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2007 年 2 月 11 日 星期日 【晴】 雙喜臨門 Nana ~ Happy Birthday! ~19 yrs old~
6 months anniversary ! 一齊左半年喇 !
暫時黎講，今次係我咁大個女以來拍得最長的一次 >.<" well ~ 事先聲明，我從來都無因為自己成日拍散拖而驕傲，更加唔會引以為榮。anyways ~之後的日子會係點無人知 ~ 希望我番到 hk 的時候，佢唔會俾我嚇親喇 ......唉 ~ 好矛盾 ! 一方面又好想快 d 番 hk 見佢，另一方面又怕俾佢見到我.......就當係一種考驗 la ! 好想 post 我同佢 d 相出黎 ~ 雖然唔係影左好多，而且全部都係我係 hk 的時候影，都想公開下。不過呢，有鑑於之前我 post 我同男朋友的合照的時候，總係有 d 無聊人囉 d 相黎左改右改；討厭我，可以直接同我講，但唔好拉埋ｄ無辜既人落水！為左唔想我男朋友受到未必要的攻擊，所以還是唔 post 為妙。 >>February 12, 2007 at 2:35:07 PM GMT+8 2007 年 2 月 10 日 星期六 【晴】 2007 年 2 月 9 日 星期五 【晴】 9 : 50 arrived school......boring class. left class n sat w/ Annie. I tried to take a nap but I couldn't, perhaps the chair was too high n I couldn't sleep comfortablely. 11 : 40, accounting class was cancelled >.<" so I have another 2-hr break. Spent my time in the computer lab, went over the Economic powerpoint, as I skipped all Economic lessons this week.... 1: 30 marketing class, we went in the classroom on time. Since last time, my in-class assignment was deducted 1 mark becox of being late ><" This time, the prof. complained on another thing, she said that we didn't listen to her instruction, things supposed to be done individual but we did in as a group. Hell ! this was a group project, moreover, you didn't state that in the requirements online. Crazy ~ anyways, I won't try to mess up w/ her, cox I am trying to receive good impression from every professor, cox they will affect my chance to get the scholoship..... 3 : 15 ~ left school. On the way home, I bought a phone card.
Before I went into my home, I played with the 冰枉 which hang over the roof. 我只係勉強可以掂到最底最尖果度，諗住pak 斷佢喇 ~ 點知成條跌左落黎，插中個心口 >.<" 好彩無見血 ~ only 瘀左 ......亦都好彩唔係插中眼 / 頭 ...... Did a bit exercise w/ the bicycle machine while watching the wheel fortune. Had hotpot for dinner
天氣好 dry ~ 有少少想流鼻血的跡象。個鼻好唔舒服 le >.<" Annie 送左4 個揮春俾我 ~ 好 cute ar! 其中一個仲好 meaningful 添 ! thx so much ~
終於清晒呢個 week 要做既野 ~ 但下個 week 還有很多 assignment ~ 特別是 group project ! sigh ! 我真係好好好好好討厭 group project ~ but I gotta cope w/ it ! After all, when I move into the labour force, I gotta do what is assigned by my boss, gotta work w/ sby, even if I hate him/her. Luckily, in some class, I still got chances to have Annie and Steven in my group ~"~ 想搵一點娛樂，但我發現，原來我好似沒有什麼「興趣」。運動，彈琴，看書，看電影‥‥‥好像沒有一樣是喜歡的。什麼也提不起勁去幹，最後，我竟當下個星期的工課是「娛樂」?! 真是一個工作狂 >..<" 連我自己也給自己悶壞 ! 今日做了唯一不用花腦筋的事就係 cut 相 ~ haha 我好鐘意用電腦 mix 好多張相係埋一齊，then 晒 4 R 之後再 cut it up ~ 變成好多張細相 !
