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2006 年 11 月 13 日 星期一 【晴】 11 : 40 番學 ~ 英文堂先先寫 Journal ~ 之後做 reading comprehension ~ 80 % ! 算不錯吧 ?! 我近來英文科的成績只是勉強比 average 高 10 %.......i am looking for more progress! 但自己又唔肯睇英文書 >.< 唉 ~ 晒氣 ! 依家終於將個 total running 拉到去剛剛 70 % ~ 起碼高過 passing grade 10 % ! 都叫做安心少少 ! 下個 week 又會有 d 佔分好重的 in-class essays 要寫 ~ 要 keep it up ! 12: 40 就放人 ~ 去左 computer lab 果度做左陣 GPA assignment......等 Kenn 番屋企打俾我。佢今晚又飲酒了......不過朋友生日，咁我呢個做女朋友 ge 都唔應該管佢咁多 ge ^^ 佢都好乖乖，唔會太夜番屋企，又唔會好似上次飲到咁醉。佢仲「好清醒」咁同我傾左成個鐘電話 ~ 講左好多心底話俾我聽。 其實我有種性格，都唔知係好定唔好。我對人有好大疑心，邊個接近我，我都會估佢有咩意圖；所有人對我講既每一句說話，我都會諗佢背後的意思；每一個舉動，我都覺得佢有企圖。我可以將個 case predict 得好壞，例如話：有朋友／男朋友話想帶我番大陸玩，我就會擔心佢會唔會賣左我嫁呢？又或者媽咪同我講，過多幾年我就要自己獨立，我會估係 dad 有 d 咩野病會死.......明知自己諗 ge 野真係天馬行空，會變成事實的機會率係接近 0 % 但我都係會咁樣諗；我有叫自己唔好諗，但我每聽到一樣野我個腦就不受控咁以 0.00001 秒的速度幻想左好多好多 possibilities 出黎...... 2 : 40 分開始備課但實在太眼訓，發夢多過溫書......Steven 無喇喇坐左係我隔離都唔知，嚇到我彈起 ! 3 : 20 Marketing ~ 雖然 schdule 話今日有 quiz 但佢上一堂 cancel class，個 chapter 都未教晒，我估佢唔會測喇 ~ 佢又無 send email 話會照測 ~ 點知.....頂佢個 x ar ! 佢真係測啵 ! 用左 40 mins 做個所謂的 quick review 就測我地.....不過好在佢 review 的時候都有放少少水，如果唔係我估我會慘死 ! 囉番上次的 quiz ~ 90 % ! not bad ! 繼續努力 ~
watch this video ~ so amazing !
>>November 16, 2006 at 7:02:15 AM GMT+8 2006 年 11 月 12 日 星期日 【晴】 儘管我多麼努力地每天跟自己說一些鼓勵的說話，鼓勵自己以一顆積極樂觀的心去做人，但我內在的聲音還是蓋過了我的努力。我愈迫自己去積極，內心就愈痛苦，想法亦愈來愈消極。算了吧 ! 這就是我，這幾年來，反反覆覆，有好幾次努力地進行「革命」但結果還是一樣，不同的是，一次比一次痛苦。 呢排好似成日同Kenn鬥咀；我自己都唔想嫁！我有無時無刻都提自己要 think twice be4 saying anything.....前幾日，唔覺意講左句說話，或者會令佢聽落去係 insult 緊佢的 occupation......佢可能會覺得我句野 imply 左做 salon 搵唔到錢之類 >..< 唉 ! 我真係無心的，講完之後聽到佢語氣變左先知道我講既野會令佢咁樣諗........點解我做人唔可以成熟 d 呢 ?
