2004 年 8 月 27 日 星期五 【乍寒還暖】

How come... I got back home very late & still wrote a page of my od, damn it it's lost in space! Well, it's better for me to type in Eng, which I have given up for long!
Office duties are like that, whatever you do, there's still an excuse to blame you. When you ask more, they just ask you to think what you should do next... when things go wrong, they blame you not to ask before doin'. I'm used to be like that, since I know what my talents are. However, they cannot be fully utilized in such a situation. God knows what is the best for me, and I'll just let him carry me. Maybe this is time for me to be improved, to smooth my roughness in temper, to gain the modesty in working place, to build up my path to be a gentle and tolerant CS. The power of fusion is one of the best habits I've ever had.

OK it's time for me to give thanks to whom support and treat this little frank Gabe well:
Oh my Lord please help me to be a better human being on earth. What should be done & what not, let me know and I'll try my best to do the work of steward before getting in the heaven.
THX once more to my colleagues: Jasmine, Holie, Kenny & George. You all are so kind to me and I feel warm working in PY!! You don't hestitate to teach me everything and give me great suggestions in working. Of corrs it's a very cool things to chat with you too!!
I'd like to give a big big applause to my true friends, who will do everything for me, even it's odd and overwhelming... you know who you are!! ^^
QQ my dear thanks for calling even you're still working busily in airport. A 1 min chat is totally enough to share my feelings at work. Jjust only a statement you know how I am now. What a true friend is?! YOU ARE!!!
Thanks Gwai to answer my calls in the exam period of yours. I'm tactless huh? You are too wise to know my plans hehe~ Anyway good luck to your exams and don't forget your bday gathering (I've already bought sth for ya LOL!)!!
Chiu+Him, you are a very cool man I know and we are all looking forward to seeing you with your princess!!! Thank you genius to be the leader of Gayers!! (Dont punch me!)
S4 are the core of my uni life. We're apart phy. yet hearts are close! The leaving of Paven is uneasy task for us... WE WILL MAKE IT!!! MISS U & LOVE U!!! Boot, keep a balance diet and you are really very pretty in love. Don't forget to call me when you visit TP ^0^. Gaia, you work in Taipo now! Too bad I cannot be around all the time but I'm sure you live good in new job!
Dennis & Panda, you two are truly angels~ thx for leading me the way and sorry to disappoint you I'm a bad bad girl always skipping going church. Please forgive me and I'll work out the love from above... because Gabrielle = God is my strength!
Wellcome & Mike, sorry I put you in such a low collumn (j/k) it is always one of the best things to have fun with you two. WE are like golden triangle of Landscape group!!! Please reserve a night for me to offer a free meal (only bowl of rice?!) once I get my salary (underpaid one)

** To Be Continued **

Lately I've changed my mp3 all over again, adding many Monday's song and here's one I may share:
(Wanna plug RAINY DAZE in such a rainy Day... oops Rainy Day is also a lovely song!! ^0^)

Look Into The Past - Monday Michiru

Many years ago, I came from another world
around me empty souls
Had to find my past to walk the land my roots were case
to understand at last

What is in my future
Walk the yellow road my mother walked
Now I see the future

If you look behind, see the travels of your mind
your soul winding through time
Light that shines the way coming from a 1000 days
of destiny and fate

What is in the future lies within the days already passed
You can see the future,
close your eyes and see beyond the sky
Just let your visions fly
Try and let your visions fly

Look into the past and you can see the future
Look into the past and you can see

What is in the future lies within the hands that guide the way
You can see the future
Look into the past beyond the sky and let your visions fly
Close your eyes and visions fly

>>August 28, 2004 at 12:00:52 AM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 27 日 星期五 【雷雨】

DIU....打完d野無q曬...

>>August 27, 2004 at 5:06:40 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 25 日 星期三 【晴】

多謝yungyung光臨~ 我諗你份工係自己鍾意, 點樣都會努力做, right? ^^ 仲咩唔食宵呀~ miss yaaaaaaaa!!
多謝arta默默支持我, 唔緊要架, 雖然你知我係大脾氣, 向人地低聲下氣都係學問, 我cope到o既~ 你搵到工未? 突然諗到如果大家o係club house做幾好呢~ ^^

>>August 26, 2004 at 12:02:10 AM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 24 日 星期二 【雷雨】

要感恩!!! 雖然尋晚唔係好夜返, 但今日竟然!!! 有黑眼圈... oh god 平時我點唔夠睡眠都唔會咁, 今朝一洗面照鏡, 乜得咁樣衰呀...今日一返去就好多野做, 可能都係有d工作狂, 無野做好辛苦架! 但多野做, 自然會有亂子, minor到我都唔記得, 只係記得我不斷講"唔好意思"同"麻煩曬", 前者係我刻意加, 咁我唔識, 做錯, 要人跟我手尾都真係唔好意思...後者都係工作o既口頭禪. 竟然, 不約而同有兩個同事都開解我, 好多謝佢地o既關心, 真o既~ 唔係佢地咁nice我一早走左, 但諗深一層我一走佢地要做多好多野, 咁又於心何忍?! CS我一定做, 睇下邊度有合心水 & 佢地請到新人先走啦~

