2004 年 1 月 7 日 星期三 【陰晴不定】

今日本來無堂, plan左去取ielts成績, 尋日gaia話我知佢有7呀~ 好野!! 我好有壓力呀其實, 因為我無prepare過, 連考咩都唔係好知, gaia好有心去練eng, 成績o係3023都好明顯, 勁! 其實我都好想有7, 不過我不嬲考eng都唔好grade,兩個exam都係d, ielts:6.5呢個average都唔例外...

去攞ielts時, 有個呀婆好似盲樁樁咁唔知邊度係ielts既office, 咁我又本住我PR本色話"咁我都係去o個度, 你跟住我啦", 憑著我對個floorplan過目不忘, 好快就去到, 睇完result都有d灰, 不過個呀婆又同我傾計一齊搭shuttlebus走, 咁我都同佢講下既... say左bye去到德福, 當然係上去打下機發洩下, 我成日都咁諗, 有咩唔開心唔順利, 咪自己搵d野令自己happy d, 打機同聽歌係我最常做+令我happy既野, 呢種能力愈大就愈做得好. 本來想玩dm, 但$5好貴呀~ para$3 only, 咁我最近都訓練過, 又ok wor~ 打玩就直筆去centrel交收隻kylie dvd, 雖然上上年arta送左live in sydney畀我做生日禮物, 但$50真係好吸引!!! 同埋個concert真係好好好好好好好正! 以前只係怒睇the corrs既concert, 好溫和, 但kylie既係好激情既, my cup of tea!!! 加上d歌同d mix係我好buy既, 多買一隻都不為過~ 個buyer好準時, 咁當然人地要o係lunchtime交收, 我早dd唔使人等我啦.

要返cu印習作畀瀅, 順便上去mmw sit埋mlc既course... 好難同好多野做呀~ 都係drop啦, 咁我見我都drop, o係佢地仲搞緊tuto咁我走先(反正都話落左堂), 但點知同lecturer同lift, 唔講野好似好odd, 咁我就講畀佢知我本來take左, 覺得唔係好適合我, 不過都係上一堂先決定... 咁佢問下我覺得個course點, 我講左好多我既睇法, 因為我maj唔係同個course有關, 係我自己畀個title "myth, fantasy & culture"吸引, 而有d topic 我都有興趣會sit eg. babylon^^, 都傾到佢到停車場先收口... 畀我中學o個時一定會唔出聲, odd 咪 odd 囉... 同埋宜家我覺得好多野都無必要收埋, 唔敢講只係因為o個樣野唔見得光...

返黎o個陣諗返好多野, 我由中學到大學既轉變好大, 中學除左同三兩好友玩得熟之外, o係大型既gathering我成日都認為我係可有可無既人, 唔見左都唔覺既. 上到大學我竟然可以搞到小中型聚會, 真係"犀利"! 所以話我入大學呢一步好重要!!! 好記得中四五o個時有次我睡過了頭, 好在有佢(#1)打電話來想問我點解咁遲, hehe我真係好好彩有d friend 睇住^^. 上到大學, 一樣有人"照", 好記得佢(#2)話"我識得有個女仔同你好似, 不過唔同既係佢將眼光放到無窮大", 好深刻.. 因為o個時我好迷失, 佢(#2)既話成日都好中... 時間一路過, 又畀我好彩遇到好影響我+我好重視既人, 雖然宜家大家傾既時間唔多, 我知道佢(#3)都係守護緊我, 一心想我都搵到個好歸宿, 因為呢樣係佢做唔到既野?! 哈哈~ 唔打緊, 我希望同佢有long-term friendship, 可能我都係"可遠觀而不可褻玩"hahahahahah!!! 仲有好多好多改變我啟發我既人, 如果要打曬都唔知要幾多日...

今日寫住咁多先~~ 多謝收看~~~^0^

>>January 8, 2004 at 3:17:12 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 6 日 星期二 【陰晴不定】

呢幾日都唔知做緊咩... 好似仲未返學咁... 要快d做野啦~ 今個sem最後啦... 要加油努力!!! 各位朋友都要呀~~ arta你搵到野做未呀?? 有時未必樣樣都可以順順利利, 咁為銀都要做下d唔係ideal既job啦~~~

今日好充實, 尋日同今日都係咁, 出門口諗住搭bus上本部交add-drop form先, 點知連走四架bus, 1, 2 我都追唔到, 3-4架一齊來, 都一樣錢, 咁是但啦上後面o個架, 點知無人上走左, 前面o個架都走埋!!! 真係一句純正pk大叫出來, 人地望又點呀?! 咁我真係好upset嘛 >
app. climatology早左放, 我, wellcome 同砵就去cc食飯~ 好開心呀~~ 呀姐請食火龍果~~~ 食食下又遇到lkf佢地, 好funny呀~ 呢仲咁free咁happy既日子真係好呀.... shit! 要趕住去帶團呀, 仲慢慢食!! 等左都一陣, 哈哈仲同沛一架車. 去到tpk, 惡猴之患係今團既重點. 四點多d帶完即返屋企沖涼換衫, 又去補習! 嘩~真係怒做呀...

sorry呀gaia~ 我聽日真係full-planned... 點解我成日都refuse人呀呢排 >.<"
講左成日野... sore throat.... 堅野...