心理壓力愈大，圖片轉得愈快。 美國曾以此圖向嫌疑犯作出測試，他們看到圖片在高速旋轉；而大部份兒童看到是靜止的。 >>November 16, 2006 at 7:01:25 AM GMT+8 2006 年 11 月 11 日 星期六 【晴】 3 months anniversary
Kenn showed me some magic via webcam ^^ the above video is same w/ what he showed me ~* He also taught me how to do it! I have to practise more le ! we also played " 回力標 " using simply just a card n threw it out w/ special technique ~ Mum & bro went out for lunch, I had no mood so stayed @ home, did some maths. I've understood an important concept on interest calculation.......n finished an online test-- Lab 8 ( full mark of cox ^^) ! cool ~ 2 more to go ! nice process ! The follwing week gonna be tough, I'd better prepared for it! Got the result ofArgumentative Essay for English class, 75 %, so-so la....sigh ! I've already tried my very best but it didn't help much to pull up the total running.....my total score has raised from 66 % to 68 %, still .....I am so worried that I will fail in this course. Oral presentation got 90 %....well.....this was a satisfying result. I really did lotz of preparation job! I even practise @ home, wrote some notes on a piece of paper and read it again n again for many times! a small incident, I was watching TV in the family room, Kenn tried to call me many times but my phone didn't ring at all; however, on the other side, he received normal connecting signal. He was so pissed off.....I chatted w/ him for awhile, then returned to family room continue watching TV. 45 minustes later, I walked to the kitchen to prepare some fruit, then my phone vibrated, I've got a sms from him, saying,"r u really dun know that I had just called u many many times...just now!!" I was so worried that he would angry w/ me so I speeded up washing the strawberries n ran upstairs n see if the webcam was still on. I then saw his msg sent @ 9 : 24 ( it was 9 : 54 when I reached the computer) saying >>ok wor ...if it is so hard to u to listen to my calls...ok ...I ll promise u I ll never listen to ur calls any more !!! I was scared to hell, and sent him many many vioce recorded msg via MSN and phoned him @ the same time. The fu*king long-d service kept giving me the same response," Line busy !" SHIT! I was so desperated.......finally, the line was connected but nobody ans, so I left a vioce msg; then I called again n the line was busy again.....I waited a few mins n called again, this time was fine. He picked up the phone n I was so glad to heard his vioce. I explained the whole situation n started crying >..< when he heard me cry, he was soften n comfort me back. He also concenred abt the little cut on my finger.....he felt sorry since I cut myself becox I rush to give him a call.....We used to c each other via webcam everyday be4 he goes to work, but today was an expection. I thought he was still angry w/ me ..... >>November 13, 2006 at 10:10:36 AM GMT+8 2006 年 11 月 10 日 星期五 【晴】 勁躁底 !! 今朝佢計錯時間，我尋晚 3 點幾先訓得著，佢今朝 7 : 45 打俾我 ~ 算數 la* 人總會有犯錯的時候....... 11: 40 的 business is cancelled ahead of time ~ 所以今日only 要上 2 hours 的 marketing ~ 本身都好無 motivation 去番，不過 Kenn 叫我唔好走堂，咁我就聽聽話話去番學。點知番到去，先見到 classroom 門口 stick 左再 notic 話臨時 cancel class ! 頂 ! 果刻真係慶 x 到 x 咁 ~ 我媽咪剛剛先 drop 低我係學校，又要打電話 call 番佢番黎 pick up 我。點知佢又無開手提，由1 : 25 到學校一直打到 2 點先有人聽。叫佢過黎接我，2 : 15 先到。期間有 3 個陌生男子一齊行埋黎問我借火機，我話無。1 sec 之後，佢係佢個褲袋果度好快咁 pull out 左個 lighter 出黎 ! 頂 ! 擺到明係扮無火機 la.....之後見我 1 個人企係學校門口又係度望住晒 >.< 搞到我要打俾 Kenn.....陪我.... 點解可以咁黑仔 ?!
