2007 年 1 月 2 日 星期二 【晴】

woke up @ 11: 30 ~ forgot that I did promiss my mum to accompany her to P mall, I just brushed my teeth & went out w/ her. Had 雲吞 & 墨丸麵 for lunch. Then went to buy salt for water softener; however, it was out of stock! shit ! so bad luck! Then went to 東東 for egg roll. The last stop is 兆豐, where my mum bought some meet, potatoes & tomatos for soup. I took a nap on the way home.

Wanna buy this color, but not this type, is sth like Dunk low.....will that be good? or 2 sharp & eye-catching?

Kenn 話想係適當的時候結婚 ~

well , 現在 ge 我不再盲目相信愛情，但還是抱有希望的。

不過還是等大家再定性 d 先決定吧 !

the feeling of 2 in 1 is really good ~*

2007 年 1 月 1 日 星期一 【晴】

2007 年

新的一年

回顧完 2006 年的「所作所為」，是時候要為 2007 年定下一些目標，為自己找回定位。老實說，浪費了這麼多年光陰，我仍是不知道自己為什麼而生存。為了自己 ? 為了家人 ? 為了男朋友 ? 為了朋友 ? 還是一個謎。

人是自私的，我有很多的願望也是和自己有關。

1 ) 唔再病。我真的很想抬起頭做人，我想找回失去的自信 !

2 ) 風平浪靜咁讀完 sem 2 & 3，maintain high GPA

3 ) summer 番 hk 的時候可以搵到 summer job

4 ) 同男朋友感情愈來愈穩定，一齊去旅行

5 ) 年尾考到 G2 車牌

昔日幼稚的夢想一點一滴地幻滅，在腦海中化成斷斷續續的殘影，有意無意地挑動著殘餘的火種。就像被人狠狠地踩熜的火種，拼命地找緊絲絲的氧氣，卻最終變得黯淡無光。人大了，思想也變得愈來愈現實。既然是沒有可能的事情，何必花盡力氣去嘗試呢？我剩下的光陰不多，真的該好好把握每分每秒。

天空之城

有愛情是永遠的嗎 ?

你相信天長地久 ?

我深信，只有在童話故事才會出現

我有預感，我將會是一個婚姻失敗的女人

我想找一個愛我，明白我的人結婚

真的能愛另一半多於自己 ? 不可能吧 !

即使能夠為對方廝守一輩子也只是因為習慣了對方的存在

人老了，不願有太大的變動而已

愛情，是包了花紙的敗絮

2006 年 12 月 31 日 星期日 【晴】

Happy New Year!!

Heavy rain outside, so I decided to stay @ home all day. Also, after yesterday's carzy shopping, I was very exhausted........I sat in front of the TV and played PS2 w/ my bro ~ we played 三國無雙, the reason why I chose this game wan't becox I liked it myself; it was becox my bf played this game, so I wanna have more connection to him and be able to communicate w/ him whem he talks abt this game ^^

Countdown and gathering.....seem not that important as they used to be when I get older. Every day is the same. Perhaps, birthday isn't that important too; but as I am still a kid ( partly la ), I want to have my best fds, and of cox, my bf w/ me on that day ~

回顧番 06 年 ~ 可以算係我最大轉變的一年。

年頭同係外國讀書的男朋友分左手

明明會考成績不俗，升番中六。但讀左 2/3 竟然退學唔讀

遊戲人間左半年，經歷左 18 歲生日。

先後交了 3 個男朋友 ( 3 個都起碼大我 7 年 ) ，第 3 個就係我 keep 到依家的男朋友

去左加拿大讀書 ~ 慢慢適應呢度的生活。

生活上比以前獨立，因為好多事 ( 無論係鎖事又或者重要的事 ) 需要自己去處理。如果我自己唔著緊，無人會幫我著緊。

學期尾有唔錯的成績 ~ 對自己總算有個交代

整年入面都俾個病折磨住我 ~ 轉左好多次藥，西醫中醫都試過‥‥但無起色而且日復日愈來愈差，自己都有點灰心 ~

男朋友今晚除夕夜去左倒數 ~ HK 12 點的時候 ~ 佢打黎俾我，等我可以陪佢渡過呢個節日 ! 番到屋企佢好乖咁打電話俾我等我唔使擔心 ^^

佢仲話會娶我 ^^ 不過我已經不再是小孩子，我唔會咁天真，咁單純，一心一意相信佢就係我將來的另一半。不過，他的說話還是令我開心和感動的 !