btw ，有打算，假如「果個情況」到我 19 歲生日都仲未解決到，我會放棄呢個網上世界，放棄我一直沿用的身份。可能好多人都會有同一個猜測，不過我可以話俾你地聽，哈哈 ~ 你地估錯左喇 ! >>February 12, 2007 at 1:12:08 AM GMT+8 2007 年 2 月 8 日 星期四 【晴】 Before class, chatted w/ Kenn for almost an hour via MSN, w/ webcam. Haven't seen him for a few days. I had some sort of strange feelings towards him, dun know y....he is becoming a stranger to me....somehow.....I wanna keep as close to him as possible, but why it's so difficult to accomplish? 英文 running total >> 70 % ~ letter grading : B ( 70% ~ 74 % ) GPA : 3.0 天啊 ! 我一定唔可以咁低分嫁 ! 一定唔可以，一定唔可以 ! 我已經好努力，點解仲係咁差 ? 我好討厭英文，好怕英文，但我都好俾心機去寫 essay ~ 我好怕睇英文書，我都睇 ~ 睇 text book 的時候又好留意 d grammer 同埋 sentence structure......我的分數係 below average......我好想囉 A ~ 就算無 A 都要有 B+ ( 75 % ~ 79 % ) ( GPA 3.5 ) 如果唔係我 GPA 就俾會英文拉低晒 ! 唔可以咁 !! 我要囉 scholoship ~ 呢個 semester 我要求自己 GPA 有 3.8 都唔會好過份姐 ?! 7 科要囉 3.8.......唉 ~ 唯有盡量係 d 可以死讀，靠做得多 exercise 就會高分 ge 科 ~ eg Accounting 囉A 喇 ~ 1 : 30 English class, I got my outline back w/ tones of red makrs >.<" I did very poor, obviously......I asked the prof. for more suggestions, cox today's essay MUST be based on the outline generated be4. Finally, I changed my thesis a bit and hopefully it will work.....but sadly, I couldn't finish my essay ! I only wrote 2 sentenses w/o any thinking for the conclusion! shit ! I must loss many marks on structure ! 3 : 20 Human sexuality class. Carrying a heavy soul, I walked in the classroom, sat down n watched a movie, WATER. We watched 3/4 of the movie last class, continued to watch the last 1/4. The whole file is boring but it brought ppl to rethink. Moreover, the last part is quit touching......I wanna cry, dun know whether is the sense of failure from Eng class or the file itself.
感情處於過渡期，不知道能否挨下去 ? 我每次都是沒辦法接受這種轉變，我很想要一段可以 keep 住大家都好似係第一日拍拖咁，大家會主動做 d 野 tum 對方開心‥‥‥日子耐左，d人好鐘意用「我當左你係自己人」，所以就理所當然地對另一半態度差，認為大家之間唔需要再擺門。多餘的擺門的確唔需要，但都唔應該完全唔理對方感受。換轉黎諗，你希望另一半也是這樣對你嗎 ? >>February 11, 2007 at 9:27:55 AM GMT+8 2007 年 2 月 7 日 星期三 【晴】 尋晚終於有機會和他通電話 an hr sth.....他還主動問我的身體狀況呢 ! ! 簡單的一句已經令我好開心‥‥‥終於有一晚係帶住開心咁訓。 今朝一早打黎話番大陸，講聲俾我聽費事我搵佢唔到的時候會亂諗野。keke ~ 好有交帶 ! 今日走晒所有堂 ( 其實都係 2 科姐 >.<" ) 因為上個 weekend 死都趕掂晒今日要交 ge 野 ~ so 走左堂。不過，咁 arm 佢又上左大陸，結果成日都無傾過電話 nor 玩 cam >.<" dinner 之前，出左去拎番個 blue box & 垃圾筒 ( 好大個嫁 ! 成個人都裝得落 .....好在有 wheels 可以推 ) 入 garrage ~ 出去果幾分鐘已經將我 forzen 左...... 今日的產出係半完成的 group project ~ 欠美化 ~ 和睇完 20 多頁的 marketing chp 7 .......未完成的 task 還有很多.......我相信自己未到極限 ge ! push myself some more.....then may be I will be surprised by how crazy i can be ^^ 很喜歡忙完一大輪之後，回首一看，發現自己所謂的極限又推進一步 !
攝於 : 2005 年 3 月 25 日 眼睛是懂得說話的，但不懂說謊。 昔日那份天真不再；取而代之是歲月的痕跡和生活的重擔。 >>February 9, 2007 at 12:59:49 AM GMT+8 2007 年 2 月 6 日 星期二 【晴】
>>February 8, 2007 at 12:04:06 AM GMT+8 2007 年 2 月 5 日 星期一 【晴】 Last night, slept @ 3 am....I was on the bed since 2 am, but my mind kept " generateing " horrible things....I just couldn't sleep well. When 26 Feb is approaching, closer and close, I become much more worried abt it......plz, plz give me an answer that I wannt to have.... 10 : 40 went outside to clear up the driveway, I only cleared half of it and the path lead to my home; I left the rest for my bro ^^ 11:00, went to Costco to have photos being printed out. Mum then dropped me off @ school @ 11 : 32. I printed out my Ecnomic essay outline and web and graphic design report, handed in tho they were both due on this Wed. As I decided to skip Wed classes, I gotta hand 'em in today ~ a bit relief that I have finished both of them..... 1 : 30 went home, mum bought a lot of stuff from Costco; the way from the garage to my home seemed so much longer then it used to be as I was holding whole bunch of things.... Kenn babe was out till very late....tho he didn't stay outside till late very often, I still dislike it. ai.......I shouldn't be like this, I should give him some freedom, ei? but I really dun feel good abt this....may be the problem is that, I wanna stay at home all da time, but he has fds in HK, he needs to socializ......but sth funny is that, when he needs to go to work early, he says he wanna sleep n dun wanna talk to me; however, the same situation that he needs to wake up early in the following day, he stays outside till very late. Does it make sense? Had beef for dinner ~ full !
