2003 年 12 月 18 日 星期四 【乍雨乍晴】

今日開始轉冷... 又真係唔係野少... 各位朋友要小心身體, 如果唔係d 咩fyp, fieldtrip, exam 都搞得唔好架啦...

一早十點幾返左222做3023paper... 仲有三幾版, 希望可以早d做完.... 都係五點正先做好... 其間同wellcome & gaia 食飯, 仲遇到一眾要present fyp proposal既同學. 今晚去左city開foe既會, 本來好驚要打持久戰, 好在都唔使, 八點就over左~ 好啦... 以為返到屋企可以relax下... 一check email... shit!!!

係steve既email... 都有幾k, 唔係少野wor... 本來都想頹睇, 因為聽日考ielts我一d都無prepare, 我真係唔想再做d無聊野...我已經仲要contact d 學生, 咁多野做又唔想refuse人地既要求... 講真人地叫得我做就即係認同我, 可能畀人使到盡一, 但.... 唉.... 講返steve既email... 如果唔係重要我都唔打出黎... 佢話好開心我收到佢既聖誕熊同後來既聖誕卡, 本來佢已經買左機票想畀個surprise我 (講真我真係同佢無野, 因為我同佢上網時間好夾, 所以有咩大家都會share下)... 我2000年認識佢, 佢都講話會返下香港, 但咁耐我地都無見過面, 我有咩所謂~ 宜家死都無時間, 但我都講過, 佢圈子好細, 同我傾計已經係佢人生好大樂趣, 我以前都有時間同佢share下, 但呢幾個月真係好唔得... 就係咁佢好耐都無人同佢share... 佢屋企有d問題, 其他姐弟又幫唔到手, 所以佢唔可以就咁黎香港, 要cancel張機票... 最可悲既係佢父母係因為兩個都對人太好而嘈.... 咁好可惜呀~~
咁我無理由唔comfort佢呀嘛... 無理由話"我宜家個 target 話我根本唔應該要你d野呀~死開啦" 咁呀... 好矛盾呀~~~ 我好喜歡我既 target, 但"和而不同"唔得咩?! 佢覺得自己既野係重要, 未必理到周圍既事, 但我覺得關心身邊既人係好重要, 因為我好似係我與生俱來既使命... 咁當然我特別想佢開心,想佢好啦~~~

呀~ 又一城既聖誕樹好大好靚呀~~~ 有好多奧地利水晶作裝飾~~~ 好閃呀~~~ 如果可以同人地去影相就好啦~~~

仲有件事值得感恩!! o係我好努力打字& icq緊既時候, 有個學生打黎覆我d #, 之後佢仲幫我搵埋佢同級既同學仔, 就係因為我一句美麗的謊言... "我畀人小片呀..." 跟住就幫我手搵左好多人....真係好感動!!! 所以話我個 theory都係"甯J... 你對人好, 人對你好...

>>December 19, 2003 at 3:31:17 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 18 日 星期四 【颳風】

***張家輝關詠荷澳洲結婚甜蜜抵港***
我地等呢個喜訊都好耐啦~~~~ yeah!!!!!

>>December 18, 2003 at 5:05:43 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 17 日 星期三 【晴】

HAHAHAHA~ 連gaia都有留言... 我實在感動之餘有d受寵若驚... 好多謝你地呀~ 我會好努力架啦! 不過最重要係我唔想畀壓力佢, 如果佢唔鍾意我又咁多人知道, 我落台容乜易, 要佢難堪就唔好啦... 因此我唔刻意care佢都好正常... 我d魚餌唔係個個都 like, 佢唔 like我都無計~ hahaha!