Some gifts from aunts & uncles

2006 年 12 月 30 日 星期六 【晴】

Shopping Day @ Vaughn Mills ( 16th & Jane )

12 : 45 aunti Rebeca came n picked up my mum & me. Went to Time square for sushi ( 金一番) personally, I think 一番 ( 富食街 ) is better then this one.

1 sth headed to Vaughan Mills ~ it tool abt 20 mins to there. Luckily, we got a space to park very quickly ! The parking lot was so packed!

Went to One's, mum wanna look for some vast, but didn't see anything she wanted. Then went to Royal xxxx, it sells some ellegent plates and cups.

Next stop is an outdoor utilities store. The selling point of the store was a big fish tank ! yes, I didn't type anything wrong, there was a big fish tank in a store ! It attracted many ppl stopped and looked at the tank ~ but I dun find it interesting.....>.<"

I was looking for a pair of walking shoes, so we went to Nike. I quite liked a pair of Nike, but dun wanna buy at once cox there might be some others better then that one.

Then we went to Reebok, I saw a classic black w/ a little bit of pink ~ It was cheaper than the one I saw in Nike. I wear size 9 / 9.5 but the largest size avialable is size 8.5 !!! shit ! My mum first said the shoes weren't her cup of tea, but after I tried them on my feet, she said they looked quite good, n asked me to get her a size 8.....finally, she bought it !!!!

Our next stop is Holt Renfrew last call.....

it was similar to HK's Land Crawford. Many brand name's there......a lot of them I haven't heard abt them, not becox of they are not famous brand name, just becox I am not a rich gal n I dun pay much attention on those brandnames. Tho they are made with high quality fibire, most of them are not my style, they're kinda old for me. Find a Marc Jacobs jacket offered w/ 80 % off !! but it's size 8 n I couldn't fit into it ! so sad ~ but it fitted my mum ! as I kept saying that she looked good in that, she started to feel n believe what I said. Finally, she bought it plus a dress as a set !! 2 pieces of Marc Jacobs only cost HKD $700 !! can u believe it? I've tried 2 skirt on, but they were both 2 big for me.......I got nth from there.........

Many ppl in CK underware, so I knew it must be on crazy sale ^^ selected items are 75 % off ~ this was a pretty good deal !! haha ~* bought a black bra and 2 microfibire bikini unders ~ total is CAD $ 38

Went to Miss Sixty afterwards, as Kenn said that he didn't like me to wear shoes with toes sticking outside, I bought a pair of 6 cm high heals, black and closed at the front. It was 50 % off ~ after discount, the final price was CAD $ 70

 See ? my legs are getting fat >.<"

The height of the black ones is slightly lower than the yellow ones that I bought in Land Crawford this summer in HK.

So happy, I got 3 items and mum got 3 also ~* Thanks anut Rebeca for driving us and paying lunch ~

2006 年 12 月 29 日 星期五 【晴】

好彩 Annie 借左 PS 2 俾我 ~ 咁我無咁耐 ~

今日係屋企打「吉野家」 ^^ 幾好玩 ar ! 我發覺我打機 ge weakness 係要唔太識控制主角行路 ~ 所以如果 d game 係唔需要 walk 2 much ~ only 左左右右前前後後，而手部的動作多 d 我反而會玩得比較好；which means, 玩賽車 game 我係死硬 ge ! 總之要用 joy stick ge game 就會玩得差 la*

天啊 ! 還番俾我 ~ 只係 1 年半之前既事.....