近來天氣很冷，加上我嚴重缺乏運動，我的手指甲和腳指甲是不同色的! 證明了我的血氣很差‥‥‥我的體力應該和一個 70 歲的婆婆相若 >.<"
>>February 8, 2007 at 12:02:15 AM GMT+8 2007 年 2 月 4 日 星期日 【晴】 freaking tired as I can't do what I like, I really want a break but I know if I take a break, I will lost my motivation..... Working on the Economic essay outline, it carries 5 % of my total grade, must be very careful and put all my effort in it !
::::my lunch::: >>February 5, 2007 at 2:02:09 PM GMT+8 2007 年 2 月 3 日 星期六 【晴】 Stayed at home all day, eat sushi (left over ) for lunch. Dinner eat the same sushi again, but this time, mum COOKED the sushi ! haha ~ as she said beteria can grow in sushi easily, so she heated it >.<"strange...... Finished my report on web and graphic design .......... 媽媽好白癡咁熜左個 heat 無開番。我問佢 : 「咦 ? 點解凍左咁多 ge ? 你覺唔覺 ar? 」佢話 : 「um ~ 好似係啵 ! 啊 ! 可能係我頭先熜左個 heat 唔記得開番 」 >.<"
Amazing picture taken by my bro
2007 年 2 月 2 日 星期五 【晴】 9 : 50 arrived school, no mood..... Called bf @ 10 : 40, he was busy w/ finding mobile games again.....so I dun wanna talk to him. He called me back @ 11 : 10 ~ we chatted until 11 : 30 then I went to class.....I was tired to tell him my feelings. I didn't like to talk abt serious things when either I or he was not @ home. 11 : 40 accounting test 1 ~ I think I did quite bad..... 12 : 40 finished test, copied accounting text book, then decided to skip Marketing class.....fu*k.....I was so moody.....Thanks Steven for driving me home. 1 : 30 had lunch w/ family 2 : 00, finally got a chance to talk to him, while both of us seemed to be free. At first, I asked him to sleep, cox I knew he gotta wake up so early tomorrow; but he insisted to listen to me, as he read our private xanga and knew that I was being very depressed these days......I broke into tears and cried like hell.....I just couldn't stop myself. I said sth that I never told anybody else, he was shocked, I guessed. yea.....I am abnormal, I am crazy I am insane, I am psychotic........3:00 he slept. I knew he was tired abt my behaviour, he just couldn't find any more words to comfort me. Will he marry a psychotic gal? I dun know......
8 : 30 there was a party at my place, but it was not my idea. Actually, I HATE parties ! I hate the atmosphere that everyone talks so loud and it make me extreamely headache. I hate to pretend to be very nice and kind, with a smile always on my face to show my politeness.....I hate to serve the guests as if this is my duty. I HATE being asked abt " THAT ".....they embrrassed me!! ppl dun know they have hurt me so much when they ask me that question; when I give them an answer, they keep asking for details ! I hate that ! As to aviod the above things take place in my life, I decided not to go downstairs to eat. I love the food, but I'd rather stay in my room.....my bro was so kind and lovely, that he sent me 2 dishes of food, but only a few items in each dish >.<" haha , anyways, thanks for being so considerate.....I had some red wine, feel pretty much better.....alcholo always helps me to calm down and relax; however, I can't complete my reading on accounting, which I've planned for today >.<" BTW, red wine is really cheap here in Canada. Today, I had a California's Carbanet Sauvignon, it only costs CAD $ 14 !! It tastes pretty good !! For those produced in local, it costs even cheaper !! The reason y I pick California's one, is becox the taste will be more " fruity " ~ the same quality of wine in HK will probably cost at least $ 400 .......I will bring 2 wine w/ me when I visit HK....^^ probably one ice wine and one red wine ~
Truffels ^^ 唔好睇少佢，雖然佢個樣唔係好靚仔，但好好食嫁 !
我想快 d 搵時間去完成本小說 起碼了左一個心願先
曾日的光輝不再
一張我以前很喜歡的相 >>February 3, 2007 at 3:24:22 PM GMT+8
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