工作
我真的不明, 你跟我也是咁高咁"大",
你憑甚麼管我

u're just older than me, not greater than me.
成間學校都無問題,
剩係你兩個有問題!

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明天supervisor 來....上次f.3就很不錯
但今次真係無mud confidence...
cuz f.4 this class is v. naughty and noisy..Eng level is too low.
I'm afraid I can't handle this effectively

一定要pass..
if not I have to take Yr 5.
crazy.

只要過埋這關最後一年的實習便end up.
我真不想衰在他們手上

這個禮拜真的很exhausting.
幸好我的老師替我拿走了很多節課減輕我的負擔
otherwise I'm gonna faint.

還有就是我常常missed 了她的call...
真不好意思
剛才又發現missed 了她的call...@10:2x pm.
我arm arm 掛著燙條裙(我極度少ironing..so I iron it for v. long time...)
sigh..hope it 's not sth urgent.
made me really tense and nervous.

總之成個人暫時性好大壓力...i feel bad abt this.
i hope it will pass soon.

明天要記得買sandwich 番學,otherwise no lunch..
cuz supervisor comes at 5th lesson which is before lunch.
and we'll have discussion on my performance during lunch hr
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聽日真擔心教得唔好!

>>January 7, 2009 at 4:32:58 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 4 日 星期日 【晴】

suddenly received email from class representative
deadline is changed to 11th.

so lucky!

i almost jumped up in the pc lab when i saw that.
great.

very tired..today I can stop one day and take rest early.
how lovely! :D
zZ~

>>January 5, 2009 at 3:59:49 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 3 日 星期六 【晴】

no mood to do hw.... :(
cuz 4000 words.....
really no mood.

if say 1000 words then it's okay.

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[全力支持妳]

突然, 有人發現了她的Mr. Right,

以前聽過他們的故事,他對她其實真的不錯.
還記得連買甚麼生日禮物都走來問我
我教他買一條鏈,
讓她掛著你(的鏈)
我當時還對他笑說有人有福氣了..

來到今天,
太多變遷..

真誠的男仔真是可遇不可求..
他曾經對妳這麼好,
妳若再遇見,
我信是有緣
我想幫妳!
全力支持妳!

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明天又實習...
跟supporting teacher 通了電話
thanks to her a lot.
明天她會拿走我一節課
...so i'll just have two lessons, one f.3 one f.4
then I can do my Thursday lesson plan in the staff pc lab.

幸好我冬天3比較多...
勉強還可以應付這段日子...
sometimes wear dress
sometimes wear trousers.
sometimes wear one-piece dress.......
...
他們根本不知道我TP 是沒有錢收
常常叫我買東西給他們.
當F.4知道我沒有錢收的時候
他們很大反應 :O
說了很多話: "一d 錢都無?" "那妳沒有車費津貼?" "妳沒有飯錢津貼?"
我說沒有. 我本來都想說埋你估實習真係咁開心...不過算了
女同學說那你點食飯?
我笑了出來..."我就算到那裡我也要食飯ga la...."
問得好白癡但確實不失可愛.
但我明白到他們大多來自手停口停的家庭背景,所以突然明白他們為甚麼會問這種問題
因為我見他們靜了兩秒,眼神帶點同情.
課室突然靜了搞到我不知道怎樣的..
然後便開始鬧學校
所以我心裡其實好錫他們

我最後開個玩笑打完場說我邊似你o地這裡一個vivien westwood 銀包
那裡一個G字頭的名牌子書包
你們這麼富貴!!
然後他們陰陰嘴笑唔知道開心甚麼.

明天我又會見到他們...hope tmr they are not so noisy and naughty!
cuz exam is coming.
they dont know they are v. likely to be kicked out..
i feel sad abt this.

>>January 4, 2009 at 3:37:05 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 2 日 星期五 【晴】

v.tired ..lying on bed
cuz i've just drafted the titles & framework of the 4000 listening & speaking paper
that means not even started anything
yesterday i did lot of things....
from morning i prepared my research lesson to collect data
Karen's sister Sheila gave me a GREAT idea of the film I should use.
Home Alone (1990) is one of my favourite movies but I really cannot remember it!
Thx to her Great help! otherwise i'll really be in trouble for this research!

after lunch I prepared 3 lessons for next monday
and then after school I went up to the pc lab and type out the film script from the movie I watched.
and then rushed to the town centre of IEd @ Olympics station to borrow bks
then back to home for dinner
and then bath.....
and then eat some snack
and then sleep....v. exhausted.

yesterday 對足栗子頭整個下午.....fxxk
佢越坐越過來
我真係覺得佢好討厭
但奈何我要備課

我們現在是零交流
但他現在連我的space 也要侵佔;
放一個大大的厚厚的A4
然後走近來站我旁邊找東找西.....
總之我覺得佢好咸濕佬
張table 好長好長的
但我不明白為何我們要3個人逼埋在1/3 的table 部分
明明本來他是坐two third 那部分
我已經之前moved 過,遠離了他
現在佢又搬過來..excused 說電腦要差電
我們3個人好像三國鼎立一樣...the bitch is opposite to me. and then the pk is sitting at 90 degree alongside to us.
我覺得好offensed...cuz he moved into my personal space again

上一次,X'mas 前, 我故意用亞視王 維 基性騷擾 亞姐一事在他面前勁鬧王 維 基性騷擾的不是
我見到他的樣子是嚇一跳,而且驚驚青青樣衰衰
他根本知道自己也做過這種事以為我不會意識到!
shitty damn guy.