2006 年 12 月 28 日 星期四 【晴】

Shopping Day @ Yorkdale

尋晚 3 點幾先訓 ~ 今朝 8 am 自動起身。打俾 Kenn 但因為線路問題又唔通喇 ! Damn it !! 激死人 !! 之後 9 點佢終於打俾我 ~ chatted 左一陣。之後我去食早餐 ~ 差不多食完佢打番俾我，傾左個幾鐘。由大家都有少少沈默又變到大家都好似幾開心咁 ~ during the chat, 我打俾 Annie 問佢介唔介意改地點。原先話去 downtown 但 Kenn 怕我會凍親 ( 因為係 Queens street 會勁食西北風 )，改左去 Yorkdale。Annie 話ok ~^^ 仲 tum 掂左佢男朋友 Thomas called sick 車我地去添 !! 真係麻煩晒 ~*

1點15分我就 ready 好 la*我見佢地未黎，就打電話俾佢地 la ~ 原來佢地剛剛出門口。咁我就執好晒野，落左去練下琴咁 ~ 1 : 45 佢地黎 lu ! 我請佢地入黎坐 ~ 佢地仲好好人咁借左部 PS2 & 好多 games 俾我 ~ 真係唔知道應該點樣多謝佢地 !!! set up 完之後試玩左一陣 " my cooking " 的遊戲 ~ 好明顯我係一個打機白癡 >.<" 笑到佢地 2 個死左 !

之後行 401 ( 定係 404 呢 ? oh 唔記得左 lu ) 去 Yorkdale, traffic 有少少 slow ~ 大概 3 點 arrived. 救命 ar ! 勁難搵位 parking ~ 好彩最後都有位 ! Thomas 好勁 ar !個位咁窄都 park 到 !

先先去左 food court 醫肚 ~ 但我朝早食左野又唔係真係太 hungry ~ 所以無食野 ! 睇佢地一路食 ~ 好「煙韌」咁樣 ^^

Then 去左 Pet shop 睇狗仔，貓仔，兔仔，龍貓仔，倉鼠仔，蜥蝪仔，蛇仔 ( e琳最驚果樣 ^^ ) d 狗仔好細隻 ~ 好慘 ar ! 咁細隻就要俾人拎出黎賣 ! 有隻松鼠狗連企都未企得穩就被安排生活係 1 個玻璃箱入面 ~ 好慘 ! d 貓好 lazy ~都唔彩人 ge ~ 而且有 d 臭 ! 好似好耐都無人同佢地換過野咁 ~ poor !

Het ......( 唔識串，一間好似香港 ge Landcrawford ge 公司 ) d 野 on sales 都係.....>.<" 好 x 貴 !! 不過真係好多靚野 ~ 睇到 2 眼發光仲係咁摸人地 d fur~ 大大件 fur ~ 減左價都要 $9xxx CAD ! 玩完一大輪先知道無咩時間 left ~

之後去左 Sephora 果度玩 ~ 嘩 ! 果度簡直係女仕們的天堂 ! 好多化妝品任人玩 ~ d sales 又唔會煩你 ~ 仲有好多香水 ! 我終於知道 Kenn 口中果隻 Ralph Lauren 係有幾香 la ! 好鐘意隻味 ! 不過好乖乖咁無買到 ~ 因為我知道我一定可以 buy it @ a cheaper price !

仲有就係幫 Annie 化 smokey eyes ~ 不過可能我平時自己化得重手 la ~ 加上果度無化妝掃 provide ( only 有 d 海棉棒 ) 所以都幾難 control ~ 佢最後都係 remove 左 ~ sorry le ! 化唔到理想的效果 ~ will try it next time ^^ 係我幫佢化緊妝的時候，佢男朋友幫我拎住個袋 & jackey ，我有d唔係幾好意思添 >.<" 做男仔真係慘........

玩完一大輪 ~ 就去左 Zara, Annie 同我都有試衫 ~ 我試左 5 items, bought 左 2 items ( 2 tees ) 其實我勁想買 long sleeves 但真係睇唔 arm ~ 或者係因為 boxing week 的關係， d 減價貨好多都係 Size L >.< ! 我著 size M 嫁嘛.......而且 d 衫褲鞋裙好多都俾人推左落地，成地都係野 ......好似打完 8 號風球咁 ! 所以都無咩心機行 ~而且又好多人．．．．．

 me & Annie @ Zara

去左 H & M 買禮物俾 Steven ~ 其實揀野俾男仔真係好頭痛 ><" 希望佢鐘意喇 !! 係 H&M睇唔中野 for 自己 ~ d 款好簡單，而且又無咩 cutting ~ 唔收腰又勁長身 ~

行左 American Egal, Guess ( 好好好好多人 ar ! ), Ecko ( 8 折 wor ! 好似無減過價咁 ! ), Miss sixty ( 都無 hk d 款咁多咁靚 ge >.<" ) the Bay.......都睇唔 arm !

