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菲律賓的事...
just explained things are always out of control.
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let's call it a night.
>>August 29, 2010 at 2:49:08 PM GMT+8
2010 年 8 月 20 日 星期五 【晴】
I'm back
with lots of things experienced
some are gd
some are bad
it's a kind of self-learning
I thought I was quite well prepared for my EQ
but ppl always love striking on that.
then I just wonder if my life is always tested like this...with lots of accidents.
If the ppl I encountered were more mature, and not that silly,
willing to give the first step,
I guess it would be better.
maybe it's my fault that i never show my bottom line.
till it breaks.
I always keep silent
cuz I thought ppl would finally stop.
but I'm all wrong,
cuz this condition is just like an abuse.
the more u tolerate,
the more u receive.
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eveything's so stuffy for me.
no improvement
no change
and when will things get better
I always say I need a breakthrough
但說來說去都只是一個困局
just like walking in the mist
現在走甚麼路都是行不通
但我沒想過有時我是永遠沒法讓事情A發生....
難道我就不可以做B?
things sometimes dont go perfectly..
這個暑假我有了不同的看法.
there's no absolute result.
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[switch]
最近的遭遇
is too confusing
就像一個按鈕
一邊off
一邊on
也不知道是好還是不好
and dont know what all these mean
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just wanna feel more stable with things around
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表哥send 來的facebook request :D
I miss him!
可惜我不用facebook
sometimes ppl even doubt if I cheat them that I dont have one
many ppl use facebook nowadays
it seems i'm quite outdated
students, colleagues, fds, oh now even relatives!
I've struggled a bit whenever ppl persuade me to join
one of the reasons that I dont use fb
is that I'm sure my fb, if I had, would probably give a wrong image to ppl abt me.
it's better for fds around to feel me face-to-face.
rather than by lots of other clicks clicks clicks.
well, let's see.
nth's promising.
>>July 21, 2010 at 7:05:43 PM GMT+8
2010 年 7 月 19 日 星期一 【晴】
[free me then]
在我發覺別人自私的同時
發覺到自己原來是這麼的不自愛
近年改善了,開始關注自己身心
很久以前常說潔身自愛
然後幾年後其實都不太自愛
cuz I freed myself too much.
but was heavily chained in another way
stayed up for many nights
and it makes me weak
或者我後悔
生活每每都是想著別人的每一件事
just I cared indeed
but not for mine
and now if I live for myself again,
the question comes.. will it appear like I'm v. selfish.
ha, again
hopeless selfless character..
I can't accept me
but I can't accept u either
for your hopeless selfish character.
I think..
we wont be fd anymore.
tired to say bye
plz dont contact me.
u just dont see how terribe u're in my mind
>>July 20, 2010 at 2:05:19 PM GMT+8
2010 年 7 月 17 日 星期六 【晴】
[future]
I've planned a bit
but sometimes...
lots of things are out of expectation.
it's not what you want
it's not what you plan
that's the distinctive characteristics of my life.
not v. controllable
so I jealous ppl who is often certain and stable
I dont understand y.
but it always turns as an accident.
and ends unhappily
for whatever things planned
VIP asked: what's your plan
the question becomes my pressure.
cuz my plan is not the plan you want for sure.
and seems like I have to reprioritize things again
change my plan again
since then,
it takes longer to finish the route.
I feel harsh.
y is it so harsh
I dont know y
i wanna know y
sometimes I wanna trace back
to find out the truth
but at this moment,
it doesn't matter anymore.
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disappointingly
3 out of 30 fishes died in one morning.
so I changed water immediately for them
and then I saw their bodies glow beautifully.
if now I go to sleep again
will I see dead body again when the sun rises
if I dont wanna be neglected,
then you'll be remembered.
I wonder if anyone would understand.
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ironically I can finally get some rest on Sunday.
finished the idiot course
and videotaped by idiots
and finally I have become an idiot as well
I guess my publicity is gonna increase
a nut was forced to do some dummy things
it's sick to call an aquarian a nut,
what am I doing god.
why do I become a nut.
Tue go back and meet my new dear children
I start to think if I'm born to be a mother.
>>July 18, 2010 at 7:18:23 PM GMT+8
2010 年 7 月 16 日 星期五 【晴】
I keep fish
Yesterday bought 紅蓮燈x30 after work
I like them
I found them on fish street after work
these days i had to attend course there
and always see them
so I decided to keep them in this summer
hope they won't die so early
though I tend to abuse animals :p
the previous time I kept fish was p3
a boy gave me a fish and put that in a bottle
but it died v soon when I returned home
I bought it red worms
but it didn't eat any
I could feel it was v unhappy when it died
so it's kinda sad
so this time I don't want my fish die too early
cuz I really decide to keep them
instead of driven by curiosity
They are quite active at the moment
>>July 17, 2010 at 1:12:39 PM GMT+8
2010 年 7 月 16 日 星期五 【晴】
shopped after lesson
2 days ago after lesson I bought a silver chained bracelet :)
I like it v. much.
and a bag, but a bit regreted..
anyway..
and the pair of shoes that I liked.....ah..faulty. didn't buy it at last.
bad.
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and I saw a 波兒 doll
and remember a long ago thing.
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if I spend almost 10k
for just a 15 min toilet time meeting.
[勉強]
[意想不到]
差不多一年了
打風都要番工.......
I keep fish
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