>>January 7, 2004 at 1:17:47 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 4 日 星期日 【微冷】

God blessing me meeting him accidentally... it's just a miracle I prayed then I saw him... only within 5 mins... ^0^ felt like shocked when I noticed him... sigh... addicted... BUT why it happened when I'm gonna give up? Maybe it's time for me to leave the battlefield for a moment, don't know when to get involved again...

>>January 6, 2004 at 8:34:07 AM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 3 日 星期六 【乍暖還寒】

今日約左audery(我表妹)去行街, 因為同年紀既cousin得我一個, 咁當然我都好樂意同佢出去啦~ 一來我地成十年無見, 作為香港既代表(咩呀...?!)我一定盡力令佢玩得happy! 成三點先食完野, 好似無咩時間行... 落左花園街逛左... 唔經唔覺都有成三個鐘... 佢想買對長boot, 仲要d款係加拿大無既~ 不過最後都無收穫, 跟住去左影貼紙相... 呀~~ 好明顯要由日文>中文>英文真係好難, 搞到完全唔夠時間畫d相 >0< 都幾灰下... 話曬都係佢第一次影... 可能有d唔好既印象添... 最後一站當然係去信和睇cd啦~ 竟然畀我見到趺左價既kylie debut album同parasite eve既ost, 隻game都唔錯架, 所以d歌都應該唔差, 不過我好似仲未爆機 ^^; 好彩audrey都買左一隻cd, 無要佢白行... 不過佢都應該ok鍾意行cd鋪, 因為都被人打電話摧返去食飯... 最shocked既野發生啦~ 竟然畀我o係無意中見到monday michiru最新o個隻album - episodes in color!!!! 我之前o係新星堂見過, $2xx好貴呀~ 當佢盤點清貨我都第一時間去睇... 無曬... oh forget it then~ 點知宜家o合個隻仲要係"見本品"~~~ lucky 呀~~~ $50 平都痴線呀~~~

好快食完飯, 送左佢地上車之後我行左去搭火車, 因為想撞下人... 都係無咩可能啦... 不過我都係搭左... 又係例排既對頭車, 坐低當然係點算戰利品既時候~ monday隻碟超正呀~~ 有講點解做呢隻碟, 每首歌既meaning云云... 原來佢生左個隻叫nikita, 佢老公都係音樂人, 睇d相佢都係咁吸引~~ 無咩肥到! 聽左幾首歌又到站... 專心既時間真係過得快~~ 落車前有段好深印象既:
Send her your love, with a dozen roses
Make sure she knows it, with a flower from your heart
Send him your love, don't hold back your feelings
You don't need a reason, when it's straight from the heart
I've heard so many say that days of romance are no more
and people falling in love is so old fashioned
But waitng are they the day they once let slip away hiding need
to fulfill thwir heart's desire for love's passion
I know that people say two hearts beating as one is unreal
and can only happen in make believe stories
But so blind they all must be that they cannot believe what they see
For around us are miracles of love's glory

哈哈~ 打曬成首歌... Monday既歌係我心靈既必備良藥, 每次我聽到佢d歌我都好有感觸, 心想次次都係唔開心先怒煲, 今次有d例外... 唉... 點知係無例外既... 返到黎一心想打下日記share下開心野... 點知因為好心得過份又變左好odd... 好灰好灰, 好sustain咁灰都唔係辦法, 唯一自救既辦法就係變回以前既我, 頭先收到offline msg話d friend出去玩... 又係o個句, 我唔係想有個人同我出下街就算, 我係想有個人好明白我(現在都有唔少)+愛我(都有)+我愛(宜家得一個)... 排名分先後啦~ 咁無齊三個variable都唔ok... 咁都無法啦...