試左 Borjours ( 都係 Benifit 呢....死喇 ~ 又 mixed up 左呢2隻 brand ) ge concealer ~有 dd 想買但屋企果 d 又未用完好似好浪費咁 ~ 都係做一個節儉的乖乖女 ! btw, 仍然覺得自己 d 英文好差，完全同 d sales 溝通唔到.....有 d 瘀皮.........

睇 arm 左 MAC 的一支好深色 ge nail polish ~ 不過 CAD$12 ~ 計埋 tax 仲貴過 HK ! ( HK 好似賣 $ 90 only ) 所以無買 ~

7 點幾大家都累 la ~ 回程途中去 LCBO 買左支200 ml 的 Baileys ~ 我未夠19 ~ 所以 Annie 代我買。係 First Markham 食野 ~ 去左金牛苑食越南野 ~ 比我想像中好 ! cox 無我 hate 的 herbs 味 ^^ 傾下計咁就食完 la ~! 我食左好多 ar !  ( 不過仲剩底好多 >.<" 我已經好努力嫁喇 ! 而且呢個係 small size wor....咁 big size 咪....?? ) d 湯幾好飲 but 應該好多味精......

 我食完野之後 Annie 影底左我碗麵 ^^

我好低 b ~ 食完野先問佢地「咦 ~? 唔知 d 賣電話卡 ge store close 左未呢 ? 」佢地話 「如果你食野之前問的話，應該未 close .....」最後都有入去商場碰碰運氣，咁理所當然，係 close 晒 ge......only 有間零食 store & DVD store 未 close

回程的時候，Peter 打黎......無耐，一個急彎嚇到我尖叫......嚇死左電話另一端的 Peter.......小事黎姐 ^^

番到屋企我細佬竟然好乖咁無掂過部 PS2 ( 因為我寫左張 Memo 話唔准 touch ~! ) 我講低左唔准 d 乜乜乜之後就幫佢開左隻 game黎玩 ~ 覆番 Peter 電話 ~ 又打俾 Kenn 叫佢起身 ~ 打左 n 咁多次都打唔通 ! 炆死 ! 通左 ~ 又唔知點解飛左去留言.......

整好左水果俾屋企人食之後，我細佬就捉住我陪佢打 PS2 ~打到 2 點都唔肯放人 ~ 我今日行左咁多路已經好累，真係打到 hup 眼訓 ~ 最後佢 2 點半放人，不過佢又 occupy 左個 bathroom >.<"

Annie 送左個 bikini pig 的 clip 俾我 ~ 好 cute 呢 !!! BTW 今日真係麻煩晒你 and 你 bf ~^^ thx so much !

ps 今朝仲讚自己叻記得帶即影即有出去玩 ~ 點知最後無影到 >.<"

2006 年 12 月 27 日 星期三 【晴】

順利考取車牌筆試 (G1)

Headed North to Aurora to take the test. Luckily, I didn't have to wait at all. But the photo should be a disaster, as I wasn't ready yet and the flash light suddenly went on then off. I was only given 1 chance, and I couldn't even able to take a look of the pic, not until I receive my driving licence. Then I went into a room and sat down for the test. I forgot to tell the instructor ahead of time that I wanted a chinese version. She was kind and gave me a chinese one. I got 2 wrong for the knowledge part ( actually, I should only make 1 mistake, cox the other mistake I made was just becox I didn't read the question clearly >.<" ); I got perfect for the road signs part ~ anyways, I passed the test ^^

During I was taking the test, my bf called 3 times. My mum picked up the phone when it rang the 3rd time. haha ~ they haad a very shortr conversation.

Drew by my bro, spray by me ( a poor spray tho )

2006 年 12 月 26 日 星期二 【晴】

Boxing Day

尋晚 2 點上床 ~ 今朝 6 點半就自動醒左 ! 唔知點解，訓唔到。打俾 Kenn，打左 2 次俾佢都無人聽 ~ 第 3 次佢聽左，佢做緊個客，所以我叫佢放工打俾我。佢放左工之後去左 tanning ~ 佢 tan 緊的時候打俾我，不過用 bluetooth 所以聽得唔清楚 ~ 傾左陣之後叫佢 tan 完打俾我。佢一路行番屋企一路同我傾，途中買左 d野食。收線之後我去左沖涼，沖完涼佢仲未食完野 ~ 今日我同佢好似無咩野講咁，一開口就好似想嘈交咁。到底發生咩野事 ? 係我的問題嗎 ? 我淨係知道呢個 xmas 我已經想盡辦法 tum 佢開心~ 唉‥‥‥我的心力已經耗盡，真係諗唔到仲有 d 咩野可以 tum 到佢。