今日第一件事plug左歌先: 因為係佢尋晚救左我 ^^

Sophie Ellis Bextor - Mixed Up World

I'm feeling all messed up
I have a voice inside my head it says turn to the left then it says turn to the right
Don't want to bring you down
But I am really needing guidance now
What would you do within my shoes
(don't cry) I'm going crazy
(stay high) I've never felt so low
(don't hide) I want to turn and run
we've got to find a place to go

so when you're feeling kind of mixed up
just remember it's a mixed up world
and when you're feeing life is just too tough
just remember you're a real tough girl

I look around my life
And all I see is contradiction and a lack of faith
Cynicism rules the day
I know it has its place
But I am really needing guidance now
Reminding me I'm strong inside

(don't cry) I know you love me
(stay high) and we'll make it through this time
(don't hide) I want to feel the sun
we've got to start to take control

(why) do I feel this pain
(why) has this world gone insane

今日plan左怒做paper, 聽一交啦~ 我連圖&ref. 都係得15pages, 不過睇完 kahim 既時間理論, 我覺得我壓力迫出既量都可以做夠20頁既... hohoho! 約左artasha去沙田食晚飯, 因為我唔知幾時先有時間見佢, 過左生日就唔係幾好啦~ 一開始行左入xmas既decloration影相, 以前個水池無左, 變左一個吉場... d聖誕小精靈會郁架~ ok得意wor... d歐陸野我同arta都buy既~ hahaha!!! 當然我地兩個一定入hmv啦~ 一入去兩個傻婆就發左顛... 好多好多好歌 & artists野要share~~ 哈哈~ 總的來說 evanecscene 同 black eyed pea 都係好野~~ 逛完商務之後行左落地下o個間shanghai mian, 兩人座四人卡座哈哈~~~抵!! 我地叫左一個兩人用set, 有四樣菜呀~~~ 唔好意思呢arta~ 我唔食得chilli ^^ 我地每次見面都無停口, 多謝你講左咁多野畀我知~ 同埋你一直都有睇我日記, thx god i met you!!!!坐左個幾鐘都係時候要走啦~ 難分難捨都係要返屋企... 多d陏動下~ 嘩~~~ 過幾日真係超超超凍, 你要小心保暖呀...

d 人都未contact曬... 唉... 都唔知點解d野會咁...
mixed up world....

>>December 18, 2003 at 4:01:57 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 16 日 星期二 【颳風】

今日推介:
lisa (from m-flo) - i'm all you
(日文譯本 - 節錄)

baby baby 請告訴我
你心目中所謂普通的意義
love應該是沒有基本line的
如果有也早被我所跨越

用超越了常識範圍的坦率
表達我special的心意是否給你帶來了困擾?
我無法掩蓋我的emotion
因為那會令我變得不像我

guitar freaks 10th & ddummania 9th ost - save a little something + termination + joker

>>December 17, 2003 at 3:31:40 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 16 日 星期二 【陰晴不定】

哈哈哈~ 點解我呢度好似變左4rum咁既? ^^ 各界友好都係度留下言~ wellcome兄同大家姐都係好人! 講真, wellcome我第一個sem識到宜家, 都係一個好好既同學仔 (我地係做咩group presentation識呢? 1023?), 做事好認真, 雖然以前有時唔係十足風度, 但係宜家好好多啦~ 要努力努力努力!!! ^_^ 大家姐boot就唔使講啦~ 都係識照顧人, 一個好媽媽~ 就係多左d牛角尖 hoho ^^

好~ 講返今日組聚... 好齊人呀~~~ 我原本都唔知咁齊, 尋晚reconfirmed先知無人唔去! 勁~ 估唔到我都有d咁既能力~ hehe!!! 我地11約左11點o係中環mtr等, 之後搭bus入赤柱, 去正灘BBQ~ 我記得上次去o個度係中六班旅行, 再對上BBQ係中三, hahaha~桃園結義o個度呀~ 你地記唔記得呢??? 十個白痴仔o係度扮飲酒 (汽水 of corrs)結義, 我去到真係好有印象, 好懷念呀!!! 中六o個年去左宜家係wellcome o個間餐廳食lunch, 仲學YY個手勢 (同林x枝個"ok"有異曲同工之妙) 齊齊影相... 點解我記得咁清楚架 >.<

成場我都唔係食好多野, 最多係cotten candy... 怒影相 lor... 個beach都ok吖, 有海浪聲~~~ wow i like it! 其間呀姜拎出佢親手整既cookie~ 有"happy birthday大佬" 既字樣, 好有心意呀~~~ 大佬都好開心, 唔捨得食之餘包左返去... 臨走o個陣我先記得攞我買左既chocolate同小禮物畀d呢兩三個月生日既仔女, 希望佢地 like啦~ 出返車站, 本來想送埋大家上車我先同d女去行街街, 但等等下都係唔好啦, 費事d女夜返去啦, 早d行完早d走... 我其實無咩野想行, 都係想影下美利樓... 雖然影過都唔只一次, 都係好想好想影... 記得再上次去美利樓...