竟然知道趙老闆畀人defeat既news... 點解我地呢班人個個都ko呀.... >.<

>>January 4, 2004 at 4:19:32 PM GMT+8

2004 年 1 月 2 日 星期五 【乍暖還寒】

今日本來無野做，但係知道有個大埔節o既function，噤寄完信就過去個邊睇下個場。去到見到攪緊綵排，仲有好多o靚妹仔女o係出面排隊，噤我又o係出面望下先，好明顯我唔係來睇明星，而係想見我心目中．．．　兜左好耐，望到人都痴線都見唔到佢，我又無噤好耐性，兜左半個鐘就已經想走，其間有d o靚妹走來問我有無飛，我話無又反問返佢地，個function幾點開始，佢地話畀我聽兩點先開始，個時係十二點幾．．．shit，唔係仲要等成個幾鐘呀嘛？即刻人都灰左。記得我以前都等過明星，但今日個個又唔係明星，而係我一個好想見o既人，心情都幾矛盾，因為o係個度o既人，都係為左拿下簽明噤，而我，只係想見下佢，可能我都只係迷戀佢，更大個人仲停留噤o既階段，真係不知所謂>.<

呢幾日我都好confused，唔知自己做緊o既野係咪o岩，一方面我好強硬冷漠，敢對鐘意我o既人仲唔只一個，而我，又好似迫得我鐘意o既人好緊，兩者都係一線之差，而且性質相同，可笑o既係，佢無以強硬冷漠o既態度對我（可能係我自己sense唔到o者），噤我其實係咪應該繼續畀機會其他人呢？不過，如果我係鐘意o既話，就一早同左第二個啦，駛唔駛好似而家噤呢？

今晚終於第一次見到Audrey，我o既中法混血表妹，哇！佢成熟左好多，而佢話我無乜點變，都認得我，影左d相，傾左一陣，又收皮啦，不過約左聽日去行下街，好在佢都鐘意音樂，如果唔係都唔知同佢行咩好。

返到屋企又係例行公事：上網，總算整理左去汕尾o既相，等d組仔女都可以用下來做project。唉，日日噤傾，都唔知為乜，成日好似我阻住佢噤，同佢chat就好似生活o既一部份噤，但又係咪好事呢？

>>January 4, 2004 at 3:57:44 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 31 日 星期三 【乍暖還寒】

新年快樂~

新一年, 其實我無咩特別既感覺, 衰d講句又大一歲, 樂觀d就話多活一年了... 不過長命等於好嗎? 還是quality比較重要嗎^^ quality of life, 我好鍾意呢個term, 除左佢都幾有geo味道之外(學培正人講haha), my fave song of m-flo "yours only" 既intro 最尾都有話: These 3 element - Birth, Death & Love bring about the idea of what human species called "The Quality of Life"!!!
好正, 真係好正, 係一首會令我聽到喊既歌, 雖然係好典型r&b, 但加上d對已逝戀人既思念, 成首歌變得更能觸動人心... 呀?好似d song review咁?! 都係收收先 ^^

不如講下新既一年點踏入啦... 講出黎都幾funny, 係同吵媽&佢既friend去左大中countdown, 3個女人一個墟 ._." hahaha! 又唔係既~ 佢地兩個識左仲耐過我同我媽, 有時飲完茶去shopping d sales以為我地3個都係friends.. 有dd灰但, who cares?!

元旦既朝早我的起心肝去跑步, 一來汕尾個trip我怒食&怒瞓, 肥左好多... 二來我都想keep返好個身體, 十二月竟然被defeat, 真係失敗^^ 不過o係屋企始終好食好住 (今日我都煲左糖水>0<), 返左學又會不似人形啦...

唉~fp既doe任期其實已經完左, 小我係唔想繼續做, 但為左大我, 我係咪應該留守呢... geo fyp... 唔想搞唔想理, 但返到去又係要面對..呀prof都唔知返左黎未 >.<

中同們~ 加油呀~~趙肥..我第一次成功同佢打開話匣, 佢又無問我係邊個, 我又無講, 雖然都係講左d無聊野, 不過我地多方面夾擊, 攻城之日指日可待!! 精呀~ 唔係叫你求其, 但我唔信呢個世界咁多人你只係like i小姐... tom少係咪寫完essay啦? 有無人可以話我知呀? (走左3日變化真大._.", od留言好似forum咁, 又唔見我呢度咁旺場haha!)

>>January 2, 2004 at 2:52:27 AM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 30 日 星期二 【晴】

返來我返來啦~~

去左3日汕尾, 睇左4種能源, 包括核能, 風能, 生物能同波浪能. o個度個賓館對住個海架~~~ 我地check-in咁"瓻Y日落時份, 嘩!!! 我真係成個日跳起身~ 實在係超正!!!! 個trip既詳情不能盡錄... 但我同d學生都體會到呢個世界唔係有絕對既, 唔係再生能源一定好曬or so, 我都睇到呢個世界唔同人有唔同觀點, 香港人係太有錢太幸福, 拿起手有電用, 想點就點, 用好多好多資源滿足無限既desire, 真係"以有涯除無涯, 殆已". 之前我睇完<神性的平衡>我都promise過自己要過簡樸既生活, 但... 一直都做得好差... 要努力!!! 好記得今日分享會個kg5老師話, i tought i'm usless... unless i found that i'm bio-degradable