之後同佢搞到好唔開心.......12 pm 媽咪捉左我出去陪佢買野。先先去美心食野，我完全無胃口 ( 1 來唔開心 2 來呢排食得太多野) 自己一個人走左出去......一邊.....一邊打俾佢。打左 2 次，佢無聽到電話，之後 sent 左個 sms 俾佢。番番入 restaurant ~ 媽咪迫我食 d 野，最後食左 2 舊 potatoes and 2 隻芝士焗青口。期間， Kenn 打黎，佢解釋話唔係有心唔聽我電話，只係因為擺左係房而佢係廳果度睇緊電視。我同佢講番，話我出門口之前佢同我講野的語氣似係教訓我，鬧我果隻，所以我唔開心；而佢話番俾我聽，係因為我自己放棄自己的態度令佢唔知講咩野好，所以有ｄ炆。對不起，其實我真係放棄左自己。

陪媽咪去左 Home deopt >> WINNERS >> SEARS >> Canadian tire >> Loblaws >> 好景 ~ 媽咪係 Canadian tire 果度買唔到 on sales 果張摺臺，而我又催佢 ( 因為 Kenn 係果陣時打黎問我番屋企未 ) 結果就同媽咪鬧到好不愉快 ! 今日個人好躁底 ~ d parking lot 又無位。次次見到有位我媽咪總係唔夠人地搶 >.<" 事事都好唔順利........

Kenn 3: 30 打黎，我話就黎番屋企嫁喇 ~ 點知最後 5 點先番到 ~ 即刻打俾佢喇 ~ 但打左 30 幾次都接唔通 ! 好擔心 ~ 到依家都未搵到佢........到底發生咩野事 ? 10 pm 終於都 contact 到他了 ! a big relief !

原來打唔到長途搵 Kenn 係因為台灣地震 ~ 震死左好多隻 sever and d internet .......而我打 ge 長途電話係靠 internet ge 所以就打唔到 law ! 依家好多 hk 好多人連網都上唔到，MSN都用唔到 ~ which means 我好可能有幾日無得見 Kenn 了 ><"

我只係想過一個開心的聖誕，點解都咁難?

部電腦中 Q 左毒 !!! 中左 Spyware & Trojan ( PSW. x-Vir Trogan )~ 用 NOD 32 又整唔走，真係無佢乎 ! shit !

2006 年 12 月 25 日 星期一 【晴】

大名： elaine
電郵： [email protected]
說： 你彈這首歌..很好聽...而且你把聲也很溫柔, 很sweet...同埋你笑起黎個樣好可愛好細個^^
知道你最近好似唔係咁開心, 我知道有d野只有你自己先可以幫到你自己, 不過我都希望你有一日會好番&無事, 你要加油呀!
不知不覺都keep住睇左你日記好耐..所以每次見到你唔開心都想留個言去支持你.記著..呢個世界無野係唔可以放開...只要你同自己講, 有咩咁大不了...你要知道你身邊都有好多人好錫你ga ma...希望你快d忘記所有唔開心既事.

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首先～我要係度講聲唔好意思。因為我私自修改了你的留言。原因是‥‥‥我不希望太多人知道你留言中第一句的內容。
嗯＊其實開心同唔開心都係睇自己點樣睇。所以真係要靠自己擺脫唔開心的困境。身邊的人可以做的只是支持，但說到尾，最後還是要靠自己。我一年３６５日都好似唔開心咁，所以我都知道身邊的朋友都見怪不怪，想勸我ｔｕｍ我的都感到疲憊，失望。
你講得ａｒｍ，無野係唔可以放開。不過，明白道理和真真正正實踐出來又是２回事。世上無難事，只要有心去做一定做到。我都試過無數咁多次叫自己唔好咁在意，將自己的ｆｏｃｕｓ擺係ｄ開心既野上面；但到依家呢一刻都暫時未做得到。我會繼續嘗試～謝謝支持！

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