好快影左好多相之後我地就走啦... 同呀姜一齊返屋企/宿, 途中真係傾左好多野, 好多有關環保&地球既野... 其實我地宜家既situation係好灰: life cycle 太長, 人口太多, 過度用取地球資源, 話人類係地球既cancer絕對無錯, 所以我會盡力令癌細胞受到控制, both in quantity & quality... 但... 我今日每日都不停做緊d好唔環保既野... 好矛盾...

今日個人都唔係好function到... 我係咪刻意迴避佢? 我真係唔知... 好自然我唔想畀任何人知我同佢出過去, 因為我handle呢d野好easy, 但佢... 我始終唔知佢點睇我, 如果佢睇到呢度, 一定會話"我點睇唔重要, 最緊要你自己點睇"... 咁我都係重視佢我先care�... sigh... arta 講得好, kylie 隻 "can"t get you out of my head" 最能夠表達我現時既情況.... 但... 佢究竟有無留意我做既野? 我唔可以話全部為左佢, 我都想佢開心下�, 我真係好喜歡佢笑得好開心個樣, 好可愛~ (係喜歡... 唔係鍾意咁簡單...)

醒呀~~~ 自命strong & tough 的 gabe 呀, 你仲要做3023 paper呀, 係咪唔做呀宜家... 快d死掂佢!!!!
強如莉香, 也有鮮為人知的一面.

>>December 17, 2003 at 2:54:29 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 16 日 星期二 【颳風】

超感動呀~~~~ 估唔到趙老闆都留言!!!!!!! 有d想喊~~ 無論點... 各位.... ka him, wellcome, boot, arta... 仲有無人睇我又無提..... qq? 精? ?? 大家一定要一齊努力做好目前既大計, 讀書好, fyp好, 其他野都好, 我會無限量支持大家, 就好似大家都有型無型咁support我!

p.s. 今日qq問候過精同趙老闆你地, 有時間你都打電話畀佢啦

>>December 16, 2003 at 5:22:14 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 15 日 星期一 【微冷】

hahaha~ 連wellcome兄都到此一遊, 實在令我太感動了! 謝謝各界好友支持, 我會努力架啦!!

今日都有好多貨, 有排打/睇啦~ haha! 先幾日Q話會返來大埔, 順便約我出黎食個飯, 一來因為我早前 bid左件貨要攞返, 二來都好耐無見, 三來大家好多野想share... 都係我9up鈥 reasons haha~
我地交流左好多野, 有佢公司啦, 愛感/情啦, 屋企啦, 以前d朋友近況等等, 我都係講下個mega fyp, 細路咁. 我諗唔係好多人好似我咁聽到佢講佢咁多野, haha all-in-one supportive angel!! 佢做野o個度唔開心呀, 本來有得升點知又無, 又換左個head, 好多唔開心野呀佢... 我都好少聽佢講咁多怨氣, 又話想轉工, 同佢honey一間公司... 佢決定左既無人可以左右佢, 除非佢地... 唉~我都唔想佢唔開心, 但知道佢honey有二奶, 我都好惋惜. 我唔知佢情敵係咪真係好正, 但我死都撐qq啦!! 佢honey如果真係唔要佢, 我都唔知點算啦... 仲記得佢話我知同人同居o個時我反應... 好傻呀我~ (呀品可能會記得) 希望佢honey玩完一次比較過, 就知我地qq係好好既~^^ 同佢買完xmas禮品畀佢呀妹之後, 我地上左味千食lunch... 我話凍冰冰唔好食sushi, 佢又話我做咩凍又穿短裙仔... 哈哈~ 食緊野o個時我同佢講左尋晚既事, hahaha又畀人片話做咩去cafe lagoon食 >.< "又唔好食又無氣氛", 同artasha講既一樣, 但我對食無要求, 我地都唔係靜既, 都ok呀... qq請我食lunch又畀返d$$我... 呀~點解我同佢d數都係計唔清?? 無計啦咁多年啦... 都唔知邊個欠邊個... 我見到qq個樣(唔好意思呀, 我講事實...)真係老左, 係咪出黎做野個人好易老? 定係佢太勤力所以咁?? 好擔心... 佢係我生命中好重要好重要既人, 如果佢先走我一步... 唔敢想像... 講返我d貨, 平時佢一定叫我唔好急, 要收下放下, 但今次佢都話好難...