還有他那部shitty mac book.....總要故意讓我去notice he has a mac bk.
那個眼神就是檢察我究竟看了他的電腦沒有..似乎如果我還沒有看到的話他準備會站起來讓我看清楚那是部apple mac bk!
我知道了,你有部mac bk 嘛..萬多元ar 嘛...跟電視劇集裡那部一樣嘛..最新最潮性能最好的嘛..
我都聽到了..雖然我戴了耳筒聽歌你不用說得那麼大聲..this is library..u're so noisy
你真係好x 煩.
是不是我要說聲:嘩你好巴bi 呀你才滿意呢?

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[電腦鬼]

其實他不知道我最愛mini size 東西...電腦也是...真不好意思..
你每天帶部電腦回來...大到我都覺得你好白癡.
但你自己還是不知道自己真的很白癡.

現在我家裡又多了部電腦
IEd 真的很好, 每人借部brand new新訂來的電腦,而且裝了ms word 07 (雖然我都有)
但看見IEd 是很considerate
我跟同學們都拿了..本來打算實習用.
現在the two pks are here,所以我沒有戴...
直頭說我沒有借..才能離開圖書館去staff pc lab
這部Lenovo S 10 (white)好細小好cute!!!!!!!!!!
actually the Institute had released announcement this summer.
but I didn't book it until I discovered many of my classmates got this
so I also book wait..but of course I had to wait because I'm the late comer.
This pc is on loan until we graduate.
so the Yr 1 students 有福了
不過, this pc 有點化學....
but I really love it cuz it's so cute god.

以前corn 說she thinks notebk is no gd..worse than desktop.
不過我喜歡notebook 多點
esp. I can take it everywhere....sometimes sofa..sometimes on my bed.
所以將來我的家裡可能不再又desktop.
我討厭desktop.
因為前晚我1am sleep.
把desktop off 了一會兒
然後它在我睡了20 mins 後突然著了
搞到我好驚...the next day 精神不足
我覺得好似有鬼.....
我最怕"電腦鬼",
不受控制的出聲,popup, automatically switch on ,etc..all these things make me really nervous.
so I like notebook.. just close the cover then that's it!
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this Xmas 本來我想看 Twilight........
我最喜歡看吸血殭屍......handsome, wise, has special power. usually it's a v. brilliant man.
每個人都有個嚮往的幻想的愛情故事
而我看過Dracula之後便深深愛上這個故事
非常浪漫詭異
但這個我就不知道好不好看

另外就是梅蘭芳. 不過Winky 說我咁悶的片都想看哈哈 :D
其實我不知道悶不悶..我只是對他這個人的故事有興趣.
沒有時間不緊要, 遲些宮崎駿的<崖上的波兒>一出也是must watch movie.
因為我好像沒有一套宮崎駿的是沒有看過的
他的片實在很有保證!

ok, i wanna take a nap.

>>January 3, 2009 at 9:21:17 AM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 2 日 星期五 【晴】

very cold today. I wore a thick coat to sch cuz it's quite windy at school.
very tired too.....

did lot of things today.
also borrowed books from the library...

I'm at the harshest period now.
next Thur is 2nd visit.
this time will be bad cuz he comes to see my S.4 class god.

and also my 3xxx words listening & speaking paper 9th Jan deadline
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i dont like ppl using excuses for their faults.
Excuse is a very bad thing.
cuz it gives another chance for ppl to make the same mistake.

and never grow up.
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i think i need to sleep....eyes are closing.

>>January 2, 2009 at 5:13:12 PM GMT+8

2009 年 1 月 1 日 星期四 【晴】

sigh..after ..not more than 6 hrs 又要實習..
我心裡面想最近做得咁辛苦真想快點番工...
做到隻牛咁...總想有點reward or compensation...
當別人在說番工好辛苦的時候,我就成日都同d打工仔講..當你月底看到紅簿仔多了條數,呵,點都有點安慰吧?你咪當替人消災
但好像我....不斷借書抬書,兩手都起枕了,還要為借不到書而覺得苦惱....是不是很賤?
然後通宵2,3天然後嘔份野出來.....也不等於有甚麼回報...maybe 打回頭的可能是個C grade.
那個時候我便會想......"早知唔借書就咁吹算了"
讀書和番工都是辛苦的話...我就好想快點番工...唉.
我有時候會想點解我要讀咁耐書呢?
自己又不是甚麼大成就的人......點解咁辛苦?


今年我最大的goal 便是找份工....
其實我已經當yr 4為我的career preparation yr.
就算yr 4 讀的書也是very practical ...like counselling which is quite useful and made me feel gd.
2009年我的幸福...就全靠您了!
這個市景都不敢說找份好工...
但求有份工...
我期待了好耐好耐的了.....
這年終於來臨了!
距離還有半年左右...
心情興奮又緊張.....
因為我真的好想好想番工....不想再受以往的.....
雖然別人未必能夠體會我這種深深的渴望
但如果我找到工作..腦海裡便能閃出"幸福"這兩個字,因為
您就是我的幸福!
您就是我的幸福!
您就是我的幸福!!!!!!!!

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明天做research , i hope everything will be smooth
my supporting teacher phoned me at night
thanks to her support.
cuz she's gonna be there with me tomorrow.
I have to collect all the language data from the kids.
so if she's there the kids will surely do better because they dare not to be naughty :p

還有..近年我的近視或者散光應該深了很多.可能我沒有戴眼睛
因為現在我要將Internet Explorer 放大到150%才能看清楚自己打的字
maybe i type English is easier...no need to stare at it.
我有個f.4 學生her glasses is so BIG
I would like to have one too
it's plastic black frame.
戴上去像小魔怪but i feel gd abt it. cuz it's Very Very BIG
so i can see everything v. clear
I hope to buy a pair of glasses like this so that I can wear it at home
and also i want to have a pair of contact lens..but i dare not put them on yet.
i'll think abt it later,
sleep, gdnight.

>>January 1, 2009 at 5:08:19 PM GMT+8