睇 MV 的時候見到余文樂，諗起細個的時候所做的荒唐事。 呢個世界好奇怪，細細個打架，大個左會原諒；細細個做左 d 唔影響到人的事，大個左仍然有人會挖起這個瘡疤。難道打架的罪名輕一點 ? 打架傷害別人，照理打架應該是嚴重一點才是。
Very sensational
I like this kind of posing, casually not intensively. >>November 12, 2006 at 7:44:33 AM GMT+8 2006 年 11 月 9 日 星期四 【晴】 11 : 40 番 ENG ~ 寫了 argumentive essay ~ 佔成個 subject 10 % 嫁 ! 希望高分 d ~ 可以拉番起個running total la ~ 60 % 係 passing mark，我依家係 66 %....好危險 ! 1 : 30 presentation on an article abt electricity consumption ~ 手震 >..< annie, steven & I 想早 d 離開 class 的時候俾個 teacher 叫住 ~ 瘀到爆 ! 3 : 15 媽咪車我走 ~ Bursary 果度 3 月先知結果 >..< 番到屋企同 Kenn 一齊開住 webcam 訓左陣， 5 : 25 醒左起身去陪媽咪 & 細佬聽 IB programme 的講座。去左 Bayview high school 果度附近的 plaza 食野 ~
去學校。個 hall 好多人，好嘈，好焗，個頭痛到爆 ! 聽完之後媽咪好灰，因為細佬的 French 程度.....>.< 媽咪好怕夜晚 drive，加上心情唔好，頻頻行錯路。我已經係一個街口前提佢要轉右，但都係 miss 左。佢亂晒大龍，我一邊要講野 comfort 佢，一邊要俾 direction 俾佢 >.< 自己的方向感都唔見得好得去邊 ~ 唉 ! 不過依家我要負起這個責任.......擔子再重還是要抖擻精神，好好揹起 ! 去入油，$0.765 ~ 夜晚 d 油係平 d ! 想 back 的時候有架車係後面，媽咪完全睇唔到囉 ~ 好彩我大叫，如果唔係............之後我俾手勢叫個司機讓一讓，佢一 d 都唔好老脾 ~ 好似想舉手指咁。唉 ~ ! 今日我自己個人都躁躁地，如果唔係有媽咪細佬係度，我已經舉手指回禮嫁喇 ! 安全番到屋企......睇妙手仁心 3 ~ 洗 strawberry 俾屋企人食。
Tired eyes
Halloween photos
自戀，其實係自卑。我估有好多人都會明白，又或者有少部份人身同感受。 我就係因為覺得自己唔靚，想人認同，想同一張張電腦美化左的相去呃自己。但到頭來我更討厭自己。 好開心有 Kenn and 身邊其他朋友話俾我聽其實我都算係一個漂亮的女生，只係無自信令到自己變得愈來愈醜。相由心生呢句話並唔係無道理嫁 ! 但我始終......始終放唔開。每日我睜開眼，看見鏡中的自己，那些遮掩不住的.........我實在想把自己痛痛快快地了結。 獻世
老師在學生的心目中總是值得尊重的。縱使人有七情六慾，會有犯錯的時候，但真的很難聯想到老師和這些罪會連在一起。sex，可以是很 pure 也可以很 dirty, nasty......
謝謝，Kenn，你成功令我拒絕了魔鬼的邀請。 >>November 11, 2006 at 1:50:08 PM GMT+8 2006 年 11 月 8 日 星期三 【晴】 尋晚 4 點幾訓到今朝 8 點醒左，之後醒下又訓下，訓到 12 點起身 ~ 食早餐之後就開始溫英文 ~ 唉 ! 淨係 the use of comma 已經煩到我傻喇 !
>>November 9, 2006 at 11:29:19 AM GMT+8 2006 年 11 月 7 日 星期二 【晴】 once again, I fought w/ the Devil in my mind; I won ! I wnet to school today, it used to be 8 : 55 ~ 10 : 40 for Maths n 11 : 40 ~ 1 : 30 for Business. However, the business class was cancelled, which meant I only have 2-hour math class for today. It was so dark in da morning n I slept so late yesterday night ( 4 : 40 am I guess) . The most important was that the Maths class was freaking boring......I nearly has completely no incentive to attend that class; anyways, I really wanna be a good student, so I finally struggled to get up w/ the help of Kenn's call, n went to school. 10 : 40 class dismissed, mum wanna go to a supermarket, so I waited in the car; so tired! Annie called but I couldn't hardly recall what she has said. Lay down on the bed as soon as I got home, Kenn said that I was a pig >..< I have been unconsious from 12 ~ 5 pm !