放工, 唔食飯都要落funzone打鋪機, 玩左一次dmx, 小聲不斷, 因為level實在太高, 好易扣曬, 最唔like係o係happy-hopper game over, 輕敵!! 一下以為就過關就鬆懈了 >.<" 唔玩啦.... 返屋企, 食返今朝食左d o既米粉, 明明係肚餓, 不過係唔想擺野落口... 多d禱告啦~ 祂會幫助他的.

>>August 25, 2004 at 4:16:10 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 23 日 星期一 【乍寒還暖】

今日返工都ok啦~ 梗係有d位無野做, 不過好彩近傍晚有單野急住要貨, 大家發曬癲去搵, 咁我都學到點上網check貨呀etcetc, 少說話多做事, 我仍然未能夠做得好, 呢個禮拜o既會我要畀佢地話我有進步!!!
以為老板娘去左vacation, 大家早走(準時而已)我就唔使遲到, 點知呆等左3個字先有74a,去到都係遲到, 好annoying咁入左FPoffice, 好odd! 我無野做... 只好同leo吹水, 大家交流一下對doee的睇法, 講o既都係環繞FP野, 總好過返工咩都唔講得. 走左落去食McD, 我呢幾日食左兩次啦~~~ temptation... 今晚我係major communication多過sit會, 上返去office call人, sorry 呀我知道對開緊會o既人黎講我出出入入同講電話係好影響流程, FNF (#forgiven not forgotten#)ok? 知道tom炒左老闆, 我都有少少意外, 話曬大家都搵左咁耐工, 宜家再叫我搵我會癲架... 希望大家出黎玩o個時開開心心又turbo up就好啦! 打返畀主腳gwai, 唉....次次一傾就一發不可收拾, 邊個話講兩句... 半個鐘啦!!! 又用d咁商業口吻同我講野, 仲要畀人洞悉到我d奸計, 好唔開心lor!!! ^0^ o個個situation我唔可以講咁多野, 等星期四考完試我先交代所有野, 努力考個牌返來呀!!!!
committee等人上返來, 又開始吹水環節... 呀~~~ 見到某人個target, 我覺得唔舉lor! 成幅相都無個靚lor, 都係先幾日人家send來的GF相好d~ (唔好小我呀!) 呀... 唔記得睇可頤 tim... 算啦. 終於十點幾開完會, 大家唔食野就o係mtr四散, o個時roy打黎交代一下講座組d野, at the moment我做左一個好任性o既決定, 就係去左荃灣!!! 中曬箭啦我, 但不嬲都係唔理後果, 因為難保三思之後個情況無變, 反正要全身而退對我來說沒有難度, 我的善後工作不俗吧~ 他真的十分有紳士風度, 好像有責任照顧所有女仔, 很好很細心的人, 係女仔都會迷上的, lum死女!! (gayer gwai你還差很遠呢! ^^) 我知道他需要人家的支持, 他也需要被疼錫, 但返過來就是我去被他照顧, 作出一些maybe令他難受的事, 很矛盾... 我不想我的出現令他的生活多了一份壓力.
去了荃灣金星, 都幾貴呀d機, oh! 就是gwai說的Z.DX. $6??? 好很貴呢! 他和一上機友打DX, 老手呢~ 看人家打機好在自己不用動手玩也一番樂趣, 當然只限我不懂玩的games. 之後(可憐的FPangus被我們悶呆了)我和他去了吃宵夜, 算是還債吧... 我是不會讓人給我兩次恩惠的, 誰也不能這樣! 最後他陪我等73X,也要目送我上車才離開, 他真是一個好人!!! 回到家, 很想call他報到, 不過又唔知人家會唔會返左屋企, 免得嘈醒他屋企人... 還是上icq好了...

>>August 25, 2004 at 12:09:22 AM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 23 日 星期一 【酷熱】

個server尋晚又down down地... 搞到我有野想打又打唔到, 今日一早要補返~
就黎又到九月, 又係我地3E/5E/7A其中一gayer gwai 生日的大日子(什麼mr. ray, 十年都唔知佢有個咁o既eng.name) 上年有人埋怨話幹嗎自己生日要自己搞gatherin, 好好~今年我早dd發板啦~ from now on 我會慢慢打畀你地 (不過睇od o既中同好似變曬失蹤人口... 好可能打左都未睇我呢度) probably weekend啦~ or friday night (party night)都ok~N大家, 唱k好無? 整返首GG合唱助慶都唔錯wor hahaha!!! 我覺得buffee k都幾好, 唔使齋爭mic唱, 可以出去行下... 呀!!!!! 快d到9月出左糧就好啦~~~~

p.s. 大家唔好做cd-rom好唔好?! n個月無人留言啦...