除左d academic既増長, 我都同我組d學生打成一片, 玩得好開心, 實際上o係個trip我唔係好多野做, 咁我既用處係帶領佢地思考同帶起氣氛~ 好明顯都係我major強項hahaha!!! 夜晚我都有同成組一齊玩, 因為我坐o係果d有背椅, 成個大佬咁樣, 所以呢幾日我自立為王做大佬haha~ 其他"大寶", "大家姐"既名都此起彼落, 都係大家畀面貌 ^_~

呢3日我影左好多相同片, 因為大自然真係好靚... 我都花左一d時間做d我鍾意既野: 睇星&看海!!! o個度無咩街燈, 一入夜就好黑, 所以一抬頭就可以見到好多好多星, 冬季既星空我唔係好熟, 不過都可以欣賞既角度去睇星, 尋既同左幾個仔女去夜行沙灘, 雖然有d凍卻不減我地既興致~ 得我一個瞓左o係沙灘上面, 好正... 最佳觀星方式 ^0^ 今日搞完分享會, 我一個人又瞓左係沙灘曬太陽... 好舒服~~~ d海風海浪聲同陽光all-in-one, 四野無人...只有d人o係遠處玩風帆!! 真係唔想走... 記得我未去之前仲話唔想去, 因為我向來都對將來抱觀望至悲觀態度, 由升中, 分科, 上大學以致各大小事件都係咁... 但每一次都係有好既"將來"~~~ thx god!!!!

dennis係呢幾日function既搞手, 但佢病到半死, 我地義工同staff都好擔心... 希望佢宜家好d啦~

返到屋企收到去上海fieldtrip同學們既postcard~ 好開心呀~ 多謝boot, 品, gaia, wellcome, 牛 & 暉~~ 好得意呀~~ 仲收到yy o係germany既postcard!! 好warm呀~~ 感動!!!!

>>December 31, 2003 at 2:42:32 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 27 日 星期六 【晴】

Is Sunday family day? HAHA not applied to mine!
Today is the only "free" day of mine since the holiday started, I decided to make my wish come true, visiting HK museum of coastal defence.

>>December 28, 2003 at 1:38:54 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 26 日 星期五 【乍雨乍晴】

Oh ya~ the temperature is falling again, take care folks~

(why the hit-point increases so rapidly? I wonder who is out there....)

>>December 27, 2003 at 3:47:12 PM GMT+8

2003 年 12 月 26 日 星期五 【陰晴不定】

It should be another busy and happy day but...
In the morning we need to go to FOE office to prepare for the trip on Monday. The briefing took not more than 2 hrs and time really flies~ We'll visit Shanwei two days later... but my emotion hasn't made up yet.... >.<" Sometimes I really wanna escape from my responsibilty and do nth "meaningful" all day, playing games, listening musics, watching VCDs etcetc. I only have some time to do part of them... Well I had lunch with Dingding after meeting, but... nightmare attacked!!! Having a phonecall from FDex, WTF I was informed to recieve a parcel, which is consist of clothing stuff... SHIT!!! That's my bro's order on net!!! How come the status of the order was "not approval" but the goods are there?!?! That's no problem if we get those we ordered... the IC told us to re-order and my "lovely" brother ordered... 13 times... I was shocked while checking the creditcard a/c... all my credits are used up for the stuff... if it charges me, I need to pay sth thousands... how can I pay such a huge amount?!?!?!?! ARGH~~~

Not only blaming my bro but also hunting for the way out... well... there's no point for me to cut the credit card nor pay... the only thing we can do is to refuse recieving the parcel... sigh... this is all becasue I always let my bro do what he likes, even those are nonsense requests... he's the smallest member of the family, supposed to be the weakst and the most concerned, giving him all the best to cheer him up but it always turns out to be tragedy... it happenes all in a loop... again & again... I'm resposible for taht for sure... >0
I should be happy hanging out with Milly since she's away for 4 months... really have no mood to stroll in the industrial EXPO... actually I was attracted by the box of mocha coffee, remember someone loves coffee a lot... HAHAHAHAHAHA~ not only Arta and me~~ wanna buy but he'll not be willing to recieve it anyway... and I need to save money... THAT BITCH IS IN BAD LUCK WHEN I'M IN BAD TEMPER!!! *evil guffaw* How come she's so rude to be excuse? there's space for her to pass by but she dared to declare war with verbal fighter!! Always have my stand point to fight for the truth HAHAHA!!! *KICK HER ASS!!!* Mad Taurus is like volcanic eurption!!!

Humm... the problem is still there but I've no time and no solution unless the cancellation of transaction. Luckily I've enjoyed my xmas holiday before knowing this "good" news...
Haven't read such a long long Chi. article... WOOPS~ misunderstood?!?! I'm not # knowing me, knowing you# ~~~

Oh one more thing, today's Ivy's bday... HAPPY BDAY CHICHI~

>>December 27, 2003 at 3:44:35 PM GMT+8