唔緊要, 我都係想佢happy�, 唔happy我點都無用, 所以我幾想約佢xmas出黎都好, 我都唔約... 因為係佢話想接埋幾日, 我會專重佢既決定, 反正有心佢都會提出啦 (好似食dinner咁) 對佢, 同對以前d target既心境唔同, 我只係想佢好, 想佢開心, 少左好想好想同佢一齊+唔想佢有第二個, 因為我知我根本無資格, 佢亦都唔係想要我呢隻, 同佢少左d好緊張既心情, 可能係個人大左啦, 同其他friends好似qq, 精, even係uni friend like wellcome佢地, 我都係情緒好高漲, 打機, 去玩, 飲飲食食... 同佢.. 好似一條嘩啦嘩啦既河入左個湖咁... 好平靜... 佢同我平時都可以係好嘈, 但骨子裡都係好靜&孤癖既人, 唔知呢... (沉思中.... 真係定左好耐)

好啦, 講返今日... 食完野我地逛下廣場, 睇下模型又係告別既時間, qq都要返一返屋企然後出返來剪頭髮, 我就要出mk拿netvigator贈品, 幫人買cd同交收, 不知不覺又入左d貨, 就快無曬d錢啦.... 嘩~交收完我都係食個bag都係野, 唔係呀....隻腳又痛手又有重野... 結果o係火車上面訓到死左... 上左新達先發覺未買禮物, 又買左d野畀聽日組聚啦~ 弊...d仔女生日都無表示... 一定要做d野啦, 表示我送禮係必然既... 又要去返大中啦... 好多人... 做santa claus好唔容易呀... 好多野... 好痛... 終於返到屋企

打左兩個幾鐘終於打完...

>>December 16, 2003 at 5:08:04 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 15 日 星期一 【微冷】

第一件事要re左你先啦~砵!!! 好多謝你既support~ 有你同我share係我既幸運, 睇得呢度既人唔多, 但只有你會留言支持我, 所以你有事無事都好, 我一定撐你!!! 要我讓仔畀你都得! hahahahaha^^

>>December 16, 2003 at 12:59:12 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 14 日 星期日 【颳風】

今日係mega project既第一擊... 成日都只係有呢件事o係個腦度... 好耐都未試過咁... 哈哈~ 唔係技巧性擊倒... turbo都無用... 只係好自自然然咁過... 都好吖~ 呀Q d講句, 佢唔收份野都好, 我真係整得好差... 真的太平凡... 可能會倒扣分... anyway我會擺佢o係度, 就好似將呢份心思埋o係心裡... 如果我整手繩, 情況會唔會更差??

我地約左7pm o係K12個站等, 點知ying話要補遲d, ok啦 6.45pm先補完, 我用極速行過去, 10mins~ haha~ 我打畀佢, 佢一早到左上左jusco買糧草, 哈哈~要拎住行啦~ 我心諗... 點會食完買畀你就咁返去?? hehe~ 我地去左珊瑚堡, 細路去過幾次, 我都係第一次咋~ suppose氣氛都會ok, 好過o係foodcourt啦~ 其實我身體狀態唔係好好, 唔係好想食野, 最終我叫左什扒, 佢叫左牛扒...七成熟... 我笑左好耐, 唔係完全因為個"七"字, 係因為我真係好開心, 可以同佢撐抬腳, 真係由心笑出黎, 希望你感覺到^^ 之後我都係食唔曬d扒, 畀左件雞佢我最後都係要打包 (d野一返到屋企已經畀bro同dad食左 ._."), 我個catcat bag好明顯唔夠位, 要拿件gift出來先得... argh~~~ nightmare!!! 佢真係好強硬唔要, 點都唔要, 我做人都唔係好有耐性, 鬥耐力我必死, 畀左$, 出左去, 佢都係唔肯拎. 我輸了, 一口氣攞d野 + 拉佢走...