***我confirm左gwai, 大家9月5日ok無?!***

>>August 24, 2004 at 5:12:25 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 22 日 星期日 【陰】

星期一, 上星期好似發生左好多事, 開心的, 不開心的, 也有. 返工的我好似唔係真的我, 加多了過份的禮貌, 減少了說話, 默默的做呀做, 本來的我也許是如此... 不, 那是從前中學的我, 試過整天都不言笑, 我是可以的, 不過不喜歡... 人生, 快樂的過, 不快的也要過, 為何要找個自己不愉快的方式?! 今日下午調位, 可以有自己email了!! 而且好多野做好充實!! 最黑係因為調左位唔記得攞返wallet+purse, 銀又無, octopus又無, 好在d同事未上車, 唔係都唔知點由沙田行返大埔.... 仲要我對高鞋ko左, urgently要買... thx god brother 同d friend出左大中食飯, 多謝大一借錢畀我!!! 買左對好類似o既high-heels... 係need定want?!

info有了reference, 正在努力study, 好多好多, 而且看得令人沉重. 世界上每個人都不是單獨一人, #somebody for someone# hahahaha! 少有 the corrs 的歌 (都不知多久沒聽了) , 仲有 kylie 的 #put yourself in my place#, 好歌都要有知音人 ^^ oh 又離題... 好心痛, 但可能我無能為力, 因為我可能根本唔係佢o既天使, 每個人一生中都有一個最珍惜o既人, 那個同自己毫無血緣關係o既人竟然係你最緊張o既, ironic isn"t it? 好想守護o既, 可能從對方o既角度睇自己只係一個過客 (無人係人地o既一粒塵架...diu) 死... 突然好想吐好想喊... 因為收到paven的msg, 離別, 別以為人總是踏進走出別人的生命就習慣離別, 誰也不想失去誰... 即使唔係成日通訊, 但我希望一有時間都去關心一d我想/應該關心o既人... shit... arta 恕我又放飛機了, 我一收到salary就去shopping ok??

明天, 去還是不去?!

>>August 23, 2004 at 3:33:22 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 21 日 星期六 【乍寒還暖】

奇蹟地好早就醒左, 打左d od 就要上路啦, 其實什麼一日遊都幾無聊, 係個導遊有時講d information enhance返我d記憶, 佢途中吹o既料我好多都知, 只要下一d苦工將之串聯, 就成為本地tour guide o既講稿呵呵~ 佢有d資料性失誤, 不過算啦我都唔會d樣理佢, 因為我一上車就休息休息休息, 唔係星期日唔用黎relax幹嗎?! 第一站去豆品廠, 話有得試食, 一去到... 我暈了... 白色的發泡膠泛濫整個場面, 我的心真的痛了, 與其自挖兩目不如立下決心起義... 結果我都是失敗了... 另外, 廠的一角有四隻可愛的neko, 我想是十幾天大而已, super kawaii!!! 可惜好多白痴的人近距離影相, 仲係對住佢用閃光燈!!! 我已經輕聲罵了, 最糟的是有人走上前摸!!! oh god 我真的沉不著氣去警告他們!!
第二站是到錦田鄉村俱樂部, 是之前app.geomo出fieldtrip的附近, 見到好多我識o既植物同昆蟲, 當係 revision exercise haha! 中午上左bauhinia號食lunch buffee, fair one, 遊左一轉維港, 宜家都仲有d浮下浮下o既感覺, 次次坐完船都係咁 hahaha~ o係北角解散之後我又搭ferry過觀塘(碼頭仲貼住無冷氣日poster ^^), 因為想去telford打轉機先, DMX馬拉松玩左好少關, 都係自選歌玩得好d, para同非洲鼓都只係9玩一次, 好多人又無銀都係走啦...送左2架74x先有74a, 係咪又係我執著唔搭冷氣巴, 但係飛大埔公路真係幾爽!!!
屋企無人, 又食自己啦 ^^

P.S. 收到"即西"的offline問候, 乜我尋晚睇落真係好唔掂?!