到底一個人，每一日入面，做左幾多件明知道係錯既事 ?
>>November 9, 2006 at 11:27:51 AM GMT+8 2006 年 11 月 6 日 星期一 【晴】 11 : 40 番學 ~ 英文堂，少少悶 la ! 講點樣寫議論文，個 teacher 教我地寫個 outline 好似差不多寫晒成篇文咁 >.< 之後做左份 evaluate 個 teacher 的 survey ~ 玩 grammar game，我地 group win 左 !^^ 落左去 administration office 果度問 gerenal education 的 options，要等 Dec 4 先知道 ! 係 cafe 同 Kenn 一邊傾電話，一邊飲 strawberry milk 當 lunch ! 傾左 1 個鐘多 d 收線。 幫細佬影印 d 琴譜，有個中國藉的 school staff 好好人 ! 幫我手縮印 ! 佢問我識唔識講國語 >.,< 我點點頭，不過佢講 d 國語勁快......最後佢都係同我講番英文 ^^ 之後上 Marketing ~ quiz ar! 之後 Annie & steven 早走，好大引誘 le ! 不過我戰勝左 Devil 的 temptation ! stay 左係學校上埋下半堂 ~ 之後媽咪車我走 ! 番到屋企 Kenn 仲未訓，佢等我電話 ! 真係曳曳 ar * 唔聽話 ~ 不過好快就乖乖地上床訓 la! 做數做到好夜 ~ 聽日番早 ar!
這個故事很 touching 雖然明知道是故意用煽情的字眼 但我還是看得眼濕濕 >>November 9, 2006 at 11:27:25 AM GMT+8 2006 年 11 月 5 日 星期日 【晴】 睇車牌 written test 本天書睇到頭暈 >..< 好彩有 Kenn 陪我睇 ~ 又解釋俾我聽 ^^
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左邊：ｈａｌｌｏｗｅｅｎ ｌｏｏｋ 右邊：正常 night make up
呢個係ｆｉｎａｌ我出街的ｌｏｏｋ（多手加多左少少綠色做下眼線）
好兇狠呢？！ 留意下，兩隻眼係化得唔對稱>.< 無計喇 ! 第一次化咁重手既妝，練下應該會好d !
>>November 8, 2006 at 12:45:44 PM GMT+8 2006 年 11 月 4 日 星期六 【晴】 Woke up @ 10......called Kenn! it has become a habit, I started to worry what gonna happen if he leave me one day. Anyways, I shouldn't think 2 much! We did crazy things again ~haha ! won't tell u guys ! He restated that he liked me w/o make up.....this really made me feel batter.....but still, I just couldn't get rid of my worries......we discovered that the way that we spoke has become more and more similar ! haha ~ this could be a result of chatting 2.5 hours a day in average.....we did some exercises together ! how? we did the same thing @ the same time law ~ I did 4 sets of sit-ups, each carry 20 crunching sit-ups! I gotta lose some weight! we slept together..... 我是幸福的小女人， 希望這種感覺繼續下去。 read Toronto star business section, it's kinda difficult for me, but then, this is already the easiest one aviable. I gotta do a 1~3 minutes presentation based on the article on this coming Thr, hopfully I will do fine. Went to Domainions to reture an item n bought some grosary items. Went home @ 5 : 30. The sky has already become so dark. Watched 獎門人 and 我和疆屍有個約會 3 ~ 訓覺有 Kenn 陪，佢仲教我點樣可以擺好 d 個 earphone 的 cord 等我可以訓得好 d ^^ 真係好細心 le ! 我仲 cap 左好多張佢的相 ~* 我唔捨得訓 ar ! 想 keep my eyes open 望住佢 ! 不過佢 tum 我訓 .....所以都好快訓左 ! >>November 6, 2006 at 2:29:33 PM GMT+8
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This eye makeup is so cool ~ but I guess my technique is not mature enough to do so.....
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