我點會咁容易畀今日就咁完? 我一早(今日返完cu我去左剪頭髮, 之後特地行下d西餅店有無咩ok既cake...)做定research, 誓要同佢做生日, 我都估度我同唔到佢過 mid-night (事實條件同心理條件都唔得), 咁當然都要吹candle先叫做生日啦~ 去美心買左個chocolate卷, 其間我無手畀錢, 放低件gift同時件野飛左落地, 佢真係唔接, 仲彈走左... 我看在眼裡只係覺得佢好可愛, 果然我都係對人唔對事...^0^ 好啦~ 我問埋d姐姐攞candle之後, 就行去海濱方向... 醒起上次同佢提過有xmas decloration, 行埋過去佢又肯同我怒影相!! hehe~真係好開心, 平和的開心... (我覺得佢今日個look真係超舉~ thx god for making the temperature cool!) 最後走到海濱公園, 我真係可以同佢去公園~ 唔知邊個話同人去街行公園都好有問題呢? @v@ 不過係我trap佢既, 送我返屋企就預我"dull"路啦~ 反正都要食埋個cake... 今日個天唔係好正, 好多雲... 我好好好鍾意朝星, 唔係好識d名呀, 星座既我係好鍾意星空o個種寧靜... 望上個天我可以將世事放開, 當然同鍾意既人一齊睇星簡直就係窮奢極侈... 所以感謝主! 我係好好好幸福既.

本來想行到最出既海邊, 不過大家都有d累啦... 一路行返出去我地都有傾下計, 我又知多d佢既野... 愈聽我愈有個心願, 就係想佢生日&日日過得開心 (雖然我應該想個個都係咁^^), 我真係好唔知佢d野, 希望有機會佢會同我chat多d... 好快我地行到我樓下, 我好唔捨得... 因為話曬都係我地第一次去街(真係好formal *0*), 又畀人送返屋企 (都唔知幾多萬年無人咁做), 最終都係佢推我入樓下大門口先得 >.< 真係超好feel!!! 經過今晚我真係中曬箭 ^_~

to sum up, 我今日係超開心, 因為佢都enjoy, 心情係會傳染~ 我一直保持開心, 佢又幾happy, 呢個cycle就不斷去~~對不起... 我唔應該迫你要我份禮物, 如果唔係今晚我會高d分 & 氣氛會好d.... # forgiven not forgotten # ok? 原來大家都好有原則... 我就係喜歡你的"特別"~~ ^^ 呵呵~ *希望有機會再同你出過去~*

~~~生日快樂~~~ *22!

>>December 15, 2003 at 5:48:53 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 13 日 星期六 【陰晴不定】

Today I went along the Nathen Road all the afternoon~ TST to change the clothing for mum, MK to hunt for CDs & Sham Shui Po to... arcade HAHA! At first it's very quick to KO the mission from mum, then I & bro started to walk to MK with lots of choco bread, as we've bought so many while passing the bakery~ LOL!!! SUPER NICE~* After we reached MK, We seperated and I visited Sino... WOW~ so many CD sale!! I've bought totally 6 CDs: M-flo*2, Las Ketchup, D&D, The Corrs & SClub7... less than $100!! OH GOSH... there're more but I really lack $$.

Walking is healthy HAHA~ esp. in the chilling evening~ Shops are all closed on the street in SSP & it's kinda cold indeed! Sigh... can't get what I offered in SSP Kawaii... need to go back to MK one later... final stage we went to arcade centre, to play DDR and the latest DM9. The most emberassing thing is I pressed wrongly and chose "Kind Lady" twice >.< Even it's one of my fave song in DDR series, how can I did it... Also I've tired DM9 twice, the long version is great, particularly the song "terminator", groovy house~~ LOTS OF FUN!!!

That's not the end of today... THX GOD and plz lead me what to do!! I wanna give the bday present to him but still had not yet completed (now it is done!) At first he seemed to be too courteous about the gift... I'm so afirad he refused to recieve it!!! ARGH~~~ but then he asked me to have dinner with him tmr instead!!! I'll never resist it for sure~~ This is the first time we two meet alone... God I put all my faith on you, plz lead me what to do and what not... Amen! (I hope to go to Waterfront Park with him... let's see ^^)

>>December 14, 2003 at 6:01:55 PM GMT+8