>>August 22, 2004 at 12:45:32 PM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 21 日 星期六 【雨】

終於等到星期六晚ocamp晚會+食宵, gaia一早約左我, wellcome, 大佬, 牛, 龜ling &加菲一等人食dinner, 出火車站行上去 (遇到張力!)覺得 好懷念, 行左三年, 當中有很多很多回憶, eg. 升yr2搞ocamp個暑假好多時都返dept, 好似無離開過咁, 轉眼間我已是不得不離開的老鬼, 唔捨得, 不過無辦法, 以前小學升中, 初中升中四五, 至到升高中, 我都好無安全感, 好似未來一定會唔比宜家好. 現在一刻回首, 那些都是我生命的一點一滴, 沒有當天的他們就沒有今日的我, 即使有些我重視的人已沒有在我的生命繼續留下痕跡, 我對此是執著地惋惜, 亦無可奈何. 可是中六七以後, 那些對將來的憂慮好像少了, 是什麼原因? 因為Frank走進了我的生命? 實在AL後我的生活如意至極, 多姿多彩+順利的生活成為入大學的前奏. 真的,大學前後我覺得我的轉變很大(arta你認為呢?!), 搞活動, 讀自己喜歡的東西 etc, 當然要感謝在大學認識的每一個人, 尤其那些深深影響我的那些朋友... 食宵也重遇他們, 很高興我們相處了三年, 即使將來有些不留在hk, 我們的經歷是不變的!!! (頂! 幹嗎想哭!!)
好... 又返返來先, dinner大家都食少少, o係222等之後晚會時間(lawal都吹左一陣), simply吹水都係好正, gaia婚期當然係hit topic~ 晚會... 小悶, 不過大家都預左, 我地旁觀者一定會咁覺得, 但你身在其中又唔會睇到, 今朝起身隻右手激痛, 醒起尋晚扑得野多, 唔好笑... 係o個d吹氣長條膠袋 (我知道係唔環保>.<), 搞氣氛都ok有用. 十點幾起動去食宵~ 多謝tutor wellcome請打的!!! (其實又唔係咁必要打...) 我地坐入去... 最後totally有15個人, 真係東華都無咁堅! 玩敬酒, 舊組影相, 怒影怒隊, 我自問都唔係飲左好多, 已經畀Qling叫唔好再飲, 因為無人送我返去~ hahaha! 我都feel到我唔係好得, 不過都好清醒同行到直線, 只係行返屋企有d西下西下...
返到屋企未夠一點, 但仍不知死活online, 當然是因為想睇下人家在不在, 又畀我見到~ 都唔知咁叫唔叫做傻, 不過真係好想同佢報到, 係咪我自己一廂情願? 我唔知道, 不過有位佢又會入, 咁我無理由唔入right? 大家都好似有心行近d, let's see then~ 我地開左好多空頭支票, 至於keep唔keep到d #promises# 就要靠futari no努力啦~ ^^

>>August 22, 2004 at 11:24:28 AM GMT+8

2004 年 8 月 20 日 星期五 【雨】

唔開心... 今個禮拜都唔知做乜, 忙呀忙呀忙, 都唔知為乜... 最唔開心係返工畀人片, 呢兩日佢地都有畀說話我聽架啦, 話我多野講... 大佬呀, 唔講野又話自閉扮cool, 多野講又話多野講, 想我點呀... 我覺得我自己o係公司已經唔係好多好多野講, 有時d野, 講笑又一句, 唔講又好似唔應人唔係幾好, 有時做錯d野笑一笑, 不是世界更美妙嗎?! 係咁我每次問完野做完野要喊曬口先開心吖!!! 笑, 我認為係禮貌, 係一個好簡單o既招呼, 一d都唔係想表示唔尊重... 我認我係心散, sidetrack同被sidetrack o既能力都好高, 但我對自己o既要求都唔低, 只係job nature同salary唔能夠令我擺心機落去, 加上呢個星期我擺左好多時間精神o係FP度, 我都知唔好, 不過我覺得有d野要去做就去吧~
什麼"唔過試用期個 ref 唔好睇"?! bloody damn!!!!

好在聽西歌絕對能夠舒緩我唔開心o既情緒, 以前我話monday michiru d歌係心靈良藥 (orange pekoe都係 ^^) kylie 把聲真係好掂!!! BL o既 bonus tracks 好多都好好好!!! 來一首給我想贈的人~

Cruise Control - Kylie Minogue

Top down, get on the wheel
Baby things are better when you just feel
And you do you your own thing
Ah, just let it swing
Drive me to I don't care
I'm enraputured take me anywhere
I just wanna fly
I like this CD

**Turn the music up
And baby don't slow down
If you want me
All you gotta do
Is keep me going now
Listen can you give me that
Baby just hit that

Cruise control
Ready, get set, go
You drive me crazy boy
I like it racy boy
On cruise control
We've been on a roll
Feels like the speed of light
Sit back and enjoy the ride**

Oh no, the lights go green
Time out, do you know what I mean?
We're all on our own
I ain't going home
Out there I wanna be
No more bumper two bumper cars for me
We're on the highway
Put it on replay

>>August 21, 2004 at 9:37:33 AM GMT+8